Chapter 10 chapter Ten

I have been sleeping for more than ten hours. I have never slept so peacefully and sweetly in so many years. When I woke up, my cervical spine was so stiff. The sun is setting. I am looking at the ceiling on the bed, maybe I am dreaming, maybe I am not dreaming, but why am I here. I was in a trance for a long time before I got up and opened the door carefully. Xiao Shan was sitting in the living room outside watching the computer. He was sitting alone in the middle of the huge room. With every full curve, he seems to have never left my life. But when he looked at the computer screen, my heart suddenly sank. Everything that happened yesterday surged up in an instant, like a dark sea with high waves. After passing a wave, overwhelming pressure came towards me, pressing me under those sea waters, and I would never be reborn. At one point, I wanted to collapse again. I wondered if I should run away. Xiao Shan had already looked up and saw me. The expression on his face was very serene, which gave me the illusion that nothing happened. After I walked over, I only felt relieved. It turned out that he was not surfing the Internet, but just playing games. I knew that I was too self-deceiving, and he would know everything sooner or later. But I don't want to think about anything now, if this is drinking poison to quench my thirst, then let me die, anyway, I shouldn't be alive. If Xiao Shan knows, and I just bury my head in the sand, I hope he will never Know.

He put down the mouse and asked me: "Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?" "I want to eat noodles." "I'll cook for you." I was in a trance for a while, time and space overlapped so much that I felt at a loss, the old-fashioned house was so familiar yet so strange, as if we had never left. The kitchen was very quiet, the water in the pot gradually boiled, Xiao Shan lowered his head and cut the tomato: " I stayed here for a few days a while ago, so there are still vegetables in the refrigerator." I didn't tell him that I've been looking all the way here, but I didn't find him.

The noodles he cooked were delicious, and he put a lot of tomato and beef sauce on them. I ate a big bowl. Xiao Shan didn’t let me wash the dishes. He wore an apron and stood in front of the sink for a while, and then finished washing the dishes. Put it on the rack to dry, and finally wiped your hands and took off the apron. I have never seen Xiao Shan like this, like a family man, not the boy who used to argue with me about how to make tomato scrambled eggs . The room is very quiet, I have never felt so peaceful in all these years. We watched TV together after dinner, the news was still the same, who the leader met, what meeting was held, Xiao Shan didn't say anything to me, and he didn't ask me anything.

Maybe it's because I slept all day during the day, and I didn't sleep well at night. I had a dream, and I dreamed of that apartment. The corridor was far and long, and I walked for a long time. It was the first time I went to such a luxurious Compared with the apartment, the so-called star hotel in our school is much inferior. The decoration in the apartment is very elegant, there are snacks and black tea on the coffee table, it's time for afternoon tea. Holding the teapot in one hand, the tea was tricklingly poured into the cup. The cup of tea was very fragrant, with a special aroma that made people drowsy.His cuffs have delicate platinum cuffs, which are small golf balls. The bright silver light flickers under the lamp, and his face is also flickering, making it difficult for me to see clearly.

The cold fingers brushed my face, such an abrupt move made me want to dodge, but I was groggy, and all the strength in my limbs seemed to be taken away.I was so frightened that I wanted to scream, but the voice was hoarse in my throat. I wanted to struggle, but I had no strength. The remaining sanity seemed to be gradually disappearing. Finally, I screamed out in pain. Someone stretched out his hand to hold my mouth. There was a faint smell on that person. Once that smell soaked in the darkness, it seemed familiar. The faint fragrance seemed to be absent, which made me feel nauseous, and my sanity gradually recovered. My eyes seemed to be dim in the dark, which made me panic and screamed to escape.

I was woken up by someone shaking, the overhead light was not too dazzling and hazy, Xiao Shan was holding my shoulder, calling my name, it was Xiao Shan.I was still sobbing, and hugged his arm tightly, I only hoped that he never left me, everything was just a nightmare, I had a nightmare, when I woke up, I would know that these three years were all a nightmare. Xiao Shan didn't move, and after a while he asked, "Are you dreaming?" He slept next door, apparently hastily put on a T-shirt, not even a jacket.His breath was very clean, almost only a faint smell of bath liquid.The fragrance in the dream gradually entered my memory like a poisonous snake, and I suddenly remembered what kind of fragrance it was - it was the smell of Tiffany men's perfume, it was Mo Shaoqian - what happened in the past few dozen hours The matter suddenly came back to my mind, I really escaped, and fled here with Xiao Shan desperately, Xiao Shan didn't know what I was running away from, but I knew it myself.This is just a safe corner, he didn't ask me, he finally came back and took me away, he was by my side, but it was so far away that I couldn't touch it at all.

