Chapter 10 Chapter 9 Born to be wrong

After Zhian came back to her senses amidst a burst of violent pushing, she was startled to feel the unique smell of disinfectant in the hospital. Through Wang Fan's crying face and shaking her hands, she saw the bright lights in the operating room. In a daze, she couldn't hear Wang Fan's cries, but felt that her consciousness was pulling away, and she was watching everything from a very high, very far place. Then there was a sharp pain on her cheek that couldn't be ignored. She swayed back to the chair behind her and tilted her head. "That's great, one slap each person today, it's clear." She smiled amidst the burning pain.

"Gu Zhi'an, I regret why I had to let you go for a while, and you give me back my Zhiyi!" Wang Fan has completely ignored his manners, with disheveled hair and withered makeup, like a madman. Xu Shuyun, who had been standing by the side, supported Wang Fan, "The operation is not over yet, why do you say such a thing, Zhi Yi is so well-behaved, she must be a lucky person, and we were not there at the time, how could I know?" It's Wei Zhi'an." "I just want my Zhiyi to be okay. If she has something, I can't live anymore..." Wang Fan leaned against Xu Shuyun and cried, then turned to Zhi'an, and said sharply, "If Zhiyi has something to do, I want you to live forever." Better off!"

Zhi An smiled as if in a dream, "I've never been better." "I knew it was you, you were the one who harmed Zhiyi, you hate us, I know, you can come towards me for anything, Zhiyi is innocent, how did she treat you, tell me..." Heartache Wang Fan's worry about her daughter's injury broke down, until the nurse came over and motioned them to be quiet, she turned to crying softly, staring fiercely at Zhi'an. Zhi'an didn't avoid her eyes, she stood up with the arm of the chair, "So you also know that I hate you." Wang Fan raised his chin, tears rolled down the curve of his face, "You can hate me, I admit that I have never liked you, I hate your eyes, which are exactly the same as hers, like a demon Same. I can bear that you are an unwanted abandoned child picked up by the side of the road, and I will treat you well, but I can't bear that half of your body is my husband's blood, and the other half is from My cousin, facing a bastard like you, I have swallowed this matter and blood in my heart for eighteen years, what do you want me to do, what can you do if it is you?"

Zhi An listened in a daze, forgetting everything, this was the first time she heard everything about "her" from Wang Fan face to face. "If there was a mistake back then, the fault also lies with your biological mother. She was shameless, and even her own brother-in-law was not spared. It was in vain that I was so good with her since childhood, but she did this when I was three months pregnant. Things, you were born with a mistake, but why should such a mistake be punished on Zhiyi, it's too unfair." Wang Fan can no longer control that much, the thorn that has been suppressed in her heart for many years, she endured and used her own The proud reason and helpless tolerance wrapped it layer by layer, like a clam, which grew the sand embedded in the flesh into pearls, but today—but today she was just pried open by a knife, It turned out that the thorn was still the thorn.Eighteen years later, it still makes her bleed.

"Tell me, is it you, did you make her like this?" Wang Fan grabbed Zhi'an's clothes again and asked sharply. "Wang Fan, calm down, Zhi'an is Zhiyi's sister after all, how could she hurt Zhiyi." Ji Peiwen finally said with a pale face. "Or, we can ask Ji Ting, Ji Ting was also there at the time. Ji Ting, tell me, what happened at that time?" From the beginning to the end, Ji Ting watched all this with cold eyes, no joy or sorrow could be seen on his face, he seemed to be immersed in his own thoughts, no matter who asked, he was just indifferent.

"Ji Ting, what are you talking about..." Ji Peiwen and Xu Shuyun were also in a hurry. After the accident, it was Ji Ting who called the emergency center and notified everyone, but since Zhiyi was sent to the operating room, he Just like Zhi An, maintaining such an expression as if in a dream. "Which one is Gu Zhiyi's family member?" A nurse came over.Several people looked back in surprise, only to realize that the lights in the operating room had been turned off during the entanglement just now. "I am!" Wang Fan walked over immediately, not caring about other people.Ji Peiwen and Xu Shuyun were worried, and followed them.

