Chapter 14 Thirteen Thirty-Two: The Tragedy of an Angel

Beloved walks with angels and devils. She assured them: "You are right, life should not always complain, there are many things to do. From now on, I will not fall again." The angel was overjoyed: "You finally woke up." The devil stared blankly: "What? I actually help people change their ways?" Xinai sighed: "If you regret this wrong love, you should know your mistakes and be able to correct them; if you don't regret it, you shouldn't let yourself fall. No matter whether it is a bad fate or not, you should not use this as a reason to punish yourself."

She picked up her bag and continued walking around. But it is no longer a blind wandering, let alone wandering around.She regained her identity as true love, sold all the property under her name, accepted the film contract and contract again, but donated all the income to charity. Those ridiculous years should be over. She didn't want to repent for herself, but she also didn't want to defend herself.There are only the last five years left, and she came to this world in vain. She has to do something to leave something commemorative to the world, something good and beautiful. She called her true love, but she loved Lu Kefan all her life by mistake.One night on the Lijiang River, they paid off all their sins and debts in their past and present lives.In the last five years, she hopes to live without the memory of Lu Kefan, whether it is the memory of love or the memory of resentment.

Rather, travel all over the world and dedicate this sincere love to more people who need love and warmth. Alice was already the mother of two children at this time, and when she heard that the old master was finally willing to reappear, she was so excited that she burst into tears and insisted on pulling her to come to her house as a guest.Only then did Xinai know that the person she married was not someone else, but her childhood friend Li Yuanzheng. It turns out that when I went on an expedition to study in the United States that year, since I was politely rejected by my beloved, I was silent for a while, calmed down and reflected on myself, and felt that I was not manly enough. I agreed to be friends for life. If the courtship fails, it will be like a stranger. Make a joke of being narrow-minded?Then I went back to look for my beloved, but I heard Alice said that she had returned to China.He couldn't, so he had to write his phone address to Alice, asking her to report a message when his beloved came back.

The two of them got in touch after doing this, they had phone calls every now and then, and sometimes they chatted for a few more words, which turned out to be quite speculative, and then developed into a date and meeting, and they came and went again and again, and it turned out to be a good relationship for a hundred years.Today, there is already a pair of very cute twin boys. Xinai was very pleased, and congratulated repeatedly: "The good people in the world have gathered together. This is the fate to meet thousands of miles away." Li Yuanzheng lowered his head and laughed, not knowing what to say.After a while, he asked, "How is Kefan?"

"We haven't been in touch for a long time." The beloved's tone was flat, as if talking about a stranger.She has made up her mind not to live in her memory anymore, whether it is her beloved from her previous life or her old friends, everything related to love is ignored. The beloved only sat for a while, then stood up and said goodbye.Alice was very reluctant to hold hands, and continued to follow her as an assistant no matter what she said.Xinai gently persuaded: "The places I'm going to are not suitable for women from good families. You'd better take care of Hollywood affairs for me."

Where she went, she was indeed close to death.Disaster area, epidemic area, war zone, wherever the closest to death, there is her figure.She shook hands with AIDS patients, donated blood to those in need, fought side by side with medical staff in disaster-stricken areas, had close dialogues with terrorists, used her special status to run around and appealed loudly, and donated every cent of her proceeds from charity performances. With the guidance and help of angels, true love maximizes its power. In less than two years, the whole world knows that there is such an angel of true love, who is kind, brave, and seems to have infinite power in her petite body. With a quiet smile, she will always appear where people need it most. The place.In her life, there seemed to be no fears, no personal desires.

For the convenience of walking, she cut off her long hair like clouds, white shirt and jeans, and her washed face is as clear and clear as the sky after heavy rain. People in the world don't know the existence of angels. In their minds, if there are angels, it means true love. The devil congratulated the angel: "She belongs to you at last." The angel is very humble: "I am not guiding her, but love." Knowing that the devil's understanding of love is limited, he further explained, "Life is not infinite, and death is its end; but life is cyclical. In this sense, the power of life is strong. Life is fragile because the threat of death is at work, but because life is guided by an infinite love, infinite love resolves all contradictions between heaven and earth , to maximize the meaning of life. The end of life does not mean the end of love, but the rebirth of life must be the rebirth of love. Love is the real power beyond life and death. True love can be reincarnated, that is Because of her strong love for Lu Kefan; her later temperament changed greatly because she lost this love for a while; but the so-called death and rebirth, what she rejuvenates now is a love that is broader and more selfless than the relationship between a man and a woman , it is this spirit of fraternity that guides her and elevates her..."

