Chapter 9 Section 9

The graduation exam passed like a gust of wind.Jiang Yanrong finished answering the last test paper and exhaled softly: "Goodbye! Middle school!" She whispered in her heart, this is the last test paper in middle school, she did not love middle school life, on the contrary, she cursed middle school , cursed the textbooks, and cursed the teacher.However, when she handed over the last examination paper to the podium, she felt a sense of bewilderment and panic.After graduation, the future is uncertain.After stepping out of the examination field, she stared at the dazzling sunlight in the playground in a daze.Under the shade of a tree not far away, Cheng Xinwen was gesticulating and talking about something with He Qi, when she saw Jiang Yanrong coming out, she jumped over and grabbed Jiang Yanrong's arm, shaking wildly, shouting: "What do you think? I drew the picture of paramecium into an amoeba, and made the chromatin and chromosome into one thing. The structure of the cell was drawn in a mess, and even the nucleus was forgotten. I thought I would never test fertilization, but it came out again Well, I have no choice but to not answer that question, you see, I will definitely not pass biology this time." "You broke my arm!" Jiang Yanrong said slowly, breaking away from Cheng Xinwen's grasp . "Don't worry, I guarantee you will pass, the graduation exam is like this, we won't let us not graduate!"

"But I'm sure I won't pass the exam. I don't even have 20 points." "At best, make up the exam!" Jiang Yanrong said, walking to the other side of the playground. "Hey, where are you going?" Cheng Xinwen shouted behind her. "Go upstairs and pack your schoolbag!" Jiang Yanrong said. "Hey, don't go," Cheng Xinwen caught up, took her hand and said, "Now that the exam is over, I have a lot to talk to you about." Jiang Yanrong stopped, looked into Cheng Xinwen's eyes and said: "Cheng Xinwen, I know what you want to talk about. You'd better not talk to me. If you have any guesses about me, you can guess as much as you can. I have nothing to say." She looked helpless , eyes filled with tears.

Cheng Xinwen was stunned. "Why, you...Jiang Yanrong, don't do this, I don't have any malice. Now there are so many rumors, true and false, even I am confused. I am really afraid that you will be fooled by others!" What?" Jiang Yanrong asked. "Kangnan!" "Kangnan?" "Well, I'm afraid he's a hypocrite! I'm afraid that his good teacher's appearance is all a disguise, but I don't believe he would do such a thing. Jiang Yanrong, as long as you Just tell me that Kang Nan is not in love with you, and I'm relieved." "I have nothing to say!" Jiang Yanrong said, quickly turned around and ran towards the campus.Cheng Xinwen stood there blankly, then stomped her foot bitterly.

"Kangnan, you're a bastard!" she said in a low voice, gnashing her teeth. Jiang Yanrong ran into the campus and rushed to the small bridge in the lotus pond. She leaned on the railing, bowed her head, and buried her head in her hands. "My God, what should I do?" After standing on the small bridge for 30 minutes, she found that many students walking around the campus were staring at her curiously.The lotus flowers in the lotus pond are all blooming again, red and white, standing gracefully in the pond water.She vaguely remembered when the lotus bloomed last year, one year, so fast!But this world is not the world of last year, and she is not the same as last year.Leaving the lotus pond, she walked blankly, feeling like a sleepwalker.Finally, she stopped and found herself parked at Kangnan's door.Pushing open the door, she walked in. How long has it been since she came to this room?She couldn't figure it out, since she made up her mind not to hurt Kang Nan's reputation, she hasn't come here again, at least it has been hundreds of centuries.She struggled with herself for a long time, and now, she realized that there was no way for her to escape!This period of struggle was painful, like a big war, and now, she only felt tired and helpless.

A familiar smell of cigarettes greeted her, and then she saw Kang Nan, he was lying on the bed with his clothes on, the leather shoes were not taken off, the sheets were covered with dust, his head was tilted on the pillow, and he was sleeping soundly.The room seemed to have changed a bit. She looked around the room, and the desk was piled with books, examination papers, and student yearbooks.Paper scraps and cigarette butts were scattered all over the floor, and the writing brushes were thrown under the table without a cover.This messy situation doesn't look like Kang Nan's room, where is the cleanliness and refreshment?She closed the door gently, walked over, stared at the sleeping Kang Nan, a pungent smell of alcohol rushed towards her, so she understood that he was not asleep, but drunk.His face was haggard, his thick eyebrows were slightly frowned, the arc around his mouth was deeper and clearer, and the corners of his eyes were wet. She couldn't believe that they were tears. In her mind, Kang Nan would never cry.She stood there for a while, so full of passion that she didn't want to wake him up.Under his pillow, she found a corner of a piece of paper, she pulled it out lightly, on it was Kang Nan's handwriting, messy, scribbled, vertically and horizontally all over the whole piece of paper, but only the same two sentences talk:

"Do you know? Do you know? Why does he keep smoking? Do you know?Do you know?Why does he keep drinking? " Turning over the back of the paper, she saw an unfinished letter. In fact, the letter only started at the beginning, and the last paragraph didn't even have a title. It's not so much a letter as it was written for herself. More properly, it reads: "You crashed into my life and ran away quietly. Have you already seen that this love has no future? If I could have you, I would just live in a small hut and let us enjoy this life together; The sound of insects, the sound of bamboo in front of the window, a bottle of old wine, a few stalks of pickles, Ren Yueying crushed the flower shadows..."

