Chapter 6 Chapter6 An Ling
Qiao Mu came to the hospital on time at noon every day, and stayed by my side before the sun set, listening to me tell the stories about me, my journey home, and Ruan Xian.The past became clear in front of my eyes, but it wasn't as Qiao Mu expected, that he could confide in three days and two nights.Many times, I will be interrupted by contemplation and re-find the beginning of the story.Some emotions that can never end circulate in the depths of memory over and over again, like an endless curtain, as long as the actors are still standing on the stage, the curtain is destined to be drawn.
Where do we start today?In the morning, as soon as I open my eyes, I have to ask myself this question.Then there was waiting, waiting for the sound of Qiao Mu's solid footsteps coming from the end of the empty corridor.Then, the door of the room was opened, and with the greeting of "Your face is much better", the memory continued to advance.
Occasionally, he would also bring flowers, not only rich in variety, but also very bright in color.Maybe it was because I couldn't get used to my sickly figure, the petals withered dejectedly within a few days.As a result, my ward has always lacked vitality.
"I want to go out to bask in the sun." I couldn't help but said to Qiao Mu.
So, he found a wheelchair and took me outdoors under the shade of a tree where there is sunshine but not too hot.It was a very tall sycamore tree, with dense branches majesticly resisting the attack of ultraviolet rays. The shadow under the wheelchair looked like a big bird whose feathers had been shorn. It reminded me of the sidewalk six years ago , Under the feet of countless pairs of sneaking sneaks, there are similar shadows.
Which pair of them is on the way home, I still can't tell.However, when I was dazedly standing in front of the traffic lights, I still had a keen insight into the man's aura—a unique, sensual aura.In fact, City A is immersed in such an atmosphere all year round. The streets are full of addicts who are hungry and thirsty. They are usually very rich, but their souls have no fixed place, wandering on the edge of empty and lonely cliffs all day long.As a result, cheating has become a drug and an antidote, and at the same time, it is also the only hope that is within reach in this city.
The reason why I was able to wander freely was entirely due to the fact that I was still a student, and that exquisite mobile phone color case was just my impulsive desire, and I never expected to meet a man because of it.However, looking back on everything that happened in the next year, I have to attribute this little desire to the source of the accident, the beginning of the temptation, and the immeasurable ending has been revealed, but no one saw it, or it was not at all. I don't want to see it.
"The man gave me the colored shell politely. I was very excited, not because of him, but because I finally got what I wanted. For a moment, I felt that he was very familiar, as if I had seen it somewhere. Especially on his body I don’t know that it is a weapon used by a middle-aged man to catch prey. I like to be looked at by him tenderly, and I am even a little complacent. His gentle and elegant attitude is quite charming, and his eyes when he is humble It is very pure and natural, without any cunning intentionally granting favors or pleasing me. I am the one who slips faster than a mouse, but he still let me fully understand in a short time that he is a charming but still A decent man.
Until now, I didn't think it was a show either.After all, his appearance, dress, conduct, and behavior are different from those of ordinary people. He is neat, clean and elegant.In his eyes, I seemed to represent not only lust and unrequited love, but also youth, holiness, and budding love. "
"It seems that the way home underestimated your feelings." Qiao Mu interrupted me suddenly.
I pause the narration to see what his judgment is about it.
"When he was distracted, how could you not be moved by Hong Luan?"
I looked into his eyes silently, and there was some unknown pain lingering in it.
"To be honest, the first time he happened by chance, he just gave me a good mood. I still remember that there was a quiz that afternoon, and I actually got a full score. That subject was the one I was most unsure of. God knows how. On the afternoon when we met on our way home, I experienced a kind of self-confidence that I had never had before. I took a leisurely walk on campus and watched the boys on the playground play basketball. They also looked at me, so I smiled and felt that I was very beautiful and very Want to dress up and want to be pampered. Full of hope for life, love, future. To be honest, I haven’t felt that way in a long time since I broke up with my first boyfriend. But, it’s just a feeling, kind of Huaichun, who is self-pity and self-loving, does not have a definite object. The return journey is just an episode, a coincidence, and it is the fuse that arouses my love emotions. I would never have thought that the object in the future would really be him."
"So, it's fate."
"Fate?" These two words made me frown deeply. It is really not appropriate to use it to describe me and my way back.
"If there is a real fate, it should be a sinful fate!"
Qiao Mu didn't expect me to say that.
"You shouldn't say that, at least he once made you happy and confident."
"Yes, he once made me very happy, so happy that I thought I had the whole world. In the end, I found that what I lost was the most important thing. Qiao Mu, do you know what shape love is? What color is happiness? Woolen cloth?"
I asked quietly.Qiao Mu was speechless.
"In my arms on the way home, I once saw them clearly. But when I found out that it was not what I imagined, I had already become another person, and I could never return to my original position."
I reached out my hands, and he leaned down, held them firmly, and placed them on his knees.
"When you finish listening to my story, if you still want to continue to love me, don't let me see them forever, okay?"
Qiao Mu stood up and kissed my forehead.I didn't cry because, I always wanted him to hold me like this until I died.
Whether the fate mentioned by Qiao Mu really exists between me and Homecoming is actually very doubtful.In fact, my relationship with Guitu began with a casual oath.That was a bad oath.
Thinking about it now, it’s quite symbolic——
All evils are caused by it, and in the end, they are also destroyed by it.
Returning home knows very well that the reason why I agreed to date him is entirely because of his wife Ruan Xian.
In the beginning, I did use him.Although some heartfelt confessions during the date have also made my heart beat unpredictably, especially when he recalled falling in love and getting married with Ruan Yuan, I can feel his impeccable affection , with some unspeakable regrets.But that's not enough of a reason for me to take advantage of it.There has always been a gap between me and Homecoming, on the one hand because of his status as a family member, on the other hand because of the disparity in age and social status.I always feel that he and I are people living in two worlds.That is a difficult gap to bridge.
On the way home, I always refused to admit it, which caused me a lot of trouble.In my eyes, he is really a standard love-stunned fool. Although his enthusiasm and charm try to destroy my sanity time and time again, I still clearly seal the boundary between us. stood in front of him.I didn't expect him to be such a patient and persevering man, of course, he does have that condition - rich and leisure.
It wasn't until one day that I finally met Ruan Yuan that my estimation was not groundless.I can only say that I have never seen a more perfect woman than her in my life.Other than that, it would be redundant to use any one word to describe it.
