Chapter 12 Eleven Twenty-Five: Weddings and Funerals

25 years old should be the best time in a woman's life.However, this year, Beloved was on the verge of a desperate blow, because Lu Kefan finally decided to get married.The bride, not her. This news, or read from the newspaper.The headline is very eye-catching and sensational - "Love in Immortals: A Fairy Tale of Love at the End of the Century". Lu Kefan's speech was equally sensational: "I have been in the entertainment industry for many years, after seeing everything, I finally understand that the ordinary is the truth. So I really want to stop and live the life of ordinary people." It is completely the tone of a superstar.

He was indeed a smash hit. With his love, he once played a small role in Hollywood blockbusters once or twice. Although his acting skills are mediocre and his handsome appearance does not please Western audiences, after all, he appeared in foreign language films. His social status immediately changed, and he rose to become an international star; at the same time, he was unwilling to be lonely and joined the torrent of "acting and singing", and recorded two songs, which even made it to the weekly charts.It can be called a three-way star of film and television songs. It's a pity that he can't eat too much. Whether it's movies or songs, he has never had enough masterpieces, and the actors are also famous. There are so many scandals that change every day, and the audience will turn off their appetites. Even if he repeatedly declares his favorite person Always true love is useless, because everyone regards him as a show, a hype.In the past two years, his popularity has declined significantly, and he has almost become synonymous with Huaxin Carrot. If he doesn't cultivate his mind and personality, he will definitely become a box office poison.

Originally, if he was willing to be quiet for a few days, people would naturally forget his past misdeeds after the hype subsided, and it would not be difficult to accept him again.However, Lu Kefan is used to being a blockbuster if he doesn't make a name, so he is unwilling to suffer loneliness in obscurity. Even if he wants to change his mind, he has to make someone known to everyone.Thus, there was news of marrying the ancient immortal. Who are the ancient immortals?It really surprised movie fans to say it.It turned out to be a freshly graduated junior college student, a kindergarten music teacher, and a standard Xiaojiabiyu from a commoner family in Beijing.

Speaking of her acquaintance with Lu Kefan, the reason is even simpler. Since his debut, she has identified him as the number one idol, and wrote him letters one by one; It is a must to attend the venue, and spend all its resources to fight for a seat in the audience, and nine out of ten sit in the front row; Kefan noticed this, and later simply sent her his new CDs or reception tickets regularly.In this way, the two of them will come and go and get on well.Speaking of which, they have known each other for seven or eight years, but they are really in love, but it has only been three months, yet news of their marriage has already been heard.

Lu Kefan narrated his love legend to the reporter with eloquence. That day, when I was shopping with Xianxian, I encountered someone jumping off a building on the way. Many people were watching downstairs. The traffic was jammed. We had to get out of the car to see it. The man cried and yelled, but finally the persuasion was ineffective, and he jumped down. Xianxian was so frightened that he fell into my arms and yelled, trembling all over, crying like a child.When I hugged her, I was thinking, what a weak girl this is, I want to protect her for the rest of my life.Life is so fragile that it can no longer afford to be wasted.I took her hand, found a nearby jewelry store and bought a ring for her, and proposed on the spot.She cried again.That day, she cried twice, one time for fear, the other time for happiness...

Xinai could no longer turn a deaf ear to the media, and flew back to China desperately to find Lu Kefan to ask the truth face to face. However, Ke Fan only answered a reporter's question to her: "People will grow up. After playing for a long time, they will naturally get tired. I want to have a home." "If you're going to get married, why not me?" "I've said it all, I'm tired of being in the entertainment industry for so many years. I don't want to find another person in the industry to make my home look like a studio, and it's like I'm doing a show when I don't go out on camera."