The letter ends here, and the following is a series of sentences with big exclamation marks: daydream!daydream!daydream!People in their forties are talking in their sleep here!Should you see how many wrinkles you have?How many gray hairs do you have? " Then, far away, there was another line of small characters: "Why doesn't she come anymore?" Jiang Yanrong shifted his gaze to Kang Nan's face and stared at him blankly.So, Kang Nan's eyes opened, he glanced at her in a trance, frowned, and closed his eyes again.Then, he opened his eyes again, focused on her, and shook his head, as if trying to shake off a phantom.Jiang Yanrong took a step closer to the front of the bed and squatted down. Her head was very close to his. She gently stroked his face with her fingers and said in a low voice:

"Thirsty? Do you want a drink?" Kang Nan sat up suddenly, because he got up too fast, he pressed his hand on his forehead in dizziness, and then looked at her without saying a word. "I'm here again, don't you welcome?" she asked, with tears in her eyes. Kang Nan pulled her up, his lips fell on her lips, his hot breath blew on her face, he held her head slightly tilted back with his hands, and kissed her violently, her The face, the nose, the lips, and her little, black-haired head.Her tears wet his lips, salty and astringent.Her eyes were closed, and her wet eyelashes fluttered slightly.He stared at her carefully, minute by inch, and then said softly:

"You lost weight, just for the exam?" She said nothing, tears rolled down her eyes. "Don't cry!" he said softly. "I worked hard for nearly a month, and the whole army was wiped out in a few minutes." She said choked up. "Little Yanrong! Little Rongrong!" he murmured. "Let's go, Kang Nan, take me away, take me away from these people!" Kang Nan stared at her sadly and asked: "Go? Where are you going?" "Go into the mountains! Go into the wilderness! Go where there are no people!" Connan smiled wryly. "Deep mountains, wilderness! Shall we become savages? Eat grass roots and bark or the meat of wild animals? Besides, is there no one in the deep mountains and wilderness?"

Jiang Yanrong's upturned face was covered with tears, she stared at his face, the two rows of black and dense eyelashes were wet, the flame of passion was burning in the black eyes, her mouth was slightly opened, showing a little helplessness And helpless.She said softly: "Then there is no escape for us." "Yes." "You really love me?" she asked. "You still have to ask!" He squeezed her arm tightly. "Do you know how much you paid for loving me? Do you know how your classmates will judge you? You know old man Cao and they will take the opportunity to attack you? You know that once the news spreads, you can't even stay in this school anymore, you Knowing that people will call you a hypocrite, a liar, a villain..."

