Chapter 14 14. When love ends

I haven’t seen corn for a long time, and it’s been a long time since I started to wonder if he still remembers the existence of a person like me. It’s been a long time since I mentioned his name, but I felt strange when I saw him standing in front of the Xiangyun Sha shop in the morning I thought that my paranoia would attack in broad daylight. He stood in front of me, under the signboard of "Xiangyunsha", in the cool autumn morning wind, and on the street as indifferent as a foreign land.He said: "I've tried, but I can't do it. I can't agree to break up with you. I know it's selfish and unfair to you, but there's nothing I can do. I've been to where you live to find you, and they Said you moved away... so I'm standing here waiting for you to tell me what to do. I'll do what you want me to do, as long as you promise not to leave me."

I looked at his haggard face and listened to his affectionate confession. I didn't want to just run into his arms and make up with him, just like I did last time.But Xiao Jin's face suddenly flashed in front of my eyes, stumbling my footsteps and reminding me of my reason. "I moved, and now I live in Fengheyuan..." I accurately reported my house number, which he should be more familiar with than me, "Xiaojin rented it to me, didn't she tell you?" Corn suddenly froze, and after a while, he said with difficulty: "Move out immediately, I will find another house for you."

"You want to compete with your wife for the tenant?" I shrugged and asked frivolously, "My current rent is 1,000 yuan a month, how much do you plan to ask for?" "Hong Yan, don't be joking." Corn's tone and face were very serious, "What did Xiao Jin tell you?" I was suddenly very disgusted with his attitude as if he was facing a big enemy.Since you are so afraid of your wife, why bother to provoke me again and again? The corn at this moment is so much like the former Bai Rutong. Their love is just as stingy and selfish, with all kinds of prerequisites set. Once the conditions are not met, the love will be shattered.Nian'er once told me that love cannot be tested.As for corn, even love does not need to be tested, because I can predict the result of that test at all-he dare not even let his wife know about this abnormal relationship, let alone other things?

Just a minute ago, he said to me "I will do what you want me to do", but as soon as I mentioned Xiao Jin, he was already asking me what to do-his previous generosity was nothing more than Because I bet that it is impossible for me to ask him to do anything, I have always only paid and never asked for him.Even now, I still have no intention of asking him. "Corn, what are you afraid of?" I stared at him, trying to find some sincerity in his eyes. However, his face was ashen and he said nothing.Sometimes not saying a word hurts people more deeply than talking with swords, and betrays people more thoroughly.

I sighed, walked around his side, took out the key and opened the door. He stepped aside, seemed to realize his gaffe, and silently watched me open the shutter door and follow me into the store to sit down. I sat on my own chair. In this society where the weak are prey to the strong, and in this city full of dangers, I have my own position and my own career, and I don't expect anything from the man in front of me.Even if he is rich, even if he wears Armani on the street, if I don't care about him, what does he mean to me? It is I who want to regard him as more important than myself, and thus push myself into a dead end, where there is no room for me-when I decide to withdraw from the relationship between them, my space will increase instead.

Such a simple truth, I didn't realize it until now.Just like Bai Rutong is not worthy of Xiangru's sacrifices for him, corn is also not worthy of my love. "Hong Yan, I'm not good enough for you." After a long silence, Corn finally spoke, but unexpectedly got straight to the point. Instead, I was surprised, a little surprised by his frankness.Could it be that he can hear what is in my heart? But Corn said: "I think I am too old. I am so old that I am afraid of wolves and tigers. I don't have the courage of young people. Hongyan, you are so young, you are as delicate and beautiful as a lotus with arrows, and you have an independent spirit." Youmei. I wish I could do something for you, but I'm old and I don't have that opportunity. Long before I met you, I already..."

"You've said that many times before." I couldn't help but interrupt him.No matter how eloquently he spoke, it was no longer new.A lie repeated a thousand times can become truth, but a reason repeated many times cannot become reality. "Corn, don't worry, as long as you know what you are doing, I will not do anything to hurt you." I said. He looked at me with complicated eyes. But I don't want to understand him anymore, as long as I understand myself, it will be fine.I decided to be more explicit: "Corn, we're done." This time, he didn't ask me why, and didn't ask me for a reason.He bowed slightly, then stood up, turned and left.

