Chapter 5 Chapter Five If You Never Grow Up
Beside an open space, Han Haoxuan finally parked his car.
This is just an ordinary open space in the suburbs, but the scenery at night is extremely beautiful.
In front of the clearing there was a broad river, which flowed silently in the silence of the night.The half moon reflected on the river surface seems to spread a layer of gold on the entire river surface, reflecting the sparkling water surface.A row of willows were planted along the river bank, fluttering gently in the breeze, like dancing ribbons.
Ruolin couldn't help being stunned when she saw the scenery in front of her, giving her a feeling of déjà vu. After thinking for a while, she realized that it was very similar to the scenery on the corridor of her high school, but the scenery here was much more beautiful than the one in the school. up.
The similar scenery can't help but remind Ruolin's memories of her high school days. The days of morning reading were sweet but mixed with a little bit of bitterness.
Ruolin only now realizes that secret love is like a long-distance journey. At the beginning, she will feel wonderful, but later, she will gradually find that it is also very difficult.
Ruolin immediately fell in love with this place, not only because of the beauty in her memory, but more importantly, it is indeed a piece of pure land outside the stone castle.
Seeing this, she realized that her fear and worry in the car just now were unnecessary.
Han Haoxuan walked to the river bank, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and watched the flowing river quietly. The surroundings are quiet and silent, and everything seems to be in a peaceful state. Han Haoxuan turned his head and saw Ruolin was still standing beside the car, so he stretched out his hand and beckoned her over. When Ruolin came to Han Haoxuan's side and stopped, Han Haoxuan's magnetic voice sounded softly in the silent night: "What do you think of this place?" "It's beautiful." Ruolin smiled. "Is it like heaven on earth?" Han Haoxuan asked exaggeratedly, with a hint of joy in his expression. In fact, for him, this is his own paradise, a beautiful paradise full of innocence.He never told anyone about such a good place, let alone brought anyone here, but Ruolin was an exception. "It's like the purest dream." Ruolin was immersed in the beautiful scenery, so why wasn't this the best dream of her childhood?Roam freely in your own Garden of Eden, and if you can, you can meet your own Prince Charming, but everything is just the most beautiful vision in your youth. "Then what is your purest dream?" Han Haoxuan asked curiously. "Why did I tell you?" Ruo Lin curled her lips, but did not answer. Han Haoxuan looked directly at the river, with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, he didn't take Ruolin's words to heart, obviously he was used to Ruolin's attitude, after thinking for a while, he said: "I like this place very much. Memories of my childhood." "Childhood memories?" Ruo Lin looked at Han Haoxuan with wide eyes, feeling a little strange, how could there be such a clearing with his childhood memories?However, I still want to listen to him with great interest. "When I was young, my parents were busy with work, so they left me in the care of my grandparents. They used to have a semi-new villa nearby, but it was gone due to demolition. I didn't find out until I arrived at my grandparents' house. So there are so many fun in life." Han Haoxuan went on to say, his thoughts returned to the most innocent childhood.
In the past, due to their busy work, their parents always left Han Haoxuan alone at home with a nanny to take care of them.At that time, he was still in kindergarten, and he felt lonely when he came home from school, because there was no one to play with him, and it was difficult to find someone to talk to. One day, his parents saw that he was depressed all day long, so they planned to let him stay at grandma's house for a while during the summer vacation. Several families next to grandma's house have children, and they are as old as Han Haoxuan.They usually make an appointment in advance to come out to play together. Once a few children who are usually well behaved at home leave the house, they love to play more than anyone else.The adults told them a few words and let them play. Of course, these children are quite obedient, so the adults don't have to worry too much. Han Haoxuan still remembers the first time he went to play with his friends and got mud all over his body.Before this, he always liked to be clean, but this time, although the mud all over his body looked dirty, he was very happy in his heart.When I got home, it was obvious that my grandma would be nagging. Although grandma said that, she still helped him put on clean clothes, asked him if he had a good time, and told him not to be so naughty next time. Xiao Han Haoxuan tasted the joy of playing with his friends, so how could he let it go?He called his playmates to go out to play almost every day, and every time he had to have a good time before going back. Once, they walked for a while, and suddenly saw a clearing. There was a wide river in front of the clearing. At that time, they were very excited to see it. It was summer, so they rolled up their trouser legs, stepped in the water, and played with each other.You splash water on his face, and he splashes water on your face, until the other party's body is wet. This time they knew how to go back without being scolded by adults.They are all boys, and there is nothing to worry about.Before they go back, take off the clothes, twist them hard a few times, and then lay them flat on the open space.It happened that the summer sun was strong, and the clothes dried after a while, and they didn't go back until the clothes were dry.This method works well, but sometimes, they play late, the sun is almost down, and they can't use it anymore, they can only wait to be scolded.
That time, it was like this. Since Han Haoxuan discovered such a good place, he often brings his playmates here.At that time, he had a whim, seeing the adults fishing well, he thought, it should be more fun for them to go into the water to catch fish.He led the others into the water to catch fish. On the shore they could clearly see the fish swimming in the water, as if they were right in front of their eyes, as if they could catch them with just stretching out their hands.However, when they entered the water, the clever fish quickly ran away one by one, and disappeared without a trace in an instant.They couldn't help but wonder, how could the fish run so fast? At that time, they were not tall, and they did not dare to go into the deep water. They just played on the shore.In the process of constantly catching fish, Han Haoxuan's little feet stepped on the water, got stuck in the mud, and walked in the water with one deep foot and one shallow foot, making the clear river water gradually become turbid, which was still clearly visible at first The fish are no longer visible.After mastering the rules, he stood quietly in one place, and when the water became clear and he could see the fish again, he slowly bent down, leaned over, and slowly approached the water surface with his hands. Seeing that Yu'er was about to get it, but in the blink of an eye, his hand was empty, and Yu'er had slipped away without knowing when.This is often the case, so Han Haoxuan thought of a way, made a fishing tool by himself, found a long bamboo pole, and tied a net bag at the end.This is much better than catching with bare hands.The partners followed him and did the same.This method allowed them to catch a lot of fish.Although the fish are small, there is nothing to mention the cheerfulness in their hearts. In the evening, they were still playing, as if they were full of strength.Seeing that it was getting late, Han Haoxuan greeted his partners to go home, looked down at the soaked clothes, and shook their heads helplessly. When he got home, he would naturally be scolded, so Han Haoxuan pouted his mouth this time, arguing with grandma, saying that he came back so late to catch fish to make soup for grandma.Sure enough, grandma stopped talking, and stroked Han Haoxuan's little head with her old hand, with a smile on her face.Grandma may know that this little guy is lying, but she still feels very relieved to be able to tell such a beautiful lie.
The fireflies in that summer are also fond memories of Han Haoxuan. It was also an accidental discovery. The few of them were playing late, and one of the little friends saw something twinkling and twinkling, so he happily asked them to see it.He said that his favorite time to catch fireflies at night.That was the first time Han Haoxuan saw fireflies. He seldom went out at night before. Even if he did, he would not see fireflies in the noisy urban area.He felt very curious, and seeing his companions chasing after that little luminous body, he also followed in a hurry. The sky is getting dark, the stars are blinking in the sky, and there are more and more small fireflies on the ground, which seem to illuminate the dark night and add a lot of light.The fireflies like to hide in the grass on the ground and on the branches of willow trees. They think they are hiding very secretly, but the twinkling body betrays them. Han Haoxuan follows the light they emit and walks up to them cautiously. Come forward, then open your hands, pounce up, and catch him right. They found an old glass bottle, put the caught fireflies in the bottle, and then gently screwed on the cap to prevent them from escaping. With their concerted efforts, they caught a lot of fireflies in a short while.One of the little friends was holding a bottle, and they all sat around him, looking carefully at the poor fireflies in the bottle. The fireflies were sticking to the wall of the bottle, and seemed to want to escape. They might not know why they could see things outside. But he couldn't get out, so he kept hitting the bottle wall, doing useless work.However, Han Haoxuan and the others are still ignorant, they just think it's fun, watching the twinkling bodies of fireflies illuminate the transparent bottle, it's very beautiful.
That summer, the fair-skinned Han Haoxuan was so tanned that he looked like a little loach. Later, when the summer vacation was over and his parents wanted to take him away, he couldn't bear it at all, he couldn't bear his grandma, his friends, or his amusement park, but no matter how much he couldn't bear it, he still had to... Walk. On the day of leaving, while his parents were talking to his grandparents, Han Haoxuan slipped out secretly, called the gang of little guys, and went to the open space again, which was the last nostalgia. At that time, he still didn't understand the sadness of parting, he only knew that he was reluctant to leave here, and he had experienced all the happiness he never had before here.He thinks this place is much more fun than the amusement parks his parents took him to. Here he can play to his heart's content and be free. He feels that this is his real amusement park, a paradise on earth that he has never touched before. It was full of laughter and laughter, and there were too many good memories of him, which he could not forget.
Later, I can’t remember exactly when, it was going to be demolished, my grandma moved away, and my childhood playmates also moved away.Much later, when he went there again, thankfully, the clearing was still intact. Although his childhood playmates have disappeared, Han Haoxuan's childhood amusement park has always been there.
"I didn't expect your childhood to be so interesting. Looking at your gentle and elegant appearance, I never thought that you were so naughty when you were young. Listen to you, you were really cute when you were young." Ruolin smiled slightly, as if infected by the story Han Haoxuan told up. "Thinking about it now, I still find it so interesting. My childhood was not in vain." Han Haoxuan said, with a smile on his lips, paused for a while, turned his head and lowered his eyes slightly, looking at Ruolin, and said solemnly, "I've never brought anyone here before, and you're the first." Ruolin was in a trance for a moment, and her eyes were a little blurred. Looking at Han Haoxuan's serious look, she was speechless for a moment. The first one, in Ruolin's opinion, always contains countless meanings, but it is inconvenient to express it clearly. Han Haoxuan had a half-smile on his face, then he turned around and went to the trunk of the car to get a tablecloth, then walked to the shore, paved the table, and motioned for Ruo Lin to sit down. "He really has a heart." Ruolin smiled slightly, and then sat down. "I always carry it." Han Haoxuan grinned.
The moon is as bright as a clear crystal, shining with crystal light, which is projected on the water. Ruolin seemed to be immersed in such beautiful scenery, and the gate of her memory was opened. It was the same beautiful night, with the full moon hanging in the sky, but it was already winter, and it was very cold. After evening self-study, Ruolin sat on the corridor quietly waiting for Mu Jingyan. Today is Mu Jingyan's birthday, after she learned about it from her classmates, she carefully prepared a gift for him.She was short of money at the time, and the gift was homemade, very common, but it took her almost a month of spare time to make it. She was afraid that her little secret would be known by others, so when the teacher was empty after class at noon, she secretly put a small note in Mu Jingyan's book, and wrote down the place and time one by one without signing it. . Thinking about it now, that was the most daring thing she ever did besides replacing Xin Yu on a blind date.She thought her crush would end after that, but it didn't. Ruolin held the gift in her arms, and still sat in an inconspicuous corner.The cold wind blew on her face, causing slight pain, but Ruolin's heart was warm. Just around the fifteenth day, the moon was particularly round, reflected on the water, like a golden plate, and like yellow wheat ears in autumn, so heavy, it seemed to penetrate into Ruolin's heart, and a radiant glow was born in her heart. hope. At that moment, how she wished that they would become a whole like a full moon in the future, with endless rays of light emitting from their bodies. She once wrote in her diary: You are the first quarter moon, and I am the last quarter moon. If one day, I hope that we will become one and become a full moon.Because there is no intersection between the first quarter moon and the last quarter moon, they are lonely and incomplete bodies that have been missed.
The chatter and laughter of the students in my ears gradually died down, and I occasionally saw a few sweet couples passing by, Ruolin's hopeful heart began to sink little by little. She knew that this was his last birthday at school, and it was uncertain whether they could meet in the future.She just wanted him to remember her, to remember that there was a girl who stayed for him one day.This kind of remembering should not be permanent, even for a moment, she is enough. The wind is blowing coldly, and the brilliance of the moon on the river seems to be slowly dissipating.Ruolin looked up at the sky, the night sky was very dark, without a single star, but the moon was still very round, embellishing the sky and emitting a soft light. Her hands were tightly clasped, as cold as ice.But the gift was tightly wrapped in his arms, for fear that the cold wind would take away the meager warmth above.
