Chapter 13 Chapter Thirteen

The door was closed silently, and I looked back at him, all of this should be true. I took the elevator to the security duty room downstairs, and I startled the security guard on duty. I borrowed the phone to call Yue Ying, and she immediately took the clothes and stopped a taxi to pick me up. I smiled at Yueying while putting on my coat, and she felt so sad: "Look at you, can you still laugh?" why not? I was really happy, very very happy, even though I hadn't had a drop of water for three days and I couldn't even walk, but Mo Shaoqian said he never wanted to see me again.

It's over, I don't have to worry about it anymore, I don't have to suffer anymore, I don't have to live like that again. When I got into the taxi and saw myself in the rearview mirror, I was startled.It turns out that my hair is messy, the cheekbones on my face are thin and protruding, the dark circles under my eyes are like pandas, and the two eyes are deeply sunken, and there are bruises on my neck that have been pinched out. I am like a lonely soul wild ghost. No wonder Yueying felt sad, a person who has been hungry for three days is really ugly.Yueying wrapped her scarf and hat on me.I only had my eyes and nose exposed, and it really looked a lot more normal.But I'm in a good mood, and I want to have a big meal.

Yueying took me to eat casserole porridge. I had a great appetite. The porridge was so hot that the tip of my tongue was numb. I blew on it and said to her: "I didn't think I could wait until now. I really did. Desperate, you see, I am twenty years old, and I can finally get rid of this nightmare..." The hot casserole made a soft "pop" sound. I didn't know when my tears had already fallen, and they evaporated without a trace in an instant. More tears fell into the casserole, and small ripples appeared on the surrounding surface. I usually hate crying by myself, but today I really can't help it.Yueying wept silently with me, she forgot to bring me shoes, and I was barefoot and wearing slippers, we must look very strange, because someone at the next table kept looking back at us.My tears fell in clusters, I was only twenty years old, and my heart was already riddled with holes.

Yueying took me to buy shoes and socks. She insisted on taking me to the flagship store of the biggest brand. Those shoes are so expensive. I never looked at the price tag when I entered this kind of store. Today I just looked at it carefully and felt dizzy. .Yueying dragged me to try on one pair after another. BA half-kneeled there to help me try it on, and Yueying also half-kneeled there to help me take a closer look. I felt so embarrassed that she wouldn't get up even if I pulled her. "Don't buy it, it's so expensive." "I'll give it to you." Yueying was very stubborn. She raised her face to look at me with tears in her eyes. Place you want to go."

My nose was sore, I looked at Yueying, she was my best friend, she chose to forgive me, trust me, and help me when I was most helpless, when I ran away in despair, she clearly loved me I was heartbroken and disappointed, but I still spoke for me online and fought for public opinion for me. I always feel that I am the most unfortunate person in the world, my parents died young, I lost Xiaoshan, I met Mo Shaoqian, I have nothing, but God finally had mercy on me and left me a best friend.I still have Yueying. I went back to school with Yue Ying in my new boots. Zhao Gaoxing was downstairs in Bashe. When he saw us, he said, "Where did you go?"

Yueying put her arms around me and smiled: "I went shopping for shoes with Tong Xue." Zhao Xingxing said: "Hey, Tong Xue, you look really bad, are you feeling uncomfortable? Don't be angry with those nonsense on the Internet, some people just owe you." Yue Ying rolled his eyes at him: "I think you're the one who's talking. Why are you talking about those crap things? I'll accompany my classmates to change clothes, so you wait here a little longer." I said, "No need. I can go up by myself, and you can go with happiness." Yue Ying said, "He's fine, let him wait."

Zhao Xing said: "Who says I'm fine. I have to go to the airport to pick up Mu Zhenfei." It was only when I heard Mu Zhenfei's name that I remembered that this incident was thanks to him.No matter who posted the online post, but without his acquiescence, others would not dare to point out that I was his girlfriend. Fortunately, he intervened and the matter was calmed down. So I told Gao Xing: "Thank Mu Zhenfei for me." As soon as Zhao Xingxing was happy, he didn't hold back: "Just thank you? He even gave up his own real identity for you. You don't know how mysterious they are talking about on the Internet these days. It can't be described as a hand." Overshadowing the sky. Their old man was furious because of this matter, and specially called him back to Hong Kong to scold him. Hei, he flew thousands of kilometers back and forth today because of you. If you are sincere, follow me to the airport to pick him up."

