Chapter 11 Chapter Ten I Hate My Sanity

After Zhi An left home, he was like a kite with a broken string, and never heard from him again.Gu Weizhen was also anxious and searched, but there were too many similar cases of missing persons. Reporting the case at the police station was like disappearing, and newspapers also published notices of missing persons for a period of time, but there was no news after all.Most of the people who knew the Gu family didn't know the inside story. They only knew that one of the flowery twin girls lost their sight and the other disappeared overnight. They couldn't help but sigh.It's just that in people's impression, Zhi'an has a wild and used temper, dares to do anything, dares to break into anywhere. Although it is surprising that such a girl has any restless behavior, but thinking about it carefully, it is also expected middle.So everyone is more sorry for Zhiyi, such a gentle and lovely cardamom girl, because of such an unexpected accident, she will never see the light again for the rest of her life. It is really a cruel thing.

The driver of the van that caused the accident was also found, and it didn't take too much trouble. The driver was a temporary worker hired by a food wholesaler. He would go to the school cafeteria twice a day to transport goods. He was an honest and honest middle-aged man. I usually work hard, but I have a habit of drinking a little wine with meals, and I have been reprimanded by my boss more than once for this. However, that night he drank a lot and failed to control the speed at the corner of the campus. , unexpectedly saw Zhiyi sitting on the road head-on, she lost control of her hands and feet in shock, and even stepped on the accelerator by mistake to rush over, which resulted in a catastrophe.After the accident, he was as frightened as anyone else, and he didn't flee the scene, but just waited blankly with Ji Ting and Zhian for the arrival of the ambulance and traffic police, and then he was detained.Of course, the Gu family hated him deeply. His momentary numbness and carelessness disabled the innocent Zhiyi for life, and even brought drastic changes to their whole family.Not long after Zhi Yi woke up, the relevant departments also came to a conclusion on the traffic accident. The driver was mainly responsible for the accident, which caused serious injuries to others due to drunken driving, and was sentenced to compensate the victim RMB 150,000. Inability to make compensation shall be sentenced to three years in prison.

The driver's family has elderly parents and a pair of young children in the countryside. His wife has no job. He is the pillar of the family. If he is imprisoned, the whole family will completely lose its support.However, 150,000 is more than an astronomical sum for this family. It can be said that this accident also means a catastrophe for his family.His wife sold the only real estate in the city and all the valuables at home, and the old parents in the countryside also sold their properties at a low price, and borrowed all the relatives who could borrow, but they only got a little over 100,000 yuan, and they were unable to raise any more. That's a penny more, and he was fired by the food wholesaler immediately after the accident.In desperation, his wife rushed to the hospital where Zhiyi was with their two young sons.At that time, Zhiyi had just left the intensive care unit, and Gu Weizhen and Wang Fan stopped the woman outside the ward. She cried and begged Gu Weizhen and his wife for forgiveness, described the plight of the family, and repeatedly begged whether the remaining 50,000 yuan could be postponed temporarily. As long as her husband stays out of prison, no matter how hard the family suffers, they will definitely pay back the rest of the money.

Gu Weizhen and his wife are not cold-blooded and heartless people. However, the most beloved daughter is still lying on the hospital bed next to the door, and what awaits her may be a life of darkness. All this comes from the driver's carelessness after drinking , Let them calm down the hatred in their hearts.So, at that time, the woman was crying, and Wang Fan was also crying. In the end, she only said to the woman: "I don't care if you can pay off the rest of the money, because no amount of money can exchange my daughter's eyes. I was only eighteen years old, and your husband's carelessness ruined my daughter's life! You asked us to be merciful, but who is merciful to us? It's only three years in prison, to tell you the truth, I wish he could spend his entire life in prison!"

