Chapter 15 Fifteen, ecstasy

I can hardly describe in words the shock and horror of the audience when Su Xiangru appeared on the witness stand. It wasn't just fear, it wasn't just confusion, it wasn't just thrilling, it wasn't just disbelief, it wasn't even just thought and shock. When a living person tells you that she is actually dead, when a dead ghost stands in front of you alive, when the truest quality of life appears in the most nihilistic and absurd appearance, when the two worlds of yin and yang walk in the court of justice at the same time In the world, no one can ignore good and evil, right and wrong.

On the eve of the court session, I cut a pure white silk dress for Xiangru overnight.I want to use my hand to tell everyone that even though Xiangru's body has suffered the most filthy destruction in the world, her soul is still the purest soul in the world. Both Nian'er and I understand that this is probably Xiangru's last performance.When she stood in court and told the whole story of her own murder, she also had to face the truth of her own death. At that time, her time was approaching and her separation was imminent. However, I can't stop this journey of death. The wicked must be punished. Xiangru has the responsibility and obligation to do so, not only for herself, but also for justice between heaven and earth.

Nian'er was very worried, she said: "Xiangru is such a deliberate woman, she lives too seriously and stubbornly. Her white clothes are spotless, her body is sacred and inviolable, her love is perfect, her life is not satisfactory, she even fights with death, Even after being resurrected, she has to deliberately forget all the sins and betrayals, how can she bear to retell the tragedy of her life in public, how can she face the truth of her being hurt?" "But it's also because she is such a deliberate and persistent person that she can't tolerate the crime going unpunished, and she has to testify in court to testify against the murderer even if she dies."

I shook off the cloud-like and snow-like new clothes, dipped it in thick ink, and drew a blooming lotus on the skirt, telling Nian'er: "Xiangru said that the highest state of purity is not the innocence of Yangchun Baixue, nor the autumn sky." Haoyue's innocence is the Lingbo lotus, who truly enters the world and then emerges from the world. Xiangru lives from birth to death, even though she is dead, she is still alive, which means she has passed through Nirvana once. With such a state, she will understand the true meaning of purity." "Okay. Since this is Xiangru's will, let us help her complete it." Nian'er bit her finger and touched a little red on the tip of the lotus flower I just drew, and said resolutely, "Tomorrow, I will first do it for her." She testified."

Before the trial, we did not tell anyone that it was Su Xiangru who was going to testify—because she was no longer a real person.We just entrusted Feng Yuting to tell the lawyer that Nian'er and I, the victim's roommate and indirect witnesses, will testify.At the same time, he specially informed Bai Rutong to attend the audition, and asked him to come and meet Xiangru for the last time—after all, he is the only man Xiangru has ever loved in his life. At the beginning of the defense, it was Nian'er who stood on the witness stand and gave circumstantial testimony.In the solemn and solemn court, her beauty and desolation had an extraordinary influence. She shed tears throughout the entire defense process, from the rainy day when Xiangru was raped, to her decisive jumping off the building.Her remark caused a sigh of relief from the audience.

But the opposing lawyer sharply pointed out: "Everything Nian'er said is just a paraphrase, which she heard from Xiangru. Not to mention whether it is true, even if everything Nianer said is true, it cannot represent the truth. .Because there is no victim here." "Yes." Nian'er announced in shock, "The person involved also came to the scene today. Do you want to hear her say it again?" "Participant? You mean Su Xiangru?" The lawyer was very surprised. "Witness for the prosecution, did I hear you wrong? We all know that Su Xiangru jumped off a building because of a broken relationship. It can be seen that she was insane before she died." Qing, suffers from severe depression. It is precisely because of this that she has the association of being persecuted and accused my client of violating her. I am deeply sympathetic to Miss Su Xiangru’s experience, but this does not represent our Two innocent youths can be sacrificed for her."

"Despicable!" Xiangru was furious. She stood up from the auditorium and walked straight through the long audience aisle to the front of the court. The court police rushed over to stop her, but their arms passed through her body and they touched themselves.Xiangru, who had already remembered everything and resolutely decided to face everything, really took on the shape of a legendary ghost at this moment-only images but without any warmth and texture. There was an uproar in the audience, and screams rang out.The judge was bewildered by the sudden chaos. He was so high above that he hadn't figured out what was going on in the courtroom, so he slapped the gavel again and again, shouting: "Silence! Silence!"

Nian'er raised her hands high on the witness stand, and announced crisply: "Everyone, please be quiet. Don't be afraid. This is my good friend Su Xiangru. She came to avenge her own grievances. She is kind. It will hurt everyone! Please get out of the way and let her come!" I ran over to stand beside Xiangru, preventing anyone from crossing over to disturb her. Even though she has only an image and no body, she is still my inviolable good friend.Nian'er and I protected Xiangru from left to right, stood shoulder to shoulder on the witness stand, supported her with our posture, and proved to everyone: Xiangru is just a harmless creature just like us.

