Chapter 19 Chapter Eighteen

Many things in the world are so mysterious and mysterious, not more than a second, not less than a second, in this second, the situation develops in an unexpected direction... "That's right, I'm here to deal with you! I'll deal with you first and then Geng Mochi. You two are the people I hate the most in my life. Don't think I'll be merciful, dreaming! You ruined everything about me! Kill me My child, do you still want to live in this world well? He is dying, I don’t need much effort, even if he buys a cemetery, I will not let you be buried with him, don’t even think about it! As long as I have Qi Shuli is here, so you don’t want to lie down together! Why are you crying? You thought that a single drop of your tear could shatter all my defenses. Bai Kao’er, I don’t have any affection for you anymore. In front of me, I won't be sad either. You, a woman, are really ominous, and will only bring misfortune to those around you. Thinking of me, Qi Shuli, who was born wise, I fell into your hands..."

He said these words fiercely, with a determined expression on his face. If he had a dagger in his hand, he might have stabbed it.And I didn't have any chance to fight back, so I could only stare at him blankly. People kept coming and going in the coffee shop, and the music was very low. It was Timo Tolkki's Are you the one. The song was sad and lingering. Tears welled up in my eyes suddenly, hearing such music in such a time and space.The heat in the teacup was rising. I turned my face away and looked out of the window. Through the large glass window, there were endless cars and people rushing on the road. No one noticed that a lonely stranger was so heartbroken. It was clearly a hot sun outside. , but felt colder than winter in a trance, I was shaking from the inside to the outside holding the cup.

Qi Shuli ignored these at all, exhaled a long puff of smoke, and his tone could not hide his domineering, "Do you want to know how I will deal with you? Do you want to know?" I didn't answer, I lowered my head and stirred the rose tea in the cup with a straw, as if talking to myself: "I, I originally wanted to give birth to that child, and I knew it might be my last chance to be a mother. " "Really? Why didn't you tell me that you were pregnant? You clearly know that the child is mine!" He tapped his fingers on the table excitedly, attracting the attention of the people around him.

"I'm afraid he...can't stand it..." "Oh, that's it, after all, it's all because of him!" "Frank, I don't have anything to say about how you deal with me, but...he is a patient, and he has few days to live. As long as you let him go, you can deal with me however you want." He snorted and became even more furious, "At this moment, you are still pleading for him. It's really touching. As long as you have such feelings for me, I won't be so desperate, Bai Kaoer!!" I threw myself on the table, buried my face in my arms and sobbed.

"You really don't want to know what I'm going to do to you?" he said aggressively. I slowly raised my head, "It's up to you." "Okay, I'm very relieved to have your words." After he finished speaking, he stood up straight and shouted at the waiter not far away, "Pay the bill!" When he disappeared by the door of the coffee shop, the dizziness in my head after another made me almost breathless.No one understands this man's ruthlessness better than me. He can definitely do what he said, but I don't seem to be at a loss because of fear. I'm just sad. Why did I fall to this point? I can't get rid of the entanglement of bad luck. , I have obviously given up, I have given up everything, but fate still looks like it wants to drive me to death.

Back in the company building, the air conditioner in the office was turned too low, I shivered on the leather sofa, if Yingzhu hadn't pushed the door in, I was afraid I would freeze to death in the room. "What's wrong with you? Why is your face so ugly?" Yingzhu stretched out her hand to touch my forehead and exclaimed, "God, you have a fever, you're almost burnt to a lump of coal!" "It's nothing, I got a little cold last night." "It's nothing, go home quickly, or I'll take you to the hospital." In the end, Yingzhu sent me to a nearby hospital for an IV drip. On the way, she told me, "I wanted you to accompany me to the bridal shop after get off work. It seems that it can only be another day."

Yingzhu and Gao Peng are getting married, and it was announced two days ago. "I'll accompany you tomorrow." I held her hand, feeling sincerely relieved, "I'm very happy that you have finally achieved the fruit of your cultivation. You must be happy." She hooked my neck, "I am very happy now, the camel said, honeymoon will take me to Tibet, the Qinghai-Tibet railway has just opened to traffic, we take the train to Tibet. Do you know? That is the place I most yearn for , since I saw so many beautiful photos of Tibet at the photography exhibition last year, I yearned to death!"

"Bah! Bah! What yearning is dead, it's all nonsense!" "Ha ha……" It was already night after the drip in the hospital, we ate something casually outside and went back to the apartment. Yingzhu asked me to go to her house to sit for a while, but I didn’t want to be a light bulb, so I didn’t go.As soon as he entered the door, Chen Jinsen called and asked why he couldn't contact me during the day, and he wanted to ask me to dance.I said I was too tired. "Are you sick?" He was so sensitive that he could hear my buzzing. "Fortunately, I've already had a drip in the afternoon."

"Then I'll come and see you." Before I could stop him, he hung up the phone.Twenty minutes later, when he rang the doorbell with a basket of flowers and fruits, I was helpless.He didn't wear a suit, but was dressed in white casual clothes. He was refreshed, and he looked like Orlando, the elf prince in "The Lord of the Rings".I asked him to sit down on the fabric sofa in the living room, and in the distance, a familiar smell of tobacco wafted in the air, but I didn't want to give him any chance, so I poured him a glass of water and said, "If you It would be great if you could come and see me with Annie."

After all, he has seen the world, he is calm in times of crisis, and just looks at me and smiles. After a while, he asked, "Don't you know?" "what do you know?" "She has a new boyfriend and is getting married." "What... what? Marriage?!" I was quite shocked. "Yes, get married." The next day was the weekend and I didn't have to go to work, Yingzhu dragged me to try on the wedding dress.Gao Peng has been running in Beijing for a while, and he went there early in the morning. The company was involved in the operation of a big project in Beijing, and several high-level executives were staying there.According to Gao Peng, as long as the project is successfully operated, the company can sit and eat for several years. Both Yingzhu and I feel that it is a bit risky, because this project involves a lot of investment, and most of the company’s funds are occupied by this project, but Gao Peng has always been adventurous Spirit, we can do nothing.