The campus began to quiet down, there was no sound of students walking around, and it was almost time to turn off the lights in the dormitory.Ruolin's heart began to feel a little impatient, complaining why Mu Jingyan didn't come yet. This time, she came here with full hopes.She thought it was just a small gift as a classmate, and he should come. But, he didn't come after all. Ruolin walked back to the dormitory resentfully, stepping on the clear light of the moon, the lights of the dormitory were already turned off at that time, she walked in tiptoe.Fortunately, everyone in the dormitory was chatting, and no one noticed that she went back so late. She tossed and turned in bed at night, unable to fall asleep. She didn't know why he didn't come. After waiting for so long, it was still nothing. She thought, maybe, she is not his last quarter moon after all, and he is not her first quarter moon after all. They are destined to reincarnate lonely on staggered trajectories. However, Ruolin felt a little lucky that Mu Jingyan didn't come, she didn't know what she could say to him if he really came.
The next day, when Ruolin was talking to the people behind her, she secretly looked at the familiar desk. Mu Jingyan was still buried in his book, his expression was not much different from usual, as if nothing had happened.Only then did Ruolin's heart relax slowly, seeing his expression, she felt that the reason why he didn't come didn't seem so important. This matter, like plain boiled water in ordinary times, passed without any heat.After that, Ruolin never did similar things again, and Mu Jingyan never came to Ruolin, they were as usual. However, Ruolin still has a crush on him.
"What are you thinking?" Han Haoxuan's pleasant voice interrupted Ruolin's thoughts. "...Oh." Ruo Lin regained her composure, and replied in a low voice, with a faint smile on her face, and said, "It's nothing." "Can you tell me about your childhood?" Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin and asked. "..." Ruolin's clear eyes dimmed suddenly. She didn't want to think about those gloomy times. Now that someone asked her, her memory has nowhere to hide. She had a happy childhood, accompanied by her parents and younger sister, but later... She didn't want to recall that unbearable past. Compared with Han Haoxuan's childhood, her childhood was quite miserable, like the desolate wind in autumn, even the last fallen leaf on the ground would be taken away.Ruolin thought that if her father hadn't left, perhaps her childhood would have been so beautiful, but in reality, there was no such thing. "Why aren't you talking?" Han Haoxuan asked gently. "When I was young, my father left us, thinking that he would come back soon, but after more than ten years, he still hasn't come back." Ruo Lin said in a low voice, with a look of sadness on her face. "..." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin with a sad face, full of self-blame in his heart, but when he asked how he knew this would happen, he said guiltily, "I'm sorry." His tone was sincere. "You don't need to tell me you're sorry." Ruo Lin waved off the sadness on her face, and tried her best to make a smile on the corner of her mouth, "It's all in the past." "Look." Han Haoxuan pointed at the night sky, distracting Ruolin's attention. "Huh?" Ruo Lin was surprised, then looked up. Ruolin carefully looked at the starry night sky and the moon surrounded by stars. Based on her knowledge of geography, she speculated that this should be the last quarter moon. nice. "You can't see such a beautiful night view in an urban area full of tall buildings?" Han Haoxuan said. "En." Ruolin nodded, with a hint of a smile in her eyes. It has been a long time since Ruolin hasn't relaxed her body and mind. She shuttles between work, restaurants, the little girl's house, and her own home every day. She is as busy as a spinning top. Even if she is tired and suffering, she can't help but take a break. This time, someone finally gave her a mental and physical vacation. "Do you like watching the stars?" Han Haoxuan asked looking at the night sky.His dark eyes were like stars in the night sky, with little stars lingering in them. Ruolin nodded and said: "When I was young, I liked counting stars, one, two, three... I just kept counting until my eyes got tired. Later, I wanted to..." Halfway through, Ruolin stopped suddenly and stopped talking. "What happened later? Why didn't you say anything?" Han Haoxuan asked softly. "Later, I just wanted to pick off these stars and keep them for myself." Ruolin made up unrealistic lies, but in fact, later, she wanted to count the stars with the person she loved.But she didn't want to tell Han Haoxuan this true thought, or else, she didn't know what he would think.However, she couldn't deny that Han Haoxuan was the first man to watch the stars with her. "If you like this place, you can come again next time." Han Haoxuan said the invitation like a host. "This is the place where you recall your beautiful childhood. If I come, won't I destroy your ideal paradise on earth?" Ruolin smiled slightly. "No." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin, with tenderness in his eyes, and said in a low voice, "You can also be a part of this paradise." The low words seemed to have infinite bewitching power, gently knocking on Ruolin's heart, making her heart tremble slightly.
Ruolin looked at the man sitting next to her, with a handsome face; deep and bright eyes, shining like stars; a gentle smile, like the warm sun in the cold winter, reaching people's hearts. The breeze blows gently, and they are so close, Ruolin can faintly smell the faint fresh smell emanating from Han Haoxuan's body, it seems to be mint or vanilla, it is indistinguishable, but it is a unique smell, which makes people feel I can't help but feel comfortable after smelling it. The two of them looked at each other, and the moonlight fell on them, smudged with a faint golden layer. Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin with deep, burning eyes, as if a cluster of small flames were burning inside, and his face looked even more handsome under the moonlight. The surrounding area was silent, except for the occasional rustling of insects and their slightly rapid breathing.Ruolin only felt that Han Haoxuan's eyes were burning hot, as if they were burning her heart, and the heat gradually increased. "Crack!" A slight voice resounded in the silent atmosphere, still clearly heard in Ruo Lin's ear.Han Haoxuan saw the mosquitoes that had been circling Ruolin's ears, so he stretched out his hands and patted them lightly. "Mosquito." Han Haoxuan said with a slight smile, his voice was soft, like a lullaby played by a piano, making people drowsy after listening to it. The breeze brought by Han Haoxuan's clapping palms not only did not cool down Ruo Lin's hot heart, but felt the ears burning hot, and a blush suddenly rose on his face.Han Haoxuan's body that came over suddenly was so close to her, his breath seemed to be close at hand, his deep eyes looked straight at Ruo Lin, with tenderness like water. At this moment, in this empty place, Ruolin felt as if there were only the two of them left in the world.The breeze was blowing on her face, but it couldn't blow away those two blushes, nor could it blow away the heat in her heart.Her heart began to feel a little flustered, and the palms of her hands were sweating unknowingly, sticky. Before Ruolin could react, that handsome face fell down, and the aura on her body was so familiar, it reminded her of the scene in the bar.However, in a flash, all the thoughts in her mind began to freeze.Soft lips touched her lips lightly, and a breath that only belonged to a man swept over her. Han Haoxuan gently embraced Ruolin, and put his hands on her back. Through the thin clothes, Ruolin could feel the burning heat of his palms, which made her back gradually heat up until it spread all over her body.Her body trembled violently, her heart beating wildly. Ruolin has never experienced such passion, and feels that all this is just her illusion.She opened her eyes, but she really saw this gentle man. His eyes were slightly closed, and he looked very focused and serious. The halo of the moon poured on his face, making the lines on his face look softer. . Han Haoxuan's movements were extremely gentle, as if what he touched was the most precious treasure. He lingered on Ruolin's soft lips, trying to penetrate again, but felt that there were hands resisting on his chest.Han Haoxuan opened his eyes, looked at Ruo Lin who was full of stubbornness in his eyes, and then reluctantly moved away from the warmth, his eyes were deep, like a deep lake, filled with tenderness. Ruolin couldn't stop her frenzied heart, she lowered her head and didn't look at Han Haoxuan.The atmosphere suddenly became awkward.Endless guilt suddenly sprouted in her heart. She didn't understand why she didn't refuse that kiss just now, but it wasn't as simple as curiosity.When Han Haoxuan wanted to snatch the warmth from her lips again, a shadow suddenly flashed in her mind, and she woke up suddenly, and pushed him away suddenly. Han Haoxuan is not Ruo Lin's boyfriend, but he stole her first kiss.At that moment, her city was captured by him.
Ruolin clenched her hands tightly, a thin layer of sweat came out of her palms, she bit her lower lip with her teeth, her rosy lips gradually turned white, leaving a row of shallow tooth marks.She shifted her gaze to the broad river, and after a long time, her heart slowly calmed down. "You are really good." After a long while, Ruolin broke the awkward atmosphere and smiled slightly. She turned her head and saw Han Haoxuan's suspicious gaze. She was afraid that he would misunderstand, so she hurriedly explained, "You are really good at slapping mosquitoes. You can slap mosquitoes with one hand." It is comparable to three dead." "Oh..." Han Haoxuan smiled suddenly, with a slightly unnatural expression.It's not that he has never kissed his girlfriend before, but this kiss made him feel very subtle and sweet, and he was surprised and pleasantly surprised for a while.It's just that he didn't understand why she would suddenly push him away, so he felt a little depressed.
The two looked at the river in front of them, and occasionally looked up at the stars in the sky, but they didn't say anything. The two of them just sat there for a while, Ruo Lin proposed to go back, Han Haoxuan put away the tablecloth spread on the floor, and drove her back. The air conditioner was turned on in the car, and the surrounding area was extremely quiet, and the "hissing" sound of the air conditioner could be heard.The two were basically in a state of silence, but in fact they both had their own concerns. After driving into the urban area, Ruolin originally wanted to ask Han Haoxuan to stop at an intersection, but it was so late and the bus had long since disappeared, it was convenient to stop here to take a taxi.But Han Haoxuan didn't stop, and asked her address directly. Seeing his serious expression, Ruolin didn't care. Thinking about it, it would cost a lot of money to take a taxi, so forget it, and told him her address.
Han Haoxuan stopped his car in front of an extremely ordinary neighborhood. After Ruolin thanked her, she hurriedly wanted to open the car door. At this moment, Han Haoxuan got out of the car and helped her open the car door. He looked very gentlemanly, with a gentle smile, like the sunshine in spring. "So you live here." Han Haoxuan remembered sending Ruolin home once a long time ago, but at that time, her identity was "Fake Xinyu". In order to act more realistically, she asked him to send her to Xinyu. s home. "That's right, Young Master Han must be used to living in a villa, and he has never been to this kind of place, right?" "You misunderstood, I didn't mean that. I just thought, I finally know where you live, and it will be more convenient to visit you in the future." "No need." "I'll take you in." "No need, it's already late today, and I'm tired, I want to rest early." Ruolin felt that Han Haoxuan's behavior had gone a little too far today, and she didn't really want to give him any more time to be alone. Han Haoxuan didn't force it, but just said lightly: "Then don't disturb your rest, and come to visit another day." "I'm a drifter. I don't have a fixed house. I might move someday. You don't have to come here, and there's no need to come here. It's best..." Ruolin paused, and then said, "It's best that we don't meet again in the future. gone." "Is it because of Xin Yu?" Han Haoxuan asked.That kiss tonight clearly showed that she also had feelings for him. Obviously, she avoided him not because she didn't like him or understood him, but because of other reasons. "..." Ruolin remained silent. "If you refuse to meet me because of her, then I won't be in touch with her in the future. There is really nothing between me and her. I just... just try to date her, and then forget you, but , I found that I can't do it at all..." A trace of sadness emerged between Han Haoxuan's eyebrows and eyes. "I'm sorry, I don't understand what you're talking about. I should go back." Ruo Lin hurriedly stopped Han Haoxuan from continuing. After saying this, Ruo Lin turned around to leave, but was stopped by Han Haoxuan. With such great strength, he easily pulled her in front of him. He put his hands on her shoulders and looked down at her condescendingly: "Do you really not understand what I'm talking about? Don't pretend to be stupid, okay?" "Please don't touch me, okay?" Ruo Lin tried her best to shake him off, but he held on so tightly, as if she wanted to crush her bones. "If you don't care about me at all, why didn't you refuse when I kissed you just now? Huh?" Han Haoxuan's dark eyes merged with the surrounding night, making him look more and more melancholy. "I'll say it again, please take your hand away!" Ruolin said pretending to be calm. Han Haoxuan sighed deeply, and finally let go of his hand. If she wanted to leave, he could only let her go. Why can't he grasp the person he likes every time?An Xi was also so calm when she left him, and Ruo Lin, who had kissed him passionately just now, can also leave in peace. It would be great if he could also be so calm.
Ruolin didn't even say goodbye to him, she just turned around and walked into the community, blending into the busy night. Han Haoxuan could only watch her back silently. Although she was very indifferent and cruel to him, his eyes still did not deviate a bit, locked tightly on Ruo Lin, and there was still a trace of nostalgia in his eyes. It wasn't until the hurried figure turned into the community that Han Haoxuan drove away.
