Chapter 4 Chapter 4 First Quarter Moon, Last Quarter Moon
On the day of Zhou Li's operation, Mu Jingyan came to the hospital early.
Seeing Ruolin's haggard expression, Mu Jingyan only felt distressed. He patted her on the shoulder and comforted her with words: "Relax, it's nothing. The doctor who performed the operation is an expert in heart disease. Auntie will be safe and sound." Yes."
He spoke so gently, with such a slow tone, Ruolin seemed to feel that she had taken a reassurance and was no longer so nervous.
The corridor outside the operating room was so quiet that it felt suffocating. Ruolin's palms were already wet with sweat, she leaned on the bench, her brows were slightly frowned, and her face was full of uneasiness. Suddenly, a slender and warm hand reached out and held her somewhat helpless hand.Only Mu Jingyan's voice was heard: "With me by my side, don't be afraid. Nothing will happen." Ruolin didn't dodge, but leaned weakly on Mu Jingyan's shoulder.She was tired, really tired. Even though the hospital was filled with the strong smell of Lysol, Ruolin could still smell the faint mint smell from Mu Jingyan's body, like the smell of bath milk. This man she had been secretly in love with for a long time, seemed to have matured, yet didn't seem to have changed. At a certain moment, she couldn't help but think of the past when she was moved by him.
It was a very long wait, as long as a century. Finally, the door of the operating room opened, and the chief surgeon came out. As soon as she took off her mask, Ruolin rushed up and asked, "Doctor, how is my mother?" "Very well, everything went well." A big stone that had been hanging in Ruolin's heart fell to the ground.However, she just heard the doctor say that, and then she couldn't hear anything.Because her eyes were blackened and she passed out on the ground.
When she woke up, Ruolin found herself lying on the hospital bed, surrounded by white flowers.what happened?The one lying on the hospital bed should be my mother, how could it be me? Ruo Lin was about to get up when someone held her down. "You're still on the infusion, don't move around." Mu Jingyan said softly while stopping Ruolin from sitting up. "How is my mother's situation now?" Ruolin asked eagerly. "It's fine. Ruowen and Aunt Sun are taking care of her, so don't worry. Take care of yourself first." "What's wrong with me?" Ruo Lin looked at the infusion tube in puzzlement. "You passed out suddenly just now. The doctor said it was lack of sleep, too much pressure, and overwork. Get some fluids and rest well and you'll be fine." "This time... I have troubled you too much." Ruo Lin looked up at Mu Jingyan's face and said gratefully. "You are too polite, we have known each other for how many years!" "The matter of the operation fee..." Ruo Lin wanted to say that it might take a long time to pay back the operation fee. "I'm not in a hurry, you pay it back slowly. A large part of it is the money my parents left me for my marriage, and I haven't thought about getting married yet. So just pay me back before I get married." Mu Jing Yan hurriedly interrupted Ruo Lin's words. "This...how is this so embarrassing? Isn't this delaying your lifelong event? And bring the money you plan to get married..." Ruo Lin felt a little tangled in her heart. "I'm still young, and I'm not in a hurry to get married now. Besides...even if I want to get married, I won't be able to find a suitable partner for a while!" ah?Does he not have a girlfriend now?Who was that girl he led at the party last year?Have the two already broken up?Or had she misunderstood him and that girl wasn't his girlfriend at all? However, whether he has a girlfriend should not be her concern.It's just that she didn't want to delay his marriage by herself. If he couldn't get married because of his lack of money, it would be her fault. I don't want to, just redouble my efforts to make money and pay him back after taking care of my body.
Zhou Li's operation was successful, her body gradually improved, and her face became rosy. Ruolin can finally leave here with peace of mind and return to City D. The editor-in-chief of the magazine called twice, under the pretense of greeting Ruolin's mother, but actually urging her when she could go back to work.I can't blame the editor-in-chief. After all, she has been on vacation for two weeks, and she has indeed delayed a lot of work. Han Haoxuan hasn't written a single word of the interview.After finally being promoted from a process editor to a columnist for the brand column, I should have worked harder to be worthy of the editor-in-chief's trust. Coincidentally, the day she went back was also the day Mu Jingyan returned to City D.The two just fit together.
In fact, Mu Jingyan's work had already been done, and he could have left earlier, but he was worried about Ruo Lin's health on the way, so he asked for a few days' leave with his unit, planning to leave with Ruo Lin. He originally wanted to buy two air tickets, but he knew Ruolin's personality, so he decided against it.If he helped her bear the travel expenses, she would definitely not want to; if she had to bear the travel expenses by herself, given her current situation, it seemed a bit extravagant. So, he consulted Ruo Lin and bought two train tickets with adjacent seats.
In the evening, Ruo Lin and Mu Jingyan boarded the train bound for D City. The sky outside the car window gradually darkened, and Ruolin's drowsiness also came over her. During this period of time, she was really exhausted. She stayed by her mother's side for several nights. Her mother advised her to go back, but she was afraid that her mother would not be able to find help from others at night, so she refused to go back. She stayed by her mother's side, although she was tired. Some, but she felt that for her mother, it was worth doing anything. She closed the curtains and leaned her head gently against the curtains.With her eyes slightly closed, she fell asleep unconsciously, looking like a well-behaved child.
After an unknown amount of time, Ruolin woke up from the cold, and the air conditioner in the carriage was too strong. She opened her eyes slightly, only to find that she was leaning on Mu Jingyan's shoulder! She didn't know if he was asleep, but just leaned against the seat motionless.She didn't dare to move, for fear of waking him up, how embarrassing it would be.Although she also stayed on his broad shoulders for a while when my mother was undergoing surgery, the situation at that time was different from the current situation after all. Her right arm was gently pressed against his left arm, and she could feel the temperature on his arm, unlike her cold arm, his arm exuded a trace of heat.She had never been so close to him, and her heart began to fluster and pound.She could smell the faint scent of peppermint emanating from him. She could imagine that their posture leaning together should be very ambiguous, like a couple.Thinking of this, her face turned red.Fortunately, now there are only small lights by the window left in the car, which looks a little dim. The air-conditioning in the car continuously radiated out, Ruolin couldn't help shivering, this action startled her, thinking it would wake Mu Jingyan up, but luckily it didn't. She held her breath, and slowly moved her head away from his shoulder, moving very lightly, then moved her arm little by little, and finally, she left that warm place.She let out a long breath, suppressing her nervous heart. Then, she raised her eyes slightly and looked at Mu Jingyan next to him. He was sleeping with a peaceful expression.Ruolin's tense heart slowly relaxed. She looked at him carefully: his brows are clear, his skin is as moist as jade, his eyelashes are black, his nose bridge is straight, his lips are thin, his face is illuminated by the dim light, it looks a little unreal, so handsome, like a beautiful ink painting . She had never looked at him so closely before.Maybe she dared to look at him so blatantly only when he was asleep. The man who moved her heart for the first time, even though it has been so long, looking at him now, she still feels an inexplicable warm emotion flowing in her heart.
She gently opened the curtain next to her. It was pitch black outside, and there were sporadic lights flickering in the distance. She guessed it was late at night.She didn't sleep well, and her neck was a little sore, so she rubbed it with her hands. Now she dare not sleep, fearing that the situation just now will happen again. She still remembered that she was leaning against the curtain before going to bed, but why did she lean on Mu Jingyan's shoulder when she woke up?I feel a little inexplicable. She wanted to hang on until dawn like that, but looking at the dark night and the little lights outside, her eyelids started to fight again, her upper eyelids became heavy, and her body could not help but lean towards the window, and finally leaned against the window under the force of gravity. on the curtain.
The train was jolting a little while it was running, and it made people shake a little bit.Ruolin's head leaning against the curtains began to lean towards Mu Jingyan's side, and then leaned towards the curtains, just shaking slightly from side to side, giving the impression that she was very tired from sleep. Seeing that she was sleeping uncomfortably, Mu Jingyan gently leaned her head on his shoulder again. In fact, Mu Jingyan didn't fall asleep, he was always in a state of half asleep and half awake in such a disturbed situation.When he saw Ruolin sleeping so tired, he had an urge to lend her a shoulder, but he was hesitant.In the end, seeing her was really tiring, I couldn't bear it, and even felt a little distressed.In order to let her sleep more comfortably, he still did that. The first time he leaned Ruolin's body against him, Mu Jingyan's heart was extremely tense, and he tried his best to restrain his beating heart so that he could quietly let Ruolin lean on his shoulder.At that time, he was extremely afraid that Ruolin would wake up, and he didn't know how Ruolin would misunderstand him. Fortunately, everything was done very carefully and nothing went wrong. When Ruolin leaned on his shoulder again, the tension in his heart was also reduced a lot. When Ruolin slowly moved away from him just now, he noticed it, but he pretended that he was still asleep. He could feel the slight movement of Ruolin when she moved away. All he could do was to close his eyes and let Ruolin Lin Weiliang's arms left her. At this time, Ruolin, who was leaning on his shoulder, fell asleep peacefully, and seemed to be sleeping soundly, breathing evenly.The fair skin was shrouded in dim light, making it look even more charming. Mu Jingyan lowered his eyes slightly, looking at Ruolin on his shoulder, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.
When Ruolin woke up again, she was already leaning against the curtains. She rubbed her sleepy eyes, looked at the gradually brightening sky outside the window, and asked Mu Jingyan next to her, "Is it almost time to stop?" "Yeah." Mu Jingyan replied softly, he turned his head to look at Ruolin, her face was not too ugly, she probably slept well last night, he secretly smiled in his heart. Mu Jingyan didn't mention the matter of relying on each other to sleep the whole night, and Ruolin didn't mention it either, so they pretended it never happened.Just a small episode that happened during the journey.
After Ruolin returned to City D, besides working hard, she was still working one part-time job after another.The mother's surgery fee was scraped together, but paying back the money became a huge task on her shoulders, and she had to consume her physical strength day and night. One night, as soon as Ruolin came home from the restaurant where she worked, she received a call from Xinyu. "Ruo Lin, are you asleep?" Xin Yu asked. "No, I just got home." Ruo Lin said weakly, then sat down on the sofa, casually throwing the bag aside. "Why did you come home so late?" Xin Yu didn't know about Ruo Lin's hard work. "I just came back from the hotel." Ruo Lin felt that her hands holding the phone had lost the slightest strength, and she felt exhausted after a day of overloaded work. "You won't go back to the past, will you?" Xin Yu said with a slightly raised voice.There was a time when Ruolin’s younger sister was about to start school, and the family needed money. In order to earn money as soon as possible, Ruolin finished classes during the day and worked part-time at night, not to mention Saturdays and Sundays. I feel bad. "Fortunately, the neck is a little sore, the waist is a little sore, and the other parts are still functioning normally." Ruolin said while twisting her neck when she knew what Xin Yu was talking about. "You, you always don't take your body seriously." Xin Yu reprimanded slightly, and then said softly, "You don't have to rush to pay back my money, wait until you have money." "It's okay, I'm full of energy." Ruo Lin smiled, as if she didn't care. "The body is the capital of the revolution. If you work so hard, you are destroying your own body!" Xin Yu almost "hated iron for not being steel". "No way." Ruo Lin retorted softly.She herself didn't know that she wasn't destroying her body like this, but she couldn't sleep well when she owed money to others, and she wanted to pay back the money as soon as possible. "How long do you work in a day, when I see you, don't look listless, and be healthy." Xin Yu said helplessly. "Since when have I been unhealthy? I'm in good health." Ruolin insisted.Obviously, not long ago, he passed out due to being too tired to take care of his mother, but now the scar is healed and the pain is forgotten. "Oh, by the way..." Xin Yu said as if she suddenly remembered something, "This Saturday, take some time." "What's the matter?" Ruolin asked. "Han Haoxuan invited the two of us out for dinner." Xin Yu replied. When Han Haoxuan made this suggestion, Xin Yu had some concerns, but Han Haoxuan said that Ruolin's interview with him and his friend Qin Tianyi was very good, and I should thank them.The reason was so high-sounding, Xin Yu felt that if she disagreed, she would be too petty.Maybe he didn't have any intentions towards Ruo Lin, he just wanted to invite her to dinner as a thank you. "Dining together?" Ruo Lin asked suspiciously. "En." Xin Yu replied softly, paused for a while, and continued, "He asked me out and asked me to bring you along. He said he wanted to thank you for helping him and his good friends write interviews. " "He wants me to be the light bulb for you two?" Ruo Lin changed a comfortable position and lay down on the sofa, with a smile in her tone, she added, "It's still a high-brightness incandescent lamp." "I feel the same way. At first I thought so too, but now I don't." Xin Yu couldn't help smiling and said. "Then what do you think?" Ruolin asked. "Since we are all friends, why can't we meet?" Xin Yu pretended to be relaxed and said, "Besides, he should ask about your situation. After all, you have met three times, and he has a good impression of you. He always I can't just forget you as a stranger. More importantly, you are still my best friend, and he can't forget it even more. Doesn't he naturally think of you when he sees me? Besides, he The second is to thank you specially, so if I invite you to dinner, you can't refuse someone's kindness, right?" "But..." Ruo Lin hesitated, not knowing what to say.Maybe she was thinking too much, Han Haoxuan called her to contact him, maybe it was just because of a friend, and why the person he said to cherish must be her.This time he was able to ask her out because of Xin Yu's favor. Thinking of this, Ruo Lin couldn't help showing a self-deprecating smile, and said, "You guys should go on your own, I also have to work on weekends." "He emphasized to me that you must go." Xinyu conveyed Han Haoxuan's words, thought for a while, and said, "You are all my friends, this is really embarrassing for me." "Xin Yu..." Ruo Lin was about to say something when she was interrupted by Xin Yu and said, "It's just a meal, so you don't have to think about it so much. I haven't thought about it yet." "Alright then." Ruo Lin knew that if she continued to argue, Xin Yu would tell her a lot of things, she might as well obediently agree to her now. Ruo Lin understood what Xin Yu said just now.If you are going to meet a simple friend, it is better not to shirk again and again. Before going to bed, Ruo Lin was holding the pendant Han Haoxuan gave her in her hand, with complicated expressions on her face and slightly frowned brows.She unconsciously thought of what happened in the box last time, and her face couldn't help being hot. She hurriedly stood by the window, letting the wind blow on her face as much as she wanted, trying to wake herself up.She knew that now she could no longer have those thoughts, it was just Han Haoxuan's behavior when he was drunk.She hurriedly put the pendant back into the drawer and closed it heavily, as if closing all her memories of him.