The bridal shop is located in Luohu, and the storefront is quite grand. The lady clerk enthusiastically introduced to us that the wedding dresses in the shop are all designed by famous designers, and many of them have just been customized from Hong Kong.Yingzhu took a fancy to a wedding dress with off-the-shoulder style, which was very sexy, and happily went in to try it on accompanied by the shop assistant.I sat on the sofa to rest.As soon as she entered, the door of the fitting room on the other side opened, and a beautiful bride came out in a long dress, her brown curly hair was coiled on the top of her head, and the court-style wedding dress was puffed up high. It looks very much like Princess Sissi in the movie, looking bright and smiling, so beautiful, my eyes followed the past, and my heartbeat almost stopped! "Does it look good?" The bride turned around gorgeously and asked the assistant next to her.The assistant was a fashionable young girl, of course she kept complimenting her: "Miss Anne, of course it looks good, only you can wear such a beautiful wedding dress." "Hasn't Mr. come yet?" "He'll be here in a moment." "The neck is empty, what kind of jewelry should I match?" "Then you can ask the gentleman, he will prepare it for you." I staggered and stood up, staring blankly at the bride in front of the fitting mirror, feeling my heart stopped beating at that moment.I don't know why I'm panicking, I just feel like I'm short of oxygen and I can't breathe. The bride also found me behind me in the mirror, turned around suddenly, and said in amazement, "Cathy!" We sat on the couch and talked. Annie said reproachfully, "Why didn't you tell me when you were in Shenzhen? I've been here for the past six months!" "Where's your brother? Where is he?" Annie shrugged, "I don't know. I rarely contact him. He seems to be avoiding us." "Then... does he know you're married?" "I probably don't know. I only told my mother a few days ago." "When did it happen? I didn't listen to you in Seattle at the beginning of the year." Annie smiled, "This kind of thing is rare." "Keven is also in Shenzhen." "I know, we still had dinner together last week. Even though we are separated, we are still friends." Annie laughed, with a relaxed face. She has always been like this, and she doesn't care about anything.And I don't know why, my mind is in such a mess.Annie took my hand, "Come and have dinner with me later, my fiancé will be here soon." Before she finished speaking, she jumped up and ran towards the door without me, "Frank, you How did you come here?" Frank? Frank! ! I stared at the door with wide eyes, almost like a nightmare, as if I saw the most terrifying thing in the world, bloody, which made me dizzy, my internal organs were all crowded together, and the pain was unbearable. Nemesis? Or punishment? God really wants to drive me to death!I think I can't live anymore, at this moment, I can hardly breathe, as if my internal organs are torn together, the pain spreading from the bottom of my heart makes my limbs numb, I just think, this is not real, it is a dream, as long as It's a dream, and when I wake up, I know it's fake, fake. However, I was not allowed to take a breath, and he walked leisurely, with a devil-like look in his eyes approaching him. "Hello, Cathy, we meet again!" "Why do you keep wearing rings around your neck?" When I was eating at the company at noon, Yingzhu stared at the diamond ring on my neck and was very puzzled. I usually wear a dress with a collar and rarely show the ring. Today I am wearing a round neck T-shirt with a dazzling diamond ring. exposed. "It's very expensive, beware of being robbed!" Yingzhu took a sip of the sea cucumber soup and reached out to touch my ring, "Honey, it's at least a dozen carats, no matter how you look at it, it doesn't look fake." "It's not a fake." I swallowed a mouthful of chicken with difficulty, tasted chewy, stared blankly at the food on the plate, and my mind wandered far away.Just at this time yesterday, Annie and I had our first big fight since we met. The place was in the Mingdian Cafe near a certain department store in Nanshan.Originally, I wanted to ask her to have a good talk, but the words were not congenial, and she became angry after a few words, "Kaoer, this is my choice, it has nothing to do with you, my brother can't control it, can you control it? Whether I love Frank or not has nothing to do with you, I know, he has always loved you, and he may still love you now, but what does it matter, we need each other, want to be together, are willing to be together, it has nothing to do with anyone! " "But Anne, do you know him? Do you know his heart? Do you know why he married you?" "Joke, is it that important whether I know him? If I know everything, why marry? As for why he married me, I think you should know, because I am like you, and he regards me as you..." "Anne—" I called. "What does that matter? Isn't it because you are like me that my brother was