Chapter 8 Chapter 5 Mozhiguangnian you are my wonderful love

You took my memories, you took my light. At that time, I used to wonder whether you have already penetrated time and space, Just to come to me. Walk with me through the campus, through the classroom, through the basketball court. Then, I still remember, the corridor and the window filled with all our laughter. It turns out that there is nothing that cannot be forgotten, your tears and your laughter, all the sorrows and all the good things that have been muddy. Repeatedly, secretly enchanting. Like the sky where birds pass by, like a swamp where fish jump over, hell or heaven, which one is more beautiful?

only. Now, I will never see you again, never find you again. In this world, after all, is there you. After all, have we ever met.At least, I hope that in the first days of my life, there was you. I have discovered more than once that Pinellia and Zhiwei have too many differences, but they are so similar. Sometimes, I even thought in a trance that Pinellia is Zhiwei and Zhiwei is Pinellia.In fact, I know that no matter if it is any one of them, I can't be the one to accompany them and share them. The person they need to put their hearts on may never be me, just like I can feel it, Mo Fan The similarity between Law and Lu Chuanzi.However, I still uphold the words Banxia said to me: If you don’t want to lose forever, go and stay by your side now.

——From Ke Jiang's Quotations When she got up to go to school the next morning, Zhiwei looked at her red and swollen cheeks in the mirror and the blood-soaked gauze pasted on it, thinking about how her father and mother would feel when they saw it. Just when she was worried, she suddenly heard the sound of her mother opening the door. Zhiwei instinctively covered her injured red and swollen cheek with her fingers, not daring to let her mother see it. "—You're up, Weiwei, hurry up and have breakfast!" Mother said at the door. "Mm...hmm." Zhiwei responded, turned her back and pretended to be making the bed.

The mother stood at the door of the room for a while, as if she had something to say, she just opened her mouth, walked out of the room, and closed the door with a "click". Zhiwei breathed a sigh of relief. However, when eating breakfast at the dining table, the injury on his cheek was still not concealed. "Vivi, your face—" Father said, frowning in surprise. Zhiwei pretended to be very calm, lowered her head and took a sip of the soup, and then said the excuse that she had repeated in her heart countless times beforehand: "Well, when I went downstairs to buy things yesterday, I accidentally bumped into you. up the wall at the corner of the stairs, so..."

"He hit the wall? That's how he hit his face?" His father raised an eyebrow, as if he was still in doubt. Zhiwei glanced uneasily at the silent mother beside her, buried her head deeper, and bit her lips tightly. "Be careful in the future..." Father picked up the chopsticks on the table again, his tone was light, and he pursed his lips. Question, is it over? However, before Zhiwei could relax, her mother greeted her softly: "Weiwei——" Zhiwei froze for a moment, raised her head, and looked at her mother. The living room was suddenly silent, only the sound of Zhiwei's slightly undulating breathing, and the rustling sound of her father occasionally drinking soup.

After a long time, my mother put down the bowls and chopsticks in her hand, looked at Zhiwei meaningfully, and said, "Weiwei, let's forget about it this time, but if you need money in the future, tell mom not to take it yourself, mom I don't like you to develop such a habit, you know?" The air is filled with molecules of the aroma of food. Neither father nor mother spoke any more, but ate quietly. Only Zhiwei blushed, sitting on the chair, feeling like she was on pins and needles. Her chest felt a kind of inexplicable throbbing, and she only felt that a certain image of herself in front of her father and mother was forcibly obliterated.

His fingers trembled uncontrollably. "—Yeah." Zhiwei nodded stiffly, in order to hide the unnaturalness on her face, she hurriedly stuffed two mouthfuls of rice, just beside her father and mother, in such an atmosphere, she couldn't help but feel embarrassed, feel ashamed. I don't know what to do anymore. —Is there something wrong? "——Love is a colorful sugar-coated medicine with no nutrition, medicine. The more you remind yourself, the more curious your heart is, the more it jumps wildly, but it jumps wildly." On the campus radio during the break between classes, Angela Chang's old songs are playing.

A few boys were walking on the playground and complaining sadly: "No way, why does the campus radio always play some girls' songs! It's sexist at all!" "—Hmph, it's a blessing that no folk songs are played." Another boy shouted in a drawn out voice, "I just hope that children's songs won't be played next time." "Sick! Children's songs? Please, stop telling bad jokes, okay?" "Hahaha……" The noisy voice was blown away by the wind downstairs, Su Banxia leaned on the railing on the top of the school building and looked down, but her face was expressionless.

"What did you just say?" Ke Jiang who was beside her suddenly jumped up, twisted her brows into a Sichuan character, and asked, "You said Zhiwei yesterday—" "En." Before he finished speaking, Su Banxia responded. Ke Jiang clenched the corners of her mouth angrily, opened her eyes round, her fingers inadvertently clenched into fists, her bones creaked and creaked: "Then...how is she now?" "fine." "Today, why aren't you with her?" "She said that she wanted to go to the infirmary alone to change the gauze, probably because she wanted to be alone and think about something."

"Then, his name is Lu Chuanzi, isn't he?" "Ok." "...Damn it, I really want to kill him." The summer wind swept over the top of the head in a dizzy manner, the light gradually revealed from behind the clouds, and the white railings on the roof had faint paint peeling off, forming a white blurred outline. The music played non-stop on the playground, ringing back and forth. Su Banxia turned her head and looked at Ke Jiang beside her. The wind on the roof made her unable to open her eyes. The plaid skirts of the girls and the uniform ties of the boys flew in the air, forming a perfect arc, which was beautiful and flamboyant.