Mu Jingyan was worried that Ruolin hadn't come home so late to check out the gate of the community, but he didn't expect to see a man driving her home in a luxury car. With his intuition, this man should have an unusual relationship with Ruolin. They talked for a while, but they couldn't make out what they were talking about. It should be sweet talk, right?Just when Ruolin turned to leave, the man caught her unexpectedly, and then there seemed to be some quarrel between the two. At that time, Mu Jingyan really had the urge to go forward and pull that man away. How could the girl who was as precious as crystal in his heart be dragged to him by that man like an eagle catching a chick?That man looks well-dressed, does he understand what it means to be sympathetic to the fragrance and cherish the jade? Mu Jingyan couldn't help but clenched his fists, and frowned slightly. But think about it carefully, if the young couple quarrels, is he worthy to intervene? So Mu Jingyan could only sigh inwardly, turned his face away, and prepared to walk back.
"Amu." After a while, a crisp voice sounded from behind Mu Jingyan. Hearing her call him "Amu", Mu Jingyan's heart suddenly warmed up. He stopped, turned slightly sideways, turned his head to look at her, and pretended to meet her by chance: "I'm back." "Yeah." Ruo Lin replied softly, and then asked, "You came back so late, too?" "Yeah, I have something to do at work today, so I've been working overtime until now." Mu Jingyan lied on purpose.In fact, he planned to go out to dinner with Ruo Lin tonight, but he called her cell phone to tell her to turn it off, and no one responded when he visited her house.Out of worry, he waited for Ruo Lin near the neighborhood after dinner.Who knew that it was so coincidental to see her flower protector send her home.It seems that he is really a little worried. "It's been so hard, let your boss raise your salary!" Ruo Lin laughed. "Capitalists are best at exploitation, so they won't raise salary easily." Mu Jingyan smiled, and then changed the subject, "By the way, why did you come back so late?" "Oh, it's the child's birthday today, and her parents left me to have dinner at their house, so I came back late." Ruo Lin has never been good at lying, and her face turned red when she said the words.Fortunately, it was night, he couldn't see her expression clearly, she was secretly glad. "Oh..." Since she didn't want to tell the truth, Mu Jingyan didn't want to expose her, even though he was somewhat curious about that man, and of course, it was undeniable that there was also a bit of jealousy mixed in.I thought I would get the moon first if I was close to the water, but who would have thought that I would be snatched first by others.He was slightly depressed.
When she got home, Ruolin went to the bathroom to wash her face, looked at herself in the mirror, her face was tired, but still pretty.There were wet drops of water on her bangs, sticking to her forehead one by one. She gently stroked her bangs aside with her hands, as if she wanted to see her face clearly.After staring at herself in the mirror for a while, she finally touched her rosy lips with the pulp of her index finger. It seemed that the tenderness of that moment still remained on it, and the expression on her face was unpredictable. That kiss, she thought it was an illusion created in a dim night, it was just a wrong kiss and had nothing to do with love. Even though Ruolin thought so, the guilt in her heart was still strong, she didn't know if this counted as seizing someone's love, her heart was tangled together, like a mess, and she couldn't stop trying to figure it out.She thought, if the blind date hadn't been replaced by Xin Yu, things might not have become so complicated. She took another handful of water with her hand, and splashed it on her face, and the water droplets immediately touched her face, which was crystal clear, like dewdrops on a lotus leaf.However, her expression was still a little gloomy.
Although Ruolin resisted Han Haoxuan somewhat, he still relished this night very much.After all, it was the first time he took a girl to his kingdom.I used to say that I would take Anxi there, but Anxi always said with a disapproving attitude: "I don't want to go to such a remote place!" When getting along with Anxi, Anxi always has a high-ranking attitude, and he has to let everything go, but he never feels tired and still enjoys it.Perhaps, this is the so-called love?Immersed in the world of love, you will forget who you are, and only regard the person you love as the queen. However, Anxi also liked to cling to him. When she was not in class, she would always sneak into his classroom and sit next to him.Sometimes, I pretended to be listening to the class seriously, and sometimes I made trouble, pinching his nose, pulling his ears... Looking back now, Anxi is still so vivid in my memory. She is always so sweet and beautiful when she smiles. In fact, when Ruolin smiles, she looks very much like Anxi, with her eyes bent into a bridge.However, she seldom smiled, she just looked at him coldly, and seldom showed a gentle expression. He really doesn't know what is her heart made of, is it a hard-to-melt ice?
The next day, when everyone was resting, Han Jianrong invited a few friends to play golf together, and Xu Ling suggested that Han Haoxuan bring Xinyu with him.Han Haoxuan had no way of refusing his parents' wishes. To put it bluntly, there was no reason to refuse.If Ruolin agrees to date him, he can take her home and tell his parents that she is the one he likes.But now, Ruolin has always been icy towards him, in this way, there is not much difference between him dating any other girl. Although this is somewhat unfair to Xin Yu, how can it be fair in the world of feelings? 安茜说分手的时候，他纵然有万般不舍，但安茜还不是毫不回头地走了。 现在他努力去追求若琳，她却不答理他。他如果不主动找她，她甚至连个问候的电话都不会给他打。 这些对韩皓轩就公平吗？ 在爱的世界里，谁陷进去了，谁陷得越深，谁就会面临不公平的待遇。
无论怎样，生活总要继续下去。 假使他不能和心爱的女孩在一起，也得顾及父母的想法，必须为韩家后代着想，随便找个女子过平凡的一生。 而，如果这样的女子是馨语那样知书达理又不失活泼，同时又有共同语言的女人，也不失为一个好的选择。
一行人到了高尔夫球场后，韩建荣先向各位朋友介绍了自己未来的儿媳妇馨语，众人皆夸馨语长得端庄漂亮，韩建荣夫妇脸上洋溢着笑容，很有满足感。 虽然馨语以前来过这样的高级场所，但对打高尔夫并不精通，握杆的姿势她自是会，可如何精准地将球打入洞中便成问题了。 韩皓轩在一旁看着馨语握杆的姿势到位，显然一副很熟练的模样，但当球杆挥出去的时候，球总会偏移方向，有几次，球还在洞口边缘转了几圈但就是不进去。馨语觉得有些懊恼，站直身，将球杆放在她的腰侧，望着一旁的韩皓轩，眼睛里有一丝求助的意味。 韩皓轩并不急着上去帮她，愣了一会儿。这时，许凌推了推韩皓轩，低语道：“发什么愣，还不去教教她。”韩皓轩这才转头望了望许凌，心领神会般的笑了笑，然后，走向馨语。 韩皓轩跟馨语说了挥球时应该注意的一些要领，让她试试看，果然，在韩皓轩的指点下，馨语终于进球了。 “哇，太棒了！我居然进球了！”馨语不由得欢呼道，然后她兴奋地抱着韩皓轩的胳膊说，“你教的方法真是太管用了！以后你多带我过来吧！” 韩皓轩并不回答，只是不置可否地轻轻笑了笑。请原谅他的自私，他暂时还不想给她任何承诺。 馨语顿时感到有点尴尬，有些微的不自在，松开了抱着他的手。
“建容兄啊，你家真是找了个既漂亮又聪明的儿媳妇。”韩建荣的朋友老张见馨语又进了一杆漂亮的球，忍不住赞道。 “听你太太说，她出身于书香世家，果真如此，一看就是个有修养内涵的人。”张夫人接上话头，顿了顿，长长地叹了口气，眼眸低垂，再抬头望了望韩建荣夫妇，说，“你可知道我那儿媳妇……” “怎么了？”许凌讶异地问道，“前段时间两人不是刚结婚吗？” “结婚前，我儿子竟然没有跟我说实话，我那儿媳哪是出身名门啊，那岂不说，还是单亲家庭，家里是穷得叮当响，还有弟弟妹妹，这不都成了她的拖油瓶，有事没事都找她帮忙。”张夫人无奈地摇了摇头，继续说，“都说家丑不可外扬，这次我家的丑算是出大了。” “那你们当初怎么不调查清楚就稀里糊涂地要了那么个儿媳，门不当户不对的。”许凌也替张夫人感到惋惜。 “话是这么说，但当时我们也没想那么多啊，谁知道自己一向信任的儿子会跟我们说谎呢。现在，因为家庭的缘故闹了不少矛盾，儿子在别人面前也知道要面子了，每逢朋友提及自己的老婆时，脸上也无光。我们也是，脸真是丢大了。”张夫人抱怨道，接着，她望了望馨语，脸上露出一种羡慕万分的表情，对许凌说，“还是你家找对了人。” “嗯，我儿子的福气。”许凌拍了拍韩皓轩的肩膀，笑道。 韩皓轩的眼神有些游移，仿佛沉浸在自己的思绪里，脸色也不太好看，许凌轻轻地一拍，他不禁微微颤了一下。他转头看了看一脸灿烂笑容的馨语，心突然变得沉重起来，眼眸深邃如幽潭。 馨语往韩皓轩身边靠了靠，两人并肩站着，一对俊男靓女，很般配。只是，两人的表情却大相径庭，馨语被别人的赞美声环绕，没有注意到韩皓轩脸上的表情起了变化。