I don't know what Xiao Shan is thinking now, I grabbed him like a drowning man grabbing the last straw.But this is immoral, I have done immoral things once, facing Xiao Shan, facing Lin Zixian, I should never do it again. I finally let go and murmured, "I'm leaving." He didn't speak, just looked at me. I feel like I'm starting to tremble again. I fled here just to make ends meet. I know that all of this is just a moon in the water, a flower in the mirror. Sooner or later, I have to face it. There should be no place for me here in Xiaoshan. land.I still have to go back and face everything I deserve.I got out of bed and searched for my coat everywhere, I shouldn't have dragged Xiao Shan in, into such dirty things.

Xiao Shan quietly watched me struggling to put on my coat, he finally spoke, his voice seemed very calm, as if with some kind of forbearance: "Do you still want to go back to him?" I suddenly felt like my legs were weak and I couldn't stand anymore.It turns out that he knows, it turns out that he knows everything.I took a step back and looked at him with some despair, the corner of his mouth seemed to be smiling: "I used to think that you and Mu Zhenfei were in a relationship—in fact, things on the Internet will be quiet in a few days, I I think your boyfriend is definitely not an ordinary person, he will definitely find a way to quell this kind of discussion, you don't have to worry too much."

Every word of his is like an arrow, and every one of them is deeply saved towards my heart.I looked at him desperately, and he looked at me calmly, I couldn't see the emotion in his eyes, I didn't know how he looked at me.disdain?No, he even gave me his scorn. If Xiao Shan knew, the words that I had thought over and over again came out again in my heart, if Xiao Shan knew...my only hope is him. But now even he is discouraged by me, I just She is a morally corrupt girl who loves vanity and destroys other people's families, so everyone knows that I sell my soul and body for money, for a rich man's money.

I deserve it. I opened the door, turned around and rushed out. The voice-activated lights on every floor in the corridor turned on one after another. I stumbled and walked down almost without touching the ground. Every step of the stairs stumbled under my feet, but I didn’t fall. I Pushing open the door of the building, it bounced shut and smashed the night behind me with a loud "bang". I ran in the silent darkness, aimlessly like a headless fly, all the buildings were exactly the same, I was in They go back and forth among them. I don't know the way, it's like a huge maze, I bump into it, like a fly bumping into the transparent glass, and I'm blocked again and again, I can't find the way out. I heard someone Calling my name, but I just run forward desperately, the boy who loves me has already left, he turned and left me, and then left me alone in that dark world.