His tall figure drifted away in the autumn wind, and I knew that I would never "meet" him again.We will avoid each other and forget in the shortest time, as if we have died once. All of a sudden, the knot in my heart that had been entangled with me for so long was broken and scattered with the wind.Maybe I can't blame him for all this, but I chose the wrong object of love myself.Love is not absent, nor is it that you can't get it when you meet it, but the love you can't get, it is not true love in the first place. From beginning to end, I fell in love with love itself, the pain of love, and a beautiful scar.From the day I met him, I already knew that he was not my own, that he was impossible, and before I really fell in love, I was defeated by that sense of despair, defeated by the spirit of tragedy.So I fell into a bitter love and couldn't extricate myself. All the time and energy were used to find ways and think hard, snatching and snatching from Xiaojin's arms. I don't have the energy and time to think about whether this man is worthy of my love.

The real reason for falling in love with him who is married is simply because he is married.Cause is effect, effect is cause, and the two are inseparable. It's not that love has no choice, but that I chose wrong from the beginning. The figure of corn finally disappeared at the corner of the street - every turn of life is the beginning or end of a story.This turn in my life has become a dead end here. The sun shines on the street corner, but the sun does not reach where I am standing. I kind of regret seeing this side.Because if this is not the case, but the last time we broke up at Taoye Bar, at least I will keep memories in the future, thinking that I ended this relationship for the sake of fulfilling Xiaojin, then there is at least a little beauty in this breakup.However, today he insisted on coming to see him so that he could explain everything clearly and reveal all the cards. From now on, I won't even be able to keep memories.

Just as I was about to turn around, a voice stopped me: "Miss Hongyan?" I turned around and saw Feng Yuting coming from the other side of the street. Today, my fragrant cloud gauze is full of visitors. He has a different handsomeness from Maize, but the same haggardness.But he is more straightforward than corn, and he can't talk around the bush.He said: "Miss Hongyan, can I buy you a cup of tea? I want to talk to you about Nianer." So, I was as straightforward as him, "Yes, but I want to drink." This was the first time I saw that Feng Yuting was not wearing a police uniform, but a simple white shirt inside a washed-white canvas jacket. Wearing it on him, he still looked indescribably capable and chic.