韩皓轩隐去脸上的神情，拿起一个球杆，弯下腰，握好，眼睛专注地看着前方的洞，一副熟稔的样子，再猛地一挥拍，球在洞口回旋了几圈，最后还是落入洞中。他不停地挥杆，接下来的几次都不如人意，不知是不是他注意力不集中，都没有入洞，他便有些气馁地放下球杆，坐在休息椅上看别人打。 他拧开一瓶矿泉水，喝上几口，拿过一条毛巾擦了擦汗，这时，馨语放下了手中的球杆，坐了过来。 “怎么不打了？”馨语问道，“后面几球你好像打得心不在焉。”心细的馨语还是发觉到韩皓轩有些不太对劲。 韩皓轩皱了皱眉，迟疑了会儿，说：“找不到第一次挥杆时的感觉。”为何找不到，也只有他自己知道。 “你打球也要凭感觉？”馨语笑了笑，说，“你教我挥杆的诀窍那么灵，自己不会忘用了吧？” “哪有什么诀窍，我技术平平。”韩皓轩谦虚地说。平常他打球，算是高手，今日，他的发挥着实有些不正常。 “馨语啊，你的领悟能力还真强，刚才经皓轩一点拨，你现在倒是进了不少球啊。”许凌不知何时已走到他们身边，夸奖自己的儿媳妇，看着别人羡慕自己有个好儿媳，她脸上自然有光彩，心里乐呵呵的。 “伯母过奖了。”馨语的眼角笑意盈盈，看了看身旁的韩皓轩，自是很满足。韩皓轩的模样英俊、温文尔雅，额头微微渗出细密的汗，显出了男人运动后独有的魅力。 第二次相遇时，馨语就认定了这个男人，不知是不是机缘巧合，她总觉得一切来得都很戏剧化，但，戏剧化中的男主却正是她要寻找的那个白马王子。 “皓轩，咱有这么好的儿媳，你可要好好珍惜啊。”许凌对馨语笑了笑，再望着韩皓轩，说道。 “……”韩皓轩嘴角勉强露出笑容，不言。
选人如选衣，挑来拣去总算找了件好的，我们应该要珍惜。可是，如果选的不是理想中的型号时，我们是该留着还是该退货？
打完球后，大家各自换好衣服，互相说了几句道别的客套话，再相继走出球馆，准备去吃饭。 韩建荣夫妇自然是带上馨语一起去，许凌为了让自己儿子有更多时间跟馨语在一起，早上出发的时候就叫韩皓轩开车去接她。此时，馨语正坐在韩皓轩的车内。 他们俩独处的时候，几乎是规律性的，都是馨语先找话题。两人见面聊天的次数也不少了，馨语对韩皓轩各个方面的兴趣爱好差不多了如指掌，但是，对于他感情方面的，她却知之甚少。虽然平时看馨语大大咧咧的，可更多时候，她还是保持着女人惯有的矜持。 “皓轩，我有个想法。”馨语好听的声音悠扬地在车内响起。 “什么想法？”一直不言的韩皓轩终于开口问道。 “我们十一一起去庐山玩，怎么样？”因为馨语初次遇见韩皓轩是在山脚下，所以很想趁着长假和他一起去爬山。另外，去过庐山的朋友都说那儿的风光很美，当时轰动一时的《庐山恋》也在那儿拍的，便有了去那儿的意向。 当然，馨语这个提议更多的是想增加他们俩的感情，虽然平时两人独处的时间不少，但都是吃吃饭聊个天的，一点也没浪漫的氛围，馨语想，是不是换个景色优美的浪漫地方，韩皓轩才能有所表示呢？ “嗯？”韩皓轩显然怔忪了一下，疑惑地望了望馨语，嘴角含笑，说，“到时候再说吧，还不知道有没有空。” “嗯……”馨语想了想，说，“好吧。”装作一副无所谓的样子，心里却有些失落。
到了饭店后，四人坐定，韩建荣夫妇跟馨语聊着天，韩皓轩偶尔应答几句。他在一旁观看着他们三人说笑的神情，很是欢喜，他脸上的表情不由得复杂起来，脸色有点沉郁。 吃完饭，韩皓轩送馨语回家后，便径直开车去单位。 到了办公室，韩皓轩猛地关上门，然后直接把自己陷进真皮座椅里，仰头望着天花板，清亮的眼睛里一片空茫。他随手拿过桌上的一盒烟，抽出一根，点燃，瞬间，烟雾弥漫，似乎迷蒙了他的双眼。他深深地吸了一口，再重重地吐出，眉头紧皱。 看着桌上一堆没有弄好的文件，他全然没了心思。神情忧郁，内心沉闷，好看的眉眼也挤到了一块。 韩皓轩拿开烟，在手上转了几下，将烟头在烟缸里使劲一摁，掐灭燃着的烟头，刹那间，细小的火苗在烟缸里扑腾了几下，最终还是熄灭了，宛如他此刻黯淡无光的眼睛。 他打开电脑，点开自己创办的网站，再随意浏览别的网站，漫无目的。他的脑中始终萦绕着一个影子，生生地跳跃在他的眼前，他想抓住，可不一会儿，又消失不见，他只觉得胸口一阵生疼，好似他失去了最珍贵的东西。
自从穆景言和若琳同住在一个小区后，她的生活便利了很多，比如下水道堵塞了，灯泡坏了，他都能轻松地帮她搞定。 为了表示感谢，若琳专门请穆景言吃饭。尽管穆景言再三推却，说那些对他来说只是举手之劳，但若琳仍固执己见。无奈，穆景言同意了下来，但条件是：必须是若琳亲手做的饭，他才吃。其实，他这么做，无非是想帮若琳省点钱。D市的消费一向很高，即便在普通的饭店就餐也是一笔不小的开销。本来，若琳现在这么不要命地赚钱，已经够让他心疼的了，他劝过她几次不要这么拼，他的钱不用急着还，但若琳往往是当时点头说好，之后仍然是成天不见踪影，就连周末还要去做兼职。他怎么能让这样的若琳请他吃饭？ 当然，若琳并不知晓穆景言的真实想法，只是笑着说：“我说怎么有人请客不领情呢，原来要求这么多！是不是怕在外面吃饭不卫生啊？” “是啊。”穆景言也笑。 “那好，今天晚上如果我能早点下班，我就亲自下厨给你做饭。不过，你可不要嫌我厨艺不精。” “哪会。有人请客就不错了，我不会那么不知好歹的。” “啧啧，原来你也学会开玩笑了。真想不到啊！”若琳听完便笑了。 “沈若琳同学，你不要老古董，人是会改变的。不要还把我当成只会一门心思啃书本的书呆子。” 是啊，有时候，人真的不得不感叹时间的力量，很多事情都会随着时间的流逝而改变，包括每个人的性格。 眼前的穆景言真的变了，不仅变得更加英俊成熟，而且笑容比从前更多了。不过，每次看到他笑，她总会不自觉地想起暗恋他的那些时光。 时间会改变一个人的性格，却改变不了一个人的特征，他那个可爱的小酒窝一直在，只要他轻轻勾一下嘴角。 如果真的有时光机的话，此刻，若琳多想回到高中时代，重新回味一次当时的感觉。而且，那时候即便有升学的压力，烦恼还没有现在多。 人越长大，越懂事，压力就会接踵而至。 如果，人永远不长大，多好！ 不过，这是永远也实现不了的期望。
若琳给饭店老板打电话请假时，老板的口气明显不是那么高兴。晚上一般是饭店的就餐高峰期，客人特别多，正是需要帮手的时候。但若琳以身体不舒服为由请假，他也不便多说什么，勉强同意了。 于是，一下班，若琳便急忙打卡，乘电梯下楼。她要赶回去买菜，然后下厨。 由于走得匆忙，在一楼大厅猛地撞到了一个人身上。 她正打算接受一番痛骂，没想到一阵熟悉又温柔的声音传来：“撞疼了吗？” 被撞的那个人不但没有责怪她，而且还百般关切地问她有没有被撞疼。 “没事儿，谢谢。”若琳抬头间，便看到了韩皓轩那张英俊逼人的脸。 “走这么急做什么？”韩皓轩问。 “呃……请一个很好很好的朋友吃饭。”若琳故意强调“很好”。 “哦？什么样的朋友？男性朋友？”韩皓轩显然很感兴趣。 “是啊，很好的男性朋友。”若琳故作很坦然地说。 “哦。”韩皓轩故意波澜不惊地说，然后说，“你们主编在吧？我找他有事，先不跟你聊了。” “他在。”若琳客气地回答。 “谢谢。”韩皓轩语气生硬地说完这句简短的话，便转身走向电梯，脊背挺直，头也不回。
不知怎的，望着韩皓轩的背影，若琳竟感到有点失落。她本以为他是过来找她的，谁知道他是来找主编的，根本与她无关！ 看来，她真的有些自作多情了。 他吻她，或许只是一时冲动，又或许只是当做业余消遣吧。 枉她还偶尔回想起那次被吻的经历，真是太傻了！ 初吻丢了不要紧，尊严千万不要丢！ 他韩皓轩算什么！天下比他好的男人多了去了。 就拿一点来说，韩皓轩就足够让若琳失望的，那就是吻了她却依旧跟馨语交往。嘴上说什么和馨语要断了联系，但根本做不到。男人真是说的比唱的好听。 若琳从馨语那里得知他俩和他父母经常一起聚会，不是打高尔夫球，就是去度假村泡温泉，接下来还打算趁十一去庐山游玩。他们显然已经是阖家欢聚、其乐融融了，简直过着神仙般的日子。还说什么把她带过去的地方是“人间天堂”，那里除了有条河，晚上有星星外还有什么？ 若琳越想越觉得难过。 最后只能用这样一句话开导自己：男人没几个好东西，都是谎话连篇的高级动物，与其指望男人付出真情，不如对自己好一点。
若琳一边想一边往公交车站走去，孰料在车站竟意外地遇到了穆景言。 “你怎么在这里啊？”若琳看到他觉得很吃惊。 “怕你跑掉，不请我吃饭啊。”穆景言开玩笑地说道，“说笑的，呵呵，其实是过来这附近办事。怎么？你就在这附近上班吗？” “是啊是啊。我们老是乘车时遇到，我们难道就是同坐一辆汽车的缘分吗？” “如果你想往更深的缘分挖掘，我不介意啊。”穆景言半开玩笑地说。 “我就知道，男人没一个好东西！”若琳咬牙切齿地说，其实很大程度上还是因为韩皓轩而生气。 “是哪个男人得罪你了吗？看你那样子好像要把人给吃了。”穆景言打量着若琳说。聪明如他，一眼便能看出若琳因何如此模样。应该是那天晚上送她回家的那个男人惹恼她了吧？正如那天一样，小两口吵架了吧。 “错了！我正因为看破红尘，知道男人没一个好东西，所以根本没有男人。我聪明吧，阿穆？”若琳故意大笑，笑得那样夸张，仿佛眼泪都要笑出来了。 这样的笑容，穆景言却看得分外心疼，他一把将若琳揽到怀里，很大方地说：“借胸膛给你靠。” “我靠，我才不要靠！”若琳挣脱他。 “女孩子，说什么脏话。”穆景言轻轻嗔道，语气却是那么轻柔。 若琳只有苦笑的份儿，其实她今天这么反常，完全是因为刚刚遇见了韩皓轩。
不过，她不知道的是，在她刚踏出办公楼之后，韩皓轩一直在看着她。
透过落地窗，韩皓轩望着楼下的那个小小的身影，不禁自嘲：她究竟有什么好？为什么他总是忘不掉？ 若琳所在杂志的主编方强跟韩皓轩的哥们儿秦天意关系一向不错，而若琳之所以能成为“方玲有约”杂志的专栏记者之一，当然与秦天意以及韩皓轩都脱不了干系。 这一切，韩皓轩自然不会告诉若琳。他知道她这个人的个性，倘若知道她现在的工作与他有那么一点关系，估计她会辞职吧？韩皓轩相信，她会做到这一点。所以，他干脆什么都不说，也禁止别人去说，只是默默地在背后帮助她。 他这次来这里其实根本不是来找方强的，而是找若琳的，结果她走那么匆忙的原因竟然是请一个很好的男性朋友吃饭，这着实惹恼了他。 他也有男人固有的自尊，虽说爱上一个人，自己便会低到尘埃里，但是他的自尊已经被若琳伤过那么多次了。这一次，韩皓轩努力说服自己，不要理她，装作全然不在乎她的样子，装作不是来找她的样子，然后毅然决然地走向电梯。
谁知道刚到方强的办公室，又忍不住探头看向楼下，寻找若琳的身影。 当那个小小的身影渐渐远去时，韩皓轩顿时觉得心里某个地方空了，连忙下楼去追她。 只是，他好不容易看到她时，她在做什么？ 她被别的男人揽在了怀里，并且跟那个男人打情骂俏！ 难道那就是她口中“很好很好的男性朋友”？ 韩皓轩疾步上前，想将若琳从那个男人身边拉开时，公交车刚好来了，他们俩已经上了车。 韩皓轩也想跟着上车，结果晚了几秒钟，庞大的公交汽车已经开走了。韩皓轩一边跑一边喊“停一下”，但是，他的努力还是白费了。最终，他只能眼睁睁地看着公交汽车的影子越来越小，越来越小，直至消失在视线中。 懊恼之余，韩皓轩对着空气狠狠地挥了一拳。
若琳和穆景言上车后，完全没有注意到有人在追他们乘的这辆公交车。 车上人很多，车内已没一个空位，站着的人也不少。他们就找了个相对比较空的地方站好，后面几站里，下去的人不多，倒是上来的人一拨接着一拨，车内的自由空间越来越小。 穆景言站在若琳的身旁，右手抓着头顶的扶手，由于身高的优势，抓着并不费劲。若琳站在他的左侧，单手抓着椅子的后背。 他们俩都望着窗外疾驰的车辆、后退的人们，沉默不语，仿佛各怀心事。 突然，司机一个急转弯，若琳脚下没站稳，一个趔趄，身子倒向一边，穆景言适时地伸出手扶住她，恰好放在了若琳的腰间，稳住她倾斜下来的身体。待司机将车又开稳后，若琳才发觉穆景言的手还没有离去，宽厚的掌心传来一阵热度，她的脸倏地一片潮红。穆景言的神情似乎有些慌乱，他急忙移开了自己的手，重新站好，脸上的表情有些许不自然。 由于人多的缘故，他们现在靠得很近，只一步之遥。她依稀能闻到自穆景言身上散发出来的薄荷香气，清清凉凉的。 穆景言放下手后，语气中带有一点歉意，说：“刚才冒犯了。” “没……没有。”若琳嘴角扯开一抹笑，支吾着说，停了停，低语道，“我该谢你才是。” 那一瞬间，当那阵温度覆上她腰间时，她脑中竟想起了另一个人，那个曾经将唇覆在她唇上温暖她也扰乱她内心的人，那个刚才头也不回走向电梯的人。但那个人也只不过是在脑中闪了一下便匆匆消失。她强迫自己不要去想这个人。 “那待会儿给我准备什么饭菜感谢我啊？”穆景言顺着若琳的话说。 “我的拿手好菜，现在暂时保密！”若琳故作玄虚地说。 “好啊，我等着。”穆景言满脸期待。
下了车，穆景言陪同若琳一起去菜场买菜，若琳负责砍价，穆景言负责拎买好的菜。两人配合得十分默契，像足了一起买菜的小夫妻。也难怪卖菜的大婶会说：“你们小两口还真会过日子，精打细算的。” 若琳和穆景言也不辩解，只是笑笑作为回应。 “其实咱们这样还不算精打细算。”回去的路上，穆景言说。 “那怎样才叫精打细算？”若琳不解。 “我俩合租的话才叫真正的精打细算，可以节省房租啊。”穆景言一本正经地说道。 “去你的！死家伙！故意占我便宜是不是！”若琳顿时面红耳赤地说。 “哪有？我说的是大实话。你不妨考虑考虑好不好？” “喂！小心我待会儿在饭菜里下耗子药给你吃。” “人家是为你着想，本着帮你节约的思想。”穆景言一脸无辜状。 “少来这一套，谢谢你的好意。” ... 两人边走边说，若琳也觉得心情好了很多。跟穆景言在一起，她的心情总是很放松，不像和韩皓轩在一起，总觉得有点像做坏事，像是在冒险。
若琳在厨房忙得不亦乐乎的时候，穆景言走过来问：“需不需要我帮忙？”
Han Haoxuan walked to the river bank, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and watched the flowing river quietly. The surroundings are quiet and silent, and everything seems to be in a peaceful state. Han Haoxuan turned his head and saw Ruolin was still standing beside the car, so he stretched out his hand and beckoned her over. When Ruolin came to Han Haoxuan's side and stopped, Han Haoxuan's magnetic voice sounded softly in the silent night: "What do you think of this place?" "It's beautiful." Ruolin smiled. "Is it like heaven on earth?" Han Haoxuan asked exaggeratedly, with a hint of joy in his expression. In fact, for him, this is his own paradise, a beautiful paradise full of innocence.He never told anyone about such a good place, let alone brought anyone here, but Ruolin was an exception. "It's like the purest dream." Ruolin was immersed in the beautiful scenery, so why wasn't this the best dream of her childhood?Roam freely in your own Garden of Eden, and if you can, you can meet your own Prince Charming, but everything is just the most beautiful vision in your youth. "Then what is your purest dream?" Han Haoxuan asked curiously. "Why did I tell you?" Ruo Lin curled her lips, but did not answer. Han Haoxuan looked directly at the river, with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, he didn't take Ruolin's words to heart, obviously he was used to Ruolin's attitude, after thinking for a while, he said: "I like this place very much. Memories of my childhood." "Childhood memories?" Ruo Lin looked at Han Haoxuan with wide eyes, feeling a little strange, how could there be such a clearing with his childhood memories?However, I still want to listen to him with great interest. "When I was young, my parents were busy with work, so they left me in the care of my grandparents. They used to have a semi-new villa nearby, but it was gone due to demolition. I didn't find out until I arrived at my grandparents' house. So there are so many fun in life." Han Haoxuan went on to say, his thoughts returned to the most innocent childhood.
