Chapter 17 Chapter 16 She and the Earth Altar

It only took one step for Luo Zhi to return to her own shell. She didn't even go to a school anymore, it was freezing outside the window, she might as well save those journeys, stay in a dormitory with heating, and only go out when taking a shower and eating.Jiang Baili didn't even bother to get out of bed for a few days. Except for bathing and going to the bathroom, Luo Zhi brought back lunch and dinner, and went to sleep directly to omit breakfast. For some reason, for two or three days, Belle didn't turn on the phone.As a result, the dormitory phone rang frequently, and Luo Zhi went to answer it, but it was always Gobi on the other end of the phone, but she always followed Belle's instructions and replied, sorry, Belle is not here.

"It's a good trick, it's finally turned against the customer." Luo Zhi put down the receiver again, and smiled while pressing the calculator. Belle turned over on the bed, and the pages of the book rattled, "Actually... I don't know what I want to do like this." Luo Zhi's index finger landed on the top of the bus sign and hung in the air for a while, then fell bluntly. She remembered that the night before Ma Yuan's exam, she was walking along the path to the dormitory with a kettle in her hand, when she suddenly heard Jiang Baili's voice under the tree.

"You're really welcome." So Luo Zhi immorally made a big circle and sneaked behind the bench under the tree, watching the backs of the two people on the bench not too far away. "I've given you the book, I'm going back." "Belle...I'm sorry." "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, take the exam tomorrow. Although you always do very well in high school politics, let's take a look at the scope of the review." "You are always...so kind to me." Luo Zhi sighed softly, and the conversation began to develop in the direction of bitterness.

"Because I love you." Jiang Baili's relaxed and calm words seemed to say "because we are good buddies". "So, you don't need to be sorry to me. I love you, and I will treat you naturally. You don't have to be so ashamed of me because you have received my favor. To put it bluntly, I am happy. Just like you love Chen Mohan, you can wait She hasn't complained for so many years, the reason is the same. When I stop loving, it will be over, you don't have to worry about it. " Luo Zhi's heart skipped a beat, and she almost applauded this passage.

When I thought about myself, I felt deeply defeated by Belle.Her unknown affection and long-awaited waiting back then were all voluntary by herself, but now her mentality is out of balance, and she wants to seek justice from Sheng Huainan—although he is relying on this feeling to despise her, but It wasn't just me who sent her there to make people laugh. Willing to gamble and admit defeat. Jiang Baili quietly resolved her depression because of the farewell in the library. Back then when she asked Xu Riqing, did she just couldn't swallow this breath? When watching, everyone is wise.Luo Zhi closed her eyes, gently supported her heart, and sighed.

Be willing, easier said than done. But time will tell her fate.This is not a kind of salvation. "Actually... I think Mo Han has changed." Gobi's voice was a little vague and lacking confidence, and Luo Zhi lightly kicked the protruding tree roots on the ground with her toes. "She hasn't changed at all, she was the same in high school," Belle said frankly, "It's just that she's talking to you now, that's all." Belle stood up, and Luo Zhi could see under the street lamp that even though the other party's tone was relaxed and calm, he was still fully armed and ready for battle. Seeing that Gobi had deliberately modified it and put on makeup.

"I'm leaving. If there are troubles in the future, I will try my best to help you if I can. After all, Mohan School is too far away from us." Luo Zhi couldn't help chuckling, Jiang Baili's gentle knife saw blood. Carrying the water bottle, she passed Gobi, who was sitting alone on a bench in a daze, and took a sneak peek, only to find that confusion was indeed written on that handsome face. Later she found out that because she couldn't borrow books, Belle re-copied her Ma Yuan textbook page by page, and even made a lot of notes on it, drew the key points for him, and gave him a gift A stack of outlines downloaded from the BBS.

Luo Zhi thought about it, and turned her head to look at Jiang Baili, who was lying on the bed with unkempt hair. She couldn't help wondering whether this woman's rank was getting higher and higher, or was she trying to get out of it under the banner of revenge? "Whether... the proof of the central limit theorem or not?" Belle felt a little guilty under Luo Zhi's stare, and hurriedly changed the topic. "Take a test." Luo Zhi nodded, and immediately tossed and turned on the bed, howling. On the day when the final exam was finally over, Jiang Baili successfully blackmailed Luo Zhi into a dinner.