"Stop talking," he pressed his finger to her lips. "I know, it may be worse than what you said. However, I am a villain! I am a villain if I fall in love with you." "Kangnan," she shouted in a low voice: "Kangnan, I love you, I love you You, I love you!" He hugged her again. "I want to crush you," he said, kissing her earlobe. "Make you into a one-inch tall villain and put it in my pocket. Yanrong, can I really have you?" "Let me tell you something," Jiang Yanrong said softly, "I've been committed to you for the rest of my life. If I really can't fulfill my wish, I can still die." Kang Nan's fingers almost sank into Jiang Yanrong's bones. He stared into her eyes and said sternly, "Take back your words! Tell me; no matter what blow you encounter, you will never seek death!" "Don't do that to me!" fierce," Jiang Yanrong said weakly, "If I can't be with you, isn't life more painful than death?" "Then you have to live in pain for me!" Kang Nan said stubbornly: "A woman has already died for me, and I have done enough sins in my life. If you keep talking about death, why not break up now , I want to see you live healthy and happy!" "Unless I'm by your side, I can live a healthy and happy life!" "Yan Rong," he stared at her, "I feel more and more unworthy of you!" "You say such boneless words again, which makes me wonder if you are Kang Nan!" "You are more innocent and courageous than me, you dare to love and hate, you don't care about your reputation and future, these , you are better than me! Compared with you, I am a small and humble person..." Someone knocked on the door, Kang Nan stopped talking, Jiang Yanrong quickly jumped away from Kang Nan, and sat in the chair in front of the table.The door was pushed open almost immediately, and outside the door was Cheng Xinwen, who was full of anger. She looked at Kang Nan and Jiang Yanrong sternly, and said to Jiang Yanrong coldly: "I can't find you upstairs, so I guessed You are here!" Jiang Yanrong lowered her head, unconsciously smoothing a fold of her skirt. Cheng Xinwen slammed the door shut, looked straight at Kang Nan, and said frankly: "Teacher, how can you do this? Jiang Yanrong can be your daughter!" Kang Nan didn't know what to say, he looked at Cheng Xinwen silently, this is a straightforward girl, she brought reality! Jiang Yanrong stood up suddenly. "Cheng Xinwen, let's go out and talk!" "I don't want to talk to you anymore!" Cheng Xinwen said angrily, "You have been poisoned by this person! Seeing your pitiful appearance makes me angry, you guys! What a treat!" To Biren! Jiang Yanrong, you are a big fool! Where are your brains and cleverness? Teacher, I have always admired you the most, and now I see clearly what kind of person you are!" She rushed out of the room, and Slam the door shut.For a moment, the room was filled with silence, and then, Kang Nan sat down on the bed, picked up a pencil from the table, and folded it into two pieces out of frustration.Jiang Yanrong stared at him, his face was pale and angry, the pencil quickly changed from two paragraphs to four paragraphs, and from four paragraphs to eight paragraphs. Jiang Yanrong stood up and walked quietly to Kang Nan: "Teacher, I know what I should do. Goodbye!" "What are you going to do?" Kang Nan grabbed her clothes. "I want to leave you!" Jiang Yanrong said calmly but firmly.Earning out of Kangnan's grasp, he turned and walked towards the door. "Wait a minute, Yan Rong!" Kang Nan shouted. "Teacher, goodbye!" Jiang Yanrong opened the door, and added very lightly: "I love you, I will always love you." She quickly walked out of Kangnan's room and ran towards the campus.One week after the graduation exam, the school announced the list of make-up exams, Jiang Yanrong made up mathematics and physics, and Cheng Xinwen made up biology.Another week, the graduation list was announced, and they all successfully passed the threshold of middle school.In early June, the graduation ceremony was held in the school auditorium.They entered the auditorium one file at a time. It was unusually quiet this day, contrary to the usual noise.The old instructor and the junior instructor are still guarding the two entrances of the auditorium to maintain order.The little instructor silently looked at the group of big girls who were about to leave school, nodded and smiled with each student.The old instructor was not as serious as usual, with a gentle expression on his chubby face, she was watching Cheng Xinwen who came over, how much trouble this naughty child had brought her!Cheng Xinwen stopped in front of her, and said with a smile: "Instructor, take a closer look, is my dress neat?" The instructor sized her up and said in surprise: "Well, student number, it seems