We each ordered a large glass of draft beer to drink together, and there was a feeling of familiarity in an instant, as if two buddies who had been through life and death together reunited after a long absence. He drank heavily, and said bluntly: "I want to pursue Nian'er, but she keeps refusing to see me. Hongyan, you are her good friend, I want to hear your opinion - does she have a boyfriend? Or, my pursuit will bother her and bore her?" "Nian'er is far more serious to you than you are to him." I clinked glasses with him and decided to get straight to the point, "Feng Yuting, if you want to pursue Nian'er, first ask yourself, how much sincerity do you have? What Nian'er wants is 100% pure love." Feng Yuting's eyes lit up suddenly, and he said eagerly: "I am absolutely sincere. As long as she is willing to accept my feelings, I will treat her very well." Even though I have just faced a breakup with my beloved, even though I am feeling disheartened, even if other people's stories have nothing to do with me, I am still moved by Feng Yuting's enthusiasm.I love wrong corn, Xiangru loves wrong Bai Rutong, but Feng Yuting is different, he is an upright and courageous man, he and Nian'er should have a good start.I decided to catch him for Nian'er.I want to prove to Nian'er that there is absolutely true love in this world, as long as you believe in it, you will definitely meet it. "In the past, Bai Rutong also said that he really loved Xiangru, but you also know how miserable Xiangru's death was..." I took advantage of the topic and wept.Nian'er, Xiangru and I both failed miserably, but you, how I hope your story will have a good ending. Feng Yuting didn't dissuade me, he just sat quietly, drinking wine in a majestic but gentle manner.At this time, I became more and more convinced that this person should not be missed. It was Nian'er's luck to fall in love with him. However, did he have the luck to accept Nian'er in its entirety? I wiped away my tears and continued: "Nian'er doesn't believe that there is true love in the world, but she strongly desires to meet that kind of love unexpectedly. Maybe Xiangru's example frightened her and made her I feel that love is just a luxury that is icing on the cake and cannot stand the slightest change and test. The fact that she rejects you again and again is because the person she really wants to escape from is herself. " I tried very hard to express my concerns clearly, but found that this was unsuccessful. How can I bypass the concept of Yanwu and complete the topic, so that Feng Yuting can understand the real crux?I reluctantly shut up, drank my head down, and thought about another way of speaking. But Feng Yuting seemed to have understood, he still asked straightforwardly in his own way: "Is there something unspeakable about Nian'er? You can tell me the truth, I can accept anything." I smile wryly.Since it is an unspeakable secret, of course it cannot be told the truth.I'm such a crappy lobbyist.If it were Xiangru, she would definitely find the right wording.But Xiangru, who is full of economics and eloquent, can't convince herself... I want to cry again, but I swallow my heart with the wine, and smile again, "Bai Rutong really loves Xiangru. It's just that he didn't love enough. In his eyes, Xiangru used to be the best and most beautiful, but once something happened to Xiangru, he would no longer be the one he loved. His love had too many conditions. Feng Yu Ting, what about yours? What are your conditions?" "I have no conditions." Feng Yuting replied simply, "I love Xia Nianer, not her background, past, or anything else. Please believe me." "You don't need anyone to believe in love, as long as you can be sure." I sighed, "Feng Yuting, you answered too quickly. You are indeed brave, but at the same time, you are too impulsive. If, I mean if ...If Nian'er is married, but she doesn't really love her husband, will you still pursue her?" "Nian'er is married?" Feng Yuting was taken aback for a moment. This time, he thought very seriously, but finally answered firmly, "I still love her. As long as she is willing to accept, I will always pursue her. Unless , My existence is something she doesn't want to see." "In other words, you will do what she wants, and you will not do what she doesn't want. Is that right? You will take her thoughts as God's will?" "Yes." Feng Yuting replied in a low and short voice, "I will." Like science and religion, love requires faith and courage.And both of these, Feng Yuting promised to do it. "Then don't hesitate anymore, go chase her, Nian'er is waiting for you, she will say your name even in her dreams." I offered him a cup and wished him sincerely, "As for Nian'er's refusal, you Don't bother, show your trust and courage, and she will accept you." "Really? Nian'er calls my name in his dreams?" Feng Yuting's entire face brightened.If a man's eyes burn, he probably means what he looks like now. This is the second time I have seen someone get excited because of my words. The last time, it was Nian'er, and this time, it is the person who will fall in love with Nian'er.I sincerely wish them well.There are already too many tragedies around us, Xiangru lost her love, I bid farewell to my love, Nianer, can I get her love? "One more thing, I don't know if I should let Nian'er know..." Feng Yuting suddenly hesitated, and the veins on his forehead trembled a few times. I was a little surprised, this straightforward man, even when he confessed his love for another woman in front of a near-strange woman, is there anything that he would find it inconvenient to talk about? "The two rapists who killed Su Xiangru had already been sentenced, but recently they appealed again, spent a lot of money to clear it up, and almost hired the entire team of lawyers, plus Su Xiangru is dead, this case is gone. Witness, so, so..." Feng Yuting gritted his teeth, pounded his fist on the table, and finally said what he didn't want to say, "Tomorrow is the last time they will appear in court, if they can't present new evidence , they will most likely be acquitted." What?I almost fainted.Those two people, the original culprit who killed Xiangru, will they be acquitted?Where is the justice?Where is the law?No wonder Xiangru would die with regret! I turned my head and threw up. Many years