The scene gradually calmed down, some people ran away, and many curious people stayed, and some people who were originally outside the scene rushed in desperately after hearing the anecdote. The court was full of people, and I saw many familiar faces in the crowd—maybe not counted as faces, but just some ideas—those immortal souls also came to support Xiangru , is also seeing off.Their cloud temples are connected to cloud temples, and their sleeves are connected to sleeves, guarding the gate of hell for Xiangru and helping her fulfill her last wish. Although people couldn't see the dead souls, the large amount of fog that suddenly poured into the courtroom made it clear that the underworld and the underworld were suddenly opened up at this moment, and the gods of heaven and earth were paying attention to this contest between good and evil.

The poor defense lawyer has completely forgotten his professional knowledge. He has changed from a glib barrister to an incoherent ordinary person. , Su Xiangru? You, aren’t you, aren’t you dead, are you dead?” "I am Su Xiangru." Xiangru replied gently and calmly, "I am indeed dead, but I heard that if there is no witness, the criminal will go free. I want to come back and testify for myself!" Xiangru took a step closer and asked peacefully: "Are you his lawyer? But lawyers can't just turn black and white in order to win the lawsuit. What you said just now is completely nonsense and slandering me. I Very angry. Don't you feel ashamed for talking like that?"

The lawyer's face was ashen, and his legs were like sieves. He was completely unable to answer any questions, and he was no longer able to ask any questions.I admire him for still having the courage to stand there without passing out, but I also bet that he will never dare to speak out of his conscience again in his life. Xiangru bowed lightly to the stunned judge, then turned around and bowed deeply to the audience, and still said softly in her peaceful and compassionate tone: "Sorry for disturbing everyone, I I'm sorry. But I have something to say, I have to come, and I'm sorry if I scare you." She is so weak, so sad, so charming, I feel sorry for her.Her long black hair, snow-white dress, clear eyes, and moving voice make people forget that this is a dead soul, and simply regard her as an innocent victim.She is so pure and spotless, it makes people more and more unable to bear the evil people's harm to her.How can such a woman be associated with gang rape and rape? "Xiangru...Xiangru..." Suddenly, there was a heart-rending cry from the audience, it was Bai Rutong.He was trying his best to break free from the blocking of the court police and rush forward.While struggling hard, he cried out heartbrokenly, "Xiangru, forgive me, forgive me, only after losing you, I know how lonely I am in this world, and how fulfilling and happy we were together before. , but you leave me, the whole world is blank and meaningless to me. Xiangru, forgive me, no matter you are a human or a ghost, I love you, I love you, do you hear me?" Xiangru's dress fluttered, her long hair moved without wind, and more and more fog poured into the court, surrounding her.Her figure has become thinner and thinner, as real as an illusion, but her eyes penetrated the fog, so pitiful and helpless. Someone in the audience cried out, and then more and more people began to plead for Bai Rutong: "Let him go, let him go, let him go to see his lover!" The court police couldn't help letting go, and Bai Rutong rushed over, but his hands passed through Xiangru's body, crossed in the air, and only hugged his shoulders—humans and ghosts have different paths, in this life, he I have missed her forever, and it is impossible to have a moment of hugging.At this time, maybe he is willing to give his all in exchange for this real hug?However, back then, when Zai Xiangru stretched out her hands weakly to him, longing for a warm hug, he was the one who rejected her coldly and pushed her down the building!Why, why do people always wake up when they lose?If he had been half as sincere as he is now, their love would not have fallen into the situation where Yin and Yang are separated forever. I can't make myself feel sorry for him, even though I already know from Xiangru's eyes that she no longer hates him, and even, she still loves him, I still can't forgive this selfish man who made me lose my best friend in my life! Bai Rutong fell down and cried in despair.Suddenly, he raised his head, gritted his teeth and shouted: "Xiangru, I killed you, if you can't come back to be with me, then take me away, let me go with you, heaven and hell, let us be together Together!" After saying that, he slammed his head against the judge's desk.Everyone in the room, including the judge, screamed together, but the moment he touched the desk, Feng Yuting made a timely move and caught him. "Rutong, don't do this." This was Xiangru's voice, she was already swaying involuntarily as she was wrapped in the dense cloud, but her voice was still sober and gentle.She said: "Rutong, no matter what, we have met and loved each other before. I can't hate you, because you are a part of my life. To deny you is to deny myself. Rutong, we once really loved, even if it is not 100% Love, even if it can't start well and end well, but we really loved. Rutong, I don't regret it. It's my own fault to commit suicide. Don't blame yourself. I'm too willful and don't cherish life too much. I didn't really understand until after I died. Life is precious. If there is no life, what is the meaning of all the grievances? I am sorry for my parents, and I am sorry for all the people who love me, including you, Rutong. Here, I