On Saturday, Ruolin was going to help a little girl with her homework, so she hurried to the place Xin Yu told her during lunch time. She came quite early, so she found a seat by the window and sat down.After waiting for a while, Han Haoxuan came. Ruolin couldn't remember how long it had been since she saw him, it always felt like a long time had passed, but in fact it was less than half a month.He is still handsome, with a gentle smile and elegant posture. Excluding his occasional lip service, he is definitely a gentleman with a noble temperament. Han Haoxuan was very happy to see Ruo Lin, a nice smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, but he said in a slightly rusty tone, "Long time no see." At this moment, Ruolin was a little nervous, her hands were placed on her lap unnaturally, with a look of embarrassment. "Is your mother's situation better now?" Han Haoxuan found a topic and asked with concern. "I've had surgery, and it's relatively successful. I've been discharged from the hospital now. Thank you for your concern." Ruolin's answer was even more polite. "I think, I should find some time to visit my aunt." Han Haoxuan said casually. "What?" Ruo Lin thought she had heard wrong, and stared blankly at Han Haoxuan. "Why do you always look nervous when I say something? You don't think it's because you care about me?" Han Haoxuan jokingly said as he brought his face closer to Ruolin who was opposite. "Who cares about you." Ruo Lin rolled her eyes at him, and said with a serious expression, "Don't ever say such things to me again." "My words don't seem too much, right?" Han Haoxuan sat up straight with an innocent expression on his face. Ruolin felt that the person in front of her was really unfathomable, there was a smile hidden in the dark eyes, but it was so unpredictable that she couldn't see his inner thoughts clearly.She always felt that his words were erratic, and she didn't know which sentence was true and which sentence was false.
When Xinyu came, they sat peacefully, only seeing Han Haoxuan talking, and Ruolin occasionally answering a few words.Because what Han Haoxuan said was almost all his knowledge and experience in foreign countries, but Ruolin knew nothing about them.Even if Han Haoxuan changed the subject, Ruolin didn't know what to say to be the best answer, so Ruolin mostly remained silent. "What are you talking about?" Xin Yu asked while pulling up a chair, and sat down beside Ruo Lin. "Ask her about her work." Han Haoxuan smiled, then took a sip from the water glass in front of him, looking very leisurely.In fact, he told Ruolin about his overseas affairs just to let Ruolin know more about him. "Oh, she is a workaholic." Xin Yu smiled and said, paused for a while, pointed to the dark circles around Ruo Lin's eyes, and said, "No, the dark circles are all out, usually I really don't pay attention to the balance between work and rest." There was a slight reproach in the tone but a hint of concern. "It's not as exaggerated as what you said." Ruo Lin said indifferently. "Look at your appearance, do you know what it looks like?" Han Haoxuan said with a smile on his lips, "Looks like a very listless national treasure." "..." Ruo Lin glared at Han Haoxuan, not arguing with him.
Next, Xinyu started chatting with Han Haoxuan. The two seemed to have endless words to say, but Ruolin knew very little about what they were talking about, so she couldn't intervene, so she just sat aside and remained silent. The two of them kept talking, chatting very happily, and didn't even think about ordering food. Ruolin was anxious at the side, she still had something to do in the afternoon.They didn't seem to pay attention to her, they left her aside, Ruolin couldn't interrupt them well, she felt a little depressed, she was like an outsider, ignored by the two of them like air. Ruo Lin felt a little blocked in her heart, she knew she wouldn't come, but now it's too late to regret.Who told Xin Yu to be a guy who forgets friends when he sees sex? She looked at the vehicles outside the window with a dejected expression, one after another passing by her eyes, like a flowing landscape.Even so, she still couldn't completely place herself in the busy scenery outside.Their chatter and laughter echoed in her ears, and her mood suddenly became very depressed.
"Ruolin, look at you, why don't you look very happy?" Xin Yu turned her head just in time to see Ruolin's silent expression, disconsolate, thinking that she had suffered some kind of grievance.Then, she said angrily, "Did your elder brother Mu make you angry?" Xin Yu had such a happy chat with her sweetheart, how could she care about Ruolin, let alone understand Ruolin's situation at the moment? I thought about it. "No..." A trace of uneasiness flashed across Ruo Lin's face, and she hurriedly wanted to interrupt Xin Yu's words, but she was interrupted by Xin Yu's straightforward words, with a look of surprise on her face, and said: "He won't be here right now. Do you want money?" "Xin Yu..." Ruo Lin tugged at the corner of Xin Yu's clothes under the table, she cried out inwardly, it was all because of her expression! She didn't want Han Haoxuan to know these things, and she didn't want him to know that she was heavily in debt. It wasn't because of her face, but because of her self-esteem. Xin Yu saw the anxiety in Ruo Lin's eyes, and seemed to be telling her, stop talking.Xinyu thought for a while, then smiled suddenly, looked at Han Haoxuan, changed the subject, and said, "How is the company's operation these few days?" "Very good." Han Haoxuan replied politely.What Xin Yu and Ruo Lin said just now made him feel inexplicable, what about Brother Mu, why do you want money.After a while, he looked up at Xin Yu with his good-looking eyes, and asked, "Who is Brother Mu you mentioned just now? What money did he ask Ruolin for?" "Brother Mu is the Prince Charming in her heart, why do you want money..." Xinyu, who is usually eloquent, faltered for a long time, trying to find an excuse but couldn't think of it for a while.She knew that Ruolin was a woman with strong self-esteem, she refused to show weakness in front of others. "My mother was sick and needed a sum of money, and I borrowed part of it from him." Ruo Lin looked at Han Haoxuan steadily, her eyes were extremely calm, and there was no trace of timidity on her delicate face.She said it, but she felt much more comfortable. "Oh..." Han Haoxuan seemed to understand everything, and nodded understandingly. Han Haoxuan lowered his eyes slightly, and subconsciously turned the water glass in his hand, with a smile on his lips, which was unclear. "Then how are they doing now?" Han Haoxuan withdrew the smile from the corner of his mouth, and looked at Xin Yu seriously. "This time Ruolin saw him when I went home. I don't know if she has confessed to him. She has been secretly in love with him for many years. This girl..." Xin Yu said quickly. "Hurry up and order, I have to rush to teach others in the afternoon." Ruolin interrupted Xin Yu, pushed the menu to Xin Yu, and poked her arm.She didn't understand how Xin Yu talked about her private affairs, and she didn't know what she said in front of Han Haoxuan.However, judging by Han Haoxuan's expression, Xinyu probably didn't talk too much about her personal affairs when chatting with him.Xin Yu almost didn't think about it before speaking, she just said whatever came to her mind, Ruolin really couldn't do anything about her. "It's been so old, I'm ashamed to say that I like others." Han Haoxuan pretended to be very calm, and said indifferently.But there is an imperceptible sadness in the eyes, deeply hidden in the dark eyes.She thought that she rejected him only because she wanted to make a good relationship with her friends, but who knew that she already had someone she liked. "I've tried to persuade her several times, but it's useless. She said she doesn't want to talk about relationships yet." Xin Yu flipped through the menu, then looked at Ruo Lin beside her, and sighed. "..." Ruolin was silent, and cast a sidelong glance at Han Haoxuan who was opposite. Han Haoxuan just pretended not to see it, and picked up the cup to drink water on his own, the sorrow in his eyes disappeared at some point, and there was a sly smile on the corner of his mouth. When Han Haoxuan first heard Xinyu say that Ruolin's brother Mu was her Prince Charming, he felt very uncomfortable.Listening to Xin Yu now, the fact may not be like that, she just didn't want to talk about feelings, he finally breathed a sigh of relief in his heart.
Ruo Lin hastily finished her meal and planned to leave early.She didn't want to stay here for another second.He also said that he invited her to dinner for the sake of the interview, without saying a word of thanks, and let her be a big light bulb for a while. At this time, Han Haoxuan was almost finished eating, so he asked Ruolin where to tutor and if he could give her a ride so as not to be crowded on the bus. Xin Yu has her own car, and she is going to visit a senior in the art world in the afternoon, thinking about Han Haoxuan sending Ruolin off, it's not a bad idea. Ruo Lin saw that it was getting late, hesitated for a while, but agreed.
The air conditioner in the car was turned on, but Ruolin felt a little hot and the air was a bit dull. She looked at Han Haoxuan beside her who was driving the car intently, and seemed to be humming a certain English song softly, looking in a good mood. The soft light of the sun shone on his face, blurring the golden halo, and the edges and corners became more distinct.At this moment, Ruolin was almost fascinated by this face, she smiled, then turned her head, watching the rapidly retreating tall buildings passing by outside the window. Passing a red light, Han Haoxuan stopped the car and stopped humming at the same time, time seemed to stand still for an instant. There is no sound of cars, no noise of people, it seems that there is no sound of any kind, Ruolin feels that the space is too narrow, and it seems that it is difficult to breathe. She doesn't understand why she feels uneasy and nervous when she is alone with Han Haoxuan.Her hands rested on her lap, clenched tightly, a thin layer of sweat seeped out. "You don't seem to be feeling well, do you want to go back and rest?" A pleasant voice passed through the thin air to Ruolin's eardrums. Ruolin froze for a moment, with a slightly flustered expression, smiled unnaturally, and said, "No need." She sat up straight and loosened her tightly held hands. "But you don't look very well." Han Haoxuan said with concern, hesitated for a while, and said, "If you need money urgently, I can lend it to you." "No need. I have already raised the money, thank you for your kindness." "Why do you borrow money from him, but you don't want me to lend you the money?" Han Haoxuan smiled slightly, with a hint of sarcasm in his evoked smile, but a hint of sourness in his tone. "Aren't you jealous?" Ruo Lin couldn't help laughing when she saw Han Haoxuan's expression, it was her freedom to borrow money from anyone, and it was impossible to report to him after borrowing money from others, Ruo Lin couldn't help feeling funny. "Yes." When the green light came on, a rush of car whistles sounded, drowning out the soft reply. Han Haoxuan didn't know if Ruolin had heard it, but when he saw the long queue behind him in the rearview mirror, he slammed on the accelerator. But Ruolin didn't hear the submerged answer clearly, it sounded like a gust of swift wind to Ruolin's ears, but it didn't leave a trace. "What did you just say?" Ruolin asked after the car started. "It's nothing." Han Haoxuan said with an indifferent look, and after a long time, he asked, "The last time you sent out leaflets was also for money?" "For living." Ruo Lin turned her head out of the window and said loudly. "The burden of your family is on your shoulders?" Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin and asked. "..." Ruolin nodded, then turned to Han Haoxuan, looked at him, smiled, and said, "It's nothing, I'm used to it." Ruolin is really used to this kind of life. Since her father left home, all the burdens have been carried by her mother alone, but Ruolin has gradually grown up and become more sensible. , The cost of living is helpless.After the college entrance examination, she started to work part-time. Because her grades were not bad, she helped others teach junior high school Chinese and helped the family share some pressure.After going to college, she even looked for various part-time jobs.I thought that this situation would be relieved after work, but I didn't expect my mother to be seriously ill again... It is said that life can temper people, and Ruolin has become stronger and stronger.Facing difficulties is not to escape, but to face them bravely. "Listen to Xin Yu, your father..." Han Haoxuan didn't know what words to use to continue. When Ruolin heard the word father, her clear eyes suddenly became darker, and she said in a slightly hoarse voice: "What do you know about me, did Xinyu tell you everything?" "No, I didn't tell me much..." Seeing Ruo Lin's dim eyes, Han Haoxuan realized that he had said something wrong, and quickly denied it.In fact, Xin Yu didn't take the initiative to tell him these things, but he only found out when he accidentally asked Xin Yu. "I don't need you to pity me!" Ruo Lin stared at Han Haoxuan with wide eyes, her voice trembling. "I won't pity anyone." Han Haoxuan shrugged his shoulders with an indifferent expression, and then said seriously, "A person as strong as you doesn't need others to pity you. Besides..." Han Haoxuan paused, his tone With a bit of sourness in his heart, he said, "Besides, you are so powerful, you can easily borrow your mother's medical expenses." "..." Ruolin didn't know whether Han Haoxuan's words were praise or derogation, but no matter what he thought, Ruolin didn't want to argue with him now.