Ji Ting and Zhi An sat side by side on the bench in the hospital. They didn't speak or look at each other, but it was so clear what they were afraid of.Ji Ting lowered his head and saw Zhi An's hand tightly holding the armrest of the chair. That hand was thin and slender, and the knuckles turned white due to the force at the moment. He raised his hand, wanting to cover his palm on hers. He was holding her hand, but it was meeting her terrified eyes, and he slowly retracted his hand. She longed for redemption in despair, but he was powerless to do so. The last moment when the car rushed over was very clear in his mind. Zhi An could avoid it, but he rushed back in the direction of Zhi Yi, and Zhi Yi stretched out her hand at that moment, but her eyes were looking at him.Everything happened so fast that he didn't have any room to think. Under Zhiyi's gaze, he flew to grab Zhi'an's hand, and dragged her back with all his strength. She fell heavily on his lap. arms.His only action is to hold her tightly, hold her tightly again and again, he can't lose her.

Until the arrival of the ambulance, he held her hand tightly, and she didn't break free, because all her consciousness seemed to be draining along with the blood on Zhiyi's body.They didn't dare to look at each other, Zhiyi's eyes were whipping the two of them fiercely, those pure and clear eyes, from hope to despair... These eyes once projected on him extremely trustingly, and he still remembered the kiss she pressed on the corner of his mouth. Looking at Zhiyi's coquettish and shy look at that time, he said to himself, no matter which man can be with Zhiyi Such a girl is lucky to be together.But at the juncture of life and death, he chose the person who had been ignoring and teasing him all the time, and he didn't hesitate at all.

He actually loves her!Knowing that he may never be able to catch up with her footsteps or wait for her perch, he still loves her.How can love be so indiscriminate. "You also think it's my fault, that I'm ominous?" It took Ji Ting a long time to realize that it was Zhian who was talking to him, her voice was so hoarse that even he could barely recognize it. "I didn't mean to hurt anyone," she said. "No one is wrong, but someone was hurt." Ji Ting struggled to bury his face in his hands. "Ji Ting, if..." Her voice hesitated for the first time.

"What if?" He looked up at her. She stared at him for a long time, "There is no if." Zhi'an heard footsteps when she lowered her head, and then felt a person sitting down heavily on the chair on the other side of her.She raised her head slightly, and saw Gu Weizhen who seemed to have aged instantly. "The doctor said that Zhiyi is not completely out of danger. Besides the external injuries, the most serious injury to her is the head. Even if she recovers, there may be sequelae. She may never see anything again." He seemed Zhi An and Ji Ting also listened in a daze as they spoke calmly.

