Chapter 20 Chapter Nineteen

This world is so strange, distance and closeness, understanding and rejection, pain and joy are often only separated by a layer of paper. It happened so suddenly that I had no room to react! When someone covered my mouth from behind, I was still wondering whether I should go to Shanghai with Geng Mochi. I cried a lot when I came out of "Shangdao Coffee" just now. A black Buick commercial vehicle parked on the side of the road.I wanted to shout, but before I could make a sound, the person was already in the car.I looked around in panic, and there were a few burly men wearing sunglasses. "Who are you? What do you want to do?" I struggled and screamed, but no one paid attention, and the car quickly drove out of the downtown area.One of the two big men sitting next to me controlled my hands and feet, the other pulled out a needle, and the other man behind him covered my mouth and stabbed my arm with a needle. What's going on, the whole body goes limp, and I don't know anything.

I seem to have slept for a long time, as if I was dreaming, but it didn’t look like it. Everything in the dream happened in reality. Just over an hour ago, I was drinking coffee with Geng Mochi in "Shangdao". chatting, the atmosphere was a little frozen. Geng Mochi sat across from me, dressed in light brown casual clothes, his hair was trimmed very short, almost a crew cut, this was the first time I saw him with a crew cut.The early autumn sun was so good, it shone obliquely through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the cafe, and shone on his face. His face was half shaded and half bright. There was no smile, his expression was melancholy and dazed, and he didn't know what he was thinking.Suddenly, my heart ached and I really wanted to ask him: How are you doing?But I didn't. I just asked, "Where's Anne, how is she doing?"

He shook his head, "I don't know, I can't control her." As he said that, he took out a silver lighter and lit a cigarette with a snap. He put one hand on the table and held the cigarette in the other. Deep melancholy formed between his brows. His thoughtful look made his My face felt far away under the smog, "You seem to have changed a lot," his eyes flicked across my face, "It feels different." I smiled wryly, "Yes, when a woman reaches my age, she usually ages very quickly." He held my hand, "Once upon a time, my greatest wish was to grow old with you, just like the song says, it's very vulgar, but it's the ultimate beauty of life..."

I slowly withdrew my hand and turned my face away, "We don't have this fate." "Yeah, we have no fate." He shook his head weakly, and said slowly, "I didn't plan to come back, and I can just bury it in the cemetery in Seattle after death, but I still don't feel relieved after all, come and see you , just saw the notice for sale on the water side, so I bought it. I don’t need it myself, I reserved it for you. If you are in China in the future, you can live in this house.” I stared at this man obsessively, not knowing what to say. He sighed, and said again: "You are just too casual, you don't use your brain when you do things, you just do what you want, sometimes I really can't do anything about you. In Seattle, the morning after you left , I wake up, people who can’t see you will know that you have run away again, why is it always like this? Don’t you understand after so many things, even if you sacrifice yourself, it may not make me happy, because you are me The whole reason for happiness, without you, how can I still be happy! So after you left, I really missed you, and many times I wished I could die, but now I understand that even if I was really dead at that time, Even if you, a crab, can never turn into a swan, I still won't stop... loving you."

He said this lightly, flicked the cigarette ash, saw that I was silent, looked at me more deeply and said: "Running is actually the most cowardly expression, and I have also run away. During the time when I was just married to Milan, it wasn't from I fled from Xingcheng to Shanghai, that is, I fled from Shanghai to Xingcheng. We were married for three years, and we caught hide and seek for three years. When I came to Japan, I fled from Nagoya to Paris, and from Paris to Seattle. In the end, I still couldn’t escape. The current chaotic situation is actually related to my blind avoidance. If I can face and solve the problem decisively, I may not be where I am today. So I hope you will stop evading and be brave. Love belongs to the two of us, and no one can take it away, so why are you running away?"

I turned my face away and raised my face as hard as I could to keep the tears from falling. He wanted to say something else. Suddenly, Carpenter's classic "Yesterday Reappeared" sounded in the coffee shop. Both of them were stunned, staring at each other with wide eyes. For a moment, there seemed to be a lightning strike in their minds, and there was silence. The night sky suddenly lit up, and memories swept over with a howling wind. So many past events, so many laughter and tears, were never lost. As if by instinct, I gripped his hand tightly. I dare not breathe, afraid that every time I inhale, those memories will be disturbed.

We left the coffee shop silently, and when we were standing on the side of the street, I whispered to him: "I will return to Xiangbei in a few days." He frowned, "Why? Did I make you feel bad?" "No, no," I shook my head again and again, "I just don't want to disturb you, you need to be quiet." "If you want to be quiet, why should I run back?" He let go of my hand, took out another cigarette and lit it, feeling a little agitated, "What I told you just now is in vain, I told you not to run away , you run away, you don't know how long my days are left!"

I muttered, "Milan, I will find you." He took a sharp puff of smoke, "So what, am I still afraid of her?" I covered my face and shook my head, "Mochi, I'm sorry, I didn't do it on purpose, I just don't know how to face you, and Milan, I can't beat her, and I don't deserve you." As I said that, I started to cry, and he sighed and stood behind me.The familiar and blurred breath enveloped me like a dream, and I shook for a while, so weak that I hardly had the strength to stand still.He slowly opened his arms and hugged me tightly, then before I could resist, he lowered his head and kissed me deeply.His lips were slightly cool, and there was a nice smell of tobacco. My mind was dizzy and I couldn't resist. I was completely immersed in this kind of kiss and couldn't extricate myself. I pretended to be strong, but in fact it was pathetic and cowardly.

"Come with me to Shanghai, let's stay for a while, there...maybe we can relax..." He finally let go of me, put his hand between my hair and looked at me seriously and said. "The ink pool..." "Think about it and give me an answer as soon as possible. There are still some things waiting for me to deal with." His hand rested on the back of my neck, rubbing it lightly, his eyes were gentle and sad, "The doctor said that I am very hard to hold on. For this winter, I want to be with you in the last time, okay?" What a longing feeling, this feeling of being soaked in his love under his gaze.In the days when things are changing and people are changing, if it wasn’t for this feeling, I would definitely not be able to survive today. Everything has passed, and nothing exists. Maybe at this moment, only the love between each other is still struggling tiredly in this chaotic world... …

We kissed goodbye on the crowded street, he was going to the music association, and I went home alone. Walking on the Xiangjiang Bridge, my heart suddenly became very peaceful. This reminded me somehow of a classic old film "Broken Blue Bridge" starring Vivien Leigh. At the end of the film, the heroine Mara ran to the Towards death, I remember being on such a bridge, with cars coming and going. Over the years, I have been deeply moved by this movie.In fact, I also have the same demon in my heart, fighting to the death with me. My pain stems from this struggle. I want to give him the best love, but I am afraid that I will not be able to bear it, and it will bring him disaster instead. The struggle has been entangled in my heart for a long time, and the struggle is especially fierce now.Then what happened?When I walked across the bridge and turned into a secluded street, I was covered from behind by someone following me...