with you?" She stared at me closely, her eyes were like broken stars, blurred, the corners of her mouth seemed to be smiling, but it felt more like me. Crying and desolate, "You and I are really destined, there is no blood relationship, but every man says we are alike, even Keven says we are alike, it is inexplicable! You know, I have always lived hopelessly, no I know where I came from, and I don’t know where I’m going. After playing in the world for so many years, you can’t look at what I do from the perspective of a normal person. I never ask myself why I do this or that. Just like I left Keven, there is no reason. I don’t deny that we loved each other, but it’s a pity that we are both of the same kind, and we are desperately trying to get from each other. When one day we find that we can’t get what we want, all the strong feelings The love and affection disappeared. This world is so crazy and dirty, no one can be an angel, but anyone can become a devil..." "What if Frank is the devil?" She sneered, and shrugged indifferently, "Oh, this, he told me on the first date, he said he was a devil, and I told him, it's okay, because I'm not an angel, haha..." I waved and slapped. She froze. I was also stunned. Then she still sneered at me, stood up straight while covering half of her red and swollen face, grabbed her handbag and left her seat and walked quickly towards the door. "Annie!" I called her, but I cried first, "I'm sorry..." She stood still without turning her head, and said coldly: "You should save this and tell my brother, he is dying, but you leave him, and what you did can't be done in a normal way." Look at it with a human eye!" After speaking, she resolutely left the cafe. ... "Hey, what are you doing!" Suddenly there was a loud shout in my ear, like thunder, "You lost your soul? What are you thinking?" Only then did my thoughts return to reality, "No, it's nothing..." Yingzhu pursed her lips, "It's nothing, you look like a ghost, I really don't know what to say about you... Damn girl, why are you so stupid? No matter what man hooks your soul, some things should be put aside for comparison. Okay. Look at me, I have lost love so many times, but I also found a man I like? In your Chinese saying, you can’t hang yourself on a tree.” I replied, "I want to hang myself right now." As soon as the words fell, Yingzhu kicked over, "Want to die? It's easy, just jump off this building, and say such things in front of me, I think you really want to die!" I stared blankly at her. "Look at me, why don't you eat fast! I'm counting rice grains, I've finished my meal, and yours hasn't moved yet, do you want to go on a hunger strike?" Yingzhu said, her fist flew over again.I turned my head and dodged it.The surrounding employees looked at her stupidly. They had never seen the proprietress act violently. Normally, Yingzhu was very well disguised, with a shrewd white-collar look and dignified manner, a typical Korean lady. "Whatever you look at, give me food, and go to work immediately after eating!" Yingzhu thumped the table. There was no sound in the restaurant except for the clash of bowls and chopsticks.After entering the elevator, Yingzhu let out a long sigh of relief, and yelled in Korean: "Grandma, you're suffocating me to death. It's been a long time since I've scolded anyone like that, so happy!" I replied to her in Korean: "You probably have itchy hands and feet, you haven't fought for a long time." "Yes, dear, you understand me!" Yingzhu hooked my neck, and whistled while there was no one in the elevator, "Where are we going to fight? My hands are really itchy!  … " When I got home from get off work, the phone rang non-stop as soon as I entered the door. It was Anne's assistant calling.She really didn't want to talk to me anymore, she even asked her assistant to call me!From yesterday to today, I sent her no less than 20 text messages, but she didn't reply a single word. "Miss Cathy, Miss Anne's wedding date has been set, it will be next Friday, Sheraton Hotel, are you coming?" "Where is Annie, tell her to answer the phone." "Sorry, it's not convenient for her to answer the phone now." "Where is Mr. Frank, with her?" "Yes, you want to talk to him?" "Yes, ask him to answer the phone." After a while of noise, his indifferent voice came from the phone: "What do you want to say to me?" "Listen, it's still too late to repent, or you will be the one who gets hurt in the end!" I panted heavily, trying my best to control the emotions that were about to explode. "Threatening me?" He snorted on the phone, very disapproving, "The thing I, Qi Shuli, fear the most in my life is other people's threats, and you alone can make me change my mind? Do you think that I will obey your words as before?" I yelled: "Frank! If you are obsessed with your obsession, you will never know where Xiao Jing is in this life!" There was a brief silence on the phone. "Xiao Jing?" "Yes, Xiaojing!" I couldn't eat anything for dinner and felt like