Chapter 120 Spring Comes Spring Goes Spring Unintentionally

In the dream, there is still nothing to send, the cold and dark place is full of misty and lingering smoke, I am dressed in white, standing on the dim path, so confused that I don’t know where to go. Group after group of people passed by, not knowing whether they were rushing to death or to rebirth.In a daze, I heard the cry of a baby, approaching from far away, but I searched everywhere, but couldn't find any trace.That crying sound made my heart feel a little bit of pain, as if holding my spirit, my soul, I don't know why. Amid the bursts of crying, I was still powerless after all, struggling to wake up from the illusory dream.

I saw Hong Jian wipe the sweat off my forehead. Feeling my hands being pulled tightly, warm and powerful big hands, I saw Chun Yi in a daze, and he called out in a low voice: "Mei'er, I'm here, don't be afraid, don't be afraid anymore." Weakly opened his eyes, and whispered: "Your Majesty..." He gently brushed the thin hair on my forehead, and said softly: "Did you have a nightmare again?" "Well, it's a dream again, a dream that can't be shaken off." I replied slowly, without any strength. "It's because you're too weak, that's why you're like this. The imperial physician has prescribed a new medicine, as long as you drink it, you'll get better." While talking, he reached out to Guan Qiuxi to take the medicine bowl.

A bitter smell of medicine wafted over, and I almost felt sick, Chunyi licked the soup medicine with his lips, and said with a smile: "It's not bitter, I have tasted it." There was an indescribable touch in my heart, and I told myself, for the sake of Him, I want to drink the medicine too. He fed me spoonful by spoonful, his eyes were full of tenderness, he melted me into that tenderness, forgetting the pain in my body.I managed to drink a few sips, hoping to ease my pain. Only then did I realize that the Queen was also in the room, and I saw her walk to the bed and softly called: "Sister Mei..."

I want to salute slightly, but I have no strength.She hurriedly took my hand: "Sister, rest well and don't move." I nodded slightly: "Well, Empress Dowager is concerned, Mei'er is fine now." The queen comforted her and said, "Sister, just rest in peace of mind and recuperate, don't think about anything, if anything happens, the emperor and this palace will make decisions for you." "Well, Mei'er will, thank you, ma'am." The empress said to Chunyi: "Your Majesty, the concubine will leave first, and the concubine will feel at ease with you here by my sister Mei."

Chunyi nodded: "The queen also has a good rest and takes care of herself." "The concubine thanked the emperor." The queen saluted. She looked at me again: "Mei'er, I will come to see you sometime later." "The concubine sent the empress respectfully." I nodded slightly. Just these few polite words made me feel so tired. I leaned on the pillow and felt the breeze blowing in from the window sill, blowing my curtains. "What time is it, Your Majesty?" I turned my head and looked towards the window, I saw a red glow against the casement, but I was very confused.

"It's almost dusk." Chunyi also looked over the window sill. "Why are my eyes so blurred? The glow is like a phantom, not clear at all." I tried my best to see the scenery on the window sill, but it seemed like there was a cloud of fog in front of me. Chunyi replied softly: "It's because of being in a coma for a long time." "Your Majesty, I want to see the glow outside the window." My heart is full of longing for that glow. Chun Yi nodded: "Okay, I will carry you." Chunyi gently picked me up, I hugged his neck with both hands with all my strength, and buried my head on his shoulder, feeling very comfortable.

The haze is beautiful, dyeing half of the sky, with a romantic red, which makes the scenery outside the window a bit more drunk and fading.There are flowers blooming, some flowers withering, spring goes and spring comes, it is always so unintentional.Only those few stalks of green bamboo are evergreen no matter what season they are in. I snuggled into Chunyi's arms, closed my eyes, and smelled the quiet smell in the evening, mixed with the scent of flowers and green grass, which made me full of longing for life again. "Your Majesty, I haven't smelled this red dust for a long time." I closed my eyes and said softly.

