Chapter 2 Chapter Two

The forests around the Ganlu Temple are verdant, rainy, cloudy, dripping with nectar, quiet and pleasant.I slept quietly for half a day, and the pain in my body eased a little. The abbot was a little sympathetic to me because I was not feeling well, and only told me to rest well before talking about anything else.I fell into a drowsy sleep all day long, and didn't pay much attention to the affairs in the temple, nor what Jinxi and Huanbi were doing. I only know that the two of them don't always stay by my side together, and the corners of their eyes and brows gradually show a little tired look.

I can't bear it all the time. That day in Tangli Palace, all the palace servants who served me begged to leave the palace with me. Liuzhu died early, Huanbi naturally wanted to follow me.If not, she was married into the palace by me, and she will be bullied in the future if she lives in the palace. Both Xiao Lianzi and Xiao Yunzi are disabled, leaving the palace is equivalent to losing their support and shelter, not to mention that it is not convenient to live with the first-class aunts in the Ganlu Temple. Obscure Moon has been entrusted to Concubine Jing, so naturally some people around me will follow.After all, serving Ozuki is like serving the old master.It was Concubine Jing who wanted to comfort me and took away Pin'er, Pei'er and Xiao Lianzi.

I'm also relieved, after all, Xiao Lianzi has some kung fu, and he is honest and honest, with him by Ozuyue's side, it must be difficult for someone to plot against him. Mei Zhuang also asked Xiao Yunzi to serve her in the palace.In the past, Xiao Yunzi was the most proud inner eunuch by my side. Once I left the palace, he had to suffer from a lot of fragmentary tortures. Mei Zhuang also liked that Xiao Yunzi was smart and capable, and he could also help Mei Zhuang to be her arm. Meizhuang and Ozuki are the two people I can't let go of in the palace. Fortunately, Meizhuang has the protection of the Queen Mother, and others dare not do anything in Mingli.Secretly, I entrusted Wen Shichu and Xiao Yunzi to do their best to protect Mei Zhuang.

As for Ozuyue, Concubine Jing has no children, so she must treat her as her own.She is on good terms with me, has a high status, and is very popular in the palace, so she is the best candidate to raise Obscure Moon. Only Jinxi, she insisted on leaving the palace with me, I was surprised. She is quite well-known among the court ladies, she is a gentle person of the fifth rank, and she has served the concubine before.You really don't have to follow me through hardships. I originally thought that no matter how bad it was, I could let her follow Concubine Jing to take good care of Ozuki.But she made a statement to me, "It's perfect for the emperor to have Concubine Jing take care of her. There is no need for servants to get in the way of Concubine Jing. If you want to practice cultivation, you must have people to serve, and Miss Huanbi is not enough. It’s not good to make her work hard alone. This is a perfect opportunity for a servant to worship Buddha since she was a child. I only hope that the maid will not dislike the clumsiness of the servant. I only see that the servant has been dedicated to the lady for the past few years. I beg the lady to take it Slaves go out."

She spoke like this, but I couldn't push it anymore, so I had to bring her out too.Fortunately, Jinxi is shrewd and capable, but she is really indispensable everywhere.And soft words to comfort, understanding and understanding, she often comes to comfort my lonely heart. On this day, Jinxi was sitting in the courtyard with her head bowed and mending a piece of clothing, while I carefully twirled nanmu beads into a string of Buddhist beads. The sunlight penetrates faintly through the white cotton window paper, as thin as a layer of glass gauze, soft and light.On the table is a white porcelain Guanyin statue, with a wide forehead and plump face, and a benevolent face. When you look at it, you will feel kind and honest, with a compassionate attitude that can save all living beings.Three sticks of sandalwood are burning in front of the Avalokitesvara statue, and the cigarette smoke curls up like mist, faintly and faintly.

Jinxi smiled and said, "Miss is in good spirits today, why don't we go for a walk outside together. The scenery around Ganlu Temple has always been quite famous, so it's good to go and have a look." Jinxi's hospitality was only to relieve my pent-up thoughts, I didn't know why, so I agreed, and the two walked out together. Outside of Kyoto, there are many mountains and green hills, and their ups and downs overlap like green barriers, connecting each other.The towering part goes straight into the sky, while the low part is winding like a beautiful woman's jade arm.Among the peaks, Misty Peak, Saga Peak, Ganlu Peak, and Lingyun Peak are the most famous. Misty Peak and Saga Peak face each other far away, and Ganlu Peak, Saga Peak, and Lingyun Peak are connected to each other. good.