When I saw Ruan Xian for the first time, I was impressed by many things, including appearance, body shape, and conversation. However, when I think about it, I feel dazzled and confused, as if the colorful palette suddenly fell apart. , the original carefully prepared paints are all piled up together to form another abstract and weird picture.Once you leave, you will immediately have the urge to see her again.And I believe that Ruan Yuan's unforgettable memories in the eyes of different people should also be completely different.
As the way back said, Ruan Yuan is actually quite low-key about her beauty and wealth.Maybe it's because it's too sharp, which makes people feel shocking but also kind of unspeakable horror.I still don't dare to look directly at her face, and I always feel that there is something scary inside.During the interview, I often glanced away intentionally or unconsciously, and looked down at her ankle.
Those are a pair of very special feet, exquisite in shape, soft in vision, the white waves leaking from the root of the skin, like the light suddenly jumping out from a prism, dazzling people, and I can't help but want to reach out and touch them .
Second, is her attire.Very simple black and white plaid suit, the style is very ordinary, but very elegant.I noticed that none of her movements revealed the slightest wrinkle in her clothes.
These are the two most profound things in my first impression of Ruan Yuan.And just these two things are enough for me to understand how well she matches Homeward.They are the real aristocrats in this city, God's beauties, and I am simply a yellow-haired girl who has nothing to do with it.On the way home, the heart-wrenching love that he swore in his mouth turned into a ridiculous farce at that moment. How could he not understand that in front of a woman like Ruan Xian, I will always be just a person who can't even get close to the walls? outsider! !
I couldn't not feel inferior in front of this woman who said nothing or did nothing, as long as I stood next to her, I would be pale in comparison, so the self-confidence in my heart was inadvertently ignited on the way home in the summer afternoon And pride, was immediately snuffed out.The first word that popped into my head was escape!
I want to run away, and I can't delay for a second. I have no chance to control this love affair that looks quite exciting from the outside. If I had a little bit of desire to "play" The impulsive words of "fire" have already disappeared without a trace at this moment.However, on the way home, he still put on that extremely confident posture as always, and moved closer to me desperately.
I became a lamb surrounded by frenzied and crazy fences, lonely and helpless, neither having the mentality to go with the flow nor the courage to try to escape. The most incomprehensible thing for me is, what does he like about me on the way home?What is there in me that is worth his hesitation to betray a wife like Ruan Xian?Is he really in love with me, or is he trying to prove something from me that Ruan Xian can't prove?The most important thing is, I can't think of anything that Ruan Xian can't satisfy him at all?
I insisted on sorting out the clues and giving the way home an irresistible reason to end this farce that has not yet begun.In the end, I actually discovered an interesting thing, that is, apart from admiring his wife Ruan Yuan, I didn't have the slightest ambition or jealousy at all.On the contrary, her figure will often appear in my mind.For Ruan Xian, I am not only curious, but also have an inexplicable worship.I never knew that there were such women in this world, and would I have a chance to become such a woman in the future?
Before I met Ruan Xian, I had never had such an idea, nor had I identified any goals.However, just when Ruan Yuan's images gradually invaded, lingered, and finally swallowed my whole will, I realized that looking forward to becoming a perfect woman like her one day has become the strongest life goal in my subconscious mind!Even my life gradually changed because of it.
I began to pay attention to things that had nothing to do with my current identity, such as designer clothes, expensive jewelry, and all the high-end items that looked close to Ruan Yuan.I worked twice as hard to save money, but when I lingered in one famous brand store after another, the amount I secretly vowed to own was still far from my ability.
Gradually, I also learned to identify things that belong to my own style. Occasionally, I couldn’t help but put on one or two favorites, stood in front of the fitting mirror and looked at them, and was actually impressed by my wonderful understanding——
The person behind the luxury is not only good, but also more elegant and elegant than Ruan Yuan.At that moment, at that moment, the burning eyes on the way home suddenly emerged alluringly.It turned out that he loved this.
It turned out that he has been trying to tell me: You are a piece of unpolished and incomparable jade in the rough!
Why, I never found out? ... In this way, from the encounter on the way home, to meeting Ruan Xian, and then to the time when I realized that I really wanted to be Ruan Xian, it took only a few short months.Thinking about it now, it's really an outrageous thing.
At that time, I seemed to be possessed by a demon. I had no premonition that following Ruan Xian's footsteps would arouse some instinctive desires in me as a woman.For example, taking a risk to conquer a man who is not his own.It was at this time that all the things that had been spent on me on the way home came to the fore.I found myself so stupid, so stupid that I would rather sink into the swamp of inferiority than to see clearly what was handed over to me on the way home?
What he gave to me was the love that the perfect goddess could never buy back even after all she had done!Only then did I realize that as long as I took such a small step, I could easily take Ruan Xian's place and have everything she had!
I had never been so clear about what I wanted, and the desire to conquer the homecoming and have him as my own took hold of me utterly in this deadly love rivalry.
Qiao Mu asked me: "Accepting the return journey, is it for love or for competition?"
I answered frankly: "I haven't been able to understand this question until now."
Perhaps, as Qiao Mu said, God has eyes, and he is watching us all the time. He also wonders why we step into the trap we dug step by step?You should never swear to others easily, because you don't know when it will come true for any casual words.
This is not the worst, the worst thing is that it may not be fulfilled in your body, but it will let another innocent person suffer.Between people, the so-called grievances and hatreds originate from these many mistakes.Blame it on me and Ruan Yuan, and the God of Fate finally had to judge and punish us as we deserved.
I swear!If you don't divorce her, you will die a terrible death!
This is the vow that made me make up my mind to be with him forever.
It's a pity that he only said it once, and for a long time later, he did make considerable efforts for this oath, but he never repeated it.I think he really forgot.For me at the time, this sentence was the most practical no matter from which angle I heard it, so I firmly remembered it and dared not forget it for a moment.
Before I tell the story of me and the way home, I must mention that interesting "breakup day".
Qiao Mu has the right to know that it was the first shameless thing I did in this story when I was 21 years old. Of course, compared with the things that followed, that was really nothing.Breaking up is the first step in my journey home.
I had to let him know what a temperamental, principled girl I was, and since he was infatuated with my purity, he might as well make the most of it.Because I want to cool down the overheated passion on the way home, know me clearly, understand me, and fall in love with me more deeply.What I want is a persistent relationship, not a short period of romance in life.
An Ling is by no means the kind of girl who can be thrown away after just playing around. On the way home, she must firmly understand my position. Only in this way can I have a future with him.So, I pretended to break up with him, but I actually wanted to stimulate him, force him to completely deviate from the track of reason, and make some important decisions for me.At the very least, I should have made up my mind to give up Ruan Xian before I got me, otherwise, I wouldn't give myself to him easily.
