Chapter 8 chapter eight

What I never dreamed of was that the person Mo Shaoqian was waiting for was actually Mu Zhenfei. When the waiter led him over, I was dumbfounded. I thought I was wrong, or the dry ice made me hallucinate, but that person was really Mu Zhenfei.Even though he was wearing a suit, even though he looked strange to me, but he was Mu Zhenfei. Mu Zhenfei also seemed to be very surprised, but he only glanced at me, and then turned his head to look at Mo Shaoqian. Mo Shaoqian sat there without moving, and only asked him: "Sit down." Then he turned to tell the waiter: "The food can be served."

--------------------------------------- I don't really know what I'm thinking anymore, I just don't dare to look up, twisting the napkin with both hands, as if the napkin was my own neck.This is the first time when I was with Mo Shaoqian and I met someone I knew. I was a little bit suffocated with shame. I mustered up the courage to say that I was going to the bathroom, but Mo Shaoqian ignored me at all, he didn't With a tense face, he only looked at Mu Zhenfei: "This winter vacation, you go back to the company for an internship. I have already told Shibang that he will let someone take you." "I have an appointment with a classmate from the Mountaineering Association during the winter vacation, and I am going to climb a mountain." Mo Shao Qian's tone seemed very calm: "Mountain climbing? The injury you suffered on Mount Everest last year still makes you unable to remember your lesson? You are irresponsible to the board of directors by doing this."

"It's enough for you to be responsible to the board of directors, chairman." Don't think that if you make me angry, I will let you go about your business. No matter how many excuses you have, you have to go back to the company for an internship this winter vacation. "Mu Zhenfei looked at him, and suddenly smiled, he was still so handsome when he smiled, showing charming dimples: "Let's talk about it later. "The two of them ignored me, and they were just talking to each other. But I felt like I was in an ice cave, and my fingertips were so cold. The waiter began to serve the food and pour us wine. Mo Shaoqian finally turned around and said to me: "Your wound is just right, don't drink. "Then someone changed the juice for me. I couldn't even smile at him. I only thought that Mu Zhenfei's family should be very good, but I never thought that he would have a relationship with Mo Shaoqian, and the relationship Not too shallow. Could he be Mo Shaoqian's son—no, Mo Shaoqian is only thirty-two years old this year, he can't have a son who is studying in college. Maybe it's his younger brother, but why isn't his surname Mo? ?Although I don’t know much about Mo Shaoqian, I also vaguely heard that his father was self-made and was just catching up with the economic boom. He started from a chemical plant and later made dock containers. He passed away suddenly when he was young, so Mo Shaoqian, who was at the age of weak crown, was forced to suspend his studies abroad and return to take charge of the overall situation. He originally studied business administration, but after more than ten years, he has made great progress. Life experience has always been a bit of a legend, for rich people, TVB's filming is terrible.

I'm not interested in the grievances of wealthy families. In fact, what does it matter to me if Mu Zhenfei is Mo Shaoqian?Mu Zhenfei knew my identity, at most he despised me, and regarded me as a passerby from now on. I don't care, I figured it out and decided to chow down on the signature dish here. Halfway through the meal, Mo Shaoqian walked away for about ten minutes because he answered a phone call, only Mu Zhenfei and I were left in the seats.I didn't say a word, I still ate my favorite whitebait soup.Mu Zhen Fei didn't say a word, he ate in a very refined and orderly manner, just like the way the teacher usually demonstrates in the laboratory, the beakers and test tubes are all handled with ease, it really makes me

I feel flustered. After Mo Shaoqian came back, he didn't talk to him any more.All three were eerily quiet at the table, and the result was that I was so full I couldn't even eat the last dessert.Mo Shaoqian said to Mu Zhenfei: "Ask the driver to take you back." "No need." "You should think about the internship—" Before he finished speaking, Mu Zhenfei finally showed a side he rarely showed, and seemed a little impatient with childishness: "Okay, brother-in-law, I know all about it." I've been bombarded so much tonight that I'm a little numb.