When they arrived at the entrance of the tutor's community, Ruolin asked Han Haoxuan to stop the car.When Han Haoxuan wanted to come down to help Ruolin open the door, Ruolin had already poked out half of her head, bent over to get out, but before she was fully out, she suddenly raised her head.If Han Haoxuan hadn't blocked her head with his quick hands, her head would have hit the car. When she felt her head hit the thick palm, a blush suddenly flashed on her face, and she froze for a while before coming out.Standing firm, his face was full of embarrassment, and he smiled awkwardly: "Thank you." Han Haoxuan acted as if nothing had happened, showed a gentle smile, and said, "You're welcome." Ruolin pursed her lips and smiled, then turned around and walked towards the community. Han Haoxuan quietly looked at Ruo Lin's back, and didn't sit back in the car until it melted into the sunlight.He looked down at his hand, the back of his hand was slightly red, and there was a clear mark, which was painful. He loosened and clenched his hand, doing it back and forth a few times, took a long breath, clenched the steering wheel, and drove to distance.
At night, when Han Haoxuan was about to go back to his room when he got home, Xu Ling, who was watching TV, stopped him. "You came back so early, didn't you ask Xinyu out to play?" Xu Ling looked at Han Haoxuan and asked. "Didn't you have dinner with her at noon?" Han Haoxuan replied impatiently. "Why don't you ask her out next time and let your father take a look." Xu Ling turned his head and looked at Han Jianrong beside him. Han Jianrong shifted his gaze to Han Haoxuan, smiled, and said, "I heard from your mother that Xinyu is a pretty girl. I really want to see her." "Let's talk about it next time." Han Haoxuan's expression was indifferent, as if he was perfunctory. "What next time? If you have time, your dad and I will ask her out, and then you have to go too." Xu Ling said. "Your mother is right, let's have dinner together another day," Han Jianrong said. "..." Han Haoxuan didn't speak, turned and went to the bedroom. "Look, this kid." Xu Ling looked helplessly at Han Haoxuan walking away. "It's impossible for him to look down on Xin Yu again?" Han Jianrong said. "Where is that?" Xu Ling retorted, "Xin Yu's family background is good, and she is decent and polite. It is a blessing for any man to marry her. Perhaps Hao Xuan has been busy with work these two days. Bar." "I heard you praised her. I really want to see what my future daughter-in-law will be like soon." Han Jianrong said with a smile on his face.
Xu Ling naturally took Han Jianrong's words to heart, and asked Xin Yu out within a few days. In a star-rated hotel, Xin Yu arrived early, and then went to the bathroom to touch up her makeup. In the mirror, she was dressed dignifiedly, her hair was tied up high, her makeup was exquisite, and she looked elegant. Han Haoxuan's father, Han Jianrong, is a big name in the media industry and quite famous. He took the initiative to meet him, so of course he had to pay more attention to his appearance. After a while, Han Jianrong and his wife also arrived, but Han Haoxuan was nowhere to be seen. Not seeing Han Haoxuan, although Xin Yu felt a little uneasy, it did not affect her speech and demeanor. Xinyu poured wine for Han Jianrong and Xu Ling with an elegant and generous posture. Han Jianrong had a bright smile on his face, nodded frequently, and there was a hint of approval in his eyes. "Uncle, I have admired you for a long time." Xin Yu smiled slightly, "Hanxin Media you run is very good." "Thank you, I'm honored." After Han Jianrong finished speaking, he turned to look at Xu Ling, and the two smiled at each other. Then, he gently leaned into Xu Ling's ear and asked, "Why isn't Haoxuan here? You go?" Give me a call." "Okay." Xu Ling replied in a low voice, said to Xin Yu, "I'm going to the bathroom", and got up to leave his seat. Xu Ling urged Han Haoxuan to come over quickly, saying that he was the only one to be missed when everyone was here, and blamed him a little bit, saying that he was ignorant, and that he should be more proactive in such matters. After Han Haoxuan received the call, he drove to the hotel. He now regrets a little, regretting not stopping his parents' actions.He thought it was just casually said by his parents, but who knew that he actually asked Xin Yu to meet him.
Through the large floor-to-ceiling windows, Han Haoxuan saw the scene of the three sitting together and talking, the soft light shone on them, they were talking and laughing in harmony, making them look very warm.He stood there for a few seconds, hesitant in his heart, but he didn't know what he was hesitating about.Obviously adding him to that picture would make it even more perfect, but he doesn't seem to want to blend in. In the end, he still walked in. He pulled away the empty chair next to Xinyu, and said "I'm sorry" to everyone, counting it as an apology for being late. Xu Ling hurriedly told him to sit down, slightly annoyed, "Why didn't you come here until now?" "There is something wrong with the company, I can't leave." Han Haoxuan said tactfully, he lied without changing his face.其实，他本不想来的，这也是他临时找的借口。 馨语拿起酒瓶帮韩皓轩斟酒，动作温柔娴熟，不失优雅，韩建荣夫妇看在眼里，乐在心里，自始至终脸上都布满了笑容，好像两人对馨语都很满意。 馨语毕竟出身于书香世家，涉及的知识面广，跟长辈们聊起天来，也是滔滔不绝，说话恰到好处。就是旁边的韩皓轩话倒不是很多，偶尔附和地笑笑，或是一个人独自饮酒，眼睛里有一丝落寞，而他们却都没有察觉到。 看似很美好的画面，却有一个人的莫名情绪在暗暗涌动。
回到家，许凌开始说韩皓轩，怪他为什么那么晚才来，还要她催。他明明是知道吃饭时间的，还不赶紧过来。许凌何其聪明，又怎么会不知道自己的儿子刚才是在说谎呢。 “不是说了吗，公司里有点事。”韩皓轩依旧一口咬定刚才那个借口。 “你想什么，妈还不知道吗？”许凌似乎摸透了儿子的心思般。但，她儿子到底在想些什么，她并不知道。 “妈，我有些累了，想先回房休息了。”韩皓轩找个理由不想再听许凌唠叨下去，该做什么，他自有主张。 “人家馨语那么好，难道你还有什么不满意的吗？”许凌真不知道儿子成天在想些什么，以前找不到合适的对象也就罢了，找到了吧，开始时还很欢喜现在却又不太乐意的样子。 “馨语确实是个好女孩。”韩建荣插进话来。 “我知道，我并没有说对她不满意。”韩皓轩看了看他们俩，说道。 “那你还迟到，对别人是不礼貌的，下次可别再这样了啊。”许凌松了口气，用教导的口吻说道。 韩皓轩只管点头说好。 韩皓轩回到卧室后，静静地站在窗前，拿出一支烟，点燃，猩红色的微光在昏暗的卧室里骤然亮起。 他的眉头微微皱起，深吸了一口烟，然后，慢慢地吐出一个白色的眼圈，烟雾缭绕，使得他看外面的夜景都不太真切。 如果，当初若琳没有替馨语相亲，也许，一切都简单明了了。 但，有些事，仿佛上天注定一般，遇上了就不知该如何忘记，只能继续追寻。
馨语的心情恰恰跟韩皓轩相反，她回到家，就迫不及待地给若琳电话，现在她的心情比任何时候都要好。 都说要想走向成功的婚姻，对方父母的认可占据着很大比重。让韩皓轩的父母满意绝对是一件值得馨语开心的事。 馨语兴冲冲地把晚上和韩皓轩父母一起就餐的事情以及他们对她的满意程度都跟若琳说了一遍，声音里有着无法掩饰的喜悦。 此时，若琳刚刚结束了饭店的兼职工作，正在回家的公交车上。她对馨语表示了衷心的祝贺，心里却有一股莫名的失落，但这样的情绪也只是匆匆地来又匆匆地去。 若琳把头倚在窗边，只觉得身心俱疲，微微闭上眼，任思维静止，一片空白。
馨语的电话刚挂断不久，若琳的手机再次响了起来。 她的心突然揪紧，不会是韩皓轩打来的吧？是告诉她馨语已经成功打动他父母要她向他祝贺，还是告诉她其实他还是放不下她？ 无论哪一种，她都不太愿意听到，因为都会让她为难。
