Chapter 13 Section 13

Kang Nan lit a charcoal stove in his hut, set up a pot, and was frying a dish, and the fragrance of the dish filled the whole room.He looked at Jiang Yanrong who was leaning on the chair. She was thinking about something, with a very sad expression on her face. "Come on, let me show you my cooking," Kang Nan said with a smile, "When I was in Hunan, I would cook it myself whenever there was a treat. Stir-frying is an art." Jiang Yanrong was still deep in thought, her dark eyes looked lifeless.Kang Nan walked over, propped his arm on the back of the chair, kissed her lightly on the forehead, and looked down at her: "What are you thinking?" Jiang Yanrong woke up, forced a smile, and blinked his eyes.

"Will you regret it after marrying me?" "What do you think?" "I don't know how to cook and cook, and I can't even wash a small handkerchief. You will find that I am a very incompetent and stupid wife!" "Let me serve you! You will be a very lovely little wife! Let me do everything for you, I am happy to do it, as long as it is for you!" Jiang Yanrong smiled and sighed again: "How are you preparing for the wedding? The sooner the better, I'm afraid my mother will change her mind!" "The house has been rented, and the rest of the work is to buy furniture, fill out the marriage certificate, and make clothes." "What more clothes, notarization Getting married is so easy!" Jiang Yanrong looked out the window and sighed again.Kang Nan took out the dishes and put them on the table.Looking at Jiang Yanrong.

"What's wrong?" "I'm a little sad," Jiang Yanrong said, a cloud of mist rose in his eyes. "Kangnan, will you treat me well? For you, I abandoned my family for nineteen years, severed my parents, siblings and all previous social relations. When I marry you, I will only have you!" Kang Nan held her face, looked at her pair of watery eyes, with a helpless, pitiful smile on the corner of her small mouth.He couldn't believe that this girl was finally going to belong to him, completely his.He didn't know what was in him that was worthy of her abandoning her family to run towards him. He was moved by her fiery and stubborn enthusiasm, and her silky silk-like tenacity wrapped him tightly.He kissed her tenderly. "Xiao Yanrong, please believe me." He kissed her again, "I love you," he said softly, "I love you like crazy." His lips touched her hair lightly, and she snuggled up to him like a lamb. On his chest, he could hear the beating of her heart, soft and delicate, just like her person.They cuddled for a while, and she pushed him away, cheering herself up and saying:

"Come on, let me try your fried dishes!" They began to eat, and she looked at him and smiled. "What are you laughing at?" he asked. "You'll do a lot of women's things," she said. He laughed too. "When you get married in the future, I can help you do whatever you don't want to do." She was silent for a while, frowning. "I don't know why," she said, "I'm a little terrified. I think our affairs are still changing." He was always afraid of Jiang Yanrong's "premonition". "At two o'clock this afternoon, my cousin and a best friend are coming from Tainan to help prepare for the wedding." "That friend is the Luo Yawen you mentioned?" Jiang Yanrong asked.

"Yes." Luo Yawen was Kang Nan's student when he was in the mainland, and they met in Taiwan. When Luo Yawen was poor and sick, Kang Nan helped him.He cured his tuberculosis and provided tuition to enable him to complete his university education.Therefore, Luo Yawen admires and is extremely grateful to Kang Nan. "What's your brother's name?" "Kang Ping." "Okay, I'll wait for them to come." Jiang Yanrong said. "My brother wrote to ask me to pay his respects to my sister-in-law." "Sister-in-law?" "It's you!" Jiang Yanrong suddenly blushed.After dinner, they started to plan everything for the wedding, Jiang Yanrong said:

"My parents won't be there. But I'm not of legal age yet, and my father has to sign the marriage certificate. I don't think he will sign it." "Since I have promised you to get married, I don't think there will be any embarrassment in the marriage certificate!" Kang Nan said.Jiang Yanrong looked at the sky outside the window with a worried face. "I jumped in the right eye, Lord what?" she asked. "The left eye jumps for money, the right eye jumps for disaster—" Kang Nan said, and then said: "Don't be superstitious! It doesn't make any sense at all!" However, Jiang Yanrong's uneasiness affected him.He also vaguely felt that a shadow was covering them.

At two o'clock, Luo Yawen and Kang Ping came.Kang Ping is very young, only in his twenties, handsome and beautiful, but a little shy.Luo Yawen was about thirty years old, and he seemed to be a very smart and rational man.They looked at Jiang Yanrong with a novel look, which made Jiang Yanrong blush, and Luo Yawen smiled, showing a mouthful of white teeth, giving people a sense of intimacy. "I didn't expect Miss Jiang to be so young!" he said. Jiang Yanrong's face turned even redder, and Kang Nan also felt slightly uneasy.Then they started planning their marriage, Jiang Yanrong looked extremely disturbed, sat for a while, then got up to leave.Walking out of Kangnan's room, she looked at the sky strangely, and there was a dark cloud moving in the distance. "Is it my fate?" She asked herself blankly: "I hope not! God, please forgive me!" Back home, everything was as usual, Mrs. Jiang ignored her, and Jiang Yangzhi sighed in the study.Only Jiang Yanruo greeted her and told her that Zhou Ya'an and Cheng Xinwen had come to see her and bid her farewell, and they took the overnight train to Tainan Chengda University to register.

"To two good friends," she thought. "I'm lonelier." For the next half month, everything was very peaceful.Jiang Yangzhi was buried in his writings again, and Mrs. Jiang went out all day, but was silent when she was at home.Everything was suffocatingly peaceful.Jiang Yanrong became the freest person, and no one interfered with her actions.She went to Kangnan almost every day, and she also got to know Kangping Luo Yawen well, and found that they were very approachable young people.They were actively preparing for their marriage. Kang Ping had already called her sister-in-law jokingly, and Luo Yawen often made jokes about her.Only here, she can feel a bit of joy and spring, and as soon as she returns home, her smile is frozen in the cold atmosphere.