I thought I was smart, but I almost self-defeating.
The reason, the way home once said.In order to impress him, I actually spent a sum of money to buy cheap fake name brands, fake jewelry, and dressed up in a fancy and nondescript way!Originally, he thought that he could turn rough jade into beautiful jade with his own hands, proving that he was no worse than Ruan Yuan, but unexpectedly, he destroyed his most cherished innocence.
On the way home, he had never spoken to me so loudly and without shame. At that time, I was really mad. Unexpectedly, his excitement just proved that he didn't like Ruan Xian at all, and fled to the road.Fortunately, a moderate car accident saved the situation, and at the same time severely taught me my childishness and self-willedness.When I witnessed the disheveled and anxious appearance on the way home, I really felt that I fell in love with this man.Or, I have fallen in love with him a long time ago, but I just refused to admit it.
"Ann, I love you, I want you!" He called me Anan, and he has been calling me that ever since.
I like this lovely name, it sounds like a treasure in the palm of my hand, it makes me feel so proud.I don't bother to know how much Ruan Xian occupies in his heart, even if there is, it's just staying on the level of illusory and tasteless food.But I really fell into his palm, the flesh and blood that could make him pet, love, and make him miss his heart.
Pampering me has almost become an addiction he can't quit in his daily life. He would suddenly hug me in front of the crowd, and any inadvertent small movement of mine would arouse his desire to kiss me, even regardless of timing, location, or occasion.Every now and then, he picked up my face and yelled madly: "I'm going to crush you! Swallow you into my stomach!"
That kind of intense look, wishing to melt me into my flesh and blood, was enough to throw my vanity to the clouds. I have never felt that I am such a charming and seductive little thing in front of any man.I can't express exactly how I felt at the time.On the way home, I opened my heavenly eyes with the unique love magic power of a mature man, allowing me to see many impossible illusions, such as happiness, excitement, excitement, sweetness, etc., which surrounded me and nourished me for a long time. Me, until I dominate every detail and every bit of my life, so that I can no longer exclude this man from my life.
At this time, on the way home, I have lost all the high-sounding identities. He is not a nobleman, not a married man, and he is not the gentleman who is obsequious in front of me. He is just a man in love, a willing surrender at my feet. slave.As for me, the time of the fall was a little later, which has a lot to do with my ignorant virginity complex.
It's ironic to say that the way home loves me because I'm simple and pure.However, I don't think he will ever know that my love for him exploded from the moment he entered my body.I once suspected that I was more obsessed with his body than his person. Back to the first night, I still don't understand why I have to be brave enough to lie to him.Perhaps, it was because of Ruan Yuan again.I think his wife is such a sexually attractive woman who fills men with reveries. If I tell him that I am still a virgin, he will definitely feel pressure, and maybe his lust will be weakened because of it. Wouldn't that be a shame?I'm not at all sure that I'll be able to play a woman of the evening, not a girl.However, I still decided to lie to him and tell him that it was not my first time.In addition to calming my overly nervous emotions, I also expected him to completely let go of himself and let me enjoy the complete sexual pleasure.
Of course, at that time, I would never admit this.
He was really aggressive, and my first time turned into a long, joyless process of suffering. I did it perfectly, without being green, and almost immediately put on my underwear and hid in the toilet to cover up the blood.Fortunately, there is only a small amount and it is easy to clean up.Strangely, once the pain of swelling and damage was washed away by the slightly scalded hot water, it disappeared suddenly.Instead, it was a kind of soft comfort, which filled every dry gap in my body, allowing it to naturally reach the shore of happiness while forgetting the pain.I found that as soon as I closed my eyes and recalled what I had just done on the way home, instead of being shy at all, my body would involuntarily produce a stronger reaction, so I realized that any pretense was unnecessary.
I will never forget those four days and three nights, how I and Gui Tuo locked each other deeply in a villa full of sex, even an ordinary mouthwash cup was full of teasing, crazily squandering and overdrafting with our bodies and our desires.I don't know who I am, and I don't care if the world outside my window has changed.The lights are dim, the bed is messed up, and the sky is black.There is only a man's face and his naked and tireless body printed in his pupils, only liquid-stained towels, sheets and carpets can be touched by his hands, and only moans and shouts ring out in his ears.For a split second I wondered if I was dead, in a hell cell, doing the same thing with a half-human, half-animal monster, over and over, over and over again, orgasm after orgasm, endlessly.
At noon on the fourth day, we finally woke up from the sea of desire. However, I knew that I was not tired on the way home, but tired.So, we hugged each other peacefully and fell asleep until sunset, and then reluctantly parted.
On the way home, I was driving with one hand while holding me with the other. We were silent, and neither of us wanted to break this rare feeling of happiness and sweetness.I suddenly felt a strong attachment to this man.After all, Homecoming is different from any other man I have ever come into contact with, not only because he is the first man in my life.It is more about the ladders leading to the world of bliss that he cultivated on me.For the first time, I felt how lucky it is to be loved by a man like him. Kissing, whispering, soothing, copulation, pleasure, everything is so fresh, so full of human power.Especially the promise he made to me at the end made me feel that these four days were like an adventure across thorns. We took the last step. Although we knew that we would be cut, bleed and unable to extricate ourselves, we Eventually it was crossed and a clearer affirmation that it was not the end but a new beginning.
I secretly imagined our ending smugly, and imagined how I would become a more perfect and outstanding woman than Ruan Xian, who could make the journey home never tiresome.Never get bored? !These four words stung me unexpectedly.Is it really possible to never get bored?He is with me now, isn't it because he is tired of Ruan Xian?Even a woman like Ruan Xian can't satisfy him, so why should I be so confident?
The gentle foreplay, the precise caress, the skillful skills, all of these are not from Ruan Yuan's arms?This thought immediately overturned my ignorant frivolity.I fell into Ruan Yuan's shadow again, and I couldn't help but fantasize about how she would be with Gui Tuo, but I couldn't figure it out.Facing the thin and immature self in the mirror, I can't imagine what the naked Ruan Xian looks like.
The journey home did not penetrate my worries.Since confirming the lover relationship, he loves me more and more.However, the sense of crisis that could lose him at any time tormented me doubly.I am eager to learn more about the private affairs between him and Ruan Yuan, to put it bluntly, that is, the bed affair.Other than that, I can't think of a better way to prevent it.