The mountains and waters are all vast, and it seems unreal in the lingering space between the smoke and water, as if the whole person is completely integrated into it.I looked at the mountains, rivers, clouds and mist in the distance, and the scenery was at ease. The feeling of fatigue when I left the palace swept over my heart again and invaded my heart, lungs and bones.My heart was empty, and I said lightly, "Jinxi, if we can live peacefully in Ganlu Temple like this for the rest of our lives, then I have nothing else to ask for." Jinxi said softly: "We are far away from right and wrong, and right and wrong will never find us again. The lady can rest assured."

The mountain wind was strong, blowing a corner of my gray Buddhist robe, like a withered butterfly, wearily spreading its wings. "The ancient Qingdeng Buddha, if he can end his life like this, he will be considered pure." Jinxi sighed slightly, "The current situation is pretty good. Based on the situation of the day, if the lady does not ask herself to become a monk, she will either be given death, or sent to Jin Leng Palace, or the emperor will seal Tangli in a fit of anger. The palace, so that the lady will live forever and never see the sky. If someone makes trouble, the end will be worse than today."

I bit my lip, and the disgust and resentment in my heart could hardly be restrained, "Zi'ao City is so filthy and dark, I would rather live forever and never go back. I only have pity on my Obscure Moon, who will never see me again in this life." Jinxi pressed my slightly trembling shoulders, her hands were strong and firm, "Not everyone can walk out of the place where the lady can walk out alive. The lady must believe that sometimes not seeing each other for a lifetime is also a kind of preservation. The emperor Ji is like this, and so is Yu Niangzi's family." Jinxi sighed and said, "I hope my lady can think clearly so that she can sleep peacefully every night."

I don't understand Jinxi's words.Since entering Ganlu Temple, I have never had a good night's sleep.Many late nights, I almost opened my eyes and watched the sky turn from twilight to the pale morning light in the east.The change of light and shadow casts light and shade on the window paper, and I can understand it with a little change. How many times, in the dark night that seems to never end, I bit my lips and curled my fingers, completely forgetting the pain of my lips being bitten and my palms bleeding from nails, so as to resist all kinds of pain in my heart. Unwilling and humiliating.But I can only do nothing, watching them gnawing and moth wantonly on my already broken heart until it is incomplete.