"Alright, alright, alright." The devil doesn't want to hear this, all he cares about is the result, "Then who does she belong to now? Is she going with you? I don't have anything to do here anymore?" "There is no instruction from above, and I don't know." The angel sighed, "She fell once, and she is not perfect. I don't know if I can take her soul to heaven in the end." "Didn't it mean that you put down the butcher's knife and became a Buddha immediately?" "It's just a way of saying." The angel said helplessly, "You and I both know that neither the rules of heaven nor the rules of prison are very fair."

It's rare that the devil also agrees, with a look of concern on his face: "If you want her to come with me, I simply don't know how to do it." The angel could not have been more astonished to see the tears in the eyes of the devil, and it almost aroused more sublime emotions in him than seeing the inspiration of God.With tears in his eyes, he hugged this very different partner for the first time, and praised enthusiastically, "It's so wonderful, so beautiful, your tears are the most precious treasure in the world..." The devil was very embarrassed by him, and he was not used to this overly enthusiastic hug. The two pushed and shoved, but no one saw that a crystal clear soul was floating towards them...

Lu Kefan felt at a loss. He only got news about his beloved from the newspapers again—she participated in a relief performance at the front line of flood fighting, she went to Ethiopia to visit victims of the epidemic, and she donated millions of advertising fees to Hope Primary School... She is an angel, pure and pure, lofty, innocent as a baby, brave as a hero, selfless and kind as a virgin, incompatible with evil and vulgarity. It was as if he had never really known her. A night by the river seemed like a dream. He had some doubts, whether that carnival ever happened, was it really beloved, or was it any dancer who used the appearance of beloved to play tricks on him.

