Chapter 61 Chapter Twenty Eight

I slowly opened my eyes, and at the entrance, Imperial Physician He frowned and said: "This, I can't predict this." Yinzhen frowned and glanced at me. Looking at me steadily, I forced a smile and wanted to raise my arms, but there was no strength at all. His eyes were gradually filled with pain, watching me walk to the bed step by step, sitting beside me, pulling me up, holding me in his arms, stroking my long hair very gently: "You finally woke up, You've finally woken up." The maids and eunuchs in the room tiptoed out one after another, and I pressed against his chest without saying a word for a long time.

Yinzhen glanced at Imperial Physician He who was still standing beside him and said, "But there is a doctor's order?" After a long while, Imperial Physician He got up and said, "Your Majesty, Your Majesty is very weak, and the fetus may be unstable. You need to stay in bed for two months, and you can only get out of bed when the fetus is stable." Yinzhen's tense face eased a little, his hands in his sleeves held mine tightly, and he stared at me with warmth in his eyes. I was out of energy, and my eyes were a little blurred. I seemed to see the white shirt again in a daze. A girl like a fairy, she still smiled and called "Er Niang", I was full of joy and opened my hands to her, but she disappeared slowly again, I panicked, and came back to my senses with an "ah" .

Yinzhen looked at me worriedly, I smiled weakly, he shook his head, and said softly: "Take a good rest, I will order you to go down and recuperate your body." He got up and walked out, followed by Imperial Physician He go. Since then, I have been staying in the pavilion to recuperate my body. It is strange to say that after I regained my vitality, the girl in white shirt never appeared again. Every time I have this kind of thought, I can't help mocking myself in my heart, were you really an intellectual woman in the 21st century? On this day, Yinzhen was still busy in the palace with the affairs of the Northwest Army and horses. After dinner, I dismissed all the people who were waiting on me.Pull out the paper, unfold it, press the four corners, meditate for a while, and start drawing with a brush.Contour, face shape... and finally the eyebrows.

A delicate little girl appeared on the paper, put down the pen, stood silently in front of the table, staring intently, with a smile on the corner of her mouth. With a soft snort behind me, I turned around, and he shook his head and said, "What should I do with you, the imperial doctor ordered you to stay in bed for two months, and it's only been half a month." I smiled and said, "Lying on the couch all day, People are all stiff. I just copy posts, draw pictures, and exercise my muscles." He came over, put his arms around my waist, and said with a smile: "There are always so many reasons, but this time, you won't draw me as a fisherman with a spear again." He swept the table With a glance, she questioned: "The skin of the girl in the painting is like snow, like the untouched fairy Lingbo who is about to leave with the wind, who is it, and why have I never been blown by the wind?"

I leaned on his shoulder with a smile and said, "Look carefully." He looked carefully for a while, put his hands on my belly, and said with a smile, "I hope you can have a baby as you wish." Although he knew that he hoped Or I hope it will be of no avail, and I can't decide, but my heart is still warm, and I nodded with a smile. He embraced me and walked to the side of the couch, pulled away the thin quilt, I lay on the inside, he lay down and stretched out his arms, I pursed my lips and smiled at him, moved over and pillowed on his shoulder, the two of them lay silently.After a long while, he still didn't make a sound. I was puzzled and turned to look at him. His eyes were staring straight at the ceiling, wondering what he was thinking.

I was silent for a while, drowsiness hit, my mind gradually blurred, he suddenly said: "Ruoxi, can't you untie your knot, really don't want to say it?" I woke up instantly, can I say it?As Lu Lanxi said, in this time and space we are all like monsters, can I bear him looking at me strangely. I bit my lower lip lightly and said nothing.He sighed softly, turned around and looked at me, and said: "The wound on your mouth is just right, so just don't want to talk about it." I closed my eyes, and he said again: "Do you know that I hear your terrified screams every night? , I feel so uncomfortable, what is the incomprehensible thing in your heart that keeps nightmares every night. "

I hesitated for a while, and moved closer to him, with my face nestled against his chest, silent. He sighed softly: "Every time I ask about this, you always answer me with silence." Smell, after a while, he asked: "Asleep?" I closed my eyes and tried to keep my breathing even.He sighed inaudibly, put his hands on my waist, and stopped talking. I don't know how long it took, and it seemed that he was fast asleep. I gently pulled his hand away, sat up carefully, leaned my back against the wall, and stared at him silently. In his sleep, his brows were unfurled and his thin lips were tightly pursed. I stretched out my hand to smooth the slight sorrow on his forehead, but when my hand reached mid-air, it fell down again. Is it enough to just smooth it?Is this the root of the problem? Whether you say it or not, if you say it, you may not be able to let go of it, and it will only increase his troubles.At this moment, it is only his own pain. If he knows that all of this is related to me, will he feel even more guilty towards Thirteen.

Lying on my lap, I thought for a long time, "Say, don't say" lingered in my mind, unable to go away. A bird chirping, accompanied by the sound of 'Pu Leng Leng' flying, I regained my senses leisurely, raised my head, the morning light was beginning to appear outside the window, I hurriedly lay down gently, and Gao Wuyong's voice came from outside the door: "Your Majesty, It's morning time." A slight voice came from behind, I hurriedly closed my eyes, he covered me with a thin quilt, lay on the bed and opened the door, Xu Shi Gao Wuyong came in and waited for him to dress and wash, after a while, the two went out one after another.

Before the sound of closing the door fell, I opened my eyes, but I still didn't feel sleepy.Eyes wide open, staring at the top of the tent, lying silently on the bed. The cheerful birdsong broke the silence in the pavilion, and the sun came in through the window.I got up and went to bed, and Ju Xiang had come in with a basin of water to wipe my face and hands. I had no sleep all night, but my mind was still very clear.After I picked up the bowl and rinsed my mouth, I asked Ju Xiang casually: "Has Ge Ge woke up?" Ju Xiang replied with a smile: "I heard from Hongyu that Ge Ge wakes up early these days and went out for a walk."

I was slightly stunned, feeling unwell these days, and somewhat neglected her.Ama and Erniang passed away one after another. Can she really bear this blow?Although Yinzhen said that Cheng Huan has recovered a lot since Shisan's funeral was over, but he is still faintly worried.Since the child returned to live in the mansion, I have become more and more unable to guess her thoughts. After a simple freshen up, I walked out of the door and walked to the Chenghuan room in the outer courtyard.Juxiang behind said anxiously: "Niangniang, you can't go out." Without turning my head, I said, "I'm just going to Gege's room, not far away."