So, during the second tryst away from the city, I mustered up the courage to ask him: You and your wife, I mean, you and Ruan Xian, are you like this...?
On the way home, he didn't answer right away. His expression was very complicated, a little surprised, a little helpless, and he didn't know where to start.
"Why do you ask that?" he asked.
"Because I want to know." I replied stubbornly.
"I don't want to say it, and I don't need to say it."
He became uneasy.The eagerness to avoid it made me very unhappy.I said he had a ghost in his heart, and he asked me what I meant.I said, meaning that I don't like to be in muddy water. If you still love her, I will quit right away, and I promise not to drag you down.This made him even more uneasy, and he fumbled for my hand while sighing.
"You really want to know about me and her?"
He asked again, looking quite embarrassed.
I still nod.
"That's fine." He got out of bed and looked for an ashtray, "You'll know sooner or later anyway, but you have to promise me that you can put it in one ear and out the other, and forget while listening, okay?"
I didn't quite understand it, but I readily agreed.
In this way, I forced my way back and revealed the secret about his wife Ruan Yuan in front of me.
"What kind of woman is Ruan Yuan?"
Qiao Mu's tone changed.
It was the third day, and he brought me apples, bright red with shiny, shiny skins.It is said that it is imported, and it has another name called snake fruit.Qiao Mu wanted to cut one, but I snatched it into my hands to play with. At that time, I had already started physical therapy and I had some strength.I couldn't put it down holding it, savoring the connotation of the name carefully. I remembered that on the way home, I was compared to the plump red apple in the Garden of Eden, which should be the one in front of me.
In fact, for men, all the women in this world are snake fruits, the key is whether you have the guts to reach out and pick her off.After eating the snake fruit, I continued to talk about Qiao Mu's question just now. I knew he couldn't wait any longer.
What kind of woman is Ruan Yuan?
I think that the only one who can really answer this question is Ruan Xian himself.It's a pity that she died, and she died suddenly, and what is left now is only the description on the way home.
Before the narration, the way home asked me a strange question.
He asked, "What do you think of men's genitals?"
How can I answer this?
I felt embarrassed and blushed immediately.However, the expression on the way home was very serious, and there was no filth at all.
Returning added: "I mean, do you think men are dirty, especially when you have sex with me, do you think my place is ugly and disgusting?"
I still don't quite understand what he means.However, I told him frankly that not only did I not dislike his body, but I was obsessed with it.
On the way home, he kissed me, then smiled contentedly, but a trace of melancholy slipped from the corner of his brow.
He sighed and said, "This is what I love most about you. Only in your presence do I feel like a complete man."
"Why do you say that? Could it be that you are ruined in front of Ruan Xian?" I asked puzzled.
"Maybe that's why I don't want to live with her anymore."
When he said this on the way home, his expression was very gloomy. I realized that he was not in love with Ruan Yuanyu, but that he was not willing to mention this woman at all.
There is only one sentence for Ruan Yuan's evaluation on the way back: "When encountering an overly perfect woman, there are only two results: either love her or be afraid of her. As for me, I happen to have both."
The love between Guitu and Ruan Yuan is actually very ordinary, just like what Guitu told Qiao Mu, they fall in love and get married as a matter of course.However, he still didn't say the most important part, which made me feel strongly curious about the content on the other side of the tape again, wondering what he said to Qiao Mu next.
On the way home, I found out that Ruan Yuan was different from other girls for the first time after they formalized their relationship.
Before that, they were just idols secretly paired up in other people's hearts, and they had never had any intimate behaviors other than normal classmates.The day they publicly appeared on campus as a couple, they caused quite a stir.Countless envious eyes made the return journey feel like waltzing on the roof.So, that evening, on the lawn of the campus, he couldn't help himself and kissed Ruan Xian.This was their long-awaited first kiss, and both of them were quite excited and nervous.After several unfamiliar explorations, Ruan Xian gradually relaxed.Soon, the return journey tasted the beauty of real lips and tongues.
Everything was as beautiful as expected, but the small episode that happened on the way to escort Ruan Yuan back to the dormitory made the return journey feel extremely disappointing.
Ruan Yuan insisted on accompanying her to the supermarket on the way home, thinking she wanted to buy some snacks for supper.In the end, she just picked a bottle of mouthwash.
On the way home, I asked her what she bought this for, and she replied in surprise, of course it was to go back and rinse her mouth, how unhygienic it is to mix the saliva of two people together!When I heard it on the way home, I was dumbfounded on the spot.
"So, she has a cleanliness?"
Qiao Mu seemed to understand a little bit.
"Strictly speaking, Ruan Yuan is a woman with serious sexual cleanliness."
I took his word for it.However, I didn't really realize this on the way home. I just felt a little hurt in my heart and felt that I was disgusted.But Ruan Yuan thought it was a normal thing, and she even suggested to develop such a habit on the way home, so as to prevent the disease from entering the mouth.
Of course, Ruan Yuan loves to go home, and this does not conflict with the hygiene habits she must adhere to.What's more, the two are still in the stage of dating, and it is impossible to get in touch with Ruan Yuan's private life on the way home.Therefore, he quickly forgot.However, this is just the beginning.Ruan Xuan's cleanliness kept their love absolutely holy during their 8-year relationship. He always had an attitude of letting nature take its course on the wedding night and the way home. He believed that only in this way could Ruan Yuan's sexual prejudice fear.Unexpectedly, Ruan Yuan was not afraid, just like when she first kissed, she would soon hand over herself to him full of happiness.
It wasn't until that moment that Tutu realized that Ruan Yuan's overly narcissistic behavior was not unreasonable.
What appeared in front of him on his way home was a body so exquisite that it could arouse any kind of primitive desire in the universe.She just stood there naked, and he couldn't help but let it out.
This unforeseen situation caught Lu Lu unprepared, he felt extremely ashamed, as if he had been raped by a beauty all of a sudden, his dignity was lost, he felt ashamed, he couldn't help but jump out of the window and escape immediately.
Ruan Yuan naturally didn't know what happened, she still opened her heart, immersed in the expectation of being possessed.In order to cover up his embarrassment on the way home, he had to pretend to have diarrhea and hide in the toilet to clean up the mess.A good wedding night ended so inexplicably.
To be honest, I really can't believe it, you know, every night I spent together on the way home is enough to make me fascinated. Why is he dying in front of Ruan Xian?Later, I realized that it was not a question of ability, but a question of self-confidence.
