Chapter 8 Section 8

The winter vacation came quietly, and passed quietly again.For senior high school students, this winter vacation is in name only. They still go to school to make up lessons, they still go home in the evening, and they still have a mountain of homework.Supplementary textbooks for various subjects have been issued one after another. For English alone, five different textbooks are required, plus handouts.Other homework is not done with just one textbook. Every student's schoolbag is too heavy to carry, and this homework is so heavy that they can't breathe.A new semester has started again. In other words, in three more months, they will have passed the threshold of middle school, and in five months, they will take the joint examination for entering university.The students were generally emaciated, and their pale complexions and sleep-deprived eyes spoke volumes about their lives.However, teachers will not relax them because they cannot bear the burden, nor will parents relax them because they are thin, and they will not relax themselves.The doors of the university are open, but only one in ten students can get in.In this world, there is competition everywhere, and you can only win if you are strong.The superior wins the inferior and loses, which has become an unchanging law in the era when humans were still apes.

Spring in Taiwan comes very early, and the rhododendrons on the campus are in full bloom.By the lotus pond and rockery, there are red and white everywhere.Facing the mild sunshine, a few roses that had just bloomed lazily opened their petals.Taiwan's specialty hibiscus blooms in all seasons, probably because it's spring, and it seems to be extraordinarily gorgeous; bright red, pink, white, and yellow are all over every corner of the campus. The long stamens sway back and forth in the breeze.The scent of gardenias can float up to the roof of the third floor, circling alluringly around the girls who are buried in their books, as if they are shouting: "Did you know? Spring is here! Did you know? Spring is here!"

Jiang Yanrong raised his head from an unsolvable algebra problem, took a deep breath and said, "Well, it smells so good! Gardenia!" Cheng Xinwen sat on the table, with a foreign geography book on her lap, her feet on the chair, her chin resting on her hands, and she looked helplessly at the geography book on her lap.Hearing Jiang Yanrong's words, she also shrugged her nose: "Well, it's gardenia, there is a gardenia tree just outside our window on the third floor." Ye Xiaozhen looked up from her English book: "Is it gardenias? It smells a bit like magnolias."

"Deaf nose!" Cheng Xinwen scolded, "The scents of gardenia and magnolia are completely different!" She and Ye Xiaozhen were about to argue when they met. "Nose can't be described as deaf," Ye Xiaozhen protested, "Jiang Yanrong, right?" Jiang Yanrong stretched her waist and asked Cheng Xinwen: "How long is the class?" "Forty minutes." Cheng Xinwen looked at her watch.This is the time for the noon break. "I want to walk, my spine is numb from sitting." Jiang Yanrong stood up. "If you don't feel the spine, it won't go numb." Ye Xiaozhen said.

"You have already decided to take the exam for group B and not biology. You don't have to study biology like this," Cheng Xinwen said. Jiang Yanrong walked towards the door of the classroom. "Hey, Jiang Yanrong," Ye Xiaozhen shouted, "If you are stealing flowers, help me pick a rose!" "She is not stealing flowers," Cheng Xinwen shrugged: "She is going to chat with Kang Nan! " "Why does she always go to Kangnan's place?" Ye Xiaozhen asked in a low voice. "Birds of a feather flock together! This is another biological problem!" Cheng Xinwen said, using a red pen to outline a woman's head on the geography book, and then carefully draw the hair, eyes, nose, and mouth, plus the original three on this page. A person's head, almost none of the printed handwriting can be read.Jiang Yanrong turned back, walked to Cheng Xinwen and Ye Xiaozhen, said with a smile: "Go to the door and have a look, the one-fifty-cent hat has been taken off!"