Ju Xiang has already followed quickly: "I'd better follow along." I stepped out of the courtyard door, walked to Cheng Huan's door, opened the door and entered, the bedding on the couch was tidy, and the table was spotless.There were papers on the table in front of the window, and when I stepped forward, the portraits of Shisan and Luwu came into view. In the painting, Luwu is playing the zither and Thirteen is playing the flute, and there is deep affection between their eyebrows and eyes.This is his most cherished painting in the Thirteenth Study Room. I stared at it silently for a while, and my heart began to feel dull pain again. "Your servant sees your mother." Hongyu's voice came from behind, and I turned to ask her, "Where did Gege go alone?" Hongyu walked up to me with a sad face and replied, "Come closer, Gege." During the day, I almost didn’t say a word, I just went out for a walk every day, and the rest of the time was spent looking at this painting, sometimes it took one or two hours to stop.” Tears were hidden in her eyes, and she choked up and said: "Gege is not in the mansion these years, I don't know what kind of life Fujin is living." My heart tightened, and I frowned and asked: "Is Lu Wu being excluded in the mansion? Hongyu nodded, tears rolled down her eyes: "If it's just being excluded, that's fine." My heart trembled, the several accidents in Lvwu could be man-made. Seeing my expression, Hongyu smiled bitterly: "Gege has been in the palace for many years, and the prince is busy with government affairs, so he has no time to care about the affairs of the palace. .The master is kind-hearted, and endures all grievances, and even the people around him have repeatedly confessed, 'Don't mention it to the prince. If you don't obey, don't stay with me.'" This talented and proud woman was so humbly enduring because of Shisan. I felt uncomfortable, and Douyin asked: "Didn't Fujin take good care of Luwu all the time?" Before she could answer, I continued to ask: "Does Gege know about this?" Hongyu wiped away her tears, and said: "Although Di Fujin is very kind to the master, but all the big and small things in the house are on him, and he rarely has time to go to Jingyue Xiaozhu, the master's temperament, naturally he will not tell her These things. After Ge Ge came back, although the other side of the mansion, Shu Fu Jin, restrained a little, they never expected to come up with such a vicious idea. On that day, the empress's waist was burnt to bloody flesh, and now the slaves feel terrified thinking about it. Ge Ge witnessed these things with his own eyes, how could he not see these things, but that day Fujin cried and told Ge Ge not to tell the prince. Ge Ge thought that he had never told anyone, but since then, Ge Ge has never left Fujin, and the servant girl still secretly Huanxi, thinking that Fujin has finally come to the end of all hardships, but I don't know that this kind of thing happened again." It turned out that after Luwu was injured, Cheng Huan was once in the garden in the future. I always thought in my heart that Chenghuan was serving Luwu, but I didn't want to have such a reason. I was more worried, and asked urgently: "Where did Gege go for a walk these days?" Hongyu saw that I was anxious, and hurriedly replied: "Gegeduo is alone in the back lake by boat." I was startled, Doubtful: "Is she alone?" Hongyu nodded and said: "Ge Ge always instructs the oar eunuch on the lake early in the morning to send her to the center of the lake by rowing a boat and pick her up at dinner. .” I stepped out of the door quickly, Ju Xiang standing at the door hurriedly stepped forward to speak, I waved her to go back, she looked embarrassed, I frowned, she pouted and walked towards the inner courtyard reluctantly.I turned around and said to Hongyu who was following me, "You stay too." She nodded, and I hurried forward. Standing on the bow of the boat, I saw two boats from a distance, one boat was drifting in the middle of the lake, and the other boat was slowly following behind.Although a certain distance was always maintained between the two boats, the boat behind followed closely the boat in front like a shadow. I was startled, the boat in front belonged to Cheng Huan, but what about the boat behind?Although it is not clear who it is, one thing is obvious, the people on the boat are also worried about Cheng Huan.The heart that had been carrying it all the time was relieved a little, but he still urged the little eunuch to hurry up. The people on the boat at the back seemed to have spotted me, turned around and walked slowly to this side, and slowly approached me.I shaded the morning light with my hand on my forehead, but I still couldn't see who it was. When the two boats were close together, the person who came jumped up, walked up to him and stabbed him, saying: "Zotel has seen Auntie." Hearing the voice, he knew it was him. His eyes were pierced yellow by the rising sun, and there was only a blurry figure in front of him.I closed my eyes and remained silent for a while before I felt that my eyes were clearer. Seeing that he was still standing upright, I hurriedly waved him to get up. Zotel looked anxious, with bloodshot eyes, looking helpless and helpless.I glanced at him, secretly happy for Cheng Huan. Although he was here, he still missed the people in the center of the lake. After a while, I looked back a few times, I smiled slightly, and turned to enter the cabin.He looked at me, then at the figure on the boat in the lake, pondered for a