"The smell of the world of mortals, Mei'er, these words are new, yet you actually said it was the smell of the world of mortals." His breathing was very even, smooth and gentle. "Yes, the smell of the world of mortals, because since this coma, my dreams seem to be a ghostly world, dark and cold, without a trace of warm breath, and I can't see the sun in the mist." I still closed my eyes, recalling Those scenes in the dream brought a chill to my heart. Once upon a time, I was so eager for sunshine and warmth. "From now on, I will watch the sunshine with you every day." Chunyi looked at me tenderly, even though I closed my eyes, I could feel it.

I slowly opened my eyes, and suddenly said: "Your Majesty, let Xiao Xingzi go, you know, this matter has nothing to do with him." Chunyi concentrated, then nodded slowly: "Okay, I ordered him to be released in a while. It was also because of anger at that time." "The concubine knows that everything the emperor does is for the concubine, and the concubine understands." I said softly to him, because I really understand everything he did. "Mei'er, you probably know that your fall on the swing was not by accident, right?" Chunyi said in a low voice.

I calmly replied: "Yes." "Mei'er, I will definitely investigate this matter thoroughly this time and give you an explanation." Chunyi's words were firm, and I could see his persistence from his eyes, and I knew that this time he would not let it go easily.That being the case, I don't need to say much. I slowly said: "Your Majesty, in fact, what the concubine wants is not an explanation, everything will come to light. In the past, the concubine always felt that it should not be involved too much. If it is pulled, it will reveal a lot of hidden truth behind it, which cannot be dealt with. But the accumulated If there are too many, it needs to be cleaned up, otherwise it will be dirt, and in the end, it will be even more difficult to clean up."

