Chapter 15 second murder

It's May, flowers fly like snow, and when the wind blows, it becomes a dream. She leaned against the tree, still wanting to speak, lowered her head lower and lower, and finally raised her head sharply, and bravely said: "I like you." "I like you." The four short and decisive words are like a bolt from the blue. She looked at him with tears in her eyes. And he has already suffered a crushing defeat. Zhang Chaotian sighed, raised his head and said, "Ruo Meiying? I don't remember." "Don't remember?!" Xiao Wan was shocked, with a trace of anger, "You don't remember?!"

Zhang Chaotian didn't turn his head and didn't speak. This is an old man with white hair, as white as snow, but his demeanor is still good. The vicissitudes of time cannot hide his original handsomeness. Although he is no longer in high spirits, he still has a kind of nobility , when talking to people, inadvertently carries a sense of condescension, as if the emperor is downcast, three points helpless, seven points impatient. The hostess came out to offer the fruit plate. She was at least 20 years younger than Zhang Chaotian. She seemed to be a continuation, with a happy face, and smiled before saying anything: "Mr. Please understand."

She called her husband "Mr. Zhang", and her face was full of pride. Xiao Wan looked up at her, not understanding why such a shallow and vulgar woman could replace Ruo Meiying as the heroine in his life, and erase Mei Ying's memory in his heart.She stared at him closely, and asked word by word: "You, really, don't remember, Ruo Meiying?" Zhang Chaotian was forced to raise his head, looked at this pure as water girl, and guessed her relationship with Mei Ying.After a long time, I still said: "I don't remember, it's too far away, maybe sixty or seventy years ago, who remembers?"

Xiao Wan stood dumbfounded.He had forgotten her?When she was sad, shed tears, and sacrificed herself for his broken promise, until she fell to her tragic death and wandered around the world, he actually, forgot her! There is no betrayal in the world that is more cruel, more thorough, and more unforgivable than forgetting! She seemed to have experienced ten years of vicissitudes in an instant. It turns out that time can really kill all grievances.It turns out that such a heartfelt love can also be forgotten. When lovers swear by each other, they always think that this oath will be fulfilled, and that all disasters cannot separate them.

However, there is one most powerful force that is often overlooked by infatuated men and women when they are passionately in love, but it is the most irresistible and fatal obstacle that cannot be ignored—that is time. The grinding wheel of time can grind away all the vows and deep hatreds. Whether it is the tenderness of the past and the moon, or the eternal love and hatred that cannot be shared, they can be polished under the grinding wheel of time until they become blurred and numb. Only Ruo Meiying, this infatuated ghost who doesn't want to come back to life, can resist the grind of time, search for love and hatred in her previous life, and remember a love and hatred that has gone through more than half a century, and she will never forget it.

I want to ask you a question. Xiao Wan's eyes were shining brightly, and she persistently wanted to ask an answer for Ruo Meiying: "That July 14th, Ghost Festival, the ghost show of 'Qunyinghui' was all over Taiwan. I eloped at night and arranged a new house for you at Xinglong Hotel, but you missed the appointment, why?" The mid-mature hostess was already unhappy, and went in and out pretending to serve tea and water, making a lot of noise on purpose. Xiao Wan turned a blind eye, listened but did not hear, just stared at Zhang Chaotian with piercing eyes, and vowed not to give up until she found out the truth.

He defeated Ruo Meiying. Just as Zhang Zhi also failed himself. This answer is not only asked for Ruo Meiying, but also for herself and all the sad women in the world who are infatuated. "Ruomeiying died for you. She was dying and wanted to ask you a question. You have to give her an answer—why did you miss the appointment?" She persisted, uncharacteristically.The trip to Shanghai changed her. She is no longer the gentle and shy Shui Xiaowan, but the nemesis who recovers the debts on Meiying's behalf. "Da Shaoyi in Taimiao was the only time Ruo Meiying saw you after liberation, and it was also the last time I saw you. I don't believe you will forget! Grandma Lin Juying, who is not related, still remembers it after forty years, and she cries bitterly when she mentions it Tears, why don't you remember?"

Zhang Chaotian closed his eyes, and the moment he closed his eyes, Shui Xiaowan seemed to see tears glistening. Is it tears? Xiaowan went on: "If Meiying jumped off the building after that meeting, they said, when Meiying jumped off the building, you were also in Ruichang. You didn't see her, did you hear her? She called your name , I want to ask you a word, I jumped off the thirteenth floor and died at your feet, don't you remember?" Her tears flowed down before him, and her voice was choked up: "For you, she went from human to ghost, from life to death, but she didn't drink Mengpo soup because she didn't want to forget, she didn't want to forget, she wanted to ask You say a word. And you, how can you forget?"