On this day, when she came back from Kang Nan's place, Mrs. Jiang was waiting for her. "Yanrong!" she shouted. "Mom!" Jiang Yanrong walked over, sensitive enough to have a problem.She preemptively said: "We have already decided on September 15th to get married." Mrs. Jiang looked at her up and down, then said coldly: "Take back this date, I will not allow you to get married!" Like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, Jiang Yanrong was immediately stunned.She looked at Mrs. Jiang in astonishment, and felt that Mrs. Jiang had grown so tall that she was being held in her hands. She thought frightenedly that she had no strength to turn out her palm, just as Sun Wukong couldn't turn out the palm of Tathagata Buddha. Same.She whispered:

"Dad has promised!" "If you want to get married, you should get married," Mrs. Jiang said, "We can't sign, otherwise, wait until you reach the legal age before getting married. Anyway, you love each other so deeply, you don't care about waiting for more than a year, do you? Just wait! I will not interfere with your marriage, but I will never agree with your marriage, understand? Go! More than a year is not long, it is also a test for you and him, I think, you always You can't be so anxious to get married right away?" Jiang Yan looked at Mrs. Jiang, she knew that she couldn't change Mrs. Jiang's mind.Yes, more than a year is not a long time.It's just, is there something else hidden for more than a year?It's never as peaceful as it looks.But what can she do?Mrs. Jiang's will cannot be rebelled!She staggered out of the room, knowing that she had to accept this arrangement, no matter what was behind it.

When Jiang Yanrong went to see Kang Nan with the news, Kang Nan had gone to class and Luo Yawen was in his room.Jiang Yanrong told Luo Yawen that the wedding must be postponed to a year later. Luo Yawen pondered for a long time, then suddenly looked at Jiang Yanrong and said: "Miss Jiang, I have a feeling that you don't belong to Kang Nan!" Jiang Yanrong looked at him and felt that he had extraordinary wisdom and insight, and he was obviously a person who understood emotional life. "Even after a year," Luo Yawen said, "the resistance still won't decrease! Your mother will have a new way to stop it." He looked at her and sighed. "You and Kang Nan are just a pair of lovers, but not a pair of predestined people. Sometimes, we have no way to control our fate! Do you think it's right?" Jiang Yanrong sat blankly, Luo Yawen smiled and said: "Since you are not getting married, I have to rush back to Tainan." After a pause, he said again: "Miss Jiang, if I were you, I would give up!" "What do you mean?" Jiang Yanrong asked. "This wound has already been cut very deep, if we go on, we can only make it deeper." Luo Yawen said, looking at Jiang Yanrong sincerely: "Do you think you have hope to marry him?" He shook his head: "Too It's slim." Yes, it was too bleak. In the following days, Jiang Yanrong felt the bleakness of this hope even more.Mrs. Jiang's attitude suddenly changed 180 degrees. She surrounded Jiang Yanrong with infinite tenderness and maternal love. In front of Jiang Yanrong, she never mentioned Kang Nan.At the same time, following her step by step, invisibly restricted her from visiting Kangnan.She found that she was put under house arrest by her mother.After secretly meeting Kang Nan several times, Mrs. Jiang suddenly gave Jiang Yanrong an order that she was not allowed to meet Kang Nan until she turned twenty!Otherwise, Mrs. Jiang will sue Kang Nan for seducing an underage girl.Jiang Yanrong succumbed, and she hibernated at home, day by day, waiting for the arrival of twenty years old. Life became so lonely, empty and irritable, Jiang Yanrong quickly became haggard and fatigued.For her mother, she began to be full of hatred.Mrs. Jiang's senses were keen, and she immediately sensed Jiang Yanrong's hatred for her.These days, her inner struggle and pain cannot be understood by outsiders.Looking at Jiang Yanrong, a little flower that she cultivated, so immature and delicate, but it will be broken by that old fox in Kangnan, which makes her feel like going crazy.For the sake of Jiang Yanrong, no matter what, following Kang Nan will never be happy.Yan Rong is a child who loves fantasy too much, thinking that "love" is everything in life, but he doesn't know that besides love, there are so many conditions for survival!She couldn't imagine Yan Rong's life after marrying Kang Nan, under the scorn of everyone, under the oppression of poverty, accompanied by an old man who was fifty years old, what a miserable life it would be.Now she is dazzled by love, and her head is full of gorgeous dreams. Once married, under the torture of life, will she still have the mood to talk about love?Mrs. Jiang thought of herself, she