to be embroidered for real!" "I embroidered it in a night drive yesterday!" Cheng Xinwen said, blushing a little. The old instructor looked at the messily embroidered student number, and felt hot in his eyes.Cheng Xinwen walked up to the little instructor again, made a face, and said in a low voice: "Instructor Li, please don't forget me during the wedding!" The little instructor blushed and cursed: "After graduation, you're still so naughty!" As she spoke, she looked at Jiang Yanrong who was walking slowly and said, "Jiang Yanrong, hurry up! Can't you run?" Jiang Yanrong returned her a quiet smile, and she froze for a moment. "If I were a male teacher, I'd fall in love with her too!" she thought, believing the recent rumors a little.The graduation ceremony is similar to the annual school opening ceremony and recess ceremony. The principal reports, the dean of students, the dean of academic affairs, the director of affairs... lectures, the teacher makes a speech... However, the order on this day is exceptionally good, and the students are all quiet Sitting without a sound.Compared with the previous school break ceremony, there is one more item, which is the farewell speech for the current students and the reply speech for the graduates.After everything was over, the solemn and mournful piano sounded, and all the students stood up, ready to sing the graduation song. Jiang Yanrong said softly to Zhou Ya'an: "I never loved my middle school life, but today I want to cry." "I feel the same way." Zhou Ya'an said, "I think middle school is still our golden age. From now on, we won't be as innocent and pure as we were in middle school." The graduation song sounded: "The green school tree, the luxuriant garden grass, the rain is like ointment, Blind date with pen and inkstone, laughing in the morning and evening, how to say goodbye to the present. There are many divergent paths in the world, the sea of ​​people is vast, and the sails are waiting for the dawn, Teach me earnestly, the south needle is holding, looking up at the teacher, the mountain is high. ..." During the singing, they looked at each other, each with tears in their eyes. After graduation, their busiest period began, and in a little over a month, it was the day of the joint exam.These students got into the books, studying desperately, preparing desperately, wishing to read all the books in the world within more than a month.Some students study at home, and some students study at school. Anyway, for a month and a half, they cannot be separated from their books, even if they are eating and going to the bathroom, they still have one volume in their hands.Jiang Yanrong locked herself in the house and also in the pile of books.Zhou Ya'an came to read with her every day.One day, Zhou Ya'an came, and they studied geography together.After studying a question, Zhou Ya'an wrote a few words on a piece of paper and handed it to Jiang Yanrong. Jiang Yanrong saw what was written on it: "Xiao Xu got engaged to that girl yesterday, isn't love ridiculous!" Jiang Yanrong raised his head and looked at Zhou Ya'an. Zhou Ya'an wrote a few more words to Jiang Yanrong, which read: "Don't talk to me, don't talk about anything now, we'll talk about it after the university exam!" Then, she looked at the textbook and said, "Tell me again, the shortened voyages of the Suez Canal and the Panama Canal." Jiang Yanrong continued to watch Zhou Ya'an, and said in a low voice: "How can you be so calm?" "I'm calm?" Zhou Ya'an threw away the book, stood up, walked around the room in a big circle, then put his hand on Jiang Yanrong's shoulder, and said with a sneer, "Jiang Yanrong, I understand that love is just a play on the occasion. There will never be true and lasting love in the world. If you are serious about love, you are the number one fool! From now on, look, I am not so stupid anymore, I have figured it out and seen it through! "You can't generalize..." "Forget it, forget it," Zhou Ya'an said angrily, "I advise you not to be serious, otherwise, you will suffer..." "Stop talking, mom is here!" Jiang Yanrong issued a warning in time.Just leaning her head on the book, Zhou Ya'an also picked up the book, and used the red pen to draw carelessly on the book.Mrs. Jiang really came, she glanced at Jiang Yanrong and Zhou Ya'an, then walked across the room to the kitchen to pour boiling water.Jiang Yanrong knew that she didn't really want to pour boiling water, but just to see if they were studying.After Mrs. Jiang poured the water, she walked across the room again.Jiang Yanrong guessed that she probably heard some of their conversations, so she wrote a few words on the paper and handed it to Zhou Ya'an: "Let's study, lest mom come around