Her words made the woman completely desperate. In desperation, she cried a lot and had to accept her fate and leave.When Gu Weizhen and his wife returned to the ward, they saw Zhiyi sleeping on the hospital bed with her eyes closed, as if she was in a deep sleep, but the pillow towel was wet. That evening, both Gu Weizhen and Wang Fan were accompanying Zhiyi in front of Zhiyi's bed, and Zhiyi who had been silent all this time suddenly said, "Forget it, mom." At that moment, Wang Fan didn't understand the meaning of his daughter's nonsense sentence, he was taken aback for a moment, and then realized, "Have you heard everything during the day?"

Zhiyi didn't answer her mother's words, she just said, "So what if that person spends his life in prison? Can Zhi'an come back? Can my eyes see again? Mom, hating him won't make us feel better." Seriously injured Her unhealed voice was still weak, but every word and every sentence was clear. Both Gu Weizhen and Wang Fan were silent, Zhiyi seemed unable to speak anymore, but there was pleading written on her face.Seeing her expression, Gu Weizhen and his wife were both heartbroken and sad, "Zhiyi, you child, you think of everything for others, but who will think of you?" Wang Fan shook his head while holding his daughter's hand.

But Zhiyi groped her mother back, "I have you, Mom. It doesn't help to hate them, just count it as a blessing for me..." When it came to this point, Wang Fanhong stared, not knowing what else to say.On the contrary, Gu Weizhen, who had been silent all the time, said, "In this case, let's take care of the child. That driver is having a hard time, forget it, why bother to worry about things that are irreversible, Zhiyi is still young, and the road ahead is not easy. Long, we should plan more for her future." Now that it was agreed, Gu Weizhen called the driver's home that night, and the other end of the phone was naturally very grateful for the amnesty.It wasn't until more than four years later that the family paid off the remaining compensation, but they were grateful for the forgiveness of the Gu family. Every festival, they would call them or visit them in person. Gu Weizhen and his wife had no intention of accepting their gratitude. It's faint, and Zhiyi has never been willing to meet that family. For her, forgetting that period of the past and rearranging her future life is the most important thing.

After Zhiyi returned home from the hospital, her eyes were unable to recover. Due to the trauma to her hands and feet, a long process of rehabilitation and adaptation to blindness followed.Wang Fan is the school doctor herself. Under her care, Zhiyi's condition is not good, but she is slowly recovering. Ji Ting also spends as much time as possible by Zhiyi's side. For blind people, blindness in adulthood is far more painful than blindness in childhood, because they have seen a colorful world, and facing darkness is even more cruel to them.Sometimes Wang Fan didn't know what Zhiyi was thinking, because she never complained, after that long silence, she seemed to have silently accepted this fact.Sudden changes and injuries made her grow up a lot overnight. No one thought that Zhiyi, who has always been weak, would be so strong, even Wang Fan thought she was not as strong.

The first days were difficult. After graduating from high school, they could only give up their university life. Watching their classmates and playmates who grew up together go to their respective universities, Gu Weizhen and Wang Fan always try to avoid being in front of Zhiyi. Speaking of which.Zhiyi was also aware of her parents' cautiousness. She smiled lightly and told her parents that in fact, she was not a talented person in her studies, and she was not as hopeful about going to school as they imagined.What's even more troublesome for her is that she has to start adapting to the completely dark world, recovering, walking gropingly, distinguishing directions in a daze, and learning to use ears and hands instead of eyes... At the beginning, she kept falling down, even After living at home for eighteen years, the place where I thought I could come and go freely with my eyes closed, turned into a primitive jungle when I really couldn't see it, and it was difficult for me to walk alone.

After she fell down, her body was bruised and bruised several times. Afraid that her parents would worry, she always gritted her teeth to hold back the pain and refused to make a sound, but Wang Fan usually knew what happened from the messy traces of knocked-over things at home. , opened her clothes, saw bruises everywhere, heartache was unbearable, looking back, it was Zhiyi who comforted her mother, saying it was okay, don't be sad. From then on, Wang Fan adopted Ji Ting's suggestion and discarded all unnecessary furnishings in the home. The remaining simple and necessary furniture was basically made of smooth and soft materials, and the corners and corners that were really unavoidable were also wrapped with sponge and cloth. Get up and make it as convenient for Zhiyi to walk in her own home as possible, even if she falls, she won't be hurt too badly.