不过，还是若琳多心了，这时候打来电话的并非韩皓轩，而是穆景言。若琳这才松了一口气。 从B市回到D市后，穆景言也曾给若琳打过几通电话，多是就若琳母亲的病情问候几句，再者，就是让注意身体之类的寒暄。 每次接到穆景言的电话，若琳还是很开心的，不仅因为他是她喜欢过的人，更因为在异乡，大家能够彼此照应着，也感觉挺窝心的。
“这么晚打电话给你，没打扰到你吧？”穆景言的声音一贯的温柔亲切。 “没有没有，我还在公交车上。” “啊，还没回家吗？”穆景言感到有些吃惊，现在是周六晚上十点，他以为她正在家里休息，“那你现在方便接电话吗？” “没关系，现在车上人少，不太吵，有什么事情你直接说吧。” “哦，也没什么事，就是想问问你，关于租房子的事情。我想要重新租个房子，不知道你有没有这方面的信息。”穆景言不紧不慢地说道。 “你们单位不是安排好员工宿舍了吗？为什么还要另外租房子呢？”若琳有些不解地问。 “因为公司租的这套房子附近晚上都会连夜施工，吵得人睡不着觉，所以打算换个房子。”真正的理由穆景言并不想说，因为那对于他来说，有些难以启齿。
事实上，穆景言打算换房子完全拜他的新同事周宁所赐。 周宁这家伙总时不时带女孩子回来过夜，而这套两居室的隔音效果并不理想，穆景言总能听到隔壁传来的放荡的呻吟声。 偶尔，穆景言半夜起来上卫生间，经过客厅时，还冷不丁被吓到过。 客厅里的光线并不好，那个长发女孩子就站在冰箱前面，只着一件男式T恤，两条修长的腿就那样肆无忌惮地露在外面，然后冲着穆景言无邪地笑笑：“Hi，帅哥，上厕所啊？” 而彼时的穆景言是刚刚睡了一觉醒来的，头脑还有点不清醒，就很容易被吓到。 他瞥一眼那女孩，然后目光迅速收回，尴尬地回应：“嗯。” 甚至，进了卫生间，他还要等上一会儿，直到听见那女孩进入房间关上房门之后，才开了排风扇，然后放心大胆地干正事儿。 他曾试着跟周宁商议能否以后不要带女孩子回来，周宁一开始倒真的老实了几天，不过没几日，老毛病复发，又把那个女孩子带回来了。 更让穆景言受不了的是，那女孩后来见到他就冲他使劲抛媚眼。
But that's not the worst.让穆景言下定决心一定要搬家的原因是昨天晚上发生的一件事情！ 昨天晚上，周宁又将那个女孩子带回家了。 穆景言正睡得迷糊，突然感觉有双手在自己身上游走，他陡然惊醒。 刚想动作，就有一根手指按在了他的唇上：“嘘，不要动。” what happened?家里有强盗了？不过这个强盗的声音怎么那么轻柔？女强盗？ 穆景言一边纳闷一边伸手按了床边的台灯。 灯一亮，穆景言马上被眼前的景象吓到了。 这难道是自己在做噩梦吗？ 灯光下，只见一个女孩赤裸着身体，半跪在他的旁边，长长的头发垂在肩上，皮肤很白，眼睛睁得大大地望着穆景言。 此情此景，穆景言并没有觉得秀色可餐，反而差点被吓傻了。 眼前这个浑身赤裸的女孩不就是周宁带回来的那个女孩吗？她何时爬上了他的床的？他怎么一点都不知道？ 回想了半天，穆景言才想起自己半夜起来上过一趟厕所，后来可能忘记关房门了。 穆景言紧张地看了看自己，还好，自己仍旧穿着短裤。
“我喜欢你。”那个女孩轻轻吐出这句话，完全是冲着穆景言说的。 “啊？”穆景言几乎没反应过来。这个女孩，他尚不知道她的名字，竟然对着他说喜欢？ “我说，我喜欢你，你就这么无动于衷吗？”说完，女孩轻声笑了，然后伸手去抚摸穆景言的脸，“你长得真好看，让人忍不住想要接近。” 穆景言连忙翻身下床，然后拿起一旁的浴袍匆忙穿上，对那个女孩义正词严地说：“你不要胡闹啊！不然我就不客气了。” “我哪有胡闹。我要是真胡闹起来，吃亏的人可是你。你说，我如果说你非礼我，周宁会不会相信？警察会不会相信？”女孩嘴角露出一抹狡黠的笑容。 这个笑容让穆景言忍不住打了个冷战。这个女孩看上去顶多二十岁，心机却如此重。
“你到底想要什么？要多少钱？”穆景言说着就去翻自己的钱包。 “我不要钱，我要你。”那个女孩已经下了床，走向穆景言，从他背后将他抱住。 穆景言使劲挣脱她，十分生气地说：“你怎么能如此放肆？别以为你是女孩子，我就不能拿你怎么样。” “那你能拿我怎么样啊？”那女孩已经绕到穆景言的面前，故意将自己的身体暴露在他的视线范围之内，然后挑衅地望着他说。 说实话，穆景言从来没遇到过这样的情况，再说，他又能拿一个小姑娘怎么样。她说得对，他要是真告诉周宁，她主动跑到他房间来，然后勾引他，谁会信？周宁是愿意相信缠绵数日的小女朋友还是愿意相信共事不到三个月的新同事？ 在这个问题上，穆景言还真没有什么信心。
“你究竟想要做什么？”沉默了半晌，穆景言认命般地问她。 “不会太为难你，只要你抱着我睡一会儿，好不好？”那女孩脸上突然出现一种悲凄的色彩。 “能不能换个别的要求？”穆景言听得起了一身鸡皮疙瘩。 “我真怀疑你是不是性取向有问题，有女孩子主动投怀送抱，你还不要吗？你到底是不是男人啊！” “……”穆景言对她简直无语了。 “那你就抱我一下，就一下，好不好？”那女孩竖起一根手指说，眼睛里透着真诚。 面对如此艳遇，穆景言却只是一边摇头，一边蹙起眉头。 “如果你只是渴求一个拥抱，为什么不去找周宁索取？”穆景言质问。 “我不喜欢他，我喜欢你。”那女孩十分坦然地说。 “不喜欢他为什么要跟他回家，还跟他……”穆景言说不下去了。 “还跟他上床？”那女孩替穆景言说完，然后笑着问，“怎么？难道你吃醋了吗？” “……怎么会？我已经有别的喜欢的人了。请你自重。”穆景言觉得这女孩有些不可理喻了。 “想知道我为什么不喜欢他却要跟他回家吗？”那女孩问。 穆景言耸耸肩：“你的事情，我并不感兴趣。” “那好，你抱我一下。”说完，那女孩就不管不顾地往穆景言的怀里钻。 可恨的是，穆景言不能将她推开，因为她贴在他的胸前悄声说：“你不要动，你再动，我就要叫了。” 面对如此耍赖皮又蛮横无礼的女孩，穆景言不能奈她何，真正的敢怒不敢言。 女孩的身体很柔软，身上有一股幽香，穆景言紧张得不敢呼吸。 良久，那女孩才松开环抱着穆景言的手，说了一句：“谢谢。”眼眶里还闪着晶莹的泪。
“现在你可以回去了吧？”穆景言冷声说道。 那女孩拾起地上的男式T恤，娴熟地往身上一套，然后走了出去。 听到门被关上的声音，穆景言这才得以呼吸新鲜的空气。
这样离谱的事情发生在穆景言身上，他当然迫切希望重新租套房子啦！ 他之所以想到给若琳打电话，因为她毕竟在D市待过几年，而且又在媒体工作，对找房子肯定比他在行。 “那我帮你打听打听吧。”对于曾帮过若琳大忙的穆景言，找房子这点事情她自然义不容辞地揽了下来，她像是突然想起了什么似的说道，“对了，我在我现在住的那个小区门口看到过租房启事，那个小区挺安静的，交通也方便，好像离你们单位也不是很远。要不，我帮你去问问？” “好啊，那再好不过了。”如果真的能够成为若琳的邻居，穆景言自然求之不得。这样一来，他俩接触的机会就多了。想到这里，一向淡定的穆景言忍不住暗地里沾沾自喜。 都说近水楼台先得月，不知道这句话会不会在他身上得到应验。
若琳当天晚上就去小区门口看了那份租房启事，然后将房东的电话记了下来，第二天一早就给房东拨了过去。 房东是个和气的中年妇女，听了若琳的来意，便开门见山地说，最低每个月一千五百元，押一付三。当然还要见了房客再决定租不租。 这年头，找工作难，租房子也难，这不，租房子还要面试呢！ 不过房租实在让若琳不敢恭维，怎么这么贵啊？还好，她的房东是馨语的同事，不然她可真住不起现在的房子。
不过，这种面试对穆景言来说自然是小菜一碟。他不仅长相出众，而且有轻微洁癖，最爱干净整洁。所以房东阿姨一看见房客是个清清爽爽的帅小伙，二话不说，当即就同意将房子租给他，并且马上签下了合同。 不过，房东临走时却闹了点小乌龙，房东太太拍拍穆景言的肩膀说：“你和你女朋友真般配，郎才女貌的。你女朋友也很体贴，找房子这么琐碎的事情都愿意承担，将来一定是个好太太。” 简单的几句话，却让穆景言和若琳两人同时红了脸。
房东走后，屋里的气氛有一瞬间的尴尬。 “你什么时候搬家？要不要我帮你收拾？”若琳打破沉默问道。 “我今天就搬过来。”那女孩虽然那天之后没来过员工宿舍，但穆景言害怕那天的情景再现，想要尽快逃离那犹如虎穴的地方。 “啊？这么快。”若琳感到有些吃惊。 “是啊，能够跟你做邻居，我当然希望越快越好。”穆景言笑道，左脸的小酒窝依旧迷人。 若琳看着他的笑容，突然说不出话来。曾几何时，她就是被他这样可爱又迷人的笑容迷倒的啊！他那个小小的酒窝犹如芳香醇正的美酒，她曾甘愿沉醉其中，不能自已。 “看什么？”那张笑脸渐渐放大，穆景言靠近若琳。 “呃……没什么。”若琳仿佛又找到了暗恋时的那份感觉，心乱如麻，脸颊发烫。她慌忙退后一步，说，“既然今天就要搬家，我帮你打电话联系搬家公司。” “有你这样的朋友真好，什么事情都帮我考虑周到了。” “哪里哪里，应该的。”若琳边说边拿出手机找寻搬家公司的电话。 望着若琳殷红的脸颊，穆景言想，倘若，她真的能成为他的太太，多好！
某天中午，若琳因为外出采访结束，刚好路过D大，便打算去图书馆看看有没有新书上架。 她对这学校自然熟悉得不能再熟悉了，轻车熟路地往图书馆的方向走去。 她每隔一段时间就会来学校一趟，借几本书，给自己冲充充电，还可以省去不少买书的钱。她的借书证早就过期了，幸好馨语留校任教，借书也就方便多了，只要她借了按时还，一切都没问题。 进了图书馆，若琳在一排排书架中寻找自己喜欢的书，她正随意地翻看着一本书，忽然被里面的情节迷住了，不由得蹲下身，轻轻地靠在书架上，看了起来。样子极其认真，大概已沉浸其中了。 不知过了多久，突然有人轻轻地拍了若琳的肩膀一下，沉迷在故事里的若琳被那人突如其来的动作吓了一大跳，书陡然落地，发出“咚”的一声闷响，她的心剧烈地跳了一下，仿佛下一刻就要冒到嗓子眼了。她猛地一抬头，看到了一张熟悉而又陌生的脸庞。自那次三人见面后，两人就没再见过面，他的头发已剪得有点短了，整个人显得更加精神焕发。 她抚了抚胸口，捡起地上的书，刚想站起来时才发觉自己的腿竟有些麻了，快速站起的同时免不了趔趄了一下，身子歪向一边。 这时，韩皓轩轻轻地扶住若琳，握着她的手臂，手上稍稍施加了些许力道，以稳住若琳的重心。韩皓轩感受到若琳手臂的滑腻，如同瓷器般。 他不知道下一秒她会不会放开他的手，但他却要守住此刻的温暖，哪怕仅仅是短暂的一瞬。 若琳微倚在身后的书架上，过了会儿才回过神来，低头看着韩皓轩还搭在她胳膊上的手，脸顿时红了。他手掌上的温度将她轻轻覆盖，如同电流般，不只是传到手臂上，似乎还渗入到了心底，在心底升起一股莫名的暖流。 这次，若琳没有像第一次韩皓轩牵她手时甩开，而是轻轻地抽回了被他握住的手臂。当离开有些熟悉的温暖时，她心中的暖流顿时消失，又恢复了往日正常的温度。 若琳尴尬地望着韩皓轩，嘴角勉强露出一抹笑，说：“谢谢。” 若琳不知道除了跟他说谢谢还能说些什么，有时，她觉得她跟他说话客套得像个陌生人。 “……”韩皓轩只是笑了笑，样子看上去很温柔，眼眸深沉。 “我们出去吧。”若琳提议，她知道在图书馆是不好讲话的，怕影响别人。 “好的。”韩皓轩点了点头。
走出图书馆，若琳疑惑地问：“你怎么会在这里？” “馨语约了我在附近的饭店吃饭，我来早了，她还在上课。我在她办公室闲着无聊就出来了，路过这里，进来随便看看的，没想到就遇上你了。”韩皓轩说道。 “真巧。”若琳耸了耸肩，微微笑道。 “这叫做缘分。”韩皓轩似笑非笑道。 “……”若琳不置可否，抬头看了看韩皓轩，说，“你跟馨语的事定下来了吧，祝福你们。” 韩皓轩的眉头突然皱起，想了会儿，才慢慢舒展眉头，问：“难道你一点也不在意？” “……”若琳听得出他的话半真半假，但却一下子愣住了，许久，才摆出一副再自然不过的神情望着韩皓轩，说，“我为什么要在意，高兴还来不及呢，以后一定要让馨语好好管一下你，看你以后说话还正不正经。” “……”韩皓轩笑了起来，他什么时候没有正经过，只是，若琳无法将他摸透。顶着大大的太阳，韩皓轩觉得后背都被照得滚烫，转过头，跟若琳说：“要不，待会儿你也一起去吧。” “我才不打扰你们的美餐呢！”若琳不屑地说。 “那下次我单独请你吧。”韩皓轩温和地说道。 “谢了，你别费心了，我这些天都挺忙的。”若琳连忙谢绝他的好意。 两人一路走一路说，很快，就到了分岔的路口。若琳要直接去单位，韩皓轩要去馨语的办公室，两人便在路口告别，仍然只说着普通的告别语。 分开的路口，韩皓轩默默地望着被阳光笼罩着的若琳。她周身仿佛被镀上了一层金纱，看得人有些晃眼，直至那个背影完全消失，只留下一地寂静的阳光时，韩皓轩才悄然离开。眼睛里盛有一丝淡淡的哀愁。 他一直在努力忘记若琳，所以才这么积极地配合馨语和父母，因为他本以为若琳跟别的女朋友没什么区别，离开了就离开了，随着时间的流逝终究会淡忘。 跟安茜谈了三年的感情，最终仍旧能够忘记，何况才见过几次面，并没有深交的若琳呢？韩皓轩曾不止一次这样说服自己。 然而，每次见到若琳，他的心就不由自主地想要靠近她。
中午跟馨语一起吃饭时，韩皓轩的情绪并不太好，不过，该应答的时候还是得说上几句。刚才在图书馆见到若琳的事，他并没有提及。 馨语奇怪两人一起约会也有好几次了，几乎都是她约他，而韩皓轩却没有几次主动的。还有
The corridor outside the operating room was so quiet that it felt suffocating. Ruolin's palms were already wet with sweat, she leaned on the bench, her brows were slightly frowned, and her face was full of uneasiness. Suddenly, a slender and warm hand reached out and held her somewhat helpless hand.Only Mu Jingyan's voice was heard: "With me by my side, don't be afraid. Nothing will happen." Ruolin didn't dodge, but leaned weakly on Mu Jingyan's shoulder.She was tired, really tired. Even though the hospital was filled with the strong smell of Lysol, Ruolin could still smell the faint mint smell from Mu Jingyan's body, like the smell of bath milk. This man she had been secretly in love with for a long time, seemed to have matured, yet didn't seem to have changed. At a certain moment, she couldn't help but think of the past when she was moved by him.