"Instead of killing him—" Su Banxia said quietly, his figure glowing with golden rims under his eyes, "it's better to snatch Zhiwei from him at this moment." Ke Jiang raised her head abruptly, opened her eyes, and asked her, "What did you say?" Under the sun, the tail ring on the boy's left hand was jumping with dazzling white light, showing a gentle touch in the whistling wind, floating in the air round after round. "You like Zhiwei, don't you?" Su Banxia asked directly, making the boy's face turn red quickly. "Uh..." Ke Jiang grinned and couldn't find a suitable answer to answer her, and was momentarily speechless. Su Banxia looked at him and said expressionlessly: "You are like a blank sheet of paper, whatever you think in your heart will be written on your face." It is completely exposed. "Not really, actually, I..." The boy replied hesitantly, as if he was worried about something. Su Banxia didn't intend to ask any more questions, but said lightly: "I'm not interested in listening to your excuses, but, if you don't want to lose forever, go and stay by her side now!" Ke Jiang didn't answer, but closed her eyes, opened them slowly, leaned over her body, and leaned quietly against the railing on the roof. The broadcast is still playing: I advise you not to be Pandora, and you can do anything else.It is meaningless to love in fear of loneliness, it is even more boring to love because of boredom. Please let him go let him go let him go let him go. Otherwise, it will be too late to NO NO. ... The sun is shining softly, and the fields are open and stretched.The sky was blue with thin clouds, and in a blink of an eye it was blown into confusion by the wind. The leaves of camphor trees were flying all over the sky. There were boys jumping around on the basketball court, and beside them were girls cheering and shouting happily. There will be boys and girls passing by in twos and threes in the corridor, and the gorgeous sunlight is refracted from the open window onto the stairs, forming a rotating circle of light. The sound of the wind was broken, and the sound of laughter and chasing echoed in the campus, constantly echoing. Just when the lunch break was about to end, Mo Fanlu was suddenly called into the office by the teacher, saying that the test results this time surprised the teachers, and generally speaking, it was a very unsatisfactory result. The third place in the first year of high school. Although this kind of achievement can be regarded as a brilliant achievement for other students, it is a failure for Mo Fanlu and the teachers around him who are staring at Mo Fanlu with expectant eyes. results.After all, Mo Fanlu was admitted to this well-known Asakawa High School with the second place in the city. The head teacher pushed the black-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose with an ugly face, looked at the report card in his hand, and sized up the boy standing in front of him, then sighed: "Student Mo Fanlu, can you Can't tell me, what is the reason for your drop in test scores this time?" Mo Fanlu moved unconsciously, twitched the corner of his mouth, and replied innocently: "Report to the teacher, there is no reason." "What? No reason? No reason, why did your grades drop so much for no reason?" The head teacher was obviously dissatisfied with his answer, "With your current grades, you simply cannot be admitted to a prestigious university in the country." --Is that right?In fact, it didn't drop much, so don't make such a fuss!The boy sighed softly in his heart. The young female teachers sitting in other places in the office would always raise their heads and peek at Mo Fanlu from time to time, and when Mo Fanlu looked at her, she would blushed again in embarrassment and hurriedly lowered her head Going back, I was at a loss with the pen in my hand in a panic. Hey, the teacher is spying on the male students!Wouldn't it sound nice to spread the word?Mo Fanlu couldn't help but bent down amusedly, but he was caught by the class teacher in front of him, so he had no choice but to quickly change back to the expression of preparing to be punished. "What are you laughing at? You can still laugh? Student Mo Fanlu, I'm not talking about you. You've always been absent-minded in class recently. Do you think I'm the only one who feels it? Other teachers often tell me about your behavior. This situation. Now is not the time to be distracted all day long, so you can't let your mother worry too much, what if you can't get into a prestigious university? " Mo Fanlu listened to the teacher in charge whispering in his ear, and remembered his mother that the teacher just mentioned, his eyes quickly