I was taken aback for a moment, I didn't expect that there was such an inside story, and I didn't expect this matter to bring such a big trouble to Mu Zhenfei.When Zhao Xing said this, it seemed that I really had to go to the airport. Yueying and I went back to the dormitory and changed our clothes, then went to the airport with Zhao Xingxing. Zhao Xingxing got a car from somewhere, and it drove quite steadily: "Don't worry, I've had my driver's license for three years." In fact, I didn't even bother to pay attention to how he was driving.I haven't seen Mu Zhenfei for several months.I've subconsciously avoided him since the last time I had dinner with him.He seemed quite surprised to see me today, Zhao Gaoxing said: "Tong Xue insists on coming, I can't even stop her, what a beauty!"

I looked at Zhao Xingxing in a bit of embarrassment. Actually, I really felt sorry for Mu Zhenfei. It was not his business, but he was involved. On the way back, Yueying took the co-pilot seat.Mu Zhenfei and I sat in the back row.Probably met the elders at home, Mu Zhenfei was dressed more formally, last time I saw him in a suit and leather shoes in a restaurant.He is also a rich man, but his and Mo Shaoqian's temperaments are quite different.Mo Shaoqian's elegance can't conceal the domineering in his bones, while Mu Zhenfei's calmness has a kind of sunshine-like warmth. I couldn't find anything to say to Mu Zhenfei, I thought I would not have many chances to meet him in the future, so I said, "Thank you."

His tone was distant and polite: "You're welcome, it's not because of you." I know, maybe it's because of his sister, he didn't want to make a fuss about it, that's why he came forward, tacitly allowed others to reveal that I was his girlfriend, and forcibly diverted the public's attention.But no matter what, I have to thank him. I don’t have any relationship with Mo Shaoqian anymore, and I probably won’t have any relationship with Mu Zhenfei in the future. It’s a pity that I don’t have any friends. Life begins anew. I don't know that I was too happy, I miscalculated the development of the situation.

