Chapter 119 Everything in the world is blurred

Drowsily, I entered the illusory realm again, many souls floated around me, I tried to catch something, but they all brushed against me.I remember someone said that it should be good for the soul to ignore me. If they can also see my existence and talk to me, then they and I will be in the same world.However, some people told me that if the living people cannot see my existence, I am also separated from them by a world.I am so isolated, am I dead or alive? When I woke up, I was sure again that I was alive.I saw the sunshine that I hadn't seen for a long time. At that moment, I knew that spring had not passed, and I was still living in spring. This season may have made a short stay for me.I grasped its sleeves tightly, so there is still this last intersection, the intersection with spring.

Headache, and very dizzy, dizzy and confused. I opened my eyes and saw Xie Ronghua, who was sitting on the edge of my bed, holding my hand, looking at me softly, and smiling at me: "Sister Mei is awake." I stood up gently and smiled weakly: "My sister came to see me so early." "It's getting late, it's my sister who fell asleep." Xie Ronghua gently moved the pillow for me so that I could lean more comfortably. "Seeing my sister again seems to be my whole life again. It's been a long day, and I'm drowsy, and I don't know where I am." I said slowly, with my breathless breath.

Xie Ronghua lightly brushed the hair on my forehead, and said softly: "My sister's sleep makes me very worried, but I firmly believe that you will wake up, so I am not afraid in my heart, I know you will definitely wake up." In the end, she choked up and her eyes were red, which touched the softness in my heart. I raised my hand, stroked her cheek lightly, and smiled softly: "Silly sister..." She held my hand tightly, and said: "Sister, I will ask Imperial Doctor He to diagnose and treat you first." He Muhan, who had been waiting by the side, took my pulse very carefully, checked my head, and then bowed and said: "Congratulations, your illness has improved. Please relax and recuperate. I will try my best to diagnose and treat you. Get well soon."

"Thank you, Imperial Physician He." I smiled weakly at him, thinking that Imperial Physician He must have come with Xie Ronghua. Qiuxi brought me a decoction and carefully fed me to drink it. I only drank a couple of sips before I gagged and couldn't swallow it. "Sister Mei, what's the reason? I can't drink the soup, what can I do?" Xie Ronghua asked the Imperial Physician anxiously with a nervous expression. Imperial Physician He frowned slightly, and said in a low voice: "Your Majesty has been in a coma for too long, and I suspect that her brain has suffered a severe concussion. I'm afraid there is still blood in it, and the blood will subside to see improvement."

"Then how can it subside?" Xie Ronghua was still anxious. "It will take time, take your time. I want to change the prescription, the medicine for dissolving stasis and blood, as long as the mother can drink it, and then apply heat to the wound on the head, I believe it will get better." Imperial Physician He said confidently, From his eyes, I saw a glimmer of light, but I was not in a hurry.Now that I have woken up, I will definitely not die again.Once upon a time, I was so unwilling to die, that ghostly world was too dark and cold to be suitable. "Thank you, Doctor He." I said slightly to him.

"Your Majesty, you are being polite. This is the duty of a minister. Your Majesty just needs to take care of her with peace of mind. If she has a good attitude, she will recover quickly." He looked at me gently, and I always had an inexplicable feeling for him in my heart. Xie Ronghua and Xie Ronghua are so well matched, so well matched that I think their hearts have long been together.Maybe it's my illusion, it's just that Xie Ronghua and I have a deep friendship, and I will be grateful and cherish those who treat me well. Xie Ronghua said to him: "I'm sorry for the imperial physician, I want to accompany Sister Mei quietly for a while, please go back first."

Imperial Physician He bowed and nodded: "I will take my leave first, and I will prescribe a new prescription in a while, and order someone to deliver the medicine. I will come back tomorrow to treat your empress. If there is any abnormality, I will send someone to pass it on at any time." Nodding and smiling, watching him leave, the slender figure disappeared in an instant. I looked at Xie Ronghua, stretched out my hand to her, and said, "Sister, I want to get out of bed and walk around, I feel dizzy lying here." She gently helped me to sit up, and said with concern: "Sister, I'd better lie down first, after so many days in a coma, if you want to get up all of a sudden, your body will not be able to bear it, lie down for a few more days, and the recovery will be better, I will accompany you every day You go for a walk in the garden."