dimmed. ——It’s always her that makes people worry, right?If it wasn't for her, he wouldn't have had to be so tired playing the role of "good boy". However, the drop in grades was indeed his own fault, not without reason, and he was the only one who knew the reason. Therefore, Mo Fanlu lowered his head, and said with a pious expression of admitting his mistake: "Teacher, I will not let you down again in the next exam." After receiving such an answer, the homeroom teacher seemed finally satisfied. He nodded to Mo Fanlu and said, "During the college entrance examination, I counted on you to win glory for our class!" It was as if a tiny light in his heart went out, and Mo Fanlu forced the corner of his mouth to agree: "Yes..." In fact, even he himself could not predict what would happen in such a distant time. Pretending to be "the good boy" and "the top student" is almost enough. Mo Fanlu closed the door and walked out of the teacher's office.Finally calmed down, he couldn't help pulling the tie off his neck, and when he raised his head, he met a boy's eyes. Unexpectedly, someone would stand in front of him, Mo Fanlu was taken aback for a moment, and when he saw the face clearly in the light, he realized that the boy in front of him was Sang Ran. "Uh, why are you here?" Mo Fanlu frowned strangely without realizing it. Sang Ran didn't answer him right away, but bit the cigarette in his mouth and asked with his eyes, "Would you like to have one too", but the response he got was "Please, this is a school". "Then go upstairs and smoke one." Sang Ran suggested. Mo Fanlu did not refuse, so he and Sang Ran turned around and walked towards the stairs leading to the top of the teaching building. "You skipped class again?" In the corridor, Mo Fanlu looked sideways at Sang Ran. "Almost, I heard someone in the class say that you have arrived in the office, so I came to look for you." "Oh..." Mo Fanlu narrowed his eyes slightly, "Is there something wrong?" Sang Ran thought for a long time before he said: "fine--" Mo Fanlu didn't ask any more questions, but turned around and continued walking up the stairs.The long stairs are somewhat dark, with no obvious light. When he reached the seventh floor, he had already seen the door of the roof, so he ran up quickly, grabbed the handle of the door, and quickly pushed it open.The dazzling sunlight immediately entered Mo Fanlu's eyes, and he frowned instinctively. The wind from the roof suddenly blew through the gap in the door, making the necklace on his chest jingle. However, when he raised his head and saw the two figures beside the railing on the roof, his body froze involuntarily. Beside the railing on the roof, he saw Su Banxia standing there with his back to him, his eyes lit up immediately.He opened his mouth, and just when he was about to call out to her, the light in his eyes quickly dimmed.Beside her, there was a boy talking to her, and that boy was Ke Jiang. Even standing at the door, you can clearly see Su Banxia smiling slightly at Ke Jiang from the side, full of tolerance and trust, the two seem to have known each other for a long time. She and he leaned against the railing on the roof, smiling at each other. ——She had never shown such a smile to herself. The sun shines on the white roof, it is a piece of white light. The wind whizzed past his ears, and looking at the picture in front of him, Mo Fanlu felt a slight chill in his heart. Sang Ran who was behind saw Mo Fanlu standing still at the door, so he stepped forward suspiciously and wanted to ask him "Why don't you go in", when his gaze suddenly passed over his head, he saw the building on the top of the building. The two figures spoke softly, "That's not..." Before he could finish speaking, Mo Fanlu slammed the door with a "bang", turned around and walked down the stairs quickly. The surrounding space returned to darkness again, and Sang Ran looked at Mo Fanlu's cold back inexplicably, and while chasing him, he asked: "Hey, Fan Lu, the one with Ke Jiang in the class, that's not your girlfriend ?" ——Just, why is she with Ke Jiang? Mo Fanlu frowned, as if his chest had been hit by something, which touched the most vulnerable part of his heart, and the overwhelming irritability caused severe pain in his whole body. He almost ran down from the top of the building without stopping. On the roof of the empty building, Ke Jiang suddenly turned her head and looked at the door of the rooftop behind her. The roof door was still creaking in the wind.Feeling strange, he called Su Banxia beside him, and said, "Banxia, ​​did you hear the sound of the door just now? Did someone come to the top of the building?" "What's