He opened his eyes, looked calm, and said for a long time, "No, I really don't remember." Xiao Wan's face collapsed, her heart suddenly became very gray, her eyes dimmed in an instant, as if after a big battle or a serious illness. She raised her head, looked silently at the gloomy sky outside the window, and said silently: Mei Ying, you love the wrong person. When going downstairs, Shui Xiaowan met Zhang Zhiye. He said, "Long time no see." She also said: "Long time no see." There was not much emotion in her tone. He looked at her and knew that things were irreversible, that the past was really over.

When two old lovers who are no longer in love meet, the most terrifying thing is not hatred, but plainness.She didn't even need to avoid him, she didn't pretend to be strange or indifferent, but just treated him as an ordinary acquaintance. However, he still wants to do one thing for her, in other words, to do something for Ruo Meiying, to find the answer to that sentence - this is also what Shui Xiaowan is determined to do.Therefore, he coincided with her and came to the insider's door one after another. But Xiaowan said: "There is no need to ask any more, he said he didn't remember."

"do not remember?" "Hate lasts longer than love. Lame Hu has much deeper feelings for Ruo Meiying than Zhang Chaotian." Xiaowan smiled wryly, "If Meiying married Zhang Chaotian, she would have been reincarnated today, and she would have nothing remembered." Remember, because you don't forget. Forget is the "death" of death in the word "heart". Because of hatred, I am not reconciled and do not give up. The "heart" refuses to "die", so it does not "forget". Zhang Zhi was also a little bit embarrassed, Zhang Chaotian let Ruo Meiying down, and being remembered by her for a lifetime was not enough, and being a ghost would have to be entangled endlessly.But Vivienne betrayed him, and he betrayed Shui Xiaowan, but he knew clearly that none of them would remember the other in the future.Once separated, the memory will be deleted and emptied immediately, there is no need to die because there is no heart at all.Even if you want to remember, only remember your own words. He sighed and said in a low voice: "I just came back from Guangdong." "Interview?" She walked downstairs with him one after the other, no longer caring about his whereabouts, and only responding out of politeness. "Yes, for an interview, I went to the Guanyin Hall and met the only remaining self-comb girls." She stopped at the entrance of the building, raised her head, and saw a few gray-backed pigeons flitting across the sky. Yes, he said not long ago that he would go to Guangdong to do a documentary interview about self-combed girls.It turned out that there was only such a short time in between?Thinking of it is like a lifetime away. "I also went to the village where Zhao Zihe went to the countryside..." "Nurse Accountant?" She cheered up. "What did you hear?" "It's all in the past, you don't want to know." Zhang Zhi also hesitated, "Xiao Wan, we..." "Our matter is also over." Xiao Wan interrupted him. Zhang Zhiye's face froze suddenly. Although he had expected this answer, when he actually faced it, it still made him feel a bit chilly.Ruo Meiying still remembers Zhang Chaotian sixty years later, but Shui Xiaowan has decided to forget him yesterday. He felt that something in his body was suddenly broken. Zhang Chaotian watched Shui Xiaowan and Zhang Zhiye walk away side by side from the window. A pair of people.He thought, the same as himself and Mei Ying back then.I just don't know if their love will be luckier than myself. Shui Xiaowan's visit made him know that his day has finally come. That Xiao Wan's eyebrows and expressions were very similar to Ruo Meiying's, and she came here to ask for answers for her. But he didn't answer her. She reminded him too much of the past. He had indeed forgotten Ruomeiying. The scariest thing in life and the thing that kills love the most is not poverty but poverty. The people and things I longed for have repeatedly failed, and what I always get are not embarrassing encounters. I don’t know how to get married, and I don’t know how to become a father. I never gave my wife and children enough happiness and joy, but Because of too many disappointments, I gradually don't know how to complain.There is not much difference between one day and one day.Someone in the neighbor got promoted and someone got into a car crash. The essence of life is this kind of daily necessities, quarreling over small things, but when big disasters come, they are calm.He calls for divorce every now and then, but when he sees couples fighting, he is eager to persuade them, and he shows up to say that he is a loving couple... Half his life has passed like this, and he has never been a happy person, but he doesn't feel so unfortunate. At the end of the day, I suddenly remembered that I was once young, happy, and sincere... It's better not to remember. When I think of all this, when I relive all this, it is time to die. Zhang Chaotian died peacefully, in contentment and memories, in a new round of waiting.When he died, he