Chapter 6 chapter Five

We are all just ordinary people in the mortal world, always relying on our own pride to love or hate, we can't tolerate hurt, but we hurt each other deeply inadvertently. Two days later, our recording was finally over.Geng Mochi invited us to dinner as the host, in the euphemistic name of showing the friendship of the landlord.He didn't choose to stay in a big restaurant, but booked in a low-key and exquisite private restaurant. He brought me to this restaurant three years ago. It only accepts reservations. The minimum consumption per person is not less than 2,000. There were nine people, plus Geng Mochi and the assistant he brought over, eleven people.

Ah Qing smacked his tongue while flipping through the menu, leaned close to my ear and said, "Hey, it's so expensive, why don't you give us cash, the cheapest vegetable costs 380, my mother..." Xiao Lin, Geng Mochi's assistant, is in charge of ordering dishes and greeting guests. She is a very young girl, and of course she is also very beautiful. She is wearing a famous brand. Maybe because she is too young, those famous brands look a bit dazzling on her, and she also has a smug look. Snobbish, seemingly enthusiastic, but actually cold. During the dinner, our colleagues here frequently toasted Geng Mochi. I know that Geng Mochi usually doesn’t drink alcohol and only drinks a small amount of red wine on weekdays. However, Feng Ke probably felt that the red wine was not strong enough, so he ordered white wine instead. I noticed that Xiao Lin’s face pulled Come down, "Teacher Geng doesn't drink liquor."

"It's okay, break the precept today." Geng Mochi took the cup generously. "That's right, it's rare to have a chance to have a meal with Mr. Geng, and baijiu has the atmosphere!" Feng Ke brought here his usual bold demeanor on the wine table. He toasted Geng Mochi three times at the beginning of the banquet, and then greeted others. Colleagues took turns to toast, so the colleagues got up one by one to toast Geng Mochi, Xiao Lin almost had a fit, "Mr. Geng, you can't drink anymore, your body..." "Shut up!" Geng Mochi scolded her, then picked up the glass again, "I'll drink, it's fine."

Feng Ke gave a thumbs up, "Teacher Geng is happy!" He picked up the wine bottle and wanted to pour wine, but when he saw that the bottom of the bottle was empty, he quickly called the waiter next to him, "One more bottle." I was a little startled, because I saw that Geng Mochi's face had turned pale, and the hand holding the cup was trembling slightly.Ah Qing, who was sitting next to me, also noticed his strangeness, and hurriedly said, "Fun Ke, it's almost enough." "Hey, don't interrupt. I respect Teacher Geng because I am sincere. Don't interrupt." Feng Ke guessed that he had drunk too much, and he didn't notice Geng Mochi's pale face at all, while Xiao Lin next to him was about to burst into tears. Watching a new round of toasts begin.Geng Mochi drank two more cups, and when Feng Ke was about to pour the third cup, I put down my chopsticks suddenly, "Enough!"

The sound was so loud that even I was startled. A table of people looked at me. I stared at Feng Ke and said, "How much more respect do you have, you turned pale without looking at him, you want to force him to death, don't you?" Funk froze in embarrassment, at a loss. Ah Qing also spoke, accusing Feng Ke: "You are too, just make up your mind, Mr. Geng is a person of status, do you think of him as one of your gang of drunkards?" Turning his face, he asked Geng Mochi , "Teacher Geng, are you okay, you look very bad, do you want to go to the hospital?" Geng Mochi waved his hand, "No, it's fine."

He trembled even to speak. Only then did Feng Ke realize what stupid thing he had done, and he put down the bottle awkwardly, "Yes, I'm sorry, I didn't know Mr. Geng couldn't drink, so...does it matter?" "Do you think it's okay? Didn't you see that Teacher Geng's face turned pale!" Although Ah Qing was aggressive, she rarely reprimanded people so harshly. She pushed me, "Hurry up and send Teacher Geng back, we're here today, no drank." "I'll take you back." Seeing him like this made me feel very uncomfortable. "Okay." This time he answered very bluntly, stood up staggeringly, Xiao Lin hurried to help him, was pushed away by him, and stretched out his hand to me, "Help me."