As soon as I sat up, I felt dizzy and felt like vomiting, so I said slowly, "Okay, I won't get up." Hong Jian brought a bowl of thick red bean soup and said, "Miss, let me feed you some red bean soup, you won't feel dizzy after drinking it." Xie Ronghua took the bowl and looked at me with a smile: "Let me feed my sister." I took a few sips and felt like vomiting again, so I gently pushed it away: "Sister, drink it later, I still feel uncomfortable." Xie Ronghua handed the bowl to Hong Jian, and gently rubbed my chest: "Sister, take a break."

Leaning softly on the pillow, I felt my whole body was weak and still aching. Xie Ronghua covered me lightly with the quilt, and said softly: "Sister, just rest in peace, Imperial Physician He will definitely find a way to cure your illness." "Doom, doom is inevitable, that's the sentence." I laughed, with a little self-mockery. "Everyone's life will have many ups and downs, ups and downs, sister don't have to think too much, now is considered auspicious, and will be smooth and stable in the future." Xie Ronghua comforted me, in fact, I am not complaining, but just feel that many things are true It is doomed.

"Sister, I really don't mind so many. Whether it's an accident or man-made, it has already happened anyway. It's my catastrophe. If I can't escape it, I can't escape it." When I said these words, I was still thinking in my heart. What was the reason for jumping that day? "Sister, this harem is like this. If you don't fight, others will fight; Bad, others are bad." Xie Ronghua said so many comparisons in an instant, seemingly concise, but every sentence is real. "Sister, do you understand? I don't disdain, I don't disdain this. I can be indifferent to many people and things. Maybe this is my character. If it is ruthless, I can be more decisive than anyone else, but I still don't disdain They are not worthy enough to do it." My tone was arrogant, so arrogant that I was surprised.In fact, I don't know what I was thinking in my heart, I just felt dizzy and unable to think about anything.