I had prepared for the worst when I found out that I was kidnapped by Chen Jinsen and taken to Shenzhen.What puzzles me is that after he brought me to Shenzhen, he seldom showed up, and when he met, he only asked about daily life, or gave a polite hug, patted the shoulder, etc., which made me even more unreasonable. of fear.Because this shows that Chen Jinsen no longer has the initial "admiration" for me. The relationship between us is kidnapping and being kidnapped. It is very simple and neat, but it is full of murderous intentions. You can kill the killer without hesitation, always thought that he was a modest gentleman, but unexpectedly he was a kidnapper. For a long time, I couldn't connect the two. When I realized the seriousness of the situation, I couldn't get out because I was closely monitored. Except for my bedroom, I was free to move around, and other places in the house were guarded, especially the kitchen and balcony.Because Chen Jinsen does not want me to commit suicide for the time being, let alone send a distress signal to the outside world from the balcony. Even the windows in the bedroom are welded to death by stainless steel, so there is no chance of suicide or calling for help. Desperation, fear, despair... I no longer have any hope of living, but I just worry about my family and Geng Mochi, they may not know my situation now, if they know, even if the family can hold on, what will Geng Mochi do, his heart disease is beyond cure No, any stimulation may kill him.When I think of this, I can't restrain my sadness. What Qi Shuli said is right, I am really an ominous person, so I hesitated when Geng Mochi asked me to go to Shanghai with him, it seemed to be a premonition, I was hesitating, afraid The reunion spells new doom for him. Sure enough, before I had time to agree to his request, disaster struck.I repeatedly recalled that day when we came out of the coffee shop and we hugged each other and wept on the side of the street. I remembered the bewilderment and hesitation when I walked alone on the Xiangjiang Bridge. At that time, it would be better to be buried under the car like the heroine Mara, and give my life the most poignant ending.It's good now, I can't die, I can't live without suffering, the bad thing is that I don't know the situation outside at all, and I don't even know why Chen Jinsen kidnapped me.I had no other way to resist but to go on a hunger strike.Because I know very well that once I die, no matter what kind of conspiracy it is, Chen Jinsen will fall short. The feeling of hunger is very uncomfortable, it is a kind of torture to the limit of life, but fortunately my body and mind are already numb, and I can ignore the pain no matter how great it is, all I can think about is not to let anyone around me get involved , The weaker the body, the stronger the idea.But Chen Jinsen refused to let me die like this. He called the doctor to give me an infusion, and used glucose to maintain my feeble life—the plan easily fell through.I was lying on the bed, but I could not wish to survive or die. Chen Jinsen looked at me proudly and said, "I won't let you die like this, you are still useful to me." "What do you want to do to me?" He came to see me that day, and despite my weakness, I still wanted to know the answer.He didn't answer my question directly, just looked at me and smiled, and then smoked on his own, exhausting my patience very patiently. "What do you want to do to me?" I asked again struggling. He gave me a disdainful look and puffed out his cigarette, "I gave you a chance, but you have to give it up." "what chance?" "Marry me, if you marry me, nothing will happen." "Is it so important to you that I marry you?" He looked at me strangely, and suddenly laughed, as if the person talking to him was an idiot, "What do you want me to say about you, Cathy, sometimes you are ice-snow smart, but sometimes you are really stupid, Geng Mochi put all The property has been transferred to your name, don't you know?" I am stunned. "Don't know?" When he asked such a question, he suddenly pulled his face down, without a smile on his face, "I ran around for him for so many years, for what reason, I just hoped to get substantial benefits. After falling in love with his sister, I even I don't expect to get all of him, but at least I shouldn't be at a disadvantage. Who knows that he is a heartless person, and he didn't leave any property to his sister, but transferred it to a man who has nothing to do with him. Under the name of an unrelated woman, this woman is you! If it was transferred to his wife's name, I would feel better, but if it is transferred to you, it is obviously a demonstration against me, and I will not get a single cent of the benefits... " I suddenly realized, "It turns out that you were with Annie and later approached me because of property?" Chen Jinsen smiled without answering, neither