married the impoverished Jiang Yangzhi for the sake of love first, and in the following twenty years of her life, she worried about the small mouths that were waiting to be fed, worried about the lack of food, and troubled about the future. Overwhelmed by endless chores... Love, where is love?However, Jiang Yanrong would not understand these words. When she said these things to Jiang Yanrong, Jiang Yanrong would only look at her with disdain, as if she was an ordinary person who was all about money!Then said in a confident voice: "Mom, as long as there is love, poverty is nothing to worry about!" Yes, as long as there is love, poverty does not matter, society's criticism does not matter, and the ridicule of relatives and friends does not matter!However, how could she understand that as time goes by, these have become the biggest factors that wear away love!When love is really worn out, the rest of the day is only poverty, loneliness, accusation, and hardship!At that time, it will be too late to take a step back!Mrs. Jiang couldn't watch Jiang Yanrong sink to that point. She knew that if Jiang Yanrong married Kang Nan, that day would definitely come!However, it was so difficult to save the child, she saw hatred in Jiang Yanrong's eyes. "I did this out of love for her, but what I got in exchange was only hatred! But, I can't let go, and I can't wait for the facts to teach her a lesson, because I am a mother!" In front of people, Mrs. Jiang appeared strong and calm, with her back After touching someone, her heart was bleeding. "In order to save Yanrong, I can do anything, even if she hates me! I only hope that after a few years, when she grows up, has experienced life, and seen enough of the world, she will understand what I have done for her. What!" She was thinking, although every time Jiang Yanrong looked at her with resentment, she felt her heart was twitched, but she still gritted her teeth to arrange everything.Sometimes, seeing Jiang Yanrong's indifferent little face, she really wanted to follow Jiang Yanrong and let her throw herself into the fire pit.However, she knew she couldn't do that, because she was a mother, and the child's life was in her hands! "Mother's love is such a strange thing, you can't help but love her!" She thought, feeling tearful.In just a few dozen days, she seemed to have aged decades.Jiang Yanrong became even paler, her face lost the smile, and her black eyes were coldly shining with hatred all day long.She became silent and negative, except leaning against the window every day, staring at the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, doing almost nothing, looking like a caged bird. "This can't be done! She will get sick!" Mrs. Jiang thought, and the mother's love stirring in her heart forced her to think of another way.She felt like a mother cat holding her kitten and not knowing where to put it safely. Not long after, Jiang Yanrong found that the house was bustling, and many of Jiang Yangzhi's students and their friends began to come and go in and out of Jiang's house in an endless stream.Both Jiang Lin and Jiang Yanruo were involved in this group of young people, and they pulled Jiang Yanrong into it. They played bridge, played games, watched movies... These young people brought laughter and a sense of youthfulness. vitality.The atmosphere in the family changed quickly, and the house was full of friends and laughter every day. Jiang Lin called the family a "youth club".Jiang Yanrong looked at these with cold eyes, and sighed in her heart: "Mom, your efforts are in vain!" However, she also laughed and laughed with these young people. She played with them, chatted with them, and even dated and danced with them.She has a self-defeating mentality, these people are chosen by the mother, well, whoever you are, play!If you can't get Kangnan, then any boy is not the same!So, on the surface, she laughed.Social engagements and appointments kept her busy.However, in the middle of the night, she lay on the bed crying, and shouted in a low voice: "Kangnan! Kangnan!" Those young people who came at the same time were the advice of relatives and friends.The uncle who once swallowed foreign fire and committed suicide brought out the love in his youth to prove that love is short and unreliable.An old aunt with old-fashioned thinking knows the righteousness, marriage should follow the orders of parents, and you must believe in the eyes of the elderly.A father's friend, who always pretended to be open-minded, actually tried to persuade Jiang Yanrong with the reason that "the age difference is too far, and the sexes cannot be reconciled", which made her blush and dumbfounded. ...Therefore, Jiang Yanrong understood that she had been surrounded by all directions.With her, little Jiang Yanrong seemed unable to break through