Or, it was simply that he was crazy about it. He tries to get in touch with his beloved, but her whereabouts are uncertain and the day-to-day is so busy that even Alice can't catch her figure, let alone Lu Kefan who is separated by mountains and seas? He had to watch the news every day like any movie fan. On this day, he read the news of his beloved's illness from the newspaper.Her life is not long. Lu Kefan rubbed his eyes, almost suspecting that he misunderstood——AIDS!Really love contracted AIDS! The world's best first-class doctors are gathered by the world's charity organization to consult with the beloved, but the treatment is still invalid!Her life will not exceed two hundred days! She won the love of people all over the world, but she couldn't win even one more day of life for herself! This is so unfair! Newspapers reported the progress of Love's illness, TV people made a series of short stories, tracing her life's footsteps, people invariably thought of Love's conversation with reporters in her heyday, the story about Ryunosuke Akutagawa ——"What the painter pays for the painting is a price that even I can't imagine!" Why not herself? The price paid by a crush for love and a philanthropist for charity is also unpredictable. The hunter died in the mouth of a tiger, the fisherman died in the mouth of a whale, and the boxer suffered a disastrous defeat in the ring... All ideals will tempt his followers to bind themselves. The beauty of the beloved aggravates the tragic power of this story. People are saddened by her, hurt by her, and unbearable by her: her life is like a game of chess that went wrong at the beginning. No matter how you save it, it is doomed. defeat. Her love for Lu Kefan made her endure a lifetime of loneliness; her love for all human beings ended her life ahead of schedule. Lu Kefan's name was repeatedly mentioned along with the name of his true love, and the media once again besieged him by the roadside, asking him to give a speech on this matter.Kefan did not refuse anyone who came, and publicly stated without hesitation: He prays for true love every day.And he has already asked for leave from the crew, as soon as the current filming comes to an end, he will go overseas to visit his true love, and will accompany her until he overcomes the serious illness. The crew also held a press conference at the right time, expressing deep regret and best wishes for the misfortune of their true love, and expressing their support for Lu Kefan's trip to visit the sick. However, the current shooting task is tight and his trip has to be delayed. Anyone with a discerning eye can see that this is the crew taking the opportunity to promote the new film, and it is unavoidable to express their dissatisfaction.The Internet is full of sarcasm, questioning Lu Kefan's sincerity.Under pressure, the crew finally agreed to give Lu Kefan a vacation in advance and allow him to visit.Accompanied by them were journalists from major media who had heard the news, and in New York, a film crew had already been arranged to film this life-and-death meeting. However, at this moment, an explosive news once again made all the true love movie fans panic: true love, unexpectedly disappeared! She published a letter to all her best friends on the Internet, to the effect that: All animals have an instinct, that is, they will know when they are about to die, and they will know how to choose a secluded place to die peacefully.She appreciates people's concern, but please don't worry too much about life and death. Her life is rich and colorful, and it is not in vain. Here, she bids farewell to everyone in advance, and then she will find an unknown place to quietly , Waiting for death without losing dignity... Tears and flowers flooded the entire Internet, and everyone was crying out: Beloved, come back! Among them, Lu Kefan's paging is the most eye-catching. He regrets that he did not make the trip one day earlier, so that he missed the same love.He prides himself on being a lifelong lover of his true love, and made public the love experience of himself and his love from childhood to adulthood, made the deepest self-blame for his flirtatiousness and fickleness, expressed his willingness to live and die with his love, and begged his love to make up for his mistakes The opportunity to let their love and life live together.At the same time, I ask everyone, if you know the whereabouts of your beloved, please contact him, willing to pay a lot of money. Not only on the Internet, Lu Kefan also uses various methods to launch overwhelming advertisements for missing persons in almost all media, TV, radio, newspapers, magazines, and even roadside light boxes and placards, Lu Kefan’s true confession is everywhere : "My dear, don't hide from me anymore, allow me to accompany you to the last moment of your life!" People all over the world are paying attention to the following of this missing person advertisement. No one can tell whether Lu Kefan's action is hype or sincerity. He once again became popular, not only gaining popularity among his fans, but also winning a total of It won the love of "true fans". The conversations I used to really love when I was interviewed by reporters were replayed again and again on TV programs—— When she was 16 years old, she spoke for the first time. When she introduced Lu Kefan to reporters for the first time, she said bluntly: "From childhood to adulthood, he has always been the person in my heart." Returning from Hollywood to promote the new film, goodbye Lu Kefan, she answered his miss like an oath: "In this life, he is my only love, and he will never change until death." Unswerving until death. Now, true love is really dying, where will she put her love?Her undying love, where did she hide it, where did she carry it? With tears in his eyes, Lu Kefan called affectionately on the TV show: "Tell my beloved, I love her, I'm looking for her, please don't avoid me." The fans went crazy, bursting into tears, shouting over and over again: "Lu Kefan! I really love you!" Their names have become synonymous with love. Fans, film fans and disaster victims all over the world pray for Lu Kefan, hoping that he will find his true love one day soon, and wish that his true love can leave without regret at the end of his life. Under such a blanket search, it is impossible for anyone to hide.There are people constantly providing news, saying that seeing someone in a certain place looks like true love, she looks very haggard, once recognized, she immediately avoids and stays away; there are also people who say that the beloved has already been cured by the elixir of a supernatural being. At that time, she was continuing to do good deeds in remote mountainous areas; some people even said that she married a mysterious rich man and was hidden in a golden house, so the illness was purely a smokescreen; naturally, there were many people who said that her beloved had passed away long ago, and its tombstone stood somewhere in a certain country ... Every time Lu Kefan got a piece of news, he would run away chasing wind and shadow, searching hard in the vast crowd.With every hope shattered and disappointment coming, instead of despairing, he strengthened his confidence more and more in this search.He must find true love!He must race against time to reach his beloved place before the end of his life!He couldn't let his beloved die alone. In this search, Lu Kefan has long forgotten what his original intention of searching was. He only felt that he had been searching since he could remember. He