It was a very long wait, as long as a century. Finally, the door of the operating room opened, and the chief surgeon came out. As soon as she took off her mask, Ruolin rushed up and asked, "Doctor, how is my mother?" "Very well, everything went well." A big stone that had been hanging in Ruolin's heart fell to the ground.However, she just heard the doctor say that, and then she couldn't hear anything.Because her eyes were blackened and she passed out on the ground.
When she woke up, Ruolin found herself lying on the hospital bed, surrounded by white flowers.what happened?The one lying on the hospital bed should be my mother, how could it be me? Ruo Lin was about to get up when someone held her down. "You're still on the infusion, don't move around." Mu Jingyan said softly while stopping Ruolin from sitting up. "How is my mother's situation now?" Ruolin asked eagerly. "It's fine. Ruowen and Aunt Sun are taking care of her, so don't worry. Take care of yourself first." "What's wrong with me?" Ruo Lin looked at the infusion tube in puzzlement. "You passed out suddenly just now. The doctor said it was lack of sleep, too much pressure, and overwork. Get some fluids and rest well and you'll be fine." "This time... I have troubled you too much." Ruo Lin looked up at Mu Jingyan's face and said gratefully. "You are too polite, we have known each other for how many years!" "The matter of the operation fee..." Ruo Lin wanted to say that it might take a long time to pay back the operation fee. "I'm not in a hurry, you pay it back slowly. A large part of it is the money my parents left me for my marriage, and I haven't thought about getting married yet. So just pay me back before I get married." Mu Jing Yan hurriedly interrupted Ruo Lin's words. "This...how is this so embarrassing? Isn't this delaying your lifelong event? And bring the money you plan to get married..." Ruo Lin felt a little tangled in her heart. "I'm still young, and I'm not in a hurry to get married now. Besides...even if I want to get married, I won't be able to find a suitable partner for a while!" ah?Does he not have a girlfriend now?Who was that girl he led at the party last year?Have the two already broken up?Or had she misunderstood him and that girl wasn't his girlfriend at all? However, whether he has a girlfriend should not be her concern.It's just that she didn't want to delay his marriage by herself. If he couldn't get married because of his lack of money, it would be her fault. I don't want to, just redouble my efforts to make money and pay him back after taking care of my body.
Zhou Li's operation was successful, her body gradually improved, and her face became rosy. Ruolin can finally leave here with peace of mind and return to City D. The editor-in-chief of the magazine called twice, under the pretense of greeting Ruolin's mother, but actually urging her when she could go back to work.I can't blame the editor-in-chief. After all, she has been on vacation for two weeks, and she has indeed delayed a lot of work. Han Haoxuan hasn't written a single word of the interview.After finally being promoted from a process editor to a columnist for the brand column, I should have worked harder to be worthy of the editor-in-chief's trust. Coincidentally, the day she went back was also the day Mu Jingyan returned to City D.The two just fit together.
In fact, Mu Jingyan's work had already been done, and he could have left earlier, but he was worried about Ruo Lin's health on the way, so he asked for a few days' leave with his unit, planning to leave with Ruo Lin. He originally wanted to buy two air tickets, but he knew Ruolin's personality, so he decided against it.If he helped her bear the travel expenses, she would definitely not want to; if she had to bear the travel expenses by herself, given her current situation, it seemed a bit extravagant. So, he consulted Ruo Lin and bought two train tickets with adjacent seats.
In the evening, Ruo Lin and Mu Jingyan boarded the train bound for D City. The sky outside the car window gradually darkened, and Ruolin's drowsiness also came over her. During this period of time, she was really exhausted. She stayed by her mother's side for several nights. Her mother advised her to go back, but she was afraid that her mother would not be able to find help from others at night, so she refused to go back. She stayed by her mother's side, although she was tired. Some, but she felt that for her mother, it was worth doing anything. She closed the curtains and leaned her head gently against the curtains.With her eyes slightly closed, she fell asleep unconsciously, looking like a well-behaved child.
After an unknown amount of time, Ruolin woke up from the cold, and the air conditioner in the carriage was too strong. She opened her eyes slightly, only to find that she was leaning on Mu Jingyan's shoulder! She didn't know if he was asleep, but just leaned against the seat motionless.She didn't dare to move, for fear of waking him up, how embarrassing it would be.Although she also stayed on his broad shoulders for a while when my mother was undergoing surgery, the situation at that time was different from the current situation after all. Her right arm was gently pressed against his left arm, and she could feel the temperature on his arm, unlike her cold arm, his arm exuded a trace of heat.She had never been so close to him, and her heart began to fluster and pound.She could smell the faint scent of peppermint emanating from him. She could imagine that their posture leaning together should be very ambiguous, like a couple.Thinking of this, her face turned red.Fortunately, now there are only small lights by the window left in the car, which looks a little dim. The air-conditioning in the car continuously radiated out, Ruolin couldn't help shivering, this action startled her, thinking it would wake Mu Jingyan up, but luckily it didn't. She held her breath, and slowly moved her head away from his shoulder, moving very lightly, then moved her arm little by little, and finally, she left that warm place.She let out a long breath, suppressing her nervous heart. Then, she raised her eyes slightly and looked at Mu Jingyan next to him. He was sleeping with a peaceful expression.Ruolin's tense heart slowly relaxed. She looked at him carefully: his brows are clear, his skin is as moist as jade, his eyelashes are black, his nose bridge is straight, his lips are thin, his face is illuminated by the dim light, it looks a little unreal, so handsome, like a beautiful ink painting . She had never looked at him so closely before.Maybe she dared to look at him so blatantly only when he was asleep. The man who moved her heart for the first time, even though it has been so long, looking at him now, she still feels an inexplicable warm emotion flowing in her heart.
She gently opened the curtain next to her. It was pitch black outside, and there were sporadic lights flickering in the distance. She guessed it was late at night.She didn't sleep well, and her neck was a little sore, so she rubbed it with her hands. Now she dare not sleep, fearing that the situation just now will happen again. She still remembered that she was leaning against the curtain before going to bed, but why did she lean on Mu Jingyan's shoulder when she woke up?I feel a little inexplicable. She wanted to hang on until dawn like that, but looking at the dark night and the little lights outside, her eyelids started to fight again, her upper eyelids became heavy, and her body could not help but lean towards the window, and finally leaned against the window under the force of gravity. on the curtain.
The train was jolting a little while it was running, and it made people shake a little bit.Ruolin's head leaning against the curtains began to lean towards Mu Jingyan's side, and then leaned towards the curtains, just shaking slightly from side to side, giving the impression that she was very tired from sleep. Seeing that she was sleeping uncomfortably, Mu Jingyan gently leaned her head on his shoulder again. In fact, Mu Jingyan didn't fall asleep, he was always in a state of half asleep and half awake in such a disturbed situation.When he saw Ruolin sleeping so tired, he had an urge to lend her a shoulder, but he was hesitant.In the end, seeing her was really tiring, I couldn't bear it, and even felt a little distressed.In order to let her sleep more comfortably, he still did that. The first time he leaned Ruolin's body against him, Mu Jingyan's heart was extremely tense, and he tried his best to restrain his beating heart so that he could quietly let Ruolin lean on his shoulder.At that time, he was extremely afraid that Ruolin would wake up, and he didn't know how Ruolin would misunderstand him. Fortunately, everything was done very carefully and nothing went wrong. When Ruolin leaned on his shoulder again, the tension in his heart was also reduced a lot. When Ruolin slowly moved away from him just now, he noticed it, but he pretended that he was still asleep. He could feel the slight movement of Ruolin when she moved away. All he could do was to close his eyes and let Ruolin Lin Weiliang's arms left her. At this time, Ruolin, who was leaning on his shoulder, fell asleep peacefully, and seemed to be sleeping soundly, breathing evenly.The fair skin was shrouded in dim light, making it look even more charming. Mu Jingyan lowered his eyes slightly, looking at Ruolin on his shoulder, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.
When Ruolin woke up again, she was already leaning against the curtains. She rubbed her sleepy eyes, looked at the gradually brightening sky outside the window, and asked Mu Jingyan next to her, "Is it almost time to stop?" "Yeah." Mu Jingyan replied softly, he turned his head to look at Ruolin, her face was not too ugly, she probably slept well last night, he secretly smiled in his heart. Mu Jingyan didn't mention the matter of relying on each other to sleep the whole night, and Ruolin didn't mention it either, so they pretended it never happened.Just a small episode that happened during the journey.
After Ruolin returned to City D, besides working hard, she was still working one part-time job after another.The mother's surgery fee was scraped together, but paying back the money became a huge task on her shoulders, and she had to consume her physical strength day and night. One night, as soon as Ruolin came home from the restaurant where she worked, she received a call from Xinyu. "Ruo Lin, are you asleep?" Xin Yu asked. "No, I just got home." Ruo Lin said weakly, then sat down on the sofa, casually throwing the bag aside. "Why did you come home so late?" Xin Yu didn't know about Ruo Lin's hard work. "I just came back from the hotel." Ruo Lin felt that her hands holding the phone had lost the slightest strength, and she felt exhausted after a day of overloaded work. "You won't go back to the past, will you?" Xin Yu said with a slightly raised voice.There was a time when Ruolin’s younger sister was about to start school, and the family needed money. In order to earn money as soon as possible, Ruolin finished classes during the day and worked part-time at night, not to mention Saturdays and Sundays. I feel bad. "Fortunately, the neck is a little sore, the waist is a little sore, and the other parts are still functioning normally." Ruolin said while twisting her neck when she knew what Xin Yu was talking about. "You, you always don't take your body seriously." Xin Yu reprimanded slightly, and then said softly, "You don't have to rush to pay back my money, wait until you have money." "It's okay, I'm full of energy." Ruo Lin smiled, as if she didn't care. "The body is the capital of the revolution. If you work so hard, you are destroying your own body!" Xin Yu almost "hated iron for not being steel". "No way." Ruo Lin retorted softly.She herself didn't know that she wasn't destroying her body like this, but she couldn't sleep well when she owed money to others, and she wanted to pay back the money as soon as possible. "How long do you work in a day, when I see you, don't look listless, and be healthy." Xin Yu said helplessly. "Since when have I been unhealthy? I'm in good health." Ruolin insisted.Obviously, not long ago, he passed out due to being too tired to take care of his mother, but now the scar is healed and the pain is forgotten. "Oh, by the way..." Xin Yu said as if she suddenly remembered something, "This Saturday, take some time." "What's the matter?" Ruolin asked. "Han Haoxuan invited the two of us out for dinner." Xin Yu replied. When Han Haoxuan made this suggestion, Xin Yu had some concerns, but Han Haoxuan said that Ruolin's interview with him and his friend Qin Tianyi was very good, and I should thank them.The reason was so high-sounding, Xin Yu felt that if she disagreed, she would be too petty.Maybe he didn't have any intentions towards Ruo Lin, he just wanted to invite her to dinner as a thank you. "Dining together?" Ruo Lin asked suspiciously. "En." Xin Yu replied softly, paused for a while, and continued, "He asked me out and asked me to bring you along. He said he wanted to thank you for helping him and his good friends write interviews. " "He wants me to be the light bulb for you two?" Ruo Lin changed a comfortable position and lay down on the sofa, with a smile in her tone, she added, "It's still a high-brightness incandescent lamp." "I feel the same way. At first I thought so too, but now I don't." Xin Yu couldn't help smiling and said. "Then what do you think?" Ruolin asked. "Since we are all friends, why can't we meet?" Xin Yu pretended to be relaxed and said, "Besides, he should ask about your situation. After all, you have met three times, and he has a good impression of you. He always I can't just forget you as a stranger. More importantly, you are still my best friend, and he can't forget it even more. Doesn't he naturally think of you when he sees me? Besides, he The second is to thank you specially, so if I invite you to dinner, you can't refuse someone's kindness, right?" "But..." Ruo Lin hesitated, not knowing what to say.Maybe she was thinking too much, Han Haoxuan called her to contact him, maybe it was just because of a friend, and why the person he said to cherish must be her.This time he was able to ask her out because of Xin Yu's favor. Thinking of this, Ruo Lin couldn't help showing a self-deprecating smile, and said, "You guys should go on your own, I also have to work on weekends." "He emphasized to me that you must go." Xinyu conveyed Han Haoxuan's words, thought for a while, and said, "You are all my friends, this is really embarrassing for me." "Xin Yu..." Ruo Lin was about to say something when she was interrupted by Xin Yu and said, "It's just a meal, so you don't have to think about it so much. I haven't thought about it yet." "Alright then." Ruo Lin knew that if she continued to argue, Xin Yu would tell her a lot of things, she might as well obediently agree to her now. Ruo Lin understood what Xin Yu said just now.If you are going to meet a simple friend, it is better not to shirk again and again. Before going to bed, Ruo Lin was holding the pendant Han Haoxuan gave her in her hand, with complicated expressions on her face and slightly frowned brows.She unconsciously thought of what happened in the box last time, and her face couldn't help being hot. She hurriedly stood by the window, letting the wind blow on her face as much as she wanted, trying to wake herself up.She knew that now she could no longer have those thoughts, it was just Han Haoxuan's behavior when he was drunk.She hurriedly put the pendant back into the drawer and closed it heavily, as if closing all her memories of him.