It seems that he is really dead. Kobayashi was obviously a little embarrassed, and glanced at me coldly. I didn't have time to pay attention to her, so I took Geng Mochi's arm and slowly helped him out of his seat. He waved to Feng Ke and the others symbolically, and couldn't even speak.Funk was so frightened that he forgot to react, he probably didn't expect the consequences to be so serious.I was also angry with him, I didn't bother to say hello to him, I helped Geng Mochi and left straight away. "Does it matter?" Ah Qing worriedly followed me, and she was also frightened.I said to her: "You guys go back first, I will call you if there is any situation."

Geng Mochi's car was a silver BMW, parked quietly in the yard under the shade of trees. "Teacher Geng, let me drive." Xiao Lin couldn't help but pull the car door. He was a very considerate subordinate, knowing that the boss could not drive after drinking.Unexpectedly, Geng Mochi didn't appreciate it, "You drive back first, I'll take a taxi with Miss Bai." "Ah?" Xiao Lin froze in place. "Let's go, follow me to the door to take a taxi." Geng Mochi said and dragged me out.Before Xiao Lin could react, "Mr. Geng, why do you need to take a taxi? I ​​can take you back to the apartment."

"If you want you to go, go, there are so many nonsense!" Geng Mochi's temper is not normal, and his opponents have no good looks from the beginning to the end, it is really difficult for this girl. "Why do you want to take a taxi? You don't have your own car..." After getting into the taxi, I couldn't help but wonder. He was already showing signs of exhaustion at this moment, leaning back on the back of the chair weakly and said: "I don't understand... I just want to be alone with you for a while..." His body was shaking when he said this. "Are you feeling unwell? I'll take you to the hospital." I was really worried.

He tried to squeeze out a smile, "It's okay, I've been like this for the past two years, so I often thought I'd never see you again." He reached out and took off my sunglasses, and my red and swollen eyes were suddenly exposed to his eyes. In his eyes, he seemed to understand everything, and his fingers lightly slid across my face, "You are much thinner." His fingertips were cold, and I shuddered instinctively. "What's wrong with you, haven't you seen a doctor?" He put his arm around my shoulder, "Stop talking so much nonsense, let me stay with you quietly for a while." Then he said to the driver in front, "Master, please drive slowly."

"Okay." The driver was eager, "Then I'll make a detour, and the two of you can talk slowly." "Well, it doesn't matter if you go a little farther, it's fine as a day trip." I stared at him for a long while speechless. The light and shadow of the city passed by the car window quickly, and Geng Mochi thought he was extremely uncomfortable, so he kept his eyes closed.I tried to take his hand away from my shoulder, but he refused and hugged me even tighter.He just didn't speak, just closed his eyes like that, as if he was about to fall asleep.I've never seen him look so weak, and I can't tell what it's like in my heart. After going around for more than an hour, the driver finally found out his conscience and finally made a detour to the gate of Wangjiang apartment in the community where Geng Mochi lived. I originally wanted to go back like this, but seeing him like that, I was moved with compassion and decided to help him upstairs .This residential area is not the one he used to live in. It should be newly bought. The environment is better than the original one. The building is hidden in the lush woods. His assistant Xiao Lin has arrived first and is waiting in the lobby on the first floor of the apartment. "You go back first, it's none of your business here." Geng Mochi waved at her without looking at her.Xiaolin didn't dare to say anything more, and watched us into the elevator.Somehow, I find the stare from behind to be stinging.I couldn't help but look back at her, but she glared at me, turned and walked away angrily stepping on her high heels.What's wrong with this girl? "Floor 48." After entering the elevator, Geng Mochi reported the number, with almost all of his weight leaning on me, "Call Jinyi for me and ask her to come over." "Jinyi?" "It's the one you saw at the piano shop yesterday." "What are you calling her for?" "She's a nurse." I understood, took out my mobile phone, "What's the number?" He reported a series of numbers, and I dialed them.After a while, a gentle voice came from the other end of the phone, "Hello, who is it?" I explained the situation, and she immediately agreed, "I see, I'll come right over." At this time, he had already reached the door of Geng Mochi, he took