"If you don't want me to be an actor, I can stop acting." "Your career is at its peak, how can you say nothing? Besides, you are so famous, even if you disappear, you will still be the target of reporters. If you go to the supermarket to buy a fish, you will be photographed and make headlines." "Then I can live in seclusion. I don't have to show my face. I can ask the nanny to buy fish. I can not even leave the house. As long as you want, let me do whatever you want." Her eagerness and unreserved accommodation finally moved Lu Kefan. He held her hand and showed his true feelings in a rare way: "Dear, I know, you are probably the one who loves me the most in this life. Miss you!" You, I may regret it for the rest of my life. But your love is too great and selfless, which makes me feel that I am not worthy of you. Facing you, I have inexplicable pressure."

"No, you shouldn't be under pressure, you said, what do you want me to do..." "No matter how you change, you are a true love, a unique and perfect goddess. You have seen a lot, and you will not be willing to just be a housewife. Xianxian is different. She is an ordinary girl, and she is the most suitable for marriage." There is a lot of talk, but it just doesn't make sense.He married Gu Xianxian because she was simple, innocent enough, ordinary enough, and even stupid enough. My beloved is almost suffocated. If I knew this before, why did I have to travel across the ocean to the United States to develop, and why did I have to give up painting and join Hollywood?All she did was to arouse his idea.She did it, but he got tired of it, and said that he wanted to return to basics and marry an outsider to marry and have children.

Once or twice, no matter what she did, it was wrong, and nothing she did was his cup of tea.She is destined to have nothing to do with him. They have been missing all their lives - they met too early, fell in love too late, and got along at the wrong time. Chang'e should regret stealing the elixir, and Bihai Qingtian is heartbroken every night.In fact, it wasn't Chang'e's fault, it was the time's fault—why did Hou Yi give her that elixir after he succeeded? Kefan said: Believe me, in this life, no matter who I marry, the woman I love the most will always be you. But love without marriage is like a dream that never sleeps, an illusion at all.

Thirty thousand fakes were sold a year, but not one real one was sold in three years.Lu Kefan, do you know whether his words are true or false? Maybe he doesn't think he's cheating, because he's always been that kind of person, freewheeling, irresponsible, loving only himself and no one else. It is Xinai who wants to believe him, it is Xinai who wants everything to be true, it is Xinai who wants to lie to herself and build a mirage of love for herself. Now, Lu Kefan shattered all the misty bubbles with a real marriage, so that fantasies could not be left behind. True love can no longer deceive itself.She pressed her chest, as if returning to the afternoon when she was fifteen years old, when she was misunderstood and accused by Kefan because of a kitten, she was so helpless, so helpless, full of grievances, but unable to defend herself.