the room again!" "Your mother is so smart!" Zhou Ya'an wrote. "She was afraid that I would not be able to pass the university entrance examination. If I really failed, it would be unimaginable!" Jiang Yanrong wrote, smiling helplessly at Zhou Ya'an. This day finally came. To Jiang Yanrong, it was like a nightmare.Sitting on that hard chair, holding a pen, he concentrated on filling out his own destiny on the paper.Those classmates in white shirts and black skirts, those printed examination papers, the eyes of the invigilator, the books scattered in the corridor, the bell before and at the end of the examination, the discussion answers after each section of the examination...all of these, like Chaos, like simplicity, like blur, like clarity, anyway, it's all over at last. The morning after the college entrance examination, Jiang Yanrong woke up in the dawn.She rested her head on her hands and stared at the ceiling in a daze.She couldn't believe that preparing for the exam for so long has now become a verb in the past tense.How much struggle, how much effort, how much struggle, just to cope with these two days, and now these two days have passed.There is no need to get up early in the morning to study, and there is no need to pile up textbooks, notes, and reference materials on the desk.There is no need to think about how much homework is left unprepared... This seems to be very wonderful.She stared at the top of the tent without moving, and didn't even want to look at her watch. Time was no longer important to her.However, she was not as relaxed as expected, instead she felt empty and at a loss.For more than a month she had been absorbed in her book, and now she felt lost in a sudden relief.She turned over and buried her head in the pillow, a small voice whispered in her heart: "Kangnan, Kangnan, Kangnan!" She sat up, dressed lazily, got out of bed, washed up, and had breakfast, the little voice in her heart continued to cry: "Connan, Connan, Connan." At the breakfast table, Mrs. Jiang looked at Jiang Yanrong. For more than a month, the child had become thinner and looked light and light.His face was too pale, and his eyes appeared to be particularly dark.Mrs. Jiang said with concern: "Yan Rong, the exam is over, let's go and play with Zhou Ya'an today!" Then, she asked worriedly: "Calculate yourself, how many points are you sure to get?" "Oh, Mom," Jiang Yanrong said, "Stop talking about exams, now, I've even forgotten what questions I took!" Mrs. Jiang looked at her, and the dissatisfaction in her heart rose again. This child was not at all like Mrs. Jiang when she was young. She remembered that she had taken the exam before and always had to calculate her score in a hurry.After breakfast, Jiang Yanrong stared at the sunlight outside the window in a daze, not knowing what to do, the little voice in her heart was still shouting: "Kangnan, Kangnan, Kangnan, Kangnan!" It made her dizzy, My heart is heavy. "I have a lot of things to do," she was thinking chaotically: "I need to sort out my books, put away all the textbooks, find out some favorite poetry collections, make some clothes, and... "In the end, these chaotic thoughts merged with the small voice in her heart: "Kangnan, Kangnan, Kangnan!" She sighed, went to the porch to put on her shoes, and explained to her mother: "Mom! , I'll go find Zhou Ya'an." "Okay, it's time to relax," Mrs. Jiang said, "Will you come back for lunch?" "Not necessarily, don't wait for me!" As soon as she walked out of the gate, her will and goal were firm!She couldn't wait to walk towards the school, the small voice in her heart turned into a loud cry, she walked quickly, all her mind was focused on one longing: "Kangnan!" Walking into the school gate, the flowers on the campus nodded to her. "Long time no see!" She said in her heart, walking through the campus and through the familiar grove, she looked around blankly, it was summer vacation, and the school was so deserted!The flowers in the lotus pond are in full bloom, and there are no students on the bridge railing.She walked into the corridor of the faculty dormitory, and saw the fat dean coming out of Kangnan's room at a glance. She met the dean, she saluted, but the dean was stunned for a moment, He stared at her, nodded and walked away. "Maybe I'm here again to talk about the next semester's class schedule. I don't know which class can snatch him for the third year of high school next semester!" She thought, and stopped outside Kangnan's door.Her heart was beating violently, and the blood was concentrated in her brain, "Ah, Kangnan!" She murmured in a low voice, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and knocked on the door. The door opened immediately, Jiang