On the way back, I sat very peacefully, looking at the blurred lights outside the car window. The night scene of this city is always so noisy.I know that Mo Shaoqian's driver recognized Mu Zhenfei, that's why Mo Shaoqian arranged the dinner tonight.I don't know who invented the word "dinner". It's really a game, set up under the pretext of eating.Mo Shaoqian remained calm throughout the night, I don't know what he was thinking, anyway, I can never understand him, it is really tiring to guess his thoughts. Or he simply warned me to stay away from Mu Zhenfei, in fact, it doesn't take such a big trouble, as long as he tells me that Mu Zhenfei is his brother-in-law, I promise to run faster than Nezha.It's not that I'm not afraid of death, nor that I'm shameless. I will actively and consciously avoid anything related to his wife, let alone his wife's younger brother.

When I got home, I said embarrassingly, "I won't make this kind of mistake in the future." He glanced at me while unbuttoning his cuffs: "I don't plan to handle such a stupid thing for you again." In fact, I really wronged Mu Zhenfei and me. I can guarantee that Mu Zhenfei never had any unreasonable thoughts about me, and I never had any unreasonable thoughts about him.real. Now I'm a little afraid of Mu Zhenfei's composure, he was too calm tonight, and the previous Mu Zhenfei was too calm, I don't know if he already knew.I thought I kept my improper relationship with Mu Shaoqian well hidden. No one in school should know about it, but there is no impenetrable wall in the world. Maybe everything is just me deceiving myself all the time.But Mu Zhenfei is so calm, according to common sense, no matter what, he should stand up for his sister, right?Or Mu Shaoqian is too bold, he is not afraid that his brother-in-law will sue, and then his wife will make a fuss with him?I suddenly felt chills, because I remembered how I met Mu Zhenfei back then, wouldn't he have known about my relationship with Mo Shaoqian long ago, so he deliberately took the phone and threw it at me?

Both men are so unfathomable that it scares me. Mo Shaoqian described this as a stupid thing, and I also felt that I was extremely stupid, being manipulated by others. Mo Shaoqian beckoned to me, and I lingered beside him like a cute boy, wondering if I should continue to criticize him, or sacrifice my appearance to blur the past.I was still at both ends of the mouse's head, but he didn't Give me time to continue to think, he made full use of the time on my sacrificial hue. After Mo Shaoqian left, I resumed my peaceful campus life.Going to class, finishing get out of class, eating, fetching water, Mu Zhenfei seemed to disappear out of thin air, never to be seen again.Yue Ying got up and was puzzled by this matter, I laughed and said, "Could it be true that someone will boil water for me for a year? That's a joke. Besides, they are about to graduate and they are busy."

I didn't inquire carefully, but this year's seniors, which ones are not extremely busy, are taking postgraduate entrance examinations even if they don't go abroad, and are looking for jobs even if they don't take the postgraduate entrance examinations, not to mention Mu Zhenfei, a man with a bright future like Mu Zhenfei.Thankfully, when the scandal between me and Mu Zhenfei was completely over, I took the initiative to narrow down the scope of my activities, and stopped following Yueying and Zhao Gaoxing for dinner. In order to avoid meeting Mu Zhenfei, I hid more and more people. So many, even I don't know how many people I have to hide, because I can't see the light.The person I didn't hide from was Lin Zixian, I don't know how she got my phone number, maybe I told her too much when I ate mutton last time.Last time I said too much, what should be said and what should not be said, I can't remember what I said, I just remember that I talked on and on, as if I was afraid that if I stopped, something terrible would happen matter.The fact is that terrible things, if they do come, cannot be stopped.

I lingered in the dormitory for a long time, changing clothes and combing my hair. I couldn't linger any longer, so I grabbed my bag and went downstairs to see Lin Zixian. Lin Zixian invited me to a coffee shop outside the west gate, saying it was a coffee shop, because it was mainly for students, and the price of sweets and drinks was not expensive.I ordered pearl milk tea, and Lin Zixian ordered green tea, and subconsciously bit the tube of the milk tea. When I was nervous, I liked to bite things, such as biting the cup or the drink tube. Mo Shaoqian corrected it many times, but I changed it. But come on, I still make this old problem when I get nervous.