I was floating in a nightmare. I was thinking, if he really loves Annie, maybe there is nothing wrong with it. Although they are brothers and sisters, they are not related by blood, but I know that he is just using Annie to take revenge on Geng Mochi and me, and the bet is Annie's happiness.Annie was completely kept in the dark, if she was hurt because of me, how would I explain to Geng Mochi?The more I think about it, the more scared I become. I called Yingzhu who lived in the same building. She probably couldn’t fall asleep because she missed the camels, so she came down to talk to me. Two lunatics were lying on the bed smoking and drinking, making the room smoky. Open the window and cough into a ball.It was probably very late, I don’t know who fell asleep first, the bedside phone rang in a daze, and before I picked up the receiver and said “Hello”, Qi Shuli’s voice came from inside: “Come out, let’s talk talk." After speaking, I hung up the phone. My mind suddenly cleared up, and he wanted to talk to me, proving that there is still a chance to maneuver!I was overjoyed, and immediately slipped out of bed, "Where are you going?" Yingzhu yelled while lying on the bed with her eyes closed. "I'll be back when I go out, you go to bed first." Yingzhu muttered: "Damn girl, throw me aside in order to meet a man." I ignored her, quickly got dressed and went out the door.Qi Shuli's black Mercedes parked far away on the road opposite the community, looking extraordinarily domineering.He seems to like Mercedes-Benz very much. I almost never saw him change to other cars, not even the color, but stubbornly black.People like him are stubborn and formidable. He drove the car himself, and I sat in the passenger seat. No one spoke first, and the atmosphere was very dull.The car finally stopped in front of a building in Luohu, and went up to the revolving restaurant on the top floor. The young waiter was already waiting for us at the door of the private room, and pushed the door open for us with a smile.The room is small, with a small square table, unexpectedly lit with candles and dotted with bright roses.Through the arc-shaped floor-to-ceiling glass, you can have a panoramic view of the lights of the whole city. All the buildings are as bright as crystals, and there are rivers flowing with car lights, as if the stars in the sky are falling one after another, forming a shining sea of ​​stars. All living beings are prosperous. shining.Such a beautiful scenery, viewed from any angle, is unparalleled in the world. I was a little dazed, not understanding how he would bring me to such a place. He said, "Sit down." I sit down. He said, "What would you like to eat?" "I'm not hungry." He ignored it, turned sideways to chat with the waiter, and ordered food by himself. The door was gently closed by the waiter, his eyes fell on my face.I turned my face away and stared at the black velvet night sky outside the window. It was a pity that those twinkling stars were annihilated in such a bright sea of ​​lights. "Why, don't you dare to look at me?" "Just tell me what you want to talk to me, I have to go to work tomorrow." "You should know what I'm going to talk to you about." "Okay, tell me." He stared at me, "If you want me to give up marrying Annie, there is only one condition, first tell me Xiaojing's whereabouts." I hit back at him, "If you want to know Xiaojing's whereabouts, give up marrying Annie first." "I've made progress, I know how to negotiate." He looked at me and sneered.I leaned forward and looked straight at him, "I'm doing it for your own good, Frank, I don't want you to regret it when the time comes, and I don't want you to suffer retribution." I spoke very seriously, and his expression changed, "Have I suffered less karma? You are the biggest karma in my life, don't try to scare me, just rely on you to want to eat me, you are too naive!" "Then we don't have much to talk about." I reached for the handbag beside me. "You want to leave before you finish talking?" "What else is there to say, if you refuse to give in, neither will I!" "Then I might as well tell you frankly that I don't really care much about where Xiao Jing is anymore. I've been looking for her for so many years, and I've lost my mind. As long as she lives well, it doesn't matter if she can be found or not." "Then what are you doing asking me out so late?" He raised his face, arrogant, "Negotiation!" "I said there was nothing to talk about." "Why are you so anxious before I finish talking?" He sat in a comfortable position, looking as if he was holding a winning ticket, "Actually, we don't need Xiaojing's whereabouts as a condition. There is another way for me to Give up the wedding." "any solution?" "Replace the bride with you." "Haha..." I laughed nervously, my shoulders shook, "Don't you not love me? Why do you want to marry me? Are you not afraid of dying in my hands?" He was calm and composed, "You didn't understand me, I married Annie to torture her, because