Chapter 105 Section VI

For a long time, Luo Yang was in a trance, so that he ignored the catkins that appeared in front of him every day. Liu Xu has moved out of her stepfather's house since her mother died of illness, and she lives in the single dormitory of the geological team.Every afternoon, she would go to the hut where Luo Yang lived and carefully prepare dinner for the two of them.She knew that Maisui was married, and she was happy in her heart, but secretly worried about Luo Yang who was in a trance.She hopes that through her sincerity and carefulness, he can come out of the gloomy state and accept the reality that Maisui has completely left him.Yes, he should accept her now, this woman who loved him unconditionally, and she was trying to make him accept it.

Every time before Liu Xu comes to Luo Yang's place, she has to dress herself up in front of the mirror.At that time, there were not many cosmetics to choose from on the market. She only had a bottle of ordinary face cream called "Mianyou", two lipsticks of different colors, and a black eyebrow pencil.She hopes to use these few things to make herself appear as cute as possible when she appears in front of Luo Yang.Maybe because of her cuteness, he will gradually forget the woman named Maisui and fall in love with her sincerely.Even if you don't love her, you can accept her sincerely.Only when he accepts her can her expectation of love be realized.So every day when she leaves the dormitory, she has to work hard on her face, and then put on the best clothes, just like every young woman who goes on an appointment.

At this time, Luo Yang usually sits at the desk staring at a book in a daze.He hardly noticed Liu Xu's attire.Spread out in front of him was the manuscript "Dark Horse Odyssey", which Maisui copied from the county cultural center, and she finished copying it in just one week.As if by some divine will, the manuscript "Dark Horse Odyssey" became the only souvenir she left for Luo Yang.Liuxu admires Maisui's heart from the bottom of her heart.This may be the difference between an intellectual woman and an ordinary woman like her who grew up in the countryside.But Liu Xu can only love Luo Yang in her own way, a simple love.

"Peting you is like petting a child." Liu Xu usually said this to Luo Yang after putting the food on the table.At this time, Luo Yang looked up at Liu Xu as if he had just woken up from a dream. "What's the matter with your face?" he said, looking at her in surprise. When Liu Xu returned to the bathroom, she saw her face in the mirror, which was stained by oily smoke and sweat due to the busy work in the kitchen.So she wiped her face clean with a wet towel and touched up her makeup with lipstick in front of the mirror.She paints one color, erases it, changes another, erases it again.At this time, she realized that it was really difficult for her to reach the realm of "heavy makeup and light makeup are always suitable".So she angrily threw the two lipsticks into the wastebasket.She looked carefully at the woman in the mirror.Since the face cream she applied before leaving the dormitory had been wiped off, she finally saw a haggard face in plain sight. She was very angry with that face, and that face also became distorted in anger.The face in the mirror finally reminded her that she was almost thirty years old and had spent her youth in a hopeless competition!And he didn't appreciate her youthful escape at all!So Liu Xu, who was facing the mirror, began to ask again and again: Is it necessary to make such a sacrifice for a man who never loves himself?is it necessary?

Perhaps, her turning from love to resentment for him went deep into her heart from the moment she saw a haggard face in the mirror. After that, Liu Xu still came to Luo Yang's cabin every day after get off work, but she just came to sit and sit, sometimes holding a magazine in her hand, sometimes a sweater needle.He reads a book, and she also sits quietly reading a book or knitting a sweater. She even restrains herself from asking him if he has eaten.She hopes that she can also be an elegant woman like the ear of wheat that lingers in his heart even though she left.She is trying to change her lifestyle, which is to change the way she "loves" him.No, she can no longer talk about "love" at this time, she is just unwilling to let go easily, just like investors always want to get a corresponding return.She sneered in her heart, but she could show her innocence.Because she exchanged her miserable experience for nearly thirty years of life, she is really no longer a naive and imaginative little girl.She knew how to restrain herself and how to hide herself.