A full ten years have passed in the middle, and she has become famous and brilliant, but what is the use?She is still as helpless and helpless as she was ten years ago, and she has no place to complain about her grievances. From childhood to adulthood, from past life to present life, the only thing she has to do is to love him, as much as she loves.However, time and time again, she only reaped disappointment, betrayal, neglect, and hurt. Everyone can fall in love, why is her love so rough and difficult, and the more you give, the deeper the hurt?Is it because she loves too persistently, cares too much and is too pure?Is it an unforgivable sin to truly love someone? She curled up in the bathtub in the shape of a baby, not knowing how to protect herself, to slightly relieve the pain that radiated from the bottom of her heart to every nerve ending in her body.It hurts, it hurts, it seems that there are thousands of knives twisted and entangled in her body. I have heard that there is a criminal law called Lingchi. People are tied to a tree, and the whole body is strangled with a fishing net, so that the skin protrudes inch by inch in the mesh, and then cut inch by inch with a sharp knife, cutting the foot nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine. After the knife, the flesh and blood all over his body have been blurred, but the person still can't die. He passed out from the pain, and then woke up with more intense pain-this is called Ling Chi. It turns out that love is also a kind of lingering. How can I relieve pain?How can I not love?How can I forget the past and present? She started drinking.Cup after cup.Drink till you vomit.He vomited until all his viscera were turned over, but he was still awake. In the despair and sobriety that was colder than death, she couldn't help thinking: Is it worth it to love someone like this?She has loved the young master for too long, from the previous life to the present, from birth to today, from dumb to open, has he ever paid anything in return? He said he loved her, but he didn't give her a marriage; he promised to come back to her, but has he ever looked for her? She looked at her palm, as if looking for something there, but couldn't find anything. Ten years ago was already indistinguishable from ten years later, and past life and present life were also confused. Her thoughts went back to the last farewell half a century ago——has he ever looked back for her since then? A full half century has passed.Xinai can't forget the turbulent "dancing tide movement", and how she was forced to bow down to the police chief Wu Tong in order to save Jin Taipan, and she can't forget Wu Tong's various abuses and tramples on her. ——However, even such a sacrifice failed to save Jin Taipan's destined "remnant flower killing". Jin Dapan died the night he was arrested and imprisoned, in the patrol room.The cause of death is unknown. The doctor said that she was suffering from severe tuberculosis, and she had been suppressing symptoms such as coughing and vomiting blood with drugs, but the inside was already rotten.It is because of this disease that she can eat and sleep so well, is so lazy and greedy, and is so easily excited. The disease had drained her essence and blood, eaten herself inside her body.Death is a matter of time, even if she is not arrested and not frightened and tortured that night, her life will not be long. But what happened to Taipan Jin that night?This has become an eternal case of injustice.No one would tell the truth to Bitao, and Bitao didn't intend to get to the bottom of it.In short, people are dead, this is an indisputable fact, the rest is not important. Holding Wu Tong's warrant, she went to the police station to collect people, but only got one corpse.The bloody wind, the blood flowed over the Huangpu River, and Bitao stood by the river, only feeling that the whole world was bloody red - for her, Shanghai was a baptism of blood from beginning to end.After seeing the young master in the department store, she seriously thought about washing her hands and going ashore. She seriously thought about washing herself and becoming a new, clean person.But fate betrayed her again, and pushed her into Director Wu's cage, becoming a prisoner in his apartment. Selling herself again made her feel that she was dead.She had already died the night she left Wutong, leaving only a hopeless body; now, this body has also gone with Jin Taipan, she doesn't know what is left of her. She brought Taipan Jin's body back, watched over it and cried all night, cleaned her, put on makeup for her, and buried her with her own hands, and then sent her away with great fuss. It felt like there was another one buried at the same time. Own. Originally, she was supposed to take over the work of Taipan Jin as a matter of course and become the new Taipan of "Paramount", but Wu Tong told her to follow him.She has no other choice. She no longer knows how to fight.She has always been a thoughtless woman, and now she has become a walking dead. Her daily task is to lie on the bed and wait for Wu Tong to enjoy her or torture her. Never seen a more perverted and brutal man than Wu Tong.Brutal to boring.He happily tossed Bitao in endless ways, admiring her moaning and twisting, so as to excite him. He even took her to watch him interrogate the prisoners - that was the time in Chinese history commonly known as "darkness before dawn", when