As Zhiyi said, even though she is a relatively stupid child, she suffers more than others, and slowly, there will always be a day when she adapts to all this.Six months after she was discharged from the hospital, she was able to move about at home and basically take care of herself. Gu Weizhen hired a Braille teacher for her. She was a middle-aged woman in her forties with rich experience and a kind person.Coming home every afternoon for tutoring, Zhiyi also began to learn to touch words with her hands instead of her eyes.At this time, she insisted that she no longer needed her mother to ask for leave frequently to take care of herself at home. After she repeatedly insisted on emphasizing and reassuring, Wang Fan had no choice but to resume normal work. Fortunately, as Zhiyi said, she has learned to work on her own. Taking care of herself, she was safe at home alone. At this time, Ji Ting was the one who accompanied Zhi Yi more.The two of them are close to each other and used to be close. Ji Ting is a medical student. Apart from his normal study and living time, he spends most of his free time accompanying and taking care of Zhiyi.At the beginning, Gu Weizhen felt a little sorry for bothering Ji Ting, until one day Wang Fan pulled him at the door of the study and quietly motioned him to look at the two people who were learning Braille together in the study.Sitting next to Ji Ting, Zhiyi's smile is so warm, serene and sweet, and her long-sick face seems to be full of spirits again, this kind of happiness has never been there even when her parents are with her, and the girl's heart is clearly revealed. Gu Weizhen suddenly realized. At dusk, Ji Ting and Zhi Yi took a walk together on the campus path they had walked countless times when they were children. Twenty-year-old Gu Zhiyi could already rely on a guide stick to walk freely on the familiar road alone. They don’t talk much during this period, and sometimes when they walk to places where the road conditions are not very good, Ji Ting will naturally hold Zhiyi’s hand, and Zhiyi also confidently follows the direction guided by him, and he will only let go after walking through that section. The two returned to the posture of walking side by side, and the two had a tacit understanding as if they were born like this Sometimes Ji Ting also felt that he might have known Zhiyi in his previous life, so when he was with her, there was always a kind of incomparable naturalness and kindness, which could also explain why when he saw her cry for the first time when he was a child, he felt Heartbroken. He felt that he should take care of this girl as a matter of course. She was his closest partner since he was a child, his sister, who he had always been determined to take good care of. Looking back on the conversation between the two when they first met, it was unexpected.He didn't want to delve into whether there were other reasons for his dedication. What happened that night, he did nothing wrong, and he never regretted it, but where did the guilt and guilt come from. He had something on his mind, he didn't even notice a small patch of water after the rain in the low-lying place on the road in front of him, he instinctively went around, and suddenly remembered that Zhiyi was invisible, and when he wanted to remind her, she had already Stepped in.The stagnant water wet her shoes and splashed onto her light-colored skirt. She reacted and exclaimed in a low voice. Ji Ting hurriedly led her away from the stagnant water and saw her stained skirt. Apologetic and regretful at the same time, Zhiyi shook her head and said it's okay, "It's good to see what you can't see, and dare to go anywhere." She said with a smile. Ji Ting was half squatting down and wiping the mud on her skirt with a tissue. Hearing what she said, he raised his head and smiled at her. He knew she couldn't see his smile, but he always thought she could I can feel that she has always been an understanding child. A passerby passed by and saw them squatting and smiling at each other, and couldn't help joking, "Look at this young couple..." Zhi Yi blushed, "Is it Aunt Zhou?" She can basically recognize the voices of the people she usually knows now. As for acquaintances, the footsteps are enough. "Zhi Yi, Ji Ting is not bad, I think you are a good match since you were young." Aunt Zhou looked at the young men and women in front of her