admitting nor denying it. "How could you do this? Annie loves you, and you actually used her feelings to gain benefits! A gentleman loves money, and he gets it in a proper way. Geng Mochi must have noticed your intentions before transferring the property!" "That's why I kidnapped you!" Chen Jinsen's face was twitching because of his anger, his eyes were full of fierceness, "I know you are his everything, more than any property, if he compromises, then everything is easy to say, if Willing to go my own way, hehe..." I fainted with rage, "You bastard!" "I'm just a bastard. Is it easy for me to climb from the bottom of Hong Kong's wage earners to today? Without a strong family background and no one to support him, from the day I helped him manage his business, I vowed to make a good career. At that time, he also promised me that he would not treat me badly, but in the end, he not only prevented his sister from dating me, but also removed my financial power in the company, with the purpose of completely driving me out!" "If I were him, I wouldn't agree with Annie dating someone like you. You have ulterior motives and use your feelings as a bargaining chip. Do you know how important Annie is to him? If you hurt Annie, he will definitely not make it easier for you! " "That's right, I don't deny that there are financial reasons for dating Annie, but why do you think I don't love her? She forced me to get to where I am today. This dead girl is more heartless than her brother. And self-willed, tired of me, so she quickly fell in love with that surnamed Qi, and she wanted to marry him, she didn't take me seriously at all! Okay, since everyone is tearing their skins apart, let's fight to the death. Well, anyway, I have nothing, I'm not afraid of anything anymore!" Just as he was talking, Chen Jinsen's cell phone rang, and he immediately changed into a completely different expression. It looked like he was talking to his lover, speaking softly, sweeter than chewing candy. But soon I realized something was wrong. In his words...how could there be Annie's name?Annie? ! "I know, you are just angry with me, why are you so stupid, baby, bet your own marriage... How can that old man be worthy of you? You should know that I am the only one who loves you in this world. Don't cry Ah, Annie, I don't blame you, really, as long as you come back to me, we will pretend nothing happened and start over from the beginning, I really love you, baby, my Annie..." My head was buzzing.Annie?annie! ! After finishing the phone call, Chen Jinsen looked down at me with a devilish smile, "I have another bargaining chip, Annie figured it out, she knew that Qi didn't really love him, she was willing to come back to me, it seems These days, my thoughts on her are not in vain. Very good, you and Annie are the most important people in Geng Mochi, let's see if he still competes with me this time!" "Chen Jinsen!" I roared hysterically, "Don't you just want money? You can do anything to me, why do you want to hurt Annie, she is innocent, innocent!" "Who said I was going to hurt her? I love her very much. I found that the person I really love is her. We have so much in common. I fell in love with her the first time I saw her. If it wasn't for her Brother, I may love her more..." Chen Jinsen's expression gradually softened, he folded his arms and raised his head, with a strange tenderness on his face, "She is an angel, sent by God to comfort me Angel, there has never been a woman who has been kind to me like her. During the time she was angry with me, I missed her so much that I almost died. Only then did I realize that I really fell in love with her. As long as Geng Mochi is willing to give her property Transfer to her name, I will treat her well, in fact, I am also fighting for her interests..." The next day, Chen Jinsen came again. He received a call from Annie just after he arrived. He winked at the subordinates next to him, and someone immediately covered my mouth to prevent Annie from hearing my noise.I didn't struggle much, just pricked up my ears to listen, only to hear Chen Jinsen say: "When is the plane, I will pick you up..." I just feel that my eyes are dark, Annie is coming to Shenzhen! In the afternoon, he was even more excited than when he received Annie's call. He told me that Geng Mochi and Qi Shuli would also come to Shenzhen together tomorrow, and he had already agreed to all the conditions.As for the conditions, Chen Jinsen didn't tell me. He only said that Annie flew to Shenzhen at ten o'clock in the morning. After dealing with Geng Mochi tomorrow, he will take Annie to live abroad and never come back. I asked weakly, "Qi Shuli...is here too?" "Yeah, it's probably Geng Mochi's rescuers. They are friends. I really don't know." Chen Jinsen sneered, sat on the side of the bed, touched my deadly cold face with his hands and said, "Isn't that more Okay? Let's