In the past, due to their busy work, their parents always left Han Haoxuan alone at home with a nanny to take care of them.At that time, he was still in kindergarten, and he felt lonely when he came home from school, because there was no one to play with him, and it was difficult to find someone to talk to. One day, his parents saw that he was depressed all day long, so they planned to let him stay at grandma's house for a while during the summer vacation. Several families next to grandma's house have children, and they are as old as Han Haoxuan.They usually make an appointment in advance to come out to play together. Once a few children who are usually well behaved at home leave the house, they love to play more than anyone else.The adults told them a few words and let them play. Of course, these children are quite obedient, so the adults don't have to worry too much. Han Haoxuan still remembers the first time he went to play with his friends and got mud all over his body.Before this, he always liked to be clean, but this time, although the mud all over his body looked dirty, he was very happy in his heart.When I got home, it was obvious that my grandma would be nagging. Although grandma said that, she still helped him put on clean clothes, asked him if he had a good time, and told him not to be so naughty next time. Xiao Han Haoxuan tasted the joy of playing with his friends, so how could he let it go?He called his playmates to go out to play almost every day, and every time he had to have a good time before going back. Once, they walked for a while, and suddenly saw a clearing. There was a wide river in front of the clearing. At that time, they were very excited to see it. It was summer, so they rolled up their trouser legs, stepped in the water, and played with each other.You splash water on his face, and he splashes water on your face, until the other party's body is wet. This time they knew how to go back without being scolded by adults.They are all boys, and there is nothing to worry about.Before they go back, take off the clothes, twist them hard a few times, and then lay them flat on the open space.It happened that the summer sun was strong, and the clothes dried after a while, and they didn't go back until the clothes were dry.This method works well, but sometimes, they play late, the sun is almost down, and they can't use it anymore, they can only wait to be scolded.
That time, it was like this. Since Han Haoxuan discovered such a good place, he often brings his playmates here.At that time, he had a whim, seeing the adults fishing well, he thought, it should be more fun for them to go into the water to catch fish.He led the others into the water to catch fish. On the shore they could clearly see the fish swimming in the water, as if they were right in front of their eyes, as if they could catch them with just stretching out their hands.However, when they entered the water, the clever fish quickly ran away one by one, and disappeared without a trace in an instant.They couldn't help but wonder, how could the fish run so fast? At that time, they were not tall, and they did not dare to go into the deep water. They just played on the shore.In the process of constantly catching fish, Han Haoxuan's little feet stepped on the water, got stuck in the mud, and walked in the water with one deep foot and one shallow foot, making the clear river water gradually become turbid, which was still clearly visible at first The fish are no longer visible.After mastering the rules, he stood quietly in one place, and when the water became clear and he could see the fish again, he slowly bent down, leaned over, and slowly approached the water surface with his hands. Seeing that Yu'er was about to get it, but in the blink of an eye, his hand was empty, and Yu'er had slipped away without knowing when.This is often the case, so Han Haoxuan thought of a way, made a fishing tool by himself, found a long bamboo pole, and tied a net bag at the end.This is much better than catching with bare hands.The partners followed him and did the same.This method allowed them to catch a lot of fish.Although the fish are small, there is nothing to mention the cheerfulness in their hearts. In the evening, they were still playing, as if they were full of strength.Seeing that it was getting late, Han Haoxuan greeted his partners to go home, looked down at the soaked clothes, and shook their heads helplessly. When he got home, he would naturally be scolded, so Han Haoxuan pouted his mouth this time, arguing with grandma, saying that he came back so late to catch fish to make soup for grandma.Sure enough, grandma stopped talking, and stroked Han Haoxuan's little head with her old hand, with a smile on her face.Grandma may know that this little guy is lying, but she still feels very relieved to be able to tell such a beautiful lie.
The fireflies in that summer are also fond memories of Han Haoxuan. It was also an accidental discovery. The few of them were playing late, and one of the little friends saw something twinkling and twinkling, so he happily asked them to see it.He said that his favorite time to catch fireflies at night.That was the first time Han Haoxuan saw fireflies. He seldom went out at night before. Even if he did, he would not see fireflies in the noisy urban area.He felt very curious, and seeing his companions chasing after that little luminous body, he also followed in a hurry. The sky is getting dark, the stars are blinking in the sky, and there are more and more small fireflies on the ground, which seem to illuminate the dark night and add a lot of light.The fireflies like to hide in the grass on the ground and on the branches of willow trees. They think they are hiding very secretly, but the twinkling body betrays them. Han Haoxuan follows the light they emit and walks up to them cautiously. Come forward, then open your hands, pounce up, and catch him right. They found an old glass bottle, put the caught fireflies in the bottle, and then gently screwed on the cap to prevent them from escaping. With their concerted efforts, they caught a lot of fireflies in a short while.One of the little friends was holding a bottle, and they all sat around him, looking carefully at the poor fireflies in the bottle. The fireflies were sticking to the wall of the bottle, and seemed to want to escape. They might not know why they could see things outside. But he couldn't get out, so he kept hitting the bottle wall, doing useless work.However, Han Haoxuan and the others are still ignorant, they just think it's fun, watching the twinkling bodies of fireflies illuminate the transparent bottle, it's very beautiful.
That summer, the fair-skinned Han Haoxuan was so tanned that he looked like a little loach. Later, when the summer vacation was over and his parents wanted to take him away, he couldn't bear it at all, he couldn't bear his grandma, his friends, or his amusement park, but no matter how much he couldn't bear it, he still had to... Walk. On the day of leaving, while his parents were talking to his grandparents, Han Haoxuan slipped out secretly, called the gang of little guys, and went to the open space again, which was the last nostalgia. At that time, he still didn't understand the sadness of parting, he only knew that he was reluctant to leave here, and he had experienced all the happiness he never had before here.He thinks this place is much more fun than the amusement parks his parents took him to. Here he can play to his heart's content and be free. He feels that this is his real amusement park, a paradise on earth that he has never touched before. It was full of laughter and laughter, and there were too many good memories of him, which he could not forget.
Later, I can’t remember exactly when, it was going to be demolished, my grandma moved away, and my childhood playmates also moved away.Much later, when he went there again, thankfully, the clearing was still intact. Although his childhood playmates have disappeared, Han Haoxuan's childhood amusement park has always been there.
"I didn't expect your childhood to be so interesting. Looking at your gentle and elegant appearance, I never thought that you were so naughty when you were young. Listen to you, you were really cute when you were young." Ruolin smiled slightly, as if infected by the story Han Haoxuan told up. "Thinking about it now, I still find it so interesting. My childhood was not in vain." Han Haoxuan said, with a smile on his lips, paused for a while, turned his head and lowered his eyes slightly, looking at Ruolin, and said solemnly, "I've never brought anyone here before, and you're the first." Ruolin was in a trance for a moment, and her eyes were a little blurred. Looking at Han Haoxuan's serious look, she was speechless for a moment. The first one, in Ruolin's opinion, always contains countless meanings, but it is inconvenient to express it clearly. Han Haoxuan had a half-smile on his face, then he turned around and went to the trunk of the car to get a tablecloth, then walked to the shore, paved the table, and motioned for Ruo Lin to sit down. "He really has a heart." Ruolin smiled slightly, and then sat down. "I always carry it." Han Haoxuan grinned.
The moon is as bright as a clear crystal, shining with crystal light, which is projected on the water. Ruolin seemed to be immersed in such beautiful scenery, and the gate of her memory was opened. It was the same beautiful night, with the full moon hanging in the sky, but it was already winter, and it was very cold. After evening self-study, Ruolin sat on the corridor quietly waiting for Mu Jingyan. Today is Mu Jingyan's birthday, after she learned about it from her classmates, she carefully prepared a gift for him.She was short of money at the time, and the gift was homemade, very common, but it took her almost a month of spare time to make it. She was afraid that her little secret would be known by others, so when the teacher was empty after class at noon, she secretly put a small note in Mu Jingyan's book, and wrote down the place and time one by one without signing it. . Thinking about it now, that was the most daring thing she ever did besides replacing Xin Yu on a blind date.She thought her crush would end after that, but it didn't. Ruolin held the gift in her arms, and still sat in an inconspicuous corner.The cold wind blew on her face, causing slight pain, but Ruolin's heart was warm. Just around the fifteenth day, the moon was particularly round, reflected on the water, like a golden plate, and like yellow wheat ears in autumn, so heavy, it seemed to penetrate into Ruolin's heart, and a radiant glow was born in her heart. hope. At that moment, how she wished that they would become a whole like a full moon in the future, with endless rays of light emitting from their bodies. She once wrote in her diary: You are the first quarter moon, and I am the last quarter moon. If one day, I hope that we will become one and become a full moon.Because there is no intersection between the first quarter moon and the last quarter moon, they are lonely and incomplete bodies that have been missed.
The chatter and laughter of the students in my ears gradually died down, and I occasionally saw a few sweet couples passing by, Ruolin's hopeful heart began to sink little by little. She knew that this was his last birthday at school, and it was uncertain whether they could meet in the future.She just wanted him to remember her, to remember that there was a girl who stayed for him one day.This kind of remembering should not be permanent, even for a moment, she is enough. The wind is blowing coldly, and the brilliance of the moon on the river seems to be slowly dissipating.Ruolin looked up at the sky, the night sky was very dark, without a single star, but the moon was still very round, embellishing the sky and emitting a soft light. Her hands were tightly clasped, as cold as ice.But the gift was tightly wrapped in his arms, for fear that the cold wind would take away the meager warmth above.
The campus began to quiet down, there was no sound of students walking around, and it was almost time to turn off the lights in the dormitory.Ruolin's heart began to feel a little impatient, complaining why Mu Jingyan didn't come yet. This time, she came here with full hopes.She thought it was just a small gift as a classmate, and he should come. But, he didn't come after all. Ruolin walked back to the dormitory resentfully, stepping on the clear light of the moon, the lights of the dormitory were already turned off at that time, she walked in tiptoe.Fortunately, everyone in the dormitory was chatting, and no one noticed that she went back so late. She tossed and turned in bed at night, unable to fall asleep. She didn't know why he didn't come. After waiting for so long, it was still nothing. She thought, maybe, she is not his last quarter moon after all, and he is not her first quarter moon after all. They are destined to reincarnate lonely on staggered trajectories. However, Ruolin felt a little lucky that Mu Jingyan didn't come, she didn't know what she could say to him if he really came.
