Chapter 28 Chapter Twenty Eight

It will be many years later that I will know that what I owe Wanyi is not once or twice, but an eternal life. We first met at Yuexiu Restaurant.It was the spring of 1990. When I first arrived in Guangzhou, I couldn’t find a suitable job. I had a diploma from a prestigious university and temporarily went to a lounge to work as a waiter in a white shirt and black tie. Wanyi is the most popular public relations lady in Yuexiu. She is smart and lively, good at singing and dancing. There are countless people who admire her beauty, but she is the only one who favors me. She often says in private: "You and those People are different." I smiled and didn't answer, but I also felt a sense of confidant in my heart, but I knew that this kind of romantic woman was definitely not a good match, so although we sometimes played crazy when we were together, we always maintained a certain distance.

Soon I was employed by a trading company as a business representative, and Wanyi still came to see me often.She continued to study until she graduated from high school. When she deliberately put on light makeup and wore a long skirt, she was a gentle and kind girl. I heard that she won the first place in computer typing in middle school.There are few such beautiful female customers in the office. Every time she leaves, young colleagues will chase me to inquire about her work background, and I always just smile. When Wanyi came that day, I happened to be receiving a businessman from Shenzhen. As soon as the two of them met, the guest shouted: "Hey, isn't this Miss Wanyi? Last night we went to Yuexiu to look for you. Didn't we see you? Thinking of meeting here, this is really destined." Wan Yi was stunned, and immediately smiled like a flower branch: "Mr. Zhang, long time no see. If you are still coming tonight, I will meet you three hundred meters away from the gate. go."

Colleagues looked up at us one after another, with surprise, enlightenment, contempt, and sneer in their eyes. I was so ashamed that I wanted to find a crack in the ground and sneak in.When I sent Wanyi out, I said to her with a cold face: "You don't come here to look for me again." Wanyi bit her lower lip, her big eyes suddenly filled with tears, she looked at me for a long time before asking: "Then you Come to see me?" I nodded perfunctorily: "I will go when I have time." But I have already made up my mind to break up with this kind of person, and I still want to climb up, I don't want my colleagues to know that I am Three months of black tie experience.

After that, I didn't see Wanyi for half a year, and I gradually forgot about her.A new female colleague named Liner came to the office. She was about the same age as me, and we were very close to each other.Lin'er is just a middle-aged person, but she behaves generously and speaks pleasantly. She can be seen as a lady from everyone at a glance. It's a pity that she has a bad temper and has to get a little awkward with me from time to time.I accommodated her everywhere, but when I visited her parents for the first time and was made trouble for a long time because I did not have a Guangzhou hukou, I also became angry.Pian Lin'er was still complaining that I don't know how to read people's eyes, I retorted: "I didn't plan to spend my whole life watching people's faces, if you have to learn this knowledge first when being with you, you should find another disciple. "

The two broke up unhappy, I ran to Yuexiu Lounge to open a private room to drink, and suddenly remembered Wan Yi, so I asked someone to find her to sing with me.The lady said: "Wanyi is drunk and is crying alone in Room 3." "Wanyi can get drunk?" I felt very curious, leaning on the wall crookedly to No. 3 room, and sure enough, I saw Wanyi lying on the sofa with tears all over her face, singing intermittently: "See me walking in the In the rain, you will no longer be sad for me, why did the heartache become strange—” I went to help her up: "Wanyi, let me take you home." But Wanyi grabbed my hand and stared at me blankly, her eyes were full of pain and sorrow, as if she wanted to look into my heart all the time. He smiled miserably and said: "I misidentified the person again, I always regarded everyone as Yanchen, Yanchen, Yanchen would not come to see me, he looked down on me, he forgot me." Tears of grievance It dripped from her eyes, my heart was shocked, I hugged her and called her name: "Wanyi, it's me, I'm Yanchen, you're right!"