"Really?" Like big news, three or four classmates rushed to the door to see the young bald teacher.The unlucky teacher was coming down the corridor, and along the way, the heads of the students peeped out of the windows like spring dolls in a toy box. If "eyes" can make people grow hair, probably his Baldness has long since grown black hair.Jiang Yanrong went downstairs, stopped in the campus, and picked two white roses and one gardenia.She walked to Kangnan's door, knocked on the door, opened it and walked in.Kang Nan was sitting at the desk thinking, the room was full of smoke, and the ashtray on the table was full of cigarette butts. "Bring a bit of spring to your room!" Jiang Yanrong said with a smile, walked over, put a gardenia and a rose in a teacup on the table, took the remaining rose in her hand and said: " I have to take this branch to Ye Xiaozhen." She looked at Kang Nan, then at the ashtray and the student's exercise book on the table.She flipped through the few books on the surface, and said, "No one has been changed! It's been several days since you handed it in, and you're getting lazy!" She smelled the roses in her hand, and looked at Kang Nan again: "You Do you like roses or gardenias? Huh?" Kang Nan snorted casually, but didn't speak.Jiang Yanrong leaned on the table and stretched. "I've been exhausted for the past two days. I took the exams one after another, and I always have insomnia at night, and my energy is not good during the day! Hey, did you see the Chinese quiz paper yesterday? How much do I score?" Kang Nan shook his head. "Haven't you watched it yet?" Jiang Yanrong asked.

"Hmm." "Look, I said you're getting lazy! In the past, you always noticed it the next day in the exam!" She looked at Kang Nan with a smile, and pouted: "Yesterday's analytic geometry I failed the exam again. If I have one-tenth of my sister's mathematical brains, I will be satisfied. God doesn't know how to make people. There are people as smart as my sister and people as stupid as me. How strange to be born of the same parents!" Kang Nan looked out of the window, frowned slightly, and remained silent.Jiang Yanrong smiled again and said, "I'll tell you something, the little guy who was waiting for me under the telegraph pole somehow figured out my name and wrote a letter to the school. The dean called me the day before yesterday. , taught me a big lesson, why middle school students shouldn’t have boyfriends, can’t pretend to boys, it’s really wronged, I never paid attention to that little thing, our dean of students also likes to be busy with nothing What a fuss!" She paused, Kang Nan was still silent, Jiang Yanrong looked at him strangely, feeling something was wrong, she walked over and said: "What's going on? Why don't you speak?" "I don't know what to say What!" Connan said, his voice was cold.Taking out a cigarette, he turned on the lighter, the flame of the lighter was trembling, and when the cigarette was lit, he blew out the flame.Jiang Yanrong opened his eyes wide, looked at him silently, and asked:

"Did I offend you?" "No." Kang Nan said, still cold. Jiang Yanrong stood there, staring at him blankly.Kang Nan leaned back in the chair, staring at the bamboo shadow on the window glass, blowing smoke rings to himself.Jiang Yanrong felt the embarrassment of being left out.She tried her best to think about how she had offended him, but she couldn't think of a clue, so she suppressed herself reluctantly, and said patiently: "Okay, what's the matter with you? Is it because I haven't come to you for several days? You know, I have to avoid suspicion. I'm afraid they will be suspicious. Girls have bad mouths. I have no choice!"

Kang Nan was still breathing out smoke, but it was fast and urgent. "Why on earth are you?" Jiang Yanrong said, her voice trembling slightly, trying to hold back the tears that were about to rise in her eyes: "Don't show me face, my mother has been troubling me every day these days, I've had enough of it! I don't need to be angry with you!" "That's the same sentence!" Kang Nan raised his head and said, "You don't need to be angry with me, go away, get out of this room, and don't come back again in the future!" He puffed out smoke.Jiang Yanrong bit her lip and stood there.Then, tears rolled down her cheeks, she stomped her feet, and said bitterly:

"Okay, I'll go! I won't come here again!" She walked towards the door, holding the door handle with her hand, looking for a handkerchief in her pocket to wipe her tears, but she couldn't find it.She wiped her cheeks with the back of her hand, and was about to turn the handle of the door when Kangnan handed over a handkerchief. She took it, wiped away her tears, turned around suddenly, and said to Kangnan, "If you don't want me to come again, You can tell me directly, don't show me face, I'm not that cheap, and I don't have to rely on it!" Kang Nan looked at her, his teary eyes looked at him pitifully, his beautiful lips It was tightly closed in aggrieved manner, with disappointment, sadness, and stubbornness on its pale face.He turned his head, trying not to look at her, but he couldn't.With a sigh, his reserve and determination completely collapsed, he took her hand off the door handle and said softly: "Yanrong, what can I do?"

