Chapter 21 Chapter Twenty

I seem to have experienced another life, joy or sorrow, the years fade away in an instant in my chaotic memory, when I wake up and see the sunlight coming in through the window, I feel like a lifetime away. On the way back the next day, I received a call on the way that Geng Mochi had developed an illness and was admitted to the hospital.When we arrived at the hospital, the attending physician told us, "Please prepare for the worst, we have really tried our best." I howled.No matter how much Qi Shuli persuaded me, he couldn't persuade me. His gallstones seemed to be showing signs of attack again, and he kept holding his chest. Later, it might be because the pain was too severe, so he went home alone, leaving two people with me.I chased them all away and wept until dawn alone in the corridor outside the ward.

Geng Mochi didn't wake up until the next afternoon.I still can't see him, doctors come and go, doing various tests on him.His nanny also came over at this time, and asked about the cause of the attack. The nanny said that it was his wife who made trouble. "His wife? Milan?" I was shocked. Milan is back? "yes." "What's wrong with her?" The nanny shook her head and said, "I don't know, I just heard they were arguing about the will." Undoubtedly, Milan wanted to force Geng Mochi to amend his will before he died, and Geng Mochi must still have the original condition. He must first dissolve the marriage relationship before he can preserve her interests in the will. The two did not back down, and Geng Mochi was stimulated and admitted No wonder.

I guess the reason for Milan's refusal to give in is that not only money is needed for her, but Mrs. Geng's status is also extremely important to her. This is the capital for her to be a decent person in the second half of her life. Me, that's why she decided not to dissolve the marriage relationship with Geng Mochi. The tug-of-war between the two of them has reached a fever pitch as Geng Mochi's condition worsened. No matter who wins or loses, this tragedy is already doomed. At night, I can finally enter the intensive care unit to see Geng Mochi.He was lying motionless on the hospital bed, with an oxygen tube inserted into his nasal cavity, and an infusion bottle hung on a shelf beside the bed.

His face was very calm, and when he saw me, he struggled to squeeze out a smile, "You go, I'm fine." I know he doesn't want me to see him in such pain. I was reluctant to leave, and threw myself on the edge of the bed, holding his hand with the needle inserted and gently rubbing it.It is these hands, which I have touched countless times, are still so slender, but because they are too thin, the bones of the knuckles are shockingly abrupt. "Don't let me leave you, and don't embarrass yourself, nothing is important anymore, really, those are external things, let go, what's wrong with letting yourself relax?" I put his hand against my face and said .

He looked at me helplessly, and sighed long and sadly, "Kauer, you don't understand, I just want to be able to lie down in that cemetery in Seattle free, and I don't want to keep my relationship with her even when I die." Marriage relationship, so that in the next life, I will be able to search for you in the sea of ​​people without any entanglements. I find you, and then we can be together justifiably... Even if there is no next life, the bad debt between me and her should be settled in this life, as long as She is willing to agree to a divorce, and I will make proper arrangements for her future life. I can guarantee that she will have no worries about food and clothing in the next life, but she refuses to give up. She said that even if I become a ghost, she will still be Mrs. Geng..."

The more he spoke, the more excited he became, his chest heaved violently, and he was breathing heavily. I hurriedly stopped him from continuing, "Mochi, don't talk, I understand your heart, but your body is already like this, why bother with her!" "Isn't life just a breath? Kao'er!" He looked at me sadly. I choked up and couldn't answer. After leaving the ward, I found Qi Shuli sitting on a bench against the wall in the corridor, with his head down, wondering what he was thinking, his face full of tiredness.I walked up to him and stood beside him for a while before he realized and looked up at me, "How is he?"

"I just fell asleep, but I've stabilized for the time being." Qi Shuli looked at me and frowned, he hesitated to say: "I have bad news, I don't know if I should tell you." "What... what news?" I shrunk instinctively, what could be worse than now? He looked at me with sadness and helplessness in his eyes. When I saw him like this, I became anxious, "What's the matter? Tell me quickly!" He sighed, "Milan is going to hold a press conference to announce the original author of the LOVE series." "..." Milan is crazy!She must be crazy!She also thought that Geng Mochi didn't die fast enough, and she wanted to take his last breath.When Qi Shuli told me about this, I couldn't say anything except crying.Qi Shuli told me not to worry, he said he would handle this matter well, I knew his background, so I grabbed him and said, "Don't do anything stupid, it's messy enough now, let me talk to her..."

Qi Shuli was noncommittal, and just told me to leave it alone, and he would figure out a way.As a result, the matter was over, and Annie also came to add to the chaos. She suddenly proposed to move out, which caught us all by surprise. Qi Shuli was heartbroken, "Could it be that everything we have done is superfluous to you?" At that time, in the living room near the water tower, facing her brother's questioning, Annie just replied: "I don't want to be a burden to you." "No one treats you as a burden. Your brother's condition is very unstable these days, so he has ignored you. Could this be the reason why you abandoned us?" Qi Shuli's voice was trembling.

Annie couldn't see her brother, but she still had a bit of unbearable expression after all. She fell into a long silence, these days she rarely visited Geng Mochi in the hospital.And I heard from the nanny that she often went out by car alone, where she went, and who she went to see, no one knew.Qi Shuli wanted to ask for clarification, but she turned her face away and groped her way upstairs without saying a word, and closed the bedroom door heavily.Qi Shuli and I looked at each other, an ominous feeling came over our hearts, and when we looked around the magnificent living room, there was a kind of depression and gloom that was about to come.

I still blame Annie's capriciousness in my heart. Does she know how painful and difficult her brother is struggling on the death line, and often falls into a coma, and the time of coma is getting longer and longer, even though Qi Shuli sent people from Shanghai and Beijing? The best cardiac surgeons were invited to observe and test him 24 hours a day, but without those instruments and tubes, he would not be able to live for a minute.Every day, I lie on the glass window of the ward, watching him rely on the machine to maintain his fragile life, and watching the different numbers constantly displayed by the various instruments beside the bed, my tears gushed out, blurred tears In the light, his face is far away and strange, saying what a lifetime, a lifetime is so long, is he giving up, or I can't hold on, and now the pendulum of time has suddenly stopped, if this is the so-called "eternity", I would rather not !