That night, I stayed at Wanyi's house.I always knew that Wanyi liked me, but I didn't expect that she would love me so deeply, especially when I woke up the next morning and saw the bright red of peach blossoms on the bed sheet, I was really shocked.Although Wanyi is in a place of debauchery, she is a pure girl who loves me sincerely. If she marries a wife like this, what regrets do she have?That morning, I hugged Wanyi and promised her sincerely: "Wanyi, I will marry you, I will definitely marry you." From that day on, I moved to Wanyi's place and lived with her. I really didn't expect Lin'er to come to me. Her personality was originally unwilling to admit defeat.However, she confessed her mistake to me with tears in her eyes and begged me not to blame her again.Lin'er, a rich lady, a professional woman, who has always been as proud as a swan, is willing to compromise for me.But when I looked at her red and swollen eyes, I didn't feel complacent at all. I just felt empty and aching in my heart.Many years later, I understood that the pain was not for Lin'er, but for Wanyi. I knew that I would fail Wanyi, and my heart ached on behalf of her.

One is a white-collar beauty with a clean fortune, and the other is a glamorous escort girl, it seems that it is not worth hesitating how to choose.However, every time I face Wanyi's affectionate eyes, I can't say goodbye.Until one day, she told me that she was pregnant. Like a thunderbolt exploding above my head, my brain was blank for a moment, and then I became angry: "Why are you so careless? Didn't you say that you have been taking birth control pills?" Wanyi looked at me, without making any distinctions or complaining, and suddenly asked after a long while: "Yanchen, are you leaving me?"

I suddenly went dumb, and felt sad for a moment, only I knew that I really liked Wanyi and didn't want to hurt her, but I was even more reluctant to give up Lin'er.I looked at Wanyi, and my heart was full of inexplicable grievances. Why did I have to face such a choice innocently?Picking either one would hurt the other, and that's really not my wish. Wanyi came over and hugged my head, and my tears flowed down. Unexpectedly, I was going to abandon Wanyi, but she was the one who comforted me.I cried silently, as if I wanted to wash away my infidelity with tears.That night, I hugged Wanyi tightly, lingering until death, over and over again, I hugged her and murmured: "Wanyi, don't hate me, don't hate me!"

Early the next morning, Wanyi packed up her things and said goodbye to me, saying that she was going back to her hometown to kill the child.I was worried, and asked why not just do the operation in Guangzhou?Wanyi smiled and said: "When the child hurts, he always likes to cry while holding his mother's skirt." When she said this, Wanyi's face had a kind of holy beauty, with a kind of maternal calmness and tranquility. I am silent, logically, Wanyi suffers for me, I should be by her side to take care of her, but I am a big man, after all, I am not as experienced as her mother, besides, I don't want to have long nights and dreams, and another accident.

When spring comes again, I will marry Lin'er.We were swearing in the church, when we were exchanging rings, we accidentally looked up, and suddenly caught a glimpse of a woman who looked extremely Wanyi at the banquet, and I felt my whole body trembling, like being shocked by electricity. Only when Liner touched me lightly did I realize my gaffe , quickly concealed a smile, and put the ring on Lin'er's hand.The applause sounded, and I peeked at the crowd again, only to find that the woman had a hairstyle similar to Wan Yi's, and her eyebrows and eyes were completely different.I let out a sigh of relief, but felt a little disappointed.