finally had the only orgasm in his life. He saw her again, that stunning woman. Standing at the other end of the dark corridor, she was wearing no costume, no makeup, wearing a pearl-gray satin cheongsam, and said faintly: "I have waited for you, I have waited for you all night and day, and I have waited until the next day when the show is on." ..." She said that she waited for him all day and night until the next day, which was the fourteenth of July when he was in the play. But he knew that it was far more than that, not just for such a short time, even if she married or died, she was still waiting for him.Wait for sixty years. Yangshou is sixty years, Yinshou is thirty years, her time has come.But he still refused to leave, and still had to wait until his soul was gone. Her figure flickered in the shadow of the lamp, and the expression on her face was invisible, but what flickered was tears. He looked at her tears and suddenly smiled. I want to ask you a question. What kind of question was that, what kind of infatuation was that.To be so brooding by such a woman, whether it is love or hate, this person's life is worth it. Zhang Chaotian died without complaint or regret. Ruo Meiying didn't answer until she died. He didn't want to answer her.Because he knew that the reason why the grievances lingered was because of the fulfillment of his wish. If he answered her, she would disappear.But if he refused, she would keep pestering him. He has already passed the age of knowing the destiny, what else does he not know?The dying old man is already half a god, seeing through life and death, and looking down on grievances. Now, he just wants to die in her hands, use his own death to calm the resentment in her heart, and accompany her to swim in Jiuquan. When he died, he had made up his mind that, like her, he would not drink Mengpo soup, but would not forget his love, and would not be reincarnated. He would rather be a pair of ghosts who would never be reborn for generations. He just didn't know that Meiying's soul, for his sake, even Jiuquan would not take it in, and they would never be together no matter whether they lived or died... "Zhang Chaotian is dead." In the clothing room, the room was filled with colorful clothes and was silent, with a person and a ghost standing opposite each other. Xiao Wan looked at Ruo Meiying, and she no longer knew what fear was. After experiencing the emotional changes in Shanghai, all her emotions were flat, a little bit of anger, a little bit of sadness. "You killed him?" "It's me. He actually forgot me and didn't tell me the answer until he died. He deserves to die." "You used my eyes and footsteps to find him, and then killed him. Wouldn't I be an accomplice?" Xiao Wan asked, "If he dies, are you satisfied? Can you two meet again in another world? Yes. Go ahead and ask him that question you don't know the answer to?" "I can't." Mei Ying said sadly, "I can no longer go back to the underworld, enjoy human sacrifices, and be reincarnated as a child. I will always be just a lonely soul until the end of time." "The end of time, what does that mean?" Xiaowan suddenly sensed something, and asked anxiously, "Mei Ying, can you forget about the hatred and start over? Stop killing people, stop all revenge, and learn to let yourself forget OK?" "It's too late." Mei Ying shook her head slowly, her face as sad as water, "In this world, I have already had nothing, even my body is nothing. I am nothing but a bundle of emotions, a bundle of hatred. Hatred exists. If you ask me to give up revenge and forget the past, it is tantamount to asking me to disappear from the world, and my soul will be scattered." "what?" "Yangshou is 60 years old, and Yinshou is 30 years old. I have already missed it. I can't be reincarnated, but I can still wander around the Nine Springs. I only come up for a few days on July 14 every year. I was supposed to go back after the Ghost Festival. But this time you let me see the old costumes and the possibility of looking for Zhang Chaotian. I have been searching for more than 30 years, and I finally saw a little hope, and I refused to let it go. So, here On the day when I was supposed to go back to the underworld, I didn't go back. I hid in my clothes and missed the opportunity to go back. After that, I will never be able to go back. I have been removed from the underworld, and I am just a lonely ghost from now on. Even if Zhang Chaotian dies, Can't see me either." Not seen in life, not met in death.Isn't that forever? Xiaowan was full of sadness, and suddenly thought of another question: "What will happen if you become a lonely ghost?" "Lonely ghosts are not controlled and taken in by any organization in the world. They have nothing but themselves. As I said, we ghosts have no body in this world. They are just a bunch of emotions and hatred. As long as the hatred lasts for a day, we will also die." We will continue to exist for a day; once the hatred is gone and the feelings are gone, we will disappear with it, not even leaving our souls, and from then on, we will become truly non-existent." "Doesn't exist?" Xiao Wan was