moment, and told the eunuch Yaolu: "Look at Gege, and call if you have something to do." The eunuch nodded, and he followed me into the cabin with confidence. As soon as he sat down, he asked urgently from the opposite side: "Auntie, what should I do? My concubine has sent a letter saying that I should take Cheng Huan back as soon as possible, but Cheng Huan doesn't even see me face to face." Since he entered Jiaohui Garden Every time I follow Cheng Huan into the garden to say hello, I always call him "Auntie". I also think this title is good, so I am very happy. Presumably Minmin was also very worried about Cheng Huan, fearing that she would not be able to bear the blow, that's why she made this decision.I meditated for a while, looked at him solemnly and asked: "Are you sure you really like Chenghuan?" Zotel was startled, as if he didn't believe that I would ask this question, his fists were tightly clenched on the edge of the table in front of him , his face was flushed, and he said slightly angrily: "People don't know, maybe my aunt can't see that I don't want anyone in this life except Cheng Huan. I have already told my mother and concubine that if Cheng Huan doesn't go back to Mongolia with me, then I will stay." , as long as I can be with Cheng Huan, I am willing to give up everything." The ruling and opposition parties have long been discussing this matter secretly, trying to figure out the political intention of the marriage between the Irgenjueluo Department and Prince Yi.Zotel has been here for two years, so he has heard of it. Seeing that his face was livid and furious, I secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and said with a smile: "Is there any other confession from the princess?" He looked at me in a daze, and understood that I didn't doubt him, so his face relaxed, and he said embarrassingly: " Auntie, don't blame me, I'm anxious, that's why I said so unscrupulously. The concubine mother also confessed that she will come over immediately after she settles the matter at hand, and personally come to ask Cheng Huan to go back according to the order." I smiled and shook my head lightly, this Minmin is still in such a hurry, but the worries and worries when he came here have disappeared.But what exactly is Cheng Huan thinking, will she leave at this time, and why she didn't see Zotel? Thinking of this, my heart sank again. But Zhenxi Pavilion is not Cheng Huan's final destination in the end, instead of letting her continue to be so sad, it is better to let her leave as soon as possible, leaving this sad place, time will be the best medicine. After thinking silently for a while, the eunuch outside reported that Cheng Huan's boat was already approaching.I looked up at him, and he was already leaning over to look out.I sighed softly, he hurriedly turned around and smiled mischievously, I said with a smile: "You should stay in the cabin first, don't go out." He nodded, and I got up to go out. Cheng Huan sat on the bow of the boat, staring intently at the undulating water surface of the lake in front of him, his eyes were dim and his expression was sad. The eunuch leaned forward slowly, and when the two boats joined together, he pulled the boat. I walked over and turned around and ordered him to back up a little. When the boat stopped a few meters away, I walked slowly towards Chenghuan.Cheng Huan remained seated, not realizing that there was an extra person beside him at all.Sitting down beside her, she looked away, gave me a blank look, and stared at the lake again. The two sat quietly, I took her hand and held it, and said: "Chenghuan, leave here and go to Princess Minmin, okay?" She turned her head, with a faint smile on her face, staring at me and asked: "Auntie, I'm terrified." I lowered my head and sighed softly, she leaned over and said, "Besides, Cheng Huan feels very tired now." I helped her lean on my shoulder, and she took my arm and said, "I don't want to follow in the footsteps of Mrs. So tired. Auntie, let Cheng Huan stay by your side and serve you till the end of your life, okay?" I patted her and said, "Is Zotel okay, and Princess Minmin, she will treat you like her own daughter." She shook her head and said with a wry smile: "They are all very good, but Ama is right. Mother is not good, and Er Niang pretends to be Ama in her heart, but what is the result? I have been thinking for the past few days, whether Ama has made a decision before going to Tianmu Mountain and will not come back again. To accompany Er Niang. If this is the case, then loving and being loved are the most hurtful things, Cheng Huan is not willing to do this, I would rather live alone." My heart trembled. It turned out that she thought so. It turned out that this matter has been bothering her these days. No wonder she would avoid Zotel. I was silent for a while, pushed her away, sat face to face with her, stared at her and said: "Only after loving and suffering, can you know whether it is worth loving and being loved, Cheng Huan, only you have experienced it before you can make a final decision." Cheng Huan He stared at me blankly, eyes full of confusion.I stared at her silently, wondering if she could figure it out. After a long while, she lowered her head and took out the jade pendant from her collar, looked at it silently for a while, finally held it in her hand, raised her head and said, "Auntie, I'll go with him, but I don't want to get married so early." The head said: "Three years later, if you haven't decided whether to marry him or not, my