The next day, when Ruolin was talking to the people behind her, she secretly looked at the familiar desk. Mu Jingyan was still buried in his book, his expression was not much different from usual, as if nothing had happened.Only then did Ruolin's heart relax slowly, seeing his expression, she felt that the reason why he didn't come didn't seem so important. This matter, like plain boiled water in ordinary times, passed without any heat.After that, Ruolin never did similar things again, and Mu Jingyan never came to Ruolin, they were as usual. However, Ruolin still has a crush on him.
"What are you thinking?" Han Haoxuan's pleasant voice interrupted Ruolin's thoughts. "...Oh." Ruo Lin regained her composure, and replied in a low voice, with a faint smile on her face, and said, "It's nothing." "Can you tell me about your childhood?" Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin and asked. "..." Ruolin's clear eyes dimmed suddenly. She didn't want to think about those gloomy times. Now that someone asked her, her memory has nowhere to hide. She had a happy childhood, accompanied by her parents and younger sister, but later... She didn't want to recall that unbearable past. Compared with Han Haoxuan's childhood, her childhood was quite miserable, like the desolate wind in autumn, even the last fallen leaf on the ground would be taken away.Ruolin thought that if her father hadn't left, perhaps her childhood would have been so beautiful, but in reality, there was no such thing. "Why aren't you talking?" Han Haoxuan asked gently. "When I was young, my father left us, thinking that he would come back soon, but after more than ten years, he still hasn't come back." Ruo Lin said in a low voice, with a look of sadness on her face. "..." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin with a sad face, full of self-blame in his heart, but when he asked how he knew this would happen, he said guiltily, "I'm sorry." His tone was sincere. "You don't need to tell me you're sorry." Ruo Lin waved off the sadness on her face, and tried her best to make a smile on the corner of her mouth, "It's all in the past." "Look." Han Haoxuan pointed at the night sky, distracting Ruolin's attention. "Huh?" Ruo Lin was surprised, then looked up. Ruolin carefully looked at the starry night sky and the moon surrounded by stars. Based on her knowledge of geography, she speculated that this should be the last quarter moon. nice. "You can't see such a beautiful night view in an urban area full of tall buildings?" Han Haoxuan said. "En." Ruolin nodded, with a hint of a smile in her eyes. It has been a long time since Ruolin hasn't relaxed her body and mind. She shuttles between work, restaurants, the little girl's house, and her own home every day. She is as busy as a spinning top. Even if she is tired and suffering, she can't help but take a break. This time, someone finally gave her a mental and physical vacation. "Do you like watching the stars?" Han Haoxuan asked looking at the night sky.His dark eyes were like stars in the night sky, with little stars lingering in them. Ruolin nodded and said: "When I was young, I liked counting stars, one, two, three... I just kept counting until my eyes got tired. Later, I wanted to..." Halfway through, Ruolin stopped suddenly and stopped talking. "What happened later? Why didn't you say anything?" Han Haoxuan asked softly. "Later, I just wanted to pick off these stars and keep them for myself." Ruolin made up unrealistic lies, but in fact, later, she wanted to count the stars with the person she loved.But she didn't want to tell Han Haoxuan this true thought, or else, she didn't know what he would think.However, she couldn't deny that Han Haoxuan was the first man to watch the stars with her. "If you like this place, you can come again next time." Han Haoxuan said the invitation like a host. "This is the place where you recall your beautiful childhood. If I come, won't I destroy your ideal paradise on earth?" Ruolin smiled slightly. "No." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin, with tenderness in his eyes, and said in a low voice, "You can also be a part of this paradise." The low words seemed to have infinite bewitching power, gently knocking on Ruolin's heart, making her heart tremble slightly.
Ruolin looked at the man sitting next to her, with a handsome face; deep and bright eyes, shining like stars; a gentle smile, like the warm sun in the cold winter, reaching people's hearts. The breeze blows gently, and they are so close, Ruolin can faintly smell the faint fresh smell emanating from Han Haoxuan's body, it seems to be mint or vanilla, it is indistinguishable, but it is a unique smell, which makes people feel I can't help but feel comfortable after smelling it. The two of them looked at each other, and the moonlight fell on them, smudged with a faint golden layer. Han Haoxuan looked at Ruo Lin with deep, burning eyes, as if a cluster of small flames were burning inside, and his face looked even more handsome under the moonlight. The surrounding area was silent, except for the occasional rustling of insects and their slightly rapid breathing.Ruolin only felt that Han Haoxuan's eyes were burning hot, as if they were burning her heart, and the heat gradually increased. "Crack!" A slight voice resounded in the silent atmosphere, still clearly heard in Ruo Lin's ear.Han Haoxuan saw the mosquitoes that had been circling Ruolin's ears, so he stretched out his hands and patted them lightly. "Mosquito." Han Haoxuan said with a slight smile, his voice was soft, like a lullaby played by a piano, making people drowsy after listening to it. The breeze brought by Han Haoxuan's clapping palms not only did not cool down Ruo Lin's hot heart, but felt the ears burning hot, and a blush suddenly rose on his face.Han Haoxuan's body that came over suddenly was so close to her, his breath seemed to be close at hand, his deep eyes looked straight at Ruo Lin, with tenderness like water. At this moment, in this empty place, Ruolin felt as if there were only the two of them left in the world.The breeze was blowing on her face, but it couldn't blow away those two blushes, nor could it blow away the heat in her heart.Her heart began to feel a little flustered, and the palms of her hands were sweating unknowingly, sticky. Before Ruolin could react, that handsome face fell down, and the aura on her body was so familiar, it reminded her of the scene in the bar.However, in a flash, all the thoughts in her mind began to freeze.Soft lips touched her lips lightly, and a breath that only belonged to a man swept over her. Han Haoxuan gently embraced Ruolin, and put his hands on her back. Through the thin clothes, Ruolin could feel the burning heat of his palms, which made her back gradually heat up until it spread all over her body.Her body trembled violently, her heart beating wildly. Ruolin has never experienced such passion, and feels that all this is just her illusion.She opened her eyes, but she really saw this gentle man. His eyes were slightly closed, and he looked very focused and serious. The halo of the moon poured on his face, making the lines on his face look softer. . Han Haoxuan's movements were extremely gentle, as if what he touched was the most precious treasure. He lingered on Ruolin's soft lips, trying to penetrate again, but felt that there were hands resisting on his chest.Han Haoxuan opened his eyes, looked at Ruo Lin who was full of stubbornness in his eyes, and then reluctantly moved away from the warmth, his eyes were deep, like a deep lake, filled with tenderness. Ruolin couldn't stop her frenzied heart, she lowered her head and didn't look at Han Haoxuan.The atmosphere suddenly became awkward.Endless guilt suddenly sprouted in her heart. She didn't understand why she didn't refuse that kiss just now, but it wasn't as simple as curiosity.When Han Haoxuan wanted to snatch the warmth from her lips again, a shadow suddenly flashed in her mind, and she woke up suddenly, and pushed him away suddenly. Han Haoxuan is not Ruo Lin's boyfriend, but he stole her first kiss.At that moment, her city was captured by him.
Ruolin clenched her hands tightly, a thin layer of sweat came out of her palms, she bit her lower lip with her teeth, her rosy lips gradually turned white, leaving a row of shallow tooth marks.She shifted her gaze to the broad river, and after a long time, her heart slowly calmed down. "You are really good." After a long while, Ruolin broke the awkward atmosphere and smiled slightly. She turned her head and saw Han Haoxuan's suspicious gaze. She was afraid that he would misunderstand, so she hurriedly explained, "You are really good at slapping mosquitoes. You can slap mosquitoes with one hand." It is comparable to three dead." "Oh..." Han Haoxuan smiled suddenly, with a slightly unnatural expression.It's not that he has never kissed his girlfriend before, but this kiss made him feel very subtle and sweet, and he was surprised and pleasantly surprised for a while.It's just that he didn't understand why she would suddenly push him away, so he felt a little depressed.
The two looked at the river in front of them, and occasionally looked up at the stars in the sky, but they didn't say anything. The two of them just sat there for a while, Ruo Lin proposed to go back, Han Haoxuan put away the tablecloth spread on the floor, and drove her back. The air conditioner was turned on in the car, and the surrounding area was extremely quiet, and the "hissing" sound of the air conditioner could be heard.The two were basically in a state of silence, but in fact they both had their own concerns. After driving into the urban area, Ruolin originally wanted to ask Han Haoxuan to stop at an intersection, but it was so late and the bus had long since disappeared, it was convenient to stop here to take a taxi.But Han Haoxuan didn't stop, and asked her address directly. Seeing his serious expression, Ruolin didn't care. Thinking about it, it would cost a lot of money to take a taxi, so forget it, and told him her address.
Han Haoxuan stopped his car in front of an extremely ordinary neighborhood. After Ruolin thanked her, she hurriedly wanted to open the car door. At this moment, Han Haoxuan got out of the car and helped her open the car door. He looked very gentlemanly, with a gentle smile, like the sunshine in spring. "So you live here." Han Haoxuan remembered sending Ruolin home once a long time ago, but at that time, her identity was "Fake Xinyu". In order to act more realistically, she asked him to send her to Xinyu. s home. "That's right, Young Master Han must be used to living in a villa, and he has never been to this kind of place, right?" "You misunderstood, I didn't mean that. I just thought, I finally know where you live, and it will be more convenient to visit you in the future." "No need." "I'll take you in." "No need, it's already late today, and I'm tired, I want to rest early." Ruolin felt that Han Haoxuan's behavior had gone a little too far today, and she didn't really want to give him any more time to be alone. Han Haoxuan didn't force it, but just said lightly: "Then don't disturb your rest, and come to visit another day." "I'm a drifter. I don't have a fixed house. I might move someday. You don't have to come here, and there's no need to come here. It's best..." Ruolin paused, and then said, "It's best that we don't meet again in the future. gone." "Is it because of Xin Yu?" Han Haoxuan asked.That kiss tonight clearly showed that she also had feelings for him. Obviously, she avoided him not because she didn't like him or understood him, but because of other reasons. "..." Ruolin remained silent. "If you refuse to meet me because of her, then I won't be in touch with her in the future. There is really nothing between me and her. I just... just try to date her, and then forget you, but , I found that I can't do it at all..." A trace of sadness emerged between Han Haoxuan's eyebrows and eyes. "I'm sorry, I don't understand what you're talking about. I should go back." Ruo Lin hurriedly stopped Han Haoxuan from continuing. After saying this, Ruo Lin turned around to leave, but was stopped by Han Haoxuan. With such great strength, he easily pulled her in front of him. He put his hands on her shoulders and looked down at her condescendingly: "Do you really not understand what I'm talking about? Don't pretend to be stupid, okay?" "Please don't touch me, okay?" Ruo Lin tried her best to shake him off, but he held on so tightly, as if she wanted to crush her bones. "If you don't care about me at all, why didn't you refuse when I kissed you just now? Huh?" Han Haoxuan's dark eyes merged with the surrounding night, making him look more and more melancholy. "I'll say it again, please take your hand away!" Ruolin said pretending to be calm. Han Haoxuan sighed deeply, and finally let go of his hand. If she wanted to leave, he could only let her go. Why can't he grasp the person he likes every time?An Xi was also so calm when she left him, and Ruo Lin, who had kissed him passionately just now, can also leave in peace. It would be great if he could also be so calm.
Ruolin didn't even say goodbye to him, she just turned around and walked into the community, blending into the busy night. Han Haoxuan could only watch her back silently. Although she was very indifferent and cruel to him, his eyes still did not deviate a bit, locked tightly on Ruo Lin, and there was still a trace of nostalgia in his eyes. It wasn't until the hurried figure turned into the community that Han Haoxuan drove away.
Mu Jingyan was worried that Ruolin hadn't come home so late to check out the gate of the community, but he didn't expect to see a man driving her home in a luxury car. With his intuition, this man should have an unusual relationship with Ruolin. They talked for a while, but they couldn't make out what they were talking about. It should be sweet talk, right?Just when Ruolin turned to leave, the man caught her unexpectedly, and then there seemed to be some quarrel between the two. At that time, Mu Jingyan really had the urge to go forward and pull that man away. How could the girl who was as precious as crystal in his heart be dragged to him by that man like an eagle catching a chick?That man looks well-dressed, does he understand what it means to be sympathetic to the fragrance and cherish the jade? Mu Jingyan couldn't help but clenched his fists, and frowned slightly. But think about it carefully, if the young couple quarrels, is he worthy to intervene? So Mu Jingyan could only sigh inwardly, turned his face away, and prepared to walk back.