kindly, she felt sorry for Zhi Yi from the bottom of her heart. Ji Ting also recognized that this was Aunt Zhou who lived nearby, Chen Lang's mother, she was also the vice-chairman of the school trade union, and was in charge of the school's female workers.He stood up from Zhiyi, "Aunt Zhou really knows how to joke. Zhiyi, the shoes are dirty, let's go back." "Goodbye, Aunt Zhou." Zhi Yi said goodbye obediently, and then left with Ji Ting. "Goodbye." Aunt Zhou also smiled, and said to Ji Ting's back as if she suddenly remembered something: "By the way, Ji Ting, our family Chen Lang went home on vacation a few days ago, you are high school classmates, you have time Go home and play." Ji Ting continued to walk two steps forward, then turned around and smiled at Aunt Zhou, "Okay, Aunt Zhou, I will definitely go when I have time." Chen Lang, if she doesn't mention it, this is a name as far away as the previous life.Ji Ting is not a sociable person. Many old classmates in the past gradually lost contact with him. Occasionally, he would hear about the whereabouts of other people from Liu Jilin, who called himself the "Prince of Intelligence". He has graduated from a bachelor's degree, except for a few who are also studying medicine like him.He remembered that Liu Jilin mentioned that Chen Lang returned to the south after graduating from university and worked in G City not far from them.Liu Jilin has always been at odds with Chen Lang, so when he was mentioned at the time, he murmured: "That guy Chen Lang, I never imagined that he would be like a dog after graduation..." Seeing Ji Ting's expressionless face, he added He said, "Oh, Chen Lang, don't you remember? It's the one who was good at drawing and playing basketball in high school. He thought he was a handsome guy and cheated a lot of girls..." Ji Ting didn't say it, but he actually remembered this Man, he will never forget that it was at dusk, when the eighteen-year-old stood in a backlit corner, looking at the figure of Chen Lang embracing that person, he felt a feeling that he had never experienced before. , the feeling mixed with sourness, annoyance, self-abandonment, resentment, and disappointment, which spread in his heart but could not be expressed in his mouth, he didn't know until a long time later that it was called jealousy. After sending Zhiyi back, Ji Ting returned to his home.Both Ji Peiwen and Xu Shuyun were at home. Seeing their son coming back, Xu Shuyun asked, "Are you going out with Zhiyi?" "En." Ji Ting nodded, and walked into his room. Xu Shuyun and her husband looked at each other. In the past two years, they have become less and less aware of their own son. To be honest, Ji Ting is still the same as he always was when he was a child. There is no choice in any aspect. Outsiders don't know how envious they are of having such an excellent and sensible son, but only parents know best. Behind his smile is an invisible silence. The more impeccable he is , As perfect as it is, the more people can't see clearly what is thinking in his heart.If it is said that in the past two years he was only a little rebellious behind the back of introversion, now he is doing every right thing seriously, walking in the right direction, it seems that he has a feeling of ashes . Ji Peiwen and his wife didn't know what happened, but they both vaguely felt that it should have something to do with the Gu family sisters. After all, it was Ji Ting who witnessed the accident that night. Later, Zhi An left and Zhi Yi became blind. Never really had fun again. "Ji Ting, wait a minute, Dad has something to tell you." Ji Peiwen stopped his son, and when Ji Ting turned his head, he patted the sofa beside him.Ji Ting sat beside him according to his words, picked up the purple sand pot on the coffee table, warmed the pot with hot water, and refilled a cup of tea for his parents and himself. "Dad, what's the matter?" He raised his cup. "It's nothing. I just feel that I haven't talked to you for a long time. How is the school?" "Very good. I heard from Professor Qian that I should be preparing to arrange my first internship in the hospital." "Yes, that's good. I saw Professor Qian some time ago, and he praised you in front of me, saying that you are very good and will have a future. Maybe your choice was right at the beginning, you did a good job, He is indeed my son of Ji Peiwen." Ji Ting smiled when he heard