"Zhian, are you satisfied with this? If you hate me, no revenge will make me more painful than this." "Ha!" Zhi'an laughed twice, but there was no smile on his face. Gu Weizhen sighed, but at this time he was calmer, "Can you tell me, when did you know? How did you know?" Zhi An leaned back on the chair, "When did you know? Are you really trying to hide it from me? I'm not a fool, I have feelings, I never understood before, I do everything better than Zhi Yi, why do you Hug her or not me? Until the summer vacation when I was eight years old, I woke up from a nap and heard my 'mom and dad' arguing in the room. One said, 'I only have one daughter, and that is Zhiyi', and the other lowered his voice to justify' After all, Ke Zhian is also my flesh and blood, and I have the obligation to raise her'... In fact, I should be grateful to Dade, after all, you have raised me." "I may not be a qualified father, but I don't think I have treated you badly." Gu Weizhen was depressed. "You gave me everything that Zhiyi has, except love." Zhi'an looked at the man who gave her life, "This is the end, I just want to ask you a word, my biological mother, have you ever loved?" Her? At least once, did you ever love?" Gu Weizhen shook his head, "Everything back then was a mistake, Wang Ming, your biological mother, she was just like you, beautiful and proud, although she and Wang Fan were only cousins, they had the best relationship since childhood, so even when Wang Fan and I After marriage, their relationship has been very close. Wang Ming was unmarried at the time, and there were always fanatical suitors around her. But that night, she came to Wang Fan after being drunk. Because of some minor problems with the fetus, Wang Fan stayed at her natal home .I opened the door to let her in. She was drunk and cried bitterly, and pulled me to drink with her. I had never seen her like this before, so I also had a drink, and then... the next day we all regretted it. I can’t tell, I didn’t expect to have you, she was too careless, it’s been nearly three months since I found out, and she gave birth to you by relatives in the countryside, you are a premature baby, only younger than Zhiyi More than a month. Less than a week after giving birth to you, she disappeared. In the end, I persuaded Wang Fan and brought you back from the countryside. I only called you twin sisters to the outside world." "I don't believe you didn't love her...even a little bit." Zhi'an refused to accept this fact, she stood up and looked at Gu Weizhen on the chair. Gu Weizhen stared at Zhi'an weakly, he shook his head slowly, but his tone was extremely firm, "I'm sorry, Zhi'an, I only loved one person, and that is your adoptive mother Wang Fan. Wang Ming is really good at everything, but I never Loved her, even, she didn't love me." "You have never loved..." Zhi An raised her face, but tears still flowed down the corners of her eyes, slid over her curvy cheeks and chin, and the echo of the water droplets smashing on the floor kept echoing in Ji Ting's heart. It was the first time he Seeing Zhian's tears. "You're all right, I was born wrong." In the middle of the night, long after the visiting time in the ward, Wang Fan, who was accompanying Zhiyi, was sad and exhausted, and fell asleep on the small bed beside him.There was a dead silence in the darkness, except for the uninterrupted monotonous "didi" sound of the medical equipment beside Zhiyi's bed.The door of the ward was slowly pushed open, and a figure stood quietly by the door for a moment before walking in lightly.She walked around Wang Fan who was sleeping soundly, and couldn't help but look back, her eyes were tightly closed at the moment on that always reserved and dignified face, her brows were slightly frowned, and there were messy tears at the corners of her eyes. For so many years, she thought that she hated this woman, but looking back at her growing up years, even though she herself was unwilling to admit it, in fact, even after she knew that she was not the child of this woman, she Still faintly longing for the person she called "Mom" to give her a hug, or a sincere and positive smile. If these are difficult to do, then even scolding and punishment are good.Sadly never.From the beginning to the end, Wang Fan just ignored her, just like ignoring an object that shouldn't exist.Zhi An suddenly realized that Wang Fan was also old, the lines at the corners of the eyes were so obvious in the tears, it was the first time she felt that this woman was pitiful, for the sake of a so-called complete family she pursued, she gritted her teeth and kept silent Di Shengsheng endured the pain of a thorn piercing his flesh and blood for eighteen years.If it were Zhian herself, she asked herself that she couldn't do it. She is a very absolute person in essence, she can either have it all or give it up completely, and she can't tolerate any incompleteness and ambiguity.At this moment, she quietly turned her head and stared at the sleeping