Chunyi agreed: "Yes, what Meier said is right, I think so too, if they are not severely punished, they will be even more lawless, the queen's health is not good, and I have to deal with the matter of the harem myself." I was still being hugged by Chun Yi, thinking that his hands must be sore, I said softly: "Your Majesty, Meier wants to lie down on the pear wood chair for a while." Because I like this pear wood chair, Nuan Ge has one, and this bedroom also Leave it alone. Chunyi carried me to the pear-blossom wooden chair, and I lay on a slant, feeling much better.He sat quietly next to me, and there was a little more warmth in such a moment. "Mei'er, what you have to do now is to take care of your body, and I will handle the rest. You don't need to know the process, and I will give you the result." Chun Yi caressed my eyebrows, I haven't painted them for a long time , no light makeup, just natural. "Okay, I just want the result." I couldn't help stroking Chun Yi's face with my hand, he held my hand tightly and kissed: "Mei'er, I didn't protect you well, I made you suffer." I smiled slightly: "The concubine is fine now, the emperor doesn't have to worry about the concubine anymore." "From now on, you will be my Mei Zhaoyi, and I will cherish you even more." Chunyi's eyes were full of tenderness. "Your Majesty, do you have anything else to hide from your concubine?" I suddenly said such a sentence, which may have brought a little surprise to Chunyi, because there was a faint feeling of unpredictability in my heart. I could feel it from Hong Jian's evasive words, and I wanted to ask Chun Yi directly while I was in good spirits. Chunyi was stunned for a moment, then smiled: "No, I have nothing to hide from Meier." "Tell Chenqie, if Chenqie has a premonition, you will not be able to sleep peacefully, tell Chenqie, Chenqie will accept it calmly." I looked at him, and my eyes did not allow him to avoid it.I don't understand why I asked such words, but I do have a feeling in my heart. From my dream and my intuition, I know that something must have happened. Chun Yi clenched my hand tightly, her brows were deeply furrowed, and pain was written all over her face.My premonition really came true. At this moment, I was sure that something sad happened to me. With a calm face, I said calmly: "Your Majesty, it's all over, isn't it? No matter how painful it is, it happened, so why do you mind telling my concubine?" "Our child is gone." He finished speaking succinctly, in stark contrast to the hesitation just now. "Child..." I called out in a low voice, feeling a pain in my heart, but stopped and pulled away in an instant. Maybe it was my calmness that frightened Chunyi, he held my hand even tighter, almost hurting me, and said in a low voice, "Mei'er, I didn't want to hide it from you, so you woke up..." I covered Chunyi's lips with my hand, and smiled softly: "Your Majesty, I understand, I don't blame you." I said it word by word, so gently, but so forcefully, but I could clearly feel the meaning of the words. Cold, that piercing cold air can freeze people. I felt Chunyi's hands tremble a little, the feeling spread from my palm to his, and spread away from the meridians, enough to make him cold. "Mei'er, cry if you want to cry, you will feel much more comfortable after crying, don't be bored in your heart, everything is in the past, we still have a long, long future, we will be happy." Chunyi said softly to her As I said, his eyes clearly showed pain. "We will definitely be happy." I murmured, with a hint of coldness on the corner of my mouth, with some unreasonable ridicule and inexplicable sarcasm. "How long has the child been?" I squeezed out these few words from between my lips and teeth. I thought I could calm down, but a sharp knife cut through my heart, and I could almost feel the blood slowly overflowing, and I couldn't stop it. . "A very weak little life that hasn't arrived in two months." Chunyi's lips and teeth were also cold, his brows were furrowed, and the veins on his forehead were exposed one by one, and the grief and anger in his heart was expanding bit by bit. I gently stroked his eyebrows, stroked his forehead, and said softly: "Your Majesty, don't do this, please don't do this." He squeezed my hand tightly and put it on his lips to kiss: "Mei'er, I promise you that we will not let Yan'er die in vain. I, the father, will give him justice." "Yan'er..." I called softly, looking at Chun Yi in confusion. Chunyi nodded gently: "Yes, Yan'er, he is like a puff of smoke, coming in the most beautiful season and leaving in the most beautiful season. Light like tobacco, but also dreamy like Nanke." "Light as tobacco, and dream-like Nanke." I murmured, these words, I am so happy, my smoke comes in spring, spring leaves, he is as light as tobacco, and Gave me a dream like Nanke, and he left me before I had time to have it.Is it a mistake or a kind of salvation for him not to be able to come to this filthy world? Chunyi called me in a low voice: "Meier, let's bless Yan'er and let him go well. When you recover, do a ritual ceremony for him, okay?" I shook my head lightly: "No, no, he is still too young to bear much, so let him leave lightly. Your Majesty, our Yan'er, cannot come into this filthy world. Redemption, not error." "He is my emperor's son. When he comes, he is destined to have a lifetime of happiness. As long as he leaves, I will give him the best wishes." Chun Yi was half firm and half helpless, which made me feel powerless. "If you can't catch him, let him go." I said coldly. "I will definitely seek justice for Yan'er." Chun Yi said firmly. "No, don't say it's because of Yan'er, he's still too young to bear such a heavy burden, let us accumulate blessings for him. But the price I paid for Shen Meiwan must be recovered, not for Yan'er, only for me——Shen Meiwan. "My words came from the bottom of my heart, with extremely cold power.This is the curved eyebrow, which can breathe out smoke and clouds, and can also retract the sun and the moon. Chun Yi gently picked me up: "Mei'er, I will carry you back to bed to rest and take care of your body so that you can do what you want. I promise you, I will give you the result." After Chunyi left, I lay quietly on the bed, feeling a void in my heart that had been gouged out, but there was no pain.It turned out that the emptiness I felt before was because I lost my child. He is my flesh and blood. I failed to protect him. No wonder I heard the cry of a baby in my dream. I want to be strong, and I want to tell smoke Don't cry, my mother will pray for you. Very weak, really weak, I used my last strength to maintain it, I didn't cry, I didn't shed a single tear for Yan'er, I didn't cry, and I didn't feel pain, just very weak.But I know that from now on, I will no longer be the one with dark eyebrows who are as light as smoke.