want to say to everyone, cherish Your life, if you have ever passed through the grave like me, and experienced the process of life and death, you will know that life is the most precious thing in the world, and everyone has no right to dispose of their own life arbitrarily..." Some spectators burst into tears, and people's tears almost flooded the entire courtroom.I clearly saw tears dripping from Xiangru's eyes.Xiangru, she also cried?Aren't ghosts without tears? My heart is sad, I know that Xiangru is going to leave, she is going to leave. Xiangru seemed to be calling out with all her strength: "Rutong, forget me, just like I once forgot you, Rutong, forget me..." "No..." Bai Rutong screamed, "Xiangru, I want to love you forever, let me love you again, give me a chance, let me love you well, let me make up for you. I don't forget You, Xiangru, don't go..." Not only the judge and jury were shocked, not only the audience and reporters were moved, but even the two criminals standing on the trial bench fell to their knees involuntarily, trembling violently, like leaves in the wind. I don't know where there is a sound of music, like the sound of Xiao and Xun music, low and inaudible but continuous, as if summoning the soul.Xiangru's body became weaker and weaker, and she fluttered into a shadow. This shadow floated through the railing to the criminal without hindrance, staring deeply at the two wounds that would never fade away to her. The villain in pain asked crisply: "Do you remember me? That day, you knocked me out and took me into the forest to hurt me. My life has been changed since then, and all my hopes were killed by you. I jumped off a building, from a human to a ghost. I had forgotten all of this. I didn’t want to remember that such a despicable thing happened in the world, and I didn’t want to believe that you can stand upright in the sun with clothes like you. It’s not fair! But now , I am here, I remember everything, stand here to testify against you, testify against the crime. I regret that my death is not worth it, whether it is because of your injury or the betrayal of love, I should not choose to die. There is no way to punish yourself for the mistakes of others—it is the evil people who should be punished. So, I stand here and ask you to face me and tell everyone here clearly and loudly that those things, you Have you ever done it? If the court acquits you, will you have the courage to walk out from here and live with peace of mind?" Her gentle voice seemed to have some kind of shocking power, reaching the depths of the soul. The demon who was facing her witnessed this scene of human tragedy created by herself, and could no longer ignore the crimes of the past.One of the prisoners suddenly collapsed, knelt on the ground and wailed loudly, beat his chest and shouted: "I am not a human, I am a beast, I am sorry for you, I did it, I knocked you unconscious, I was the one who made him drive the car into the woods, I was the one who did it first...Damn me, I'm not human..." His voice is indeed not like a living person, but more like a ghost tormenting in hell.He screamed shrillly and fiercely, and the sound of teeth colliding was also mixed in the cry. Perhaps under the influence of his companions, another criminal who stubbornly resisted his will finally gave up. He sat down limply, stretched out his hands humbly to Xiangru, and moaned: "Revenge me, kill me, I don't want to live anymore. I did it and I deserve it..." The truth came out. All the audience stood up, waved their arms and shouted: "Justice! What they deserve! Sentence them! Justice for the dead! Justice for the dead!" Nian'er and I wept uncontrollably.I looked at Xiangru and knew she was about to disappear.She used all her strength and spirit to fight this final battle, to seek justice for herself, and to let the evil come to justice.Xiangru, you deserve to be Xiangru. Xiangru turned around and looked at Nian'er and me. She smiled so sadly and without regret.Standing there, she floated into the world, not so much a female ghost, but a goddess, symbolizing integrity and kindness. I was crying, knowing that the last time had come, but, but how reluctant I was to leave her, "Xiangru..." I called her, and took a step forward, but at this moment, I stared at her face helplessly. Like a puff of smoke being blown away by the wind, the figure suddenly disappeared into nothingness.On the ground, only a piece of Xiangyunsha's clothes was left. "Xiangru..." I screamed sadly, and rushed to the front of the court. However, the fog is cold and the wind is cold, where is the shadow of my dear friend Su Xiangru?She has been taken away by that fog and that gust of wind, and will never return.From now on, she can't be a human being in life, and can't be a ghost in death. She disappears, and there is nowhere to be found in the sky and the earth. "Xiangru..." I shouted hoarsely, waving my arms in the mist in vain, trying to hold Xiangru's hand tightly again. However, I only held Nian'er. She held me tightly and cried: "Hong Yan, stop barking, she is as fragrant as her, she has already lost her soul..." Hunfeiposan, Hunfeiposan, Xiangru, I have spent so much effort to keep you, I tried every means to accommodate you at the expense of my yang energy, but I still can't let you stay with me for one more day?Xiangru, don't go, Xiangru, whether you are a human or a ghost, I would like to be with you, Xiangru! I hugged that dress and passed out... The story is already over here, but there are still a few gossip I have to say. ——Until many years later, the scene that happened in the court that day was still often talked about, but others could not believe