the siege again.two months later.On this day, Kang Nan unexpectedly received a letter from Jiang Yanrong. "South: Mom is under strict surveillance, so I secretly write this letter to you!I am eager to see you. There is a small coffee shop next to the Palace Theater. Tomorrow at three o'clock in the afternoon, please wait for me in that coffee shop!I will try to get rid of the boys around me to meet you!Nan, how are you?miss you love You!miss you love You!miss you love You! Allow" At exactly three o'clock, Kangnan arrived at the cafe. It was a place where you could not see your fingers, and every seat was separated by a screen. Kangnan couldn't help but wonder how Jiang Yanrong knew such a place!At about four o'clock, Jiang Yanrong was brought to him by the waiter. Under the light, he couldn't make out her face, only her shining eyes could be seen.After the waiter left, she sat down beside him, and a scent of makeup and powder entered his nose. He stared at her closely, almost suspecting that the person beside him was not Jiang Yanrong. "Kangnan!" she said, and her little hand grabbed him. "Connan!" Like a torrent, Conan was drowned!He pulled her into his arms, searching for her lips. "No, Kangnan!" She struggled to sit up, pressed his fingers on her lips, and said in a low voice: "Kangnan, this lip has already been touched by another boy, do you still want it? Kang Nan squeezed her arm tightly, his heart convulsed. "Who?" he asked feebly. "A young man, a third-year top student in the Department of Foreign Affairs of National Chengchi University. He is very beautiful and talented. He has a beautiful singing voice and can play the piano well. His father is a professor at National Taiwan University, and his mother is from a famous family. He is an only child." Jiang Yanrong Said like memorizing a family tree. "Yeah." Kang Nan snorted, let go of Jiang Yanrong, and leaned back in the chair. "What? Are you angry?" "I have no right to be angry." Kang Nan said softly, but he was breathing heavily, like an irritated cow.He reached into his pocket to take out a cigarette. The flame of the lighter was trembling, and the smoke was trembling too, and it couldn't be lit for a long time.Jiang Yanrong took the lighter from him, held it steadily, and let him light the cigarette.The flames illuminated her face, she lightly applied makeup, her small red lips were plump and soft, her pink cheeks were delicate and delicate, and she was wearing a lake-colored shirt with a large neckline, revealing Bai Zhe's neck.Kang Nan stared at her intently, she raised her eyes, smiled slightly, and blew out the fire. "Don't you recognize me?" she asked. "Yeah." He snorted again. "You know, my mother and aunt have changed me all day long. They made me a lot of new clothes, gave me a perm, taught me how to make up, and my aunt became my dancing teacher...you know, my dancing skills now Very good! The dance the night before yesterday, I hardly missed a dance! The day before yesterday was not from Hecheng University, but a boy from National Taiwan University, and he called me 'Little Jasmine'." "Hmm." "It's easy for people to learn to be bad. Dancing, dating, and flirting with boys seem to be things that you can learn without learning." "Yeah." Jiang Yanrong was silent for a while. "Why don't you talk?" she asked. "What else is there to say?" He puffed out a big puff of smoke. Jiang Yanrong looked at him silently, and then she threw herself into his arms, her arms wrapped around his neck, and her face was pressed against his chest.She sobbed and said: "Kangnan, ah, Kangnan!" He stroked her hair, his nose sore. "I can't learn to be bad," she cried. "I always want to learn to be bad. I play with them, talk about them kissing me, and go to black cafes with them... But I still can't learn! As long as I learn If it breaks, I can forget you, but I just can't learn it!" He held her face and kissed her.His little wild goose face is as pure as a little white dove's wild goose face!No matter how she dresses up, no matter how she changes, she is still that small, pure little girl! "Yanrong, don't torture yourself, you have to wait." He said. "Wait? Wait until you marry me? Tell you, Connan, this day will never come!" "You have to have faith, don't you?" "Confidence? Confidence in whom? Fate will not spare us. Don't lie to me, Kangnan, you don't have confidence either, do you?" Yes, he doesn't have confidence either.From the very beginning, he knew that this child would not be his.However, after so long of pain, torture, struggle, and struggle, he still couldn't get her, and he couldn't help feeling a bit of resignation.In particular, he couldn't imagine her lying in another man's arms, and he felt that he was being burned madly by the flames of jealousy.This shouldn't be the feelings of a man after