assassinations and counter-assassinations, pursuits and counter-hunts were going on secretly and blatantly day and night, and Wutong is just the liveliest drop of water on the cusp of the waves in the middle of the whirlpool in the torrent of history. She saw with her own eyes how he disregarded human life, she was terrified of him, she was so scared that she didn't even dare to run away, she didn't even dare to hate. Until one day, she heard him ordering his subordinates on the phone: "There is a reliable tip that those reactionary leaflets were sent out from this address. They have a party there tonight. You should rush there immediately with all your staff. I would rather kill a mistake than let it go, the leader is called Lu Kefan..." Luke Fan! It was as if a thunder had exploded in Bi Tao's ears. Almost without thinking, she turned over and jumped out of the window of her room. Her mind was unprecedentedly clear, her will was unprecedentedly firm, and her movements were unprecedentedly agile—she couldn't walk through the door. She can't waste a minute or a second, she must immediately notify the young master and tell him to run away! For a whole year, she was tied to a wolf, thinking about running away all the time, but she just didn't dare.She has completed countless successful escapes in dreams and fantasies, and after waking up, she finds that she is still in this gorgeous and terrifying hell on earth.But this time, she had to put the plan into reality, for the sake of the young master. ——she had to tell him to run away, so maybe he would run away with her. The thought of running away with the young master made Bi Tao happy, feeling like she was flying.Her steps towards Huaihai Road without hesitation were brisk, and she even wanted to thank Wu Tong, because he let her know the whereabouts of the young master, and she would be able to meet him again soon. We can reunite with the young master.After being away from him for so long, she was finally going to see him again.How many things does she have to say to him, about the separation at the pier, about the waltz of Paramount, about the brief encounter in the department store, about her admiration and longing for him... She could barely breathe, because of running and nervousness, she lifted the corner of the cheongsam, kicked off her high heels, and every time she ran forward, she got closer to the young master. The people of Shanghai fell into a deep sleep, unaware that an assassination was about to happen, let alone that a love affair was about to end alone. It was just an ordinary Shanghai loft, but there were more than a dozen unusual passionate young people and a simple printing machine there.While those young people were busy around the printing press, the door was knocked loudly. People became nervous, and they quickly hid the leaflets while pretending to be calm and asked, "Who is it?" And Bi Tao was already out of breath, and didn't dare to say a single unnecessary word, so she could only shout out with all her strength: "Lu Kefan, young master——" The door opened, and it was Master Kefan standing in front of the door.When he saw Bitao, he was extremely surprised: "You? How could you..." Bi Tao looked at him, blood and tears welled up together, as if she would spit out when she opened her mouth, she instinctively wanted to throw herself into his arms, hug him tightly, and say many, many things to him, However, the only thing that can be said is the most important sentence: "Wu Tong found you, run away—" A female voice exclaimed: "Wu Tong? Police chief Wu Tong? Let's go!" There were still people messing around to pack things, but the girl ordered decisively: "It's too late, don't bother with anything, spread out! Let's run separately!" Then she pulled the young master, "Let's go too." Bi Tao saw clearly that it was the female student who was with the young master on the elevator in the department store. It turned out that they were not only friends, but also partners.She instinctively ran out following the young master, and the room that was busy just now was suddenly emptied. As soon as they went downstairs, gunshots rang out indiscriminately.The young master took the female student with one hand and Bi Tao with the other, and ran along the alley in a twist and turn. However, although the gunshots became less and less, they were getting closer. The young master took the two of them into the A small alley, stuffed the two of them in the door opening, said: "Hide for a while, I will lure them away." "No, I'll go." It was the female student. "It can't be seduced. If we run separately, they will chase separately." Bi Tao has never been so clear-headed and wise in her life as today or at this moment. She looked at the female student and understood one thing: that girl can be used He exchanged his own life for the safety of the young master. ——Girl students can do it, and you can do it yourself! There were tears in Bi Tao's eyes, but she suddenly smiled, like a peach blossom in full bloom.She let go of the hand she had been holding tightly with the young master, and made a light impression on his heart, making a decision: "Both of you go, I will stay here." Lu Kefan was surprised: "But..." "They probably won't chase after me when they see me." Bi Tao said softly but without doubt, "I'm from Wutong, and they won't do anything to me." Lu Kefan was taken aback for a moment, he seemed to