Jiang Yanrong looked at him hesitantly, and asked: "What do you mean?" "Yan Rong," Kang Nan said with difficulty: "I want you to leave me! You must leave me! Your life has just begun, and I can't harm you. Yan Rong, don't come again, if If you come, I can't help myself not to love you! However, it will definitely be a tragedy to develop like this, Yan Rong, the best way is to stop here!" "What are you afraid of?" Jiang Yanrong said: "Teacher, you are fearless in my heart!" "I have always been fearless," Kang Nan said, "But now I am afraid, and my fear will kill you." You!" "Why did you harm me?" Jiang Yanrong said, "It's an old question again, your age, isn't it? Teacher," she looked at him enthusiastically, her tears were not yet dry, her eyes were still watery. "I don't care about your age, I don't care about your age, what I like is you, it has nothing to do with your age!" "It's related!" Connan held her arm, asked her to sit down in the chair, sat on the opposite side of her, looked into her eyes and said, "It's related, you should take care of it, I'd rather You are more than 20 years older. I was married and had children. But you are only 18 years old, beautiful and intelligent, as pure as a little white dove. You can find a partner who is a hundred times or a thousand times stronger than me If I hold you back, I won’t love you but hurt you..." "Teacher," Jiang Yanrong interrupted him impatiently: "Why are you so vulgar and sophisticated! You measure love with worldly eyes, teacher, you Look down on me!" "Yes, I am worldly and vulgar. Yanrong, you are too young, things in the world are not so simple, you don't understand. There are not only two of us in this world, we Living in the crowd, you have to be concerned about other people's opinions. I never dare to hope that one day you will become my wife!" Jiang Yanrong looked at him suspiciously, and then said: "I want to ask you something!" "What?" "You," she bit her lip, "do you really love me? Or, just, just interested in me?" Kang Nan stood up and walked to Beside the table, he was smoking a cigarette deeply, the smoke enveloped him, his eyes were dim and hazy. "I wish I was only interested in you, and I would rather you were only interested in me. Then, let's play around and play together. In the future, we will break up without harm and go our separate ways. But I know it's not like that. The thing is, we are not that kind of people, one day, we will cause a big tragedy!" "As long as you are sincere to me," Jiang Yanrong said, "I don't care about everything! Teacher, if you love me, don't try to get rid of me! I don't care about your age, whether you have been married or not, whether you have Don't care about anything, kid!" "But, others will take care of it! Your parents will take care of it, and public opinion will take care of it. There are still many obstacles ahead." "I know," Jiang Yanrong said firmly. "My parents will take care of it and oppose it, but I have the courage to deal with this difficulty. Don't you have the courage?" Looking at Jiang Yanrong's passionate eyes, Kang Nan smiled wryly. "You are entitled to have courage, but I am not entitled to have no courage." "How do you say that?" "I understand myself, I'm not good enough for you!" Jiang Yanrong looked at Kang Nan and said: "If you didn't say that on purpose, you would have made me doubt my opinion of you. I thought you were firm and conceited, not so timid and scrupled!" Kang Nan put out the cigarette butt in his hand, walked up to Jiang Yanrong, squatted at Jiang Yanrong's feet, and held her hand. "Yanrong, why do you love me? Where do you love me?" "I love you," Jiang Yanrong said with a dreamy smile on his face. "Because you are Kang Nan, not someone else!" Kang Nan stared at her, his young face was delicate and beautiful, and his smile was soft and trusting.There was pure passion in that pair of eyes.He felt his emotions agitated, moved and affectionate together, combined with her strong attraction to him, they merged into a frenzied current.He stood up and pulled her into his arms, sliding his lips from her cheek to hers and staying there.Her thin arms were tightly wrapped around his neck. He let her go, her face was flushed and her eyes were drunk.He called her softly: "Little Jiang Yanrong!" "Don't call me that," Jiang Yanrong said, "When I was young, everyone called me Rongrong, but no one calls me that anymore, but I still