aunt will personally pick you up." There was finally a smile on her lips, and I stood up and waved to Zotel who was standing on the bow a few meters away.He snatched the oar from the young eunuch's hand, and rowed hard a few times, but the boat did not move forward, but turned around in place.The little eunuch stared at him blankly, and he hurriedly handed it over, and the little eunuch came quickly by rowing. Zotel came over and fixedly stared at Cheng Huan, Cheng Huan glanced at her, turned his head to stare at the lake, Zotel's face tightened, and strode over, holding Cheng Huan's hands tightly, Cheng Huan shook vigorously, did not break free, and shyly Take a look at me. I smiled and looked at the pair of Bi people bathed in the morning light, then turned and stepped on the boat when I came. Just as I stood still, Cheng Huan behind me said again: "Auntie, before I leave, I hope to see the murderer who assassinated Eniang lay down his spell." My steps faltered and my body staggered. The oar eunuch screamed and rushed over to pull me. I was pulled to the ground, but he fell into the water due to inertia. Zotel and Cheng Huan were shocked and wanted to come over, but as the eunuch entered the water, the rope between the two boats had been unraveled, and the two boats were slowly swinging further and further away. The little eunuch climbed onto the boat, completely wet, After kowtowing to plead guilty, he hurriedly rowed to the Xinghuachun Pavilion.And I was at the bow of the boat, and there was only one sentence echoing in my mind, "I hope to see the murderer who assassinated Erniang put down the law." The lawn on the grounds of Zhenxi Pavilion changed from green to yellow, and then from yellow to green. In the blink of an eye, more than two hundred days slipped by the fingertips. It was already early summer, and the eunuchs and maids were already wearing thin clothes, but I still felt cold, wearing thick clothes, pacing casually among the flowers in the pavilion. A few days ago, Cheng Huan wrote a letter from Mongolia, and between the lines implied Zotel's affection for her and Minmin's love for her.In the end, I was completely relieved that Cheng Huan had finally found her happiness. If Shisan and Lu Wu knew about it, it must be comforting. But every time I receive a letter from her, I always think of her words, "I hope to see the murderer who assassinated Erniang come to justice."I don't know how Hongli explained it to her before she left, so that she never mentioned it again. Although I was confused and puzzled, I really didn't want to think about this matter again, so I stopped caring about it and didn't ask any more questions.Seeing me like this, Hongli would not take the initiative to bring it up, so it became a matter buried deep in my heart. The familiar footsteps came behind me, I smiled bitterly, and came again. Still admiring the flowers beside him, he walked forward slowly.A person came from behind and begged softly: "Your Majesty, please go back to the palace with this old slave. You have lived here alone since last winter, and the Emperor is very worried about you. Now that Little Gege is full moon, the empress must be able to withstand the bumps of the carriage, so The emperor ordered the old slave to take you back to the palace, otherwise, the old slave would never want to go back." After hearing this, I laughed secretly in my heart, but you lived to the Qianlong period. "Your Majesty, others don't know how the emperor treats you, but this old slave sees it in his eyes and keeps it in his heart." His persuasion came from behind me, and I turned around with a faint smile and said, "The emperor is entangled in political affairs, and you have to worry about it." The beautiful girls in Zhongcui Palace, how can they care about my affairs." Since last fall when I started drafting women, I refused to go back to the palace, and the reasons were quite good, as my body was heavy and I couldn't bear the fatigue of driving and horses.Although Yinzhen was anxious, he was also helpless.Since Thirteen passed away, he lost his right-hand man, and through drafts to win over important ministers, although it is a political need, I still feel uncomfortable.I clearly know that inside and outside the palace, there are rumors going around everywhere, "Concubine Lan is spoiled and spoiled..." Except for Qiaohui and Juxiang, everyone in the pavilion is as usual, everyone looks panic-stricken, It seems that I am afraid that I will suffer disaster if I am not paying attention. After all, I am a noble concubine and I am only alone, without any external forces such as my natal family. As soon as he got short, he continued to grind: "My lady, the full moon of Little Gege, all the ladies in the emperor's palace are ready." I waved my hands and said angrily, "What does my daughter's full moon have to do with them?" Gao Wuyong took a quick look at me, and knelt down in front of him with a 'plop': "The old slave is begging your mother." My heart softened, I closed my eyes for a moment, and said : "When the time comes, let Qiaohui take Xiao Gege back to the palace." Gao Wuyong got up, responded softly, and walked out quickly. As a result, I lost any mood, so I went back to my room, took out the paper, and wrote over what I did day after day. Concentrating on each stroke of the painting, when it was finally completed, she leisurely returned to her senses. The palace lamp in the room had already been lit, and Ju Xiang stood silently at the door, dozing off with her head