Someone suddenly grabbed my arm from behind, and I struggled desperately. Xiao Shan was so strong that I couldn't break free from him. I bit hard on the back of his hand, but he didn't withdraw his hand, but buckled it with the other hand. Hold my face and kiss me like that. The whole world is spinning, I tremblingly paralyzed in his arms, the moment my lips and teeth meet, I almost fainted, his warm breath paralyzes my limbs like an electric current. He hugged me, with Kissing me like a brute force. He bit me hard, and I cried, because I couldn't forget, forget him, forget that the sweet and sour first kiss was here. After all these years, when he kissed me again, I cried and trembled. He hugged me tightly and murmured my name. He said something, confused, I don't know what he was talking about, I don't know what I'm talking about. I let him half-drag and half-hold me back to the warm room. He held me in his arms, kissed me over and over again, and called my name over and over again: "Tong Xue...Tong Xue..." His voice was deep and painful, "I love you...don't leave me again..." I was crying out of breath, I grabbed his clothes, I will not let go, this is the Xiao Shan I have always loved. He said he loves me, he told me not to leave him again, he said over and over again : "I went to find you the next day, but you were not at home. I called on the third day, but you were not at home. I asked your cousin to tell you. I have been waiting, but you did not return my call. I waited For a few weeks, I watched you every day at school, but you ignored me. I didn't expect you to be so cruel and proud... From that day on, you never ignored me again ..." When did that happen? It must have been in the previous life. I don’t know what he was talking about, he talked about the past over and over again. It turned out that he had looked for me the day after we broke up, but my cousin didn’t tell me, maybe she just Forgot. But I didn't call him, he always thought I really didn't care about him anymore. For so many years, what have I missed? I have missed Xiaoshan, I have missed the person I love the most, I have missed everything. An accidental phone call was just a young man’s moment of anger. I thought he would never talk to me again. He thought that I would ignore him again, after that it was the third year of high school that was so busy to despair, after that we were close to each other. What did I miss? I was so out of breath from crying, I couldn't help but tell him, what happened to me, the grievances I suffered, the hardships I suffered, everything I suffered, I thought about it a long time ago Said to him, but I can't find him, I can't find Xiao Shan. I let myself cry in his arms, choked up, told him all the things intermittently, all those unspeakable things Everything, all the humiliation, everything that made me despair, my voice was broken, I never expected it all I had the opportunity to say to him, that night of despair I never intend to recall, it was outrageous What happened to me, and I was like the fish on the chopping board, despite being plundered almost violently, everything I lost could never come back, and the memory made me tremble with despair. Those humiliating nights seemed to recur over and over again, and I lost half of my strength. I felt like I was pressing down on a huge stone, or I was drowning in water. I kept sinking, sinking, but I couldn't struggle. ....everything is gone from me, and I will be trapped in the darkness of despair forever. No one knows what I have suffered, no one knows what I have endured... I endured it over and over again, forcing myself to endure the humiliation, I kept lying to myself, if Xiao Shan knew... .If Xiao Shan knew... If Xiao Shan knew, he would never let me suffer from that. I will never forget the first time I met Mo Shaoqian. It was a celebration of an industrial company in the school. Mo Shaoqian came to participate in the ribbon-cutting ceremony as a guest. At that time, I had just entered the university and was selected into the school etiquette team because of my height. , Practicing walking in a cheongsam every day. Mo Shaoqian stood beside me when the ribbon was cut, because it was the first time I encountered such a formal occasion when I entered the etiquette team. The underground was densely packed with people, and there were many reporters in the front row and the camera, I was so dizzy in my head that I completely forgot about the usual rehearsals. After Mo Shaoqian took the scissors, I was still a little at a loss with the ribbon. Finally, when he scissors went down, I just reached out to hold the scissors. The colored ball, but his scissors tip accidentally poked my hand, and round blood droplets came out. The teachers and leaders were all sitting under the stage. I endured the pain and kept silent. At that time, he turned his face to look at me, and I only remember his eyes, which were very sharp and thoughtful, as if what was bleeding from my fingertips was not blood, but something else. I endured the pain and kept smiling. Everyone was clapping and applauding. Fireworks and confetti were flying on the stage like a rain of flowers. He put the scissors back on my plate and applauded with everyone. But I always felt that I was uneasy because of his glance just now. When he looked at me, he didn’t look at me as if he was looking at a person, but as if he was looking at something else. I endured it until I walked backstage with the colored balls, and all the people found that my hand was in my hand. The girls in the etiquette team were bleeding, but Mo Shaoqian suddenly appeared in the background, walked towards me, and pressed my wound with a clean handkerchief. I didn't expect that people still use handkerchiefs these days. There is a faint fragrance on the handkerchief. Later, Yue Ying told me that it was the smell of Tiffany men's perfume, which is not sold in China. "He must be a rich and elegant man." I still remember Yueying's tone at that time, "It's a pity I didn't go to see the ribbon cutting, this kind of man is really good at talking!" Yueying reads romance novels every day, and is immersed in love. in the fantasy of love.And I forgot about it within a few days. On weekends, I packed up and went back to my uncle’s house as usual. Except for going to the bus station at the south gate, I didn’t expect a car to suddenly stop beside me. Mo Shaoqian was dressed very casually that day, his T-shirt and