On Saturday, Ruolin was going to help a little girl with her homework, so she hurried to the place Xin Yu told her during lunch time. She came quite early, so she found a seat by the window and sat down.After waiting for a while, Han Haoxuan came. Ruolin couldn't remember how long it had been since she saw him, it always felt like a long time had passed, but in fact it was less than half a month.He is still handsome, with a gentle smile and elegant posture. Excluding his occasional lip service, he is definitely a gentleman with a noble temperament. Han Haoxuan was very happy to see Ruo Lin, a nice smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, but he said in a slightly rusty tone, "Long time no see." At this moment, Ruolin was a little nervous, her hands were placed on her lap unnaturally, with a look of embarrassment. "Is your mother's situation better now?" Han Haoxuan found a topic and asked with concern. "I've had surgery, and it's relatively successful. I've been discharged from the hospital now. Thank you for your concern." Ruolin's answer was even more polite. "I think, I should find some time to visit my aunt." Han Haoxuan said casually. "What?" Ruo Lin thought she had heard wrong, and stared blankly at Han Haoxuan. "Why do you always look nervous when I say something? You don't think it's because you care about me?" Han Haoxuan jokingly said as he brought his face closer to Ruolin who was opposite. "Who cares about you." Ruo Lin rolled her eyes at him, and said with a serious expression, "Don't ever say such things to me again." "My words don't seem too much, right?" Han Haoxuan sat up straight with an innocent expression on his face. Ruolin felt that the person in front of her was really unfathomable, there was a smile hidden in the dark eyes, but it was so unpredictable that she couldn't see his inner thoughts clearly.She always felt that his words were erratic, and she didn't know which sentence was true and which sentence was false.
When Xinyu came, they sat peacefully, only seeing Han Haoxuan talking, and Ruolin occasionally answering a few words.Because what Han Haoxuan said was almost all his knowledge and experience in foreign countries, but Ruolin knew nothing about them.Even if Han Haoxuan changed the subject, Ruolin didn't know what to say to be the best answer, so Ruolin mostly remained silent. "What are you talking about?" Xin Yu asked while pulling up a chair, and sat down beside Ruo Lin. "Ask her about her work." Han Haoxuan smiled, then took a sip from the water glass in front of him, looking very leisurely.In fact, he told Ruolin about his overseas affairs just to let Ruolin know more about him. "Oh, she is a workaholic." Xin Yu smiled and said, paused for a while, pointed to the dark circles around Ruo Lin's eyes, and said, "No, the dark circles are all out, usually I really don't pay attention to the balance between work and rest." There was a slight reproach in the tone but a hint of concern. "It's not as exaggerated as what you said." Ruo Lin said indifferently. "Look at your appearance, do you know what it looks like?" Han Haoxuan said with a smile on his lips, "Looks like a very listless national treasure." "..." Ruo Lin glared at Han Haoxuan, not arguing with him.
Next, Xinyu started chatting with Han Haoxuan. The two seemed to have endless words to say, but Ruolin knew very little about what they were talking about, so she couldn't intervene, so she just sat aside and remained silent. The two of them kept talking, chatting very happily, and didn't even think about ordering food. Ruolin was anxious at the side, she still had something to do in the afternoon.They didn't seem to pay attention to her, they left her aside, Ruolin couldn't interrupt them well, she felt a little depressed, she was like an outsider, ignored by the two of them like air. Ruo Lin felt a little blocked in her heart, she knew she wouldn't come, but now it's too late to regret.Who told Xin Yu to be a guy who forgets friends when he sees sex? She looked at the vehicles outside the window with a dejected expression, one after another passing by her eyes, like a flowing landscape.Even so, she still couldn't completely place herself in the busy scenery outside.Their chatter and laughter echoed in her ears, and her mood suddenly became very depressed.
"Ruolin, look at you, why don't you look very happy?" Xin Yu turned her head just in time to see Ruolin's silent expression, disconsolate, thinking that she had suffered some kind of grievance.Then, she said angrily, "Did your elder brother Mu make you angry?" Xin Yu had such a happy chat with her sweetheart, how could she care about Ruolin, let alone understand Ruolin's situation at the moment? I thought about it. "No..." A trace of uneasiness flashed across Ruo Lin's face, and she hurriedly wanted to interrupt Xin Yu's words, but she was interrupted by Xin Yu's straightforward words, with a look of surprise on her face, and said: "He won't be here right now. Do you want money?" "Xin Yu..." Ruo Lin tugged at the corner of Xin Yu's clothes under the table, she cried out inwardly, it was all because of her expression! She didn't want Han Haoxuan to know these things, and she didn't want him to know that she was heavily in debt. It wasn't because of her face, but because of her self-esteem. Xin Yu saw the anxiety in Ruo Lin's eyes, and seemed to be telling her, stop talking.Xinyu thought for a while, then smiled suddenly, looked at Han Haoxuan, changed the subject, and said, "How is the company's operation these few days?" "Very good." Han Haoxuan replied politely.What Xin Yu and Ruo Lin said just now made him feel inexplicable, what about Brother Mu, why do you want money.After a while, he looked up at Xin Yu with his good-looking eyes, and asked, "Who is Brother Mu you mentioned just now? What money did he ask Ruolin for?" "Brother Mu is the Prince Charming in her heart, why do you want money..." Xinyu, who is usually eloquent, faltered for a long time, trying to find an excuse but couldn't think of it for a while.She knew that Ruolin was a woman with strong self-esteem, she refused to show weakness in front of others. "My mother was sick and needed a sum of money, and I borrowed part of it from him." Ruo Lin looked at Han Haoxuan steadily, her eyes were extremely calm, and there was no trace of timidity on her delicate face.She said it, but she felt much more comfortable. "Oh..." Han Haoxuan seemed to understand everything, and nodded understandingly. Han Haoxuan lowered his eyes slightly, and subconsciously turned the water glass in his hand, with a smile on his lips, which was unclear. "Then how are they doing now?" Han Haoxuan withdrew the smile from the corner of his mouth, and looked at Xin Yu seriously. "This time Ruolin saw him when I went home. I don't know if she has confessed to him. She has been secretly in love with him for many years. This girl..." Xin Yu said quickly. "Hurry up and order, I have to rush to teach others in the afternoon." Ruolin interrupted Xin Yu, pushed the menu to Xin Yu, and poked her arm.She didn't understand how Xin Yu talked about her private affairs, and she didn't know what she said in front of Han Haoxuan.However, judging by Han Haoxuan's expression, Xinyu probably didn't talk too much about her personal affairs when chatting with him.Xin Yu almost didn't think about it before speaking, she just said whatever came to her mind, Ruolin really couldn't do anything about her. "It's been so old, I'm ashamed to say that I like others." Han Haoxuan pretended to be very calm, and said indifferently.But there is an imperceptible sadness in the eyes, deeply hidden in the dark eyes.She thought that she rejected him only because she wanted to make a good relationship with her friends, but who knew that she already had someone she liked. "I've tried to persuade her several times, but it's useless. She said she doesn't want to talk about relationships yet." Xin Yu flipped through the menu, then looked at Ruo Lin beside her, and sighed. "..." Ruolin was silent, and cast a sidelong glance at Han Haoxuan who was opposite. Han Haoxuan just pretended not to see it, and picked up the cup to drink water on his own, the sorrow in his eyes disappeared at some point, and there was a sly smile on the corner of his mouth. When Han Haoxuan first heard Xinyu say that Ruolin's brother Mu was her Prince Charming, he felt very uncomfortable.Listening to Xin Yu now, the fact may not be like that, she just didn't want to talk about feelings, he finally breathed a sigh of relief in his heart.
Ruo Lin hastily finished her meal and planned to leave early.She didn't want to stay here for another second.He also said that he invited her to dinner for the sake of the interview, without saying a word of thanks, and let her be a big light bulb for a while. At this time, Han Haoxuan was almost finished eating, so he asked Ruolin where to tutor and if he could give her a ride so as not to be crowded on the bus. Xin Yu has her own car, and she is going to visit a senior in the art world in the afternoon, thinking about Han Haoxuan sending Ruolin off, it's not a bad idea. Ruo Lin saw that it was getting late, hesitated for a while, but agreed.
The air conditioner in the car was turned on, but Ruolin felt a little hot and the air was a bit dull. She looked at Han Haoxuan beside her who was driving the car intently, and seemed to be humming a certain English song softly, looking in a good mood. The soft light of the sun shone on his face, blurring the golden halo, and the edges and corners became more distinct.At this moment, Ruolin was almost fascinated by this face, she smiled, then turned her head, watching the rapidly retreating tall buildings passing by outside the window. Passing a red light, Han Haoxuan stopped the car and stopped humming at the same time, time seemed to stand still for an instant. There is no sound of cars, no noise of people, it seems that there is no sound of any kind, Ruolin feels that the space is too narrow, and it seems that it is difficult to breathe. She doesn't understand why she feels uneasy and nervous when she is alone with Han Haoxuan.Her hands rested on her lap, clenched tightly, a thin layer of sweat seeped out. "You don't seem to be feeling well, do you want to go back and rest?" A pleasant voice passed through the thin air to Ruolin's eardrums. Ruolin froze for a moment, with a slightly flustered expression, smiled unnaturally, and said, "No need." She sat up straight and loosened her tightly held hands. "But you don't look very well." Han Haoxuan said with concern, hesitated for a while, and said, "If you need money urgently, I can lend it to you." "No need. I have already raised the money, thank you for your kindness." "Why do you borrow money from him, but you don't want me to lend you the money?" Han Haoxuan smiled slightly, with a hint of sarcasm in his evoked smile, but a hint of sourness in his tone. "Aren't you jealous?" Ruo Lin couldn't help laughing when she saw Han Haoxuan's expression, it was her freedom to borrow money from anyone, and it was impossible to report to him after borrowing money from others, Ruo Lin couldn't help feeling funny. "Yes." When the green light came on, a rush of car whistles sounded, drowning out the soft reply. Han Haoxuan didn't know if Ruolin had heard it, but when he saw the long queue behind him in the rearview mirror, he slammed on the accelerator. But Ruolin didn't hear the submerged answer clearly, it sounded like a gust of swift wind to Ruolin's ears, but it didn't leave a trace. "What did you just say?" Ruolin asked after the car started. "It's nothing." Han Haoxuan said with an indifferent look, and after a long time, he asked, "The last time you sent out leaflets was also for money?" "For living." Ruo Lin turned her head out of the window and said loudly. "The burden of your family is on your shoulders?" Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin and asked. "..." Ruolin nodded, then turned to Han Haoxuan, looked at him, smiled, and said, "It's nothing, I'm used to it." Ruolin is really used to this kind of life. Since her father left home, all the burdens have been carried by her mother alone, but Ruolin has gradually grown up and become more sensible. , The cost of living is helpless.After the college entrance examination, she started to work part-time. Because her grades were not bad, she helped others teach junior high school Chinese and helped the family share some pressure.After going to college, she even looked for various part-time jobs.I thought that this situation would be relieved after work, but I didn't expect my mother to be seriously ill again... It is said that life can temper people, and Ruolin has become stronger and stronger.Facing difficulties is not to escape, but to face them bravely. "Listen to Xin Yu, your father..." Han Haoxuan didn't know what words to use to continue. When Ruolin heard the word father, her clear eyes suddenly became darker, and she said in a slightly hoarse voice: "What do you know about me, did Xinyu tell you everything?" "No, I didn't tell me much..." Seeing Ruo Lin's dim eyes, Han Haoxuan realized that he had said something wrong, and quickly denied it.In fact, Xin Yu didn't take the initiative to tell him these things, but he only found out when he accidentally asked Xin Yu. "I don't need you to pity me!" Ruo Lin stared at Han Haoxuan with wide eyes, her voice trembling. "I won't pity anyone." Han Haoxuan shrugged his shoulders with an indifferent expression, and then said seriously, "A person as strong as you doesn't need others to pity you. Besides..." Han Haoxuan paused, his tone With a bit of sourness in his heart, he said, "Besides, you are so powerful, you can easily borrow your mother's medical expenses." "..." Ruolin didn't know whether Han Haoxuan's words were praise or derogation, but no matter what he thought, Ruolin didn't want to argue with him now.