This is the first time for me to visit this store. The store is not big but the music is very soft.This kind of place is good for conversation.Lin Zixian said on the phone that she wanted to talk to me, but I had no idea what she wanted to talk to me about. Today's sun is very good, coming in through the large glass window, just obliquely shining on the clear glass in front of her, floating and sinking inside, is the fresh green tea, slowly unfolding in the water. I was taken aback by her behavior. In my impression, she was always a lady in high school, she was from a famous family, followed the rules, and she would never have the bad habit of smoking.I shook my head instinctively, she had already skillfully took out the lighter and lit it, and said to me: "I learned it in my freshman year, and then I couldn't quit." She paused, and smiled at me, "A lot of Once the thing started, I couldn’t stop it anymore.” I looked at her who was puffing, and felt strange and far away. Through the faint bluish-white smoke, her face without makeup was as smooth and plump as before, which reminded me of In high school, we were still sitting in the classroom, dealing with teachers and exams every day heartlessly, and had a lot of youth to squander—but now, youth is already like sand in our hands, the more we try to hold it Tighter loses faster. She finally spoke, still with that indifferent tone, but ruthlessly pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray: "Tong Xue, can you do me a favor?" I asked: "What's the matter?" Under the light sunlight in winter, her thick and long eyelashes are like dragonflies by the pond after the summer rain, perched on the shadow of clouds and skylight, making people incomprehensible."Xiao Shan's grandma passed away last week," she said. I couldn't help but "ah", that kind old man, last time Xiao Shan said that grandma was in the hospital, I always wanted to visit grandma, because she has always been very kind to me, but I was afraid of seeing Xiao Shan again. Did not dare to go. "You know his parents have been abroad for a long time, and what happened to his grandma hit him hard. He took three days of bereavement leave, and he should have come back to class, but he didn't come back, and no one knew where he was. His phone was turned off. , didn’t go back to the dormitory, didn’t go home, I couldn’t find him, and everyone couldn’t find him.” I murmured, "I haven't seen him." "I know." Lin Zixian looked at me with big dark and deep eyes. "It's just that I have no other choice. I've searched all the places I could, but I just can't find him. I'm worried that if I miss class again, the department won't be able to hide it. I don't want to ruin his future because of this matter." What's the trouble, if you can see him, can you stop trying to persuade him. " I looked at Lin Zixian in some bewilderment. She who has always been proud and arrogant would come to say these words to me, she must be really desperate. She can't find him, but where can I find him, since he left me, I can't get him back. There was no class in the afternoon, so I accompanied Lin Zixian to find a few more places, and called some of Xiao Shan's good classmates who had taken the exam in other places, but Xiao Shan hadn't contacted them either.We even went to my alma mater in high school, a place I thought I would never set foot again.The students just finished school, and there were many people playing basketball in the huge playground braving the cold wind.Listening to the familiar "bang bang" sound of a basketball hitting the ground, Lin Zixian and I stood by the playground, looking at those young men in full bloom with a sense of loss. Nothing came out, and it was almost dark when I came out of middle school.I was tired and hungry, but Lin Zixian seemed very calm, as if she was used to such disappointment: "Go back first, and I'll think about where he might go. If you think of it, call me." I took the subway back to school alone, and just as I got out of the subway station, I suddenly found that it was snowing, and the cold wind was rolling small snowflakes, blowing on people's faces like knives. Under the orange street lamps, the crystal and fine snowflakes look like a mess of flowers. I remember breaking up with Xiao Shan, it was also such a cold evening, the weather was so gloomy that it seemed to snow. I still remember that it was almost dark at that time, he was wearing a school uniform, and his tall figure could be seen standing in front of the flower bed from a distance.My uncle’s house is an old-fashioned community, with evergreen trees originally planted in the flower beds. As the dusk gradually rises, it looks faintly like a low gray fence, and he stands in front of this fence. I put my head down and put my hands in my pockets.Because I came down in a hurry, I even forgot to put on my