trousers looked very ordinary, if it wasn’t for the sunglasses, I would definitely have taken him for some teacher in the school, I greeted me, but I didn’t recognize him for a while, thinking I think he must have admitted the wrong person. But immediately he called out my name, so I had to ask him a little embarrassedly: "Who are you?" The sunglasses covered his eyes, so I couldn't see his expression clearly, but he was probably smiling and asked me: "Are your hands better?" It was only then that I remembered who he was, but there were a lot of guests that day, either this president or that president, I really can't remember his last name. He seemed to see through my embarrassment, and extended his hand to me, "Mo Shaoqian." I quickly reached out to shake his hand. This was the first time I dealt with a mature man other than my relatives and teachers.He is elegant and personable.Knowing that I was going home, he offered to give me a ride. "Just on the way." He opened the door for me very gracefully, "You don't mind?" I still wanted to take the bus by myself, but although his tone was negotiating, he was overbearing, obviously used to giving orders and controlling everything.I was still hesitating, but he already smiled: "I am not a human trafficker." At that time, I was still not used to dealing with people like him. I just thought that a boss like him was kind.I took his ride back to my uncle's house, and he chatted with me while driving, knowing that I wanted to work and study, and while waiting for a red light, he gave me a business card: "A friend's company recruits college students as temporary workers." Part-time jobs are all about handing out leaflets or sales promotions on the street. It's hard work, but the daily salary is not bad. If you are interested in calling, just say I introduced you." At that time, I just wanted to find a job to reduce the burden of living expenses---although my aunt would give me money on time every month, but I really wanted to be self-reliant, which also made my self-esteem easier.I called the phone number on the business card, and the other party informed me to go for an interview, and I was successfully admitted.Part-time work is indeed very hard. Every weekend, I do a certain drink promotion on the side of the road. I have to fight against the urban management, but I can earn 60 yuan a day. I think it is very worthwhile. For this, I am very grateful to Mo Shaoqian. When he called to kiss me for dinner, I didn't even think about where he got my mobile phone number.I just feel very embarrassed, even more embarrassed to say that I should treat him to dinner. After all, he is a boss. For a poor student like me, even if he wants to invite him to dinner, he will look down on him. That day Mo Shaoqian took me to the private kitchen. The food was very delicious and the price was not as expensive as I imagined. I felt very at ease, so I boldly said: "Mr. Mo, why don't I treat you to this meal?" .Thank you for helping me find a job." He hesitated for a moment, but agreed. The dinner that day cost me more than 300 yuan. On the way back to send me, he said to me: "For so many years, except for business entertainment, you are the first woman to invite me to dinner." I just giggled, thinking that such an excellent person as him must have many girlfriends, and I didn't notice at all that he classified me as a woman or not a girl. I don't know the purpose of Mo Shaoqian's relationship with me, he doesn't call me often, at most he invites me to dinner every ten days and a half.Although I am a little curious about his life, I also feel puzzled.I didn't understand what he meant until he gave me a necklace for my birthday. Although I don't know how expensive the necklace is, I also know that it must not be cheap if it is studded with diamonds.I can't understand how stupid it is for a man to give such an expensive gift.I refused to accept the necklace, and faltered and murmured to him incomprehensible words, he must have understood, he didn't say anything, just looked at me with a half-smile.That meal was the most tasteless one I ate, and I think I will never be able to be friends with him again in the future. I quit my part-time job, and while I needed it badly, I was used to not owing anyone anything.I locked myself in the house for the whole winter vacation and didn't go anywhere.During the Spring Festival, I discovered that the atmosphere at home had become very strange since at some point, and even the lively cousin became silent uncharacteristically.I carefully followed my aunt's words, and only then did I know that my uncle was in some trouble at work. I never dreamed that this trouble would have anything to do with Mo Shaoqian. On the third day of the new year, my uncle invited a very important friend to dinner. Because he invited the whole family of the other party, my uncle also accompanied the whole family, and even I was taken away.I still remember that friend of my uncle, whose daughter is in the second year of high school, with mediocre grades and partial subjects. Hearing that I am a student of X University, he asked me about my score in the college entrance examination, and immediately praised me again and again. My daughter asked me for advice on how to study. I wanted to do my uncle a favor and offered to give that girl a free tutor. The uncle's friend was very happy, and he drank a few glasses of wine with him, and made an appointment every Saturday and Sunday afternoon after school started, I would go to tutor the girl in mathematics and chemistry. I still remember that weekend, it was cold and rainy all the time.I took a slip of paper with the address on it and prepared to go out with a few reference books.Because of my sensibility, my aunt was very kind, and she handed me an umbrella when she was about to leave the house: "Be patient when giving tutoring, and don't be too strict with her little girl." But how can you teach her to learn without being strict?I have no tutoring experience, so I am a little nervous.I took the note, got off the subway and transferred to the bus before I found the place. I've never been in a high-end apartment that didn't let me in until the security guard called.There are elevators for each household, and the corridor is extremely quiet. The snow-white marble has been polished so that it doesn't look like it's for people to walk by. I feel a little embarrassed about the wet footprints every step of the