But I can't hate him, because he is really a poor person. The existence of life is just a dull curve flickering on the appearance for him now. The real world is actually far away from him, but he doesn't realize it. Do you know that Milan is going to hold a press conference?Does he know that Annie is leaving us? He doesn't know anything, I only wish he didn't! He fell into a coma that day. I watched him through the glass window of the intensive care unit, and my heart felt like a knife.Milan came suddenly, I didn't look for her, she fell down, probably to see if Geng Mochi died.In fact, she has been watching me for a long time. My sad and helpless appearance should make her feel very happy. If she wants to be happy, I would rather die in front of her than be disturbed and tortured by her when Geng Mochi is at this point , I know that the person she really wants to attack is me, but she borrowed Geng Mochi's knife. "None of us got him, we all lost, didn't we?" She said lightly, that face was so unfamiliar that I couldn't believe that the woman standing in front of me was Milan. "Why did you come here?" I asked in a trance. "I'm his wife, who will come if I don't come?" At this time, she remembered that she was his wife. I can only beg: "Let him go, he's already like this, do you insist that he die without regret?" "I heard that Geng Mochi left all his property to you." Milan didn't answer my words at all, and didn't look at me, looking at her husband with a self-deprecating sneer, "He really loves you to the bottom of his bones, you just sleep with him , but slept on an astronomical amount of property." "Milan! Are you enough? Anyway, it's a couple, even if you don't love him, you can't put him to death, right?" "How do you know I don't love him? Do you think you are the only one who knows love? If I tell you that I love him no less than you, do you believe it? Do you believe it?!" Milan yelled, and started Hysterical, "No one believes me, everyone regards me as a slut who only knows money. Since I am already a slut in your eyes, is it necessary to set up a chastity memorial archway for myself?" "Do you believe in retribution?" I suddenly asked. Milan was taken aback, not understanding why I suddenly asked this question. "I believe." I said looking at her. The corner of Milan's mouth twitched, thinking about how to counter me.During the stalemate, a nurse suddenly ran over and said to me out of breath, "Miss Bai, hurry up, Director Qi has been sent to the emergency room..." There was a buzzing in my head, and the surrounding voices could no longer be heard.The whole person seemed to be stupid, and he didn't even have the strength to turn his head away.I only heard my heart beating wildly, and I was so dizzy that I was about to fall. "Retribution is coming!" Milan smiled. Qi Shuli's gallstones made him pass out from the pain. These days, he has been enduring the pain, clutching his chest all day long and unable to speak, and was finally forced to be admitted to the hospital.The hospital organized a strong team of experts to consult Qi Shuli, but everyone's expression was very strange, evasive, and when they saw me, they always smiled and said: "Miss Bai, don't worry, Director Qi's illness is not a problem. , it’s just a minor operation, it’ll be fine once it’s done.” "Then why don't you do it?" "Do it now, do it now..." I always get the same answer. Well now, both men are in the hospital.They are really destined, they have been neighbors for several years in the spring of the other side, also in Japan, and later in Seattle, the two are still neighbors, and now they are even in the hospital together, one upstairs and one downstairs.And as if it was an appointment, Geng Mochi woke up just after Qi Shuli's operation was completed. He looked very weak, unable to speak, and had oxygen tubes in his nostrils.I couldn't go in and see him, but I stood at the side of the glass and waved to him. He saw it, as if he was resurrected from the dead, and there was a shooting star in his eyes. He looked at me vaguely, and his smile was like a flower. The ground slowly blooms at the corner of the mouth. I put my face against the glass and smiled at him the same way. I don't want to cry, I just want him to remember my smile. But my body was trembling violently, I felt that I could no longer bear all this, I couldn't speak, I just bit my lips desperately and smiled at him, as if this was the only way to suppress the pain in my heart. He saw the strength of perseverance in my face, relying on this strength, he miraculously broke free from the clutches of death.After two weeks, he was able to get out of bed and walk around, and he was able to bask in the sun in the garden. And Qi Shuli gradually recovered after the operation. These two former rivals often bask in the sun together, laughing and chatting.I seldom participated in their conversations, and they didn't seem to welcome them, and they would change the subject when they saw me passing by. "It's best for women not to listen to what men say." Qi Shuli deliberately angered me. I laughed, "Hey, since when did your relationship get so good, are you going to ask for help?" Geng Mochi said, "That's exactly what I meant." "We