gloves, and my ten fingers were still cold in my pocket.I don't know what he's going to say, the two of us have been in this weird deadlock since a few days ago, I won't talk to him, and he doesn't want to leave me.Bits and pieces, everything makes me feel bad.This kind of sadness has nowhere to confide, it is mixed with complex and delicate emotions.I miss my mom, I think if I had a family, I would be better off.But I was at a disadvantage, because I had no home, I only had him, and he knew it clearly.I stood with him in the twilight for a while, I was very afraid that my uncle would come back soon, if my uncle or aunt saw me standing here with a boy, then I would jump into the Yellow River and I would not be able to clean up.So I said, "I'm going up." "Are you angry that I agreed to run the English school newspaper with Lin Zixian?" The tone of his mouth made my heart freeze. He didn't understand at all—I suddenly had the urge to turn around and leave—a Chinese practice problem I did a long time ago. I forgot everything about the topic. It is about a paragraph in Li, and there are four options below, one of which is the answer: "This text shows that Baoyu and Daiyu have different personalities, which fundamentally caused the tragedy of Baodai's love." At that time, I was the first to rule it out, and I thought it was ridiculous what kind of option it was.How could Baodai have a discordant personality?They are in love with each other, and their love tragedy should be caused by the evil feudal system—who knows that the standard answer is actually this personality mismatch, which shocked and surprised me. But the only one who can make Sister Lin vomit blood and burn manuscripts is Baoyu. He knows her too well, and he doesn't understand her too well. I tried to pretend to be calm: "What does it have to do with you and Lin Zixian running a newspaper? Why should I be angry?" "Aren't you angry?" He was aggressive instead, "Why don't you even have the most basic trust in me?" I looked at him from afar, and his eyebrows frowned slightly, obviously angry at my unreasonable making troubles, and in his heart, I was making unreasonable troubles.He clearly knows that I am afraid of the relationship between him and Lin Zixian, because I am terrified, I am afraid - too many people regard them as a couple of golden couples, but I am the Cinderella who accidentally climbed up to the prince, always worried Princes will fall in love with real princesses.I suddenly became a little disheartened: "Whoever you want to run a newspaper with or associate with, it has nothing to do with me anyway." He seemed to choke on my words, and after a few seconds, he sneered: "I know what you're thinking." I can't bear his eccentric look, I was choked by him, and I said: "It doesn't matter to you what I think." He said nonchalantly: "Since this is the case, let's break up." My heart seemed to be pricked by a needle, as if I didn't hear what he said clearly. We had some troubles before, but I never thought——I never thought that he would say something like this, I pursed my lips and clenched my teeth to prevent them from making a trembling sound, but my face was as if nothing had happened.I once thought that with him, there would be the whole world, but now the whole world has abandoned me.Self-esteem and instinct returned in an instant, and I heard my own voice clearly and sharply: "Then let's break up." He turned around and left, striding away without any regrets, I watched his back gradually go away Go, shivering from the cold. Many times I dreamed about this yellow mistake, dreamed about his turning around, I woke up crying again and again in my dreams, but I didn't have the courage to catch up with him and tell him that I don't want to break up with him. After a long time, I realized that there is a person destined to be in this world. Although the time he belongs to you is very short, if you want to forget him, you need to use up your whole life. I walked back to school from the subway station alone, without taking a taxi or taking a bus.I am very tired from walking.During this section of the road, I kept thinking about Xiao Shan. I haven't thought about him like this for a long time.Every time I deliberately avoid this name, I hide him very, very deep.Too many things have buried my thoughts about him, and I have very little time to miss him in a fair way, and I have never had such a luxury as this evening. When I walked back to school, the cafeteria was already closed. I dragged my feet, which were numb from the cold, to the small shop outside the west gate, and ordered a bowl of sliced ​​noodles.Before the noodles came, I took the disposable chopsticks and unintentionally rubbed the burrs on them.I thought hard, guessing where Xiao Shan would go.Will something happen to him, will he hide somewhere alone—I've lost loved