out the key and gave it to me, motioning for me to open the door.But I didn't mean to go in. Standing at the door without moving, he turned around and squinted his eyes to look at me, "What are you doing?" "I, I'm going back." His gaze became a little ruthless, "Try it." "..." "I'm already like this, what else can I do to you?" I had to go in. I was a little scared when I entered the door. The living room was decorated like an exhibition hall. The pattern of the carpet was very gorgeous, and it was as soft as stepping on a cloud when you stepped on it.I was amazed at how there were so many sculptures and other handicrafts in a good living room, and there were so many paintings on the walls, but the furniture became secondary, squeezed among those handicrafts and almost invisible. Geng Mochi sank into the sofa in relief, closed his eyes and gasped for breath, and told me, "Pour me a glass of water, hurry up." I almost turned around and left, because his tone seemed to be ordering the servant.But thinking about it being my colleague who made him like this today, I still endured it. Since I have already achieved this, let the good people do it to the end.As a result, I broke into the bedroom by mistake and was shocked again.The bedroom is not much smaller than the living room, because it is too spacious, and the old-fashioned post bed looks very lonely by the floor-to-ceiling windows. The dressing room and bathroom are located in the bedroom, separated by glass walls. I know everything in it The furnishings are frighteningly expensive, this man is so flamboyant. I quickly backed out, went to the kitchen and poured him water, which he drank slowly. "Is this where people live?" I looked around and clicked my tongue.He glanced at me, "Anyway, in your eyes, I'm not human at all." This man is really strange, he treats me gently and kindly in front of others, and when we are alone, he keeps a straight face, as if I owe him eight dime and haven't paid him back.I didn't care about him, and asked casually, "Why are there so many artworks?" "It makes me look more cultured." "..." He really hasn't changed at all, he's still as brazen as ever. After a while, Jinyi came over, so fast, he should be living nearby.Wearing a nurse's uniform and carrying a medicine box, she nodded to me as soon as she entered the door. She didn't even bother to say hello, so she hurriedly performed various examinations on Geng Mochi. When she heard that he had drunk, she yelled, "You don't want to die? How did Doctor Tang explain to you?" Geng Mochi muttered indistinctly, "Accommodating..." "Entertainment? No one would risk his life to entertain!" "Okay, just stop drinking from now on, save some face for me, okay?" Geng Mochi probably felt a little embarrassed because he felt that I was still by his side. "I'll call my aunt later and say you're drinking!" "Jin Yi!" If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed that Geng Mochi would still be so humble.I couldn't help but pay special attention to this girl named Jinyi. When she lowered her head and was busy, the curve of her side face was very soft, her skin was that fine porcelain white, her figure was petite and exquisite, and she had a kind of quiet beauty.It can be seen that Geng Mochi is very "respectful" to her, and there is even a bit of pampering in his eyes, so I judge that the two are definitely not familiar with ordinary friends, otherwise Jin Yi would not talk to him in this tone, What is their relationship? "I'm so sorry, Miss Bai, I'm so busy..." Jin Yi took Geng Mochi's blood pressure, gave him another injection, and then hurriedly went to the kitchen to make hangover soup for him.She is very sensitive, and when she noticed that I was looking at her, she turned her head and smiled at me, "He can't control himself at all, otherwise he wouldn't make his body so bad, you have to watch him closely from now on Son, he just needs no one to care about him!" "Okay, Jinyi, you have nothing to do here, you can go." "Oh, it's time for me to go. There are still patients in the clinic." As she spoke, she began to pack her things.At this time, Geng Mochi finished drinking the hangover soup, he seemed to be very sleepy, he couldn't even lift his eyelids, so he got up and walked towards the bedroom on his own.At the door, he remembered something, and he turned to stare at me again, "You are not allowed to leave, stay here." "I, I still have something to do." I don't want to stay in a place where no one lives.Although the decoration is luxurious, it doesn't feel like home at all. Those hideous sculptures of humans and animals are scary to look at. When Geng Mochi heard that I was leaving, his face was very ugly, "Hey, I drank so much wine because