down. I put down the pen, sighed softly, Ju Xiang woke up in surprise, rubbed her eyes and walked over and said: "Your Majesty, let's pass on the meal now." I shook my head, Ju Xiang frowned and said, "These days, Your Majesty's body has become much lighter. Go on, what's the matter. The servant ordered the kitchen master to wait until the second watch, and you don't want to eat." I waved my hand to make her retreat, she opened her mouth, and finally she didn't say anything, and retreated with a face full of reluctance. After silently looking at the paintings on the table for a while, he turned around and picked up the book beside the table, turned around and lay down on the soft couch, resting his cheek on one hand and flipping through it casually with the other, "It's a long-term affair, and it's too late to plan for the wedding.Crescent Eyebrows was once jealous, and a thousand pieces of gold bought a match like a gift, so who can complain about this? ' I secretly laughed, this is what the author hoped that his career of resisting the enemy and saving the country and unifying the country as soon as possible could be realized, but he couldn't do it as he wanted. He wanted to tell his own experience, but he didn't say it clearly, so he had to rely on Chen Ajiao's long family story Realized, this may be a game of literati playing with words. Smiling secretly for a while, turning his mind, he couldn't help but smile bitterly to himself, and mocked himself in his heart. I originally entered the garden from Thirteen's Mansion, Shisan had just passed away, and the emperor lived in the palace for a long time, even when he gave birth to Orchid, he never came back, Queen Nala's health was up and down, and she couldn't move forward. Come, only concubine Xi led Fu Ya and Hongli Xinna's side blessing Jin Zixian greeted here. Those who know the inside story know that due to the cases of Zeng Jing and Lu Liuliang, Xu Jun's poem copy, Shanghang Fan Shijie's speech case, and Qu Dajun's poem copy have successively occurred since October last year.And these incidents have just subsided, and then came the anti-grain resistance in Zhongxiang County in March this year.When this wind comes together, there will be a large-scale anti-grain wave. When the army marched westward, civil strife broke out frequently. In addition, the reform of the land and returning to the country has reached a critical period. Yinzhen is probably so busy that he has no time to spare. . It can be seen that there are only a few people who know the inside story, and everyone looks on coldly, waiting for who the show girl who stands out this time is, and the power behind the show girl is naturally the one that the emperor relies on.Thinking about it this way, I really became Chen Ajiao, and Zhenxi Pavilion was naturally Nagato Palace. Although I knew it was not the case, I still felt sore in my heart. I shook my head and suppressed my sorrow. I told myself in my heart, "You asked for it, no wonder others." With such an attitude, if he honestly followed him into the palace, why should he feel sorry for himself here.But now, even if he wants to come down, he also finds that there are no steps waiting for him. After reading silently for a while, I put the book on the couch and lay on my side. After a long time, I felt a little sleepy. In a trance, he suddenly felt a strange sound around him, and he was terrified. He was the only one who entered without a communication at night, but at this time, he should be in the palace, not here. After a few turns in my mind, I felt that I was still pretending to be asleep and not waking up.The person who came walked slowly and sat next to me. I was startled, turned over and hit him with my hands, and let out a loud exclamation.All of a sudden, someone pulled her into his arms, and then his lips were gently covered by him. The grievance in my heart burst out instantly, I bit his lip hard, he made a muffled sound, picked me up and walked towards the bed.I put my arms around his neck and nestled against his chest, and the tears I had been holding back for many days flowed out. He put me on the bed and I rolled inside to give him a back.He stretched out his hand from behind and pulled my body, and I covered my face with my hand to prevent him from looking into my eyes.He pulled down my hand that covered my face and held it, and chuckled softly, "I've been angry for several months, and it still hasn't gone away?" I threw his hand away, and he leaned over to kiss me on the face, then sighed and said, "Without the support of Thirteenth Brother, I feel physically and mentally exhausted. Although Hongli has practiced with Thirteenth Brother for a while, after all Too little experience, not as thoughtful as my thirteenth brother." Ever since I heard Thirteen, I was stunned and lay silent on the bed. He sighed softly again, pulled me into his arms, stroked my back, and didn't say a word for a long while. Hearing his breathing evenly, I thought he was fast asleep, I gently pulled away, but he pulled me over.Looking up at his tired face, my heart softened, and his movement, which was about to leave, stopped. He stepped back a little, lay face to face with me and said: "I thought that you would follow me into the palace while the orchids were over the full moon." There was a trace of helplessness in his eyes, and he stared straight at me.I glanced at him and said softly: "What am I going to do? I'm going to get in the way." Hearing what I said, a smile flashed in his eyes: "After listening