middle age. Why can this child penetrate his heart so deeply?Can it occupy his heart and make him convulse and tremble? "Kangnan, don't lie to me, none of us can predict what will happen one year from now, can we? Mom has a very strong personality, she won't let me go, she would rather die than let me fall into your hands ! Connan, we are hopeless!" "I don't believe it," Kang Nan said struggling, "When you turn twenty, your mother won't be able to control you. At that time, there is still hope for everything!" "Okay, Kang Nan, let's wait! It's better to have a small hope than to have no hope at all!" Jiang Yanrong sighed and rested her head on Kang Nan's shoulder.The gramophone in the cafe was playing a soft violin solo "Fantasy". Jiang Yanrong said quietly: "Fantasy, this is our portrayal. From the beginning, all we have is a dream!" They snuggled together for a while, Jiang Yanrong said: "Before five o'clock, I have to rush back. From now on, every three days, you come here to wait for me once, and I will try my best to come to see you!" In this way, every few days, they have a small meeting in this small cafe, sometimes as short as five minutes, but enough.This was enough to make Jiang Yanrong angry, and she began to have hope and confidence in the future again.She regained her laughter, became lively and cheerful, and exuded a youthful atmosphere all over her body.This aroused Mrs. Jiang's suspicion, but Jiang Yanrong was alert, and she carefully arranged every meeting so that Mrs. Jiang could not catch her.However, there are no permanent secrets in the world. On this day, when she came home, Mrs. Jiang stopped her sharply: "Yan Rong! Tell me, where do you meet Kang Nan every time?" Jiang Yanrong's heart sank into the ground, and she murmured: "No!" "No!" Mrs. Jiang said angrily: "You still say no! Mr. Hu saw you at the intersection of Yongkang Street, tell the truth, where did you meet?" Jiang Yanrong lowered her head and remained silent. "Yanrong, why are you so shameless?" Mrs. Jiang trembled with anger. "You are promising, okay? Now all of my dad's friends know that Jiang Yangzhi has a daughter who goes to the male teacher's room to throw herself into his arms! Can you save some face for mom and dad? Dad still has to be a man in this society. do you know?" Jiang Yanrong bit her lips with her teeth, and Mrs. Jiang's words hit her heart every sentence, and her face turned pale. "Well, since you broke your promise first, don't blame me for being too mean!" Mrs. Jiang said angrily, then turned and walked out of the room. Jiang Yanrong looked at her back in horror and felt dizzy. "The storm is coming again!" she thought, leaning weakly against the window. "I really want to die. What is the purpose of living?" After another three days, she ventured to the cafe to see Kang Nan, and she wanted to tell Mrs. Jiang that they had met.At the intersection, Kang Nan stopped her, his face haggard, he handed her a note in a hurry, then turned and left.She opened the note and scrawled on it: "Rong: Your mother has already sued me in the Criminal Police Corps, saying that I have endangered your family and seduced underage girls. For three days in a row, I was transferred for interrogation. One of your letters has been photographed as evidence to seduce you. Although I have a clear conscience, it is difficult to distinguish what I have done, and it is hard to predict what my fate will be! All my colleagues in the province looked sideways, and rumors spread. It is difficult to settle down, and I am afraid that we will be forced to travel far. We are surrounded by eyes and ears. After reading this note, we must tear it up to avoid future troubles. Yan Rongyan Rong, did not expect an infatuation, only to be scolded by thousands of people in the world! How many people can understand us? Yan Rong cherishes it, be patient, I still look forward to the day when you turn twenty! South" Jiang Yanrong staggered back home, fell on the bed, and covered her head with a quilt.She felt a tearing pain, throbbing from her chest to her fingertips.She could not use her thoughts, nor could she judge the situation in front of her.She slept until dinner, then got up and took a casual bite or two.Mrs. Jiang looked at her quietly. Her paleness shocked Mrs. Jiang. She couldn't help it, and Mrs. Jiang said: "Why did you eat so little?" Jiang Yanrong raised his eyes to look at Mrs. Jiang. Mrs. Jiang immediately felt that someone had whipped her suddenly, and she couldn't avoid it in a hurry.In Jiang Yanrong's eyes, she saw a kind of deep hatred and indifference, which shocked her greatly, and what was left was a feeling of embarrassment and stabbing.She was stunned, mother and daughter for nineteen years, only now did she understand how deeply they hurt each other!However, her motive