Chapter 18 Chapter Seventeen Tomorrow is a Brand New Day

The subway car was empty, and they found a place near the door to sit side by side. The intermittent conversation along the way just now was accidentally lost, and the arms that were put together were loosened because they just got on the train one after the other.The sickly pale energy-saving lights shone on their faces, and in the closed car, the light gave the illusion that time had stopped here. Luo Zhi never rejected silence, let alone conceived it as a form of embarrassment, indifference or confrontation.It's just that Xu Riqing is not good at getting along in silence. Luo Zhi can see from the opposite glass that she is a little embarrassed, and keeps touching the black bangs in front of her eyes, like broken beaded curtains, pushing aside and closing. On, then open, then close...

"There are so few people today." Xu Riqing finally spoke. "Yes." Luo Zhi nodded.She also wanted to find something to talk about, at least to relieve the tension of the girls around her, but she searched her brains and returned without success. "There are so few people." After speaking, she felt a little guilty. The train started again, and the sound of wind blowing on both sides of the corridor poured in between them, and they had no more words to each other. Ditan Park disappointed Luo Zhi, the bustling crowds were above the sky, and large pink and green banners were stretched among the trees on the street. The stall owners sat on small stools with indifferent faces, and the women were selling grilled squid, grilled biscuits, and herbal tea. Turning around and cursing the mud monkeys at home who were running around happily, the colorful triangle scarves on their heads complemented the big banners... Luo Zhi stepped on the yellow plastic bag on the ground, this scene made her cheeks cramp .

She also came here because of the fame, but she didn't catch up with the dejection described by Shi Tiesheng.There is no residual snow on the fence, no residual sun in the sky, and the harmony is great, which is really not suitable for nostalgia. She wasn't having the best of times.No matter what, she will always be slow and miss the best time. At least Shi Tiesheng caught up, she thought, that kind of time is enough for such a person.Anyway, she neither needs nor understands. Luo Zhi became more and more convinced that in the future, when meeting people she didn't know well, she must choose a lively place, so that the heat around her could cover up her desertedness, which would be beneficial to both herself and others.The two of them squeezed back and forth in the crowd, in order to prevent them from getting separated, they kept calling each other to keep up with each other, and asked each other what kind of books they were interested in from time to time... Xu Riqing naturally grabbed Luo Zhi's hand hands, neither of them wore gloves, and her hands were no warmer than Luo Zhi's.

"I always forget to wear gloves. Are you the same?" She turned her head and smiled at Luo Zhi. Luo Zhi was about to answer, but saw Xu Riqing restrain her smile, lower her head and turn away. Luo Zhi went in without knowing it, and followed her for a long time against the flow of people, only to remember the oolong conversation between Zhang Mingrui and the two of them about gloves in front of the newsstand that day. Even though Zhang Mingrui resolved the momentary embarrassment naturally, which girl is not as careful as a hair?How could Xu Riqing not understand. The two cold hands are tightly held together, until the mountains and the sky meet, I'm afraid they won't be able to warm up.

Xu Riqing bought a bunch of extracurricular reading materials for law majors, packed them into a schoolbag, and had a heavy plastic bag in his hand.Luo Zhi wandered around for a long time, but only bought a copy of "Quotations from Chairman Mao". "What are you buying this for?" Xu Riqing put the plastic bag on the ground, rubbed his right hand with the red mark on it, and leaned over to take a look. "I don't know why I bought it." Luo Zhi flipped through it lightly, for fear of tearing the yellowed old book with too much force, "Maybe it's because it's old enough."

It is indeed an old enough book, the outermost cover has been worn away, leaving only the titles on the inner pages.Every page has the owner's notes, red pencil or blue pencil, as serious as a schoolboy, and on a certain page, many "Lin Biao" are heavily crossed with black pen. "Maybe it's because I think this kind of book has magical powers. Maybe one night the soul of the previous owner will come to me in a dream and come to play with me." "Haha," Xu Riqing laughed very touchingly, "What kind of messed up thoughts are in your head. I thought you would buy a lot of books. I heard that you like reading books very much."

"Well," Luo Zhi nodded, "but I'm still used to buying books in a few bookstores near the school, mainly because they are relatively close." She looked at Xu Riqing's huge schoolbag and plastic bag, and opened the one she had brought in the bag in advance. Paper bag, "Come on, put half of your books here and I'll hold them for you." Xu Riqing smiled embarrassedly and said, "Okay." When I finally walked out of the park, it was already 3:30 in the afternoon.They didn't eat anything at noon, turned around, and finally stood blankly on the street with heavy bags.

"Hungry." Luo Zhi rubbed her belly. "Go back to school to eat, or look around?" Xu Riqing was talking, and suddenly clapped his hands in surprise, "By the way, I suddenly remembered that there should be a Sanyuan Meiyuan store nearby? I think Eat almond tofu." Luo Zhi nodded blankly, and said, "Okay, show me the way." It was getting late, and the sky above was blue and purple.The bleak winter in Beijing always reminds Luo Zhi of the years when she was a child running around with her mother to earn a living. Every time the sun went down completely, she would feel a chill in her heart, a feeling of wanting to cry but not Feelings of sadness fill the whole body and will not disappear until the night falls completely.Even though she was still young at that time, even today she still can't understand this longing and fear of dusk, but this feeling still hits her every dusk, and she never misses the appointment.