On the wedding night, seeing Lin'er's pain and shyness, I was in a daze, thinking of Wanyi from time to time. Being loved by two women for a lifetime is not easy. Lin'er is not a wife who is good at housework. After marriage, she still insists on women's rights and independence, and vows not to have a career and not to have children.At first I thought it was okay, but after the upsurge of newlyweds passed, I felt a little deserted.Because I didn't want the husband and wife to work together, I had already switched to another import and export trading company. I started everything from scratch, and it took two years before I became the department manager and Lin Er.At home and away from home, Lin'er and I have truly achieved equality between men and women, but we can't raise eyebrows. Lin'er loves me, but she never forgets that she condescends to marry, and is always bossy and bossy in her life.This reminds me from time to time of the days when I lived with Wanyi, she was always so docile and accommodating to me, and obeyed.But I don't regret my choice, especially when I attend social occasions and hear people praise us as a match made in heaven, I feel that I am right.People live in crowds. I can't imagine how people around me will look at me if I marry a hostess. But I always had a hunch that Wanyi would not quit my life so easily, and two years later, my hunch was confirmed.That was when I was first promoted to manager and my department needed to hire a typist.After the initial test, the assistant in charge of recruitment put the forms of several candidates on my desk.I flipped through it casually, and suddenly saw a familiar face, it was Wan Yi, and she also applied for the job!I grabbed the form suddenly and looked at the 3-inch half-length photo almost in horror. Wanyi, it turned out that she was married and had a one-year-old boy.Does her husband know about our past?Who can imagine the troubles that will arise if we meet day and night?If the past is exposed, how will I face my colleagues, how will I face Lin'er? Like a ghost, I grabbed the form and tore it into pieces, then threw it into the wastebasket.Let what is past be past forever. After that, I never saw Wanyi again.As the days passed by like water, I gradually forgot the absurdity of my youth.Only when I feel the triviality of today's life, I occasionally think of Wanyi with a little sadness, thinking that I was once romantic. Seven years later, I have been promoted to vice president of the company.I went to Beijing for a meeting in winter. On the plane, I was looking at a document. Suddenly, the person sitting next to me got up and took something, and knocked down the coffee cup on the table. I saw the document submerged in a sea of ​​brown. After repeated apologies, I can only admit that I am unlucky. After getting off the plane, I started to ask where there was a typing agency as soon as I found a hotel.At that time, it was 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, and all typing shops had closed their files.But my documents are for negotiating tomorrow, so I can't take a coffee-soaked manual to talk to the client. Helpless, I had no choice but to search along the unfamiliar streets of Beijing. When I was about to despair, I suddenly saw a small dark yellow advertising light board - "24-hour typing service".I was ecstatic, I really wanted to rush over and hug the boss—oh no, it was the boss’s wife—it was Wanyi! When I saw that the person guarding the store was Wan Yi, whom I hadn't seen for seven years, I was so shocked that I could hardly speak.Wanyi was also dumbfounded when she saw me, and she was stunned for a long time before she finally asked, "How do you know I'm here?" I shook the document in my hand, and explained in a panic: "No, I don't know, I'm here to type this... Wanyi, how are you?" The light in Wanyi's eyes dimmed, she took the file and sat in front of the computer, chatting with me indifferently while typing.She said that after she got married, she stopped working in a hotel because she didn't want her children to know that she had a mother who was a dancing lady.She had looked for several jobs in Guangzhou, but because she had too many acquaintances, she couldn't do it for long, so she simply came to Beijing and borrowed money to open this typing business.I asked her, "Where is your husband?" "She has been working in other places and rarely comes back." Wanyi replied casually, taking out the document from the printer, "You can proofread it." I looked down at the document, but my mind was not on the document. At this moment, my heart was full of eyes, and there was only Wanyi in my world.I stared at her, trying to tell her that I missed her, but when I got to my mouth, I just asked, "The child is not home?" Wanyi smiled, with wrinkles showing at the corners of her eyes: "The rent in Beijing is so expensive, how can I afford two houses? This typing agency is my home. The baby is boarding at school and will only come back on weekends." I just noticed that the typing agency was a suite.Lifting up the door curtain, I saw the simple bed and dressing table inside, and felt sad in my heart, I didn't expect Wanyi to be reduced to this.It seems that Wanyi's husband is not in a good situation. When I returned to the hotel that day, my heart was full of Wanyi's image.After reuniting after a long absence, I realized that I had never forgotten her.As soon as the meeting finished the next day, I went to the typing room to see Wanyi again. Wan Yi was not surprised to see me, she just said: "Actually, I should do my best as a landlord when you come to Beijing, but the baby is coming back today, so I'm afraid I don't have time to accompany you." I thought about her all night, how could I go? , hurriedly said: "Then the three of us spend the weekend together, you are the host, and I pay the bill." Before the words were finished, the door of the typing club opened, and a teenager jumped in: "Mom, I'm back." A boy with a small stature and big eyes came in, with a clever face. When he saw me, he smiled shyly and