she is Geng Mochi's younger sister, I know Geng Mochi loves her very much, well, then I will use Annie as a weapon, let Her brother will not rest in peace, and if you replace the bride, Annie will escape this catastrophe, and you will be tortured instead of her, and I will let you know what life is worse than death." A smile froze on my face... "You villain!" "I have always been a villain. I wanted to be a good person, but you forced me back to my original shape." He calmly lit a cigarette, puffed out elegantly, and even smiled at me, "How about it, this one of mine What's the proposal? Don't you like sacrificing yourself for the one you love the most? It's a good opportunity, do you want to try it?" I looked at him weakly, and pursed my lips, "You will suffer retribution, if Annie gets hurt, I will never forgive you in this life!" After saying this, I got up and left. Back to Nanshan by car alone, I didn't want to go home at all, sitting on the bench by the roadside, feeling panic like the end is coming.Yingzhu called and scolded her head and face: "Stinky girl, do you think you still have a conscience? You have been fooling around with some wild man and you haven't come back. You asked me to come and accompany you. It's better now, by yourself." You are gone, are you still human?" "Yingzhu, I can't live anymore, what should I do, I can't live..." I leaned forward, bent my knees and hunched my back, and suddenly cried out. Yingzhu asked me where I was and hurried downstairs. In fact, I was crying alone under the street lights in the neighborhood. "Hey, why are you bothering?" Yingzhu looked at me and shook her head. In the end, we went to a nearby bar called Hongfan District. Yingzhu and I were both drunk. When we came out of the bar, it was almost early morning. We walked shoulder to shoulder in the streets of Shenzhen, shouting joking.When the two young men oncoming snatched the diamond ring around my neck, I thought it was a joke. I didn't realize it until the two young men ran a hundred meters away, pointing at them and screaming: " Robbery, my diamond ring! . . . " Before I finished speaking, Yingzhu rushed over and chased after her. Don't look at her drinking, she ran fast, and it didn't take much effort to catch up with one of the boys. When I rushed over, they were already wrestling together. It was very confusing, Yingzhu and I didn't seem to be at a disadvantage against the other, not to mention that Yingzhu had learned taekwondo, the boy couldn't stand it soon, and was screamed by Yingzhu. However, when another boy who ran away turned around to rescue his accomplice, the situation took a big turn. He brought a murder weapon, a gleaming dagger glowing coldly in the night. Yingzhu pulled me behind, and the confrontation between the two sides lasted for about ten minutes. "Yingzhu, forget it, let's go." After all, I was timid and pulled her sleeve.She threw me away, yelled, and swept towards the opponent with a chain of legs. The boy with the knife was swept away. Yingzhu reacted very quickly, riding on him in a jiffy, grabbed his hair and went Hitting the ground, I also went to help and kicked the kid fiercely, the scene seemed to be under our control, but we all ignored the other accomplice, the kid who was knocked to the ground by us in the first place. He found a brick from nowhere, and when I realized it was too late, Yingzhu was hit hard on the back of the head, and fell to the ground in response. When she fell, the boy on the ground counterattacked and stabbed her in the chest... Blood, bright red blood gurgled out of Yingzhu's body. I pressed Yingzhu's chest desperately, but I still couldn't stop the gushing blood, "Yingzhu, Yingzhu..." I hugged her head, no matter how I called her, she didn't respond. Under the pale moonlight, the whole world A tragic red, from the very beginning I knew that I was an ominous person who would only bring disaster and misfortune to the people around me, so I was even more unfortunate, and maybe I would not be able to redeem the sins I committed in my whole life. Yingzhu was rushed to the hospital immediately. first aid. blood transfusion. Operation. The police wanted to record a statement for me, but I couldn’t utter a single word. My thinking logic was completely confused, and my eyes were fixed on the red light on the door of the operating room. When they asked me something, I would just nod or shake my head, but when When I revealed Young Joo’s identity as a Korean, the policemen paid great attention to it. I heard one of the policemen in charge report to his superior: “Yes! Good! Let’s act immediately and make sure to catch the murderer in the shortest possible time!” The police went into action. I was still sitting on the bench outside the operating room in a daze. I have already called Gao Peng, and he is probably on his way back at this time. The door of the operating room finally opened, Yingzhu was sent directly to the special care room for observation, I