This is the original words on the way home. He said: "Ruan Yuan is too beautiful, like a sharp weapon that kills people without blood. I am not so much conquered by her as I was intimidated by the fear of being unable to strike. Although, she It is indeed for me wholeheartedly, but I just feel that there are some very evil things hidden in her that I will never be able to control, I can't explain that feeling, I really can't explain..."
That's how Journey Home explained it to me.I don't understand why he thinks this way, I witnessed Ruan Xian's intimidating sharpness when we first met.However, I still admire her, including her unstoppable and untamable temperament.
"Don't you men just like women who can't handle it?" I asked back on the way home, and found the relationship between him and Ruan Yuan more and more exciting and interesting.
On the way home, he shook his head with a sad face - I didn't understand what he meant at all!Of course I don't understand, because before I fell in love with him, Ruan Xian was already the goddess in my heart.On the way home, I will never understand how I felt at that time, just like I will never understand why he was afraid of Ruan Xian.If we could put aside the position she occupies between me and Homecoming, without jealousy, without contention, without a love that each must defend, she and I might become the best of friends.
As a result, the fate of Ruan Yuan and I were really handed over because of our return journey, and we became the closest and most jaw-dropping good sisters in the world.This is a later story, but it is precisely because of everything that happened later that I finally understand the meaning of the journey home.Sadly, he forgot on the way home, just like he forgot the poisonous oath, and completely forgot about it.
"Could it be that this is the end of the relationship between Guitu and Ruan Yuan?"
Qiao Mu couldn't wait to ask.
of course not.If there was no normal sex life between Gui Tu and Ruan Yuan, they would have divorced long ago without my intervention.But one thing is certain, the so-called normal is nothing more than a picture. In fact, it is just a series of formulaic procedures. The only advantage is that it is simple and clear and quick.
Although the severe injury on the wedding night brought a lot of shadows on the way home, in the end, it was resolved in the dark.As long as you don't see Ruan Yuan's body on the way home, you can function normally.But the dark environment was also brought up by Ruan Yuan first, and the reason was naturally her obsession with cleanliness.
Ruan Yuan can't stand men's genitals, and feels that they lack beauty and will never get rid of their ugly and low-level appearance. Therefore, it is more appropriate to turn off the lights.她每次做完爱不仅要把所有的床上用品全部换掉，还必须稀释三种以上的消毒剂来浸泡自己的身体，但是，从来不和归途共浴。据说，仅有的一次，在温泉浴场，他们一起洗澡。归途赤身裸体正准备下水时，阮芫竟然"哇——"地一声吐了。
归途这才发现，除去基本的生理反应，她从头到尾得不到一丝一毫的快感。她不动也不叫，任由归途摆弄。虽然她的身体很敏感，也能够顺利地让对方达到高潮，但是，归途知道那只能代表他们彼此的身体很健康。尤其是，阮芫经常在最关键的时刻冒出一两句叫人兴味索然的话来，比如，要射了么？快射了吧？怎么还不射呀？Etc., etc.因此，他们的夫妻生活虽然看上去和普通的夫妇没什么差别，实际上却从未有过精神上的快乐。这种原始本能盖过情欲享受的夫妻关系，之所以能够平和美满地延续下来，完全归功于他们丰富的物质生活。
金钱可以弥补一切，这个道理，我也是在认识归途和阮芫之后才感同身受的。但是，谁也没料到，事情最终会演变到如此险恶的地步。婚后几年，尤其是阮芫成就事业之后，归途渐渐意识到，这种看似尚可容忍的、古怪的洁癖背后，隐藏的是一种居高临下，极其傲慢的疏离和冷漠。
女为悦己者容对阮芫来说是一个莫大笑话，她一丝不苟缔造出的完美，并不是用来取悦别人的，而是用来取悦自己的。可是，归途也明白，那是她的天性，除此之外，你无法从她身上挑出任何毛病。没有男人会因为这么一个小小的嗜好与她斤斤计较，归途当然也不会。直到后来，他遇见了我。
我开始悟出归途为什么那么迷恋我，是我无意中掘出了他潜藏已久的欲望，让他不得不面对和睦、成就、财富并不能满足一切这一事实。褪去华贵的外衣，他和所有平凡、普通的男人一样，渴望偷欢，渴望享有真正强烈的、酣畅淋漓的爱。所以，他不要身份了，不要颜面了，不要奢侈了，甚至，连阮芫都丢到一边，他要的只是我，只是我。
“我看，他要的不是你，而是性。”乔牧直言不讳地作出评判。
“我不是没想过。既然阮芫的秘密被揭开，我自然就想到我和归途之间的爱情会不会是一个巧合？那天下午如果他遇见的不是我，而是另外一个女孩，一切也依旧会照常发生。我现在看得见、感受得到的爱也许并不存在，归途要的不过是一个能够唤醒他性意识的女人。什么年轻纯洁，清新可爱，统统扯不上关系，我的身上，仅仅只是比别人多了两个字，那就是'碰巧'！”
“我不相信你真像你说的那么清醒，不然，你早该就此打住了，不是么？"”
“所以，这都是命中注定的灾难。”
"how to say?"