face of this woman. She finally had no hatred or expectation for her. Apart from raising her, they were just passers-by. She withdrew her gaze from Wang Fan's face, made sure that she hadn't woken anyone up, and then sat gently on the edge of Zhiyi's bed. The tubes of various instruments, only one face is intact, presenting an almost eerie tranquility, making Zhi An almost think that Zhi Yi is just asleep, and will wake up after a while, and then use those deer-like eyes Looking at her, she blushed and said, "Zhi'an, do you think he will like me?" Zhian thought he was crying, but he didn't, the corners of his eyes were dry.She just sat there, like a statue, looking at Zhiyi who was in a coma for a long time. Zhiyi, her elder sister, she is deeply involved with this "family", the only one who loves her unconditionally and regardless of cost. She just looked at the people on the hospital bed without saying a word, and she didn't know how long she had been sitting there. The ticking sound of the instrument not far away didn't stop.After a long time, she heard the rustling sound of Wang Fan turning his body slightly behind him. Maybe the sky is about to dawn. If there is only darkness in one's world forever, how can you tell the difference between dawn and dusk? In the end, Zhi'an leaned over and whispered in Zhiyi's ear, then got up and left, just as quietly as when she came. When she walked out of the hospital gate, the night wind blew in, she shivered, subconsciously hugged the backpack she was carrying with her, and walked a few steps forward, she rummaged through the bag to find the bag that Xie Sinian gave her. A standard envelope, inside is a stack of banknotes of medium thickness, and a note with a few lines of small print.She looked at the name written on the first line for the last time: Wang Ming. Below the name was a row of detailed addresses and contact information. She smiled, then slowly tore up the note until it was crushed, and unfolded In the palm of his hand, those white pieces of paper were scattered like fly ash in the night wind. Zhiyi woke up five days later in the morning. As the doctor said, her life is no longer in danger, and the injured part will gradually heal over time. Only a pair of eyes may never see the light again. .The doctor and her parents did not hide the bad news from her for too long. Not long after she was able to sit up with support, she learned the truth from the words of the medical staff and the hesitation of her family.Her long silence in the face of this fact made both Gu Weizhen and Wang Fan feel uneasy, she didn't cry, she didn't make noise, and she didn't even want to talk, she was so quiet that people felt scared.It wasn't until Ji Ting came to see her for the first time after she woke up, when he sat beside her and said "Zhiyi, I'm here", that she slowly raised her head, looking for his direction from the source of the voice. "Ji Ting, is it day or night?" This was the first thing she said after knowing about it. Ji Ting stroked the ends of her hair with his hand under the surprised eyes of Gu Weizhen and his wife, "It's still morning, the weather outside is very good, with a little breeze and the sun is shining brightly." "I want to go out and have a look, you go with me, okay?" According to Zhiyi's physical condition, it was not suitable for her to get out of bed, but the doctor and her parents couldn't resist her, so they had to work with the nurse to move her to the wheelchair very carefully, and Ji Ting slowly pushed her downstairs to the hospital in the small garden. Ji Ting parked the wheelchair under the shade of the tree, squatted down, and looked at Zhiyi worriedly. "Are you looking at me?" Unexpectedly, Zhiyi spoke first. Ji Ting nodded, and then he realized sadly that she couldn't see his movements, "Yes, I am just like your parents, I am very worried about you. Zhiyi, are you okay, it will feel better if you cry..." "If I shed tears, can I see it?" Zhiyi's out-of-focus eyes fell on an unknown place. "If you ask me if I'm okay, I'm not okay now, but so what? I can't see anymore, I know, this is a fact, no matter how uncomfortable I am, I can only accept it." Ji Ting couldn't tell whether it was guilt or pity, knowing that she couldn't see, he still lowered his head in front of her: "I'm sorry, Zhiyi, I didn't take good care of you." Zhiyi turned her head in the direction of his speech with a little surprise, "Why did you say that? We all know that it was an accident. I said the same to my parents. No one wants such a thing to happen. It's not anyone's fault." Wrong, but why do you all feel self-blame? What has happened will not be redeemed just because someone shouldered this responsibility. Similarly, blaming anyone can't make my eyes heal. Ji Ting, I appreciate you at the end That moment saved Zhi'an." When Ji Ting heard the last sentence, he suddenly raised his head and looked at Zhiyi, trying to find something from her expression, but only met her eyes that