ones, and I know how maddening it is.There is no one to comfort you, because there is no one else who has had the same experience as you. The wind was very cold in the morning, so I walked along the alley, where there are old family quarters, with tall gray cement walls on both sides.I almost lost my way, and finally found the courtyard gate of the community.The light was still on in the guard room, but no one was seen. The big iron door was closed, but the small iron door was open.Some people returning from the morning were struggling to move the battery car, and the car's feet stepped on the threshold, making a crisp crashing sound.I walked in after the man, and the guard didn't come out to question me. I didn't feel lucky, because I was shaking all the time, and I couldn't even walk smoothly. I didn't know whether it was cold or afraid. The old-fashioned buildings one after another, like silent beasts, crouching in the dim light of the morning.I shuttled back and forth among them, but all the buildings were almost exactly the same. When I looked up, I could only see the gray sky in the midwinter morning.My legs and feet were weak, and I finally sat on the flower bed.The flower beds are covered with sub-bricks, which is icy cold.Looking at it from such a distance, all the houses seemed familiar. There were lights on in a few windows, and there were old people exercising in the morning jogging in the cold wind-I sat on the flower bed, exhausted, and I knew I must not find it. The coolness permeated my entire body, my feet were numb from the cold, and my legs began to cramp, but I didn't want to move.The little match girl was actually the happiest before she froze to death. If I could freeze to death here, I should be happy too.After all these years, I buried my whole boyhood, I thought I had exiled myself, but I came here like a madman. The opposite corner of the wall is gray and white, and the rough cement has been smoothed out. Someone wrote on it with chalk: "Xu Youyou loves Zhou Xiaomeng." The handwriting is crooked, or it is just an ignorant elementary school student. When I was young, there were often bored children who would do such things, scribbling in the corner of the wall with chalk.I wrote who loves so and so like a prank. At that time, I didn’t know what love was. I just thought this word was very mysterious. Once someone wrote it on the wall, I would be angry for several days.It wasn't until I understood it that I realized that this word is so desperate. I don't know how long I sat there, the weather was so cold that my brain was almost frozen.When I hold my phone, I can almost hear my frozen joints rattling. I called Lin Zixian, her voice was still sleepy, I saw the time on the phone, it was seven o'clock in the morning.Even my tongue was frozen, and I told her inarticulately: "I guessed where Xiao Shan might be." She seemed to wake up all of a sudden, and asked me eagerly. "His aunt has a house, please write down the address." I told her the address and everything, and she thanked me again and again, or only if I really love someone, would I care so much about his safety and happiness.With the last of my strength I hung up the phone and dropped my head into my knees. I didn't have the courage to face the past at all, and when I mustered up the courage, I couldn't find Xiao Shan again. It wasn't until I got on the return train that the heating on the train brought me back to my senses.I was very hungry, so I went to the dining car and ordered a bowl of noodles, and the master chef prepared it in a while. The noodles are served in a huge bowl, and there is quite a lot of soup, but there is a smell of seasoning.The dining car was covered with white chain-link tablecloths, the train was running extremely steadily, and the noodle soup was rippling slightly. I slowly rubbed the burrs on the disposable chopsticks, recalling the city that the train had just left.I know that the sliced ​​noodles in that alley shop are very delicious.Because Xiao Shan once took me there.I still remember that it was very spicy, Xiao Shan was so hot that the tip of his nose was red, and his forehead was covered with crystal clear sweat. He quietly told me: "I learned to eat noodles with chopsticks here when I was a child." I couldn't help laughing: "Then how do you eat? With your hands?" "With a fork, of course," he said. I still remember the way he smiled at that time, the bright eyes were full of my shadow. The summer vacation of the second year of high school was the happiest summer vacation in my life, because I got a scholarship, almost every day I could find an excuse to come out and be with Xiao Shan.We went boating in the park and he took me swimming and taught me how to play squash.One day we even secretly bought train tickets and went to T City to play. "My aunt went abroad, and the key