like being called Rongrong." "Little Rongrong!" he called, lovingly and tenderly. Jiang Yanrong lowered her head, a little shy.Kang Nan sat down in front of her, asked her to sit down too, then took her hand and said solemnly: "I really don't deserve your attention, but if you are not afraid of all resistance and have the courage to deal with future problems, I am not afraid either! You still need to work hard in your future! Are you really courageous?" "I have! What about you?" "Me too!" He squeezed her hand tightly. "Now, you are really like Kang Nan." Jiang Yanrong said with a smile: "Don't vomit me like you did just now, I'm most afraid that others will get angry with me for no reason." "I apologize, okay?" "If you really loved me, you wouldn't want me to leave you." "I don't want you to leave me. On the contrary, I want you so much more than I want anything else. If I am twenty years younger than now, I will pursue you desperately. If the whole world is against me If I get you, I will declare war on the whole world, and I will run away with you! But, now that I am so much older than you, I am really afraid that I cannot give you happiness." "You love me is my happiness." "Little Yanrong," Kang Nan said with a sigh, "You are so pure and young. There are many things you cannot understand. There is more than love in marriage." "With you, I have the whole world." He held her chin up with his hand, her face was covered with a layer of happiness, and she stared at him trustingly, Kang Nan sighed again: "Yan Rong, Xiao Yan Rong, you know how much I love you You, I love you so much. I am no longer a good teacher, I can’t change my notebook, I can’t do everything, your face is always spinning in front of my eyes. For the future, I am eager and afraid. I have lived forty-four In 2010, I have never been as vulnerable as I have recently. Xiao Rongrong, it will be five years after you graduate from college. We have to wait for these five years. After five years, I will be older than now." "If I don't pass the exam What about university?" "You will pass the exam, you should pass the exam. Yanrong, when you enter the university and are surrounded by a group of young boys, will you forget me?" "Teacher!" Jiang Yanrong said with a bit of anger: "How do you value me? And do you think there are no young boys surrounding me now? The student from the attached middle school waited for me under the telephone pole for a year, and a father's The students ran to the house every night to help me copy the new English words, and a son of the uncle gave me a love letter in the novel... Don't think that I chose you because I have no friends, you underestimated yourself and me !" "Okay, Yan Rong, let us spend these five years well. After five years, are you really willing to be with me? Are you afraid that others will scold you and call you a fool for living with such an old man?" Are you old?" Jiang Yanrong asked, a smile flew to the corner of his mouth, and his eyes looked at him vividly. "Am I not old?" "Oh, well, if you are an old man, I just like you, how about it?" Jiang Yanrong's smile deepened.The corners of her mouth were turned up, showing a bit of childish naughtiness. Here, Kang Nan could see the lively side of her personality. "Five years later, my beard has reached my chest," Connan said. "That's not pretty," Jiang Yanrong shook her short-haired head, frowning deliberately. "I want you to shave it!" "My hair is gray too..." "I dyed my hair white to accompany you!" Kang Nan felt the corners of his eyes moist, and her smile could not infect him.He squeezed her hand tightly and said, "Your parents won't let you?" "I will convince them that for my happiness they should agree." "They will think that following me is not happiness." "It's my business, of course I think happiness is happiness!" "What if I bully you, beat you, scold you?" "Would you?" she asked, then laughed, "You won't!" The class number rang, Jiang Yanrong jumped up from the chair, looked at his watch, sighed and said, "I've been here for forty minutes, it seems like only five minutes, and it's time for another class. The first class in the afternoon is physics. The second section is history, and the third section is self-study class, but I have to make up an algebra section. Alas, there are too many homework!" She walked to the door, and Kang Nan asked: "When will you come again?" "Never come, come You'll make people