this, but actually there was no joy in his eyes. Ji Peiwen finished his opening remarks, but at this moment he didn't know how to continue the topic. The atmosphere suddenly became quiet, and only the water in the instant pot on the coffee table was boiling, making a "gurgling" sound. "By the way, I remembered that I made dessert, and I'm going to serve it to you father and son in the kitchen." Xu Shuyun got up and said, and quickly walked into the kitchen. Ji Peiwen looked at Ji Ting who was playing with teacups, time flies, his son is twenty-three years old, he looks more like his mother, with handsome and soft features, with the scholarly temperament unique to his grandfather's family of Chinese studies, Only a pair of eyes are like my father's, deep and dark, unable to see joy or sorrow. "I met you Uncle Gu again at a dinner the day before yesterday. During the chat, he also praised you, saying that the whole family likes you very much." Ji Peiwen said casually. Ji Ting glanced at his father, with a knowing smile on the corner of his mouth, "Uncle Gu and Aunt Wang have treated me very well since childhood." "Yes, I have always had a good relationship with your Uncle Gu's family, and he took good care of our family, and now he is even more grateful for your care for Zhiyi, and said that with you by his side, he and your Aunt Wang I am very pleased." "I take care of Zhiyi because she is a girl worthy of love. Besides, we grew up together and are closer than brothers and sisters. This is what we should do. Uncle Gu is too polite." The tea in Ji Ting's cup was cold, He slowly poured it on the tea tray and filled it up. Ji Peiwen nodded thoughtfully, "Zhi Yi is indeed a good boy..." Ji Ting smiled, and he tightly held the hot teacup in his hand, "Father, if you want to say something to me, you might as well just say it." "I just want to say that it's a pity that Zhiyi is gone, but no one wants these things to happen." Ji Peiwen pondered for a moment, and continued, "Our family is not a prejudiced family. If you really think She is so..." "Father, you all think too much." Ji Ting seldom took the initiative to interrupt the elders, his voice was not loud, but there was a hint of coolness.Over the years, many people around him have tacitly accepted that he and Zhiyi are a natural couple. After Zhiyi couldn't see him, he took good care of him, and everyone thought so.He has been silent about this, because he knows Zhiyi's thoughts on him, and he is unwilling to argue in front of others. On the one hand, he does not want to hurt Zhiyi's self-esteem, and on the other hand, he thinks that he is not special to others, and he does not need to be in front of others. It gets darker and darker.More importantly, he knew that even if he didn't say some things, Zhiyi would still understand them. Hearing Ji Ting's words, Ji Peiwen was a little stunned, "You and Zhiyi..." "Zhiyi is like my relatives. I like her very much, and I regret that I didn't take good care of her that night. For this reason, I am willing to use everything to make her live a little happier, but there are some things that I don't even have. I can't help it." Give it to her. And I don’t think it’s good for her to give her a marriage to take care of her for the rest of her life, on the contrary, it’s not fair to her.” Ji Ting took a sip of tea, the fragrant and bitter taste of Tieguanyin Inexplicably familiar, it reminded him of a certain afternoon, when he held that person tightly in his arms, and her hot breath sprayed on his neck, sweet and desperate. Ji Peiwen didn't expect it to be like this, he hesitated, "Zhiyi is a very good girl, besides, aren't you happy together, she is not unsuitable for you." "Zhiyi, she is a very good girl, but..." Ji Ting suddenly changed the subject, "Dad, have you ever loved?" Ji Peiwen was stunned for a moment, he also took a sip of tea in silence, it was so hot, then he looked in the direction of the kitchen, "Of course, how many people have never loved when they were young, but my love is a mistake at the wrong time The person...Ji Ting, sometimes people have a lot of desires, these desires are like poison, they seem sweet, but if you drink them, they will kill you. At this time, we need our reason to restrain, I am glad I With my reason, you are my son, and you should..." Ji Ting put down his teacup, "Yes, I am your son, but I hate my sanity!"