“就在我还没有来得及好好地把我和归途的关系整理透彻，阮芫突然出现了。”
“哦？”乔牧也很意外。
也许，他说得没错，我的确没那么清醒。其实，糊涂一点也不打紧。
真正严重的是——我疯了。
阮芫的出现并不是偶然。事实上，她暗中调查归途已经有好一段日子了。在找到我之前，她对我和归途的关系了如指掌，甚至还知道我们每一次约会的时间、地点，除了没法在我们的流动宾馆里安放摄像头，该知道的，她早就知道了。
我记得，那是一个星期四的下午，我刚上完课回到寝室，室友便告诉我，有个自称是我表姐的女人打电话来，说是在校门口等我，要我一下课就去找她。我根本没什么表姐，那时我已经预料到事情不太对劲，于是故意置之不理。可是，当我参加完社团活动和同学一起出去吃饭时，发现那个"表姐"的车还停在校门口。
阮芫从车上下来，我的同学几乎一涌而上，她们七嘴八舌地嚷嚷着：“天哪！天哪！你表姐多漂亮多气派啊！”真让人丢脸。
“找个地方谈谈吧。”阮芫很客气地对我说。
我点点头，知道自己在劫难逃，也没什么好退缩的了。
我们来到学校附近的一家咖啡馆，就像潘月找到我的那天晚上一样，我们面对面坐着，默默寻思着对方的心事，一杯接一杯地喝着比咳嗽药水还难喝的咖啡。
阮芫面前一直还放着一杯白开水，喝咖啡之前，她总要先用白开水清理口中的杂味。潘月和阮芫，在这些细节上真是像到了极点。
“安凌，哦不，是安安，我知道你比较喜欢这个名字。”
我坦荡荡地望着她说话的嘴唇，毫不畏惧。
我曾经为这样的见面做过无数次心理建设，现在实现了，也镇定自若得很。
她依然光彩夺目让人充满遐想。但是，我已经知道她的秘密，从某种意义上讲，我和她已经处于同一个水平，或许，我还高出那么一点点也说不定。
她接着说：“安安，我必须让你明白，如果不是归途和我提出离婚，我是不会来打扰你的。”
“离婚？他什么时候跟你说的？我怎么一点也不知道？”
我没想到归途会那么快履行承诺，又惊又喜。
阮芫回答：“我比你更了解归途的为人，没有把握的事情，他是不会轻易张扬的。”
“这么说，你是不肯答应咯？”
我咄咄逼近，根本不想给她喘息的余地。
“如果有什么合适的理由能让我答应，不妨说来听听？”
阮芫和气地对我微笑，丝毫没有挑衅的架势。
我诧异于她的态度，完全不是我想象中的那样。我以为她会大发雷霆，甚至密谋策划、想尽各种办法来胁迫我和归途分手。可是现在，她的神态、语气，无关痛痒得就好像是在和我聊着别人的事似的。我根本摸不着头脑。
她笑着端起杯子：“你千万别误会，我不是来威胁你和归途分手的。你们的事我已经知道很久了，坦白说，我没想到归途真的会为了你和我提出离婚。你是没看见他的表情，我认识他这么多年都没见他那么坚决认真过。我意识到，这件事已经不是睁一只眼闭一只眼就能解决的了。因此，我不得不站到你面前，表明一下我的立场。”。
“大可不必煞费苦心找那么多冠冕堂皇的理由来搪塞我。”我鼓起勇气把她的话顶回去，“你不肯离婚就等于要我们分手，那根本是一码事。你明知道归途离不了婚，我就不会继续跟他在一起……”
“我知道你是个聪明的女孩，所以，我才那么喜欢你。”
她突然轻轻勾住我的手指，这个动作惊住了我，让我浑身不自在。
她到底在说些什么？我怎么一点也听不懂呢？
阮芫的表情还是那么安逸沉稳，甚至还有些殷勤。我听见磨刀霍霍的声响，却看不见银光闪闪的征兆。莫名的惶恐即刻游遍了我的全身。于是，我决定把话再往明里挑一挑，直接开口道：“我既然愿意坐在你面前，就是想要听听你的心理话。条件也好，威胁也罢，你何不一次痛快地说明白，你比谁都清楚我和归途到底要什么，不是么？”
“如果我告诉你，我并不清楚，也不想弄清楚，你会相信么？”她悠悠地回答。
我立刻摇头。
她把目光挪开，随手拿起我放在桌上墨镜：“瞧，我就知道你不会了解。那么，我就把话说得更清楚一些。其实，我一点也不介意你和归途在一起，如果介意，我早就跑来跟你闹了，对不对？说穿了，我不想破坏你和归途之间的关系，你能让归途幸福快乐地享受爱情，那是他的福气。你能帮我弥补他在我身上得不到的缺憾，那是我的幸运。我感激你还来不及，怎么可能还要来找你的麻烦呢？”
“那你处心积虑了解我和归途的一切，现在又亲自来找我谈判，到底又为了什么呢？！”
我立刻反驳。
“为了和你交朋友。”
她明明就是睁着眼睛说瞎话，我怀疑她是不是受的刺激太深而导致精神错乱了。我只好心平气和地对她说：“虽然我无法预料事情会发展到现在这个地步，但是，毕竟是我侵犯了你的爱情，破坏了你的婚姻，你却要和我做朋友？阮芫，如果你不是拿着伪善当令箭，那就是你的脑子有问题了。”
“也许吧，不过那是我的问题，不关你的事。”她依旧出奇的冷静。
“我所有的要求不过只是四个字，"维持原状"而已。”
我问她什么意思？她说意思很简单，我和她能不能尝试共同拥有一个男人？像亲姐妹那样。其实，我们先前一直都做得很好，是归途多此一举地打破了这局面。她希望一切都能回归原位—我是归途永远的爱人，她是归途永远的妻子，不必争风吃醋，也不需要离婚。还说她敢打赌，我们三个人一定能相处得很融洽，就好像一家人那样……
我终于忍无可忍地跳起来，指着她的鼻子呵道：“你以为我是什么？任由你摆布的洋娃娃么？不必争风吃醋？笑话！我忍耐是因为知道归途会给我一个交代，你不肯离婚难道不是因为你嫉恨我，不想让我完整地拥有他吗？”
“不是。”她真的就这么轻描淡写地回答我，平静得叫人毛骨悚然。
“这么说，你根本就不爱他？既然你不爱他，为什么不放他自由呢？”我疑惑地问道。
“你还真是个孩子。”她脸上浮起哭笑不得的表情，让我觉得自己的毛病好像比她更严重。
“我不离婚，是因为我找不到离婚的理由。归途是我的丈夫，这是已经存在的事实。我不想改变，也没有理由改变。”
“谁说没理由？他不爱你了，不要你了，这个理由难道还不够充分么？”
我放大嗓门，就是想激怒她。
阮芫又笑了：“在你眼里或许很充分，对我却没有多大意义。我的态度已经很明确了，我不想妨碍你和归途相爱，那么你是不是也可以放弃改变我的生活呢？”