All the scars of life will scab and heal under the washing of time.After a long time, Luo Yang came out of the nostalgia for the past years, and finally he could no longer turn a blind eye to Liu Xu's innocent eyes.Some things he had to settle, and some things he had to say. "Liu Xu, I have always regarded you as my sister, and that bracelet just means mother. And you know, I love another person in my heart. Although she has left, I still love her. Do you want us to live together? , am I still thinking about other women?" "You still have the face to call me your older sister? You can't be so cruel, I'm already thirty years old! And I..." Liu Xu broke down in tears.

"I don't care for jade bracelets, but you must be responsible to me!" After crying, Liu Xu's eyes were burning with anger, only anger! "I'm in charge..." Luo Yang murmured. "Okay, let's go through the formalities in the afternoon. When it's May Day, the weather is not too cold, and we can go back to the countryside. The relatives don't know that we are married, so we send invitations to invite them all! "Liu Xu said. Luo Yang fixed his eyes on the book and said without raising his head: "I'll think about it. I'm going to prepare some materials in the afternoon. The court will have a public hearing in May."

"You decide, when will you have time to go through the formalities?" Liu Xu slapped a sweater needle on the coffee table.She was sitting on the sofa knitting a pair of maroon wool trousers for Luo Yang.She had started knitting that woolen trousers last summer, preparing to wear them for him when they got married on New Year's Day last year.But Luo Yang has been hesitant to register for marriage with her, and she has been hesitant to finish knitting the woolen trousers in her hand. "Okay, tomorrow, if there is nothing to do tomorrow, I will accompany you." "Hmph, you 'accompany' me!?"

"If you insist on being so fussy, I'll correct my wording: I'll go with you." Luo Yang put down the book and looked at the face that became even more black because of anger.He seemed to have discovered at this time that the face of the woman in front of him was hopelessly darkened by the sun in the countryside.But it's not her fault, her fault is that she still has to put makeup on her dark face, and pretends to be a little bird.He has told her many times in the past few years that she is not the kind of slender and lovely little woman, it is better to keep her natural color.But she never seemed to heed his advice.

"Do I care? If I care, when I see you in a mess, I should kick you off!" She rolled up the sweater pants and knitting needles, put them in a handbag, and was about to go back to the dormitory. "You Love to go or not, take advantage of it and want to run, there is no door! Let me tell you, you don’t want to run away from me in this life, unless I die!” Liu Xu quickly packed her things, she walked out of the room, and “bang "He slammed the door. Luo Yang hoped that she would leave quickly so that she could think quietly. Indeed, he owed her a lot in the past, and now she wants to demand what she deserves, and it's his turn to repay it.Can it be delayed any longer?How long can I breathe?Everything should have a result, whether the result is good or bad, and whether it is acceptable or not.Otherwise, there is no minimum peace.Yes, he must now want a result, that is, a peaceful life and inner peace.That "result" was planted by himself a long time ago, and he couldn't refuse to taste it in this ripe season.

Luo Yang knew that if he procrastinated and refused to register for marriage, he had seen the result of his marriage with Liu Xu prematurely; he didn't know how to face her or his own feelings in the future—unfortunately, people are a kind of Strange animal with feelings, he and she value it; it's even more unfortunate that they have to forsake their feelings for a bitter, even monstrous "result."He once tried to convince her and himself: stop struggling, stop playing this dangerous game.But he couldn't open his mouth because he owed her.He wanted to say that he could make amends in another way, but the thought made him even more despicable.So he didn't say anything, and only considered getting married under her guidance. Although he was a bit reluctant, he still nodded in agreement.He knew that if he continued to struggle, everything would only get worse. He and she want to form a family, but this family is not the destination of their feelings. No home should be considered a home, right?He calmed down. On the "May 1st" day of that year, Luo Yang and Liu Xu went to register for their marriage, but they did not hold the wedding for a long time.The two volumes of marriage certificates proving their legal relationship had been on the desk for almost half a year, with a thick layer of dust on them. However, everything cannot wait forever, especially a man's commitment to a woman.