terrified, only felt a cold air from her heels to the top, circling upwards, her whole body was covered by ice and snow.Although she has long known that Mei Ying is a ghost, she also has feelings and images, and she is no different from herself except for a different way. But now, she said that she will never exist, but people accept it no matter what. no. Sending a ghost to disappear, and sending a person to die, how different is it?During these days, she has long regarded Mei Ying as a confidant and friend, and even a part of her emotional life. How could she bear to watch her disappear from now on? But so what if she doesn't disappear?Let her continue her feelings and hatred, continue to take revenge, and kill more people to gather anger?In that way, wouldn't he become an accomplice to the murderer? However, forcing Meiying to put down the butcher knife is tantamount to letting her end her grievances and ecstasy from then on, how can she bear it? Which is more important, the life of a person or the soul of a ghost? "Could it be that you exist just to kill people?" Xiao Wanrou was in a dilemma, she couldn't help but shed tears again, "You said that you refused to reincarnate because of a relationship, but now, you stay here In the world, but only for revenge, isn't this a departure from the original intention?" Mei Ying sighed, the hairpin on her head tinkled. "Forget" is a word for "death" plus a word for "heart".Only when the heart is dead can it be forgotten. However, Ruo Meiying, the body is dead, but the heart is unwilling to die, so she does not forget, so her soul stays together, so she searches and searches, wanders the world, entangles the grievances and grievances of her previous life. If she is not allowed to get what she wants, nothing will make her "give up". Xiao Wan was not reconciled, and did not give up, and asked hard: "Apart from Zhang Chaotian, do you have any other feelings in your heart? Even if there is no one you hate in this world, there is no one you love." Is there anyone? Is there nothing to worry about?" She went all out, "Mei Ying, do you remember that you still have a daughter in this world? Your daughter is still alive!" "My daughter?" Ruomeiying repeated blankly, seemingly unable to remember.She had never loved that daughter, never had a sense of motherhood.But Xiaowan's words made her remember vaguely that she seemed to have been pregnant, gave birth, and gave birth to a baby girl who was less than a month old, and then abandoned her. Who has not lived up to and owed in his life? Zhang Chaotian owed her, and she owed the baby girl. "My daughter, where is she?" "She works in our troupe. She is the accountant. She was also there on the day you 'come up', and she presided over the suitcase picking ceremony." As Xiao Wan spoke, her heart suddenly trembled: that day, the blind luthier and the accountant were the two who performed the most special.Three days later, Huber died.It was only later that I found out that both Uncle Hu and Nanny Zhao had a deep relationship with Mei Ying. Enemies, relatives, old clothes, ghost festivals, and myself who was born on the same day and the same month sixty years apart, these elements together communicated the world and ghost realm, and brought back Ruomeiying's ghost—everything is impossible. Avoid it? She has always been guilty of thinking that she caused Mei Yinghun to stay in the world and commit murder with a knife.But now she knows that it's not her, it's fate.Fate gathered all the elements that could bring Mei Ying back to life, and finally formed a powerful aura, deducing the world of yin and yang.She is not the director, or even the protagonist, but just a super accessory in a big drama. "Mei Ying, do you want to see your daughter?" "No, no." Mei Ying stepped back again and again, as if startled. This is the first time that Xiaowan feels fear even when she sees a ghost. "I have never fulfilled my mother's responsibility for a day. I am not her mother, nor is she my daughter..." Mei Ying shook her head again and again, sighing softly, "The reason why I stay in this world is not for family affection, but for hatred , to ask him a word. If he doesn’t tell me the answer, I won’t die with peace.” "I'll find the answer for you. I promised you that I will find the answer for you. You promise me, don't leave!" "But Zhang Chaotian..." "Even if Zhang Chaotian refuses to answer, there must be someone else who knows. I'll ask his wife, and I'll go and see if you have any other seniors and sisters alive. Everything has an answer, and I will definitely help you find it." Yes, you wait for me, wait for me..." Xiao Wan was crying, speaking incoherently, she was so afraid, so nostalgic, so reluctant to leave Ruo Meiying. Once upon a time, she almost went crazy because of her entanglement, tried every means to stay away, and was so afraid that she hid in the closet and cried.Looking for Zhang Chaotian for her, he just wanted her to leave early. However, now that she really wanted to break up, she was so reluctant to give up and tried her best to keep her soul, her love and concern, tears and affection.