were empty but still clear. Zhi Yi didn't seem to know his reaction, she forced a smile, "When I was young, I joked with Zhi An, she always said that she likes the night, how fun it is to hide everything in the dark I said that I am most afraid of the dark. If there is no night in my world, only the morning, it would be great, just like now, I seem to be able to smell the dew on the leaves. You see, God has opened up with me so much It's a big joke, he left only black in my world." Ji Ting was saddened by her smiling face and slightly trembling voice, yes, God is always unfair, otherwise he would not let such a girl suffer any harm.He squatted beside Zhiyi and said, "But you should also remember what I told you when I first met you." Zhiyi "looked" at him hesitantly, and he squeezed out a smile similar to hers, "As I said, sister, with me by your side, you don't have to be afraid of anything." Zhiyi was stunned for a long time, then smiled.This was the first heartfelt smile she showed after being injured, but soon, this smile was replaced by an inexplicable sadness, "Thank you, brother Ji Ting. With you and my parents treating me like this, After all, I am still lucky - if Zhi An is here now, that would be great. Zhi An, after all, I still failed to keep her?" "Zhi'an?" Ji Ting repeated blankly, for some reason, the name alone was enough to make him very sensitive.Only then did he remember that he had never seen Zhi'an since the night when Zhiyi's accident happened.He could understand what Zhi An was thinking at that time, because he was as helpless and panicked as she was at that time, which made him feel extremely heartbroken at the moment she was crying, but he couldn't give her the slightest comfort.Everything is too messy, he thought, and they all need to calm down separately.And during these days when Zhiyi was in a coma, he thought a lot, including the little things from childhood to adulthood, since when did he secretly look at her and the wild and unrestrained world where she lived in his ordinary and rigid world? Colorful world?Maybe it was from the first time he met her in front of her house, when he mistook her, and she curled her lips and said "stupid", maybe it was because he happily risked being scolded by adults to follow her to "sweep pornography" on campus When "playing nonsense", maybe she grabbed his hand unreasonably and threatened him by putting it on her chest... She never cared about him, and he also carefully hid his unruly thoughts, but in the end , still stuck inside. Zhi'an is his karma, just like a wound she left on his lips, painful, secret, and lingering.He fell in love with his karma. He has already figured out that when Zhiyi's matter is over for a while, he has to ask her for a result.He and Zhi'an, in Liu Jilin's words, make people crazy just thinking about it, but he has lived in peace for 21 years, and only wants this kind of madness. Zhiyi said, she failed to keep her after all? What did she mean? Ji Ting's heart seemed to be tightly grasped by a pair of invisible hands, "You said Zhi'an..." "I don't know what happened these days when I was in a coma, but I can guess some from what my parents said. Zhi'an is gone. In the past few days, my father has searched for places and people. They even called the police. She didn't run away from home in a hurry. She left nothing behind, including her documents and the little money she usually saved. Even nine horses can’t be pulled back.” Sadness made Zhiyi’s complexion even paler when she was ill. Ji Ting felt that he couldn't think clearly, his head was hot for a while, but somewhere in his chest was bitingly cold, and then he seemed to hear Zhiyi sighing: "She won't come back." "Impossible." He retorted almost instinctively, but he also felt how powerless this refutation was. He should have thought about how she would stay after all these changes, with her character.But she had always planned to leave, but she never mentioned it to him—why did she mention it to him, who is he to her?He was just a person who didn't even dare to say that he loved her, so she left and he was the last to know. Zhiyi's eyes passed him, and there were tears in the corner of her eyes, "She came to say goodbye to me, she must be, I can feel it." She stretched out her uninjured left hand weakly, as if trying to grab it in the void. What is it, I just feel the wind passing through my fingers in the early morning, "Zhi'an, how can I keep her? She is like the bird she painted, and she will go away in the end. It's only a matter of time before she leaves. The world is far wider than mine. I’m just afraid. She’s going to go out alone now, and she must suffer a lot. But I still envy her. She is freer than us. Compared with her, I’m like diving into the deep sea The fish in it can’t see anything but blackness.” Ji Ting didn't speak any more, just before Zhiyi's outstretched hand fell limply, cold water dripped on her fingertips. "Is it raining? Brother Ji Ting, let's go back."