way. After ringing the doorbell, I straightened my clothes, organized the reference books with one hand, and tried to change the angle of the wet umbrella with the other to prevent water from dripping on the beautiful marble floor. The door opens automatically from the inside, I've never seen a remote door lock, so I'm curious.The entrance is covered with a thick carpet, and I don't know if I need to change my shoes. The room is so quiet, it seems that there is no one there. I took two steps carefully along the carpet, and finally saw the living room. There are snacks and black tea on the coffee table in the living room. Holding the teapot with one hand, the tea was poured into the cup, Mo Shaoqian was pouring tea with his back to me, and said, "You came on time, it's tea time." His voice is calm and calm, as if he is the master of this house.I stared at him with wide eyes, not knowing why he was here. He turned his face away, as if nothing had happened, and smiled at me: "Come and have some dim sum." I miss that cup of tea, it has a special aroma that makes people drowsy.I didn't dare to look at his face, my eyes kept drooping, and I only noticed that there were exquisite platinum cufflinks on his cuffs, which were in the shape of small golf balls. The silver light flashed under the lamp, which looked very chic.I don't know how to tell him, I rejected him early on, didn't I? He showed me some things, all of which were documents and so on. I tried my best but couldn't understand them. I only knew that they were all signed by my uncle. "Article 383 of the Criminal Law stipulates that individuals who embezzle more than 100,000 yuan shall be sentenced to fixed-term imprisonment of more than ten years or life imprisonment, and may also be sentenced to confiscation of property; if the circumstances are particularly serious, they shall be sentenced to death and confiscation of property. His voice seemed to be talking about the weather, "Counting those zeros, your uncle can probably be shot several times." I looked at him hastily and couldn't say anything, what the hell did he mean? His cold fingers brushed my wrist, as if casually: "Actually, there are many ways to make you give up on me, and there are many ways to make you change your mind about me, but my patience is very limited, I don't want to waste time, and you are not worth it." I'm wasting time. It's simple, you let me get what I want and I promise it won't be in the Anti-Corruption Bureau." I looked at him dry-mouthed: "What do you want?" He still looked at me with a half-smile, and I suddenly understood that I couldn't do it.I wanted to leave, but I was so dazed that I didn't even have the strength to get up from the sofa.He stretched out his hand to me, but his face was also far and near, making it difficult for me to see clearly.As soon as my body lightened, I was already hugged by him. I will never forget that terrible afternoon, the bed was soft, but my body was heavy, and it was dark all around, I wanted to cry but couldn't cry, my whole body lost half of its strength, and it felt like a huge stone was pressing on my body , It’s like drowning in water, sinking, sinking, but unable to struggle... Everything is gone from me, and I will always be trapped in the darkness of despair... I don’t even have the energy to cry , I couldn’t move at all, my limbs and bones no longer seemed to be my own, and my whole body seemed to be cramped and skinned.It's like the legendary dragon girl whose scales have been pulled out—but I know in my heart that this is not a punishment from God, but a fate, and it is my fate. My sanity gradually recovered, and I realized what I had lost. I curled up at the corner of the bed, clutching the quilt tightly, desperately wanting to die.And Mo Shaoqian came out of the bathroom wearing a bathrobe, and said to me nonchalantly: "Take a shower before going back, people will see you like this." I want to kill him, use whatever I want, even if I want to kill him, I just want to kill him.But he approached me, I trembled all over, wanted to grab the bedside lamp, or something else to throw him on the head, but he just leaned over and patted my face: "Remember to be on time tomorrow, or you know it will be late." What are the consequences." I came home late at night, and my uncle and aunt were asleep. I opened the door with the key, climbed upstairs, covered myself in the quilt, and let myself cry.The next day I slept at home all day, and my aunt knocked on the door to remind me that I had to go to make up lessons for that girl. I just said that I was not feeling well. I heard my aunt make a phone call outside to apologize, and said loudly, "Oh, I'm so sorry, she's sick. This child is delicate, and she can't get up if she catches a cold..." I suddenly understood the cause and effect, and it turned out that this was a situation. , a game set by Mo Shaoqian.He turned out to be so capable and powerful that even his uncle, a very important friend, was in collusion with Mo Shaoqian. I went to school anxiously on Monday. I tried my best to forget about it. I couldn't tell my uncle, and I didn't call the police. I thought what Mo Shaoqian said might not be a lie, and I didn't want to implicate my uncle.It was as if I had been bitten by a mad dog—I comforted myself desperately, as if this had never happened, and I went back to school as if nothing had happened. I only attended class for half a day. At noon, my cousin called me and told me in tears that my uncle had been taken away by the police station, saying that he was suspected of a duty-related crime.My hand holding the receiver was shaking badly, it turned out that Mo Shaoqian wasn't threatening me, it turned out that these things were true. After I hung up the phone, I received a call from Mo Shaoqian, his voice was so calm that nothing happened, he just asked me politely: "Do you have time to have dinner together tonight?" Mo Shaoqian is a devil, a real devil.I was forced to submit to him and let him have whatever he wanted.He flew me to a seaside city, where he had a villa, and those few days in the seaside villa were the worst nightmare of my life.Until now, as long as I see the sea view outside the floor-to-ceiling windows on TV, I will feel palpitations.Those white waves seemed to come straight at me, smashing me to pieces, reminding me of the worst things that have ever happened to me. When we came back from the beach, my uncle was safe and sound.