realize something in a blink of an eye, but he couldn't figure it out in a hurry.And the female companion was already urging: "She's right, let's run." She didn't forget to say to Bi Tao: "Thank you, goodbye." goodbye?Will she and him meet again? Bi Tao suddenly came to her senses in a shock. After searching for so long, she finally found the young master. Could it be that she wants to say goodbye so soon?Could it be that the joy of reunion is doomed to miss her, and the future between her and him will be separated forever? She has been up and down all her life, enduring humiliation and bearing heavy burdens, but has she ever been truly happy?There are not many memorable days in life, and every scene is related to the young master.At this time, she had to bid farewell to him again. Looking at his back, she didn't know what year and month it would be before seeing him again after parting this time. Lu Kefan ran a few steps and turned back. Seeing her hurt eyes, he couldn't help hesitating, but he staggered forward according to his inertia, and his hands were still being held by the woman beside him. His whole body was moving forward. He staggered a few steps, stopped suddenly, and said loudly: "Wait for me, I will come back to find you." Then he turned around and started running again, getting farther and farther away from Bitao, and finally turned a corner and disappeared in the The end of the road. Bi Tao knelt down, breathing hard, and wanted to cry, but there were no more tears. She saw the young master, she saved the young master, and then she lost his trace again.Everything happened so suddenly, everything happened so quickly, before I had time to think clearly, everything was a foregone conclusion... Then someone chased after her, someone twisted her arm, someone said in surprise, "it's from Wu Tong", and someone was arguing about how to deal with her—she couldn't hear her, and didn't care, what was waiting for her was nothing but beatings and insults , and whether she is sent back to Wu Tong's apartment or sent to prison, it is actually the same... Lovely squatted down, hugged her shoulders tightly, breathed hard, sobbed loudly, wanted to cry, but there were no tears. That was the last time she met the young master in the previous life. The last words he said to her were: "Wait for me, I will come back to you." However, he didn't. He didn't come back for her.He failed her.Let her wait her whole life in vain, waste her whole life, and despair her whole life. She has always been looking for him, from the pier to the dance hall, from the past life to this life. But he failed her again, and took another woman's hand into the auditorium.He finally abandoned her. She came to this world in vain! Her sole purpose in coming to this world is to find him and love him.Take away her love for him, and life becomes a ruin, meaningless. The wine bottles were lying horizontally, the floor was in a mess, and the petals were scattered everywhere in the bathroom. My beloved was holding the empty wine bottle and stepping on the ground among the petals, whispering, staggering, and looking distracted. She was drunk, but not drunk; she wanted to cry, but there were no tears. She was killed by her love, and she has no strength to complete any one thing. All her strength was consumed by her love, and her soul died with it. She couldn't even shed tears.The only thing she could do was drink. After drinking all the wine in the house, she went to the bar to continue drinking. She is so pale and haggard, and so slutty, in the eyes of bar guests, she is a typical bad girl suffering from restlessness at the end of the century. Who can believe that she is the true love of an international movie star? No one recognized her.I am lonelier in a crowd than in a movie. She fell in love with a kind of wine called Talupao.It’s not so much wine as it is a peculiar way of drinking—swirl a circle of salt foam on the edge of the glass, pour a little Sprite after filling it with wine, and then slap the coaster on the mouth of the glass vigorously. Drink it with salt.Drink fast and rush, dripping with joy. Her unrestrained demeanor is even more misleading. From time to time, strange men come forward to strike up a conversation with her. She will not refuse anyone who comes, no matter who she is, she will raise her glass with a smile: "CHEERS!" With red lips, drunken eyes, umbrella-like skirt, and amber-like wine, she exudes a decadent and seductive allure.The men around her gathered more and more, and she took turns with them in boxing games, wine fights, jokes, cheek-to-cheek dances, and bets—the bet was a kiss. The man she kissed was so flattered that she couldn't help but say very familiarly: "Beauty, I really love you." "Love me?" She laughed, hugging his neck like a snake, feeling drunk and crying, "I really need love. Love very hot, very hot, very tight. I I am very greedy for love, and I can’t love less. But I don’t need to love so seriously and for so long. Anyway, love is never eternal.” "My love is so hot that it can burn you to death." The man hugged his beloved tightly as if he had found a treasure, "Follow me, you won't regret it." Xinai smiled blankly, her eyes were empty, like a body whose soul had been taken away. She went with everyone like that, and she couldn't see the angel crying in the corner, and even the devil couldn't tell the difference between sorrow and joy.