even have the same blood type. It's absolutely fine to ask for help." Qi Shuli looked at me with a smile, his eyes flickered, and a trace of imperceptible sadness flashed across his eyes, "How about you as a witness?" "I'm not going to do it." I turned my head and walked away, and there were hearty laughter from two men behind me.The winter sun makes the world very warm. Although the sun is shining, why do I feel dark?Is it because of the sadness that flashed in Qi Shuli's eyes just now?Or is this dazed daylight making me feel that everything is not real? In the blink of an eye, when New Year's Day came, Qi Shuli proposed to go home for the holiday, and Geng Mochi agreed very much. "It's more comfortable to die at home than to die in a hospital." He said inexplicably. Before going home, I was worried that Annie's attitude would irritate Geng Mochi. He didn't know that Annie was going to move out. Every time I asked her why she didn't come to the hospital, I always said that she went to Shanghai for an eye check. .But to my surprise, Annie's attitude was very calm when she saw Geng Mochi, and she was also very calm towards Qi Shuli, as if nothing had happened.But the matter of Milan cannot be hidden. Even if we don’t tell him, Geng Mochi’s assistant will tell him. Besides, this is not a trivial matter. Whether it is in the market or the media, there has been a lot of discussion about who made the LOVE series. Milan is holding a press conference at this time. The reception will naturally attract widespread attention, and she will never let go of this good opportunity to show off, and no one can stop her. Sure enough, Geng Mochi still found out about this, unexpectedly, he appeared very "calm".But I was very apprehensive, and tentatively asked him what he planned to do, and he answered irrelevantly: "I want to go to Sunset Villa to stay for a few days." I didn't even dare to ask "why", his overly calm expression scared me. Two days later, Geng Mochi took Annie and I to Sunset Villa after a long absence. We had just left when Qi Shuli returned to the United States because the company in the United States was waiting for him to deal with it. It was already noon when we arrived at the villa, the temperature plummeted, the sky was dark, and the dark clouds were so low that it seemed that the sky was about to collapse at any time.The north wind howled all the way, rolling towards the person, and blowing on the face, it felt like a knife.Although I was wearing a coat, I was still shivering from the cold.The weather forecast says there will be snow today, but I don't know if it's true. Because the light was too dark, the sunset villa turned on the lights early.I haven't been here for a few years, the house looks older, the living room is as spacious as a palace, and the furniture is old, it feels like a museum when you walk in.Fortunately, there was still a fire in the fireplace, so it felt very warm. For lunch, everyone didn't have much appetite, and many of the dishes that Aunt Yang worked so hard for didn't touch their chopsticks.In the night, there was a sudden heavy snowfall. Mochi stood in front of the bedroom window, looking at the crabapple tree in the back garden whose branches were bent by the heavy snow. What was he thinking about.The window was open, and the wind and snow rolled into the room. I was going to close the window but he stopped me, "Don't close it, let me watch my father..." "Father?" "Yes." Geng Mochi pointed to the crabapple tree and said, "Did you see that tree? My father was buried under the tree." In the evening, Geng Mochi told me the story of his parents for the first time. His father Geng Xianzhi was born in an old bureaucratic family in Shanghai. During the "Cultural Revolution", Geng's family was greatly impacted, and Prophet Geng was sent to a remote tea farm in Hunan, which was next to Sunset Villa.This villa was originally the ancestral property of an old local intellectual. Later, the family was overthrown, and the villa was used as a headquarters by the "Cultural Revolution" rebels.Prophet Geng was imprisoned in the basement of the villa after a criticism. At the same time, two other people were imprisoned in the basement. One was Xia Muye, who was also sent down from Shanghai, and the other was Mr. Shen Fang, the owner of the villa. His daughter, Shen Chulian, was fined to cook for the rebels, and also delivered meals to the "criminals" in the basement. Naturally, she got to know Geng Xianzhi and Xia Muye, and the three young people became good friends who talked about everything. But Shen Chulian loved Prophet Geng deeply in her heart. She broke through many obstacles and married him. After the "Cultural Revolution", the Sunset Villa returned to its original owner.A few years later, Geng Mochi was born in the villa. Unfortunately, when Geng Mochi was three years old, Prophet Geng died young, leaving behind his beloved wife and young son, and an originally happy family collapsed in an instant.Xia Muye, who was doing business in Shanghai, rushed to Hunan after hearing the news, trying to take care of the lonely Shen Chulian mother and son instead of Geng Xianzhi, but was flatly rejected by Shen Chulian.Xia Muye did