When they arrived at the entrance of the tutor's community, Ruolin asked Han Haoxuan to stop the car.When Han Haoxuan wanted to come down to help Ruolin open the door, Ruolin had already poked out half of her head, bent over to get out, but before she was fully out, she suddenly raised her head.If Han Haoxuan hadn't blocked her head with his quick hands, her head would have hit the car. When she felt her head hit the thick palm, a blush suddenly flashed on her face, and she froze for a while before coming out.Standing firm, his face was full of embarrassment, and he smiled awkwardly: "Thank you." Han Haoxuan acted as if nothing had happened, showed a gentle smile, and said, "You're welcome." Ruolin pursed her lips and smiled, then turned around and walked towards the community. Han Haoxuan quietly looked at Ruo Lin's back, and didn't sit back in the car until it melted into the sunlight.He looked down at his hand, the back of his hand was slightly red, and there was a clear mark, which was painful. He loosened and clenched his hand, doing it back and forth a few times, took a long breath, clenched the steering wheel, and drove to distance.
At night, when Han Haoxuan was about to go back to his room when he got home, Xu Ling, who was watching TV, stopped him. "You came back so early, didn't you ask Xinyu out to play?" Xu Ling looked at Han Haoxuan and asked. "Didn't you have dinner with her at noon?" Han Haoxuan replied impatiently. "Why don't you ask her out next time and let your father take a look." Xu Ling turned his head and looked at Han Jianrong beside him. Han Jianrong shifted his gaze to Han Haoxuan, smiled, and said, "I heard from your mother that Xinyu is a pretty girl. I really want to see her." "Let's talk about it next time." Han Haoxuan's expression was indifferent, as if he was perfunctory. "What next time? If you have time, your dad and I will ask her out, and then you have to go too." Xu Ling said. "Your mother is right, let's have dinner together another day," Han Jianrong said. "..." Han Haoxuan didn't speak, turned and went to the bedroom. "Look, this kid." Xu Ling looked helplessly at Han Haoxuan walking away. "It's impossible for him to look down on Xin Yu again?" Han Jianrong said. "Where is that?" Xu Ling retorted, "Xin Yu's family background is good, and she is decent and polite. It is a blessing for any man to marry her. Perhaps Hao Xuan has been busy with work these two days. Bar." "I heard you praised her. I really want to see what my future daughter-in-law will be like soon." Han Jianrong said with a smile on his face.
Xu Ling naturally took Han Jianrong's words to heart, and asked Xin Yu out within a few days. In a star-rated hotel, Xin Yu arrived early, and then went to the bathroom to touch up her makeup. In the mirror, she was dressed dignifiedly, her hair was tied up high, her makeup was exquisite, and she looked elegant. Han Haoxuan's father, Han Jianrong, is a big name in the media industry and quite famous. He took the initiative to meet him, so of course he had to pay more attention to his appearance. After a while, Han Jianrong and his wife also arrived, but Han Haoxuan was nowhere to be seen. Not seeing Han Haoxuan, although Xin Yu felt a little uneasy, it did not affect her speech and demeanor. Xinyu poured wine for Han Jianrong and Xu Ling with an elegant and generous posture. Han Jianrong had a bright smile on his face, nodded frequently, and there was a hint of approval in his eyes. "Uncle, I have admired you for a long time." Xin Yu smiled slightly, "Hanxin Media you run is very good." "Thank you, I'm honored." After Han Jianrong finished speaking, he turned to look at Xu Ling, and the two smiled at each other. Then, he gently leaned into Xu Ling's ear and asked, "Why isn't Haoxuan here? You go?" Give me a call." "Okay." Xu Ling replied in a low voice, said to Xin Yu, "I'm going to the bathroom", and got up to leave his seat. Xu Ling urged Han Haoxuan to come over quickly, saying that he was the only one to be missed when everyone was here, and blamed him a little bit, saying that he was ignorant, and that he should be more proactive in such matters. After Han Haoxuan received the call, he drove to the hotel. He now regrets a little, regretting not stopping his parents' actions.He thought it was just casually said by his parents, but who knew that he actually asked Xin Yu to meet him.
Through the large floor-to-ceiling windows, Han Haoxuan saw the scene of the three sitting together and talking, the soft light shone on them, they were talking and laughing in harmony, making them look very warm.He stood there for a few seconds, hesitant in his heart, but he didn't know what he was hesitating about.Obviously adding him to that picture would make it even more perfect, but he doesn't seem to want to blend in. In the end, he still walked in. He pulled away the empty chair next to Xinyu, and said "I'm sorry" to everyone, counting it as an apology for being late. Xu Ling hurriedly told him to sit down, slightly annoyed, "Why didn't you come here until now?" "There is something wrong with the company, I can't leave." Han Haoxuan said tactfully, he lied without changing his face.其实，他本不想来的，这也是他临时找的借口。 馨语拿起酒瓶帮韩皓轩斟酒，动作温柔娴熟，不失优雅，韩建荣夫妇看在眼里，乐在心里，自始至终脸上都布满了笑容，好像两人对馨语都很满意。 馨语毕竟出身于书香世家，涉及的知识面广，跟长辈们聊起天来，也是滔滔不绝，说话恰到好处。就是旁边的韩皓轩话倒不是很多，偶尔附和地笑笑，或是一个人独自饮酒，眼睛里有一丝落寞，而他们却都没有察觉到。 看似很美好的画面，却有一个人的莫名情绪在暗暗涌动。
回到家，许凌开始说韩皓轩，怪他为什么那么晚才来，还要她催。他明明是知道吃饭时间的，还不赶紧过来。许凌何其聪明，又怎么会不知道自己的儿子刚才是在说谎呢。 “不是说了吗，公司里有点事。”韩皓轩依旧一口咬定刚才那个借口。 “你想什么，妈还不知道吗？”许凌似乎摸透了儿子的心思般。但，她儿子到底在想些什么，她并不知道。 “妈，我有些累了，想先回房休息了。”韩皓轩找个理由不想再听许凌唠叨下去，该做什么，他自有主张。 “人家馨语那么好，难道你还有什么不满意的吗？”许凌真不知道儿子成天在想些什么，以前找不到合适的对象也就罢了，找到了吧，开始时还很欢喜现在却又不太乐意的样子。 “馨语确实是个好女孩。”韩建荣插进话来。 “我知道，我并没有说对她不满意。”韩皓轩看了看他们俩，说道。 “那你还迟到，对别人是不礼貌的，下次可别再这样了啊。”许凌松了口气，用教导的口吻说道。 韩皓轩只管点头说好。 韩皓轩回到卧室后，静静地站在窗前，拿出一支烟，点燃，猩红色的微光在昏暗的卧室里骤然亮起。 他的眉头微微皱起，深吸了一口烟，然后，慢慢地吐出一个白色的眼圈，烟雾缭绕，使得他看外面的夜景都不太真切。 如果，当初若琳没有替馨语相亲，也许，一切都简单明了了。 但，有些事，仿佛上天注定一般，遇上了就不知该如何忘记，只能继续追寻。