to official Chinese for more than half a year, now I finally heard something I wanted to hear. Ruoxi, Talk to me." After being stunned for a moment, I understood the meaning of his words, but said in my mouth, "I obey." He sighed lightly, but my heart was sore. I can complain now that I am unhappy. Doesn't it all depend on his love?Since ancient times, the favor of the emperor has not lasted long. I can live peacefully in Yuanmingyuan alone, dreaming that I am alone by his side. Should I be content with it? The palace draft has been a rule since ancient times, how can it be changed because of me alone? What, even though I said that, I understand it in my heart, but every time I encounter this kind of thing, why do I still feel so depressed and uncomfortable. He pulled back the thin quilt and covered me, and said softly: "Go to bed early." I pulled the quilt back, covered my face and said in a muffled voice: "When I gave birth, what were you busy with? Are you busy going to the clock... ..." He lifted the thin quilt and stared at me helplessly: "I'm so busy all day long, I don't have time to do other things." There was something sweet and bitter in my heart, and it was difficult for me to distinguish the taste for a while.Unexpectedly, half a year after we parted, this was the first thing I blurted out to ask.Thinking silently in my heart for a while, I pulled the corner of my mouth and smiled bitterly, it turned out that I was just an ordinary woman after all. Seeing that I was silent, he chuckled lightly in a hoarse voice: "In the future, don't read poems like 'Touching Fish' again." My face became hot, and it turned out that when I found out, he had been in the room for a long time. He probably walked six or seven miles at night, he was tired, and fell asleep after a while, although I was no longer sleepy, but I didn't want to do anything, I just stared at him silently, motionless. Outside Xianliang's gate, several carriages were parked side by side. Yinzhen, Hongli, and Zhang Tingyu walked in front, discussing matters while walking.Walking to the side of the carriage, Zhang Tingyu looked at the carriage, then looked back at me, with a slight hesitation on his face: "Your Majesty, I should enter the palace in my own carriage." Yinzhen glanced at me with a smile, and said to Zhang Tingyu with a smile: "Tingyu, I have to tell you something on the way." Hongli lowered his head slightly, and when Yinzhen and Zhang Tingyu turned around, he turned and walked to the second car . Hong Han, led by Qiaohui, walked towards the third carriage. Hong Han struggled to look back, suddenly dropped his hands, frowned and shouted dissatisfiedly: "I am also a man, how can I ride with women and children?" One car, I want to go with fourth brother." As soon as he said this, everyone was stunned and stood in place.Qiaohui looked embarrassed at first, but then she seemed to suddenly think of something, with a happy face, she stared appreciatively at Honghan who was running towards Hongli. For a moment, I couldn't tell whether it was joy or sorrow in my heart, and I stood there in a daze. "The old minister congratulates the emperor." Zhang Tingyu smiled and watched Hongli hugging Honghan into the car, then clasped his fists and said to Yinzhen, Yinzhen glanced at me, and gave Zhang Tingyu a slight nod with a smile in his eyes. When the shadow of the moon fell on me, I still sat leaning on the chair in front of the window with tea in my hand, thinking about Honghan during the day. There was a sound of footsteps coming from the door, I moved my eyes to look, Ju Xiang came in hurriedly, saluted and said: "Madam, it's too late, servant girl is waiting for you to rest." I took a sip of herbal tea and said: "You step back, rest Come on." Ju Xiang walked up to her and begged softly, "Your Majesty, it's too late, let's rest." I handed her the teacup in my hand and said, "Back off." Ju Xiang took it, hesitated for a moment, turned around and walked towards the door, took two steps, then stopped and asked: "The servant light up the lamp?" I sighed, and she hurried out. He leaned back, looked up at the bright moon, and was in a daze. The door was pushed open, he walked slowly into the room, followed by Gao Wuyong hurriedly lit the palace lantern, looked up, saw me, lowered his head, closed the door and retreated out. With a smile on the corner of his mouth, he came over, pulled me up, sat on the chair by himself, then pulled me to sit on his lap, and hugged me from behind.I slowly approached his arms, leaned over, and put my forehead against his chin, the two of them sat silently for a while, he chuckled softly, stroked my face gently with his hands, and said, "Waiting for me? " He deliberately concealed it, but after thinking about what he said that night, he answered 'yes' softly.He raised his head and kissed my forehead, I raised my head and stared at him, he was taken aback, and immediately kissed my lips. After a while, he raised his head, straightened up, got up and hugged me, walked to the bed, put me down gently, looked at me silently for a while, took off his coat, blew out the lamp, and lay down. He pulled me into his arms, and while unbuttoning my coat, he whispered in my ear: "I miss you very much these days." Hearing these words, I suddenly thought of the few months I was alone in Yuanmingyuan, Feeling a bit of resentment in his heart, he pushed him away suddenly, he sighed softly, and hurriedly said: "I shouldn't have mentioned this, don't be angry." I still turned my back