Yanrong opened his eyes, and looked at Kang Nan without moving. Kang Nan's eyebrows were raised up, and his eyes were fixed on her.Then, he reached out and pulled her in, closing the door behind her.She leaned against the door, and his hand lightly fell on her head, trembling slightly, stroking her cheek.She opened her mouth and whispered three words: "How are you?" He put his hand on the door, looked at her, and said in a low voice: "Thank you for remembering me." Hearing the dissatisfaction in her words, she turned her eyes away, smiled wryly, and remained silent. "How did you go?" he asked. "Don't talk about exams!" She looked at him.His face was haggard, his cheeks were thin, but his eyes were burning and compelling.They stared at each other for a long time.Then, he put his hands on her shoulders, and she immediately fell into his arms, resting her head on his broad chest, and wrapping her arms around his waist.He stroked her short hair, like this, and stood for a while, she smiled and said: "Kangnan, we are two big fools! Now, I know, I will never be able to let myself leave you, I think No matter what I bring you, or what you bring me, I will not force myself to leave you anymore! I am ready to take any blow!" "You are a brave little thing! A contradictory little thing too !” said Kang Nan, let her sit in a chair, and poured her a cup of tea. "Wait until tomorrow, and you will make up your mind not to come to me again!" "I understand now that this kind of determination is useless. Unless there is a powerful force like spinning around, we are forced to divide us into two planets." Li, otherwise, I can't leave you." "Or, this powerful force is coming!" Kang Nan said to himself, lighting a cigarette. "What did you say?" "Nothing," Kang Nan put his hand on her hand and looked at her: "Originally, you only had three and a half pounds, but now, you don't even have three and a half pounds!" "Exams, drive late every day!" "Really?" "Also, I want to fight myself, a big war!" She looked up at him, and suddenly grabbed his hand: "Kangnan, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you so much! " Kang Nan opened his eyes and took a deep breath of cigarette.There was a gloomy expression on his face, he squeezed Jiang Yanrong's hand tightly, causing her pain.Then, he threw away her hand, stood up, walked around the room like a trapped animal, finally stood in front of Jiang Yanrong, and said, "If I were twenty years younger than now, I could come to your door every day." Go outside to guard you, if you don’t come to see me, I can break in to find you. But now, I have to sit in the room and wait, etc. I don’t know if you will show mercy one day, I don’t know if you are the next One minute, or the next minute, or will it come tomorrow? Or never? I never prayed to fate, but I pray now, to be entitled to love and be loved by you!" "Don't talk about qualifications problem, or else it’s an old problem,” Jiang Yanrong said. "You love me, miss me, that's enough!" "But don't think that I want you to come, I don't want you to come!" "How do you say it?" "If you come, we have no choice but to jump into the fire pit together. If you don't come, you and I will be saved!" "You don't want to jump into the fire pit with me?" "Okay, let's dance!" Conan held up her chin: "I have already surrendered! If I can have you, I don't want anything!" "You want more, your cigarettes and alcohol!" "If you want me to quit, I can quit too!" "I don't want you to quit," Jiang Yanrong shook his head: "I won't deprive you of your happiness!" Connan stared at her. "You'll be a very sweet little wife!" Hearing the word "little wife", Jiang Yanrong blushed.Kang Nan walked to the table, picked up a piece of paper, handed it to Jiang Yanrong and said: "Do you know? You took the exam for two days, and I also took the exam for two days!" Jiang Yanrong looked at the piece of paper. It was a timetable for the college entrance examination. Under each door, Kang Nan made a small tick with a red pen until the last door, and wrote four words at the bottom: "Consummate merit and virtue". "What is this for?" "I'm sitting here, smoking a cigarette and looking at my watch. When the time on the watch tells me that your exam is over, I will put a mark under this one. If you take one, I will Take one get out of class until the end, if you pass the exam, I will also pass it!" "You really—" Jiang Yanrong shook her head, "Stupid!" Connan's fingers slid down her nose. "Yanrong, do you really have the courage to follow me? It will take a lot of hardships. I have nothing, money, status, youth! Nothing, follow me, only hardship..." "I only want you!" Jiang Yanrong interrupted him . "You also want three thatched huts