"Amu." After a while, a crisp voice sounded from behind Mu Jingyan. Hearing her call him "Amu", Mu Jingyan's heart suddenly warmed up. He stopped, turned slightly sideways, turned his head to look at her, and pretended to meet her by chance: "I'm back." "Yeah." Ruo Lin replied softly, and then asked, "You came back so late, too?" "Yeah, I have something to do at work today, so I've been working overtime until now." Mu Jingyan lied on purpose.In fact, he planned to go out to dinner with Ruo Lin tonight, but he called her cell phone to tell her to turn it off, and no one responded when he visited her house.Out of worry, he waited for Ruo Lin near the neighborhood after dinner.Who knew that it was so coincidental to see her flower protector send her home.It seems that he is really a little worried. "It's been so hard, let your boss raise your salary!" Ruo Lin laughed. "Capitalists are best at exploitation, so they won't raise salary easily." Mu Jingyan smiled, and then changed the subject, "By the way, why did you come back so late?" "Oh, it's the child's birthday today, and her parents left me to have dinner at their house, so I came back late." Ruo Lin has never been good at lying, and her face turned red when she said the words.Fortunately, it was night, he couldn't see her expression clearly, she was secretly glad. "Oh..." Since she didn't want to tell the truth, Mu Jingyan didn't want to expose her, even though he was somewhat curious about that man, and of course, it was undeniable that there was also a bit of jealousy mixed in.I thought I would get the moon first if I was close to the water, but who would have thought that I would be snatched first by others.He was slightly depressed.
When she got home, Ruolin went to the bathroom to wash her face, looked at herself in the mirror, her face was tired, but still pretty.There were wet drops of water on her bangs, sticking to her forehead one by one. She gently stroked her bangs aside with her hands, as if she wanted to see her face clearly.After staring at herself in the mirror for a while, she finally touched her rosy lips with the pulp of her index finger. It seemed that the tenderness of that moment still remained on it, and the expression on her face was unpredictable. That kiss, she thought it was an illusion created in a dim night, it was just a wrong kiss and had nothing to do with love. Even though Ruolin thought so, the guilt in her heart was still strong, she didn't know if this counted as seizing someone's love, her heart was tangled together, like a mess, and she couldn't stop trying to figure it out.She thought, if the blind date hadn't been replaced by Xin Yu, things might not have become so complicated. She took another handful of water with her hand, and splashed it on her face, and the water droplets immediately touched her face, which was crystal clear, like dewdrops on a lotus leaf.However, her expression was still a little gloomy.
Although Ruolin resisted Han Haoxuan somewhat, he still relished this night very much.After all, it was the first time he took a girl to his kingdom.I used to say that I would take Anxi there, but Anxi always said with a disapproving attitude: "I don't want to go to such a remote place!" When getting along with Anxi, Anxi always has a high-ranking attitude, and he has to let everything go, but he never feels tired and still enjoys it.Perhaps, this is the so-called love?Immersed in the world of love, you will forget who you are, and only regard the person you love as the queen. However, Anxi also liked to cling to him. When she was not in class, she would always sneak into his classroom and sit next to him.Sometimes, I pretended to be listening to the class seriously, and sometimes I made trouble, pinching his nose, pulling his ears... Looking back now, Anxi is still so vivid in my memory. She is always so sweet and beautiful when she smiles. In fact, when Ruolin smiles, she looks very much like Anxi, with her eyes bent into a bridge.However, she seldom smiled, she just looked at him coldly, and seldom showed a gentle expression. He really doesn't know what is her heart made of, is it a hard-to-melt ice?
The next day, when everyone was resting, Han Jianrong invited a few friends to play golf together, and Xu Ling suggested that Han Haoxuan bring Xinyu with him.Han Haoxuan had no way of refusing his parents' wishes. To put it bluntly, there was no reason to refuse.If Ruolin agrees to date him, he can take her home and tell his parents that she is the one he likes.But now, Ruolin has always been icy towards him, in this way, there is not much difference between him dating any other girl. Although this is somewhat unfair to Xin Yu, how can it be fair in the world of feelings? 安茜说分手的时候，他纵然有万般不舍，但安茜还不是毫不回头地走了。 现在他努力去追求若琳，她却不答理他。他如果不主动找她，她甚至连个问候的电话都不会给他打。 这些对韩皓轩就公平吗？ 在爱的世界里，谁陷进去了，谁陷得越深，谁就会面临不公平的待遇。
无论怎样，生活总要继续下去。 假使他不能和心爱的女孩在一起，也得顾及父母的想法，必须为韩家后代着想，随便找个女子过平凡的一生。 而，如果这样的女子是馨语那样知书达理又不失活泼，同时又有共同语言的女人，也不失为一个好的选择。
一行人到了高尔夫球场后，韩建荣先向各位朋友介绍了自己未来的儿媳妇馨语，众人皆夸馨语长得端庄漂亮，韩建荣夫妇脸上洋溢着笑容，很有满足感。 虽然馨语以前来过这样的高级场所，但对打高尔夫并不精通，握杆的姿势她自是会，可如何精准地将球打入洞中便成问题了。 韩皓轩在一旁看着馨语握杆的姿势到位，显然一副很熟练的模样，但当球杆挥出去的时候，球总会偏移方向，有几次，球还在洞口边缘转了几圈但就是不进去。馨语觉得有些懊恼，站直身，将球杆放在她的腰侧，望着一旁的韩皓轩，眼睛里有一丝求助的意味。 韩皓轩并不急着上去帮她，愣了一会儿。这时，许凌推了推韩皓轩，低语道：“发什么愣，还不去教教她。”韩皓轩这才转头望了望许凌，心领神会般的笑了笑，然后，走向馨语。 韩皓轩跟馨语说了挥球时应该注意的一些要领，让她试试看，果然，在韩皓轩的指点下，馨语终于进球了。 “哇，太棒了！我居然进球了！”馨语不由得欢呼道，然后她兴奋地抱着韩皓轩的胳膊说，“你教的方法真是太管用了！以后你多带我过来吧！” 韩皓轩并不回答，只是不置可否地轻轻笑了笑。请原谅他的自私，他暂时还不想给她任何承诺。 馨语顿时感到有点尴尬，有些微的不自在，松开了抱着他的手。
“建容兄啊，你家真是找了个既漂亮又聪明的儿媳妇。”韩建荣的朋友老张见馨语又进了一杆漂亮的球，忍不住赞道。 “听你太太说，她出身于书香世家，果真如此，一看就是个有修养内涵的人。”张夫人接上话头，顿了顿，长长地叹了口气，眼眸低垂，再抬头望了望韩建荣夫妇，说，“你可知道我那儿媳妇……” “怎么了？”许凌讶异地问道，“前段时间两人不是刚结婚吗？” “结婚前，我儿子竟然没有跟我说实话，我那儿媳哪是出身名门啊，那岂不说，还是单亲家庭，家里是穷得叮当响，还有弟弟妹妹，这不都成了她的拖油瓶，有事没事都找她帮忙。”张夫人无奈地摇了摇头，继续说，“都说家丑不可外扬，这次我家的丑算是出大了。” “那你们当初怎么不调查清楚就稀里糊涂地要了那么个儿媳，门不当户不对的。”许凌也替张夫人感到惋惜。 “话是这么说，但当时我们也没想那么多啊，谁知道自己一向信任的儿子会跟我们说谎呢。现在，因为家庭的缘故闹了不少矛盾，儿子在别人面前也知道要面子了，每逢朋友提及自己的老婆时，脸上也无光。我们也是，脸真是丢大了。”张夫人抱怨道，接着，她望了望馨语，脸上露出一种羡慕万分的表情，对许凌说，“还是你家找对了人。” “嗯，我儿子的福气。”许凌拍了拍韩皓轩的肩膀，笑道。 韩皓轩的眼神有些游移，仿佛沉浸在自己的思绪里，脸色也不太好看，许凌轻轻地一拍，他不禁微微颤了一下。他转头看了看一脸灿烂笑容的馨语，心突然变得沉重起来，眼眸深邃如幽潭。 馨语往韩皓轩身边靠了靠，两人并肩站着，一对俊男靓女，很般配。只是，两人的表情却大相径庭，馨语被别人的赞美声环绕，没有注意到韩皓轩脸上的表情起了变化。