look bad!" "Didn't I apologize?" Jiang Yanrong pursed her lips and smiled, waved her hand and said: "Goodbye, teacher, hurry up and correct the notebook!" She quickly disappeared outside the door. Kang Nan watched her small shadow disappear in the corridor and closed the door. He turned around and saw a white rose on the ground. It was Jiang Yanrong who was going to take it back to Ye Xiaozhen, but it fell to the ground at some point up.Kang Nan picked it up and sat down in front of the desk. The roses and gardenias in the teacup on the desk exuded a strong fragrance. He also inserted the branch in his hand into the teacup.Jiang Yanrong left, and the hut became so empty and lonely again. Kang Nan took out the lighter and the cigarette, lit the cigarette, and sprayed smoke rings, big smoke rings, small smoke rings, and different Formed smoke rings.Loneliness, yes, for so many years, he has deliberately ignored his loneliness, but now, after Jiang Yanrong brought the breath of spring, and then retreated quietly, he felt lonely, how much he would like Jiang Yanrong to sit forever Opposite him, staring at him with her passionate eyes.Jiang Yanrong, how young this little child is!How innocent!After the age of forty, he has been in the society for so many years, so he should be very mature and prudent, but he was deeply moved by this innocent child, and he couldn't explain how he had such strong feelings.After taking a puff of cigarette, he said to himself: "Kangnan, what are you doing? She is too good, you can't destroy her!" He took another puff of cigarette: "You are sure you can give her happiness Is it? Five years later, she is only twenty-three years old, and you are nearly fifty, there are too many contradictions! Possessing her can only harm her, you should leave her, otherwise, you will destroy her!" He stared gloomyly at the flames on the cigarette butt. "What a passionate child, her feelings are so strong and so fragile, it may be too late now, you shouldn't let the feelings happen." He stood up, threw the cigarette butt away bitterly, and said loudly: "But I love you Her!" The voice startled him.He folded back into the chair and sat down, leaning back in the chair, lost in thought.From his shirt pocket, he took out an old photo of a woman with big eyes, a thin chin, and long cloud-like hair.Staring at the picture, he said softly, "How did this happen? Ruosu, I thought I would never fall in love again in this life." The big eyes in the photo looked at him quietly, and he turned his head away. "You died for me," he thought silently. "But I fell in love with another girl. What kind of person am I? But I have to love her." He stood up again, pacing back and forth in the room. "I hardly know myself these days," he thought, pacing restlessly from one end of the room to the other. "Yanrong, I can't have you, I dare not have you, I'm not worthy of you! You should have a young and beautiful husband, a group of lively and lovely children, and you shouldn't be with an old man like me! You shouldn't! You don't know, you're too good, and I can't hurt you if I love you!" He stopped, facing a mirror hanging on the wash stand, and the mirror reflected a wrinkled face and a troubled look s eyes. The exams in the second month have passed, and the weather is gradually getting hotter. The climate in Taiwan is just like the early spring, and the summer comes very early.Mrs. Jiang urges Yan Rong to study hard every day. Seeing that the college entrance examination is getting closer day by day, she has no confidence in Yan Rong's college entrance examination. She can't wait to study and take the exam for her.Among the colleagues who lived in this alley, children from four families were all taking college entrance examinations this year. She was really afraid that Yan Rong would fail the exam and let others laugh at her mother who was so strong in every way.She said to Yan Rong every day: "You must never lose to others. Look, Mrs. Xu plays cards all day long and stays on the mahjong table from morning to night, but her daughter is recommended to National Taiwan University. I gave up everything for you children and stayed on the mahjong table all day long. Looking after you, helping you, I dare not ask you to do housework, I just hope that you will not fall behind, I really can't say that I am not a good mother, you must give me a sigh of relief!" When Jiang Yanrong heard this, she always