and a beautiful remote mountain!" "With you, I don't even want a hut!" "Follow me to beg for food? I will walk in front with the bowl, and you will help me beat the dog with the stick!" "Okay! It's good to travel all over the world and make a home everywhere!" "Yan Rong—you are so stupid!" They looked at each other and laughed.Jiang Yanrong walked to the window, stared blankly at the few branches of bamboo outside, then looked up at the blue sky and the floating white clouds outside the window.Said: "When I was young, my mother was busy taking care of my younger siblings, so she moved a chair by the window and let me sit on it. I would stare out the window and sit for hours." "At that time, what was going on in your little head?" Kang Nan asked. "I think about so many things, I think about how cute the window is, I wish I could become a bird and fly out of the window." She sighed: "Until now, I still have a lot of fantasies about the window. You see, the window The outside world is so big and vast, and there are my dreams and fantasies outside. You know, all "people" and "things" about people belong to the window, and there is only beauty, goodness, and nature outside the window. In the world outside the window, there is no sorrow or trouble." She leaned her head on the window sill and began to hum a nursery rhyme softly: "Look at the blue sky high, I would like to become a little bird, flap my wings and fly away, fly to the clouds and see! ..." Kang Nan walked over, stood beside her, and said with a sigh: "Then, your so-called 'outside the window' is just an illusory realm, which is beyond reach, isn't it?" "Probably," Jiang Yanrong said, turning his head and looking deeply at Kang Nan: "However, I have always been pursuing this realm." "Poor Yanrong," Kang Nan shook his head, "You may never find this realm." "Then, I will always guard the window and look out of the window." Time slipped by very quickly, and after a while, noon came.Jiang Yanrong sighed and said: "I'm leaving, and I'm going to see Zhou Ya'an." "let's go for food!" In a small restaurant near the school, they had a simple meal, and Kang Nan made an exception and did not drink.After dinner, Kang Nan sent Jiang Yanrong to the bus stop, and Jiang Yanrong said, "In the afternoon, there will definitely be many classmates who will come to see you. Being a good teacher is not easy!" "It's not a good teacher anymore!" Kang Nan laughed for a moment. "Oh, did the dean come to discuss class scheduling with you today? I saw him come out of your room!" "Class scheduling?" Kang Nan smiled. "No, he came and asked me to pack my bed." "What?" Jiang Yanrong was taken aback. "Don't be nervous, I've wanted to change my environment a long time ago, and he said it very tactfully, saying that the school may change the principal, and personnel may change...I'm not a fool, of course I understand what he means. Just go, this place is not good. To keep people, there is a place to keep people! Why must you stay in this school!" Kang Nan said pretending to be relaxed. "Then, you..." "Don't worry about these things," Kang Nan said, "The car is here, get in the car!" "But where are you going?" "Let's talk! Can you get in the car?" "I'll come back tomorrow!" Jiang Yanrong said, getting on the bus. Kangnan stood there, watched the bus go away, and asked himself in a daze: "Yes, where am I going?" He understood that this was only the first step of blowing, and there will be more blows in the future. Will follow! "When I have nowhere to go, can you really beg with me?" He asked silently in his heart, thinking of Jiang Yanrong's slender body and that light and delicate face, he felt that under her fragile appearance, there was something hidden behind her. An extremely strong heart. A week after the college entrance examination, Cheng Xinwen came to see Jiang Yanrong to watch a movie together.After they came out of the movie theater, they strolled along the street. Jiang Yanrong knew that Cheng Xinwen had a lot to say to her, so he secretly prepared to fight.Sure enough, Cheng Xinwen started, and started with a sentence: "Jiang Yanrong, what is there in Kangnan that deserves your love?" Jiang Yanrong was stunned for a moment, and Cheng Xinwen immediately went on to say: "Look, he's so much older than you..." "I don't care about his age!" "Jiang Yanrong, I think you are so stupid! Let me tell you, it is impossible for him to fall in love with you!" "Impossible?" "His feelings for you are definitely not love. You will understand after thinking about it calmly. A teenage man, well-versed in the world, will not be as emotional as a young man! He is just lonely, and you aroused his interest, this kind of emotion is not noble..." "Stop