of you, why are you so irresponsible?" Seeing this situation, Jin Yi hurriedly smoothed things over, held my hand and said, "Miss Bai, you should stay here. I still have a lot of things to do in my clinic, so he can't be without someone by his side." "Yeah, I might die at some point." "Mochi!" Jin Yi glared at him. I was so angry that this good man couldn't do it anymore, so I asked him angrily: "What's wrong with you?" "I'm wrong everywhere." "It's you who wants to drink so much, what's the matter with me?" "Why is it none of your business? Isn't it your colleague who drinks me?" I really couldn't explain it clearly to him. Jin Yi pulled me to the balcony and advised me: "Miss Bai, you stay here. He's not scaring you. He really can't be alone, and you've seen it too." , He hates me staying here, thinks I'm nagging, please stay here with him, let him have a good rest, call me immediately if there is any situation, look at his face, it's as white as paper... " "Jinyi, what's wrong with him?" "he……" "Jinyi, is your clinic closed? Why are you still chattering away?" This guy obviously didn't want me to know more, he stood at the door of the bedroom and yelled.Jin Yi said angrily: "Keep your voice down, don't you think you're not sick enough? I'm leaving now..." She shook my hand again, patted the back of my hand, and looked earnestly.I have to admit that I couldn't refuse that gaze. This girl has a wonderful and stable power. Her eyes are easily reminiscent of those angel eyes on the church murals, so I was surprised when I first saw her. Her eyes are clear. I nodded my head as a promise. The girl immediately showed a knowing smile, "I knew it!" That smile was so innocent that it bloomed on the lips like a flower, making it even more irresistible.She didn't say what she knew, but she picked up the medicine box and left with confidence as if she knew everything. Geng Mochi started giving orders again, "Come to my bedroom, look at me, I want to sleep for a while." "I'm not going, I'm just outside." "What if you run away?" "Since I promised, I won't run away." Geng Mochi leaned against the door, "Don't make a fuss, okay? I don't have the energy to argue with you. I'm really uncomfortable... Can you let me sleep peacefully? From last night until now, I haven't even Eyelids never closed." "Why did you go? Who told you not to sleep." "Call, go to hotel after hotel to see where you live." "..." I've never seen such a troublesome man. It's not enough for me to stay with him in the bedroom, but he has to ask me to move a chair to sit on the side and hold my hand. "This way you won't be able to run away." He fell asleep without finishing a word.But he was obviously asleep, but I couldn't pull out my hand. When I moved a little, he pulled him even tighter... It has been two years, and I have never imagined such a scene, even in a dream, we are indifferent to each other.If it wasn't for the photo under the glass countertop of the desk, I might not even remember his appearance. I can't even remember why we were together in the first place, and why we were separated, and it remained in my memory in the end Only a vague and distant face remained.At this moment, staring at his face, I suddenly thought I was in a dream again... But it was clear and real in front of me, it was dusk, the setting sun slanted in through the half-drawn floor-to-ceiling curtains, and the carpet was jumping golden.Apart from his slight breathing, there was no other sound in the room.There is only a faint wind outside the window, which sounds like it is in the suburbs.In fact, this is a penthouse on the 48th floor in the city center. Standing on the terrace, you can overlook the panoramic view of the Huangpu River.If it is night, how bright and prosperous it should be! I remember that he didn't like living in high-rise buildings before, but now he chooses to live in such a high place in the most prosperous area, is it far away from the world, or is he falling deeper into the world?In the end, we are all just ordinary people in the mortal world. We always love or hate based on our own pride. We can't tolerate hurt, but we hurt each other deeply inadvertently. It's better to miss each other than to meet each other, so we don't see each other anymore, so we It has come to this point today. Thinking about the love between me and him, it is so humble and pitiful. I have never thought of going to him after we separated from him. I just guarded my heart and waited hard, so I never dared to change. I lost my phone at home because I was afraid that one day he would not be able to find me, even though he never did.In fact, he has a studio in Star City. As long as he is willing, he can create many opportunities to meet me