not give up, and pursued Shen Chulian hard for the next four years, giving her and her youngest son meticulous care.At that time, Shen Chulian was living a poor life. In order to let Aizi Mochi have a better environment for her growth, she had no choice but to marry Xia Muye after a few years of hesitation.When she left the villa, she made the only request, which was to bury her ashes under the crabapple tree in the back garden after death. Xia Muye had no choice but to agree, because he really loved this woman so much that he would never marry her in his life. She kept trying to replace Prophet Geng's position in her heart, and even moved her family to New Zealand, but it was in vain. Fast forward more than twenty years, and Shen Chulian, who has spent half her life alone overseas, is no longer young and pleasant. She is old and wants to return to China to settle down many times, but her body does not allow it.Presumably she also knows that even if she comes back, everything has changed, the only thing that has not changed is her consistent love for Prophet Geng.This kind of love, once in a lifetime is enough. The night was already very deep, and Geng Mochi was still standing motionless in front of the window, as if he had fallen into deep thought.I was worried that his body would not be able to bear it, so I took a coat and put it on him, and said: "Mochi, it's getting late, you just got out of the hospital, close the window and rest, your father must be very pleased to know that you came to see him." "Oh." He turned his back to me and sighed, "but I don't have any impression of my father. I was too young when he left and didn't know anything. I often think that if my father is still alive, my mother must be better than now." Happiness. If I had a complete family, maybe... my situation would be better than now, and many tragedies would not happen..." "Ink Pond!" "There are too many tragedies in my life. I can't even die in peace. I don't know what heinous things I did in my previous life. I'm sorry for many people, so I don't blame Milan for putting me to death. I deserve to be here today. The end, it's just that I can't keep Yesha anymore, I really have no choice, you are right, there are no eternal secrets in this world." I felt that there was something in his words, and was about to ask, he slowly moved to the side of the bed, and lay down with a stiff body, refusing to say anything.I didn't dare to ask any more questions, so I closed the window silently, because there was heating in the room, and as soon as the window was closed, the snowflakes on the glass melted and dripped down silently.I turned on the bedside lamp, and the dim light shone on the snowflakes falling outside the window. Looking at it, I felt that the darkness was as boundless as an abyss.Geng Mochi curled up in the innermost corner of the bed, closed and opened his eyes tiredly, and said in a low voice, "Go, I'll sleep by myself." I stood still. It was very quiet all around, so quiet that even the wind outside the window could be heard. Geng Mochi ignored me, and finally fell into a deep sleep after a while. I lay down next to him, but I didn't dare to touch him. I stayed away from him and watched him sleep, so I could feel at ease.But when I was also drowsy, he suddenly said sadly in my ear: "I hope I can wake up tomorrow morning." When he woke up the next morning, Anne was nowhere to be seen. We searched all around the villa, but we still couldn't see her. We didn't know she had left the villa until we found a note written by her on the desk in the study.She couldn't see, how did she leave?It has been quite a few days, and she has always been preoccupied. Just the night before I came to Sunset Villa, I communicated with her. I asked her if there was anything she couldn't openly discuss with everyone. She was silent at first. Later, he asked inexplicably: "Do you think that sacrificing yourself can make the people around you happy?" "Not necessarily, why do you ask that?" "It's nothing, I just want to know if you all love me." "Do you need to ask? You are our angel," I held her hand, trying to impress her with a sincere tone, "Your existence is very important to each of us, and we are willing to do anything for you. " Annie replied: "I love you too, and I can do anything for you." At that time, I looked at this strange girl and didn't understand what she was trying to say.I can't continue talking with her, she makes me feel more and more strange.Geng Mochi also guessed that she must have something to hide from us. Sure enough, when we returned to the other side of the spring two days later, Anne dropped a bomb on us that night. She said loudly to us very firmly, "I'm getting married!" As expected, things are not the worst, only worse. Geng Mochi's attitude towards Annie's sudden announcement of marriage is to let Annie go, "You can go your own way, don't regret it." All he said was this sentence, including holding a press conference in Milan, He also let it go, but to my surprise, Jin Yi suddenly came to Star City the day before the press conference. I thought Jin Yi came to visit Geng Mochi, but later I found out that it was not that simple. As soon as Jin Yi came, Geng Mochi