The last one was the statistics exam. Luo Zhi once said in a reserved and euphemistic manner that she was trustworthy in statistics. Jiang Baili also relied on her invincible eyesight of 5.3 to pass Luo Zhi's papers from the back row of the auditorium. It was copied covertly.In order to create the illusion that she is indeed original, she filled up the answer sheet, and expanded many calculation steps that have no meaning at all. Until Luo Zhi realized that there was a big calculation that she seemed to have made a mistake. At the moment when she was boldly slashing from the left end to the right, she heard a loud bang of an unknown object hitting the table behind her.

After the exam, Jiang Baili covered her head and said, "You're stupid, you have to pay." Luo Zhi nodded, "Well, it's my fault, and it shouldn't make your IQ worse. Let's have dinner together tonight." Jiang Baili nodded happily at first, and then began to falter. "What, no time?" "That's not it..." She zipped up her schoolbag, slammed it on her back and carried it on her back, "It's just that today isn't the last day of the exam, and I agreed to celebrate it." Luo Zhi couldn't accept this vague answer that didn't even have a subject, "It's done? Who did you talk to?"

"A group of...high school classmates. We have an appointment at Ximen at 5:30, and there is still half an hour left. I'll go first and go back to pack my schoolbags. Um, uh, let's have dinner together tomorrow night, it's agreed!" After she finished speaking, she ran away, leaving Luo Zhi standing alone at the door of the teaching building where people were coming and going. A group of high school classmates. She sighed, knowing it in her heart, and helplessly kicked the pebbles under her feet which were half covered by the snow. The mobile phone in the pocket buzzed and vibrated, and the sender column showed Xu Riqing. "Have you finished the exam? Tomorrow there is a second-hand book market in Ditan Park, do you want to go and have a look together?" Luo Zhi was a little surprised, "Okay, what time?" "I've checked the route. I'll find you at the door of your dormitory at ten o'clock tomorrow morning. How about it?" "no problem." When she pressed the hold button of her phone, someone bumped her left shoulder. She turned her face and saw a boy rushing out in a hurry. While running, she turned her head and smiled at her embarrassedly. He half-raised his right hand in front of his eyes to apologize, and disappeared in a flash. trace. That silly smile resembled a person's profile.Just last night, in the third canteen, she met Zhang Mingrui.It has been more than a week since we left the library, and they are still laughing and joking when chatting. From the snowstorm to the final exam, they condemned the perverted test questions together, and satirized the increasingly unreliable dishes in the cafeteria... Luo Zhi could hardly remember what they had said. In the pleasant and relaxed conversation, the two of them cleverly avoided all sensitive and embarrassing topics.She discovered that Zhang Mingrui is actually a person who is very good at taking pictures with others. Will it be too slow to find out now? When walking out of the cafeteria, Luo Zhi brought Jiang Baili a bowl of fish-flavored eggplant rice, shook her head and said, "She eats this every day, and I'm getting tired of it." Zhang Mingrui smiled and said: "When you are completely bored with bread cakes and the Three Canteens and don't want to come, please remember to tell me." "What?" Luo Zhi raised her head, "Why did I tell you specifically? Besides, I think you've said this to me many times." "No reason." Zhang Mingrui waved his hand, picked up his schoolbag and left in the direction of the library. Luo Zhi fiddled with the phone while reminiscing, and couldn't help smiling wryly.Xu Riqing only dated herself twice, and she hoped it wouldn't be for boys both times - then both of them would become very pitiful. At 10:30 in the evening, Luo Zhi was sitting at the table taking out the mask from the bag and unfolding it carefully. Before she started sticking it on her face, the door was suddenly pushed open. She was startled, her hands stopped in mid-air, The essence flows slowly along the wrist to the elbow. Jiang Baili's eyes were red, but the expression on her face was mixed with sorrow and joy, not completely angry or sad.Luo Zhi was tongue-tied, wondering if she should ask her "what's the matter with you". However, the other party just dropped his coat and kicked off his shoes, climbed to the upper bunk as usual, buried his head deeply in the quilt, whimpered and said, "Luo Zhi, watch for me, I will only cry for ten minutes." It seemed that this scene hadn't happened for a long time, Luo Zhi sighed and said, okay, then turned around and picked a song from the itunes playlist. The lofty and ethereal melody of Scottish bagpipes flowed through the room.Luo Zhi was stunned.She once used this CD to cover Ye Zhanyan's happiest class whispering, and now she used this tolerant voice to cover Jiang Baili's subdued sobbing. When she went out at 9:50 the next day, Belle was still fast asleep on the