sighed secretly. The fear of not being able to pass the college entrance examination oppressed her. She felt like she was carrying a heavy burden and was overwhelmed.At home, she always felt melancholy and heavy, the scar on her sister's forehead oppressing her.I haven't spoken to my brother for several months, and my brother is looking for her anytime, which is also oppressing her.Since the last incident, her father has been very kind to her and often deliberately made her laugh, but she felt alienated and unfamiliar with him.Her mother's urging oppressed her even more, as soon as she lost her mind, her mother's voice floated over immediately. "Yanrong, why are you in a daze? How can you be admitted to university after studying like this?" Go to college, go to college, go to college!She hasn't taken the exam yet, and she is already full of hatred for the college entrance exam.She felt that her mother was always spying on her. One day, Mrs. Jiang saw her scribbling on a book, so she walked over and said sternly: "Yanrong, what's the matter with you recently? You're always distracted! Do you have a boyfriend? Don't lie to me!" "No!" Jiang Yanrong said in a panic, her heart beating violently. "Tell you, you are never allowed to make friends when you are studying. You are good-looking and talented. Don't belittle yourself! You finish college well, and find a way to go abroad to study for a master's or doctor's degree. You can find a friend when you have fame and knowledge. Object, marriage is a sacrifice for a woman, not happiness. You are easily moved, please remember my words. It is best for a woman not to be married, like the headmaster of a female high school, it is only without marriage that she can have her current status. It’s ruined. If you really want to get married, you have to wait a little later, and carefully choose someone who has a promising career.” “I’m not going to get married, so what does mom say?” Jiang Yanrong said with a blushing face, biting her pencil nervously. Eraser head.While secretly looking at Mrs. Jiang, why would she say these things?Did she already suspect it? "I'm just talking about it casually. I'm most afraid that your two daughters will follow in my footsteps and get married at a young age, get a lot of children, and ruin all futures! Nothing will be achieved in the end!" "Mom is not Is it good too?" Jiang Yanrong said: "This family is the achievement of mother, and father's career is also the achievement of mother..." "Don't attribute your father's career to me!" Mrs. Jiang said angrily, "I don't want to take this kind of credit! Family, how did I ever make this family better? My children are not as good as other people's children. There are more problems than anyone else's family! A father can break his daughter's head, and a sister can not talk to her brother for years, like enemies. I have suffered more than other mothers, but I have failed more than other mothers! Family, huh !" Mrs. Jiang said angrily, her eyes widening. "But, you have a group of children who love you, and a husband who loves you, isn't it also very happy to live in love?" Jiang Yanrong said weakly, feeling that her mother was too strong, especially her words were stinging, The implication is that she has failed her mother, and therefore feels piercingly sad. "Hmph, Yanrong, you are too young, you will understand in the future, love is unreliable, do you think your father loves me? If he loves me, he will leave me at home to wait for him, he will play chess until the end Come back in the middle of the night? If he loves me, when I am too busy, he will not help at all. Instead, he will rush to eat and complain that the food is not good? You have seen that when I was sick, my father comforted me and served me. Me? No matter how sick I am, he still goes out to play chess! Or he loves me, but he loves me for himself, because it is inconvenient for him to lose me, not for the sake of loving me! These, you Those who are children will not understand. As for the love of children, it is even more unreliable. When the wings of children grow, they will fly at any time. I will fly away from my parents, and one day you will also fly away from Flying by my side, the love of children is the most unreliable kind of love in the world. And, just take the present as an example, why do you love me? You only think about how your parents should treat you, and you have never