followed, my mind was buzzing, I didn't hear clearly what the doctor said to me, "heavy head injury", "coma index" 3" "brain edema", "punctured lung", "excessive blood loss", "intermittent respiratory failure"... "Why are you telling me these things? Aren't you doctors? If you are a doctor, you should hurry to save people. Why are you talking so much nonsense?!" I yelled at the doctor with red eyes. The doctor paused, and then said: "The injured person's left hand has been clenched into a fist. We can't break it apart. We dare not use force for fear of hurting her. Would you like to go over and say something to her? Look at her." What are you holding in your hand?" "Can she hear me?" "Give it a try. This has happened before. From a clinical point of view, she is now in a deep coma. She must not be able to hear it, but..." I immediately took the words: "Okay, I will try!" Yingzhu's head was covered with gauze, her face was as pale as paper, and her eyes were closed tightly. I saw her left hand clenched into a fist. I held her fist and put it on my chest to warm, kiss, caress, and tears It dripped down my cheek and fell on her hand, and I choked up with sobs: "Yingzhu, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, and it hurts you, please wake up, your wedding dress has been tried , Camel came back from Beijing and you are going to hold a wedding, Ying Zhu, Luo Tuo loves you so much, don’t you want to go to Tibet for honeymoon together? You won’t forget it? Speak, Ying Zhu, as long as you wake up, It doesn't matter how you beat me, as long as you beat me flat..." At this time, a miracle happened, Yingzhu's fist miraculously loosened, and the moment my fingers spread out, my heart seemed to be pierced by a sharp sword. The broken sunlight came in through the window and fell on the head of the bed, in a trance Suddenly, I saw a huge blood-stained diamond, like a crystal tear, shining blue light in Yingzhu's pale palm. I burst into tears: "Yingzhu!..." On the afternoon of the second day after Yingzhu was admitted to the hospital, the injury suddenly deteriorated, and an emergency transplant operation was required, but a huge surgical fee was required. Unfortunately, the funds were all taken to Beijing by Gao Peng to participate in the operation of that big project , and because of the sudden storm in Beijing and the delay of the plane, he couldn't make it back for a while, and even if he got back, the funds couldn't be withdrawn from the operating projects in time.The employees of the company were very reasonable and generously donated money to relieve the urgent need, but it was still far from the required 480,000 surgical fees. I was stamping my feet anxiously in the corridor outside the ward, my phone was ringing off the hook, and there were not many people who could help me.I pleaded with the hospital, and the hospital promised to give me a 80,000 yuan discount, but the remaining funds must be in place before 3:00 pm, otherwise the operation cannot be carried out, and they will not be responsible for the delay in rescue.I don't know how to press the last call.Qi Shuli's haughty voice came from the phone: "What, figured it out?" I trembled while holding the phone, "Frank, give...give me some money..." "Money? What do you want money for?" "I'm going to save a friend's life, help me..." He actually laughed on the phone, "Then please beg me, see if you can impress me." "Frank, I really need it urgently. Even if I have to risk my life to pay you back in the future, I have nothing to say. You must help me." He continued his indifference, "You are so devoted to everyone, but to me, as long as there is a little bit of such sincerity, we will not come to this point!" "Frank, I want to save my life!" I cried loudly. "Then you first agree to my request and marry me." "Frank!" "Sorry, I have something to do now, call me when you think about it." After speaking, there was a busy tone on the phone. The phone slipped from my hand and fell on the floor with a harsh and crisp sound. The battery cover fell off, just like all my spirit and will were instantly shattered by this man's coldness. He turned out to be helpless! There is really no love at all, but I still thought of asking him for help! At this time, the cell phone lying on the floor rang and kept turning.I picked up the phone, and it was Chen Jinsen calling. Many things in the world are so mysterious and mysterious, not more than a second, not less than a second, just in this second, so the situation developed in an unexpected direction. Go, you can't stop it. After Chen Jinsen learned the whole story on the phone, he reprimanded me loudly: "Why didn't you tell me? I called you to ask you when I heard something happened to Ms. Cui. What is more important than saving lives? You still don't consider me a friend, Cathy, is that why I make you taboo?" "I……" "Don't say anything, I'll come right over, how much money is not a problem!" "Keven, thank you!" "Thank