is only because she loves Yanrong.After dinner, Jiang Yanrong sat under the lamp in a daze, flipping through a book of Baixiang's lyrics, vaguely recalling the situation when Kang Nan taught her to write lyrics.She muttered a few sentences that Kang Nan had filled in for her: "Although the moon moves and the stars change, don't be afraid of the clouds flying and the rain breaking. There is nothing to do with love, but just call your nickname!..." Feeling heartbroken and longing , I don't know where I am.After seeing Kang Nan's note today, she understood that they would never escape Mrs. Jiang's grasp, nor would they be able to combine again.Suddenly, the violent ringing of the doorbell interrupted her contemplation, and the sudden disturbance caused her to convulse.Then, she saw a jeep and several criminal police officers outside the door.She stood up and heard Jiang Yangzhi negotiating with the Criminal Police Office: "No, I didn't expect you to transfer my daughter, I hope she will not be interrogated!" "I'm sorry, Professor Jiang, we have to talk to Ms. Jiang, this is a routine procedure, can I ask Ms Jiang to go with us to the Criminal Police Headquarters immediately? Our captain is waiting." Jiang Yangzhi turned around helplessly Come, Jiang Yanrong has come out, she glanced at Jiang Yangzhi with a pair of cold and heartless eyes and said: "Dad, what did I do wrong? You have gone too far! You sent your own daughter to the Criminal Police Corps for trial! Dad, what is my crime? What a dramatic affair, are there any journalists?" Interview?" Jiang Yangzhi felt a little bit embarrassed. It was not his intention to report to the Criminal Police Corps. He knew that doing so would hurt both sides, but he couldn't stop the furious Mrs. Jiang.Seeing Jiang Yanrong straightening her small back, holding her head up, and following the criminal police officers into the jeep with her stubborn face full of injuries, he felt a pang in his heart. He knew that they had hurt Yanrong.Turning around, Mrs. Jiang was standing there in bewilderment. They looked at each other, and Mrs. Jiang struggled and said: "I just want to save Yanrong, I just want to save her from that devil, I want her to be happy in the future!" Jiang Yangzhi put his hand on Mrs. Jiang's shoulder, and said sympathetically and understandingly: "I know." Mrs. Jiang looked at Jiang Yangzhi. For an instant, this strong woman looked helpless. She said softly, "Will they make things difficult for Yan Rong? Yang Zhi, can you revoke this notice? "I will find a way." Jiang Yangzhi said, looking at Mrs. Jiang pityingly, surprised that she has aged so much in such a short time recently. Jiang Yanrong held her head proudly but stubbornly, followed the criminal police officers into the headquarters building, went upstairs, and she was taken to a small room.She looked around. There was a desk and two chairs in the room, but there was almost nothing else.She felt more at ease. At least, there were no reporters covering social news, nor were there many spectators crowded here.The criminal policeman who brought her said to her kindly: "You sit down first, the captain will come right away." She sat down in a chair next to the desk, looking anxiously at the few landscape pictures pressed under the glass bricks on the desk.After a while, the captain came, with a thin face, gentle and deep eyes, looking gentle.Holding a file folder, he sat down on the rattan chair in front of the desk, smiled at Jiang Yanrong, and asked politely, "Is that Miss Jiang?" Jiang Yanrong nodded. "Is Jiang Yangzhi your father?" Jiang Yanrong nodded again. "I've heard your father's speech." The captain said slowly, "It's great, it's very attractive." Jiang Yanrong didn't speak.So, the captain opened the file folder, looked at it and said, "Is Kang Nan your teacher?" "Yes." "How did I fall in love with you?" "I don't know how to say it," Jiang Yanrong evaded and turned his eyes away: "He is a good teacher, he loves me and helps me, I am grateful to him and adore him... When the love first started, we didn't pay attention, but When we found out, we were already deeply in love." She turned her head and looked directly at the captain's face: "If you want to condemn love, you should do so!" The captain stared at her deeply for a while, then smiled. "We don't judge lightly. Did you have anything to do with him?" "Why don't you find a doctor to examine me?" Jiang Yanrong said angrily. "You mean no, do you?" "Of course, he won't disrespect me like that!" The captain nodded and thought for a moment. "Did he write this?" He took out a photo of a letterhead, which was written by Kang Nan one day when he was drunk, and she put it in the notebook, so it went to his mother together with the notebook.There is a passage in it, recorded by Zhao Mengying's