可是，归途现在爱的是我，他只想和我在一起。我一再强调这点，她怎么就不明白呢？
“我当然相信。”她诚恳地回答，“不过，在我看来，你和归途之间如胶似漆的男女之情并不影响我和归途之间和睦默契的夫妻感情。一个轰轰烈烈地去爱，一个平平淡淡地守，这并不矛盾，对不对？”
“我不懂！不懂你说的这些歪理，这简直不可理喻！”
我突然意识到这样的针锋相对根本没有意义。
“安安，你真是个可爱又贪心的小傻瓜。”
这种玩弄似的语言已经让我快要抓狂了。
“这不是歪理，而是真理。”她幽幽地叹出一口气：“唉，不懂也罢，只要听我的话去做就行了。”
“见你的大头鬼！我凭什么要坐在这里忍受你的侮辱？归途跟你离婚离定了，我劝你最好赶紧回家把该解决的好好解决，别再把无谓的口水和时间浪费在我身上。”
我丢下狠话，转身就要走。
“怎么？你生气了？为什么要生气呢？难道你不知道我是为了你好么？”
她被我的举动吓着了，脸色白白的，居然还要站起来安慰我。我索性也一不做二不休，我告诉她，如果归途离婚成功，我一定会跟他在一起。如果她执意不肯，那我也只好跟他一刀两断。要我和她共同分享一个男人，门儿都没有！
听完我的话，阮芫忽然又笑逐言开了。
我的语气已经够坚决的了，她竟然还能笑得如此笃定如此坦然，实在让人匪夷所思。
“不，你会的，一定会！因为，你无法想象我有多么了解你，只有我知道，你真正想要的是什么。”
阮芫最后这句话没有一丁点恐吓的意思，却让我整个人从头到脚，凉成一块冰。
有一阵，我以为这事就这么结束了。
阮芫一晃而过。她消失的日子，归途也不知去了哪里。
我不知道他是不是被阮芫软禁着，倘若果真如此，他就是个十足的懦夫，我宁可就此完蛋也不要在阮芫的压迫下过活。
其实，那纯粹是我的胡思乱想，归途既然开了口，当然要全力以赴。那是他以全新的面貌出现在我眼前的首要条件，他很清楚那个承诺对于我们的意义。何况，我也已经等得有些不耐烦了。但是，我并没有催促归途，如今细细想来，“离婚”两个字从头到尾都不是从我嘴里吐出来的，一切就这么了无声息地进行着。对之后的那场无妄之灾，我浑然不觉。这么说或许还是很驼鸟。
我听从了罪恶之神的召唤，踏上了他引领的道路，这就是不争的事实，所以我没有资格为自己狡辩。我很倔强，没有主动给归途打电话，可是最后，我还是对他们俩先后失踪的巧合产生了疑虑，稍不留神就会觉得归途已经反悔了。这时，另一件突发的事扭转了我的情绪。
就在归途忙着离婚的当口，一个匿名的追求者闯入了我的生活。
一连五天，有个署名"ER"的人委托快递公司给我送礼物。我很想知道他是谁，更想知道他是用什么方法洞察到我内心深处最隐秘的渴望。这个叫"ER"的家伙，让我的钢丝床在短短几日内被各路极品所占领，从手表、皮夹、饰物，到文具、坤包、摆设，无一不是我曾痴痴徘徊在名品店门口，用卖火柴小女孩似的目光久久凝视过的。
到了第三天，我实在忍不住，给归途打了通电话，以为是他为了安抚这些日子对我的冷落而刻意安排的，没想到，他回答我的只有一句话——我已经焦头烂额了，拜托你再给我一点时间把事情彻底解决好不好？
不是归途又会是谁呢？他到底跟踪了我多久？
当我一想到，无论自己身在何处，背后总有一双眼睛在紧盯着我时，所有的欢喜、等待、好奇全都被吓了回去。与此同时，我又实在不愿舍弃这些梦寐以求的礼物，以及龙卷风似地将我团团围住的惊羡眼光。我不得不承认，那五天，我根本没有时间来吸收任何讯息，连续不断的惊诧加上室友们七嘴八舌的讨论，没让我的头壳崩裂已是万幸。
到了第六天的下午，我再次回到寝室，礼物依旧摆在桌上。可是，所有人的脸都拉得比马还长，她们担忧地对我说：“安凌，这下麻烦了，你被一个女人看上了。”我这才明白过来那个神秘的“追求者”就是阮芫。
我想我是真的昏了头了，怎么完全没觉察到“ER”就是阮芫的英文名EVA加上她姓氏的第一个字母？又被这女人耍了。
我这才反省到，她不是故意刁难归途，而是根本不屑于和他纠缠，这件事从头到尾令她感兴趣的就是我。她到底是有钱没地方花呢？还是跟归途一块儿爱上我了？我没法琢磨出合理的答案来，当我再次对着她刨根问底的时候，她的回答是：“我喜欢你，就像姐姐对妹妹那样。如果你觉得那也算一种爱，我就承认好了。”
What is she trying to do?我突然心虚了，礼物在我手上，我既没有调查也没有归还，是不是就算收下了呢？我为什么要收她的东西？凭什么收？可是，要我现在立刻就把那些昂贵的宝贝扔在她脸上，我实在做不出来。我恨自己没胆量、没出息、爱慕虚荣，可是这又有什么用呢？我真的是舍不得它们啊！
“跟我走。”她把我拖上车。
“去哪儿？”我问。
“去看一个你最想要的自己。”
这是我和阮芫之间的第一次肢体接触，她的手强硬而霸气，让我在一瞬之间丧失了挣脱的勇气。我好像闻到一点点归途所说的那股邪乎味儿，不，应该是催眠味儿。
我仍旧相信当时的心境是很清醒很理智的，可是，身体却没有任何抵御的意识，就这么毫无防范跟随她去了。
好漫长的一个下午。阮芫带我走遍了全市最著名的商场、美容院和女子俱乐部，挑礼服、做头发，到薰香迭迷的私人会所做专业SPA和全身护理。
“就像潘月和你在一起的最后一天一样？”
由于乔牧插嘴，我的思路有了短暂的歇息，不过，我很惊讶他是怎么猜到的。
“她真的是阮芫……”乔牧没有等我的回答，反而自言自语起来。
我只能暂且把他放在一边，因为我担心不接着说下去，回忆就要断了。
最后，当我端坐在五星级酒店最豪华的旋转餐厅里时，我已经彻底蜕变成一个从任何角度看过去，都无懈可击的名媛。
阮芫透过香槟的气泡，重新审视我的脸，然后，笑眯眯地说：“这样不是很好么？你就是你，独一无二绝无仅有的，稍作修饰，就把我给比下去了。现在，你总该相信我对你的诚意不是开玩笑的吧。”
我知道她是故意的，故意要戏弄我，来反衬她的完美。想着想着，我的鼻子就酸了。