asked, "Uncle, are you here to type? My mother types fast and well." He His attitude is unrestrained and generous, and he is sensible and shrewd beyond his age.For no reason, I feel that I have a special affinity with this child.I was worried that it would be troublesome to have this little follower with Wanyi, but now I am very happy to have the opportunity to spend more time with this lovely boy. For the next two days, I came to the typing club every day as soon as I finished my work, and took Wanyi and the baby to play around.When we walked in the sunshine of the park, I felt the warmth of a family of three sharing a family relationship.Sometimes when I think of Lin'er, I just feel far away. It seems that being with Wanyi and Bao'er is more like a family.Maybe, it's time for me to have a baby. While Wanyi was not around, I asked the baby about his father, and the baby said naively: "Father is far away, uncle, you came from far away, do you know my father?" The husband is indeed on a business trip, so he doesn't ask any more questions, and just tries to make the baby happy.Seeing the baby smile makes me feel happy too. On Sunday, I finished my business, but decided to stay another night and leave Beijing on the next morning flight.In the evening, Wanyi and I took the baby back to school, and we found a pub to sit down and chat.Wanyi doesn't want to mention the past, and only laughs at Yanyan when she tells anecdotes about the baby, without defense.She is much more mature than before.I asked, "Wanyi, did you suffer a lot back then?" Wanyi shook her head, it was our turn to order a song, Wanyi came on stage and sang "Once Upon a Heartache": "Why did my heartache once become a stranger, love is like life can not be repeated, I understand these truths, but when we really face , tell me how to let go..." In her singing, all the past is awakened, so many grievances, lingering and infatuated love, even if they are in the past, can they really be forgotten?I bowed my head, buried my face in my palms, and wept. Seven years later, I shed tears for Wanyi again. At this moment, I knew more than ever that I had truly loved her. Sending Wanyi back to the typing agency, thinking of the end of the world tomorrow, and not knowing when we will meet again, I couldn't help turning around and hugging her tightly when I was about to say goodbye.Just like the eve before we decided to break up 7 years ago, so much reluctance and intolerance made the two of us seem to be standing on the top of a cliff, only to feel that there is nothing more to fear in the world except life and death?I can't help but let go of all my worries and reservations, only wishing to get the ecstasy of tonight! Another night of painful carnival is the swan song of the thorn bird inserting a sharp thorn into its chest, poignant and desperate. When the dawn came, I put the 5,000 yuan in cash beside Wanyi's pillow, and kissed her gently on the cheek: "I'm leaving, and I have to go back to the hotel to clean up." Wanyi nodded sleepily, turning a blind eye to the stack of money.I suddenly felt a little relieved and a little relieved: after all, I am a prostitute.That's fine, at least, this time I don't owe her anything. In the afternoon, I returned to Guangzhou.Xiao Biesheng is newly married, and Lin'er is so affectionate to me, which makes me feel deeply guilty.For a full week, I made up for my infidelity to Liner by being a perfect husband.But it wasn't long before both of us showed our true colors again, and the war started again.This made me miss Wanyi's softness and tranquility again.Strangely, no one answered my long distance calls to Beijing.Is the phone broken or Wanyi is on vacation?I was secretly anxious. To be honest, the revival of the old relationship with Wanyi made me daydream, and the distance made me feel safe. I even planned to subsidize Wanyi to open a larger typing and copying agency, and spend a certain amount of time every year to meet her in Beijing. I made long-distance calls to Beijing every few days, and a month later the call was finally connected, but the caller was a strange man, saying that Wanyi had given him the typing agency.Then call the baby's school, the teacher said that the baby has transferred.An ominous premonition arose in my heart: Am I going to lose Wanyi again? Looking back on the past years, there is nothing unrelated to Wanyi, only Wanyi, Wanyi 7 years ago and Wanyi in Beijing, only Wanyi's love is true, Wanyi's love is unforgettable at this moment, Wanyi The tears filled my gut, I only felt that I had lost the most important thing in my life, and I felt listless. At this time, I received a letter from Wanyi, and she was indeed avoiding me: "Yanchen: During your three days in Beijing, I was happy, and I finally enjoyed the happiness of a family reunion that I dreamed of.Yanchen, didn't you really realize that the baby looks a lot like you?The baby is 6 years and 3 months old, Yanchen, don't you understand? As the mother of your son, I let myself indulge for a while, and once again became your one-night wife to my heart's content.I have accepted your money, and it will be used for moving house and school transfer. Consider it your kindness for your son. But, you never look for me again.You already have a wife and a family, and you have new responsibilities, Yanchen, you have already hurt me, so don't hurt your wife again.I told the baby that his father is far away, and when he grows up, his father will come to see him.If one day I find someone suitable for me, I will tell the baby that his father is back. Believe me, I will take care of the baby well. Wanyi before leaving Beijing" Wanyi!Closing the letter paper, I already burst into tears, Wanyi, baby, my wife, my son!After losing my love, I finally know what true love is, but I have already passed by the most true love in my life. Wan Yi, I have failed you in this life, and now there is a vast sea of ​​people, the world of mortals, where are you?Tears fell on the letter paper, wetting the memories of the past, I failed Wanyi, why only my life...