unexpectedly, but he doesn't, just like me.What are we waiting for, or what do we want to forget? The truth is, the moment I saw him, I realized that the two years of "forgetting" were nothing but self-deception. This feeling was like a thorn, which had long been deeply embedded in my body. I can't pull it out.The hateful thing is that he has seen through me, that's why he is so domineering in front of me, he thinks I can't escape him.He has always been a strong person, especially emotionally. What I don't understand is whether his strength is because he can't face loss, or is it because he really has feelings for me?We have long passed the age of pursuing love as a belief. Subconsciously we want to believe in love, but reason often makes us doubt each other, so love becomes more and more confusing in our constant guessing and hurting each other. , are we still capable of love? "It's all just a game." I vividly remember what he told me when we broke up.So what does it mean that he is holding my hand and refuses to let go? I felt like I was slowly becoming numb, from the hand he held me, all the way to my brain.I was so exhausted that I couldn't lift my head like lead, so I had to lie on the edge of the bed. I didn't know when I fell asleep.The moment I opened my eyes, I was so scared that I sat up on the bed, it was the bed, not the chair! The curtains have been completely drawn, and Geng Mochi is sitting on the sofa next to him, reading a newspaper with a cup of coffee, is it daytime?His whole body was bathed in the sun, not in the setting sun, and I was a little out of date, staring at him in fear, "You, why are you here?" He chuckled, "This is my bedroom, miss." He closed the newspaper and squinted at me, "You can really sleep, Jin Yi also said that you want to take care of me, but it turned out that I came to take care of you, you What are you so tired of?" "I'm leaving!" I threw off the quilt and got out of bed in embarrassment. He immediately yelled: "Hey, you slept in my bed and left without saying thank you?" His voice was so loud that I was startled.I looked at him suspiciously, is this the half-dead drunk yesterday?Look at his radiant face. His beard has just been shaved, and his face looks like he has just applied lotion. It is moisturized and shiny. Is he just pretending? "What are you looking at, do you think I'm more handsome?" He started to be narcissistic again, and took my hand, "Go take a shower, and have breakfast with me after the shower, Jinyi just sent chicken shredded mushroom porridge .” "Who is she to you, who treats you so well?" I pretended to ask casually. In the end, he said, "It has nothing to do with you." Then he pulled me, "Hurry up and take a shower, look at you, do you still look like a human being?" "I'm going back to the hotel to wash!" I shook off him and jumped out of bed to find my shoes. "Bai Kaoer!" He called my name, "I think we should talk." He stood in front of me like a wall, his gaze suddenly became cold again. "What else is there to talk about? You're already healed. What else am I doing here?" I avoided his gaze, walked around him, and walked towards the door barefoot.He grabbed me and dragged me to him, frowning, "Do you think you can solve the problem by escaping like this? It's been two years, why do you still look like a ghost, you haven't changed at all..." "I just look like this! Geng Mochi, I don't think there is anything to talk about between us. It's been two years, and I think you've had a good life. You've changed houses and cars, and you're surrounded by beautiful women. Your career is in full swing, you have everything you need, what else do you want to talk to me about? Talk about the past? We don’t owe anyone! As you said, it’s just a game, since it’s a game, we should abide by the game You are not someone who can't afford to play with the rules, so why show your superiority in front of me?" "Bai Kaoer, what's in your head?" Geng Mochi was furious again, looking at me and gnashing his teeth, "What did I do to make you hate it so much? Games? That's right, I said that In that case, but you can't use the angry words when two people quarreled as an excuse to attack me, my devotion to you these years can't be worth a single angry word? What is your brain made of?" "I'm a pig brain, right? You are the smartest in the world, you are always condescending, a little ant like me, you can step into mud with one foot, I am nothing in your eyes! Aren't you just used to it?" You are invincible, you can’t accept that the woman you dumped ignores you for two years, your self-confidence is frustrated, so you want to find a balance, you want me to cry and cling to you, please remember the old love and talk about regrets? Tell