阮芫很敏锐地瞧出了我的心思，耐心地安慰道：“安安，你的眼睛有毛病，别人的眼睛可雪亮得很。看看你的周围，告诉我你看见了什么？”
我的周围是什么？是赞许？仰慕？惊叹？
不，不确切。
我觉得自己就像是一只在宁静的人群里突然引爆的炸弹，“轰”地一声，把天空炸亮了，把时间炸停了，把所有人都炸昏了。
成为她，抑或超越她！这不正是一直萦绕在我脑海里的画面么？
我爱归途，毫无疑问。可是，在我内心最阴暗的角落里，依然保留着因为想和阮芫这样的女人一争高低而接纳他的原始企图。
原以为，要等到归途离婚，水到渠成嫁给他时，才能真正实现自己的梦想。却万万没有想到阮芫会代替归途，让我提前享受到灰姑娘的快乐。这个女人，在我身上耗费了比归途高出百倍的工夫，到底是为了什么呢？
我禁不住自卑地对她说：“阮芫，你这么对我有什么意思呢？过了午夜十二点，我还是那个一无所有的女大学生。纵使你要报复，要给我教训，也已经绰绰有余了。你我之间所发生的一切，我一个字也没跟归途说。我不是怕你，只想知道这游戏什么时候才能结束？”
“这不是游戏！！”她口气突然变硬了，“我已经说过很多遍了，我是认真的。”
“认真什么？”我呆呆地问，感觉脑袋已经有点转不动了。
“认真要和你共同拥有一个男人。”
我说：“你是不是疯了？你可以跟我吵，可以跟我闹，就是别来这套！”
她说：“安安，难道你就一点也不肯相信，我和归途一样地喜欢你么？”
我觉得好笑：“喜欢？你到底喜欢我什么呀？”
她依旧严肃：“喜欢你和我是一样的人。”
“如果我和你是一样的，归途就不会爱上我了。”
这点她心里应该很清楚。
阮芫目不转睛地看着我的脸，越看越沉静，越静越叵测。然后，冷冰冰地回答：“你错了。我们是同类，是天造地设的一对好姐妹。打从我们见面的那一刻起你就已经知道了，不是么？”
我的心突然倾斜了。只感到游移的魂魄从体内不知名的地方噗地飞了出去，滋溜一下就消失在黑夜里了。
阮芫依旧不停地对我絮叨：“安安，我是过来人，何不听我一句忠告？你分明就是一棵随时会为爱情盛开的花骨朵，归途比你大那么多，你怎么知道我的离婚不会是你和他激情的终点呢？何不拿这场爱情作为你享受青春的赌注？和金钱、肉欲、美梦比起来，你不认为自由才是最最重要的么？”
我望着她，眼光依旧蒙昧，就在这时，她从包里掏出早就准备好的金卡，悄悄推到我手边：“拿着吧，有了这个，你就再也不是什么灰姑娘了。千万别以为这是什么扭转局面的手段，更不是我施舍给你的恩惠。我必须让你了解我和归途之间的差别，如果你以为占据我的位置就能够成为你想要的那种女人，那你就大错特错了。归途是因为你朴实无华才疯狂爱上你的，可是，你并不想永远保持这个样子对不对？那么，当你终于达到目的，准备改头换面时，归途又会有什么样反应呢？他不会赞成你这么做，他要的是爱情，不是另一个我，这点你是最清楚的，况且他也不具备这样的能力。但是，我有。现在，你总应该明白，我才是这世界上最了解你的人。归途一心要保护你的爱情并没有错，而我，只想捍卫你的自由。到底选择哪一个，你自己看着办吧！”
“你接受了？”
乔牧从未用如此不信任的眼光看过我。
“所以我说，我不是太无耻，就是彻底被她弄疯了！”
乔牧低下头去。我知道，他再也不想看我了。
“你好些了么？” MAY问我。
“很快就能下地了。”
“这就好。”MAY继续削苹果。她的手法生硬，不能象乔牧那样把皮连成长长的条状。
乔牧特地差MAY来陪我，这让我很难过。他是要故意躲我么？刚才，MAY一直问我是不是哪里疼了，她觉着我脸色不佳。我说没有，其实，我心疼得厉害。说出来她也不会明白的。乔牧不理我了。就在我说出最可耻的片段之后他再也不想理我了，一定是这样的，否则这三天他怎么不来看我呢？这个念头让我难以入眠，每天晚上躲在被窝里嘤嘤咽咽地哭。我从来不知道自己是这样爱着他的，十岁、二十三岁、到现在二十七岁……可是，我那么那么自卑地害怕着，担心着这一天的来临-——被他看透铭刻在我人性深处，永远抹不净的安，看透了那个孤孑、矛盾、自闭的凌是如何虚假、伪善的丑陋女子。
“我说过，事实要比你想象的更严重。”乔牧又回到我面前时，我只能这么说，“虽然，那已经是过去的事了。”
这一句补充得委实牵强，不痛不痒地好尴尬。
“你又在瞎想什么？”他看着我，眼光很清澈。把巨大的旅行袋扔到床尾，
“我去你家了，住院那么久，总得有人帮你整理整理。而且天也凉了，你得多穿一点。”
他拉开旅行袋拉链，拿出披风示意我穿上。
我撩起帘子眺望窗外，树叶变了颜色，黄黄的、参差不齐的，像是和艳阳斗累了，颓败睡去似的。原来，外面的时节已是秋。
“继续说吧。”乔牧坐下，弓起身子，双手握拳托住下巴。
“什么？”我别过头，不想再说。
他的眉头或许又扎成了堆，可是我真的不想失去他。我承认，我无助、我绝望、我渺小脆弱得就象一粒随手可以碾碎的沙，让我爱他，让我要他，因为我的世界只有他。他是我唯一的亲人！
“我有权把故事听完，再决定是否继续爱你。这是你对我的要求我，我不想半途而废。”
我得说，也必须说，否则他又怎能明白我为这场违背人性的爱情，付出过多么惨劣的代价！
又不晓得要从哪里开始了。
我说过，记忆是很容易断的，不以我的意志为转移。故事到了某个阶段总要出现所谓的转折，才能再抵达高潮。我和阮芫、归途的高潮后面还有另一个高潮，那就是潘月。虽然时隔六年，她还是差点完成了阮芫在我身上未能完成的事——将我送入地狱永不超生。
这么说或许又是不对的，阮芫不过是个较为奇特的女人，也许她对我做的只是无意识的行为，并不能构成蓄谋的动机。后来，后来又发生了什么呢？
首先，是我搬出了宿舍，时间刚好是期末。我对父母说，工作已经基本定下来了，这就要入单位实习，可是家里离单位太远了，所以就和女同事合租了一套房子。我就是从那时开始学会撒谎不眨眼的，我父母当然也没那么笨，说一定要见见我的同屋才能答应。和他们见面的是阮芫，我父母对她相当满意，临走前还特别嘱咐说阮小姐很能干的，要我多向她学