called him to talk in the study upstairs on the side of the water. The two talked for a long time, and the door was closed. There is still controversy.When Jin Yi came out of the room, her eyes were red, and Geng Mochi's face was dark. I looked at them stupidly, not knowing what happened. "You go back to Shanghai right away. I'll take care of things here. People from the company are here." Geng Mochi is very weak, and his voice is not loud, but his tone is very firm. I have never seen him talk to him with such a stern expression. Jin Yi had spoken.In my impression, he was always gentle and accommodating to Jinyi, at least gentler than me. Jin Yi looked as if she was about to cry, "I believe that if my father was alive, he would definitely not approve of this." "Your father is gone! Now I have the final say!" Even though Geng Mochi was ill, he was still very strong.I could see that Jin Yi was a little afraid of him, she lowered her head and bit her lip, looking very aggrieved.At this moment, Geng Mochi glanced at me, and finally realized that I still exist, and told me, "Book Jin Yi a ticket back to Shanghai immediately, and send her back." I rubbed my hands, at a loss, "What's wrong, Jin Yi just came here and left?" Geng Mochi glared at me, "Don't ask me if it's none of your business!" This guy has never had a good tone when speaking to me.But I dare not not do what he said. Whether I admit it or not, I am actually a little afraid of him.Poor Jin Yi, just two hours after arriving, her luggage is still in the living room, so she has to go home. After the ticket was booked, Geng Mochi specifically told me: "You have to watch her get on the plane, otherwise you're the only one asking!" "..." On the way to send Jinyi to the airport, Jinyi was crying all the way, I asked her what, she just shook her head.I can't help but sigh, the past of Geng Mochi and Jin Yi is beyond my comprehension, they are strictly guarding that line of defense, I will never want to know what happened to them in the past, I only exist in the present of Geng Mochi, as for the future... from the bottom of my heart Sadness arises, do we have a future? Very unexpectedly, I ran into Wei Minglun who had just got off the plane in the parking lot of the airport, Geng Mochi's lawyer Huang Zhong, and several other people who were about to board a business van. He greeted her, then left his companions and ran up, his expression was very complicated, he didn't know whether it was surprise or joy. Wei Minglun and Jin Yi stepped aside to talk, as if deliberately avoiding me.Huang Zhong also came up to greet me at this time, and I noticed that there were actually two foreigners among the people from their side, with blond hair and blue eyes, well-dressed.I suddenly felt tense, because I guess they all came for the press conference in Milan, so mobilizing so many people? Huang Zhong and I knew each other, so I asked him in surprise, "Who are you?" I have to say that all of Geng Mochi's buddies are dignified and dignified. Although Huang Zhong doesn't have the temperament of an artist, he is also a typical elite. He answered my question very vaguely: "Let's deal with it. Things." Then he changed the subject without showing any trace, "Is Mochi okay? I heard that he is going to the United States for surgery, when will he leave?" "I don't know." I was a little displeased, these people are sneaky, what are they hiding from me?I looked at Jin Yi who was not far away again, and actually started arguing with Wei Minglun again, with tears in my eyes... "You all think I'm a fool, don't you?" I said with a stern face, "What a big deal, isn't it just a press conference? Look at how nervous you are, you all think I'm a spy!" Huang Zhong hurriedly apologized, "That's not what it means, it's just because this matter is a bit complicated and has nothing to do with you. Mochi doesn't want to involve you in it, and I hope you understand." "You guys are all together anyway!" Huang Zhong laughed out loud, "We are indeed in the same group. We have known each other since childhood, and the matter of Mochi is our matter." "What about me, what am I in your eyes?" "You are Mo Chi's favorite person." Huang Zhong replied respectfully. I gave him a blank look and ignored him. At this time, Jin Yi and Wei Minglun had finished talking, and it seemed that they had reached a consensus, because I saw a smile on Jin Yi's face, she was obviously still crying just now.It seems that Wei Minglun knows how to coax women better than Geng Mochi, he walked over to me in a graceful manner and said, "Kao'er, get in our car, let's go back together." "No, I still have to send Jinyi to the plane." "She's such an old person, what else do you want to send? She can't get on the plane by herself?" Wei Minglun said to Jinyi while pulling me towards them, "Take care on the way, go quickly, don't miss it." the plane." Jinyi nodded hastily, "I know." Then she looked at me again and smiled, "Kaoer, take good care of Mochi, remember to call me when you return to Shanghai." "You really don't want me to send it?" "No, I'm not a prisoner." This left me speechless, so I had to watch her enter the airport departure hall.Wei Minglun pulled me into their van