韩皓轩隐去脸上的神情，拿起一个球杆，弯下腰，握好，眼睛专注地看着前方的洞，一副熟稔的样子，再猛地一挥拍，球在洞口回旋了几圈，最后还是落入洞中。他不停地挥杆，接下来的几次都不如人意，不知是不是他注意力不集中，都没有入洞，他便有些气馁地放下球杆，坐在休息椅上看别人打。 他拧开一瓶矿泉水，喝上几口，拿过一条毛巾擦了擦汗，这时，馨语放下了手中的球杆，坐了过来。 “怎么不打了？”馨语问道，“后面几球你好像打得心不在焉。”心细的馨语还是发觉到韩皓轩有些不太对劲。 韩皓轩皱了皱眉，迟疑了会儿，说：“找不到第一次挥杆时的感觉。”为何找不到，也只有他自己知道。 “你打球也要凭感觉？”馨语笑了笑，说，“你教我挥杆的诀窍那么灵，自己不会忘用了吧？” “哪有什么诀窍，我技术平平。”韩皓轩谦虚地说。平常他打球，算是高手，今日，他的发挥着实有些不正常。 “馨语啊，你的领悟能力还真强，刚才经皓轩一点拨，你现在倒是进了不少球啊。”许凌不知何时已走到他们身边，夸奖自己的儿媳妇，看着别人羡慕自己有个好儿媳，她脸上自然有光彩，心里乐呵呵的。 “伯母过奖了。”馨语的眼角笑意盈盈，看了看身旁的韩皓轩，自是很满足。韩皓轩的模样英俊、温文尔雅，额头微微渗出细密的汗，显出了男人运动后独有的魅力。 第二次相遇时，馨语就认定了这个男人，不知是不是机缘巧合，她总觉得一切来得都很戏剧化，但，戏剧化中的男主却正是她要寻找的那个白马王子。 “皓轩，咱有这么好的儿媳，你可要好好珍惜啊。”许凌对馨语笑了笑，再望着韩皓轩，说道。 “……”韩皓轩嘴角勉强露出笑容，不言。
选人如选衣，挑来拣去总算找了件好的，我们应该要珍惜。可是，如果选的不是理想中的型号时，我们是该留着还是该退货？
打完球后，大家各自换好衣服，互相说了几句道别的客套话，再相继走出球馆，准备去吃饭。 韩建荣夫妇自然是带上馨语一起去，许凌为了让自己儿子有更多时间跟馨语在一起，早上出发的时候就叫韩皓轩开车去接她。此时，馨语正坐在韩皓轩的车内。 他们俩独处的时候，几乎是规律性的，都是馨语先找话题。两人见面聊天的次数也不少了，馨语对韩皓轩各个方面的兴趣爱好差不多了如指掌，但是，对于他感情方面的，她却知之甚少。虽然平时看馨语大大咧咧的，可更多时候，她还是保持着女人惯有的矜持。 “皓轩，我有个想法。”馨语好听的声音悠扬地在车内响起。 “什么想法？”一直不言的韩皓轩终于开口问道。 “我们十一一起去庐山玩，怎么样？”因为馨语初次遇见韩皓轩是在山脚下，所以很想趁着长假和他一起去爬山。另外，去过庐山的朋友都说那儿的风光很美，当时轰动一时的《庐山恋》也在那儿拍的，便有了去那儿的意向。 当然，馨语这个提议更多的是想增加他们俩的感情，虽然平时两人独处的时间不少，但都是吃吃饭聊个天的，一点也没浪漫的氛围，馨语想，是不是换个景色优美的浪漫地方，韩皓轩才能有所表示呢？ “嗯？”韩皓轩显然怔忪了一下，疑惑地望了望馨语，嘴角含笑，说，“到时候再说吧，还不知道有没有空。” “嗯……”馨语想了想，说，“好吧。”装作一副无所谓的样子，心里却有些失落。
到了饭店后，四人坐定，韩建荣夫妇跟馨语聊着天，韩皓轩偶尔应答几句。他在一旁观看着他们三人说笑的神情，很是欢喜，他脸上的表情不由得复杂起来，脸色有点沉郁。 吃完饭，韩皓轩送馨语回家后，便径直开车去单位。 到了办公室，韩皓轩猛地关上门，然后直接把自己陷进真皮座椅里，仰头望着天花板，清亮的眼睛里一片空茫。他随手拿过桌上的一盒烟，抽出一根，点燃，瞬间，烟雾弥漫，似乎迷蒙了他的双眼。他深深地吸了一口，再重重地吐出，眉头紧皱。 看着桌上一堆没有弄好的文件，他全然没了心思。神情忧郁，内心沉闷，好看的眉眼也挤到了一块。 韩皓轩拿开烟，在手上转了几下，将烟头在烟缸里使劲一摁，掐灭燃着的烟头，刹那间，细小的火苗在烟缸里扑腾了几下，最终还是熄灭了，宛如他此刻黯淡无光的眼睛。 他打开电脑，点开自己创办的网站，再随意浏览别的网站，漫无目的。他的脑中始终萦绕着一个影子，生生地跳跃在他的眼前，他想抓住，可不一会儿，又消失不见，他只觉得胸口一阵生疼，好似他失去了最珍贵的东西。
自从穆景言和若琳同住在一个小区后，她的生活便利了很多，比如下水道堵塞了，灯泡坏了，他都能轻松地帮她搞定。 为了表示感谢，若琳专门请穆景言吃饭。尽管穆景言再三推却，说那些对他来说只是举手之劳，但若琳仍固执己见。无奈，穆景言同意了下来，但条件是：必须是若琳亲手做的饭，他才吃。其实，他这么做，无非是想帮若琳省点钱。D市的消费一向很高，即便在普通的饭店就餐也是一笔不小的开销。本来，若琳现在这么不要命地赚钱，已经够让他心疼的了，他劝过她几次不要这么拼，他的钱不用急着还，但若琳往往是当时点头说好，之后仍然是成天不见踪影，就连周末还要去做兼职。他怎么能让这样的若琳请他吃饭？ 当然，若琳并不知晓穆景言的真实想法，只是笑着说：“我说怎么有人请客不领情呢，原来要求这么多！是不是怕在外面吃饭不卫生啊？” “是啊。”穆景言也笑。 “那好，今天晚上如果我能早点下班，我就亲自下厨给你做饭。不过，你可不要嫌我厨艺不精。” “哪会。有人请客就不错了，我不会那么不知好歹的。” “啧啧，原来你也学会开玩笑了。真想不到啊！”若琳听完便笑了。 “沈若琳同学，你不要老古董，人是会改变的。不要还把我当成只会一门心思啃书本的书呆子。” 是啊，有时候，人真的不得不感叹时间的力量，很多事情都会随着时间的流逝而改变，包括每个人的性格。 眼前的穆景言真的变了，不仅变得更加英俊成熟，而且笑容比从前更多了。不过，每次看到他笑，她总会不自觉地想起暗恋他的那些时光。 时间会改变一个人的性格，却改变不了一个人的特征，他那个可爱的小酒窝一直在，只要他轻轻勾一下嘴角。 如果真的有时光机的话，此刻，若琳多想回到高中时代，重新回味一次当时的感觉。而且，那时候即便有升学的压力，烦恼还没有现在多。 人越长大，越懂事，压力就会接踵而至。 如果，人永远不长大，多好！ 不过，这是永远也实现不了的期望。
若琳给饭店老板打电话请假时，老板的口气明显不是那么高兴。晚上一般是饭店的就餐高峰期，客人特别多，正是需要帮手的时候。但若琳以身体不舒服为由请假，他也不便多说什么，勉强同意了。 于是，一下班，若琳便急忙打卡，乘电梯下楼。她要赶回去买菜，然后下厨。 由于走得匆忙，在一楼大厅猛地撞到了一个人身上。 她正打算接受一番痛骂，没想到一阵熟悉又温柔的声音传来：“撞疼了吗？” 被撞的那个人不但没有责怪她，而且还百般关切地问她有没有被撞疼。 “没事儿，谢谢。”若琳抬头间，便看到了韩皓轩那张英俊逼人的脸。 “走这么急做什么？”韩皓轩问。 “呃……请一个很好很好的朋友吃饭。”若琳故意强调“很好”。 “哦？什么样的朋友？男性朋友？”韩皓轩显然很感兴趣。 “是啊，很好的男性朋友。”若琳故作很坦然地说。 “哦。”韩皓轩故意波澜不惊地说，然后说，“你们主编在吧？我找他有事，先不跟你聊了。” “他在。”若琳客气地回答。 “谢谢。”韩皓轩语气生硬地说完这句简短的话，便转身走向电梯，脊背挺直，头也不回。
不知怎的，望着韩皓轩的背影，若琳竟感到有点失落。她本以为他是过来找她的，谁知道他是来找主编的，根本与她无关！ 看来，她真的有些自作多情了。 他吻她，或许只是一时冲动，又或许只是当做业余消遣吧。 枉她还偶尔回想起那次被吻的经历，真是太傻了！ 初吻丢了不要紧，尊严千万不要丢！ 他韩皓轩算什么！天下比他好的男人多了去了。 就拿一点来说，韩皓轩就足够让若琳失望的，那就是吻了她却依旧跟馨语交往。嘴上说什么和馨语要断了联系，但根本做不到。男人真是说的比唱的好听。 若琳从馨语那里得知他俩和他父母经常一起聚会，不是打高尔夫球，就是去度假村泡温泉，接下来还打算趁十一去庐山游玩。他们显然已经是阖家欢聚、其乐融融了，简直过着神仙般的日子。还说什么把她带过去的地方是“人间天堂”，那里除了有条河，晚上有星星外还有什么？ 若琳越想越觉得难过。 最后只能用这样一句话开导自己：男人没几个好东西，都是谎话连篇的高级动物，与其指望男人付出真情，不如对自己好一点。
若琳一边想一边往公交车站走去，孰料在车站竟意外地遇到了穆景言。 “你怎么在这里啊？”若琳看到他觉得很吃惊。 “怕你跑掉，不请我吃饭啊。”穆景言开玩笑地说道，“说笑的，呵呵，其实是过来这附近办事。怎么？你就在这附近上班吗？” “是啊是啊。我们老是乘车时遇到，我们难道就是同坐一辆汽车的缘分吗？” “如果你想往更深的缘分挖掘，我不介意啊。”穆景言半开玩笑地说。 “我就知道，男人没一个好东西！”若琳咬牙切齿地说，其实很大程度上还是因为韩皓轩而生气。 “是哪个男人得罪你了吗？看你那样子好像要把人给吃了。”穆景言打量着若琳说。聪明如他，一眼便能看出若琳因何如此模样。应该是那天晚上送她回家的那个男人惹恼她了吧？正如那天一样，小两口吵架了吧。 “错了！我正因为看破红尘，知道男人没一个好东西，所以根本没有男人。我聪明吧，阿穆？”若琳故意大笑，笑得那样夸张，仿佛眼泪都要笑出来了。 这样的笑容，穆景言却看得分外心疼，他一把将若琳揽到怀里，很大方地说：“借胸膛给你靠。” “我靠，我才不要靠！”若琳挣脱他。 “女孩子，说什么脏话。”穆景言轻轻嗔道，语气却是那么轻柔。 若琳只有苦笑的份儿，其实她今天这么反常，完全是因为刚刚遇见了韩皓轩。
不过，她不知道的是，在她刚踏出办公楼之后，韩皓轩一直在看着她。
透过落地窗，韩皓轩望着楼下的那个小小的身影，不禁自嘲：她究竟有什么好？为什么他总是忘不掉？ 若琳所在杂志的主编方强跟韩皓轩的哥们儿秦天意关系一向不错，而若琳之所以能成为“方玲有约”杂志的专栏记者之一，当然与秦天意以及韩皓轩都脱不了干系。 这一切，韩皓轩自然不会告诉若琳。他知道她这个人的个性，倘若知道她现在的工作与他有那么一点关系，估计她会辞职吧？韩皓轩相信，她会做到这一点。所以，他干脆什么都不说，也禁止别人去说，只是默默地在背后帮助她。 他这次来这里其实根本不是来找方强的，而是找若琳的，结果她走那么匆忙的原因竟然是请一个很好的男性朋友吃饭，这着实惹恼了他。 他也有男人固有的自尊，虽说爱上一个人，自己便会低到尘埃里，但是他的自尊已经被若琳伤过那么多次了。这一次，韩皓轩努力说服自己，不要理她，装作全然不在乎她的样子，装作不是来找她的样子，然后毅然决然地走向电梯。
谁知道刚到方强的办公室，又忍不住探头看向楼下，寻找若琳的身影。 当那个小小的身影渐渐远去时，韩皓轩顿时觉得心里某个地方空了，连忙下楼去追她。 只是，他好不容易看到她时，她在做什么？ 她被别的男人揽在了怀里，并且跟那个男人打情骂俏！ 难道那就是她口中“很好很好的男性朋友”？ 韩皓轩疾步上前，想将若琳从那个男人身边拉开时，公交车刚好来了，他们俩已经上了车。 韩皓轩也想跟着上车，结果晚了几秒钟，庞大的公交汽车已经开走了。韩皓轩一边跑一边喊“停一下”，但是，他的努力还是白费了。最终，他只能眼睁睁地看着公交汽车的影子越来越小，越来越小，直至消失在视线中。 懊恼之余，韩皓轩对着空气狠狠地挥了一拳。
若琳和穆景言上车后，完全没有注意到有人在追他们乘的这辆公交车。 车上人很多，车内已没一个空位，站着的人也不少。他们就找了个相对比较空的地方站好，后面几站里，下去的人不多，倒是上来的人一拨接着一拨，车内的自由空间越来越小。 穆景言站在若琳的身旁，右手抓着头顶的扶手，由于身高的优势，抓着并不费劲。若琳站在他的左侧，单手抓着椅子的后背。 他们俩都望着窗外疾驰的车辆、后退的人们，沉默不语，仿佛各怀心事。 突然，司机一个急转弯，若琳脚下没站稳，一个趔趄，身子倒向一边，穆景言适时地伸出手扶住她，恰好放在了若琳的腰间，稳住她倾斜下来的身体。待司机将车又开稳后，若琳才发觉穆景言的手还没有离去，宽厚的掌心传来一阵热度，她的脸倏地一片潮红。穆景言的神情似乎有些慌乱，他急忙移开了自己的手，重新站好，脸上的表情有些许不自然。 由于人多的缘故，他们现在靠得很近，只一步之遥。她依稀能闻到自穆景言身上散发出来的薄荷香气，清清凉凉的。 穆景言放下手后，语气中带有一点歉意，说：“刚才冒犯了。” “没……没有。”若琳嘴角扯开一抹笑，支吾着说，停了停，低语道，“我该谢你才是。” 那一瞬间，当那阵温度覆上她腰间时，她脑中竟想起了另一个人，那个曾经将唇覆在她唇上温暖她也扰乱她内心的人，那个刚才头也不回走向电梯的人。但那个人也只不过是在脑中闪了一下便匆匆消失。她强迫自己不要去想这个人。 “那待会儿给我准备什么饭菜感谢我啊？”穆景言顺着若琳的话说。 “我的拿手好菜，现在暂时保密！”若琳故作玄虚地说。 “好啊，我等着。”穆景言满脸期待。
下了车，穆景言陪同若琳一起去菜场买菜，若琳负责砍价，穆景言负责拎买好的菜。两人配合得十分默契，像足了一起买菜的小夫妻。也难怪卖菜的大婶会说：“你们小两口还真会过日子，精打细算的。” 若琳和穆景言也不辩解，只是笑笑作为回应。 “其实咱们这样还不算精打细算。”回去的路上，穆景言说。 “那怎样才叫精打细算？”若琳不解。 “我俩合租的话才叫真正的精打细算，可以节省房租啊。”穆景言一本正经地说道。 “去你的！死家伙！故意占我便宜是不是！”若琳顿时面红耳赤地说。 “哪有？我说的是大实话。你不妨考虑考虑好不好？” “喂！小心我待会儿在饭菜里下耗子药给你吃。” “人家是为你着想，本着帮你节约的思想。”穆景言一脸无辜状。 “少来这一套，谢谢你的好意。” ... 两人边走边说，若琳也觉得心情好了很多。跟穆景言在一起，她的心情总是很放松，不像和韩皓轩在一起，总觉得有点像做坏事，像是在冒险。
若琳在厨房忙得不亦乐乎的时候，穆景言走过来问：“需不需要我帮忙？”