was not looking for his love in a day or two, a year or two, but for a lifetime, no, two lifetimes. He had been looking for her for so long that he had almost forgotten why he was looking for her.He vaguely felt that it was a kind of promise, his promise to his beloved: wait for me, I will come back to find you.And his whole life is to fulfill this promise. Perhaps at the beginning of his search, he was not without hype intentions; however, in the process of searching, when he was tossing and wandering without sleep and food, after all the exaggeration and utilitarianism were wiped away, his true heart gradually revealed.He knows that he wants to find true love, not for other reasons, but only to find himself, because he cannot live without true love, he loves her! The awakening of love is often not when you get it, but when you give it. His dedication finally made Alice willing to believe that Lu Kefan was real this time. She cried and said to him: "Why didn't you treat her so well earlier? If you were willing to treat her better, she wouldn't be depressed all these years .Then, even she... can feel at ease." I don't know how many times these words have turned in Lu Kefan's heart, but now hearing others say them face to face, it hurts even more, and he bowed his head for a long while speechless. When Li Yuanzheng saw Lu Kefan, he thought of the past ten years from his youth to the present, and felt quite uncomfortable.For the sake of true love, he and Lu Kefan, good friends, have always had a grudge against each other, but seeing him like this today, all the grievances disappeared, and instead he sincerely sympathized, and there was no consolation, so he just bought a lot of canned beer and drank with him, saying : "My beloved has refused to see us since she was diagnosed with a terminal illness. I don't know how many times I went to the hospital to visit her, but the nurse stopped her. Alice only saw her once, and it was less than five minutes. I have a kind of It feels like my beloved’s life is like a reincarnation. She was so silent and withdrawn when she was a child. Since she spoke miraculously, she seems to have changed suddenly. It’s like living life like a drama. Now it is reported that she has a terminal illness. Life draws a circle, as if returning from the end to the beginning." Seeing the beer as if he had met a confidant, Kefan opened a bottle and poured it straight down. He asked bitterly, "Do you still think she was as good as she was when she was a child?" "It's not good, because the beloved at that time was more like the beloved in my memory." Li Yuanzheng sighed, "Whenever I think of her, what I think of is still the situation when she chatted with me in the basement. What is she really? I haven’t said anything about it, but it seems like I’ve talked a lot. At that time, I felt that she was the only one who understood me best, and every time I finished chatting with her, I felt very comfortable, and I didn’t have any troubles.” Lu Kefan suddenly thought: "Tell me, will she go back to the basement? Maybe I look for her everywhere, maybe she is at my home." But then he denied himself and said, "No, then Impossible, since her parents passed away, she ran away from home and never went back. That was her sad place, and she will never go back." Li Yuanzheng smiled wryly: "It's her sad place, but it's the Peach Blossom Spring that I miss the most in my dreams at midnight." Honest people are also unkind sometimes. They deceived Alice not knowing Chinese, and even told her lovesickness for other women in front of his wife, "I often think of her, and I want to call her desperately, or give her a bouquet. Hua came to her door and said to her face to face: It doesn't matter if you like it or not, I really like you. However, when it comes time to do it, I'm always afraid of being rejected, afraid of losing face, just wanting not to do it, and dragging on for ten years. Years. If I had known that one day she would suddenly disappear, I should have done what I wanted at the beginning, regardless of whether she accepted it or not, at least it would be happier to say what was in my heart." Lu Kefan was in a daze.In fact, these thoughts and thoughts about myself have never happened before. Before the flowers and the moon, when I wake up from the dream, I often think of my beloved, and I have thought about holding my hand and telling me about love, but I always refuse to do it lightly.It's not because he's afraid of being boring, but because he doesn't want to give more, even a lingering love sentence, and he doesn't want to give easily—just because his beloved has given too much, and it's too late for him to accept it, and he has no time to repay it. He knew it was useless to ask, but he still couldn't help it, and asked Alice for the hundred and first time: "Does my beloved have any other friends? Where else can she go? Or is there any particularly fanatical admirer who puts her She was hidden?" "No." Alice shook her head and said, "I have been with her for so many years, and I have never seen her like a second person. If you don't even know where she went, no one else will know This is not the first time she disappeared. A few years ago, you suddenly announced that you were going to get married, and she hurried back to China. Soon her parents had an accident, and she disappeared for several years. Later, I saw her again and asked her several times. Didn't meet you again, she was tearful, but just refused to talk. I guess you have met again, what was the last time you met? You have known each other since childhood, and she is so infatuated with you, you always treat her You should understand that no one in the world can find her, but you should be able to find her. If you can't find her, then she must have gone to heaven." After speaking, she cried again. Every time she said one more sentence, Lu Kefan would drink another glass, and by this time the alcohol was getting stronger and he was gradually exhausted.With drunken eyes, he seemed to see the true love with long hair parted in the middle, her skirt fluttering, walking gracefully, wanting to be near yet far away, wanting to speak. He tried hard to understand her words, tried hard to hold her hand, but he was so tired, so tired that he didn't have any strength in his body.There was a faint sound of the waves in the distance, the heart was half submerged in the sea water, floating and sinking, gradually drifting away, and he fell into a deep sleep amidst the faint sound of the waves. When he woke up again, the east window was already red, and the sound of birds was ringing in his ears. Lu Kefan found himself sleeping in the living room of Alice's house with all his clothes on, and felt very embarrassed.Thinking about the scene in the dream carefully, it is vivid and very real.He suddenly remembered that Zhen Ai's lovely expression was clearly seen before, and the words she had been whispering in his ear should be: REMENBER ME! remember me!remember me! On the night of the Lijiang reunion, I really love the last words left on the car window with lipstick: remember me! Lu Kefan made a decision at this moment: he is going to the Lijiang River! In the end, he didn't believe that the night on the Lijiang River was just a dream, and decided to come to the river where they handed over to each other and wait for the rabbit.He believes: if my beloved has even a little mercy for him, if he has only a little understanding of my beloved, she will definitely come to Lijiang, and he will definitely meet her again!