you , Geng Mochi, I, Bai Kaoer, am not such a person, if you place your hopes on finding balance with me, you should give up on it as soon as possible!" With a "boom", Geng Mochi smashed the coffee in his hand towards the glass partition wall of the bathroom. The glass didn't crack, but the cup shattered.His jaw started to tremble, and he pointed to the brown stain that slid down the glass, "I am the cup, do you see clearly, I am the cup! You think I am indestructible, you think I am cynical, you think I am not afraid of harm You can laugh it off, but in fact I am just a cup, a little impact will shatter!" He grabbed my hand and dragged it to the side of the bed, and opened the drawer of the bedside table, "Look, see for yourself, the medicine in it How many kinds are there? Others eat to survive, but I take medicine to save my life. Originally, my health was not so bad, but it was because of you, because of you, damn you, I was like a crazy person all day long. , smoking, staying up late, I practiced myself to death, and the result became what I am today!" As he said that, he pressed my shoulder desperately again, forcing me to look at him, "Look at me, look into my eyes, whether I love you, my eyes are full of it... you idiot The woman who tortured me for so long, and still doubt my feelings for you... I really don't understand how I like you, a woman who is inexplicably slow and insane. Ever since I met you, I have become more insane than you, Ignore the many beauties around me, and read your name in my heart every day like chanting sutras. In the past two years, I have never given up and forgotten you. I thought I really did it. It took me a moment to realize that my efforts were all in vain. Your appearance made me even more insane. I didn't dare to blink my eyes the night before, for fear that I wouldn't hear you when you called... I always use the old number , I never dared to change, I was afraid that you would never find me again... and I don’t know where you live, so I searched from hotel to hotel, from five-star to four-star, and finally found it Three-star, do you know how many three-star hotels there are in this city? My phone was burning hot, and I finally found you. It was almost dawn at that time, and I didn’t have the courage to run there alone. Let Wei Minglun and the others take courage, tell me, tell yourself, is there still a fool like me in the world?" Another proud madman!I close my eyes in pain.At this time, I can only lament the elusiveness of fate, arranging for us to get acquainted, and leaving an insurmountable gap between us. Originally, a phone call could smooth this gap, but the distance was pulled even further by each other's pride.It has been two years, as long as any one of us makes a little concession and makes a phone call to each other, how can we fall into the sad situation where we meet and don't recognize each other today. "Why don't you talk? You're wrong, aren't you?" he growled.My silence made him push his feet. He squeezed my body even harder, almost lifting me into the air, "Do you really feel nothing at all? Bai Kaoer, for the love in my heart for two years Suffering day and night, I thought you would change, but I didn't expect you to be so stubborn. What do you want me to do? Kill you, or kill myself? Tell me, show me a way, tell me how Only by doing this can you face up to our feelings..." When he said this, he was about to lose his mind, his handsome face became ferocious due to impulsiveness, I tightened my body between his hands, and let the tears flow down, "You know that the problem between us is not Here, Geng Mochi, those two dead souls are between us, I can't get around them, I thought I could get around them, but now I know I can't do it! We've all been through that kind of betrayal, I can't help it Believe in love and believe in you, because the distance between me and you is too far. Our bodies can be integrated, but our hearts are separated by thousands of mountains and rivers. I love you, or you love me, there is no way to fill the gap. distance……" "As long as there is love, no distance can be filled! Why can't you believe in yourself and me once? Don't you just want to say that I was with you at the beginning to revenge Qi Shujie? Why are you so naive? Dead people, am I worthy to fight with my feelings? My feelings for you have nothing to do with them, why don't you understand? " Hearing what he said, the resentment and grievances that have been smoldering in my heart for the past few years poured out like a flood, and the old wound was torn open. I covered my face and cried bitterly, "Please forgive me, let me go , I don’t want to hear you say this anymore, so just treat it as a good thing and give me