was handed over to me. No one else knew about this place. Sometimes I would hide here alone, because my grandparents lived in T City when I was a child, and I stayed in this city for the longest time. At that time, I was sent back to China during the summer vacation every year. The old-fashioned family area was actually very lively. There were many children of the same age, and everyone played games together. I think spending the summer vacation here is the happiest thing.” Smiling softly, "They called me Little Foreigner, because when I first came back, I couldn't speak Chinese very well, and Mandarin was not as fluent as English. Also, I couldn't eat noodles with chopsticks." Xiao Shan always holds chopsticks with his left hand, as well as a knife. I always laugh at him as left-handed.At that time, he was cutting tomatoes in the kitchen, without even looking up: "What's the matter with left-handers, left-handers are better than people who can't cook." I stuck out my tongue, not daring to provoke him anymore. It is rare that there is an old house that is free and well-equipped. The summer in T City is very hot, and it happens to be noon, and the sun is scorching hot. After walking a few steps from the supermarket, I'm sweating all over.There is a freezer selling cold drinks on the side of the road. Xiao Shan bought me a salt water popsicle: "Try it, I loved this since I was a child, and it tastes better than all ice cream.". .I sucked the salt water popsicle all the way, and followed him back home, feeling like a child, being led by an adult and not caring about anything.It felt amazing and reassuring. . .When they got back to the old house, both of them were sweating profusely, blowing on the old humming air conditioner for a while before recovering. . .Xiao Shan asked me: "What kind of food do you know?". .I told him without blinking: "Egg fried rice.". .In the end, it was Xiao Shan who showed his skills, although his level is not very good.The two of us huddled together in the kitchen, and I insisted that the tomatoes and eggs should be put into the pan together. Xiao Shan said that the tomatoes should be fried first, and finally the oil pan was heated. When I saw him pour the tomatoes in, I quickly put the eggs into the pan. Also fell in. . .The oil pan that had just boiled was very hot, and the egg liquid was blown up and splashed onto my hands, making me scream, Xiao Shan grabbed my hand and put it under the faucet, worrying while rushing: "Where is it hot? ". .The cool tap water slid over the back of the hand, and the scalded area gradually became numb.Xiao Shan's arm was still around my waist, his hand was really hot, his palm scalding, through the thin skirt, I just felt his hand was like a piece of iron, it was so hot that it made me panic.I don't think it is now, so I said embarrassingly: "It doesn't hurt anymore...". .The kitchen is very hot, and the range hood is still rumbling. In the summer afternoon, everything seems to be completely silent, and even the sound of the TV in the living room seems to be in a trance.Upstairs and downstairs are all silent, my heart is beating almost faintly, and his face is slowly lowered, he is much taller than me, in such a close view, his eyelashes are really long and thick, those thick eyelashes It came straight towards me, and I was so scared that I was dumbfounded.The moment my lips touched, I just felt like a frying pan that just barely ignited with a bang. . .All the moisture seemed to be evaporating from my body, and when his lips finally left mine, my face must have been as red as a tomato.I don't think he's much better, because his neck is red, and I feel dizzy in my head, like I have a sunstroke, and I can't breathe. . . "Breathe in!" His voice was very low, as if he was murmuring hoarsely, and I really forgot to breathe, and I gasped in embarrassment when he reminded me.I pushed him hard: "What are you doing!". .I don't know why I am so fierce, in fact, I feel more embarrassed.His face was flushed, and his hands were still holding my waist, as if it was not good to let go, and it was not good to not let go.The oil pan was still sizzling, I pushed Xiao Shan away and ran over to pick up the spatula, but fortunately there was no paste, I took the spatula and fried the tomatoes and eggs, my mind was still dizzy.And he was like a child who did something wrong, silently on the sidelines. I turned off the fire, turned around and asked him as nonchalantly as possible: "Where's the plate?". .Later, when the plate of tomato scrambled eggs was brought to the dining table, Xiao Shan grabbed his chopsticks first, and I remembered that no salt was added.But such a big plate was eaten by me and Xiao Shan. . .The first kiss in adolescence is like sweet and sour tomato scrambled eggs, even without any seasoning, it is the best taste in the world.