to him and ignored him. After a while of silence, he called softly: "Ruoxi." I didn't move, and he sighed again: "Ruoxi." I slowly turned to face him. The wisps of moonlight penetrating through the window made the room also bright.I saw him staring at me, I hurriedly looked elsewhere, he stretched out his hand, caressed my face and said: "Ruoxi, I promise you, I won't leave you alone again, I will try my best to spend time with you .” With a sore nose, I put my arms around him and buried my face tightly in his chest. Standing at the table, holding a pen to draw the shape of the cup. When the courtyard door rang, I looked up through the window, and Hongli pushed the door open and entered.I put down my pen, and Hongli had already entered the room. After the ceremony, he stared at me, sat down and said, "Ya'er wanted to see you yesterday. Let her come." I sat opposite him and said, "It's okay, I haven't seen her for some days, let her come if I have time these two days." Hongli nodded, sat silently for a while, and said, "Uncle Thirteen put those The shop has been handed over to me, and the net profit last year was 800,000 taels, which I have ordered to be transferred to the treasury." I nodded, thought for a while in my heart, and said: "Your burden will become heavier and heavier in the future. If you really can't take care of it, let's deal with it. At that time, we have to take care of some old people like Li Yu, and we can't let them lose their jobs. " Hongli seemed to be in a trance, and he spoke for a while before saying: "I will arrange it myself. If there is nothing else, I will leave." Thinking of the nightmare that has been haunting me for the past few days, he hesitated for a moment, but couldn't help but ask: "Has Lu Lanxi's mother-in-law not been found yet?" Nightmares?" I nodded with a helpless wry smile, and he frowned, and said silently for a while: "You can't take everything on yourself, some things are not your fault. It doesn't matter what happened to Lu Lanxi. Landong's Ama, er Whether Mother is related to her or not is a major crime against the Nine Clans, even if everything is told, nothing can be changed. Killing all the guards on the day of the accident was not Ama's intention, it was mine." I was slightly startled and stared at him in disbelief.There was a slight smile on his lips, and he said: "As long as it is someone related to Zhenxi Pavilion, Huang Ama will not move easily, besides, he didn't know the situation at that time." Staring at him blankly, his face was indifferent, with a slight smile on his lips, and said: "The most unacceptable thing in this palace is kindness." I sat dumbfounded, and he continued: "I have already killed the family members of these guards." Take care of it properly, and they won't have any worries in life." Staring at him in a daze, he got up and walked towards the door. He didn't come back to his senses until the sound of the courtyard door closing outside. Is this Hongli, the child he watched grow up? My heart couldn't help but get into a ball, and I suddenly thought of what Hong Han said yesterday, and I felt a chill in my heart. Is the result of my choice of "not insisting" that Hong Han has become like this? Kunning Palace Nala's cheeks were sunken, her face was dull, and the pearl hairpin brocade shirt on her body could not conceal the haggard look in her eyes and eyebrows.After all, Lu Lanxi went out from her palace, although Yinzhen didn't say anything, but since then, she never set foot in Kunning Palace, she felt bitter and desolate in her heart. She took Lan Que from her arms, and stroked the small face of the little man in her arms with her hand, Lan Que grinned, she said with a calm smile: "The face is like the emperor, the eyebrows and eyes are like sisters, and when she grows up, she will definitely be a beauty. "I smiled lightly at her, but didn't say anything. Concubine Xi, who was sitting under me, got up and walked over, leaned over to look at it for a while, and said with a smile: "Such a cute person, I like it in my heart." Nala handed the orchid to her, and said: "You take Little Gege and lead them out to make a fuss. Xiaowen and I have something to say." Concubine Xi responded with a smile, and walked while holding the orchid, "The sun is just right outside, let's take Xiao Gege out for a walk." The thirteenth generation Fujin Zhaojia got up and said, "That's right, now the imperial garden is full of flowers. It's the time to make noise." Everyone walked out following the money. I picked up the tea bowl and sipped it, waiting quietly for Nala's next words.她呷口水，润润微干的嘴唇，才开口道：“晓文，你还记得答应过我的话吗？”我心中微怔一瞬，一时之间竟想不出答应过她什么事。 见她脸带紧张之色，我心中一动，细细想一会儿，苦笑着道：“我不会忘记。”她面色松了下来，笑着点点头道：“无论发生什么事，都不要离开皇上。” 我默坐着，眼光无意识地投在地面上，她轻叹口气道：“我看走了眼，一直以为岚冬那丫头只是外表清冷，如果不是我的提议，十三弟就不会出事，你也不会受惊。皇上没有斥责我，那是看在几十年的夫妻情分上。” “我这身子一日不如一日，待我去后，我本想把后宫的一切都托付给你，但心里又清楚，你并不在意这些。想来想去，后宫也只有熹妃了，她性子太软，能不能担起来，我有些放心不下。姐姐没有其他要求，只希望后宫有什么事时，你能帮她一把。我能为皇上做的，也只有这件事了。” 说完这些，她已用帕子掩口轻喘起来，我静静坐了会，待她恢复过来，我道：“皇上继位之后，后宫的规矩已好了许多，这个担子她能担的起来，你不要过于担心，好好养好身子才是正事。” 她默一会儿，看着我欲言又止，我等了会，她却重重叹口气，摇摇头没说什么。我心疑惑，问：“有事不妨直说。”她又默了会，道：“她被禁足这么多年，也算是惩罚过了，你给皇上说说，放了她吧。这些年，西藏的事，鄂家也是出了大力的。” 这些年，竟把此事给忘了。我忙点点头，道：“我一定会说的。”她笑着颌首，我见她用两胳膊支着身子，似是已支撑不住，我起身扶她起来道：“你躺下歇息会，有什么事，以后再说。” 她慢慢移到榻前，躺下来，无力地笑道：“你去寻她们吧，我躺会儿。”我点点头，转身走了出去。 出了坤宁宫，信步踅进通往御花园的胡同里，缓步走着。长长吁出一口气，心中依然闷得难受。停下步子，转身往回走去。 随着的菊香问：“娘娘，小格格还在御花园，我们不去了？”我脚步未停头未回，淡声吩咐她：“你去回熹妃一声，我身子乏，直接回去了。”兰葸的满月宴中午已结束，此时自己回去，也不算失了礼数。菊香应一声，转身离去。 坐在院子里，一边煮茶、一边翻着书，巧慧坐在对面，轻摇着摇篮打着瞌睡，她这两年日渐显老，头发已白了大半，我多次提出，给她一个宫女照顾她的生活起居，她却不同意，而且还坚持带兰葸，用她的说法是'小宫女们哪有我有经验'。