and told me on the way: "If Mo Chi asks you if Jin Yi got on the plane, you just say yes." I nodded, thinking about it, but felt wrong, "Of course she will get on the plane, why not?" Wei Minglun laughed loudly, "Yes, yes, of course, who would dare not listen to what Mochi said..." Two days later, Milan actually held a press conference.But what surprised me was that Geng Mochi rushed to announce a press conference the day before Milan. Of course, he himself did not attend. Wei Minglun attended on his behalf as a manager. At the same time, Geng Mochi's owner, JPY Records, attended the press conference. The representative of , that is, the producer who released the LOVE series.Originally, Geng Mochi didn't let me go to join in the fun, but I lost my temper severely, saying that he treated me as an outsider and didn't take me seriously at all. Suspicious all day long." The press conference was held in the conference hall of a five-star hotel. I was taken aback when I arrived at the scene in the car of Geng Mochi’s assistant Xiao Wang. Not only many media reporters with long guns and short cannons gathered in front of the hotel, but also many musicians. Fans were waiting there, almost all of them held a Geng Mochi album in their hands, and some held posters and signs, and shouted Geng Mochi’s name loudly when the car stopped, such as "I love you" and "I will always support you" There are endless words like this.Because there were too many people, the hotel dispatched a large number of security guards and put up isolation lines on both sides of the entrance. I was very surprised, it turned out that Geng Mochi was such an "idol". I asked my assistant Xiao Wang: "How do these people know that we are going to hold a press conference here?" Xiao Wang has followed Geng Mochi for many years and is used to such scenes, so he said calmly, "They have their channels." I am silent. That’s right, I know that Geng Mochi has many fans. I heard that some hardcore fans follow him wherever he performs, and even after the performance leaves, the hotel room he stayed in will be booked by his fanatical followers. I once saw on the Internet that a fan put the cup he used in the hotel up for auction online. I saw that post and asked him jokingly: "Is that the cup you used?" Glancing at the side, he said casually: "How do I know, maybe it is." The outrageous thing is that someone actually bought it!He is near his residence in Japan. It is said that there are fans wandering there all year round, trying to have a romantic "encounter" with Geng Mochi. His personal official website and post bar have always been places where fans from all walks of life gather. His birthday, blood type, zodiac sign, weight, height, etc. Personal information has been heatedly discussed by everyone. If anyone can have his autograph, it will definitely be something that fans are extremely envious of. But in the past, I didn't pay much attention to these things, because in my eyes he was just a mortal. I love him, and it has nothing to do with whether he is a pianist. It doesn't matter to other people, I am his woman, not his fan.But now I have to face this reality, Geng Mochi is not my own Geng Mochi, he belongs to music, piano, and millions of music fans and fans, I can’t monopolize him, so this makes me sad , because if one day he really leaves, I will not be the only one who will be sad.I just hope this day never comes.Only wish! When I entered the hotel lobby, the fans on both sides of the door almost made me deaf, because someone in the crowd recognized me, "Look, that's Geng Mochi's girlfriend!" "Which one?" "That's her, yes, I saw Passed her photo!"... Then there was a huff, people on both sides rushed towards me, I was so scared that I ran away, if there were no security guards guarding the door, I was afraid that I would be torn apart by those jealous fans with red eyes into pieces.When I entered the lobby and waited for the elevator, I asked Xiao Wang, it was just a press conference, why are these people so excited?Xiao Wang shook his head and said, "No way, Mr. Geng has not shown his face in public for two years, and the performance has been terminated for three years. The music fans miss him very much. We only issued the announcement last night. Think about them." How big is your ability." "Does Milan know?" This is what I am most worried about. Will she come to make trouble? "It's useless to know, she is just fighting alone, she can't do anything with so many of us." I thought so too, the powerful behind-the-scenes team behind Geng Mochi is not a vegetarian, but I still have doubts, "Then why are you taking action now? It's not a day or two for her to make trouble." Three years ago, Milan used this matter as a threat to force Geng Mochi to register their marriage with her. At that time, Geng Mochi was forced to compromise in order to settle the matter, how could he figure it out now? Xiao Wang said, "You will know when the time comes." We first rushed to the VIP room on the eighth floor to meet Wei Minglun and the others. Those two foreigners were probably representatives of JPY Company. When they learned that I was Geng Mochi's girlfriend, they quickly kissed me in a gentlemanly manner and