clean it up together, I deliberately quarreled with me at the auction last time, and I'm going to ask him to settle the debt!" I gritted my teeth and trembled with anger. At this moment, Chen Jinsen's cell phone rang sharply. "What, didn't you receive it?" Chen Jinsen's face changed suddenly while holding the phone, and he bounced off the bed, "Impossible, she just took the flight this morning and arrived at ten o'clock, and it's almost eleven o'clock now , how could it not be there yet?" I was also surprised, Anne was not picked up? "You idiots, I'm raising you for nothing, find her for me, even if you search the airport all over, find her for me!" Chen Jinsen loudly reprimanded the men who picked Annie up at the airport, sweating from his forehead, I see Looking at him, I don't know if his nervousness is because he really loves Annie. "What? I checked, she was on this flight, so why didn't you pick her up? What are you all doing to eat? Find it for me, find it for me. If you can't find it, don't come back. Get out of here..." Chen Jinsen turned off his phone angrily, walked around the room, looking at the watch on his wrist from time to time, he suddenly found me laughing, immediately found a punching bag, rushed over and grabbed me from the bed, strangled my neck and said: " Do you dare to laugh at me? Just because you dare to laugh at me? Tell you Bai Kaoer, I will make your death ugly, and I will not let anyone blame me!..." Until the early morning of the next day, there was still no news of Annie. Japan had confirmed that she had boarded the plane, but no one had seen her in Shenzhen. Could it be that she had grown wings and could fly? Chen Jinsen was so anxious that he didn't dare to call the police because he detained me.How this play will end, my imagination is very limited, although I can't speak, my consciousness is very clear, this play can never be a comedy ending.I wonder why my heart suddenly beats so fast, so chaotically, there is a great panic before the disaster... I was very tired, but I couldn't sleep, maybe the dripping was too fast, which made me upset distracted.I kept my eyes open until dawn, and Chen Jinsen and his subordinates also stayed up all night. Annie's sudden disappearance completely disrupted their plans. According to the plan, Geng Mochi and Qi Shuli should have arrived in Shenzhen today. At around nine o'clock in the morning, Chen Jinsen's cell phone rang harshly, and everyone in the room pricked up their ears. The call was probably related to Annie. Sure enough, Annie's crying voice came from the phone, because the voice was so loud that even I heard it, "Keven, it's me, I... was kidnapped by them..." Like a bolt from the blue, everyone in the room was stunned. "Who...who kidnapped you? Annie, talk, who kidnapped you?" Chen Jinsen turned pale while holding the phone, and his whole body was shaking. It turned out that he also panicked sometimes.However, it can be seen from this that he still has feelings for Annie.The phone was hung up quickly, and about half an hour later, another call came in from Chen Jinsen's cell phone, "It's me, don't you recognize me?" It seemed to be a man's voice on the phone, and I couldn't hear it clearly, but Chen Jinsen must be Hearing it clearly, his eyes were straightened, and his mouth was open for a long time, unable to speak. I stared at Chen Jinsen, feeling like my heart was about to burst, I could almost hear the sound of flesh and blood being torn apart, and I had a terrible intuition again, could it be that the person who kidnapped Annie was... "Qi Shuli! What do you want to do? What do you want to do?" Chen Jinsen jumped up waving his hands, his entire face was distorted. "I want to do whatever you want!" This sentence was very clear, I heard it clearly, it was Qi Shuli's voice, "I heard that your girlfriend is a beauty, I haven't seen her before, my subordinates told me , she is as beautiful as an angel, so listen carefully, Cathy is fine, your angel is fine, I just treat each other with courtesy, haha..." With a bang, the whole world collapsed, and the ears were buzzing, and even Chen Jinsen's thunderous roar could not be heard.I sat up, grabbed my hair with both hands, and let out a heart-piercing scream: "No!..." Soon, after a period of chaos, the house was empty, and everyone was called by Chen Jinsen to deal with the sudden incident. Even the person guarding me disappeared.Chen Jinsen was not at all worried that I would run away. After several days of hunger strike and physical and mental torture, I was dying, lying motionless on the bed, and except for half-opened eyes and weak breathing, I could not feel any other signs of life. But I still have the consciousness, how terrible, how cruel, Qi Shuli ordered his subordinates to kidnap Annie, he didn't even know that Chen Jinsen's girlfriend was Annie, let alone that Annie was the Xiaojing he