wife, Mrs. Guan: "You are thick and I am thick, there are so many emotions, there are many emotions, and they are as hot as fire! Take a piece of mud and squeeze it One you, mold one me, break the two of me, mix them with water, and then Squeeze a you, and make another me. I have you in my mud, and you have me in your mud.and You are born with the same quilt, and you die with the same coffin. " Jiang Yanrong nodded in acknowledgment.The captain said: "As a teacher, writing such a letter is too much, isn't it?" "Really?" Jiang Yanrong said challengingly: "If a person becomes a teacher, should he have no feelings? Moreover, when I read this letter, I didn't think of his identity as a teacher. I only regard him as a friend." She bit her lip, and added softly: "If you look for all the love letters of men and women in the world, there will be more exaggerated ones than this one, and I don't know how many there are!" The captain looked at her and shook his head: "Miss Jiang, from your appearance, you are very smart, and you have a very noble family, why did you do such a thing?" Jiang Yanrong blushed, feeling insulted. "What shameful thing have I done?" She asked angrily. "I mean your abnormal love," the team leader said gently, "You see, there is nothing to say about the personality of a person like Kang Nan, who can neither be loyal to his wife nor be content with himself. A good teacher, writing this kind of love letter to a female student who is more than 20 years younger than me... Anyone can understand what kind of person he is! And you, Miss Jiang, you come from a scholarly family, and so does your father A famous and learned professor, how could you be so confused? It’s not worth it for you to mix yourself with Kang Nan!" Jiang Yan's flushed face turned gray again, and she trembled with anger. Gritting his teeth, he said, "I can't hope that people in the world will understand our love!" "Miss Jiang," the team leader continued, "your parents brought this case to us, and we have no choice but to accept it. But, for you, it's really not good to get involved in such a dishonorable case." , you should know that I sympathize with you very much and want to help you. You are also highly educated, a female student aged eighteen or nineteen, how come you don’t know how to keep yourself clean?” Jiang Yanrong jumped up from the chair, with tears rolling in her eyes, she tried her best to hold her breath and said, "Please take me back!" The captain also stood up, looked at her with pity and said: "Miss Jiang, if you can look back in time, I believe your parents will withdraw the case. It doesn't matter if you make mistakes, as long as you can correct them, right? You have to think about your father, and his reputation cannot be dragged down by you. You are young, use your time to study as much as possible, don't fool around with this kind of dubious man..." Jiang Yanrong clenched her lips, tears burst out, she clenched her fists and said through the gaps between her teeth: "Stop talking! Please send me back!" "Okay! Go back and think about it!" The captain called someone to take her back, and when she went downstairs, two criminal policemen just happened to escort a group of stray warblers in, and those women pushed and dragged in, speaking obscene words in Taiwanese. Looking at Jiang Yanrong curiously, Jiang Yanrong felt so embarrassed that she couldn't bear it. Thinking of what the captain said, she felt that in their minds, she was not much better than these wandering warblers. Jiang Yanrong returned home and walked into the living room, where Jiang Yangzhi and Mrs. Jiang were anxiously waiting for her.She walked up to Mrs. Jiang, looked directly into Mrs. Jiang's eyes with a face full of humiliated resentment, and said softly but forcefully: "Mom, I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" After speaking, she turned around and rushed back to her room, closed the door, fell on the bed and cried bitterly.Mrs. Jiang stood there numb, Jiang Yanrong's words and expression knocked her down, she stood helplessly, so weak that she wanted to cry.She knew that she had fought a big battle with Kang Nan, and she had completely failed.She staggered back to her room, and Jiang Yanruo was doing homework on Mrs. Jiang's desk.Mrs. Jiang sat down on the edge of the bed in a daze. Jiang Yanruo ran over, put his arms around Mrs. Jiang's neck, kissed her on the cheek, and shouted sympathetically, "Oh, mom, don't be sad, mom, my sister was impulsive." Mrs. Jiang stroked Jiang Yanruo's cheek, her eyes filled with tears, and said softly, "Yanruo, you are still young, when you grow up, you will fly away from your mother and hate her!"哦，不，不！我永远是妈妈的！”江雁若喊着，紧紧的抱着母亲。 “不会的，”江太太摇摇头，眼泪滑了下来。 “没有一个孩子永远属于父母。雁若，千万不要长大！千万不要长大！” 江雁容哭累了，迷迷糊糊的睡着了。这一夜她睡得很不安宁，好几次都被噩梦惊醒，然后浑身冷汗。