the sound of the door? You're not daydreaming in broad daylight, are you?" Su Banxia raised one eyebrow in amusing. "—Uh, I'm telling you seriously, I really heard the voice just now!" Is it the sound— Su Banxia turned her head and looked at the doorway of the rooftop. She was suddenly stung by some kind of dazzling light. She instinctively covered her eyes and continued to look over. On the ground next to the doorway, there was a ring-shaped necklace Flickering in bright light. A beautiful star. ——If we can't even achieve the most basic trust, then we are together, it is simply tantamount to making the biggest mistake. ——In other words, our encounter from the very beginning was a mistake, the biggest and biggest mistake. In the "Waiting" bar near dusk, the lights were dim, and the decadent smell of cigarettes and alcohol was everywhere.The noise, music, and laughter all merged together and reverberated deafeningly, forming a huge core that was too hard to be destroyed. The DJ is wearing a headset, playing the music and shaking his head with the crowd on the dance floor. In front of the bar with the scarlet lights flashing, the boy rests there with his chin resting on one hand, staring dimly at the wine in the transparent glass and the wine floating on the water. The thin slice of lemon on top. Not far behind the boy, stood Lu Chuanzi and Sang Ran. Lu Chuanzi still wore a baseball cap that could tightly cover her eyes, approached Sang Ran, raised her eyebrows and smiled, and asked, "Hey, why did you come here today?" Sang Ran was startled, raised his head, looked at Mo Fanlu who was nestled in front of the bar, then turned his face back to look at Lu Chuanzi, "It's obvious, he's in a bad mood." "I'm in a bad mood—" Amidst the loud music, Lu Chuanzi said in a slightly puzzled tone with a smile, "It turns out that top students sometimes have bad moods, haha." "...Hey, I'm not joking with you." "Yes, yes, then again, why is he in a bad mood? Is it a woman?" "perhaps." "Oh, did you have a new girlfriend?" Lu Chuanzi paused, and then asked with interest, "Who is it?" "I heard that it's called Su Banxia." "Su Banxia?" This familiar name flashed in Lu Chuanzi's mind, as if he had a little impression. "Why, you know him?" "Oh, not really." Lu Chuanzi smiled thoughtfully, "I've met him once, and he looks pretty straight. Is he Xiao Zhihua's best friend?" Listening to Lu Chuanzi's words, Sang Ran frowned instinctively. "You mean, Zhiwei?" "It's so strange that you remember her." Lu Chuanzi shrugged and said, "Forget it, don't mention her, it's better to go and see the top students first." As soon as the words fell, Lu Chuanzi stretched her waist and walked towards Mo Fanlu. Sang Ran paused, then raised her head and followed Lu Chuanzi's footsteps. Under the scarlet light, the female singer on the stage with brown curly hair was singing beautifully, her face could not be seen clearly, it was still the same song: I am your Chanel, you are my model... The evening light gradually replaced the gorgeous sunshine. The last class in the afternoon was Chinese. When Ke Jiang sneaked out of the class with her schoolbag in her arms, the classroom was still echoing with the sound of reading "Teacher List". Ke Jiang was not the only one absent in the classroom, of course, there were also Mo Fanlu and Sang Ran. Because Ke Jiang remembered seeing Zhiwei and a boy in front of a bar called "Waiting" last time, he guessed—maybe that boy was her boyfriend who caused Zhiwei to get hurt—Lu Chuanzi. So, he was going to go to that bar to find Lu Chuanzi, whether it was waiting for a rabbit, or declaring a battle, whatever was fine, but he didn't want to see Zhiwei being bullied by anyone again, he couldn't bear it. Ke Jiang did not tell Su Banxia her decision. Just like what Su Banxia said: If you don’t want to lose forever, go and stay by her side now. Ke Jiang clenched the strap of the backpack slung across her shoulders, raised her head, and said to the guard at the school gate, "Old man, I have a severe stomachache, can you let me go home?" The old man at the gate leaned out from the window Turning his head, he glanced at Ke Jiang's frowning face, who was pretending to be successful, and then muttered: "Let's go." So, Ke Jiang grinned and disappeared from the sight of the old man at the door, and quickly ran towards the "waiting" bar. The golden sunset slowly passed overhead, and the sound of car horns and the hurried footsteps of pedestrians were heard on both sides of the road.Then, the only thing floating in the wind was the sound of his strong heartbeat. Boom boom boom boom... thump thump... After about ten minutes, Ke Jiang