"What?" Xu Riqing stopped, looking at Luo Zhi who was a little out of control. "It's nothing." Luo Zhi grinned, followed her and continued to walk forward. Xu Riqing's sense of direction was shockingly poor.Panting and circling in vain like migrant workers dragging cement bags, they finally saw a red and yellow plaque at a busy intersection. "You see, the red and yellow one, right?" Xu Riqing pointed forward excitedly. "McDonald's?" Xu Riqing tightly framed Luo Zhi's neck with his free right arm: "Let me tell you, China's national industry was driven to a dead end by you people!"

Luo Zhi was serious, nodding like a pigeon looking for food in the square. Xu Riqing ate half a bowl and put it down. "Are you full?" Luo Zhi raised her head and asked. "It's not as delicious as I expected. I won't eat it." She pouted slightly, like a proud and beautiful young lady in an idol drama.Luo Zhi squinted her eyes to look at her, and felt that she couldn't get enough of it. Every angle was beautiful—it wasn't earth-shatteringly beautiful, but it was beautiful. So she also nodded: "Actually, the altar is not as big as I imagined..." She thought for a long time, but couldn't find a suitable word to describe it.

"It's not that good." In the end, I had to use the simple and versatile word "good". Xu Riqing was surprised: "Then what do you think the altar should look like?" Luo Zhi didn't know what to say, she lowered her head and smiled silently. "Why are you like this?" Hearing this, she opened her mouth slightly and looked at the girl in front of her in confusion, who looked at her with her chin resting on her face, with the same inquiring and puzzled expression on her face. "What kind of person am I?" "It was so different from the first time we met." "When we first met..." At Zhang Mingrui's entrustment, she acted as a combination of an evil woman and a close sister. However, no matter how hard she tried to recall, her memory was still a little fuzzy. What exactly did the two of them say? The purposeful meeting distorted her behavior, and she was not sure what kind of impression she left on Xu Riqing. "Actually, when I was studying with Zhang Mingrui that day, I felt that you were different from my impression. When I saw it again today, I found that it was even more different." Luo Zhi wiped her forehead with her index finger, and found that it really was the oily shine of her hands.She didn't know what to say in response to Xu Riqing, so the scene became deserted again.In fact, she felt a little sad. Knowing that the other party was trying to say some honest words, it wasn't that she didn't want to cater to her, it was just that she didn't know how to accept it.Along the way, they laughed and joked from time to time, and when they talked about a certain book, they would discuss it excitedly, but the topic was like a string of broken beads, jumping around in the silent wilderness, and occasionally picked up one. , shining brightly, but alone. They lack the feelings of getting along, and their interests overlap, but there are two boys who are trying to pretend to be invisible to each other. The cold silence and silence at that time are not without reason.But Xu Riqing still worked hard to find a thread to connect each other. Luo Zhi really likes this bright girl, she has such a clear heart from the first time she met, she cries when she wants to, laughs when she wants to, loves when she loves, doesn't love when she doesn't love, even if she looks back, she is never shy. how nice.It's a pity that no one knows how to cherish her, and I have no right to feel sorry for her. "I have something, please pass it on to Zhang Mingrui." Xu Riqing took out all the books from his schoolbag and stacked them on the table, and finally pulled out a Nike bag from the bottom of the schoolbag. "Back when I was in the middle of a dead end, he scolded me severely. Later, he was so stubborn that I walked away. But before he left, he was afraid that I would catch a cold, so he put his clothes on me. Later, my relationship with him eased. I became good friends again, and I always wanted to return the clothes to him, but I was afraid that the clothes would remind him of the embarrassing days when we broke up, so I just dragged on like this, and until now, I still haven’t returned it.” Luo Zhi took the bag and said with a clattering sound, "I see." Xu Riqing laughed: "It's so easy to be with you. You hate talking nonsense, right? I remember the first time you were able to talk in the coffee shop. You were clear and organized, but when we saw each other later, you talked less so many." Luo Zhi smiled: "Actually, I really don't like talking very much. The first time I saw you, it might have happened that I was not emotionally stable and talked a lot." Xu Riqing looked at the blue-black ink-like night with his chin in his hands, and said softly, "I've never been emotionally stable." "It's good to feel happy." "But I'm not happy either." "Few people live happily, and you haven't suffered much." Xu Riqing laughed brightly when he heard the sound, Luo Zhi admired it sincerely, who wouldn't enjoy seeing such a smile? "Look, here we go again. In fact, you are quite sharp-tongued." "I'll just pretend that you actually want to speak eloquently." Luo Zhi smiled helplessly. The corners of Xu Riqing's mouth turned up, and he raised his eyebrows slyly. With his left hand, he was using a small spoon to ravage the crumbled almond tofu in the bowl. After a moment of silence, he said, "Zhang Mingrui is a very