a way to survive. No matter how much you talk, I don’t want to hear it..." "Then let me ask you, do you still love me? Or, have you ever loved me? Just like I love you, with no regrets, have you ever?" "..." "Look up! Look into my eyes and tell me if you ever loved me!" "No." "pardon." "No, I never loved you! As for whether you have loved me or not, it has nothing to do with me. We haven't had any contact in the past two years. Doesn't that justify it?" "..." He finally let go of me, took two steps back, focused on me again, and pointed at the door as if he didn't recognize me, "You can get lost." I exited his room. I shouldn't have stepped in in the first place, I was wrong. Two days later, at the airport, I waited for the return flight with Feng Ke and the others.Just as I was about to board the plane, I received a call from Jin Yi, who was crying on the phone: "Come here quickly! Miss Bai, Mochi is in the hospital now, he is dying, come here quickly!..." I ended up not getting on that flight. When he arrived at the hospital, Geng Mochi had just been pushed from the emergency room to the intensive care unit, and Jin Yi was sitting on a chair in the corridor outside with a pale face.I asked her what happened, and she sobbed and shook her head, "I don't know, I went to check him in the morning and found him unconscious in the bedroom, the house was full of smoke, and there were many empty beer bottles. Listen His assistant Xiao Lin said that he had been in an abnormal mood for the past two days, and he did not go to the studio, and told Xiao Lin not to disturb him by anyone." "What's wrong with him?" In addition to being anxious, I was very puzzled about his condition. I always thought he was in good health, and he didn't give in to me when we quarreled. How could he be so serious that he needed to be rescued? Could it be because of drinking? Jin Yi was a little evasive about this, "It's nothing, he should tell you by himself." She took my hand with tears in her eyes, "Miss Bai, please stay by his side, He can't live without someone to take care of him, and he has not taken his body seriously in the past two years, and it is useless for anyone to persuade him." "Jinyi, you can call me Kao'er." "Well, Kao'er, would you like to stay?" "He told me to go away." "He just has this temper, don't worry about him, sometimes he is like a child, very headstrong, in fact, he is very fragile inside." "You seem to know him very well..." I looked at Jinyi curiously, what is the relationship between her and Geng Mochi?Jin Yi must have sensed my thoughts, and smiled, "We grew up together, he is like my elder brother, my father and his mother are good friends, his mother is now abroad, I am He was entrusted by his mother to take care of him." It turned out to be a childhood sweetheart... Jin Yi's confession made me a little embarrassed, I stood up in a disguise, went to the glass window of the intensive care unit to look inside, and saw Geng Mochi lying quietly among a pile of instruments, with his eyes closed as if he was asleep up.I suddenly felt very strange, his current weakness or his usual strength, which one is the real him?He has never shown his "weak" side in front of me. He is a person who wants to occupy other people's dreams even when he is asleep. However, he is only a person after all. He is not God. Can't control the fate of others.So he finally let himself lie down in this room full of instruments, and although I was only separated by a layer of glass windows, it was as if I was separated by mountains and seas. I didn't have the courage to take a step closer to him. I, who seem strong, are actually pathetically cowardly. In this regard, we seem to be of the same kind. Geng Mochi was transferred to the VIP ward the next morning, which indicated that his condition was stable.I stayed by his side all the time, lying on the edge of his bed and fell asleep. I didn't know when he woke up, because when I opened my eyes in a daze, I found that he was staring at me.I thought he would tell me to fuck off, but there was no expression on his face. "You... would you like something to eat?" I asked him awkwardly. He said nothing, still just staring at me. I was terrified by his stare, and I moved towards the door, "What do you want to eat, I'll go out and buy it for you." As soon as I got to the door, he called me, "Stop." "I'll go to the opposite side of the hospital and buy you something to eat." I was afraid that he wouldn't believe me, so I said, "I haven't eaten, I'm very hungry." In this room, I will unplug the oxygen tube." Discouraged, I sat down again on the chair by the bed. Until Geng Mochi was discharged from the hospital, we were at a stalemate. He didn't talk to me