finally found the bar according to the route he remembered.Very small facade, but very eye-catching because of the bright red paint.Ke Jiang is not interested in such bars. He and his friends often go to the kind of hotel-level bars, because the security there is much better. Just when Ke Jiang was about to enter the "Waiting" bar, the brass wind chimes on the bar door suddenly rang, and a drunk boy staggered out suddenly, and happened to bump into the bar. When he reached Ke Jiang's body, he raised his hand and touched Ke Jiang's face with a smile, his mouth was full of alcohol: "Honey, come to my house tonight." Ke Jiang suddenly felt like vomiting. Fortunately, two boys who were with him suddenly appeared behind the boy, and while carrying him away, they apologized to Ke Jiang: "Sorry, don't mind, I drank too much, and I admitted the wrong person." - So, the security measures in this kind of bar are really bad. Thinking of this, Ke Jiang frowned. He raised his hand and patted the place on the shoulder where the boy had just bumped into, then pushed open the door of the bar and walked in. The scarlet light immediately eroded Ke Jiang's eyes, and he suddenly squinted his eyes uncomfortably, and his eardrums were buzzed by the loud music.Passing by, the fancy-dressed girls with big wavy curly hair and colorful lipstick brushed past Ke Jiang in twos and threes, and some of them raised their eyes and squinted at Ke Jiang. , the ambiguous and vague eyes made Ke Jiang feel a sweet sense of shame on her face. It's just that none of this matters. Whether it's the harsh laughter of the girls in the bar or the shouting punches of the boys, these are unimportant. Of course. ——Oh, it seems that they must have known each other a long time ago, or maybe they are good friends. This was the first reaction that popped up in Ke Jiang's brain.Immediately afterwards, beside them, Ke Jiang saw the boy who used to be with Zhiwei, and, after hearing their next conversation, Ke Jiang could clearly confirm that the boy was wearing a baseball cap and had a smile on his lips. The boy with a dazzling rhinestone lip stud is Lu Chuanzi. The scarlet light flickered in front of my eyes. At the bar, Ke Jiang's ears heard an echoing conversation. First of all, Mo Fanlu asked Lu Chuanzi next to him with some reproach, saying, what happened yesterday, you walked away without saying a word, do you like Zhiwei or not? The other party just casually touched the brim of the baseball cap, and then replied in an extremely impatient and sarcastic voice, what do you like or not, Fan Lu, why are you so serious?To me, she is just a more convenient bank cash machine, and it is mobile, but, would you say what you like or dislike about that kind of thing?Ha ha. —A mobile... bank cash machine! In Ke Jiang's ears was a sharp and rough roar, dumb and desperate, revealing endless sadness, as if falling into a void, surrounded by only the screaming and clamoring of the bitter wind.His fists were suddenly clenched tightly, because even the bones could be seen clearly because of the excessive force. Sang Ran at the bar frowned dissatisfiedly at Lu Chuanzi, and said in a low voice, "Chuanzi, you've gone too far, let's do some good deeds!" Lu Chuanzi laughed loudly, and patted Sang Ran on the shoulder: "Sang Ran, you are not so superstitious—" However, before he finished speaking, Lu Chuanzi saw a figure flickering in front of him , before he had time to see clearly, a waving fist slammed into his face abruptly. With a loud "plop", Lu Chuanzi fell to the ground. Some girls in the bar started screaming while covering their mouths, and some boys who came over clapped their hands and applauded. In the confusion, Lu Chuanzi raised his head while covering his chin that was hit. He looked at Ke Jiang standing in front of him. Anger suddenly surged, he stood up and grabbed Ke Jiang's collar and shouted loudly: "Where did your grandfather's come from?!" Then, he raised his fist vigorously and swung at Ke Jiang. ——If you don’t want to lose her forever, go and stay by her side now. ——I don't want her to be hurt in any way, and I don't want her to be deceived by anyone. ——I don’t want to, I really don’t want to, I don’t even want to die. After school, at half past five, the sky was covered with a blood-red fire cloud. Zhiwei and Su Banxia were about to say goodbye to each other when they were at the school gate, but Su Banxia suddenly asked Zhiwei, "What do you think of Ke Jiang?" Zhiwei couldn't help laughing, the white on her cheeks The gauze trembled slightly in the setting sun. "Banxia, ​​isn't this exactly the same as when I asked you how Mo Fanlu was?" Zhiwei