拗不过她，遂暗中吩咐菊香，多多打点她的生活。 待茶清香四溢，我端起茶壶，为自己倒上一杯，放在鼻端，轻吸一口。 这时，门外忽地传来小顺子的声音：“娘娘，奴才小顺子求见。”巧慧一惊而醒，先看了眼兰葸，见兰葸并没有醒，这才起身站起，走过去，打开门，小顺子对巧慧微一颌首，笑着提着一盒东西走进来。 他站在跟前，左右打量一眼，我移开茶壶，他轻轻放在桌上，后退一步行了一礼后又过去打开，道：“这是奴才去看着官窑的大师傅亲自烧制的，只此一套，奴才回来时，把样稿也带了回来。” 我嘴角噙着一丝笑，拿起两对杯子中的一个放在眼前细看，淡青色的底色，一侧平滑如镜，一侧弧形，弧形面正中一个小女孩面容栩栩如生，那是我梦中兰葸的模样。 我抿嘴而笑，又拿起同色的另一个，把平滑的两面对在一起，一个心形的图案显出来。杯子两侧弧面上，兰葸、弘瀚对我微微笑着。 看一阵，见小顺子仍站在原地，手中拿着我画的样纸。我笑着伸手接过，放在桌边，笑着赞他：“做的很好，知道把样稿带回来。”小顺子一喜，乐滋滋的道：“这上面有皇上、娘娘的画像，奴才岂敢马虎，这几日，奴才寸步不离的跟着师傅，怕出什么纰漏。”我点点头，笑斥道：“不用标榜自己了，我知道你做事周全。”他讪笑着揉揉鼻子，小跑着转身离去。 放下手中的一对，拿起另外一对。月白色的底色，弧形面一侧胤禛一袭青衣，面色看似清淡，细细看，就会发现他眸中隐蕴笑意，而另一侧的我，则面隐娇羞，满面喜色。 我笑盈盈的目注着看，巧慧低头为兰葸擦了擦嘴角，见我依然翻来覆去，看个没够，她笑着摇摇头，抱起兰葸走向房门。 一阵轻微的叩门声响起，我把杯子收入盒中，道：“进来。” 鄂答应身着一袭鹅黄色的旗装缓步进来，几年未见，眼前的她，身子瘦峭，眼角已隐隐现出几道鱼尾纹。 她矮身施一礼，道：“奴婢前来向娘娘道谢。”不管当时什么事因，她被关了这些年，始终与我有关，我心中有丝歉意，摆手让她起身，道：“你不必谢我。” 她一怔，一脸诧异看着我，似是不相信我会这么客气平和。看她没有走的意思，我指指对面的椅子，微笑着道：“坐下吧。” 从她脸上神色来看，心里清楚她并非心甘情愿过来道谢，遂默默等她开口说话。 两人静默了会儿，她看着我道：“有些话，我说了，娘娘心中肯定不快。但如果不说，我这辈子都不能敞开心胸开心的过日子。”我端起茶碗喝了一口，朝她浅浅笑笑，道：“但说无妨。” 她沉吟一会，目光投向前面兰葸的摇篮上，道：“自古男子，哪一个不是三妻四妾，况且皇上不是普通的男人，拥有三宫六院也是理所应当。而宫中的女人，大多是各方势力的代表，皇上为了平衡、使用这些势力，才把这些有权势的女人娶入宫中。当然，也有例外，而例外的这部分常常是皇上钟爱的女人。” “上次选秀入宫的女子，没有一个真正得到过皇上的宠幸，而我这个曾单独和皇上待过一晚的，却又被禁足这么多年。这意味着什么，皇上不需要我们，还是有人容不下我们。其实，如果真的不需要或是容不下，大可不要透秀，这样，我们也可以找到可以托付终生的良人，也能过上夫妻恩爱、子女绕膝的美满生活，可如今，却只能待在宫中，寂寞一生。” 我听得一呆，瞅她一眼，她眼眶有些红，仍是定定地盯着前方。 见她如此，我心中突地有些难受，她又道：“今年又有新的宫女入宫，不知她们心里会有所何感想，不知会不会如我们一样，心里也满载憧憬。” 她收回目光，眸中带丝嘲弄神色望着我：“我不知该羡慕你，还是该记恨你。”心中本来就对她有丝歉意，又听她这么一说，心中更是不好受，默一阵，心头涌进一丝苦涩，轻轻笑道：“你想羡慕，还是想记恨，那都是你自己的事。你心里的话已经说了，也容我说两句。一是皇上不会受任何人的影响，包括我在内。二是，我没有容不下你们。再说，选秀时，如果不想入宫，办法多的是。” 她手一顿，茶碗中的水洒出少许，瞅我一眼，放下茶碗，盈盈站起身子，漠然行一礼，道：“不管怎么说，我还是要谢谢你，放我出来。”我朝她微微一笑：“你不用谢我，说来，你被禁足也是因为我。” 她瞅了眼我的脸，轻叹道：“那是我应得的，但有一件事，我还是想给你说清楚。当时，皇后得病，宫中疯传是因为你，你们错怪了我，散布谣言者并不是我。”我心中一怔，她嘴角逸出一丝苦涩的笑，垂着首道：“虽不能确实是谁，但我心中最怀疑的是坤宁宫的岚冬姑娘。” 经她一说，前尘往事一下子全连了起来。 那拉氏自圆明园回去后，病倒在床，齐妃、鄂答应两人又正好出事，而往来这两个地方最多的正是皇后身边的岚冬。 好一个一箭双雕的计谋，皇后那拉氏如果一病不起，那罪魁祸首就是我。到时候，千夫所指，纵有胤禛维护着我，那流言飞语也会埋了我。 宫中人人都在算计、都在谋划，但没有想到，隐藏最深的居然是她，是姐姐的妹妹。 待我回神，身边已无她的影踪，想是早已离去。但她的这番话，却使我的心情无法平静下来。 直到月上树梢，我轻吁一口气，起身，沿着廊子往回走去。 如果不是在这里摔碎了镯子，如果不是凑巧让她看见，如果没有一系列的巧合，那丢的不会是三条人命，死的也只是我一个人而已。 想到这里，苦苦一笑，低头看着自己的影子，缓缓地走着，步子却越发沉重。 终于走出了慈宁宫门，又向前挪动几步，竟有些提不起步子、迈不开脚。 望望前方的胡同，一边被月光照得如同白昼，一边被高高的宫墙遮得黑乎乎的。又站了会儿，慢慢移到墙边，把自己隐于车黑暗中，扶着墙，一步一步向前移动。 “娘娘，老奴终于找到你了。”前面突然传来高无庸的声音，他一手提着宫灯，一手撩着袍角，小跑着赶过来。 我停下步子，无力地道：“扶我回去。” 他忙上前，扶着我的胳膊，道：“晚膳前皇上就吩咐奴才们找你，你常去的地方，奴才吩咐着都找遍了，也没找到你。最后奴才想到这慈宁花园，没想到你真会在这里。” 我已无力开口，只是任他扶着，慢慢向西暖阁走去。 胤禛身着便袍，站在桌前，手中拿着那对杯子，正聚精会神来回翻转着看。 高无庸放开我的手臂，退出去顺手掩上了门。听到关门声，他小心翼翼放下手中的杯子，回身过来。 他哞中含笑，抿着嘴角看着我。 我想笑，但微微咧了咧嘴角，却笑不出来。见我如此神色，他敛了笑，直视着我，默默地不开口。 我向他伸出手，他眉目间又慢慢逸出丝温和，走过来，拉我入怀，紧搂了会，他道：“若曦，发生了什么事？”我把脸埋在他胸间，闭着眼睛，轻声道：“没事，只是觉得很累。” 他松开手臂，握着我的手，蹙起眉，盯着我的眼睛道：“你一日比一日瘦，话也越来越少，不是待在西暖阁，就是独自一人出去晃，若曦，你整日这样，我怎么能放心。” 我抿嘴微笑，正欲开口，他又续道：“你这身子，也越发弱了，似是一阵风都能吹走，明日我宣太医来给你瞧瞧。”我忙摇了摇头，摇摇着他的袖子，道：“我自个儿的身子我自个清楚，不用瞧。” 他皱眉道：“别人穿春季的衣衫，你穿冬季的。现在已是伏天，你却仍裹得严严实实，你如果心里清楚，倒是给我说明白，你这是为什么？” 我垂目沉吟着，不知该怎么开口，难道说自己心里很冷，觉得只有这样，才能好受点。 闭目暗自苦笑，他轻叹口气，无奈地道：“自十三弟出事，你就一直这样，你这么折磨自己，有何理由？”心中愧疚，以至于无法开口，遂靠在他身上，道：“只是心里觉得怕。” 他抚着我的背，柔声问：“以后不会再发生这种事。”听他话语虽温和，但说话口气中却透着无庸置疑的坚定。我点点头，不再说话。 他拥我走到桌旁，扶我坐下，道：“吃些东西。”看着桌上几样精致的小菜和两碗清粥，还真有了些许饿意，遂拿起了筷子。 吃了几口粥，心中蓦地想起一事，抬头问：“可否给我一张令牌？”他慢慢咽下口中的东西，又默了会儿，才开口道：“想出宫？” 听他口气淡淡，不知他内心真正的意思，是给还是不给，但这是我近日一直考虑的事，又岂能轻易放弃。 弘瀚这孩子越来越大，却从未接触过宫外的人和事。长此以往，他会和其他的皇子如出一辙，把权力看作他人生最重要的东西。 我放下筷子，有些不死心，道：“在宫里待久了，想出去呼吸一下自由的空气。”他眸中一黯，似是有些不悦，但随即隐去，笑着道：“明日我吩咐高无庸给你送来一块。” 我朝他一笑，他凝目注视着我，道：“抽空我会陪你。”我心中微怔，细量一瞬，全然明白了他的担心。 心中一暖，我用帕子拭了拭嘴角，还未及开口，他便轻哼一声，轻笑着道：“好像某人心里并不想让陪。”我轻笑出声，移凳子到他身边，依在他手臂，仰脸笑道：“谢皇上圣恩，只是臣妾有人陪，不需皇上屈尊。” 他伸手揽着我，笑叹道：“不知是谁这么大的面子，能让我娘子屈尊陪。” 这场这景这笑，我心中一时之间恍惚，这是我吗、这是他吗？他许是见我面带迷茫，也隐了笑，盯着我，不动不动。 半晌后，猛地回神，发现和他脸对着脸，面上一热，身子向后退了退。他嘴边漾出一丝笑，道：“是谁？”我道：“瀚儿。” 他双目平静清澈，想是心中早猜出了是谁，是以，听到我的话，没有一丝惊诧。 我垂下首，握住他的手，默默抚弄着他的指头。他忽地开口道：“你的恐惧中，也包括瀚儿？”我手上的动作一顿，抬起头，稳声道：“包括。” 他似是微微叹口气，轻得让身边的我都有些听不清。 他摇摇头，皱眉道：“瀚儿天资聪颖，小小年龄对事就有自己的论断，将来必有成就。”我心中一急，脱口道：“我不要他有多大成就，他只要做一个正直坦荡，又能自食其力的人就行了。况且，这也是你早就答应过了的，金口已开，不得反悔。” 他无奈地盯着我，我目光灼灼和他对视，他摇摇头，站起来，走向床榻，我紧随着后面。 他躺在榻上，以手支头，看着帐顶。我站在榻边，盯着他。 半响后，他收回目光，拉我坐在他身边，道：“瀚儿还小，我们不要把自己的想法强加于他，不要强迫他，长大了，他知道自己该怎么做。” 我心下一松，忙点点头，虽说他没有答应什么，但自己还是有机会教育弘瀚。 在他身旁躺下，脑中默默思索，该怎么做，才能让更快让弘瀚明白，其实这世间有比这皇宫更好的地方。 他转过身子，漆黑如墨的眸中透着暖意，道：“两对杯子烧制的别出心裁，好些年，你不曾在这上面上心过了。初看时，竟想起好多年前，你用各色的盘碟为我们几人做冰镇酸梅汤的情形。” 我脑中闪出当时的情形，在心中暗自叹惜，当日在场之人，如今却…… 他脸上笑容一僵，我心中一沉，我想的，他肯定是了然于胸。我忙扯出笑脸，掩口笑起来，他微怔一下，对我神色的大转变有些不明所以，狐疑地盯着我，我笑着道：“我印象最深的不是那个，是那次往你茶里添了东西。” 见我笑得不可抑制，他重重叹口气，搂我入怀，道：“我的娘子呀，你到底什么时候才能让为夫不担心。” 我硬扯出的那丝笑僵在脸上，这些过去，留下来的不仅仅只是记忆，而是沾着血的回忆。 心中有丝苦涩，遂贴在他胸前，一动不动。 走在京城的街上，弘瀚看看如梭的人流、又看看路边珍罕希奇的小玩意，眼中虽透着惊奇，但仍一会瞟一眼弘历，人小鬼大的迈着方步，缓步走着，有样学样学着弘历，傅雅瞅了眼他们哥俩，朝我笑笑。 我掩口轻笑，闻声，弘历回头看了眼我和傅雅，笑道：“娘……姑姑，我们一直这么转悠，待会瀚儿的脚就要遭殃了。” 他牵着的弘瀚，抬起头，一脸不满道：“我才不会呢，四哥小瞧我。” 弘历挑挑眉，嘴角噙丝笑，继续领着弘瀚逛。 逛了许久，我腿都有些抽筋时，弘瀚才大嚷着累。 我们三人相顾失笑，弘历笑指前方的酒楼，道：“我们去歇息一会儿。”我移目望去，'汀厢楼'三字映入眼帘。 心中疑惑，记忆中的汀厢楼并不在这。但又想想，自己已多年没有出宫，变化太大，自己记错了方向也未可知。朝斜对面看看，并没有'兮远玉器店'。 这会功夫，弘历和弘瀚两人早已走到了酒楼门口，转身向我们抬着手，身旁的傅雅拽拽我的袖子，道：“姑姑，有何不对？”我回过神，对她笑着摇头，然后提步向前走去。 四人直接上了二楼，坐于临街边的窗前。 早已赔笑跟着身后的伙计，问弘历：“爷，想吃些什么，我们这里有……”弘历手一摆，随口说出几个菜，伙计的腰弯得更低了些：“原来爷是熟客，小人刚来，走了眼，望爷恕罪。”说完，哈着腰小跑着下楼去报菜。 伙计刚走，弘瀚便急问弘历：“四哥，你经常来这？”弘历笑着正要回答，我心念一转，忙截住话头，笑问弘瀚：“喜欢外面吗？” 他点点头，但仍继续看着弘历，大有不听到答案不罢休的架势。见状，弘历笑着道：“也不能说是经常，只是办差出来时，有时间会转一转。” 他又是点点头，面上露出喜色，侧着小脑默想一会儿，忽地抬头，又问弘历：“那我长大办差时，也能出来玩？”弘历轻颌下首，弘瀚更是高兴。我心一动，问弘瀚：“如果你愿意，就可以常住在外面？” 他想了会，努努嘴摇头道：“不愿意。”没有想到这小家伙会一口回绝，满腔希望骤然落空，我一呆，收起脸上的笑，叹了口气。 弘瀚瞅着我，嗫嗫的道：“瀚儿说错了吗？”我摇摇头，没心思再开口说话。 弘历默看我一眼，目光淡淡投向窗外，傅雅似是没听懂一般，依然左右打量着。心知她已几年未出宫，遂见怪不怪，也默起来。 弘瀚许是觉得自己说错了话，两眼盯着我，一脸怯色，道：“如果额娘、阿玛随着瀚儿一起，那瀚儿当然愿意住在外面。” 我笑着摸摸他的头，温言安慰他，道：“额娘没有怪你。”他这才展颜一笑，安心坐着。 一阵争吵、哄笑夹杂的声音自楼下传来，似是还有若有若无女子的轻喝声，但嘈杂声太大，有些听不清楚。 弘历自窗外收回目光，皱眉坐了会儿，终还是忍不住站起来，向楼下走去。弘瀚跳下椅子，随着跟了去。 傅雅看看我，面带担心，道：“姑姑，我还是跟着瀚儿，人多，不要出了什么岔子。”我点点头，傅雅疾步跟上了弘瀚。 一个人等了会儿，三人都没有没有回来。我站起来，往楼梯口走去。 站在楼梯的拐角处，一楼的一切尽收眼底。 正中一桌，四个锦衣公子围坐一桌，桌旁，一个十五、六岁的小姑娘抱