God has never been merciful to me. He watched me struggling desperately in the raging sea of ​​fate with cold eyes. He would hit me head-on, causing me to fall back into the sea of ​​despair and be swallowed by the endless abyss. I was pregnant, and after the whole Spring Festival, I found out that my period did not come. When I was with Mo Shaoqian, I had been taking long-acting contraceptives, and I didn’t avoid him when I was taking the medicine. I think he should be acquiescence.I didn't know what went wrong, so I secretly went to the pharmacy to buy a test strip. When two clear red lines appeared, I felt like a sap, and fell into despair again. Our school has a strict school ethos, and will never allow such things as unmarried first pregnancy. If I don't solve it secretly before the start of school, I will face expulsion from school. After leaving Mo Shaoqian, I couriered all the secondary cards he gave me back, and now I don't even have a few hundred dollars on hand. I can only borrow money from Yueying. She went back to her hometown for the Spring Festival. I called her and she asked me, "How much do you want?" I didn't know how much it would cost, so I said, "Three thousand." Yue Ying became puzzled: "There is still one week before school starts, besides, you have already applied for a student loan, what do you need money for now?" I said, "I need a minor operation, and the hospital said it would cost 3,000 yuan." "What surgery?" "A crooked septum." "Then let's do it when school starts. When I go back to school, I can still take care of you. Besides, this can be reimbursed. You can take your medical insurance card." She paused suddenly, as if thinking of something, "Tong Xue, What surgery are you going to do, tell me the truth! Otherwise, I'll fly back right away!" I don't know what to say, but he was already yelling at the other end of the phone: "Bastard! Beast! What a beast! How could he treat you like this! Damn it! You're not as good as a beast!" I don't think this matter has much to do with Mo Shaoqian, it's because of my own bad luck that even contraceptive pills will fail. Yueying rushed back that day, and she insisted on dispelling my idea of ​​going to a small clinic. She asked a friend about several private hospitals, and said to me: "These private hospitals are well-equipped, so I should go there for surgery." In fact, I was very scared. I never thought that I would encounter this kind of thing. The books I read were very scary. I checked the information on the Internet, and some descriptions frightened me even more. Yueying helped me make an appointment for the operation, and she comforted me: "It's painless, it shouldn't be very painful." I'm not afraid of pain, I'm just afraid of the unknown, I don't know what else is waiting for me.I was shaking the day I went to the hospital, and Yueying was with me.The two of us never dreamed that we would meet Xiao Shan and Lin Zixian in the hospital. When I saw Xiao Shan, I was completely dumbfounded. When Xiao Shan saw me, his face also became very pale. I know that he came with Lin Zixian, but he obviously didn't expect to meet me here, and I couldn't say another word to him.I don't want to see him anymore, whether I say I'm deceiving myself or say I'm an ostrich, I don't want to see Xiao Shan again. The love of boyhood has become a meaningful past, but now only the embarrassment of reality remains.I dare not, or don't want to see Xiao Shan again, lest I think of those heart-piercing pains.Especially today, when I met him on such an embarrassing occasion, it seemed that my destiny was reminding me that those once beautiful things would never belong to me again, and he and I would never have the chance to go back to the past. I walked past Xiao Shan, but it was Lin Zixian who stopped me. When I saw Xiao Shan, I was completely dumbfounded. When Xiao Shan saw me, his face also became very pale. I know that he came with Lin Zixian, but he obviously didn't expect to meet me here, and I couldn't say another word to him.I don't want to see him anymore, whether I say I'm deceiving myself or say I'm an ostrich, I don't want to see Xiao Shan again. The love of boyhood has become a meaningful past, but now only the embarrassment of reality remains.I dare not, or don't want to see Xiao Shan again, lest I think of those heart-piercing pains.Especially today, when I met him on such an embarrassing occasion, it seemed that my destiny was reminding me that those once beautiful things would never belong to me again, and he and I would never have the chance to go back to the past. I walked past Xiao Shan, but it was Lin Zixian who stopped me. I didn't want to talk to her either, Yueying stopped between us very smartly, and said to Lin Zixian, "Tong Xue will come with me for a checkup." Lin Zixian looked at me, seeming to be thoughtful. After I finished the B-ultrasound examination, the doctor told me that the Foetal Sac is still too young, and I have to wait another week for surgery.Yue Ying blurted out: "School will start in another week!" The doctor glanced at her and repeated slowly in Chinese: "The surgery will take another week." I feel very discouraged, the school will start in another week, and I may have to miss classes by then. There will definitely be a lot of inconvenience because there are too many people in the school. Yueying comforted me: "It's okay, I'll find you a house when the time comes, and you can live outside for a while." We walked out of the hospital, and I saw Xiao Shan standing across the road, alone.Across the surging river of cars, perhaps across the insurmountable natural moat, even though it is so far away, I can still feel my discouragement and despair.Since there is no fate, why let me see him again? " Yue Ying also saw Xiao Shan, and she said to me: "I will wait for you at school." She didn't know what happened between me and Xiao Shan, she thought it was Xiao