ago, when I was in college, I fell in love with the wrong person.At that time, we went to watch Zhang Yimou's film hand in hand. The love between Meng Tianfang and Dong'er Sansheng III was once the most precious love model in my mind.However, my own first love did not last until graduation. That's all for nothing, I thought the breakup was just because of the distance in time and space, but later he used a wedding photo to make me understand that from the beginning to the end, I loved the wrong person.He left me with a vomiting hangover that, to this day, makes me vomit when I'm sad or angry. Today, another person whom I loved wrongly made me understand that I have always been a complete fool in choosing love, making mistakes again and again.Self-inflicted evil, can not live.I really deserve it! Vomiting had nothing to do with being drunk, but the way the people in the seat looked at me clearly regarded me as a bold and unrestrained woman who drank too much. Feng Yuting tried to come over to help me.I was so embarrassed that I took advantage of the alcohol and yelled at him: "How can you do this? You are the police, you are killing harm for the people, and you let the murderer go?" "I'm just a policeman, not a judge." Feng Yuting said helplessly, "We only enforce the law, but we cannot judge whether it is illegal. If the court acquits the criminal tomorrow, there is nothing we can do." "Didn't Xiangru die in vain?" My tears flowed down, and I didn't need to hide it anymore.Just think of me as a drunk who cries and laughs too much. There are already too many people and things in this world that turn black and white, so why should you be surprised whether I am drunk or awake? "Hong Yan, don't worry, I know what I should do." Feng Yuting didn't try to persuade me anymore, he just said simply, "Don't tell Nian'er yet." "What are you going to do?" "Do what I promised to do." I remembered what Feng Yuting said after Nian'er made a fuss about the newspaper last time: "If you still want to hit someone in the future, let me do it for you." He didn't want to let Nian'er know about it because he was afraid Nian'er once again took the risk to seek revenge on those two villains, so it was self-evident that he would do something for her. "But you are a policeman, do you want to know the law and break the law?" I suddenly stood up, "You want to do justice for the sky? Have you thought about the consequences?" Feng Yuting looked at me deeply, twisted the word "Chuan" between his brows, and said, "I am a policeman and law enforcement officer, but if there is a loophole in the law, I will take action to make up for it myself!" I must stop this. I can't watch Feng Yuting ruin his future like this. But I also understand that with my eloquence, there is no way to stop Feng Yuting from doing anything, the only thing that can stop him is Nian'er. Since Nian'er can give up the high-paying "part-time job" for Feng Yuting and convert to a simpler life, and Feng Yuting can also "privately" criminals for Nian'er regardless of his status as a policeman, then what is the gap between them? What is impassable? They have no reason to be separated by misunderstanding and suspicion. I decided to tell Nian'er the truth. "What? Feng Yuting asked you today? You actually went to drink beer with him? He said he would pursue me without reservation? Those two bastards who harmed Xiangru appealed again? Will they be acquitted?" Nian'er yelled one after another.Three or four shocking news in a row, no wonder she couldn't bear it. "In short, Feng Yuting is very sincere, and I'm sure, if you miss him, it will be the most stupid thing you have ever done in your life. Moreover, you will regret it more than him." "Don't talk about Feng Yuting anymore!" Nian'er covered her ears and shouted, "Hong Yan, the most urgent thing now is not me nor Feng Yuting, but Xiangru. The two murderers who bullied Xiangru are about to be acquitted, don't we? Just sit and wait?" "how do you want to do it?" "I...I'm going to find someone to abolish them!" Nian'er gritted her teeth, "If the law can't punish rape and eliminate evil, then we have to find a way by ourselves." I sighed: "It's that sentence again." "What's the meaning?" "'I am a law enforcement officer. If there is a loophole in the law, I will take action to make up for it!'" I repeated Feng Yuting's words to Nian'er word by word, "This morning, Feng Yuting also treated me He said the same thing. He said that he would teach the murderer a lesson for you, at the expense of himself. Nian'er, Feng Yuting regards you more than himself." Nian'er was stunned, tears welled up in her eyes.I grabbed her hand and raised it, "You have met the right man, and you don't know it yet? Why don't you grab him quickly? Don't you know palm reading? Take a picture for yourself." I Say. "Wizards are not allowed to tell fortunes for themselves." Nian'er said with a sad face, and jumped up again within a minute, "What did you mean by that sentence just now? He said it? What did he say? He said Going to fight? Is he planning to beat those two bastards when they are released in court? But he is a cop. Knowing the law is a big crime." Looking at her nervous look, I knew I had a plan, and added fuel to the fire: "Yes, maybe he will be fired, let alone go to jail. That would be miserable, because you indirectly harmed her." Him. He broke the law for you." "Expulsion? Imprisonment? It's not that serious, is it? Murderers are acquitted, and good people go to jail instead?" Nian'er shook her head like a rattle, walked around the room, and finally shook her head with determination , "No, I'm going to stop him!" "I'll go with you." The person who opened the door and came in was Xiangru. Nian'er and I were both stunned, looking at Xiangru with bated breath, wanting to bite off my tongue in annoyance—how could I be so careless, not paying attention to what Xiangru was doing, just talking about the case with Nian'er like this? Woolen cloth? Xiangru stood timidly at the door, ecstatic, without any fireworks, but her attitude was extremely serious and solemn, and she said firmly: "You said that if there is no witness in the court tomorrow, the two of them may be Acquitted. Why is there no witness? I am the witness! I will go to court to testify against them."