you, now is not the time to talk about this. Don't worry, I won't take advantage of others. I just want to express my sincerity, and there is... humanitarianism." After speaking, he hung up the phone. Half an hour later, he arrived at the hospital with his secretary and the checkbook. Yingzhu's operation went smoothly. It was around 8 o'clock in the evening. Just after the operation, Gao Peng finally rushed over from Beijing.His head was buried, and I couldn't see his face, but his whole body was shaking, as if he was standing in a snowy valley, with nowhere to hide, so he could only tremble. The whole night, he babbled in Yingzhu's ear, as if he wanted to say what he wanted to say in his life, he wanted to finish it in one night, and in the next few days, he repeated the same words endlessly. It has been four days, and Yingzhu is still unconscious.No matter how we called her, talked and sang to her, we tried everything we could, but it still didn't help, only the ticking of the instrument next to her showed that she still had a heartbeat. Will Yingzhu know his pain and anxiety? At this moment, he was still talking to Yingzhu, and I stood at the door of the ward, listening to those words, my heart was so painful that I couldn't speak.I walked over and put my hand on his shoulder, knowing that I couldn't persuade him, so I comforted him and said: "Don't do this, Gao Peng, Yingzhu will be fine, if you continue like this, you will collapse." "It's okay, I'm very calm now." He raised his face, only the high and protruding cheekbones could be seen on his already thin face.And in the hair on the top of his head, a lot of white hairs grew out of nowhere, which looked shocking. "We should all hold on, Gao Peng." "Kao'er, don't worry, I'm really calm. Whether Yingzhu wakes up or not, I have accepted this reality. God wants to put me to death, so what can I do?" "Gao Peng..." "Really, I am very satisfied. I have had a sincere love, and I will have no regrets in this life." Gao Peng got up and stood in front of the window of the ward, his back was so lonely and heavy, "Dolma said , as long as your heart is as pure as Namtso Lake, you will have the same affection as Tanggula. In the past, I was a prodigal son, hopeless, and I never thought that one day I would get such a sincere love..." "Who is Dolma?" This was the second time I heard him mention this person. "You want to know?" "Ok." With a long sigh, he slowly began to narrate: "She is the one who saved my soul... Three years ago, I met a Tibetan girl Dolma in Tibet. Her eyes are brighter than those in the sky. The morning star is still bright, her face is red, and she smiles showing her neat white teeth. We rode horses and herded sheep together. She waved the whip really beautifully, very chic, and the song she sang could stop the eagle from flying. At that time, I was obsessed with rock climbing. There were many mountains in the place where I lived, and I climbed them all. Only the highest peak I did not conquer. Every time I climbed to the top of the mountain, I would get endless Strength, it feels like rebirth, I told Dolma about this feeling, and she began to accompany me to climb the mountain. In the past, she just sent me on the road and waited for me silently at the foot of the mountain... "When I decided to climb the highest mountain, Zhuoma did not hesitate to climb with me. Our preparations should be very sufficient. For safety, both of them had safety ropes around their waists. My Even hers, just in case... The beginning went smoothly, and when we climbed to the top of the mountain, we were all very happy, and victory seemed to be in sight. Who knows that tragedy will come, Zhuoma is behind me,脚下有块石头松动了，她掉了下去。因为系着安全绳，她是悬空挂着的，当时情况很危险，我动都不敢动，因为她的绳子系在我的腰上，稍有不慎，两个人有可能同时坠下山崖。 “我腾出一只手试图将她拉上来，可是根本使不上劲，感觉就快撑不住了，那一刻我反而没有了恐惧，心想一起死也没什么不好。但卓玛却不这么想，她掏出一把匕首开始割绳子，我大声喊叫要她别割，她不听，眼泪哗哗地流，还是要割绳子，一刀，两刀，就像割在我心上，我绝望得几乎就要往下跳。她仰着一张天真的脸孔却突然对我笑了起来，她说骆驼，我活着和你活着是不一样的，我活着只会放羊，比天上的繁星还渺小。但你若活着，可以做很多的事情，可以拍很多照片，可以娶你真心相爱的姑娘。我知道我不是你心仪的人，没有关系，布达拉可以作证，我是真心希望你幸福，就像圣洁的纳木错湖生生世世依偎着唐古拉山一样，我不会离开你，死去的只会是我的肉体，无论将来你在哪里，幸福不幸福，我都可以看到……” 说到这里，高澎掩面抽泣起来。认识他这么多年，我这是第一次看到他哭，我鼻子发酸，抓住他的肩膀问：“后来呢？后来怎样了？” “后来……”他抬眼看我，憔悴的面容如风干的蜡像，没有一丝血色，“还能怎样呢？绳子终于还是被她割断了，她掉了下去，在我的眼皮底下掉了下去……我这辈子都不会忘了她最后看我的眼神，没有恐惧和悲伤，竟然带着笑意。很多个夜晚，我都梦见她那样看着我，我想放弃的时候，我想堕落的时候，我想颓废的时候，她总是用那样的眼神看着我，让我无地自容，于是逼着自己面对很多不愿意面对的事情。慢慢地，自己真的变得坚强起来了，活得像个正常人，投入地工作，真诚地恋爱……” “高澎！”我伏在他肩头大声哭了起来。 “别难过，考儿，”他轻轻拍着我的背，反过来安慰我，“我们都应该学会坚强，我知道英珠可能醒不过来了，很强烈的预感，直到此刻，我才知道我原来是这么爱她。当初在釜山认识她，觉得很谈得来，她的真诚、直率像极了卓玛，渐渐地我就从内心接受了她，我答应了卓玛的，要好好地活着，要过得幸福，一定要幸福……” “英珠！”我面朝着病床，忽然叫了起来。 我们一起冲到床边，竟然发现英珠的眼角渗出了泪水。 “英珠，英珠，你听到了我说的话是吗？回答我，你回答我啊……”高澎握住英珠的手，激动得语无伦次，英珠应该是听到了的，否则她不会流泪，但不知为什么，我看着英珠眼角的泪，竟然觉得很不祥，那像是告别的眼泪，让人的心不由得揪在一起。 而高澎还在深情地诉说着：“我是爱你的，我没有骗过你。真的，我尽了自己所能来对你，因为你值得我洗心革面，付出我的全部。我只恨自己没能更早地遇见你，不然我也不会浪迹这么多年。英珠，我从来没有告诉过你，我有多感激你，是你让我下定了决心好好重新开始，在这个世界上，除了卓玛，也只有你让我有这样的决心，我们原本离幸福只有一步之遥了，没想到还是一脚踏空。你现在陷入这样的沉默是什么意思呢，你是不是还在怪我爱你爱得不够？傻丫头，不是我爱得还不够，而是因为老天没有给我足够的时间，足够的青春，足够的勇气，让我像爱卓玛一样地去爱你，所以请你一定要醒来，让我有机会重新好好地爱你……” 我为他们轻轻带上了病房的门，这样的话语应该是他们单独交流，英珠是可以听到的，我确信。