"I understand, I understand that a woman with a heart like my sister is unique." Xie Ronghua said hastily. I smiled coldly: "Unique, that's in the eyes of my younger sister. My younger sister thinks that I can understand as I please. But they will think that I am arrogant because I am so indifferent. .” "It's up to them, you know, no matter how good a person is, if they become rivals, they are all bad people, and they all hold resentment." Xie Ronghua said lightly, after all these years, she had gotten used to indifference. After a short pause, I asked slowly, "Does my sister also think that my falling from the swing frame this time was not an accident?" Xie Ronghua settled down and nodded slightly: "My intuition tells me, no." I smiled lightly: "No, it's not. What can I do? I've let her down again. If you let me know who it is, maybe I may not be willing to forgive you. If I don't care about it, I won't care about it at all. If I care about it, I will Let her be completely destroyed, forever." I felt the coldness between my lips and teeth, and I was thinking in my heart, if I blindly accommodate them, not only I will be hurt in the future, but also the people around me.Thinking of Yanping's death, although it wasn't because of the harem dispute, it was also because of the imperial court's struggle. Thinking of Ruyi's death, it also became the funeral of a tragic figure.Fortunately, I was the one who had the accident this time. If it were the people around me, I think this life would be very difficult.Maybe it's time to stop it. "Sister, are you tired, take a good rest, eat something later and then take medicine, even if you vomit." Xie Ronghua called me softly, and patted my shoulder with his hand. I came back to my senses and nodded slightly: "Okay, my head is very dizzy, and I can't see you clearly." "That's because I've been in a coma for too long, lie down again, and I'll sit here with you." Xie Ronghua looked at me gently. "Sister, go back and rest first, and come back to accompany me tomorrow." I said softly. "Let me watch you drink the medicine before leaving, or I won't be relieved." Xie Ronghua's eyes were full of concern. I leaned softly on the pillow, maybe I talked too much just now, I was very weak, half-closed my eyes, Xie Ronghua sat beside me and accompanied me. Drowsy and light sleep, as if about to fall asleep again, only heard a low voice: "Did sister Mei just fall asleep?" I slowly opened my eyes, Concubine Wu was standing in front of me, Xie Ronghua was talking softly to her. "Sister..." I whispered. Concubine Wu hurriedly approached me, sat on the edge of the couch, and said softly: "My good sister, don't move, just lie down." "Hmm." I replied in a low voice. Concubine Wu held my hand, her eyes were full of pity, she said in a low voice: "Sister, when I heard you woke up, I was going to come, but something happened in the palace, so I delayed the time, so I have to relax now , Seeing that my sister really woke up, I was really pleasantly surprised." "I'm sorry, sister, Mei'er is fine." I looked at the concubine Wu softly, and I felt as if I had passed away. I felt that I had died once, and now that I have returned to the world, it turns out that there is still someone who makes me happy. , such as Xie Ronghua, such as Concubine Wu, such as... After being silent for a while, Concubine Wu said softly: "Just now in Pianran Palace, some guests came, Shi Guibi, Liu Fangyi and Qiu Guiren. They only came to sit in my palace by chance on weekdays. Today I mentioned Sister Mei. The thing about falling off the swing frame." I know all the people mentioned by Concubine Wu, but I seldom interact with them on weekdays, and I am not familiar with them. I think my falling from the swing has become a casual chat in the harem.People who are not hostile to me may sigh and regret it, or they may not care at all. People who are usually jealous of me, now is the time to read and tell jokes. "What did they say?" Xie Ronghua couldn't help asking. "It's been rumored that sister Mei's fall on the swing was not accidental, and someone must be playing tricks." Concubine Wu replied seriously. Xie Ronghua was somewhat disapproving: "There's no need to spread the word about it. In fact, everyone thinks so in their hearts. What happens in the harem is often man-made. It's just a trivial matter, and it has already spread the word." I smiled lightly: "In the end, the truth became false, and the false became true, or they were all true, or they were all false. Listen with interest, and even talk about it In other words, just watch with cold eyes without interest, and there is nothing else." "But sister, this time, it seems that we really can't be passive anymore. Ruyi's death is still in front of me. After observing these days, I thought they would not make any more moves. I didn't expect that sister Mei would have such a thing again. It's auspicious, if something is wrong, it's okay." Concubine Wu looked anxious and spoke hurriedly. "If you're really dead, it's fine to make a fuss, what else can you do?" My tone was sarcasm, to myself and to humanity. "How can my sister say that? In fact, the person who caused the harm has always had a high status. You must know that if something happens to my sister, the emperor will definitely not let it go. He will investigate thoroughly. If it is not for power and love, he would not have the courage to do so." The sword is slanted." Xie Ronghua held my hand and analyzed the matter. I said calmly: "No matter who it is, in the end, there will be a result. It's just the length of time. I believe time will tell us everything." "Sister, can you guess who did it?" Concubine Wu looked at me, as if she wanted to get an answer from me. I shook my head lightly: "The world is blurred, why should it be too clear. In fact, I am not sure who it is. Often the person you think is not, and the person who is not is. It is really hard to tell clearly." In my heart Thinking about it, the ones who have a problem with me on the surface are Concubine Yun and Xu Guibi beside her, and there are so many people hiding behind, who knows who it will be?At the beginning, I denied that it was Concubine Yun who did the wishful thing. I thought she was so smart that she would not do it too obviously. But there are so many things, there is always one thing she did. As for who she framed, I am really not sure. "Sister said it well, time will tell us everything, but I don't agree to continue to wait, I believe the emperor will investigate this matter thoroughly this time. So, if you want to do something, you have to do it decisively. At this point, it is also difficult to clean up the mess." Xie Ronghua's words concealed a sharp edge, her so-called decisiveness probably meant that the perpetrator was not cruel enough, or was too cruel, but unexpectedly, the jumping and falling would not kill her. I.Now that I am still alive, it is indeed not easy to clean up such a mess. "The most important thing now is that Sister Mei's health is getting better. Let's work together to find out these things so that they can't be safe." Wu Fei's words made me feel that she really couldn't bear it anymore. Indeed, Ruyi However, it will take time to heal.Coupled with their coercion, no matter how calm and calm a person is, there will be waves. I have a headache and my eyes are so blurry. Xie Ronghua seemed to see the situation, and said: "Sister, rest for a while, rest for a while before taking medicine, and sister Xue and I are here to accompany you. Don't think about anything, and we won't talk about it." Concubine Wu flicked my hair: "Take a break, I'll be here with you." I lay softly, feeling exhausted, they were with me, I felt warm and at ease in my heart, in a daze, I fell into another dream...