said with a smile. Su Banxia was stunned for a moment, then couldn't help laughing, and said, "That's right..." "yes." "So what do you think?" "Huh? Hmm...he's very nice." Besides, Zhiwei still clearly remembered that she owed him three hundred yuan. "Only good?" Otherwise what else?Zhiwei showed a confused expression. Su Banxia didn't say anything more, and only after a long time said: "Anyone can see it." "what?" "...he is interested in you." "Huh?" Zhiwei didn't hear clearly, but tilted her head with her eyes wide open. Su Banxia shrugged her shoulders helplessly, then waved her hand to Zhiwei and said, "It's nothing, see you tomorrow." After speaking, she turned around and left.Zhiwei stood at the empty school gate and looked at Su Banxia's back for a while, then turned around and left. However, after walking a few steps, Su Banxia suddenly remembered the necklace in her pocket, so she hurriedly turned her head, but she saw Zhiwei walking away. Su Banxia took out the necklace from her pocket, stared at it intently, the brilliance of the setting sun flowed by, and it was plated into a beautiful golden color. The light of the setting sun stretched the shadow very long, and even the eyelashes were dyed a faint yellow color.The smell of camphor trees permeated the air non-stop, and the petals of wild flowers scattered on the cobbled path, mixed with the fragrance of grass, was stirred into a wonderful aroma by the wind. When Zhiwei walked to the door with a white NIKE schoolbag on her back, she immediately saw a boy sitting on the cold steps in front of her apartment.After seeing that figure, Zhiwei's eyes brightened suddenly, but soon calmed down again. The boy lowered his head, his hair sprayed with shiny hairspray was a little messy, there was paint on the corner of his mouth, and his white uniform shirt was dirty. His hands were casually placed on the sides of his legs, and the black Adidas schoolbag was lying heavily on the ground, stained with light mud. The boy felt a shadow gradually covering the top of his head, he slowly raised his head, and saw Zhiwei standing in front of him who was a little at a loss, so a bright but tired smile gradually appeared on his face Come on, and whisper to her: "——you're back." Zhiwei was startled for a moment, then hurriedly nodded after recovering.In fact, what she was curious about was why he appeared at her door, and how he knew about her home, but she soon thought that it might be Ban Xia who told him, and then she suddenly realized "oh" in her heart . ——It really means that Cao Cao Cao Cao is here.Just mentioned him to Ban Xia. "Ke Jiang...are you waiting for me?" As soon as she asked, Zhiwei felt that she had said something nonsense. He didn't answer. "Why is the corner of your mouth hurt?" Zhiwei asked again, maybe it was because of a fight with someone.Are all boys like this? "...Don't be with him anymore." Ke Jiang said such a sentence abruptly. He realized the bluntness in his tone, and hurriedly added, "Okay?" "Huh? What are you talking about?" Zhiwei was even more confused. Ke Jiang raised her head, without any extra expression, she just looked at Zhiwei silently, her mind was in a mess, and after a while, he heard himself say to Zhiwei: "——he is not sincere to you." Not at all, don't be deceived again, okay? Zhiwei didn't speak, although she didn't know what he wanted to express, but she could sense it this time, so she hurriedly changed the topic and found an irrelevant excuse, "Well, it's been a long time, sorry, I will pay you back the money I borrowed from you last time." As she said that, Zhiwei took out the wad of money she was going to send to Lu Chuanzi from her pocket, quickly pulled out three pieces, handed them to Ke Jiang with trembling fingers, and the other party grabbed her wrist, Three pink banknotes suddenly fell from the trembling fingers to the ground, making a weak and tiny "rustling" sound. "Ke Jiang..." Zhi Wei opened her eyes wide and looked at the boy in front of her. She was not used to being contacted like this by a boy, so her expression was slightly awkward. Ke Jiang didn't say a word, but grabbed Zhiwei's wrist even more forcefully, and the faint red mark danced vaguely on the girl's fair skin. It seems that the length of a century has passed, as if the picture is slowly zoomed out by the lens of a movie. The boy tightly grasped the girl's wrist, staring at her face with complicated eyes, as if he was struggling with his thoughts, and finally mustered up a lot of courage to say that sentence: "--I like you." Zhiwei was stunned for a moment.There was a second blank in my mind. "—So," Ke Jiang, who really wanted to speak