病房外的走廊很长很长，感觉像是走在人间和地狱的道口，每一步都艰难而痛楚。英珠会给高澎机会吗？高澎，他真的没有骗英珠，他跟英珠结婚就是想好好开始，认认真真地爱一回，如果他失去这样的机会，那不会是英珠的意愿，那一定是上天不给他机会。 而雪上加霜的是，高澎的公司已经近乎瘫痪，因为中途退出，北京那边的项目提出巨额索赔，而先前投入的资金血本无归。 “处理掉吧，把公司处理掉。”高澎就这一句话。 我回公司问市场部经理，情况是不是真有这么严重，经理说比这还严重，对方提出索赔是小，还指控我们诈骗，工商部门已经介入，马上就要开始彻查了。我捂着嘴巴，眼泪唰的一下就流了出来，“那我们怎么办？” “赔钱，尽可能地满足对方的要求，大事化小，小事化了。” “我们还有多少钱？” 经理直摇头，“没钱，这个月的薪水都没发，而且工商部门一旦来查，说不定银行账户都要被冻结。” “登报吧，将公司资产拍卖。”我丢下这一句话就逃出了公司。 华强路熙熙攘攘的人群没有让我冷静，反让我彻底崩溃，从格兰云天出来，我坐在过街天桥的阶梯上掩面痛哭，正如梦中曾有过的场景一样，哭得胃抽搐。一直到天黑，我才拖着抽空了的身体前往医院，可是病床上躺着的竟不是英珠，而是高澎！ “她已经去世了，就在半个小时前。”护士小姐轻声跟我说。 “那他……”我指着一脸煞白的高澎。 “他吐了两口血，当场就昏过去了。”说完护士小姐开始清理地面，果然见白色地砖上赫然印着殷红的血迹。 一周后，英珠的葬礼。在殡仪馆门口我遇见了提着花篮前来吊唁的陈锦森。 这真的让我很感动，他不仅出钱给英珠做手术，而且每天都去医院探望，甚至还出面跟英珠的家人斡旋。英珠的父母已经来了深圳，他们痛骂高澎没有照顾好英珠，我没有插话的份，是陈锦森耐心地跟他们讲道理，又重金悬赏，督促警方尽快捉拿凶手，这让英珠的父母没有话说。 我也没有话说，一看到他就难过地别过脸。 陈锦森伸手按住我的肩膀，充满忧虑地看着我，直摇头，“你瘦了好多，Cathy，这个样子可不行，我们已经尽力了，毕竟生死有命啊。” 正说着，另一个衣冠楚楚的男人走入我的视线，也拿着花篮，尽管戴着墨镜，我还是一眼就认出他来。 什么意思，来看戏的？ 三个人站成三角状站在人来人往的大门口。 “这位是……”陈锦森好奇地打量祁树礼，眉头蹙在一起，又看看我，似乎想要我介绍。我没理会，冷酷地逼视着他，“你来干什么？” 他把花篮交到旁边的助手手里，并没回答我的话，看似随意又别有用心地打量陈锦森，神情很傲慢，“阁下是……Cathy的朋友？” “正是，我叫陈锦森，幸会。” "It's a pleasure to meet you." 两个男人很绅士地握了握手。 陈锦森何其精明识趣，交换名片后非常礼貌地离开了，走时还不忘拍拍我的肩膀提醒我不要太劳累，多注意休息。看似随意，也是别有用心。 一旁的祁树礼已经摘掉墨镜，嘴角浮出的冷笑让人生厌。 我不打算理他，转身就走。 他在后面叫住我：“抱歉，我真的不知道你那天要钱是有急用。” 我回头狠狠地瞪视着他，“那你还来干什么？！” “来看看你的朋友啊。” “请回去吧，我可以很明白地告诉你，这辈子我都不会原谅你，也许你是无心的，可关键时候却看出你的人性竟是如此冷漠。见死不救，你还有什么理由出现在我面前？回去跟你的新娘结婚吧，很般配啊，天生的一对，我才懒得理会，你尽管跟她结婚就是了，你会知道什么是生不如死的！” 说完我大步朝电梯走去，不想再回头。 “耿墨池回国了。”他在背后说。 英珠的骨灰被其父母带回韩国的那天，下着大雨，我和高澎趴在玻璃幕墙上，眼睁睁地看着飞机腾空而起，冲破雨雾消失在灰蒙蒙的天空。 就这么永别了？ 如此匆忙，连最后的叮咛都没有一句啊，英珠！ “我这一生的爱情也就到此为止了，你不用为我担心。我知道我要去做什么，从前是你要我勇敢地寻找属于自己的爱和希望。在西藏，卓玛给了我重生的希望。后来遇到英珠，她给了我爱，如今我失去了她们，也就失去了爱和希望。所以我要重新去寻找，哪怕千辛万苦，我也要去找，否则我会一天都活不下去。” 高澎回到公寓就开始收拾行李，他要我帮他处理公司的善后事宜，他说他已经厌倦了这纷争的世界，就如这个世界也厌倦了他一样。 “你要去哪儿啊？”我站在旁边无助地看着他，一点主意都没有。 他回答：“西藏。” 说着他拉开衣领，掏出一个吊坠给我看，“这里面有英珠的骨灰，我答应过她，要带她去西藏的，我不能言而无信。” “那我以后上哪儿去找你？” 他说：“不用找，无论我在世界的哪个角落，都会记着你的，相见不如怀念。考儿，如果怀念对你来说很痛苦，把我忘了也好，忘了我和英珠，那样对你更好……” 我连连摆头，“你明知道这是不可能的，都是我的错啊。” “考儿。”他的声音仿佛是从胸腔里发出来，嗡嗡的，“我最怕你这样，自责会让你一辈子都不快乐。我要你快乐，英珠也要，所以为了我们，你一定要快乐、坚强、健康地活着。你也要找到属于你的爱和希望，一定会找到的，我们都会找到！” 从高澎的公寓出来，我没有回家，坐在小区路边的长椅上独自仰望深邃的夜空，任凭泪水小河一样淌满面颊。我从口袋里掏出那颗“女神的眼泪”，它在路灯下熠熠生辉，耀眼得不似人间凡物，可就是这颗钻石，让英珠付出了生命的代价。这是个不祥的物件，即便是耿墨池送的，我也不能留在身边了，我怕看到它，一看到心里就发痛。 我举手将钻戒朝街边扔了出去，宛如一颗流星划过夜空，钻戒无声地掉落在街边的花圃中，我别过脸，竭力不让自己朝那边看。 “这么贵重的东西怎么能随便扔啊？” It's him again! 怎么在我落魄的时候总有他？ 我没有应，也没有回头，当他是空气。他大方地坐在我的身边，手心摊开，正是那颗钻戒。我用余光瞟到，他的车就停在路边。他看着那颗钻戒，像是自言自语：“如果让他知道你把他送的东西随便丢掉，他会找你麻烦的。” 说着他拉过我的手，把钻戒放回到我的手心。 “有些东西是不能丢的，丢了，就再也找不回来了。” "You go." 他没应，自顾自地说：“我取消了和安妮的婚礼。” “那是你的事，跟我没关系！” “少跟那个陈锦森来往，他不是什么好东西。” “你也不是什么好东西，没资格说人家。” “你不听我的，早晚你会后悔。” “你走！” 他侧过脸看着我，“我真不是有意的，你又没在电话里说清楚。” “你走！马上走！” 他起身，居高临下地看了我一会儿，摇摇头，朝街边的奔驰走去，司机赶紧下车替他开车门，他盛气凌人地上了车。 两天后，我再次见到了他，是在公司的拍卖会上。 他和陈锦森首度针锋相对，争夺高澎公司的收购权。 现场气氛一度剑拔弩张。 最后他放弃了，将唾手可得的猎物拱手相让给对手。陈锦森虽然赢了，却脸色发绿，因为这个价钱远远超出了他的预算，而负债累累的公司根本就不值这个价。祁树礼摆明了就是跟他抬杠。离开会场时，我分明瞧见他朝陈锦森露出老奸巨猾的微笑。 接下来的事情让我和公司员工大跌眼镜。 陈锦森翻脸了，他抓住合同上的一个漏洞，派律师来跟我们谈，公司他可以接下，但拒绝接受债务，也就是说，公司欠下的巨债得我们自己偿还。我们提出抗议，陈锦森派来的律师一脸的皮笑肉不笑，倨傲地说：“抱歉，如果你们觉得这不公平，可以通过法律途径来解决。” 他明知道这个时候，我们不可能拿得出钱来打官司。 我不相信这是陈锦森的本意，他那么谦和的一个人，不可能言而无信，他一定有他的苦衷，我决定找他当面谈。 可是不等我约他，他主动约我了。我们在福田一座顶级大厦的旋转餐厅见面，一进去就知道这不是普通人所能涉足的，满目奢华，气氛很好，餐厅里是弧形通透的落地观景玻璃，视野开阔。正是傍晚时分，窗外整个华强北几乎尽收眼底，高楼林立的万丈红尘，而远处暮色沉沉，天地辽阔。纵然是琼楼玉宇又如何，俯瞰众生只能是分外的孤独。 他微笑着给我倒红酒，菜是他亲自点的，很精致，道道菜食色诱人。他好像压根就不知道我来见他的目的（他那么精明的人，怎么可能不知道？），他看似很随意地跟我闲谈着，顾左右而言他，餐都快用完了，一点也没往主题上靠。 我心事重重，越急，他脸上的笑意越深。 此时我才隐约觉得，这个男人跟老谋深算的祁树礼一样，都不是什么善类，故意吊我胃口呢，这样的伎俩我早就在祁树礼那儿领教过多次，我何惧于此？ 果然，用过晚餐，在包间喝茶时，他开始亮出自己的底牌了。只见他不慌不忙地掏出一个黑丝绒盒子，不看里面的东西，就知道异常华贵，打开一看，又是璀璨的钻石，仿佛是天上最亮的那颗星辰，在灯光下闪烁着这世上最美丽的光芒。 我听见他用英文说：“Would you marry me，please?（嫁给我，好不好？）” 星城一到秋天就阴雨绵绵，我在星城待了四五天，雨一刻也没停过。这倒让我想起了西雅图的雨季，也是这样绵绵不绝，现在想起来，竟像是前世。 在水一方贴出“出售”的告示几天后，终于成交。不卖掉不行，否则无法偿还公司的巨债。真是很对不起高澎。尽管已经征得了他的同意，但心里还是很不好受，觉得自己真是没用，这么一点事情都处理不好，嫁给陈锦森不就什么都解决了吗？但是我不能！ 这个男人果真是个厉害角色，拒绝他的求婚后，表面上他没有和我翻脸，还是一如既往的风度翩翩，但转过身他就让律师来通告我们，如果我们再不偿还债务，他们将放弃公司的经营，任其自生自灭。公司的员工没有一个愿意走，他们都是当年跟随高澎闯荡天下的，对公司的感情很深，尤其是英珠的去世，让他们更加不忍离去。集体商议后，我们还是只能妥协，偿还债务，否则公司肯定不复存在，那都是大家几年创业的心血啊。 我和公司的一个部门经理一起回的星城，他处理在水一方出售的事，我则处理高澎的车辆等其他财产，房子降到底价成交后，我并不知道买主是谁，也不想知道，默默收拾着高澎的收藏品，装箱打包，忙了整整两天。 傍晚我在客厅的沙发上疲惫地睡着了，做了个梦，梦见英珠在白雪皑皑的原野上飞快地奔跑，醒来很久，耳边还回荡着她爽朗的笑声。我猛然想起今天是英珠的“三七”忌日，连忙跑到外面买了成捆的冥纸。晚上拿着冥纸到露台上烧，无论保安怎么敲门警告，我就是置之不理，我要超度英珠的亡灵，谁也拦不住。 夜已经很深，我还坐在露台的小板凳上，一张张地往火盆里放冥纸，跳动的火焰照着我的脸，温暖着我的心，就像英珠曾经的宽慰。虽然我已经无泪可流，可我还是想哭，一个鲜活的生命就这么灰飞烟灭了，我从未像此刻怀念英珠的好，哪怕是她的拳头。 突然，客厅的过道里传来开门声，我还没明白怎么回事，门就被打开了。有人进来了，肯定是保安，我连看都懒得看继续烧冥纸，我就不信他们能把我怎么着。 啪的一声，客厅的吊灯被打开，我本来只开了一盏小灯的，突如其来的强烈光线刺得我睁不开眼睛。我揉着眼睛看了看外面，进来的不是保安，是一个提着行李箱的男子，诧异地看着阳台上我这个满头是灰的疯女人。 对方渐渐走近，我仰着脸，近乎贪婪地注视着，简直不能相信如此清晰真实，如同烙印在我心上的样子，只觉他又瘦了好多，瘦得只剩高高凸起的颧骨，眼神幽暗。足足有两分钟，我们傻瓜一样地瞪视着对方，谁都没有说话。 “你……在给谁烧纸钱？”他放下行李箱一步步朝露台走来。 耿墨池！我在心底叫着他，真的是他！最最撕心裂肺的一刹那，我泪流满面，拼尽了全部的力气不让自己发出任何声音，“耿墨池，耿墨池……”仿佛只要在心底那样拼命地呼喊，眼前的这个人就不会消失，永远都不会消失。 他隔了片刻，才说：“考儿，是我。”轻轻停顿了一下，似乎在微笑，“我还没死呢，你给我烧什么纸钱？” 我战栗如风雨中飘摇的树，我不敢看他的眼睛，心脏一阵阵紧缩，我能感觉汩汩的鲜血自心底涌出。原以为有生之年我不会再见到他，今天才知道这是多么幼稚的事情，即使再次见到了他，我们又能改变得了什么？从前的种种都化成了灰，我跟他，还能拥有什么？ “别烧了，我有得是钱。” 他来到我跟前，居高临下地看着火光中死去活来的我。然后蹲下来，更近地凑近火光，他就在火的那边，我在火的这边，两张脸隔得那么近，熟悉的气息扑面而来，感觉却又是那么遥远，咫尺天涯大概就是如此。 “Is that you，foolish crab?（是你吗，笨螃蟹？）” 他在火那边问。