thought about what to do How did you treat your parents? You once spread rumors that I abused you!" "I didn't!" Jiang Yanrong jumped up and said. "No?" Mrs. Jiang smiled coldly. "What's written in your diary? Didn't you blame your parents for treating you badly?" Jiang Yanrong's heart skipped a beat, diary!The diary for Kang Nan to read!She never thought that this book would fall into the hands of her mother, and she couldn't help but secretly rejoice that she had destroyed the letter Kang Nan had put in the diary.She stared blankly at the textbook in front of her, and felt her mother's fineness and power. She remembered that the diary was hidden behind the bookshelf, but her mother would search for it. Then, it might be difficult to keep the matter between her and Kang Nan a secret. up. "Yanrong," Mrs. Jiang said, "study. Let me tell you, there is only one kind of love in the world that is the most reliable, and that is the love of a mother for her children. Don't blame your parents for treating you badly, first think about whether you treat yourself poorly." Hello parents. In the previous society, children had to observe their parents' words and deeds, but in today's society, parents should observe their children's words and demeanors. This may be the progress of the times! However, I don't want you to be filial to me, I only want you to be successful! Now, be good Let's study! Don't be in a daze, don't think wildly, and concentrate!" Jiang Yanrong returned to the textbook, Mrs. Jiang looked at Jiang Yanrong silently for a while, and then walked out of Jiang Yanrong's room.Yan Ruo is doing homework on the table in the living room, Yuanyuan's face is flushed, the radio is on, she is listening to radio novels and doing math exercises at the same time, she has the ability to listen to all radio novels, and do the exercises one by one good.Mrs. Jiang gave her a loving look and thought: "If I have any hope in the future, it will all depend on this child! Apart from her, I can only rely on myself!" She went to her room, spread out the drawing paper on the desk, and remembered the set of preparations before painting. At work, you need to wash pens, wash bowls, adjust colors, cut drawing paper, grind ink, and look at your watch. In half an hour, it’s time to cook. It’s time to get into the kitchen just after finishing the preparations.She sat down at the table disappointedly, sighed and said: "Home! Happy home! For it you must be without yourself!" Soon after the second monthly exam, rumors began to spread among the classmates.Jiang Yanrong became the target of everyone's attention, and behind Kang Nan there were already pointing talkers.This rumor is like a fire, once it is ignited, it has the potential to start a prairie fire.Jiang Yanrong had already heard some gossip, and she felt a little scared and uneasy, but she said to herself: "What should come will definitely come, and when it comes, you have to stand upright and bear it. Who told you to fall in love with him? You have to do it for this." Pay the price for this love!" She really straightened her spine, ready to bear any blow that came her way.One day at noon, she returned to the classroom from No. 1, and when she reached the door, she heard Cheng Xinwen's hearty voice, angrily saying: "I don't believe these nonsense, Hu Meiwen, did you see it with your own eyes? Don't talk nonsense! Kang Nan is not this kind of person. He has been teaching in our school for five years. It is not good to pursue female students five years ago Pursue, wait until you are old to pursue? This is all created by others to slander him because they are jealous of his reputation. Seduce female students! This kind of talk is so ugly, it must be a rumor made by old man Cao, he hates Kang Nan, What can't be said?" Jiang Yanrong stopped outside the door when she heard Cheng Xinwen's voice, she wanted to hear more.Then, Hu Meiwen's voice sounded: "Everyone knows that Kang Nan prefers Jiang Yanrong. The one who wrote poems and inscriptions in her notebook, does it treat other students like this? Why does Jiang Yanrong always go to Kangnan? Why does Kangnan always look at Jiang Yanrong in class? Anyway, There are no waves without wind, and things are not simple!" "Nonsense!" Cheng Xinwen said: "Everyone knows Kang Nan's loftiness, maybe he is a little partial to Jiang Yanrong, but it is definitely not what the legend says! His wife jumped into the