talking!" Jiang Yanrong Said, it's strange that Cheng Xinwen, who is careless, can analyze things like this. "You're afraid to listen, because I'm telling the truth." Cheng Xinwen stared closely and said, "Actually, you don't even understand yourself, and you don't have any real love for Kang Nan. You are just a temporary..."" I know what you're going to say," Jiang Yanrong interrupted her: "I was just confused for a while, wasn't I? This is not love, it's just a girl's impulse, she thinks it's love, but she doesn't know what it is Love, this man only confuses her, one day, she will find that she doesn't love him! Cheng Xinwen, is that what you want to say?" Cheng Xinwen glanced at Jiang Yanrong angrily, and said angrily: "You just need to understand! Your life is too serious, you read too many novels, and your mind is full..." "Romantic thoughts," Jiang Yanrong continued for her, and said sarcastically, "I don't have any boyfriends in my life. , so a man appeared, I thought it was a treasure, right?" Cheng Xinwen snorted through her nose, and said after a long time: "I really don't know why Kangnan has fascinated you! You only need to look at him carefully, and you will find that he is full of shortcomings. He is so sour, so moral, and so old-fashioned..." People appreciate it from different angles. Cheng Xinwen, please stop talking, I understand what you mean, if I can extricate myself, I will definitely not sink into this vortex, but now I have no choice, I have worked hard and struggled , I have fought against myself, but I can’t help it. Cheng Xinwen, you won’t understand!” Save Kangnan! You should be more sensible, even if you are really in love, but this love is enough to destroy the two of you! I went to see Kangnan yesterday, he has accepted the letter of appointment from the provincial middle school, and he will move soon Went to the provincial middle school. The whole school was full of ups and downs, saying that he was expelled from the ×× Girls’ High School because he seduced underage female students. For several years, Kang Nan was a good teacher. Li Xzhong didn’t know about it, and if he knew, he wouldn’t hire him. And you, do you know how badly your classmates have spoken about you, can you make it up? Don’t talk about these things, what do you think you have? Good result? Your mother always expects you to be a female doctor, get a Nobel prize, study abroad, or marry a young, promising and successful husband, and she will allow you to marry Kang Nan? One is married and has children的小老头？事情一闹开，你妈妈的脾气，一定会弄得满城风雨，江雁容，仔细想想看，后果如何？你父亲在学术界也是有名的人，你千万小心，弄得不好，连你父亲的名誉都要受影响！江雁容，理智一点，只要你不去找他，他是没有办法找你的，逃开这个人吧！逃开他的魔掌……” “不要这么说，你把他看成魔鬼？” “他糊涂到跟你谈恋爱的地步，他就是魔鬼！” “可是，爱情是没有罪的……” “这样的爱情就是有罪！”程心雯斩钉截铁的说。“江雁容，我和你讲这些是因为我跟你好，你不要再糊涂了，下一个决心，从今天起不要去看他！” 江雁容茫茫然的看了程心雯一眼，凄苦的摇了摇头： “程心雯，我办不到！” “你……”程心雯气得瞪大了眼睛：“简直是不可救药！” 江雁容望着地下，默默无言的咬着手指甲。程心雯看了她好一会，气呼呼的说：“好吧，我等着看你栽斤斗，等着看康南身败名裂！等着看你们这伟大的恋爱的结局！” 说完，她招手叫住一辆流动三轮车，价钱也不讲就跳上了车子，对江雁容挥挥手说： “我回家去了，再也不管你江雁容的事了！你是个大糊涂蛋！”江雁容目送程心雯走远，禁不住闭上眼睛，在路边站了几秒钟，直到有个男学生在她身边吹了一声尖锐的口哨，她才惊醒过来。转过身子，她向周雅安的家走去，她渴望能找到一个同情她，了解她的人。“我错了吗？或者，只有恋过爱的人才知道恋爱是什么！”她想。满腹凄惶无助的情绪，在周雅安门口停了下来。还没有敲门，她就听到一阵吉他的声音，其中还伴着周雅安那磁性而低柔的歌声，江雁容把背靠在墙上，先倾听她唱的歌：“寒鸦已朦胧入睡，明月高悬云外，映照幽林深处， 今宵夜色可爱！朔风如在叹息，对我额上吹袭，溪水依旧奔流，朋友，你在哪里？ ..." 江雁容伸手敲门，吉他的声音停了。开门的是周雅安自己，穿着一件宽宽大大的睡袍，拦腰系了根带子，头发用一条大手帕包着，额前拂着几绺乱发，一股慵慵懒懒的样子。江雁容到了她房里，她微微一笑说： “就猜到是你！要不要听我弹吉他？我弹一个吉普赛流浪者之歌给你听！”说着，她像个日本人似的盘膝坐在榻榻米上，抱着吉他，轻轻的弹弄了起来。江雁容坐在她对面，用手抱住膝，把下巴放在膝盖上，呆呆的听。周雅安一面弹，一面说：“看你又是一肚子心事！” “嗯，”江雁容心不在焉的应了一声，突然冒出一句话来：“周雅安，我到底该怎么办？” 周雅安望望她，笑了笑，在弦上乱拂了一阵说： “怎么办？一起玩玩，等玩厌了就分手，就是这样，什么事值得那样严重？爱情不过是个口头说说的东西而已，对它认真才是傻瓜呢！”“这是你的论调吗？”江雁容皱着眉问。 “是呀，有什么不对吗？告诉你，及时行乐才是人生最重要的，别的都去他的！世界上不会有持久的爱情，你别急，包管再过三天半，你也不会喜欢康南了！” 江雁容凝视着周雅安，后者耸了耸肩，一副满不在乎的劲儿，自管自的拨弄着琴弦，鼻子里哼着歌。 “周雅安，你变了！”江雁容说。 “是吗？”周雅安问，又笑了笑：“世界上没有不变的东西，十年后，我们还不知道变成什么样子呢！现在你在这儿为爱情烦恼，十年后，你可能有一大堆儿女。假如我们再碰到了，你会耸耸肩说：'记不记得，周雅安，我以前还和康南闹过恋爱哩！'”江雁容站了起来，生气的说： “我们现在是话不投机了！我看我还是告辞的好！” 周雅安跳起来，把吉他丢在一边，按住江雁容说： “坐下来！江雁容！”她的脸色变了，望着江雁容，叹了口长气说：“江雁容，我说真话，劝你别认真，最聪明的办法，是和康南分手！”“你现在也这样说吗？一开始，你是赞成的！” “那是那个时候，那时我没想到阻力这么多，而且那时我把爱情看得太美了。江雁容，记不记得一年前，我们在学校的荷花池边谈话，你还说爱情不会到你身上来，曾几何时，你就被爱情弄得昏头昏脑了。我觉得，走进爱情就走进了痛苦，那时候的你比现在幸福！江雁容，你曾劝我和小徐分手，当小徐折磨我的时候，你说这次恋爱只是我生命中的一小部分，并不是全部，记得吗？现在，我用你自己的话来劝你，和他分手吧，将来有一天，你会再开始一段恋爱的。” “永远不会！”江雁容说：“我这一生永不可能再爱一个人像爱他这样。”周雅安点了点头。“我了解，”她轻声说：“可是，这段恋爱会带给你什么呢？我只能劝你把恋爱看淡一点，在问题闹大以前，把这段恋爱结束吧！我听到许多人谈论你，讲得不堪入耳，至于康南，更被骂得狗血喷头。这件事你妈妈还不知道，如果她知道了，更不晓得会闹成什么样子呢！江雁容，相信我的话，只有几个月，你就会把这件事忘记了。你看，我的恋爱的梦已经醒了，你也该醒醒了！” “可是，你还在爱他，还在想他，是不是？” “不！”周雅安愤愤的说：“我只恨他！” “你恨他是因为你爱他，如果你不爱他，也不会恨他了！” “管他呢！”周雅安挑挑眉毛：“反正，我的恋爱已经结束了，你如果为大局着想，也该快刀斩乱麻，及时自拔！” 江雁容呆望着榻榻米上的吉他，一句话也不说，过了好半天，周雅安问：“你在想什么？”“我在想，只有一个办法可以让我解脱。” “什么办法？”“死！”“别胡说了！”周雅安望了她一眼：“等进了大学，新的一段生活开始了……”“大学！”江雁容叫：“大学还是未知数呢！” 她站起身，走到窗前，窗外，夜色十分美好，月光正洒在大地上。周雅安又在拨弄着琴弦低唱了：“我从何处来，没有人知道！我往何处去，没有人明了。” “一首好歌！”她想。望着月光发愣。