Knowing that he is powerless to resist, he has no choice but to bear it. I have sleepless nights.How did Jinxi not know?Even Huanbi, I also heard her weeping under the quilt.Weeping for my parents and elder brothers who are far away from me, weeping for my sister-in-law and Zhining who have suffered so much. The long night is long, Geng Geng Qiu Deng.This is the season when autumn flowers are bleak and autumn grass is yellow. Autumn nights are endless, and it seems that there will never be a bright day. Even if you wait until dawn, how can the gloom in your heart be illuminated for a moment? I was silent, just silent. When he returned to the room, Huanbi had already brought the food and put it on the table.Seeing me coming back, I couldn't help complaining: "The abbot has already greeted the kitchen, saying that the young lady is still in confinement, and she needs to take extra care of things that can eat heavy oil and meat, but the food delivered is still without a drop of oil. Yes, let alone meat. Of course Jinxi and I have nothing to do, but the young lady is still in confinement, so what can I do if I don’t take care of myself?" After Huanbi finished talking, I just picked up my chopsticks and said quietly: "It's a quiet place in Buddhism after all, how can you touch meat, and don't look like I'm too out of line. It doesn't matter what you eat, just eat enough." "Thinking of those days when Tangli was banned, even the food was rotten, and I still ate it raw." Jinxi frowned slightly, showing distress, "Did Niangzi and Miss Huanbi pay attention to the fact that the abbot is called the abbot, but he has a natural temperament. Gentle and cowardly, he cannot control the people in the temple. Although he wants to take care of his wife, he is still powerless." Huanbi interjected: "Why can't you see it? When we came here, we just said that the two of us are serving the young lady. But it's only been two days. Are there still not enough men sent by Master Jingbai and the others?" Jinxi said: "Although there is a lot of money for sesame oil in Ganlu Temple, the nuns in the temple usually have to starch and wash clothes by themselves and do some rough work. Once we come, many things like washing and washing are entrusted to us. Sending them under the fence, Naturally, we can't argue with it. Fortunately, these tasks are what slaves and Huanbi girls are used to, so there's nothing wrong with them." "I'm afraid..." Huanbi said anxiously: "When the time comes, they will make more progress, and even the young lady will have to work hard together." I bowed my head silently, chewed the vegetarian dishes in my mouth, and said calmly: "I am already in Ganlu Temple, even if I am asked to do rough and heavy work, I should do it." I held the hands of the two and said earnestly: "It's just embarrassing You are always working hard for me." Huanbi lowered her head with tears in her eyes, and sobbed: "Now my eldest sister is the only relative left by my side. As long as I stay with my eldest sister, I will not complain about anything." Jin Xi also said: "Since the servant girl is willing to go out of the palace to accompany the lady, no matter what difficulties she encounters, she is willing to do so." I was deeply moved, and sighed: "From now on, only the three of us will depend on each other for life." Huanbi wept softly, and sobbed: "There is nothing wrong with us, but the eldest sister is so thin, I am really scared when I see it." In Huanbi's words, I was caught off guard and saw my current face.I haven't looked at myself in the mirror for a long time, when the depressed face in the dim brass mirror came into my eyes in a panic, even my heart felt a moment of resistance and disbelief, could it be me? Me?A pair of dead gray eyes dormant above the abruptly protruding high cheekbones.The sorrow and pain in the eyes have sunk to the bottom, like the sand after the waves have washed away, lying silently in the depths of the gloomy bronze mirror, without waves, just like an ancient well, no matter how you wash it, even if it breaks into pieces Ying Qianbo, after all, quickly returned to calm, so dim that there were no tears to shed, and he couldn't help himself.The person in the mirror is so strange, I know it is me, but I still can't believe it, this is me now. Although her face is haggard, she hasn't changed much after all, but these eyes are really like an old woman who has been ill for many years, or like a flower that was once full and in full bloom, silently withering and dying in the cold wind. head. Once upon a time, most of my beauty came from these eyes, which were as agile as pearls, danced lightly, and rippling like waves.Whether happy or angry, my daughter's family can't express their thoughts in words, but they are sent out from a distance with a glance, and naturally someone with a heart will understand. And the killing and decisiveness in the palace is cruel and fierce, whether it is an enemy or a friend, it is not the exchange of this look.Gradually, scheming gathered in his eyes, he smiled when he wanted to cry, and accumulated tears when he wanted to laugh, which melted away the bright and directness of the girl in the boudoir. Even the king's favor, contempt and affection, and the amorous feelings at the corners of the brows and eyes suddenly grew in this