had been looking for for many years... sin, all It's my fault. He has been searching for Xiaojing's whereabouts for many years. He always dreamed of the day when they would meet again. Who would have thought that their meeting would be a kidnapping, the elder brother kidnapping the younger sister! Tears, at this moment, are the only thing that proves that I still have feelings. My cheeks are full of tears, and my eyes are staring at the ceiling as if they were nailed to death, as if there is something fascinating on it. In fact, there was nothing on the ceiling, but I saw the faces of many people dangling in front of my eyes, including Geng Mochi, Qi Shuli, Annie...Qi Shuli didn't know that Annie was Xiaojing, so he strangled her neck suddenly, Annie struggled and screamed desperately, but she couldn't scream anymore, she died, hanging motionless on the ceiling, those beautiful eyes like Hepburn stared at me, who was also motionless under the ceiling, with resentment, we four Looking at each other for a long time... It's over, everything should be over long ago, and I can't find any reason to keep breathing.I saw the IV bottle hanging on the iron frame next to the bed. I pulled it lightly, and the shelf fell down, and the IV bottle fell into pieces. I was surprised that I still had the strength to turn over and lie down beside the bed to pick up the glass shards on the floor. , Before he could feel the pain, warm blood gushed out from his wrist, and the whole world was instantly red. People are really strange, the closer they are to death, the clearer their consciousness becomes. I can actually hear the ticking sound of blood dripping on the floor, no, there seems to be footsteps, someone talking outside.I really wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn’t see them. There was darkness in front of my eyes. I only heard the sound of footsteps getting closer and closer, and finally came to the bedside... Someone was feeling my pulse and breathing in a panic, and someone seemed to be On the phone, the voice was loud, and the tone was anxious and angry: "President Qi, it's not good, Chen Jinsen killed Miss Bai..." It seems like a century has passed. "Thank God, you're finally awake." Seeing me open my eyes, Qi Shuli jumped up from the chair beside the bed, rushed to the door and opened it, shouting, "Doctor, she's awake, hurry, hurry, she Woke up……" The doctor gave me a simple examination and said to Qi Shuli: "Mr. Qi, don't worry, she is out of danger, and now she just needs to recuperate and regain her physical strength." Qi Shuli rushed to the side of the bed, hugged me and rubbed my face, "I was scared to death, I thought you would never wake up again..." But I suddenly pushed him away as if I remembered something, panicked Looking at him intently, he asked, "What about Annie, what did you do to Annie?" "Which Annie?" Qi Shuli didn't react for a moment. "The girl you kidnapped, where is she?" I was about to struggle to get out of bed. Qi Shuli pressed me down, his face suddenly turned pale, "You said... the girl I sent someone to kidnap is called Annie? Geng Mochi's younger sister?" "It's her! Tell me, where is she?!" I screamed, waving my hands. "Is she Chen Jinsen's woman?" The muscles on Qi Shuli's face were twitching.I looked at him, and suddenly realized something, grabbed his collar, "What did you do to her? God, what did you do to her?!" Qi Shuli stared at me, panting heavily. I growled: "Say, what did you do to her?!" He was panting heavily, and after a short rest, he replied tremblingly: "There was an accident, the girl was injured, and I'm afraid she will lose her eyesight..." The world suddenly fell silent.A silence worse than death. I grabbed his collar and couldn't react at all, he pressed my shoulder, his eyes were red, "I'm sorry, I didn't know she was Chen Jinsen's woman, and I didn't hear Geng Mochi say, I...how could I..." I murmured to myself dreamily: "Retribution, you really suffered retribution." "Kaoer, listen to me. Geng Mochi called me and said that you were kidnapped by Chen Jinsen. I was in Singapore at the time, so I rushed to Shenzhen to solve this matter with him. We agreed to split up and he went to talk to Chen Jinsen. Negotiations, I came to dismantle his backstage, learned that his girlfriend was coming to Shenzhen, and kidnapped her without telling Geng Mochi. I originally wanted to help Geng Mochi increase his bargaining chips. Annie, I didn't expect that guy to attack you before the negotiation. I... I heard my subordinate call and say that you were killed, so... I lost control and asked someone to teach that girl a lesson. How could I know that? Helping someone was a bit harsh, and somehow hurt her eyes, I didn't know it was Annie, God..." "There's one more thing you don't know." "What... what's the matter?" "Annie, it is Xiao Jing you have been looking for for many years." Before