chattered. I didn't understand a word.They are from France, and the JPY company is headquartered in Paris.Wei Minglun pulled me aside, and specifically explained that after the press conference started, I could only enter the scene as a reporter to observe the press conference. I should not say anything or strike up a conversation with anyone. In short, I can just be a spectator.As he spoke, he also ordered the people next to him to hang up a work card for me symbolically, put on a peaked cap, and put on a pair of sunglasses, which almost covered my face. Xiao Wang explained that , When I entered the lobby just now, some fans recognized me. It is hard to guarantee that there are no reporters who would not recognize me, and I have also worked in the media before, so maybe I will run into acquaintances. "Ignore anyone who greets you." Wei Minglun said. I immediately tensed up and felt like a spy.When I mixed into the scene under the leadership of Xiao Wang, the inside was already full of reporters from all walks of life, facing the rostrum with long guns and short guns. I found a remote corner and sat down. I was so nervous that my back was sweating. Knowing what's coming next, I can only hope that everything goes well.After a while, the press conference officially started. I saw Wei Minglun and the two JPY representatives calmly enter the scene from the backstage. The host of the press conference followed behind. He has seen the world, smiling and polite from beginning to end, the first question was full of gunpowder, the reporter asked why Geng Mochi did not attend the press conference, Wei Minglun explained in a good temper: "I am sorry, Mr. Geng is ill and cannot attend If you don’t believe me, you can call the hospital, Mr. Geng was still in the hospital for examination yesterday.” "What's wrong with him, can you tell me?" Wei Minglun responded calmly, "Sorry, because it involves personal privacy, it is inconvenient for me to talk about this issue here. The only thing I can tell you is that his condition is really serious! The reason why we chose to hold a press conference at such a moment is also Entrusted by Mr. Geng, because in recent years, there have been continuous personal attacks on Mr. Geng Mochi with the copyright issue of the LOVE series, which caused a lot of trouble to Mr. Geng, and even the deceased Ms. Ye Sha was also maliciously slandered. This is the last thing Mr. Geng wants to see..." "Then are these songs Ye Sha's works?" The reporters in the audience couldn't wait to know the truth. Wei Minglun took a deep breath, scanned the audience, as if he had made up his mind, and finally said, "No." Just two words: no. 台下顿时一片哗然，镁光灯又闪成一片。 “各位请听我把话说完，耿先生隐瞒这件事绝不是有意的，实在是情非得已，因为当初他答应了这个系列曲的原作者，不得在任何场合向任何人提到他，所以耿先生多年来一直是以其前妻叶莎女士的名义发表这些作品的，不幸的是几年前叶莎女士去世，耿先生出于对亡者的尊重一直没有跟公众说明这件事情，因为作者是谁已经不重要，重要的是这个系列曲得以广泛流传，这也正是原作者毕生的心愿……” “那作者到底是谁？” "who is it?" “对啊，快讲是谁？” ... “各位不要急嘛，既然我们今天举行这个发布会，一定会将事情跟各位说清楚的。”韦明伦很会控制现场，不慌不忙地说，“很遗憾，我不能说出这个人的名字，我只能告诉大家，这位伟大的民间音乐家已经不在人世，他去世很多年了……” “不会吧，肯定是骗人的！” "Who the hell is it?" 台下又闹哄哄的，有记者站起来问：“既然你说LOVE系列曲的作者已经不在人世，那有什么证据可以证明这个系列曲的作者就是他呢？” “当然有证据，不然我们召开这个发布会干什么？”韦明伦微笑起来，“因为这个作者的女儿今天也来了，下面有请何弦小姐来给大家作详细说明。” 片刻后，一个面容清秀的女孩在工作人员引领下走上了台。 我几乎从椅子上跳起来，瑾宜？ ! 没错，就是瑾宜，她竟然没有回上海！而且，她还有另外一个名字何弦？我完全混乱了，摘下墨镜直直地看着镁光灯下的瑾宜缓步走到正台中间，深深地鞠了一躬。 此时所有的镁光灯对着她，让她几乎睁不开眼睛，她显然很紧张，韦明伦将麦克风放到她跟前时，隔这么远我都看到她在发抖，对着麦克风颤声说：“很……很抱歉，我不知道这件事情会引起这么大的误会，这是家父生前绝对想不到的，而我也是在成年后才知道自己的父亲原来是位音乐家，因为家父创作这些乐曲的时候，我还很小，如果再往前追溯我还没出生，他是什么时候开始创作的我也不太清楚，我只知道他的创作手稿最早的时间是在三十年前，第一首曲子叫《心之弦》……” I was dumbfounded. “何小姐，就凭这好像不能说明令尊就是LOVE系列曲的创作者，我们要看的是真凭实据，而不是你的口述。” “对啊，我们要看证据。” “请问何小姐，令尊的创作手稿现在在哪里？” “就算是你父亲写的曲子，那么耿墨池先生是如何得到这些曲子的呢？有没有正式的授权书，可以出示给我们看？” 台下记者连珠炮似的逼问让瑾宜有些招架不住，小小的一张脸涨得通红，韦明伦就坐在她旁边，见状忙对她耳语了几句，她这才重新稳定情绪，低低地说：“那些手稿不在我的手上，在耿墨池先生的现任太太米兰女士手里，至于她是怎么拿到这些手稿的，你们去问她好了，她明天不是要召开记者招待会吗？你们可以现场问她那些手稿上是不是都写着我父亲的名字。而我在这里还不妨将那些手稿的详细情况告诉大家，我父亲一生共创作有六十多首曲子，我指的是有记录的曲子，而大家所熟悉的LOVE系列曲只占了其中的三分之一……” 台下又是一片哗然。 “大家请看……”瑾宜说着从随身的手袋里掏出一大摞陈旧的文稿，“这些都是家父留下的曲子，其实这只是他记录下来的，还有很多没有记录的就已经散失了，这是很遗憾的事情。至于大家刚刚说到的授权问题，家父去世时写有遗嘱，指明这些曲子全部交由我保管，也就是说我继承了这些作品的版权，是我亲自授权给耿墨池先生演奏的，这是我个人的自由和权利，你们若有疑虑可以去咨询法律界人士。” “那可以公布下您父亲的名字吗？” “对不起，家父一生淡泊，最不喜欢被人议论和关注，否则他不会隐姓埋名这么多年，我希望大家能给一个亡者以安静。在此我要特别感谢耿墨池先生，因为正是他的天才演奏让家父的作品得以流传于世间，实现了这些作品最大的价值，家父若泉下有知，一定很欣慰。让我很感动的是，三年前耿墨池先生以家父的名义设立了一个音乐基金，用以奖励那些在音乐上有突出才华的年轻人，培养音乐后辈，他完全可以以自己的名字设立的，却坚持要以我父亲的名义设立，他说是LOVE系列曲成就了他，但我要说其实也是他成就了LOVE系列曲，这些曲子就是因他而存在的！” 台下此时一片静默。 瑾宜说到这里簌簌地落下泪来，抽泣道：“今天我来参加这个发布会除了是为以上事实进行说明，同时也是为了宣布家父留下来的其余尚未发表的作品都将属于耿墨池先生，我将这部分曲子整理后分成了两个系列，分别是REBIRTH和FOREVER，即重生和永恒的意思，因为耿墨池先生饱受病痛折磨多年，我希望他能借由这些曲子早日康复，重获新生，如果没有了他，这些曲子就没有存在的意义。在我看来这些曲子不是简单的五线谱和音符，既是家父毕生的心血，也是家父对爱对生命对信念的理解，而耿墨池先生正是凭借一颗宽厚仁爱的心来诠释的这些作品，他与病魔抗争至今也正表达了他对生命的尊重和热爱，他对音乐孜孜不倦的追求是很多音乐人的榜样，既然我手上的这些曲子尘封三十年都可以重见天日，那么我相信耿墨池先生一定可以战胜病魔，以全新的面貌'Rebirth'！他高尚的人格魅力、他为音乐后辈树立的榜样、他的音乐和他的爱将永恒存在，Forever，His love will last on forever！……” 有零星的掌声响起。 接着掌声连成一片，现场记者陆续站起身来鼓掌。 瑾宜此时已泣不成声，她也站起身，对着台下再次深深鞠躬，很久很久她才抬起头来，镁光灯中她脸上的泪水已经淌成了河…… 我是最后一个离开现场的。因为发布会后记者们将瑾宜团团围住，韦明伦和小王还有几个耿墨池的手下护送瑾宜回酒店，人太多了，谁也顾不上我。 我从会议室大门走出来时，一眼就看到铺着华丽地毯的走廊拐角处站着的米兰，宝蓝色的呢裙外套了件黑色裘皮短大衣，大波浪的鬈发披散着，鬓发后的钻石耳钉熠熠闪光，彼时刚好有柱灯光自她头顶的天花板打下来，尤显得她整个人光芒四射。我不得不承认，米兰天生就有当贵妇的底子，养尊处优这么多年，她越发气质雍容了，只是她眼底的目光太冷，让她妆容精致的脸上表情僵硬。我不知道她什么时候来的，想必她也知道她手里的王牌已经失效，不仅如此，刚刚新闻发布会的最后，韦明伦还宣读了耿墨池个人的一份声明，称将解除和现任妻子米兰的婚姻关系，相关法律程序随后将启动，米兰大抵还是不了解耿墨池的，这个人一般默不作声，但如果他决定了什么事，那种决绝的冷酷让人害怕。 