Shan who rescued me those few days, and she thought it would take time for me and him to be together again.She didn't know that there was an insurmountable obstacle between me and Xiao Shan, and there was no future between me and him. I don't want to be alone with Xiao Shan at all, I don't want to put myself in hopelessness, Xiao Shan standing on the other side of the street is like standing on the other side of the sky.There is a deep pain in my heart, whenever I see Xiao Shan, I can't restrain myself with reason. I didn't know what else Xiao Shan wanted to say to me, so I followed behind him, walking silently with my head down.There were a lot of people on the sidewalk, and we walked one after the other, he walked slowly, and I couldn't walk fast either.Finally he turned around to look at me, and it turned out that we were standing in front of a McDonald's, and he asked me, "Go in and get something to eat?" I don't want to eat anything, but maybe he just wants a place to talk.There were not many people in the fast food restaurant, Xiao Shan bought a set meal for me, and he only bought a drink for himself, but in fact he didn't take a sip of that drink.I didn't touch the food either.History repeats itself again and again. I still remember the first time I invited him to dinner at McDonald's. The flamboyant and free-spirited boy has long since disappeared, and the sensitive and naive me has long since been strangled to death by fate in life. at the corner. "There are so many things I've always wanted to say to you, but it seems our time is always too little." Xiao Shan's voice was strangely calm, and I raised my eyes to look at him. "I have been waiting for you for three years, maybe just subconsciously, I think you will come back one day. After the college entrance examination, I knew what you wanted to fill in. At that time, my parents suggested that I go to H University, because my score is enough to get H University But I insisted on staying in this city. Because I think this is closer to you, every time I pass by your school, I think that if there is fate, I can still meet you." Those things were fragmented, and then there were mistakes. Everything in high school has become a vague and distant fragment, together with the pure and persistent love, blown away in the wind by the past.I was very, very uncomfortable, and I didn't want to hear Xiao Shan mention it. "Don't say any more, it's over anyway." But Xiao Shan ignored me, he said: "I didn't go looking for you on purpose, because I was afraid that you would have forgotten everything, then I was just bringing shame on myself. It happened to be Lin Zixian's birthday that day, and I always wanted to avoid her , that's why I accepted Zhao Gaoxing's invitation to go to dinner. I didn't expect... I think I'm so unlucky. I saw you for the first time after graduation, but you were with Mu Zhenfei. Even standing among the best people You are not inferior to him. You joked with him. I have never seen that kind of smile on your face in the whole high school. When I went to school, Lin Zixian was still waiting for me downstairs in our dormitory. She went out together and got very drunk. For the first time in my life I got drunk because I knew I might never be able to wait for you. "When I woke up, I was in Lin Zixian's rented house. Things were so bad that I couldn't let them go. I was responsible for him. Grandma Hou was very ill at that time. I felt that I was standing on the edge of a cliff. Whether it was Forward or backward, there is a deep abyss. Knowing that Zhao Xing said that you were sick, I couldn't help but see you. I stayed in your ward for a total of four minutes. After I came out, I looked at my watch. There were only four minutes in total. .Maybe you will never know how luxurious these four minutes are to me. I think if I wait a little longer, maybe I can’t help but say something terrible. When I think of you, I feel like I’m going to collapse. Locked in my room in T City, I thought over and over again, why there is no fate between us, is it because I don’t love enough, or is it because my luck is too bad? But I love you so much, I exhausted all my strength .When you called me, when you said you were going to leave, I took you away without hesitation. If you want to go to hell, go to hell, if you want to die, let's die together. I took you away. You sleep in the house, I see those posts on the Internet, I feel so pitiful. But I can't control it, I pretend I don't know anything, know that at night you have nightmares, you yell and call other people A man's name, I think I can't help myself anymore, I say mean things to you and you go away. "I chased you downstairs. At that time, I really didn't know that my life was over. Even if you fell in love with someone else, I couldn't stop. No matter what you are, I can't hear you. I never dreamed You have suffered like that, and when you told me, my heart felt like a knife was plucked out. Only then did I realize that it was not only me, but also you all these years. " His voice gradually softened: "I just want you to know that I will not lie to you. I know you are frustrated, but I must tell you that I never thought of lying to you." I looked at Xiao Shan, and the man I loved for so many years, from the high-spirited boy in high school to the man with a lot of worries today, his brows were slightly frowned, and even the handsome eyes in the past seemed gloomy, I thought, How nice it would be if I could reach out and smooth his brow. He and I are so pitiful, stumbled in the ups and downs of fate, along the way, I finally lost him, and he finally failed to hold my hand.It's not that we don't love enough, it's just that our time is always too little, we met too early, and we didn't know how to cherish it at that time.When we know how important each other is to us, we can no longer find opportunities. Nothing in this world can be repeated.