this winter came, my condition was much better. This was mainly due to Geng Mochi’s company. I have been living with him in the spring of the other side. He hired two nannies to take care of my life. Then he brought his younger sister Baiwei to Xingcheng to live there for a few days.When my sister left, I was able to live a normal life, but my mood was still very low, because Anne who lived opposite me across the water, I could see her, but she couldn't see me, which made it impossible for me to face her , as soon as I saw her angelic eyes, my heart twisted into a ball. Annie has recovered her memory. The sudden darkness made her miraculously retrieve her lost past. When she learned that it was her brother who caused her blindness, she did not lose control as we feared. On the contrary, she often reached out and touched her brother's teary face, and comforted him in turn: "Don't cry, brother, this is not very good." Okay? I can't see you now, but I can always remember you in the past. How wonderful, everything is the same as before... Although I have forgotten many things in the past these years, I know that in You have never left in my heart, and only I know how unhappy I am. I can’t remember the past, I try my best to recall, the more I recall, the more blurred, and I can remember less and less. I even thought, if one day I can't remember anything, it will be the end of my life... "For more than ten years, I have abused myself for more than ten years, living like a ghost, always looking forward to someone to save me, I have met many people, but no one can save me, now I know, only you and me Ajie can save me, so you don't have to feel sorry for me now...God is fair, when he gives you one thing, he will definitely take another thing from you, God let me find you, But it made me blind again. Let me live forever in the good memories of the past. I have never enjoyed such tranquility, the tranquility in the dark, and I can no longer see the desolation of the world. In fact, this is also good..." Qi Shuli hugged Xiaojing and was so choked up that he couldn't speak. He often talked to her, talking endlessly, the brother and sister seemed to have endless things to say, Qi Shuli tried different ways to make Annie happy, as long as it was what she wanted, he would search all over the city and get it.I know he's making it up.But for some reason, seeing the white-haired Qi Shuli take a plush toy one day, a girl's hairpin the next, and bring a spitz back to tease Annie two days later, I can't hide my sadness.He has been wandering for half his life, now besides me, maybe only Annie makes him feel that there are relatives in this world. Without the conspiracy and calculations in the mall, Qi Shuli at this time showed a kind of childlike innocence, and showed unreserved love. No matter what kind of person Qi Shuli was in the past, now he is just a blind sister Brother, that's all.I can forgive myself for making so many mistakes, why can't I forgive him? He was punished enough, like Annie. I also received enough punishment, such as Mochi. We have all lost the most precious things in our lives, and this punishment is enough to teach us tolerance.Geng Mochi first knew that it was Qi Shuli who sent someone to blind Annie's eyes, and wanted to kill him at one point. , and didn't bother to go to Qi Shuli to settle accounts. Later, when my condition got better, I said to Geng Mochi: "Annie is blind, do you think he feels better? This is enough to make him live in pain and guilt all his life. This is the greatest punishment! Besides, if something happens to him Unexpectedly, who will take care of Anne? Are you counting on you? Let everything stop here, we have suffered enough, let him go, in fact, let yourself go..." Geng Mochi fell into a long silence. The two had been at loggerheads for a long time, and finally chose to be calm, as if there was still a compromise.Qi Shuli asked me to go back to Geng Mochi's side, and Geng Mochi tacitly allowed him to take care of Annie. The two of them had a tacit understanding. When Qi Shuli came to see me, Geng Mochi would run over to see Annie, and they all naturally staggered. Even if they met, They all just nodded without saying a word.This is already very good, at least there is no previous hostility, especially Qi Shuli, every time he sees his neighbors, he always smiles. At first, Geng Mochi didn't pay much attention to him, but after more times, his attitude became better. Son. What worried me very much was that Geng Mochi's condition took a turn for the worse as soon as winter entered. Every few days, I would accompany him to the hospital for an examination.The doctor repeatedly asked him to be hospitalized, but he refused, saying, "I can die anywhere, just don't let me die in the hospital." I couldn't persuade him, so I had to let him go.Every time I come back from the inspection, I have to