way, offsetting the girl's ignorance and ignorance.In this way, she grew into a woman in an instant, possessed the so-called allure and amorous feelings in an instant, all of which were contained in the corner of her eyes. It turns out that the heart that is so old and dead, I thought only I knew it.But I don't want to, what I can't hide is my eyes, which are so old and stagnant. Sad and clear. It was rainy at night and the wind was drooping, and the cold rain "plopped" and knocked on the window paper. The iron horses on the eaves of the Ganlu Temple "ding ding" in the wind and rain, and the rain dripped from the eaves, like a soul-inspiring bell. The human brain is about to burst open. I dreamed one dream after another in a trance.People seem to be divided into two halves, one half is awake, with a simple and ignorant consciousness, while the other half is still asleep, sleeping so soundly, as if it will never wake up. In a daze, as if it was still in the red-walled palace, the long vermilion and pink walls on both sides of Yongxiang were so long, like two red dragons winding down endlessly.The bluestone slabs in Yongxiang are so smooth, and Jinxi is vaguely holding my hand. The two of them walked together, as if they were going to Shanglinyuan to enjoy the scenery, or something else. walking.On the other hand, Jianqiu came over, Shi Shiran gave a salute, and said with a smile: "The Empress invited Concubine Guan to enjoy the flowers, and Xiaozhu An is also here, and she has been waiting for her for a long time." Jianqiu's face seemed to have been painted with a lot of gouache, and it was extraordinarily white, not so white as her own, so white and tender, but a bit like Concubine Hua.So I also laughed: "The empress is invited, and the concubine will go immediately." So I held Jinxi's hand and started to walk. But after taking two steps, there was the voice of liuzhu behind her, she saw her rushing towards her, her face was flushed red because of her hurry, it was so red, as if she was about to bleed.She tried her best to shout: "Miss, don't go! Don't go! You can't go!" I wondered: "Liu Zhu, where did you go, I haven't seen you for a long time. Now you are in such a panic, what are you going to do?" I was just in a daze, the queen and An Lingrong had already arrived in front of me, all smiling.The queen was wearing a bright red brocade dress, and said with a pleasant face: "Concubine Guan, why didn't you come here in a hurry? You have never been like this." Although the queen's words were kind, they were extremely heavy. I hurriedly wanted to kneel down, but my knees were extremely stiff, and I couldn't kneel down no matter what.I was so panicked that cold sweat was dripping from my forehead.Turning her head in panic, she saw that Jian Qiu's gaze was dark and deep, her eyelashes were covered with extremely fine and gorgeous gold beads, and when she raised her head impressively, she turned into the appearance of Concubine Hua, with a strand of hair on her lips. With a sneer, he said quietly: "What? Concubine Wan Gui, don't you want to kneel down to the old woman, the Queen?" I was terrified and terrified.Ling Rong smiled like a flower, and gently waved to me, "Sister, come quickly, the queen treats us best. Sister, come, Rong'er is here too." She smiled softly, very charmingly, but that smile was like Like a stock-cutting steel knife, it gouges out on the body, and it hurts unceasingly. I don't know when Concubine Qi walked out from behind the Queen and Ling Rong without a sound, and said coldly, "Empress Empress, Concubine Wan Gui is so disobedient, how can I punish her?" The queen's smile is still noble and decent, and her gestures and gestures are full of the grace and demeanor of the mother of a country.She smiled and said: "Concubine Guangui has the emperor's heart the most, how can I be willing to punish her? Not only will I not punish her, but I will reward her well." She called Lingrong softly, "Go and reward Guangui with Shuhen glue. Concubine." Then he said to me: "Shuhen glue is the best for nourishing the face, Concubine Wan, please use it well, the emperor will love you more when he sees your concubine's beautiful appearance, and your concubine will give birth to an heir for the emperor as soon as possible. A crack suddenly appeared in the queen's perfect smile, and she said in a resentful tone: "Maybe, after Concubine Wan Gui used this scar-soothing glue, the president will become more and more like my dearest sister, Queen Chunyuan. That's really true." Congratulations." When Ling Rong was walking, she was full of wind, and she walked in front of me carefully holding the Shuhen glue. The powdered Hanchun persuaded: "Sister, use it well, the empress's words are always right." I screamed in horror, and tried my best to push away the Shuhen glue that Lingrong sent to my eyes.Ling Rong didn't take it seriously at all, just smiled softly, with a smear of Henzhi glue on his fingers, his complexion suddenly changed, becoming vicious, and he wiped the Henzhi glue on my face vigorously. The cool and fragrant touch and smell of Shuhen glue made me scream in fear, and I tried to turn my head away, but Ling Rong's technique was so quick and precise, how could I dodge it. Concubine Hua stood aside with her arms folded, her voice was resentful and hollow, and