good boy." Luo Zhi nodded. "I think I have lived up to his teachings. When Sheng Huainan rejected me, I was very hard to extricate myself. But Zhang Mingrui also rejected me during the final exam. I learned my lesson, and this time I pulled out quite simply." Refreshing declarative sentence.Luo Zhi appreciated it in her heart. When the lights came on, Xu Riqing seemed to be the lonely monologue in a literary film, not needing Luo Zhi's feedback at all, and only cared about talking to himself. "I'm not sure if you already know about my falling out with Zhang Mingrui." "You see, you don't ask anything, as if you know everything. I feel guilty when I read it. But in fact, I always make a show of everything, so I always feel that others know about my scandal." Luo Zhi lowered her head and smiled.What a shame. Can dry the sad things that are not afraid of being known in the sun, no matter how hard it is, it will be clean and transparent.You know, how many people in the world have unspeakable sorrows? "Hehe, anyway, I hit the south wall twice in a row this year, and it's only three things. If I hit the south wall again, I will write it backwards!" "I've always thought I'm pretty good. Everyone thinks I'm pretty good. Why do I like two people, and each one can't be more wrong?" "Do you know, back then I liked Sheng Huainan, and I was angry with Zhang Mingrui, and I told him that I love bumping into the south wall, and it has nothing to do with him, so I told him to stay away from me quickly." "At that time, he didn't give in, and said, of course, it had nothing to do with him, and he went around by himself after being stunned!" "In the end, I didn't expect it to be true. It was indeed my own fault. Zhang Mingrui fell in love with someone so quickly." "At that time, I thought that those supporting actors in the story who have been waiting for the heroine to remain infatuated are all deceitful. They are deceiving idiots like me who are eating bowls and looking at pots, and running bravely. Go ahead, even if you fail, at least you still have a bowl of porridge in your hand to satisfy your hunger." "Actually, it's because I'm too good at it." Xu Riqing's eyes were shining brightly, facing the orange street lights outside the window and the neon lights on the plaque, shining brightly. Luo Zhi stretched out her hand silently, covering the back of her cold hand. "Zhang Mingrui likes you, Luo Zhi." Luo Zhi looked at her calmly, without nodding or shaking her head, without surprise or understanding, there was no wave in the ancient well.They looked at each other for a long time, Xu Riqing turned his head away first.There was no more words after that, and after sitting dryly for a while, Luo Zhi said, "I'm done eating, let's go." When the pale lights of the subway carriage swayed overhead, Xu Riqing beside him was so tired that he fell asleep, leaning heavily on Luo Zhi's shoulder, his quiet pink cheeks were so beautiful, too beautiful to sigh. At the door of Xu Riqing's dormitory, Luo Zhi took out his copy of Chairman Mao's speech from the plastic bag, handed the whole bag to Xu Riqing, and said, "Then goodbye." "Ok." When Luo Zhi left, she heard Xu Riqing clearly asking behind her back: "Luo Zhi, do you think you and I will become good friends?" She thought for a while and asked, "Do you have many friends?" Xu Riqing nodded affirmatively, and gave an affirmative answer that matched her cheerful smile: "Of course." So it's not bad for me.Luo Zhi nodded reassuringly and said, "I think it's hard for us to be friends. Even though I like you very, very much, I'm serious." She thought she finally said something very honest to Xu Riqing. Xu Riqing was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect that the other party didn't respond with the same enthusiasm as most people and said: "Of course, aren't we already friends now?" - She was a little unwilling, but at the same time because of this sentence Relieved to be honest. "It's good that you like me. At least there are people who like me." She still laughed the most, "Honestly, Luo Zhi, I only recently realized that if I can be nicer to those who love me, I will stay away from those who hate me." Stay away, never try to please and explain, will I get more?" She walked in and left with a wave of her hand. The pockets were too heavy, making her back look a little clumsy. Luo Zhi was walking alone on the small road and was about to go back to the dormitory when her phone vibrated, it was a text message from Xu Riqing. "Don't be like me, it's too late to look back. It's either sooner or never." Luo Zhi didn't know what to reply.She might be telling herself not to make the same mistake about Zhang Mingrui.Luo Zhi felt a little moved. "Have a good rest, silly girl, let's talk about tomorrow's business tomorrow." Xu Riqing replied after a long time. "You're right. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Please don't worry about me." The last little clause is a little self-indulgent, but undeniably confident and endearing.It's hard for Luo Zhi not to like Xu Riqing like this. But she also had to admit that she never worried about him at all. A girl with such a dazzling smile fell down, cried and made a fuss, and many people coaxed her to love her. She still has a lot of tomorrow. Luo Zhi raised her head, the sky at night was a bit gloomy, dark red, drooping, like the approaching doom, suppressing an inexplicable pain. tomorrow.Every day of Luo Zhi's life is indistinguishable from the day before and the day after.