长久以来，耿墨池对米兰一直是容忍和迁就的，因为他知道自己亏欠于她，当初若不是他开了那个愚人节的玩笑，米兰不会成为这场有名无实的婚姻的牺牲品。但耿墨池可能没有想到，正是他的纵容和冷漠，让米兰在歧途上越走越远，直至钻入死胡同，米兰不依不饶地闹了这几年，以为耿墨池还会像三年前一样妥协，殊不知耿墨池现在只剩了一口气，他反倒什么都不怕了，所以才决定结束这场荒谬的婚姻，从而不声不响地给了米兰致命的一击。 足足有两分钟，我跟米兰互相对视着，谁也没有开口说话。我不知道还可以跟她说什么，走到这一步，鱼死网破，已没有赢家。 米兰在走廊的尽头冷冷地瞥着我，高昂着头，那神态酷似演艺圈的某国际章，冷艳中透着狠劲，让人无法亲近。她还不肯认输吗？“米兰，到此为止吧。”我看着她说，声音低微，十分疲惫，“都三年了，你老这样闹难道不累吗？何苦让自己这么不开心。” “你怎么知道我不开心？”米兰冷笑，“我乐此不疲！” “米兰！他都要死了，你还乐个什么呀？我知道，你这么不顾一切地闹并不是真的想要争他的财产，因为我了解你，你虽然喜欢钱，可是你心里更渴望的是爱情。耿墨池给不了你要的爱，所以你才这么恨他，你无法容忍他对你的忽视，你逼着自己做这种匪夷所思的事不过是为了吸引他的注意，哪怕为此众叛亲离也在所不惜。米兰，值得吗？” 我这么问她，其实心里一点也不好受，我踏着柔软的地毯一步步走向她，最后站到她的跟前，已经没有力气与她针锋相对，我只是说：“他就快死了，你继续闹吧，就算最后赢了，也不过是赢得了一具尸体，而你为此付出了三年的青春，把自己变得人不人鬼不鬼，米兰，你真的很可怜，我原本是恨你的，可是恨到现在我反而同情你了，当我们所有的人都退出，就剩你一个人还在台上唱独角戏，无人喝彩，没人欣赏，你流的是你自己的泪，你懂吗？” 米兰依然昂着头，可是表情已有了活的迹象，纵然是悲伤和怨恨，但脸上至少没有那么僵硬了，她嘴角微动，直直地看着我。 我凄然一笑，“你看我老了很多是吧，你也一样！米兰，我们没有多少青春可以耗了，我累了，什么都不想争了。因为这世上从来没有谁可以得到他想要的一切，包括耿墨池，他也有得不到的东西，他从小饱受病痛折磨，不过是想要一颗健康的心脏，可是他没有，他现在每多活一天都是奇迹，他纵然有钱有名有地位，又有什么用，眼一闭，地下一躺，什么都是空的。” “你不是得到了他的爱吗？你还有什么没得到的？”米兰逼视着我，嘴角依然是惯有的冷笑。我知道，她还是放不下架子。她这人太要强，骨子里那种玉石俱焚的决绝毁了她一生。我的目光绕过她望向了她身后的落地窗，这个酒店最气派的地方就是面向街道的整面墙的落地窗，外面不知何时已经下雪了，零星的雪花扑在窗玻璃上，瞬间融成水珠，无声地滑落。 我看着那些水珠，犹自哀伤地说：“米兰，你知道我想要的是什么吗？我不过是想要跟他在一起，对于恋爱中的人来说，再多的山盟海誓、甜言蜜语都抵不上两个人在一起，只要在一起，哪怕他冲我发脾气，我静静地在旁边看着他就好了。可是我还能守着他多久呢，如果等不到合适的心脏移植，他就只能死，那时候我还能跟他在一起吗？我认识他都九年了，分分合合，挣扎到现在我落了什么好处？两次流产，差点连命都送掉，现在都三十多了还一事无成，所有的精力都耗在了这份没有结果的感情上，米兰，我并不比你幸运多少！” "I knew it earlier, why bother!" “是啊，早知如此，何必当初！”我重复她的话，终于没能忍住，泪水夺眶而出，“如果时光可以倒流，我宁愿没有认识他，没有爱上他，这样我就不会吃这么多的苦！你也一样，如果时光可以倒流，你还会选择这场从一开始就死亡的婚姻吗？你还会以毁灭自己为代价把他拖入地狱，结果自己也万劫不复吗？你会吗？” “都是你逼的！我自认什么都不比你差，我巴巴地想要的东西，你眼睛都不瞟就得到了，先是祁树礼，然后是耿墨池，你凭什么？！”米兰陡然扬高了声音，眼底也蓄满了泪水。 “我什么都不凭，我也从来没有想要和你争，感情这种事情是争得来的吗？两厢情愿才能琴瑟和鸣，你总是把自己当作受害者，觉得所有的人都亏欠了你，你失去的东西都是别人抢走的，所以你心中除了恨再无其他，你这个样子怎么能幸福？” 米兰咄咄逼人，冷哼道：“你嘴巴倒是会讲！既然你看得这么透彻，明知道没有结果，为什么到现在都不肯放手？你如果没有霸着他，死缠着他，他会对我这么冷漠吗？” 我凝视她片刻，不由分说拽着她的胳膊将她拖到落地窗边，指着外面说：“你看，今天天气很冷，下着很大的雪，你再看下面的酒店门口，新闻发布会都结束了那些人还不肯走，他们都是耿墨池的忠实追随者，大冷天的从四面八方赶过来不过是想看耿墨池一眼，他们不甘心，他们更伤心，于是不肯走。米兰，耿墨池从来就不是属于我一个人，他属于所有爱他的乐迷和粉丝，我原来以为他是我一个人的，可是现在我知道这不可能，他这样的人注定了是站在舞台中央的，没有人可以独占得了他。我们每个爱他的人都唯愿他好，粉丝爱他就支持他，他在哪里有演出就追到哪里捧场；我爱他就留在他身边默默地照顾着他；瑾宜也爱他，于是将父亲的作品全部交给他，并为他保守秘密这么多年；他身边的朋友爱他，就尽心尽力地为他做事，帮他，扶持他。那么你呢，你口口声声说爱他，你为他做了什么？你扪心自问，你的所作所为是在爱他吗？你不是在爱呀，你是嫌他活得太长，千方百计地想整死他，掐断他最后一口气，你觉得这就是你想要表达的爱吗？这世上最伟大的爱情就是你这样的吗？” 说到这里，胸腔里骤然迸发的痛楚令我几乎无法呼吸，我捂住脸恸哭起来，我不想在她的面前哭，过去无论被她伤得多深，我从来没在她面前哭过，可是此刻我再也承受不了这哀痛，心上像是有尖锥在狠狠地扎一样，我弓着身子扶着墙壁，痛得整个人都要蜷在一起了。 我一直就这么哭着走进电梯，步履蹒跚，再也不想跟她多说一句话，看都不想朝她看。外面的雪越下越大，寒风刺骨，我走出酒店时手机响了，我根本没有力气接电话，最后蹲在了街边上哭泣。我真的是无能为力了，就算他现在已经死了，在我面前已经僵冷，我抱着的是一具尸体，我都是无能为力的，就像英珠的死，我只能这样哭，这样心碎，这样跟着埋葬自己的一部分甚至全部，即使将自己撞个粉身碎骨血流如注，也都是枉然，我还是救不了他，救不了自己。 我不知道在街边上哭了多久，头上身上落满雪花，酒店门口聚集的粉丝逐渐散去，我还蹲在雪地里哭，当韦明伦联系不上我开车来酒店找我时，我神志已经不是很清醒了，不知道是哭累了还是冻僵了，韦明伦将我一扶上车我就昏了过去。 当天晚上我就发起高烧，呼吸困难，当年溺水时被呛坏的肺旧疾复发，第二天耿墨池将我送到医院，开始以为只是受了寒感冒，不想病情迅速恶化，肺炎引发肺水肿，到次日晚上时因呼吸衰竭不得不用上呼吸机。我一直在发烧，时而清醒时而昏迷，我不是很清楚周围发生了什么，我只记得身边不停地有人来来往往，有医生，有护士，也有家人。 印象中祁树礼待在我身边最久，总是不停地跟我说话，有时候我明明睁着眼睛，因为药物的作用意识仍不是很清醒，他每说一句话每提到一个人我都要费力地去想这个人是谁，他（她）跟我什么关系，然后又昏昏睡去。模模糊糊的，我好像听祁树礼说，安妮的结婚对象竟然是陈锦森，祁树礼为此大发雷霆，扬言要杀了他，他们闹得很凶，我甚至听到兄妹俩在我病房内吵架。 安妮哭着哀求祁树礼：“哥，我爱他，我知道他做过让你们痛恨的事，也伤害到你们，可我还是爱他！我当初答应跟大哥举行婚礼，其实是跟Keven赌气，他忽然就冷淡我，我受不了就赌气，后来我才知道他是因为哥哥把财产转到了考儿的名下才冷淡我，我知道他想要什么，可我给不了他。我们两个都是自私的人，自私到为了自己可以不顾及别人，甚至是伤害身边的人，但是经历了这么多事，我们都明白拥有是多么的可贵，我们曾经拥有过，可却没有珍惜，现在我什么都看不到，我只要拥有他，他就是我余生的全部！哥，成全我们吧，我是真的想和他在一起……” “如果你跟他结婚，你就不再是我妹妹，听明白没有，你不再是我妹妹！” “哥，这是我的选择，请成全我们。” “我不答应！”耳边是祁树礼暴怒的声音。接着是护士过来劝止：“各位，请你们不要在病房内吵架，这会影响到病人休息。” "Sorry." ... 接下来，我陷入了更深的昏迷，耳畔再也听不到有人说话了，我好像睡了很久，做了很长很长的一个梦。梦境凌乱而疲惫，我不停地从这个场景跳到那个场景，很多的面孔在脑中旋转，我梦见自己回到了孩童时代，因为心爱的玩具丢失而哭泣，转眼就长大，我又因为考试没考好而不敢回家，我给暗恋的男生写情书，我第一次喝酒醉倒，我跟街上的太妹打架被撕烂了裙子，我喜欢的男生牵着别的女孩故意让我看到，我在雨中哭泣着奔跑，我用压岁钱给自己偷偷买了双红色高跟鞋结果被父亲扔掉，我在高考的榜单上看到自己的名字兴奋得大笑，我用口红在龚浩明的备课夹里画红色的心，我跟龚浩明在学校的树林里偷偷地拥吻，我坐火车去北漂…… 很多的影像在我脑中不断交叠，我好像又经历了一次人生，或喜或悲，岁月在我混乱的记忆中刹那老去，醒来时看到窗户中透进来的阳光，我恍若隔世。非常意外，我见到的第一个人竟是米兰！她静坐在床边的椅子上，没有化妆，仍然美若天仙。我虚弱地看着她，脑子开始复苏，我记得我跟她在酒店争论，下着雪，我在雪地里哭泣。 “你……怎么在这儿？”我虚弱地问。 她笑，“我为什么不能在这儿呢？” 我确实很虚弱，说话都觉得吃力，又问：“墨池呢？” 米兰叹口气，直摇头，“你还是只想到他。放心，他还没死，正在做检查。”米兰说着连连咂舌，“真为Frank不值，他为你熬了这么多天，你昏迷了十多天知不知道？他天天守在这里，头发都白了大半，几次吐血昏倒，可就是不肯离开，结果你醒来还是没有问起他……” 我闭上眼睛，眼泪滚滚地落下来。 我已经完全清醒了。 米兰又说：“他昨天晚上又昏倒了，没办法，只好由我来守着你。”我扭过头去，还是不愿意在她面前落泪，“你……怎么这么好心？” “在你眼里，我大概从来没安过好心吧？”她自嘲地笑，居然伸手帮我掖了掖被子，继续说了下去，艰难地、断续地，“你实在是很失败，白考儿，两个男人都这么爱你，却一个都留不住，不过……我比你更失败，争来争去，却什么都没争到，好没意思，谁也没赢谁，谁也没得到谁，谁都是可怜虫……” “你不是很喜欢钱吗？” “是，我是很喜欢钱，可是我更渴望爱情，像耿墨池这样的男人，对任何女人都具有杀伤力，我爱上他是很自然的事情，所以当初他在婚礼上为我戴上戒指时，我就找不着北了，明知道他是利用我来报复你也无所顾忌。唉，后来我又利用中田来报复他，可是他完全不在乎，他的漠然置之对我的打击很大，于是我又拿出LOVE系列曲的手稿要挟他，结果我还没行动他就抢先行动了，可见他对叶莎非常珍视，包括对那个何瑾宜都非常看重，唯独对我冷面无情，就像你说的，从头到尾就是我一个人在唱戏，没意思，真的没意思，而他的财产从来都不是我真正想要的，所以我放弃了……” “放弃财产？” “是啊，我已经跟耿墨池协议离婚了，就在前天。”米兰说得很平静。 我难以置信地瞪大眼睛，以为她在开玩笑，可是她的表情一点也不像是在说谎，素颜的面孔毫无神采，凄婉悲凉，却自有一种痛悟在眼中。 她说：“我也就是那天新闻发布会后想通的，我在酒店待了很久，出来的时候我在车上看到你蹲在路边上哭泣，冰天雪地的，你一个人在那里哭得很伤心，于是我也哭，那时候我就知道我输了，忽然间觉得人生好滑稽，拼命想要夺取的并非是属于你的，拼命想要摆脱的却是命中注定的，这场悲剧没有赢家……真的，我从来没觉得这么绝望过，包括祁树礼，都很绝望，因为你和耿墨池的感情，就是上帝来了，也奈何不得……” 米兰一直在床边喋喋不休，我因为药物作用很快又睡过去。依然是浑浑噩噩的梦境，我仿佛置身一个空旷的天地，看不到一个人，却依稀听到有人在说话，声音若近若远，如轻盈的风，掠过耳畔。意识忽远忽近，我不能确定我到底是醒着的还是在做梦，因为我听出来这次跟我说话的是安妮，她身上的百合香水味我很熟悉。 “考儿，对不起，都是我的错，我知道现在说什么，你们都不会原谅我了，可是你们也许不知道，我嫁给他是因为，因为要阻止他对你们的报复和伤害。这个男人，贪得无厌，自私透顶，我是爱过他，是真心实意的爱，为了这份爱情我洗心革面改变很多，也付出很多，甚至因为跟他赌气答应Frank的求婚……想想我这一生真是很悲惨，从来没有人真正地爱过我，Frank跟我求婚也是为了利用我来达到他个人的目的，而Keven从一开始就是在利用我获取我哥哥的财富，他转移财产，隐瞒收入，背着我哥从事非法交易等等，我哥是看在我的分上才容忍了他的种种劣行。后来他胆子越来越大，竟然在账目和报表上做手脚，以严重亏损资不