馨语的心情恰恰跟韩皓轩相反，她回到家，就迫不及待地给若琳电话，现在她的心情比任何时候都要好。 都说要想走向成功的婚姻，对方父母的认可占据着很大比重。让韩皓轩的父母满意绝对是一件值得馨语开心的事。 馨语兴冲冲地把晚上和韩皓轩父母一起就餐的事情以及他们对她的满意程度都跟若琳说了一遍，声音里有着无法掩饰的喜悦。 此时，若琳刚刚结束了饭店的兼职工作，正在回家的公交车上。她对馨语表示了衷心的祝贺，心里却有一股莫名的失落，但这样的情绪也只是匆匆地来又匆匆地去。 若琳把头倚在窗边，只觉得身心俱疲，微微闭上眼，任思维静止，一片空白。
馨语的电话刚挂断不久，若琳的手机再次响了起来。 她的心突然揪紧，不会是韩皓轩打来的吧？是告诉她馨语已经成功打动他父母要她向他祝贺，还是告诉她其实他还是放不下她？ 无论哪一种，她都不太愿意听到，因为都会让她为难。
不过，还是若琳多心了，这时候打来电话的并非韩皓轩，而是穆景言。若琳这才松了一口气。 从B市回到D市后，穆景言也曾给若琳打过几通电话，多是就若琳母亲的病情问候几句，再者，就是让注意身体之类的寒暄。 每次接到穆景言的电话，若琳还是很开心的，不仅因为他是她喜欢过的人，更因为在异乡，大家能够彼此照应着，也感觉挺窝心的。
“这么晚打电话给你，没打扰到你吧？”穆景言的声音一贯的温柔亲切。 “没有没有，我还在公交车上。” “啊，还没回家吗？”穆景言感到有些吃惊，现在是周六晚上十点，他以为她正在家里休息，“那你现在方便接电话吗？” “没关系，现在车上人少，不太吵，有什么事情你直接说吧。” “哦，也没什么事，就是想问问你，关于租房子的事情。我想要重新租个房子，不知道你有没有这方面的信息。”穆景言不紧不慢地说道。 “你们单位不是安排好员工宿舍了吗？为什么还要另外租房子呢？”若琳有些不解地问。 “因为公司租的这套房子附近晚上都会连夜施工，吵得人睡不着觉，所以打算换个房子。”真正的理由穆景言并不想说，因为那对于他来说，有些难以启齿。
事实上，穆景言打算换房子完全拜他的新同事周宁所赐。 周宁这家伙总时不时带女孩子回来过夜，而这套两居室的隔音效果并不理想，穆景言总能听到隔壁传来的放荡的呻吟声。 偶尔，穆景言半夜起来上卫生间，经过客厅时，还冷不丁被吓到过。 客厅里的光线并不好，那个长发女孩子就站在冰箱前面，只着一件男式T恤，两条修长的腿就那样肆无忌惮地露在外面，然后冲着穆景言无邪地笑笑：“Hi，帅哥，上厕所啊？” 而彼时的穆景言是刚刚睡了一觉醒来的，头脑还有点不清醒，就很容易被吓到。 他瞥一眼那女孩，然后目光迅速收回，尴尬地回应：“嗯。” 甚至，进了卫生间，他还要等上一会儿，直到听见那女孩进入房间关上房门之后，才开了排风扇，然后放心大胆地干正事儿。 他曾试着跟周宁商议能否以后不要带女孩子回来，周宁一开始倒真的老实了几天，不过没几日，老毛病复发，又把那个女孩子带回来了。 更让穆景言受不了的是，那女孩后来见到他就冲他使劲抛媚眼。
But that's not the worst.让穆景言下定决心一定要搬家的原因是昨天晚上发生的一件事情！ 昨天晚上，周宁又将那个女孩子带回家了。 穆景言正睡得迷糊，突然感觉有双手在自己身上游走，他陡然惊醒。 刚想动作，就有一根手指按在了他的唇上：“嘘，不要动。” what happened?家里有强盗了？不过这个强盗的声音怎么那么轻柔？女强盗？ 穆景言一边纳闷一边伸手按了床边的台灯。 灯一亮，穆景言马上被眼前的景象吓到了。 这难道是自己在做噩梦吗？ 灯光下，只见一个女孩赤裸着身体，半跪在他的旁边，长长的头发垂在肩上，皮肤很白，眼睛睁得大大地望着穆景言。 此情此景，穆景言并没有觉得秀色可餐，反而差点被吓傻了。 眼前这个浑身赤裸的女孩不就是周宁带回来的那个女孩吗？她何时爬上了他的床的？他怎么一点都不知道？ 回想了半天，穆景言才想起自己半夜起来上过一趟厕所，后来可能忘记关房门了。 穆景言紧张地看了看自己，还好，自己仍旧穿着短裤。
“我喜欢你。”那个女孩轻轻吐出这句话，完全是冲着穆景言说的。 “啊？”穆景言几乎没反应过来。这个女孩，他尚不知道她的名字，竟然对着他说喜欢？ “我说，我喜欢你，你就这么无动于衷吗？”说完，女孩轻声笑了，然后伸手去抚摸穆景言的脸，“你长得真好看，让人忍不住想要接近。” 穆景言连忙翻身下床，然后拿起一旁的浴袍匆忙穿上，对那个女孩义正词严地说：“你不要胡闹啊！不然我就不客气了。” “我哪有胡闹。我要是真胡闹起来，吃亏的人可是你。你说，我如果说你非礼我，周宁会不会相信？警察会不会相信？”女孩嘴角露出一抹狡黠的笑容。 这个笑容让穆景言忍不住打了个冷战。这个女孩看上去顶多二十岁，心机却如此重。
“你到底想要什么？要多少钱？”穆景言说着就去翻自己的钱包。 “我不要钱，我要你。”那个女孩已经下了床，走向穆景言，从他背后将他抱住。 穆景言使劲挣脱她，十分生气地说：“你怎么能如此放肆？别以为你是女孩子，我就不能拿你怎么样。” “那你能拿我怎么样啊？”那女孩已经绕到穆景言的面前，故意将自己的身体暴露在他的视线范围之内，然后挑衅地望着他说。 说实话，穆景言从来没遇到过这样的情况，再说，他又能拿一个小姑娘怎么样。她说得对，他要是真告诉周宁，她主动跑到他房间来，然后勾引他，谁会信？周宁是愿意相信缠绵数日的小女朋友还是愿意相信共事不到三个月的新同事？ 在这个问题上，穆景言还真没有什么信心。
“你究竟想要做什么？”沉默了半晌，穆景言认命般地问她。 “不会太为难你，只要你抱着我睡一会儿，好不好？”那女孩脸上突然出现一种悲凄的色彩。 “能不能换个别的要求？”穆景言听得起了一身鸡皮疙瘩。 “我真怀疑你是不是性取向有问题，有女孩子主动投怀送抱，你还不要吗？你到底是不是男人啊！” “……”穆景言对她简直无语了。 “那你就抱我一下，就一下，好不好？”那女孩竖起一根手指说，眼睛里透着真诚。 面对如此艳遇，穆景言却只是一边摇头，一边蹙起眉头。 “如果你只是渴求一个拥抱，为什么不去找周宁索取？”穆景言质问。 “我不喜欢他，我喜欢你。”那女孩十分坦然地说。 “不喜欢他为什么要跟他回家，还跟他……”穆景言说不下去了。 “还跟他上床？”那女孩替穆景言说完，然后笑着问，“怎么？难道你吃醋了吗？” “……怎么会？我已经有别的喜欢的人了。请你自重。”穆景言觉得这女孩有些不可理喻了。 “想知道我为什么不喜欢他却要跟他回家吗？”那女孩问。 穆景言耸耸肩：“你的事情，我并不感兴趣。” “那好，你抱我一下。”说完，那女孩就不管不顾地往穆景言的怀里钻。 可恨的是，穆景言不能将她推开，因为她贴在他的胸前悄声说：“你不要动，你再动，我就要叫了。” 面对如此耍赖皮又蛮横无礼的女孩，穆景言不能奈她何，真正的敢怒不敢言。 女孩的身体很柔软，身上有一股幽香，穆景言紧张得不敢呼吸。 良久，那女孩才松开环抱着穆景言的手，说了一句：“谢谢。”眼眶里还闪着晶莹的泪。
“现在你可以回去了吧？”穆景言冷声说道。 那女孩拾起地上的男式T恤，娴熟地往身上一套，然后走了出去。 听到门被关上的声音，穆景言这才得以呼吸新鲜的空气。
这样离谱的事情发生在穆景言身上，他当然迫切希望重新租套房子啦！ 他之所以想到给若琳打电话，因为她毕竟在D市待过几年，而且又在媒体工作，对找房子肯定比他在行。 “那我帮你打听打听吧。”对于曾帮过若琳大忙的穆景言，找房子这点事情她自然义不容辞地揽了下来，她像是突然想起了什么似的说道，“对了，我在我现在住的那个小区门口看到过租房启事，那个小区挺安静的，交通也方便，好像离你们单位也不是很远。要不，我帮你去问问？” “好啊，那再好不过了。”如果真的能够成为若琳的邻居，穆景言自然求之不得。这样一来，他俩接触的机会就多了。想到这里，一向淡定的穆景言忍不住暗地里沾沾自喜。 都说近水楼台先得月，不知道这句话会不会在他身上得到应验。
若琳当天晚上就去小区门口看了那份租房启事，然后将房东的电话记了下来，第二天一早就给房东拨了过去。 房东是个和气的中年妇女，听了若琳的来意，便开门见山地说，最低每个月一千五百元，押一付三。当然还要见了房客再决定租不租。 这年头，找工作难，租房子也难，这不，租房子还要面试呢！ 不过房租实在让若琳不敢恭维，怎么这么贵啊？还好，她的房东是馨语的同事，不然她可真住不起现在的房子。
不过，这种面试对穆景言来说自然是小菜一碟。他不仅长相出众，而且有轻微洁癖，最爱干净整洁。所以房东阿姨一看见房客是个清清爽爽的帅小伙，二话不说，当即就同意将房子租给他，并且马上签下了合同。 不过，房东临走时却闹了点小乌龙，房东太太拍拍穆景言的肩膀说：“你和你女朋友真般配，郎才女貌的。你女朋友也很体贴，找房子这么琐碎的事情都愿意承担，将来一定是个好太太。” 简单的几句话，却让穆景言和若琳两人同时红了脸。
房东走后，屋里的气氛有一瞬间的尴尬。 “你什么时候搬家？要不要我帮你收拾？”若琳打破沉默问道。 “我今天就搬过来。”那女孩虽然那天之后没来过员工宿舍，但穆景言害怕那天的情景再现，想要尽快逃离那犹如虎穴的地方。 “啊？这么快。”若琳感到有些吃惊。 “是啊，能够跟你做邻居，我当然希望越快越好。”穆景言笑道，左脸的小酒窝依旧迷人。 若琳看着他的笑容，突然说不出话来。曾几何时，她就是被他这样可爱又迷人的笑容迷倒的啊！他那个小小的酒窝犹如芳香醇正的美酒，她曾甘愿沉醉其中，不能自已。 “看什么？”那张笑脸渐渐放大，穆景言靠近若琳。 “呃……没什么。”若琳仿佛又找到了暗恋时的那份感觉，心乱如麻，脸颊发烫。她慌忙退后一步，说，“既然今天就要搬家，我帮你打电话联系搬家公司。” “有你这样的朋友真好，什么事情都帮我考虑周到了。” “哪里哪里，应该的。”若琳边说边拿出手机找寻搬家公司的电话。 望着若琳殷红的脸颊，穆景言想，倘若，她真的能成为他的太太，多好！
某天中午，若琳因为外出采访结束，刚好路过D大，便打算去图书馆看看有没有新书上架。 她对这学校自然熟悉得不能再熟悉了，轻车熟路地往图书馆的方向走去。 她每隔一段时间就会来学校一趟，借几本书，给自己冲充充电，还可以省去不少买书的钱。她的借书证早就过期了，幸好馨语留校任教，借书也就方便多了，只要她借了按时还，一切都没问题。 进了图书馆，若琳在一排排书架中寻找自己喜欢的书，她正随意地翻看着一本书，忽然被里面的情节迷住了，不由得蹲下身，轻轻地靠在书架上，看了起来。样子极其认真，大概已沉浸其中了。 不知过了多久，突然有人轻轻地拍了若琳的肩膀一下，沉迷在故事里的若琳被那人突如其来的动作吓了一大跳，书陡然落地，发出“咚”的一声闷响，她的心剧烈地跳了一下，仿佛下一刻就要冒到嗓子眼了。她猛地一抬头，看到了一张熟悉而又陌生的脸庞。自那次三人见面后，两人就没再见过面，他的头发已剪得有点短了，整个人显得更加精神焕发。 她抚了抚胸口，捡起地上的书，刚想站起来时才发觉自己的腿竟有些麻了，快速站起的同时免不了趔趄了一下，身子歪向一边。 这时，韩皓轩轻轻地扶住若琳，握着她的手臂，手上稍稍施加了些许力道，以稳住若琳的重心。韩皓轩感受到若琳手臂的滑腻，如同瓷器般。 他不知道下一秒她会不会放开他的手，但他却要守住此刻的温暖，哪怕仅仅是短暂的一瞬。 若琳微倚在身后的书架上，过了会儿才回过神来，低头看着韩皓轩还搭在她胳膊上的手，脸顿时红了。他手掌上的温度将她轻轻覆盖，如同电流般，不只是传到手臂上，似乎还渗入到了心底，在心底升起一股莫名的暖流。 这次，若琳没有像第一次韩皓轩牵她手时甩开，而是轻轻地抽回了被他握住的手臂。当离开有些熟悉的温暖时，她心中的暖流顿时消失，又恢复了往日正常的温度。 若琳尴尬地望着韩皓轩，嘴角勉强露出一抹笑，说：“谢谢。” 若琳不知道除了跟他说谢谢还能说些什么，有时，她觉得她跟他说话客套得像个陌生人。 “……”韩皓轩只是笑了笑，样子看上去很温柔，眼眸深沉。 “我们出去吧。”若琳提议，她知道在图书馆是不好讲话的，怕影响别人。 “好的。”韩皓轩点了点头。
走出图书馆，若琳疑惑地问：“你怎么会在这里？” “馨语约了我在附近的饭店吃饭，我来早了，她还在上课。我在她办公室闲着无聊就出来了，路过这里，进来随便看看的，没想到就遇上你了。”韩皓轩说道。 “真巧。”若琳耸了耸肩，微微笑道。 “这叫做缘分。”韩皓轩似笑非笑道。 “……”若琳不置可否，抬头看了看韩皓轩，说，“你跟馨语的事定下来了吧，祝福你们。” 韩皓轩的眉头突然皱起，想了会儿，才慢慢舒展眉头，问：“难道你一点也不在意？” “……”若琳听得出他的话半真半假，但却一下子愣住了，许久，才摆出一副再自然不过的神情望着韩皓轩，说，“我为什么要在意，高兴还来不及呢，以后一定要让馨语好好管一下你，看你以后说话还正不正经。” “……”韩皓轩笑了起来，他什么时候没有正经过，只是，若琳无法将他摸透。顶着大大的太阳，韩皓轩觉得后背都被照得滚烫，转过头，跟若琳说：“要不，待会儿你也一起去吧。” “我才不打扰你们的美餐呢！”若琳不屑地说。 “那下次我单独请你吧。”韩皓轩温和地说道。 “谢了，你别费心了，我这些天都挺忙的。”若琳连忙谢绝他的好意。 两人一路走一路说，很快，就到了分岔的路口。若琳要直接去单位，韩皓轩要去馨语的办公室，两人便在路口告别，仍然只说着普通的告别语。 分开的路口，韩皓轩默默地望着被阳光笼罩着的若琳。她周身仿佛被镀上了一层金纱，看得人有些晃眼，直至那个背影完全消失，只留下一地寂静的阳光时，韩皓轩才悄然离开。眼睛里盛有一丝淡淡的哀愁。 他一直在努力忘记若琳，所以才这么积极地配合馨语和父母，因为他本以为若琳跟别的女朋友没什么区别，离开了就离开了，随着时间的流逝终究会淡忘。 跟安茜谈了三年的感情，最终仍旧能够忘记，何况才见过几次面，并没有深交的若琳呢？韩皓轩曾不止一次这样说服自己。 然而，每次见到若琳，他的心就不由自主地想要靠近她。
中午跟馨语一起吃饭时，韩皓轩的情绪并不太好，不过，该应答的时候还是得说上几句。刚才在图书馆见到若琳的事，他并没有提及。 馨语奇怪两人一起约会也有好几次了，几乎都是她约他，而韩皓轩却没有几次主动的。还有