upper bunk.When she saw Xu Riqing who also arrived early at the gate of the building, Luo Zhi felt her eyes brighten up.Among the girls she knew, only Xu Riqing could wear red so brightly and full of vitality. In all fairness, Luo Zhi really likes Xu Riqing very much, she has always had a good impression of beautiful girls, not to mention that Xu Riqing is far more than just beautiful. When the other party met, she naturally and intimately put her arm on her. This made Luo Zhi, who had never held hands with girls or walked side by side with her arm, stiff for a moment, and then slowly relaxed, enjoying the comfort brought by the other party. warmth. It's been almost two years since she went to school in Beijing, but Luo Zhi doesn't have much interest in visiting this bustling modern yet dilapidated city.Maybe it was because of the invitation from the second-hand book market in Ditan, when she was dreaming last night, she actually returned to the Chinese class in the first year of high school.The pimple-faced trainee teacher is giving a final report class, and the lecturer is an excerpt from Shi Tiesheng. The intern teacher read the text with eloquence, and then tried his best to inspire everyone to talk about their mother with lackluster eloquence.Luo Zhi's dreams are always magnificent and bizarre, but this time the picture is as light as an ink painting, like a splash of water dilutes the memory, it's just a simple re-drawing. In the dream, Ye Zhanyan was speaking, talking about her mother who died young.Her mother left her because of a medical accident, and she told her to listen to her father before she died—the beautiful girl cried like she was about to melt away, and infected the girls around her into rivers of tears. In sensational talent shows, there are often contestants who talk about their parents under the guidance of the host with the background music, and say thanks while pursing their mouths and weeping.The audience may be moved to tears, or because of a bad mood, they may turn their faces and say that it is fake and artificial.Luo Zhi knew that when most people mentioned their parents in public, they would not be able to control the floodgates on their tear glands. Even if they usually talk to their mother coldly and are not speculative, when they mention the word mother's love, they are still unstoppable like a flood. She understands, but doesn't understand why. , Luo Zhi clearly remembered this article, the second chapter was excerpted from the textbook, she also felt emotional after reading it, so she specially bought a lot of Shi Tiesheng's anthology to read.I originally thought that this prose about her mother would interact with the soaring air humidity in the classroom, and she would also remind herself of the difficult mother and the difficult years, and then shed salty tears along with it; however, the strange thing is that her eyes are always All dry.The fuzzy images of childhood gradually become clear, and the silhouette of the mother is like a silent documentary, edited by the cruel life without emotion. Luo Zhi's mother beat her and molded her, and made her see clearly how much helplessness and sadness lie behind love.No mother is perfect. They were once young girls, and they were once confused and seduced. They will not suddenly become extremely correct just because they are promoted to mothers. She grew up with her in life and through those chilly times together. Luo Zhi was lying in class, listening to everyone’s cries one after another, imagining alone, day after day, Shi Tiesheng sat in a wheelchair and hid in the corner of the park, escaping from the world, looking at the ruins in front of him and looking for the meaning of life—that What kind of feeling is it? Naturally, it will not be understood by the children in the good age, including her.Whole, healthy, dreaming, carried into the future by the river of life—how could they know? In the whole article, the only thing that can be felt is maternal love. After she looked around indifferently and examined every crying girl, she suddenly felt Ye Zhanyan's calm gaze.Apart from being calm, those beautiful eyes were still calm, as if the few tears that had not been wiped off the cheeks were accidentally spilled precious eye drops. She raised her eyebrows at that time, there should be a little questioning meaning in her eyes, and she even felt a little guilty because her indifference was noticed by the other party.However, Ye Zhanyan did not respond, and turned his head without a trace to look at the trainee teacher who was constantly inciting everyone's emotions with an emotional tone in front of the podium. His expression instantly loosened, and tears seemed to appear in his eyes again. It was only when Luo Zhi dreamed of this scene again that she realized that there had always been deep and shallow shadows surrounding her life that she thought was peaceful. They might have been linked together to form some kind of picture, implying some kind of content, but she was too focused on her own life. The world was gone, and nothing was found. Maybe she has already fallen into some kind of karma.