river for him Everyone knows about his wife's refusal to continue. If he forgets about his wife who died for him and pursues a student who can be his daughter, then he will lose his personality, and Jiang Yanrong will not love such an inhumane person. People of conscience. Because Jiang Yanrong often goes to Kangnan, they are arranged to fall in love. Then, He Qi also often goes to Kangnan, Ye Xiaozhen also goes, and I go too. Is it true that we all fall in love with Kangnan? Nonsense! Boring!" "Hmph, you don't know," Hu Meiwen said, "Have you noticed the way Kang Nan looks at Jiang Yanrong, that kind of eyes?" "Forget it!" Cheng Xinwen interrupted her and said, "I haven't studied eyesight, so I can't see any difference, unlike you who are an expert in eyesight for lovers!" "Cheng Xinwen, what are you talking about?" Hu Meiwen said angrily: "I just said that Kang Nan is not a good person, he just has no personality, and Jiang Yanrong is not a good person..." "Forget it, forget it," this is He Qi's voice: "Why hurt your peace because of other people's affairs? Jiang Yanrong is very good, I like Jiang Yanrong, it's best not to scold Jiang Yanrong! There is no evidence for this kind of thing, so don't talk about it it is good!" "There's no evidence, just wait and see!" Hu Meiwen said angrily. "I don't believe it either," said Ye Xiaozhen's voice, "Kang Nan is a good teacher, he would never be so shameless!" "Why don't you arrest Jiang Yanrong and interrogate her to see if she dares to swear... "Hu Meiwen said angrily. "Shh! Stop talking!" A classmate who was sitting by the door suddenly spotted Jiang Yanrong who was standing blankly at the door, and quickly issued a warning to those students who were arguing, so everyone fell silent. When Jiang Yanrong walked into the classroom, the students all looked sideways at her.She sat down in her seat, not daring to look at Cheng Xinwen who was blushing because of her dispute.She sat blankly, her mind was in chaos, she didn't know what to do, and she didn't know what to do, the words just heard were like a thunderstorm, which made her dizzy.Especially "Kangnan's loftiness is known to everyone... If he forgets the wife who died for him, and pursues a student who can be his daughter, then he will lose his personality!" "Kangnan is a good teacher , will never be so shameless!" "Kang Nan is not a good person, he just has no personality, and Jiang Yanrong is not a good thing either!" These words were like sharp swords, piercing her heart.This is something she never thought of before, she never knew that if Kang Nan loved her, he would be "inhuman", "heartless", and "shameless"!I never knew that if I fell in love with Kang Nan, it was "not a good thing".Yes, she has been thinking too simply, thinking that "love" is just a matter between her and Kangnan, she has ignored that there are so many people in the world, and she has also ignored that both herself and Kangnan are living among these people !Kang Nan, he has always been an idol worshiped by the students. Now, she has seen this idol shaken in the hearts of the students. If they really know the truth of the matter, this idol should fall to the ground and be trampled by them! "Connan is right, we'd better stop here." She thought bitterly. "Otherwise, I will destroy his reputation and everything, as well as myself!" There seemed to be a picture in front of her, her parents were scolding her, friends spurned her, strangers talked about her... "I I don't even care," she thought, "but I can't let others scold him!" She looked at the blackboard blankly, wandering like drifting on the dark sea. That evening, on Luoxia Road, Zhou Yaan said: "Jiang Yanrong, you can't go to Kangnan's place anymore. The situation is very bad. It seems that no one will sympathize with your relationship." "Is this love sinful? Why can't I love him? Why can't he love me?" Jiang Yanrong said sadly. “我不懂这些，或者你们是不应该恋爱……”“现在你也说不应该！”江雁容生气的说：“可是，爱是不管该不该的，发生了就没办法阻遏，如果不该就可以不爱，你也能够不爱小徐了！”“好了，别和我生气，”周雅安说：“不过，这样的爱结局是怎样呢？”江雁容不说话了，半天之后才咬咬牙说： “我不顾一切压力。”“可是，别人骂他没人格，你也不管吗？” 江雁容又沉默了，周雅安说： “我还要告诉你一件事，今天我到江乃那儿去交代数本，正好一块五毛也在那儿谈天，好像也是在谈康南，我只听到一块五毛说：'现在的时代也怪，居然有女孩子会爱他！'江乃说：'假如一个老谋深算的人要骗取一个少女的爱情是很容易的！'我进去了，他们就都不说了。江雁容，目前你必须避开这些流言，等到考完大学后再从长计划，否则，对你对他，都是大不利！”“我知道，”江雁容轻声说，手臂吊在周雅安的胳膊上，声音是无力的。“我早就知道，他对我只是一个影子，虚无缥缈的影子，我们是不会有好结局的，我命中注定是要到这世界上来串演一幕悲剧！他说得对，我们最好是悬崖勒马！” 落日照着她，她眼睛里闪着一抹奇异的光，小小的脸严肃而悲壮。周雅安望着她，觉得她有份怪异的美，周雅安感到困惑，不能了解江雁容，更不能了解她那奇异的神情。