accompany him for a walk along the Xiangjiang River. The weather was fine and the sun was as warm as March in spring. I sat on a bench by the flowerbed with him and looked at the Xiangjiang River. At that time, the mood was very peaceful. He is wearing a thick cashmere coat and a blue striped wool scarf I bought him many years ago and he still wears it to this day.In fact, this scarf was a counterfeit Versace scarf that I bought when I was on a business trip with my colleagues in Beijing when I first met him. It cost 80 yuan.And after I gave him the scarf, he immediately gave me a DIOR cotton coat, worth more than seven thousand dollars.I never told him about it, but now that I did, he laughed, "You think I'm stupid, I always knew that the one you gave me was a counterfeit." I was surprised, "Then why are you still wearing it?" He pinched my cheek, "Because you gave it to me." I giggled and leaned against his shoulder, feeling the warmth of the sun on my shoulder, warming my heart.We talked and laughed, recalling all the past, no matter how heavy the pain was, it became easier in each other's aftertaste, yes, everything I had with him, so beautiful, so good, even if we can't pick it up again, But it's always worth it to experience it. He said: "Once we had a quarrel, you moved out of the house in a fit of anger, and no one paid attention to anyone for many days, but every day when I came home, I always found that there was something missing in the house, such as razors, mobile phone batteries , lighters, they are all small things. But they are all necessary to use every day, and they are always the same, so I didn’t suspect you at first. Later, when I came home at noon, I found your shoes in the aisle. I knew you were stealing inside, and I didn't call you, I went downstairs secretly, and saw you coming out of the house happily, I don't know what you stole so happy..." I looked up and laughed. 他又说：“当时我心里很怄气，心想你偷我的，我也可以偷你的，因为我有你房子的钥匙，就趁你到我家偷东西的时候上你家偷，可是好失望，你的东西没一样值钱的，钱包里面也没什么钱，你当时好像很穷，我可怜你，就往你的钱包里塞钱，每天都跑过去塞一点，一连好多天，你居然没发现，这世上怎么有你这么糊涂的人。” 我恍然大悟，“原来那些钱是你放的啊，当时我是觉得奇怪，怎么钱越用越多呢，好像老也用不完似的，确实纳闷了好一阵。” 他搂紧我的肩膀，继续说：“后来吧，我在你的房子里找到了你从我家偷过去的剃须刀、打火机，还有很多的小东西，我又把它们偷了回来，呵呵……真是很有意思，每天我都是躲在楼下看你进了我的屋子，就赶紧开车跑到你的屋子，把你头天偷过去的东西全部拿回来。后来我烦了，不想你来回奔波，就把我的东西故意放在你那里，比如我换下的衣服，我懒得洗，就拿过去丢进你的洗衣机……” "Hahaha……" 我笑得眼泪都出来了，“你不知道，第一次在洗衣机里看到你的衣服，我简直火冒三丈，可是呢，又不得不给你洗，洗好了晒好了，又偷偷给你送回去，结果你这家伙得寸进尺，到后来什么袜子啊，内衣啊，都往我这边丢，气死我了。更离谱的是，我冰箱里好吃的东西都被你吃光了，明知道是你吃掉的，一边骂一边还是往冰箱里添东西，每天都要采购你喜欢喝的柳橙汁、酸奶，可是你好过分，后来居然还给我留纸条，点明要吃什么，限定了时间，要我必须给你准备好……” “你也好不到哪里去，也跑到我的房子里留纸条。” “我写的什么？” “多了，大多是威胁我的话，什么如果我不道歉，你就把我房子烧了，如果我不给你弄到某个你最喜欢的歌手的演唱会门票，你就会把我的房子偷光了，还有……如果我敢跟别的女人睡觉，这辈子你都不会再跟我睡觉……” 我捶他，“胡说，我哪有说过这样的话！” “你自己说过什么都不记得了吗？我可是都记着的，因为害怕你不再跟我睡觉，有一天晚上你做节目回来，我就躲在你的被窝里，你可能很疲倦了，连灯都不开就倒在了床上，然后嘛……”他看着我，突然无语。 四目相对，太多的感觉无法表白。 他的目光不可思议的柔软，似乎能融化世间万物，温柔地罩在我脸上，我顿觉一阵眩晕，四肢大脑麻痹得不能动弹，任由着他吻了下来。 细细密密的吻绵长而隽永，薄荷烟草的气息令人迷醉，我身体轻颤着，无力地抓着他的衣袖，似乎害怕一松手，他就会从眼前消失，尽管他最终会消失。 很久很久，他才慢慢移开，唇畔恍惚还有笑意，他说：“你相信吗？我的灵魂已经深深刻下了你的记忆，下辈子我一定会认得你，所以你也要记得我，因为这辈子我已经没有机会了，如果有下辈子，我要把今生欠你的幸福全部还给你，我要给你幸福！” 听着这样的话，我泪如泉涌。 他看着我，又说：“所以，请赦免今生我对你犯下的罪。” "..." 他追问：“赦免我的罪吗？” 我哽咽，“也请赦免我的罪。” “好，我赦免你的罪。” “我也赦免你的罪！” 傍晚的时候，我在露台上远远地看见祁树礼牵着安妮回来了，落叶纷飞的林荫道上，两人有说有笑，安妮将头靠在她哥哥的臂膀中小鸟依人般甜蜜温馨。耿墨池来到露台上也看到了他们，有些悲凉地说：“安妮从来没这么开心过，小时候我带着她的时候她也没这么开心，所以我才不拒绝祁树礼接近她，只要她开心，我可以为她做任何事……” 我试探地看着他，“我听说，你曾经也爱过她。” 耿墨池伸手揽住我的肩，看着我笑了笑，“我就知道你会有这想法，我是很爱她，但仅仅是哥哥对妹妹的那种爱，其实最初有这个误会的是叶莎，她一直以为我爱的是安妮，因为当时我跟瑾宜的感情……还没有公开，除了安妮很多人都不知道，安妮为了保护瑾宜于是将错就错，对叶莎承认我暗恋她，叶莎因此跟安妮闹得势不两立，我们夫妻间的感情也一度很紧张。安妮看上去玩世不恭，但她是个善良的女孩子，这么多年来我宠她、惯她，也恼她，因为她实在是过得乱七八糟，从来没见她对自己好过，也从来没见她对谁认真过，除了陈锦森……” 我看着他，等他继续说。 “所以我没有追究陈锦森的法律责任，他是个绑架犯呢，只要他不再伤害你和安妮，我也就放他一马。” “得饶人处且饶人。” “嗯，正是。” 安妮已经被祁树礼带到了门外，我连忙回到客厅去开门。“哥，你没出去吗？”安妮以为开门的是耿墨池。 “安妮，是我。”我牵过她的手。 祁树礼面带笑容，进来就问：“你们没出去？” “没呢。”我平静地说。 “哦，”祁树礼还是满脸带笑，他走到耿墨池的面前，从容平和地看着他的情敌，关切地问，“你现在的身体怎么样，天气变冷了许多，你感觉还好吧？” “谢谢，我很好。”耿墨池也直视着他，表情有些僵，但态度还算客气，“劳烦你了，安妮这阵子很开心。” “哪里的话，我是他的哥哥，应该的。”祁树礼也很客气。 我奇怪地看着这两个曾经针锋相对的男人，是什么让他们放下了武器呢，是安妮吗？I think it should be.反正不会是因为我。 “哥哥，我们一起吃饭吧，我是真的好开心呢，”安妮摸索着拉住耿墨池，“我们从来没在一起吃过饭，不是吗？” 我吃惊地看看耿墨池，又看看祁树礼，他们也没想到安妮会提出这样的要求，一时不知道怎么应对，气氛顿时变得微妙和尴尬。 “这是个不错的提议，难得安妮有这么好的心情，也难得大家都凑在一块儿，”我不知哪来的勇气，笑着说，“就一起吃顿饭吧，别让安妮扫兴。” 两个男人的目光齐刷刷地将目光投向我，显然他们没想到我也会附和安妮，我顿时有些不知所措，开始想自己是不是太唐突了，他们是什么关系，如果不是安妮，他们绝对没可能像现在这样面对面地站在一起，我是不是被一时的和平景象冲昏了头，竟奢望狮子和老虎能共进晚餐？ 气氛还在僵持。 我红了脸，一时下不了台。 “好不好嘛？哥，你们都是我的哥哥，为什么就不能在一起吃顿饭呢？”安妮使出了她的撒手锏，我早说过，安妮撒起娇来万军不敌，何况是两个都爱她的哥哥，很快耿墨池僵硬的脸缓和下来，他扫了一眼祁树礼不说话。 祁树礼直直地看着他的情敌，很显然在征求对方的意见。耿墨池避开他的目光，反过头温柔地问安妮：“你想吃什么？” 我们选了东塘附近一家名为“高朋”的酒楼，要了一个豪华包间。我帮安妮点的菜，也要了酒，给每一个人斟上。安妮简直是欢呼雀跃，一直笑个不停，倒是那两个男人很安静，一左一右地守护着安妮，故意互不看对方。本来应该是男士来安顿女士的，现在轮到我来招呼他们了，不过我很乐意，兴奋、激动、紧张、难以置信……各种复杂的情绪一时间弄得我根本不知道怎么静下来，我对面坐着安妮，两边分别坐着他们，生怕招待不周得罪这两位爷。 菜上来了，两个男人抢着给安妮夹菜盛汤，我却成了没娘的孩子没人搭理，吃什么都得自己动手，我看见了安妮面前摆着我最喜欢吃的基围虾，可是桌子太大我夹不到，也不好意思夹，只得看着那大盘粉红鲜嫩的虾儿们咽口水。 祁树礼捕捉到了我眼中的渴望，不声不响地夹了一只又肥又大的虾剥去皮送到我碗里，耿墨池看到了，瞟了我一眼，没说话，却端起那盘虾放到了我面前。我一时僵住了，不知道该对谁说谢谢。气氛立即又变得很微妙。 但祁树礼毕竟是见过世面的，没表现出有什么不满，反而不声不响地拿起手边的红酒站起身给耿墨池的杯子斟满。 “谢谢。”耿墨池很绅士地点点头，端起酒杯一饮而尽。 “墨池少喝点，你不能喝太多的酒。”我连忙叮嘱道。 “没关系，一时半会儿死不了。”耿墨池放下酒杯，抹了抹嘴边的酒渍，“祁先生倒的酒怎么能不喝呢？就是毒药我也得喝。” 我看看祁树礼，神经顿时绷得紧紧的。 “Steven言重了，我从来不给人毒药，自己酿下的苦酒只能自己喝，怎么能给别人喝呢？”祁树礼这话说得很客气，却有一种动人的悲凉。 耿墨池漫不经心地吃着一块鱼，好像在听，也好像没听。 祁树礼干脆放下筷子继续说：“今天我很高兴，真的，我没想到还有这样的局面出现。我知道我做了很多错事，也伤害到很多人，我以前不相信报应，现在相信了。”说着他把目光投向身边的安妮，伤感又温柔地抚摸着她的头，声音哽咽，“还有什么报应比这个报应更大更残酷的呢？很多事情也都是从这件事上看开了，不属于自己的怎么勉强都没用，属于自己的赶都赶不走。我做梦都没想到我做了这样的事，先是利用跟她结婚而报复你们，后又害她失明，所幸还没有失去这个妹妹，可是……” 他又把目光投向我，有些失神又有些悲怆，“我付出了全部的身心，甚至害得自己妹妹失明，却还是得不到你的爱，这辈子，我都没有可能了……” 我一阵发愣，手中的筷子从指间滑落到地上。 席间，我陪安妮去洗手间。 在洗手间的大镜子前，我终于忍不住掩面而泣，一边的安妮没有安慰我，只是说：“你很幸福，两个男人都这么爱你。” 我哽咽着说：“安妮，你也要幸福才是，你幸福了我们也才会觉得幸福，因为你实在是太不幸，而这一切都是因为我……” “这是我的命，我不怨任何人，你千万不要老是埋怨自己。”安妮面对着镜子，脸上露出恍惚的笑容，“其实我最大的不幸不是失明，是我逃避了很多让自己幸福的机会，因为童年的不幸，认定自己就不再有幸福，于是作践自己，糟蹋自己，毁灭自己，到头来真的变得更不幸。直到现在眼睛什么都看不到了，我才醒悟，其实幸福一直就在身边，只是我一直视而不见。” "Annie..." “考儿，你知道吗？我其实是感激你的，因为是你让我哥找到了属于自己的真正的爱情，即使他离去也不会遗憾，所以……无论如何我都会保护他的爱情，不会让任何人伤害到你们。这么多年，从来只有别人为我付出，现在我也要学会付出，可以说弥补，也可以说是……自赎……” “安妮，你怎么了？”我抓住她的手臂，几乎听不下去了，这样的一段话，我怎么听着有离别的味道，透着令人心伤的气息。 “给我补补粉吧，别让我哥他们看到我哭过。”安妮笑着说。 回到包间，推开门的时候，正好看见耿墨池在给祁树礼斟酒，两人低声说着话，态度平和得让人很难相信他们是狮子和老虎的关系。这个世界就是这么奇怪，遥远和亲近，理解和排斥，痛苦和喜悦往往都只隔了层纸，只要撕掉那层纸，什么隔阂都有可能消除。狮子和老虎也能成为朋友，谁能相信呢？ 两天后，祁树礼投资的白树林医院开业三周年，他很忙碌，人也消瘦得很快，我提醒他注意身体，可是他却没工夫顾自己，有一天忽然打电话过来说：“让Steven这两天来医院看看，我刚从美国请来一个很著名的心脏病大夫，听说他给人做过心脏移植，我把Steven的病情跟他讲了一下，他说要具体看看才知道，你把这事给他说说，要快，Smith先生过两天就要走。” 起先耿墨池是不愿意去的，他对自己的病情早已不抱希望，后来经不住我反复游说，他终于肯去见Smith大夫，那是个头发胡子都白了的美国人，很和蔼，他仔细地给耿墨池做了各方面的检查，又看了他以前的病历，最后他作出结论，耿墨池属于先天性的室间隔缺损，常规的治疗对他已经没有用，他唯一能活下来的办法就是心脏移植，但是这个手术技术要求非常高，国内目前整体技术与国外还是有差距的。 所以Smith建议最好还是去国外做手术，因为术后的排异反应直接影响着病人的存活率，目前国际上做过此类手术的人存活最长的已经超过二十年，以耿墨池的情况来看，手术越早进行越有利于术后对抗排异反应，不然即使做了移植手术，能否扛得过去也是个问题，所以现在最关键的是要找到配型一致的合适心脏，而且是越快越好，那不是光有钱就能做到的。 祁树礼当即表态，斩钉截铁，“找，不管有多艰难，花多大的代价，我们一定要找！国内技术有差距我们就到国外去做，钱绝不是问题，哪怕是万万分之一的希望，我们都不会放弃！” 当时我和耿墨池都在场，我的感觉不是用感动可以形容的，耿墨池的感觉我不知道，他只是半天没说话，一直愣愣地看着祁树礼，从医院出来时他终于忍不住说道：“谢谢你，不过我不知道你为什么……我想听你的真心话。” 祁树礼意味深长地看着昔日的情敌，“真心话？你觉得我现在还不够真心吗？人都有私心，我现在不妨告诉你，让你活下来其实也是为了我自己，因为……”说着他把目光转向我，闪闪烁烁，变幻不定，“因为她爱你，如果你死了，她会活不下去，她活不下去，我还有活下去的意义吗？” "..." 只是不久，祁树礼自己也病倒了。 其实我早察觉出他的身体有恙，不仅消瘦得厉害，脸色更是黄得骇人，看上去起码比他的实际年龄老了有十岁，耿墨池虽然也是病重，但精神状态一直很好，祁树礼却是连精神气都没有了，似乎走路都很吃力，以前他每周都要去做健身或是打打高尔夫球，现在这些体力运动全部取消不说，连一日三餐后的散步都甚少进行。 他好像是遭受了什么重大的打击和摧残，整个人都垮掉了。我总在他不注意的时候偷偷地窥视他，想象着究竟是什么事让他变得如此虚弱憔悴，能有什么事呢？而他似乎有意在回避着我，虽然同住一个小区，隔湖相望，却很少碰面。我觉得我跟他之间蒙上了一层不明的阴影，这次我敢保证，不是我的原因。 终于在一天午饭后，我在林荫道碰到他，忍不住问：“Frank，你最近是怎么了，气色很不好，也瘦了很多，是不是身体不舒服啊？” 他当时正准备出门去，听见我问他，回头瞟了我一眼，笑道：“没什么大问题，就是前阵子到医院检查了下，查出有胆结石，可能要开刀。不碍事的，只是个小手术而已，”他安慰我说，“过阵子就会动手术。” "Is it really okay?" "no problem." “那就好，我不希望你有事。” “谢谢！”他站在风中看着我，目光柔软得让人无法相信他就是过去那个叱咤风云的祁树礼，眼前的这个人面色无光，佝着背，那么的苍老不堪，他真的没事吗？ “考儿，遇见你真好。”他忽然莫名其妙地说了句，我还没反应过来，他就转身离开，孤独的身影消失在林荫深处。 一个礼拜后，祁母在湘北病逝。 祁树礼带安妮回去奔丧。我也随行。因为妹妹白葳交了个西班牙男友，这次带回来准备订婚的，我很想看看我的这位洋妹夫。一路很顺利地到了湘北老家。出于礼节，我还是去灵堂拜祭了已经作古的祁母，毕竟死者为大，再说事情也过去那么久了，何苦再跟自己过不去。但是祁树礼会不会这样想我不知道，整个拜祭过程他都面无表情，让人看不出他内心的想法。 按习俗，他应该披麻戴孝的，因为他是祁母唯一的儿子。 But he didn't. 这时候我隐隐觉得，他还是没有原谅自己的母亲。午饭他没有跟祁家的亲友吃，打过招呼，带着安妮上我家吃去了。我们还没进门，就听到家里笑声不断，我一进去，全家人都围了过来，妹妹白葳更是抱着我直跳，她的西班牙未婚夫则腼腆地跟我打招呼。母亲在厨房里忙进忙出，张罗出一桌的佳肴，都是我爱吃的。父亲询问我在星城的情况，还跟祁树礼说，有空多回家。他特意加重了“回家”两个字，显然在他们的意识里，祁树礼已是我们家的一分子。 饭后已经是下午三点，祁树礼带安妮到南湖边上散步，我跟在他们后面。可能是因为冬天的缘故，湖边的行人稀少，甚觉冷清。湖岸边的柳树只剩光秃秃的枝条，在寒风中瑟瑟发抖。 我望着平静的湖面，心痛到无以复加，祁树杰，我的丈夫，你看到了吗？你到死都惦记着的小静来了，还有你的大哥，如果你想到还有这一天，你会舍得葬身湖底吗？ 安妮看不到，却很激动，一直用手在摸，她摸到湖边一棵大榕树时，更加激动得泪流满面，显然她记得那棵树。她一遍一遍地抚摸着苍老的树干，犹如抚摸自己沧海桑田的心，“就是这棵树，我跟阿杰在上面刻过字的，”她把脸贴近树干，好似在找寻岁月流逝的痕迹，“怎么找不到了呢？明明刻过的，哥，你以前看着我刻的，对不对？” “这么多年了，有什么是不能消失的呢？”祁树礼若有所思地说。 安妮回过头，眼中满是疑惑，“包括爱和恨吗？” "yes." “可你为什么不能放下对你母亲的恨呢？”安妮一针见血。 祁树礼答：“那是不能忘却的记忆。” “这就是你的不对了，Frank，”我走过去看着他说，“过去的事已经过去了，连小静都放下了，你又何必耿耿于怀呢？对很多事情都放开些，也许不会觉得那么累，这是你过去跟我说的，怎么轮到自己就转不过弯呢？” 祁树礼别过脸，“你不懂，完全不懂，这件事对我的影响何其惨烈，小静也不会懂，你们都不懂！”他自言自语，掉头就走。 我定定地看着他走远，孤独的背影衬着如血残阳在林荫深处忽明忽暗，感觉是那么的悲凉，让人想起电影的尾声，最后总是主人公决然地消失在镜头里，我心头一搐，不祥的预感袭上心头，他也要消失了吗？ 祁树礼在湖边的一家酒店下榻。我因为要照顾安妮，也住在了酒店。用过晚饭后，安妮就睡了，我到祁树礼的房间商量次日的行程。 “还是先去看看父亲的坟吧，这么多年了，他也一定很想念小静。”祁树礼说。我同意他的意见，“那行，明天先去你父亲那儿，然后再作其他的安排。” 他疲惫地斜靠在床头，欣慰地看着我，说：“你长大了，懂得接受别人的意见了。” “我都三十好几了，才长大啊？”我笑。 次日从祁父的墓地返回城里，天色已晚，我们在酒店用完餐就回房间收拾行李，准备第二天赶回星城，祁树礼的胆结石好像疼得很难受，必须马上赶回去做手术。其实这一路上我就发现祁树礼在不停地吃药，开始还避着我，后来被我撞见他也就无所谓了。 “是不是胆结石啊？诊断结果准确吗？”我问他。 他笑了笑，“如果连这种结果都诊断错，他们就全下岗了。”我一想也是，那是祁树礼投资的医院呢，谁还敢把老板的病给诊断错误？ 临睡前我给家里打了个电话，母亲责怪我怎么不多住几天再走，说白葳难得回来一趟。“树礼身体有点不舒服，得赶回去检查身体。”我搪塞道，不敢说是做手术。 母亲马上追问：“哪里不舒服啊？要不要紧呀？这次回来我就觉得他的脸色很不好，人也瘦得不像样子了。萍萍，不是我说你，你也多关心关心他，别只顾自己，这么多年了，他对你怎样，你自己应该知道的，这样好的男人你上哪儿去找？” 母亲的话很尖锐，我没敢吭声。 她在电话里一个劲地数落我：“你也三十多岁的人了，遇见一个好的就安下心来过日子，别一天到晚瞎折腾，你这个年纪已经折腾不起了，跟你同年的那些个同学，孩子都上小学了，你倒好，连个正式的归宿都没有，你说要我们做父母的怎么放得下心？” “好了，妈，我知道了，我听你的就是。” 我连忙打断母亲，挂掉电话，怕她一说下去就没个完。祁树礼从浴室洗完澡出来，一边系着睡衣的腰带一边问：“你妈跟你说什么？瞧你这样，这么不耐烦。” “她说我同学的小孩都上小学了，我还在玩，她怕我人老珠黄了没人要。” 祁树礼牵过我的手，“怎么会没人要呢？我不就想要你吗？是你一直不给我机会而已，至于孩子……” 他不说话了，目光忽然变得黯淡。 我知道，他想起了在西雅图那个被米兰踢掉的孩子。 良久，他终于渐渐平静，“想想有几年了？从认识你到现在，我对你的爱从来没有停止，其实我也一直在挣扎，挣扎了很久，还是没有办法放下你，去爱别人。就如安妮，她不缺钱，物质上我给不了她什么，利用跟她结婚报复你只是其中的一个原因，还有一个原因就是，我没什么给她只好给她婚礼，我想借由这婚礼能让自己活得像个正常人。但你说我如果跟她结婚就生不如死，我吓住了，因为还没跟她结婚，我就已经生不如死，失去你，被你怨恨，我只能是生不如死……” 这样长的一段话，没有办法让人不动容。 但是我无能为力，只能跟他说：“对不起，我给不了你要的。” 他说：“我想要的并非如你想象，我只要你好好的，过得幸福，至少比我幸福，那么，我还要什么呢？爱一个人真的就是想让她幸福，哪怕这幸福是别人给予的。可是有时候也想让自己幸福，这幸福却只能你给予，就算是怜悯，你会给予吗？” “Frank……”