it——All the people present were brainwashed afterwards, and their memories were mixed, as if they were real or unreal, and they couldn’t tell clearly Is it all my own illusion or real experience. The reporter's spotlight flashed countless times, but when the film was washed out, there was nothing to be seen except a vague white mist. There are no images or recordings to prove that what happened that day actually happened. But the prisoner's punishment is the exact result.The two criminals confessed their crimes in person, and one of them is said to have become mentally ill in prison, and he is afraid that he will live in a mental hospital for the rest of his life. Xiangru was unable to complete the book "Liu Fang Eternal", but the album was published on schedule-everything in the world, what is perfect?What's more, Xiangru's story has made such a sensational publicity for this book. On the day when the new book was released, the bookstore was crowded with people. According to the store manager, it has not been seen such a big scene for many years.I don't know if those omnipotent souls came to support me—after Xiangru left, I lost my yin and yang eyes, and I couldn't see those ghosts anymore.Sometimes when I walk by the lotus pond, I really miss the time when I lived peacefully with them in the old days. I don't know if "Liu Fang Eternal" can really live forever, but it has become a fact that the streets and alleys have heard that Luoyang paper is expensive.The three of us became famous overnight, and Xiangru's story was told all over the city, and my "Xiangyunsha" was in short supply, and soon opened two branches. , we never saw again.I still live in Fengheyuan, but I am no longer Xiaojin’s tenant. Instead, I bought my own house with installments from the author’s fees. It is a very small unit with only one bedroom and one living room.There are shadows and dreams of Xiangru here, and I don't want to leave here. Nian'er has become a hot supermodel, and she is contacted for commercials and movies, and more are love letters, which makes people dizzy like a snowflake.But Nian'er is very determined, she has never been an ugly duckling that no one cares about, even if she turns into a swan, she will not be surprised, she has the appearance of a big star early in the morning.Besides, she has already found her prince - Feng Yuting. As he promised, Feng Yuting was really good to Nian'er, he said: "I never thought that a woman would have such loyalty, and she could save a friend's soul at all costs. A woman is absolutely worthy of a man's love at all costs." I know that what he said is not just for Nian'er, but also a blessing for me.I accept his blessing. In terms of love choices, I make mistakes again and again. However, after experiencing so many things, people will always grow up. I believe that the next choice will be right no matter what. As for Bai Rutong, he left after the court's final verdict, and didn't even see me and Nian'er again, and we really had nothing to say to him.He left alone, saying he would never come back.Xiangru is no longer here, what is he doing back here? But I didn't tell him that Xiangru didn't really dissipate.Maybe it was those immortal souls who helped her to hide from the sky, maybe it was my prayer by the lotus pond that moved the gods. On the second day after the fragrance disappeared, the withered lotus leaves in the wind lotus garden revived overnight, and all the lotus flowers They are all open, the red and white arrows are in full bloom, and Lingbo is in full bloom, so delicate and beautiful. I knew it was Xiangru greeting us.As she said, the lotus has the ability to bring the dead back to life, and Nezha was reborn in the stamen of the lotus.Xiangru, it must be possible, right? I didn't tell Bai Rutong about this, because Xiangru said that I hope he forgets her.I also didn't tell Xia Nian'er about it, she was immersed in her passionate love with Feng Yuting, and I didn't want to make her sad again. Lotus is just my secret.From now on, every year when the lotus blooms, Xiangru will whisper to me in the breeze... Xiling Snow 2004-8-23 First draft in Xi'an Chrysanthemum Garden 2004-10-6 Final draft in Xi'an Baliu Ecological Park Last Words (postscript) I am really afraid of the two questions repeatedly asked in the letters from readers: Do you believe in the love you write about? Are there really ghosts in this world? I have answered again and again, but always after answering, I will receive more persistent questions from readers: Have you ever encountered such love? Have you ever seen a ghost? Whenever this happens, I want to ask and answer in a brain teaser way: If you don't believe it, why ask? If you haven't encountered it, why believe it? There must be love, but everyone's version is different.100% love is hard to come by, but as long as you know how to cherish, trust and have the courage to love, even a failed love will become 100%. When I write about the relationship between people and ghosts, and about the world of yin and yang, it’s not that I’m really omniscient, have superpowers or have yin and yang eyes, but I just want to use this form to express the theme of love more purely and vividly—what’s better than transcending Is the love of life and death more enough to express the feelings in our hearts to the extreme? Therefore, there is no need to be superstitious about ghosts and gods, just believe in love. Believe it, you may meet it, although, maybe you can't get it. Not all love can be owned, but the love you have must be cherished. This is what I most want to say to all readers and friends.thank you all. Xiling Snow 2004-10-4 night in Xi'an Baliu Ecological Park