她注意到每次醒来，江太太的房里仍然亮着灯光，显然，江太太是彻夜未睡。她在床上辗转反侧，深深懊悔晚上说的那几句话，她明白自己已经伤透了母亲的心，这一刻，她真想扑在母亲脚前，告诉她自己是无意的。可是，倔强封住了她的嘴，终于，疲倦征服了她，她又睡着了。 早上醒来，已经日上三竿了，她起了床，雁若和江麟都上课去了，饭桌上摆着她的早餐。她整理床铺的时候，发现枕边放着一封信，她诧异的抽出信笺，竟是江太太写给她的！It says: “容容： 在你很小的时候，我们都叫你容容。那时候，你喜欢扑在我怀里撒娇，我还能清晰的记得你用那软软的童音说：'妈妈喜欢容容，容容喜欢妈妈！'曾几何时，我的小容容长大了。有了她自己的思想领域，有了她独立的意志和感情。于是，妈妈被摒绝于她的世界之外。大家也不再叫你容容，而叫你雁容，我那个小小的容容已经失去了。 今天，我又叫你容容了，因为我多么希望你还是我的小容容！事实上，我一直忽略着你在长大，在我心中，管你是十七、十八、十九、二十，你还是我的小容容，可是，你已经背弃了我！孩子，没有一个母亲不爱她的子女，这份爱是无条件的付与，永远不希望获得报酬和代价。孩子，我所做的一切，无论是对是错，全基于我爱你！小容容，如果我能洒脱到不爱你的地步，我也无需乎受这么多的折磨，或者，你也就不会恨我了。可是，我不能不爱你，就在你喊着你恨我的时候，我所看到的，依然是我那个摇摇摆摆学走路的小容！孩子，事实上，你仍在学步阶段，但你已妄想要飞了。容容，我实在不能眼看着你振起你未长成的翅膀，然后从高空里摔下来，我不能看着你受伤流血，不能看着你粉身碎骨！孩子，原谅妈妈做的一切，原谅我是因为爱你，妈妈求求你，回到妈妈的怀里来吧，你会发现这儿依然是个温馨而安全的所在。小容容，回来吧！ 所有做儿女的，总以为父母不了解他们，总以为父母是另一个时代的人，事实上，年轻一代和年老一代间的距离并不是思想和时代的问题，而是年老的一代比你们多了许多生活的经验。可是，你们不会承认这个，你们认为父母是封建、顽固，和不开明！孩子，将来，等你到了我的年龄，你就会了解我的，因为我凭经验看出你盲动会造成不幸，而你还沉溺在你的梦和幻想里。容容，别以为我没有经过十九岁，我也有过你那份热情和梦想，所以，相信我吧，我了解你。我是在帮助你，不是在陷害你！ 最近，我似乎不能和你谈话了，你早已把你的心关闭起来，我只能徘徊在你的门外。所以，我迫不得已给你写这封信，希望你能体会一个可怜的，母亲的心，有一天，你也要做母亲，那时候，你会充分了解母亲那份爱是何等强烈！ 孩子，我一生好强，从没有向人乞求过什么，但是，现在我向你乞求，回来吧！小容容！父母的手张在这儿，等着你投进来！回来吧，容容！做父母的曾经疏忽过你，冷落了你，请你给父母一个补过的机会。儿女有过失，父母是无条件原谅的，父母有过失，儿女是不是也能这样慷慨？回来吧！容容，求你！ 妈妈于深夜” 看完了信，江雁容早已泣不成声。妈妈，可怜的妈妈！她握着信纸，泪如雨下。然后，她跪了下来，把头放在床沿上，低声的说：“妈妈，我屈服了！一切由你！一切由你！”她用牙齿咬住被单，把头紧紧的埋在被单里。“妈妈哦！”她心中在叫着：“我只有听凭你了，撕碎我的心来做你孝顺的女儿！”她抬起头，仰望着窗外的青天，喃喃的，祈祷似的说：“如果真有神，请助我，请给我力量！给我力量！” 这天下午，江雁容和康南又在那小咖啡馆中见面了。她刻意的修饰了自己，淡淡的施了脂粉，穿着一套深绿色的洋装。坐在那隐蔽的屏风后面，她尽量在暗沉沉的光线下去注视他，他沉默得出奇，眼睛抑郁迷茫。好半天，他握住了她的手，才要说什么，江雁容先说了： “别担心刑警队的案子了，妈妈已经把它撤销了。” “是吗？”康南问，凝视着江雁容：“怎么这样简单就撤销了？”“妈妈总是妈妈，她不会伤害我的。”她轻轻的说，望着面前的咖啡杯子出神。她不能告诉他，今天早上，她们母女曾经谈了一个上午，哭了说，说了哭，又吻又抱。然后，江太太答应了撤销告诉，她答应了放弃康南。她咽下了喉咙口堵塞着的硬块，端起咖啡，既不加牛奶也不放糖，对着嘴灌了下去。“好苦，”她笑笑说：“但没有我的心苦！” “雁容，”康南握紧了她的手：“我要告诉你一件事，”他沉吟的看着她，终于说了出来：“我们要分离了！” 她迅速的抬起头来，直视着他。这话应该由她来说，不是由他！她嗫嚅的问：“怎么？” “省中已经把我解聘了，教育厅知道了我们的事，有不录用的谕令下来，台北已经不能容我了！” “哦！康南！”江雁容喊。多年以来，康南是各校争取的目标，学生崇拜的对象，而现在，教育厅竟革了他的职！教书是他终生的职业，学生是他生活上的快乐，这以后，叫他怎么做人呢？她惶然的喊：“康南，我害了你！” 康南握住了她的小手。“不要难过，雁容，在这世界上，只要能够得到一个你，其他还有什么关系呢！”“可是，你连我也得不到哦！”江雁容心中在喊，她已经做了允诺，想想看，经过这么久的挣扎和努力，她还是只得放弃他，她不忍将这事告诉他，泪水涌进了她的眼眶。 “不要愁，”康南继续说：“罗亚文在Ａ镇一个小小的初级中学里教书，我可以去投靠他，或者，可在那中学里谋一个教员的位置，吃饭总是没问题的。我会隐居在那里，等着你满二十岁，只是，以后的日子会很困苦，你过得惯吗？” 江雁容用手蒙住脸，心中在剧烈的绞痛，她无法压抑的哭了起来。“别哭，”康南安慰的拍着她的肩膀。“只是短暂的别离而已，以后的日子还长着呢！是吗？雁容，等你满了二十岁，你可以给我一封信，我们一起到台南去结婚，然后在乡间隐居起来，过你所希望的茅屋三间，清茶一盏，与世无争的生活。到那时候，你为我所受的一切的苦，让我慢慢的报偿你。” 江雁容哭得更厉害，她用手抓住他，把脸埋在他的胸前。 “康南，一年太长了，康南……”她绝望的摇头。 “只要有信心，是不是？”康南拍着她的手。“我对你有信心，你难道对我还没有信心吗？” “不！不！不！”江雁容心里在叫着：“我已经答应过了，我怎么办呢？”但她嘴里一个字都说不出来，只紧紧的抓着康南的衣服，小小的身子在发抖。 “雁容，相信我，并且答应我，”他用手托起江雁容的下巴，深深的注视着她的眼睛：“一年之后，到台南车站来，我等你！不要让我等得太久。雁容，记住，一年之后，你已经到了法定年龄，你可以自己做主了，那时候，我会守在台南火车站！”“哦！康南！”江雁容深吸了口气，恍恍惚惚的看着面前这张脸，她对江太太所做的允诺在她心中动摇。她闭上眼睛，语无伦次的说：“是的，一年后，或者我会去，没有法律可以限制我了，我要去！是的，你等我，我会来的。但是，但是，但是……我怎么办呢？我会去吗？我真会去吗？我……”她痛苦的把头从康南手上转开。康南感到他握的那只小手变得冰一样冷，并且寒颤着。他抓住了她的肩膀，凝视着她： “雁容，你一定会去，是不是？” “我不知道，我，我……”她咬咬牙，颤抖的端起咖啡杯，喝了一口。“假如我没有去……” 康南捏紧了她的肩膀。 “你是什么意思？”他问。 “我对未来没有信心！你知道！”她叫着说，然后，痛哭了起来。“康南，”她泣不成声的说：“我简直不知道要怎么办？我是要去的，我会去的，你等我吧！只是，假若……假若……到时候我没有去，你不要以为我变了心，我的心永远不变，只怕情势不允许我去。”康南把手从她肩膀上放下来，燃起了一支烟，猛烈的吸了两口。在烟雾和黑暗之中，他觉得江雁容的脸是那么模糊，那么遥远，好像已被隔在另一个星球里。一阵寒颤通过了他的全身，他望着她，她那泪汪汪的眼睛哀怨而无助的注视着他。他感到心中猛然掠过一阵尖锐的刺痛，拿起那支烟，他把有火的那一端揿在自己的手背上，让那个烧灼的痛苦来平定内心的情绪。江雁容扑了过来，夺去了他手里的烟，丢在地下，喊着说：“你干什么？”“这样可以舒服一些。”他闷闷的说。 江雁容拿起他那只手来，抚摸着那个灼伤的痕迹，然后用嘴唇在那个伤口上轻轻摩擦，把那只手贴在自己的面颊上。她的泪水弄痛了他的伤口，他反而觉得内心平静了一些。她轻声说：“康南，你不要走，你守住我，好吗？” “小容，”他用手指碰着她耳边细细的茸毛。“我不能不走，但，我把我的心留在你这儿。” “我可能会伤害你的心。” “你永远不会，你太善良了，太美，太好了。” “是吗？”江雁容仰视着他，“你相信我不会伤你的心吗？” “我相信！”康南说：“雁容，拿出信心来，我马上就要离开你了，我要你有信心！” “康南，”她拚命摇头。“康南！我没有办法，没有信心，命运支配着我，不是我在支配命运！”她把手握着拳。“我的力量太小了，我只是个无用的小女孩。康南，假若到时候我没有去，你就忘了我吧！忘了我！” 康南狠狠的盯着她。“你好像已经算定你不会去！” “我不知道，”江雁容无助的说。“可是，康南，我永远爱你，永远爱你。不管我在那儿，我的心永远跟着你，相信我，康南，我永不负心！我会永远怀念你，想你！那怕我做了别人的妻子，我的心还是你的！” 康南捧起了她的脸，注视着她的眼睛。 “为什么要说这种话？说起来像诀别似的！” “康南，”她闭上了眼睛：“吻我！” 他的嘴唇才碰到她的，她就用手死命的勾住了他的脖子，她的嘴唇火热的压着他的，身子紧紧的靠着他。他感到她的泪水正流到嘴边，他可以尝出那泪水的咸味。然后，她的身子蜷伏进他的怀里，她小小的头倚在他的胸口，她轻轻的啜泣着，一遍又一遍的低喊： “康南哦！康南哦！康南哦！” “容容！”他的鼻子发酸，眼睛潮湿了。“相信我，我等着你。”江雁容闭上眼睛，一串眼泪滴在他的衣服上。就这样，她一语不发的靠着。唱机里又播放起梦幻曲来，她依恋的靠紧了他。曲子完了，她的梦也该醒了。但她不想移动，生怕一移动他就永远消失了。好半天，她才颤抖着问： “几点了？”康南把打火机打亮，用来看表： “快六点了！”江雁容在打火机的光亮下注视着康南，脸上有种奇异的表情。“不要灭掉打火机，让我就这样看着你！”她说。康南让打火机亮着，也在火焰下注视江雁容，她的黑眼睛像水雾里的寒星，亮得奇异。脸上泪痕犹在，肃穆庄严，有种悲壮的、牺牲的表情，看起来凄美动人。许久许久，他们就这样彼此注视，默然不语。然后，火光微弱了，机油将尽，最后，终于熄灭了。江雁容长长的吐出一口气。 “走吧，该回去了！”他们走出咖啡馆，一阵寒风迎着他们，外面已经黑了。冬天的暮色，另有一种苍凉的味道。 “你什么时候走？”江雁容问。 “明天。”“好快！”江雁容吸了口气：“我不送你了，就今天跟你告别。”她望着他：“康南，再见了，别恨我！” “我永不会恨你。”“康南，”她吞吞吐吐的说：“多珍重，少喝点酒，也少抽点烟……”她的声音哽住了。“如果我今生真不能属于你，我们还可以有来生，是不是？” 康南的眼睛模糊了。“我等你，雁容。”他们走到宝宫戏院前面，霓虹灯闪耀着，戏院前的电影广告前面疏疏落落的有两三个人在看广告。江雁容说： “站住！康南。以前我看过一部电影，当男女主角必须分手的时候，男的停在一个商店前面，望着橱窗，女的在他后面走开了。现在，你也站着，五分钟内，不许回头，我走了！” 康南遵命站住，脸对着橱窗。江雁容轻声说： “再见，康南，再见！” 康南迅速的回过头来： “雁容！你会去的，是不是？” 江雁容默然。“我不知道，”她轻轻说：“我真的不知道。康南，回过头去，跟我说再见。”康南望了她好一会儿，把头转了过去，颤声说： “再见，小容！”他咬住牙，抵制即将涌出的泪水。“她不会去的，”他想着，定定的望着橱窗：“我永远失去她了！永远失去了！经过这么久的努力，我还是失去她了！” “再见！康南！”江雁容喊，迅速的向信义路口跑去，跑到巷口，她回过头来，康南正伫立在暮色之中，霓虹灯的光亮把他的影子投在地上，瘦瘦的，长长的，孤独的，寂寞的。“就这么永别了吗？是的，永远不会再见了！”她酸涩的想，拭去了颊上的泪痕，向前面走去。 夜来了。