but didn't know how to express her feelings, gritted her teeth, frowned, her face flushed slightly, "don't be with him anymore, I It can... be better than him to you." These sudden words appeared in her ears, Zhiwei was so flustered that she was at a loss, her cheeks blushed suddenly.But she didn't hate Ke Jiang, so when she heard such a confession, she was suddenly moved and wanted to cry. It's just that she didn't know how to reply to him, she really didn't know. Slightly disordered breathing lingered around the boys and girls, Ke Jiang raised her eyes nervously, and looked at the girl who had lowered her head as much as possible, feeling an unprecedented fear in her heart. —He was afraid that she would reject him. If she rejects him, from now on, he will never dare to face her again.Then, everything will definitely end before it begins.Thinking of this, Ke Jiang gritted her teeth, and hurriedly said to Zhiwei: "You don't need to answer me in a hurry, I can wait for you." The voice was weak, a little hoarse, "I can wait for you to think about it before answering me, before that , I'll keep waiting." Zhiwei immediately felt a big sigh of relief after getting such a step down.Ignoring the burning sensation on her face, she forced herself to raise her head and said to him in a voice as small as a mosquito: "...Thank you, but... can you let me go first." "Huh?" Ke Jiang was stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, she quickly let go of the hand that was holding on to Zhiwei, and kept expressing her apology with an awkward expression, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Did it hurt you..." Zhiwei shook her head, covered her red wrist, bit her lip, and asked Ke Jiang with the same expression of embarrassment: "... Excuse me, can I go home?" "Hmm..." Ke Jiang nodded somewhat disappointed. "Well... then..." "what?" "……See you tomorrow." After finishing speaking, Zhiwei hurriedly ran into the corridor with her Nike schoolbag in her arms, and the dim light in the corridor instantly covered her back. Ke Jiang watched Zhiwei's back gradually disappearing in the corridor, her eyes darkened involuntarily.The setting sun slid over his head like running water, his whole body seemed to be soaked in warm water, but his temples throbbed with tiny pains. On the ground, three pink hundred-yuan banknotes were scattered. "——I think, it's better to be like this." He opened his mouth peacefully, talking to himself. The quiet and peaceful wind blows across the cheeks.Leaves a string of faint traces. Deep and shallow traces. The bell at six o'clock in the evening echoed dully over the entire city. It hit the eardrum one after another, making a heavy noise. In the box of the bar, the noisy music outside was isolated, and only a dim scarlet light remained.On the sofa, Mo Fanlu was disinfecting the scars on Lu Chuanzi's cheeks. What made Mo Fanlu feel helpless was not that he had become an "intern doctor" recently, but that Lu Chuanzi was screaming in pain. "Be gentle, let me tell you, can you be gentle?" Lu Chuanzi grinned and scolded while dissatisfied with Mo Fanlu's disinfection method, "Is that kid sick? Where did he come from?" He who came here? Impatient to live, aren’t you?” Sang Ran, who was sitting by the sofa, glanced at Lu Chuanzi, and said lightly: "It's not you, is it wrong?" "What did you say?" Lu Chuanzi narrowed her eyes and looked at Sang Ran, "I'm wrong? Hey, what's wrong with me?" Sang Ran didn't speak, but Mo Fanlu put down the cotton swab and disinfectant in his hand, frowned and said, "Do you dare to say that you did nothing wrong?" Lu Chuanzi's eyes froze suddenly, he stood up, walked out of the box without saying a word, and slammed the door hard. Mo Fanlu let out a helpless laugh: "He's really a bad boy." Sang Ran pressed the cigarette butt in his hand into the ashtray, then stood up and said "I'll go take a look" and left. never mind!nothing. 莫樊律叹了一口气，心里说，反正都是一些自己管不到的事情，就算自己想要去管，对方也可能会觉得是多管闲事吧。 都那么麻烦，连自己也是一个巨大的麻烦。 窗外的夕阳已经渐渐西沉，继而出现的是淡淡的月光。 过了一会儿，莫樊律看了看手腕上的表，指针已经指向了六点二十，有些晚了，差不多也该回去了。这么想着，他拿起了沙发上面的书包，斜挎到了左肩膀上。刚刚走出包厢的时候，门口处突然跳出了一个女生挡住了他的去路，并且朝他微笑着不停招手。 “嘿，樊律。” 对方知道自己从前的名字。 莫樊律惊诧地抬起头，面对着眼前的女生，本能地皱了皱眉。 猩红的灯光在周身明明灭灭，震耳欲聋的音乐声在狭小而又拥挤的空间里来回折射，躁动的跳跃，让莫樊律的大脑里略微产生了嘶啦嘶啦的杂音。 女生的头发是褐色的，卷卷的，她涂抹着漂亮的金色眼影，眼睛大得可爱，睫毛像是蝴蝶的翅膀一般在颤动着扑扇。如果，他没有记错的话，她应该是刚刚在舞台上的唱歌的女歌手。 “欸？怎么，你不认识我了吗？”女生惊奇地凑近莫樊律，指着自己的脸，“樊律樊律，你仔细地看看啦！” 她叫自己“樊律”，并且声音显得那么亲昵，那么熟悉。 “你是……”莫樊律挑起一边的眉毛，将女生从头发到尖头高跟鞋全部都打量了一遍，然后，他睁大了眼睛，几乎是用一种不敢置信但是却又包含着不可掩饰的喜悦的口吻问道，“戚诺乔？” 女生咧着嘴巴灿烂地笑出来，快乐地围着莫樊律的身边蹦蹦跳跳地叫起来，像是一只滑翔的小鸟：“呀呀，亲爱的，你可算记起我来了！我好高兴哦！” ——亲爱的半夏，不管发生什么样的事情，都请你不要哭泣，不管莫樊律对你如何，也都请你不要被打倒。 ——如果可以，我会永远地保护你，从我与你遇见的那刻开始无限期地计时。 ——我多么想把这些告诉你。 