she said, "Now you understand that your child is gone, it's not because of me, nor my Huan Yixiang." She burst out suddenly, as if crying Smiling like crazy, she pointed at me fiercely with one hand, and shouted sharply: "I didn't harm your child, but the one who harmed my child is also the queen! We don't know, we don't know!" She grabbed her head On the ground, the eyes almost burst into flames, and wept loudly, as if in madness: "You have Shuhenjiao, I have Huanyixiang, how can we have children! We are all poor people without children! "Her forehead broke instantly when it hit the ground, and in an instant, fresh blood gushed out, dripping continuously, as if countless bright peach blossoms bloomed on her cheeks and clothes, like the spring scenery all condensed on her body, but there was no trace of it. I thought it was beautiful, but I saw it was terrible. The queen's voice suddenly sobbed, like a woman in a lonely boat, she was full of complaints, and sniffed: "You are pitiful? Isn't this palace pitiful?! What you died is just an unformed fetus. And this palace, I watched my son die in my arms with my own eyes—your children, what are you pitiful for!” The dark cloud-like haze on the Queen’s face suddenly disappeared, and she said with a smile: “My dear concubine , I have something good to reward you." She winked slightly at Concubine Qi, Concubine Qi's expression changed, and she hugged a pistil red brocade robe, slowly shaking it, but it was a pair of pearls paired with peacocks. The pattern is brocade, densely embroidered with gold thread and pearls to embroider passionflower with blue cloud pattern and twirling treasure phase flower.Xiapei uses twisted silver thread to make a picture of Xiaoxiang with clouds and water, dotted with rhinestones, which is gorgeous and elegant. Ling Rong covered her lips and smiled, her brisk voice was like an oriole, but at this moment it sounded sharp and piercing, "Sister has always been noble and generous, this is perfect for her. This dress was worn by Empress Chun Yuan when she first entered the palace Sister, please take good care of me!" Saying this, she cast her eyes away, and Concubine Qi couldn't help but wrap her clothes around my body, like a giant net falling from the sky, entrapping me tightly, and I couldn't escape , Can't struggle, I can only watch myself like a dying fish in a fishing net, struggling and resisting, it's all futile. I was anxious and hated in my heart, and turned my head in fear. Bright and bright blood slid down drop by drop from her vermilion neck. The redness seemed to stab someone's eyes. With a sad face, she turned her head slowly and said: " Miss, Liu Zhu has to go, I can no longer serve Miss." For a moment, I forgot that I was still in the net, and shouted with all my might: "Liu Zhu, where are you going? Why don't you want me!" Liu Zhu smiled faintly, the sadness on his face was like stagnant running water, and said softly: "Miss, our master and servant have been in love with sisters for a while, and now our relationship is over. The young lady and the young master are very lonely down there. They are taking care of them, Liu Zhu has to go and serve them, Miss, take care of herself." I felt like my heart was hit by a stone, and finally couldn't help crying.But she saw that her sister-in-law was vaguely the same as before, charming and lovely, holding Zhining in her arms and saying: "I used to call you Niangniang, but now that we are no longer together, I will call you 'Little Sister'. Zhining and I are blessed, we cannot Now that you have followed your husband, you and your husband should do well. Don't make us who have taken the first step feel uneasy." Zhining's cry seemed to be still in my ears, and I burst into tears, "Sister-in-law, tell me the truth, how could this happen?" The sister-in-law shook her head and sighed, "Sister-in-law just think about it, how can you easily get malaria in October weather?" On the other side, Xiangling Rong smiled with a smile on her lips and teeth, and she swayed the feather fan, and said prettyly: "No matter how beautiful the peach blossoms are, they are just common things after all. How can it be as charming as the oleander." The sister-in-law only smiled lightly, and responded: "Is that so? Peach blossoms and oleanders belong to the same family, so why bother to fight each other too quickly! Even if there is a distinction between right and wrong, it's only based on people's hearts." Mausoleum is neither arrogant nor impetuous, and with a fan covering his face, he said with a smile: "Human life is hard to protect by oneself, so how can we talk about people's hearts. In this life, life and death are clearly distinguished. Miss Xue, let's go and cultivate the next life!" In the ambiguity of the dream, Ling Rong called her sister-in-law, but in the end she only replaced it with a clear "Miss Xue". I don't want to try to compare the scale and entanglement.Just keep crying.The gray sideburns and aging faces of my parents appeared in front of my eyes like a revolving lantern, and I couldn't grasp them even if I stretched out my hands, and I couldn't call them back even if I tried my best.My brother's face also seemed to be covered by the damp miasma in the south of the Five Ridges, becoming more and more blurred and dim, and finally disappeared.