栀薇回到家里还不到十分钟的时候就接到了父亲的电话，说是工作要忙到很晚，不能回来吃晚饭。紧接着便是母亲的电话，几乎是说了同样的语句。挂了电话之后，栀薇才想起自己根本就不会做饭，这些事情向来都是母亲在操作，所以，她只好无奈地叹了一口气，换下了制服，走出家门，准备去超市买一些速食食品。 栀薇从楼道里走出来，临近傍晚的风扑在了她的脸颊上，白色的纱布被吹得轻飘飘地上扬起了一个小小的角。 栀薇在小区里还没有走到五米的时候，就看到了一个熟悉的身影倚靠在了鹅卵石小道旁的墙壁上。她的格子裙摆被微风吹得空荡荡的，两只手安静地握着书包的肩带，像是已经站在这里很久的样子。栀薇有些诧异的睁圆了眼睛，走上前去几步，轻声问： “——半夏，你怎么会在这里？” 听到声音，倚靠在墙壁上一直低着头的苏半夏略微怔了一怔，她慢慢地抬起头，看向了站在自己面前的栀薇，眼神里有着美好的光亮： “原来是你啊，栀薇。” 这样的语调，栀薇禁不住更加疑惑地脱口而出：“你……不是等我？” “嗯。”苏半夏想了想，略微犹豫，最终还是将话说了出来，“我是来等莫樊律的，因为要把他遗落的项链还给他。” 似乎是从苏半夏的话里察觉到了什么意思，栀薇好像明白了某种微妙的情愫一般，她的心里忽然就有一种莫名的失落感。 她看着她，轻声说道：“你们已经在交往了啊？” ——为什么没有告诉过我呢？ 头顶上飘过被黑暗染上颜色的云，昏黄的路灯在身边明明灭灭地亮起，空气中散播着淡淡的香樟树的味道。 两个女生相互面对面地站着，谁都没有先说话。 周身，是一片很寂静的声音。 直到良久之后，苏半夏缓缓地开口： "That's right." “嗯，什么时候开始的呢？” “自然而然就开始了。” “你……喜欢他？” no answer. 栀薇也不再勉强地追问下去。果然，即使是最亲密的好朋友也还是有相互之间不能够倾诉的秘密吧！ 最好的朋友。 可是，即使再怎么要好，再怎么相互喜欢，再怎么想要保护彼此，仍旧是有一些事情是属于自己的，不能够与之分享。彼此之间，原来始终都是存在着一些无形的距离，找不到突破点，就将会一直存在着距离，如此下去。 那么，这样也能够算得上是最要好的朋友吗？ 不过，每个人都是有拥有各自秘密的资格的。因为是秘密，所以是从来都不会说出口的。 栀薇这么想着，便感到有些委屈地抿紧了嘴角。很快地，她便调整好了面部表情朝苏半夏轻声说：“那，半夏……我陪你一起等，可以吗？” 苏半夏看着栀薇，若有所思地想了想，然后淡淡地笑着点了点头，说：“不是已经一起在等了吗？” 得到允应的回答，栀薇慢慢地笑出来，走到苏半夏的身边，轻轻挽住她的手臂将自己的脸颊靠在了她纤柔的肩膀上，顿了顿说：“半夏，你一定会哭泣的。” "..." “所以，我会保护你的。” 虽然不知道她为什么会突然说这样的话，苏半夏还是感觉心中被瞬间驻入了温暖的热水，柔软的液体将心脏融化。 不再是深冬一般尖锐的寒冷。 其实从很小的时候，在莫樊律的母亲还没有带着他改嫁的时候，在他还没有跟随母亲搬到继父家的时候，莫樊律是拥有过一段虽然算不上快乐但是却也不会感到寂寞的时光。 那段时光里，有在同一所中学并且同一班级的路川紫、桑然还有——戚诺乔。 从某种意义上来说，他们四个人，算得上是曾经的青梅竹马。很明显，用上“曾经”这个字眼表示一切已经成为了过去式，因为最后，他们是因各自的家庭因素而分道扬镳了。 那个时候，莫樊律还是挺欣赏路川紫这个朋友的。头脑聪明，长相又帅，并且性格开放，阳光又积极，算得上是中学里面的人气偶像了吧。也就是在和他成为朋友的时候，认识了住在路川紫家楼上的戚诺乔。如果说莫樊律没有对戚诺乔动心过，那是不可能的事情，因为在懵懂青涩的少年眼中，穿着中学纯白制服的戚诺乔就像是从童话城堡中走出来的公主，美丽得耀眼。不过，很快，莫樊律也知道了，她是桑然的女朋友，班上的那个冷漠又难以接近的桑然。 ah ah!少年的恋爱之心就这样破碎了。莫樊律曾经无奈地为此感慨。 但是，真相并非如此。 大概是在初中二年级的时候，嗯，也就是莫樊律正式地成为了继父莫连胜儿子的时候，并且，也是莫樊律和戚诺乔之间的交集逐渐加深的时候，那一年他才知道，戚诺乔一直喜欢着的人是路川紫。只是感情这种东西并不是自己能够控制得了的，就像是莫樊律的母亲和他继父之间整天的争吵与打骂，这让莫樊律已经没有时间去思考学习以外的东西，因为，他每次的考试成绩都是继父挑起战争的导火索。 莫樊律是那种外表心不在焉其实内心却很善良并且脆弱的男生。因为从某种意义上来说，家庭因素已经对他造成了很大的阴影。他只是害怕，不被自己重要的人重视。他只是害怕，得到手的东西会突然丢失。 所以，莫樊律曾经因为家庭的事情和继父无数次地开战过，就连朋友之间无心说到他伤口的时候，他都会和对方扭打在一起。 对路川紫也不例外。 只是男生大抵都不会太在乎这些，打架也只不过是精力过剩的体现而已。 不过有一次，莫樊律却真的发火并且很不留情面地和路川紫打起来，原因是路川紫随口说了一句“那种不理会自己小孩想法的任性母亲，还是死了算了”，莫樊律却突然从座位上跳了起来，触电一般地揪起了路川紫的制服衣领怒吼起来：“你懂什么！” ——你根本就什么都不懂！ 你一定不会懂自己好端端的名字前面突然被加上了一个陌生姓氏的感觉。 你一定不会懂自己的母亲要不断地讨好继父才能够吃饱饭的那种感觉。 你一定不会懂的…… 这些，没有人会懂的。 那天事后，虽然莫樊律和路川紫之间的关系并没有因为这次打架而变得生硬起来，只不过却引起了戚诺乔对莫樊律的注意。因为，就是那件事情才让戚诺乔感到莫樊律不是一个“花瓶”，而是一个真正敢动拳头的“小男人”。 她曾经帮莫樊律被打伤的嘴角擦药，也曾经陪着莫樊律一起进出保健室。莫樊律的衣领歪了，她会笑嘻嘻地帮他整理好，并且，就像是个母亲一般经常帮莫樊律做盒饭之类的。 那段时光，戚诺乔的身影与笑容是无法从莫樊律的脑海中抹灭的。 对她的那种感情，也许不是爱，但却绝对是一种无法舍弃的依赖。 所以，在得知戚诺乔与桑然分手并且到外地去进军演艺界的时候，莫樊律在那天还是控制不住地哭了出来。 那是除了母亲以外，第一个对他好的女生，第一个在他的生命留下重要痕迹的女生。 那个女生，是他永生都不会忘却的。 ——不过，现在，他们还是再度重逢了。 天色已经擦黑，楼群在昏黄的路灯中被勾勒出了灰蒙蒙的轮廓。眼前所有的公寓都已经亮起了各种颜色的灯。黄色的，白色的，或者是紫色的。 推着车，银色的单车链条在空气中发出哗啦哗啦的响动声，重重的金属声在耳膜上来来回回的抹动。 快走到家门口的时候，莫樊律推着单车停下了身形，朝身边的戚诺乔勾动唇角笑了一下，说：“我到了。” 戚诺乔的褐色鬈发在夜风中轻轻飘扬，她兴奋的闪烁着大眼睛，四周环顾起来。 “欸！这里就是你的新家啊？小区建设不错嘛！” “上去坐坐吧。” “嗯？不了不了！”戚诺乔连忙挥了挥手，“已经这么晚了，我要是上去的话不会耽误你学习吗？况且，你家从以前开始就管你管得那么严，要是误会了怎么办？所以还是算了吧！” 莫樊律勾动唇角失笑一声：“哈哈，那么久的事情了，你记得可真清楚。” 戚诺乔得意地拍了拍手，笑嘻嘻地说：“你又小瞧我了吧？不要以为我走了这两年里把你们都给忘了，少看扁我。” “哦——”他故意拖长的尾音。 “哦什么哦，你什么意思啊？” “什么意思都没，就是觉得你变得越来越漂亮了，身材也比以前好了。”两年不见，面前的女生显然已经变得有些陌生，不再是中学时期那个留着纯真直发，打着蝴蝶结的少女，莫樊律只好不适应地说着恭维的话。 “樊律，你什么时候变成这么油腔滑调的了？”戚诺乔撇着嘴巴盯着他看。 “乱说，我可是很正经的。” “呵呵，好啦好啦，把你送回家，我也就放心了，那么下次再见吧！” 送他回家？他又不是什么娇滴滴的公主。这个比喻真是差劲得够可以了。 “诺乔——”莫樊律喊住了她。 "Any thing else?" “那个，你这次还会走吗？” “不知道呢，怎么，盼着我走？” “——我不是那个意思。”他只是想问，是不是又会像从前那样，突然就不告而别地离开了他的视线，让他再也看不到她。 “嘿嘿，我知道你不是那个意思，我开玩笑的啦，亲爱的。” "Hey……" “好啦，说吧，我听着呢。” “——什么时候还能再见到你？” “嗯，这个嘛，我也不是很清楚，不过，我一有时间就会来找你的，那么我先走喽，你快上去吧！拜拜！”戚诺乔朝莫樊律微笑着做出了一个飞吻的动作，然后转过身，蹦蹦跳跳地向前跑了起来。 莫樊律抬起头，张开口想要喊些什么，可是戚诺乔的身影就已经消失在了夜色中，成了小小的一个黑点。 月光柔和而又安静地流淌在头顶。 暗色的云朵逐渐得融入了黑色的天空中。 当莫樊律推着车转回身的时候，蓦地，他就结结实实地怔住了。因为，他看到苏半夏就站在自己不远处的面前，正用一种非常冷漠的表情注视着他，而在苏半夏的身边，站着的人是栀薇。从栀薇惊讶又困惑的表情里能够看得出来，她们一定是看到了刚刚他和戚诺乔在一起的画面，并且，也一定是误会了他。 ——有什么可误会的，她今天不是也和柯绛在楼顶上“约会”了吗？ 暮色就像是被风吹得哗啦哗啦响动的窗帘，在眼前漆黑地掠过。 莫樊律和苏半夏彼此面对面地看着对方，谁都没有先把目光抽回来。 相互之间的眼神，就像是一条绷紧的弦。 直到栀薇终于受不了这样的气氛，于是她急忙支吾地开口说道：“嗯……莫，莫樊律，半夏在这里等你很久了……你竟然在和其他的女生约会，真过分……”话才刚刚出口，栀薇就后悔得恨不得用力地咬掉自己的舌头。因为她看到了苏半夏的脸色变得很难看，见鬼，自己为什么要说那种像是故意挑拨的话？ “事情不是你想的那样。”莫樊律有些生硬地说，然后弯下腰去将车锁上，站起身，向苏半夏那里走进了一步，“我不知道你会来找我——” 苏半夏站在背光的地方，看不到她的表情。 忽然，她迅速地从口袋里面掏出了那条项链，不由分说得就撇到了莫樊律的面前，口气很不好地硬邦邦地丢给他一句：“喏，你的东西。” 莫樊律急忙弯了身子将苏半夏抛过来的东西接住，打开手指一看，是自己的项链，难怪他哪里都找不到它。原来，她是为了这个才特意来到他家门口等他回来。 他抬起头，看向苏半夏，心里涌起了淡淡的歉意与不住的温暖，可是当他刚想要开口对她说一句“谢谢你”的时候，苏半夏却突然转身向相反的地方大步大步地离开。 看着苏半夏的背影，莫樊律心里某一个暗处微微地凹陷下去，顿时就很不高兴地沉下了脸。 一旁的栀薇倒是不知所措地看了看苏半夏远去的身影，又跑到莫樊律身边紧张兮兮地说：“你还站在这里干什么，快去追半夏啊！” 莫樊律握紧了手中的项链，负气似的抿紧了嘴角，哑着嗓子说了一句：“你少多管闲事了，她想走就走，又没人强迫她非留下来不可。” “你为什么要这么说？半夏和那个女生比起来，究竟是哪个更重要？” 那句话，就像是在问他过去和现在哪个更重要一样。 ——过去。 ——现在。 究竟，哪个才更重要一点？ “我不知道。”说完，莫樊律掏出钥匙，转身将自己的家门打开，怒气冲冲地走了进去。 听着莫樊律“哐——”的关门声，栀薇被吓得禁不住全身一哆嗦。 她的眼眶莫名其妙地就突然红了起来，也说不出是因为什么原因，只是心里面觉得很难受很悲伤。她抬起手，用力地擦干眼角，然后迅速地朝着苏半夏消失的地方追了过去。 ——为什么就不能彼此信任呢？其实，你们只是在相互赌气对不对？ 因为我们还年少，年少到无法容忍任何的欺骗，任何的猜疑，任何的背叛，任何的隐瞒。