much, but he didn't show any resistance when I took care of him. He just continued to pick and choose as always, and sometimes even deliberately found fault.Of course I can't quarrel with a patient, I can only let him go, thinking that I can leave after he is discharged from the hospital, there is still a lot of work on the radio station, I can't keep asking for leave.But this man was unreasonable at all. On the second day after I was discharged from the hospital, when I was packing my things in the guest room, he moved a chair and sat at the door of the living room. When I came out with my luggage, he looked at me with his legs crossed and said: "If you have the ability, you can pass my test, otherwise you will never want to step out of the apartment." "I still have work in my unit, you want me to be fired." I really have nothing to do with him. "Resign, isn't it easy?" "How can I live without a job? I'm not like you, born with a golden spoon in your mouth." "You can work for me and I'll pay you ten times as much." "Mochi!" I stomped my feet, the air tickets were all booked, and now it's all over again.In the end, of course, I didn’t make it. Geng Mochi arbitrarily and unreasonably asked me not to leave until he fully recovered. The reason was that my colleague poured alcohol on him that day and caused him to be hospitalized. I had to be “responsible” to him.I knew he was making excuses. The ward he stayed in the hospital was a "cardiac surgery department." It's the first time I've heard of it. However, some things really seem to be doomed, and there is no escape. When I called the unit to ask for leave, Lao Cui said: "Oh, I was just about to tell you that Taili just happened to send people to Shanghai for training. , It was organized by the radio and television system, since you are in Shanghai now, you don’t need to send anyone else, just you go, about three months, study hard and take care of your health.” "..." When Geng Mochi learned that I was going to train in Shanghai for three months, he was in a good mood, and he smiled rarely when he looked at me.The training location is in a university, where there is an accommodation arrangement. I proposed to move there, but Geng Mochi firmly disagreed, "I will arrange a car to take you." He didn't allow me a little chance to leave. So I can only live in the apartment with him. Every day he sends a driver to take me to training, and then picks me up in the evening. Occasionally, he will pick me up in his own car and have dinner with me outside, but this is rarely the case. , because he wanted me to cook for him, for which he quit his nanny.So I am very busy every day in Shanghai. I have to train and serve this master. He is picky and it is not easy to satisfy him.Don't think that we are really getting back together, in fact we didn't have much communication when we were together, when he was practicing piano, I was mostly doing housework, when I was watching TV, he was usually busy with his own affairs in the study,只要我不离开他的视线范围，我们互不干涉，若我未经他允许私自出门，他就会甩脸子给我看。 真的相处下来，我感觉他这两年过得并不轻松，表面是风光，但他从未在我这里赢得胜利，即使当初一脚踹开我，也没有表明他就赢了，两年来我从未主动找过他或给过他只字片语，这让他的自尊心很受挫。现在是多好的机会啊，他必须要彻底地控制我从而挽回受挫的自尊。他无法容许自己失败，尤其是在我身上。可是他对我并没有亲密的举止，他从不进入我的房间，我要进他的卧室也得先敲门。这种感觉很怪，两个人像是住在一个屋檐下的房客，心里面憋着气，谁都不想向对方先表示妥协，看似平静的生活其实暗地里各自在较着劲。 我也不知道我为什么会留下来照顾他，按理以我的个性我应该会转身就走，可事实上我不仅留了下来，还尽心尽力地照顾着他，不仅每日叮嘱他吃药，还买了烹饪书一心钻研厨艺，每天变着花样给他做吃的，吃完饭会陪他去散步，或者一起去看场话剧、电影什么的，周末还会陪他去健身、打高尔夫，或去郊外钓鱼。 耿墨池偶尔也会带我出席一些私人Party，他不用介绍，在外人看来我们俨然是一对情侣，在舞池中轻舞漫步的时候，他目光温柔，好似深邃的海，可是私底下他从不会用那样的眼光看我。我感觉我跟他收藏的那些雕塑之类的艺术品并无区别，摆在房间的角落里，看得到就够了，他并不会去碰那些东西，他只要我的“存在”。 夜深人静的时候，我不免在心里问自己，我究竟是因为什么而“存在”于他身边呢？是因为同情，因为心甘情愿，还是因为我其实也留恋着他的存在？我舍不得离开他？ 不管我承不承认，这两年来我即便是恨着他，心心念念地要遗忘他，但其实心心念念遗忘的时候却是在思念着他。两年来，我像只寄生于回忆中的可怜虫，任凭回忆将自己缠成茧也毫无悔意，而思念就像是从心底抽丝一样，隐隐作痛，绵绵不尽，白天向往着夜的黑，夜晚降临时又期盼着天明，没有尽头，无法终止。我实在是受够了这样的折磨。 这么一想，我忽然觉得很悲哀，其实我还是爱着他的，因为爱，所以卑微；因为爱，所以懦弱；因为爱，所以期盼。 因为爱，只是因为爱，所以不忍离开。 可是他未必懂得。 不过总有好消息，这期间我通过阿庆得知星城方面的消息，我们录的那部广播剧大获成功，但让人意外的是，冯客做完这一切后就从电台辞职了，现在在北京某艺术学府进修导演，说是要当真正的导演。老崔并没有强行挽留他，老崔给我打电话询问我培训的情况时说：“我早知道他想走了，以前很舍不得，但后来一想，他还年轻，我没有理由阻碍他的前程。” 有梦想的人真好！ 祁树礼偶尔也给我打电话，他不知道我跟耿墨池住一起，几次都说要飞上海来看我。那天晚上他又打电话过来，耿墨池刚好就坐旁边沙发上看一份合同，我支支吾吾闪烁其词的样子引起了他的怀疑，挂掉电话后他问我：“谁打来的？” “哦，一个朋友，星城的。” "Male and female?" 我本来想说女的，但一看他凌厉的眼神，还是老实地说：“男的。” 他盯着我，“还有呢？” “普通朋友而已。” “普通朋友三更半夜的打电话过来干什么？” “没什么，就是问候下。” 啪的一声，他将合同书甩在茶几上，拉直了两道浓眉，“他是谁？” 刚好那天我的心情也很不好，下午给母亲打电话时被她训了一顿，母亲质问我为什么待在上海不回去，我说是单位派我在这边培训，母亲不信，唠唠叨叨讲了一堆；我心里憋屈着呢，这会儿又被他训，我顿时就毛了，“他是谁与你有什么关系？我有我的生活，你也有你的生活，我们两年前就已经互不相干，我现在在这里照顾你完全是因为，因为……” "Because of what?" “因为你是病人。” 他眉心突突地跳，一触即发，“我是病人？” “你干吗这么凶啊，我说错了吗？你别一天到晚板着脸给我看，要不是瑾宜把你说得快要死了的样子，我才不会待在这里给你当用人！” 湖南人的性子就是辣，像我就是典型的湖南人性格，忍耐到了头就开始张牙舞爪，一肚子怨气终于找到了发泄口。我的嗓门不经意间已经提高了八度，而且因为职业的关系，还是一口标准的普通话字正腔圆，“用人你还给工资吧，我给你干活照顾你，你连声谢谢都没有还整天给我脸色看，我上辈子欠了你的啊，你凭什么对我颐指气使？” “哟，你对我的意见还蛮大的啊。”我一怒，他反倒看戏了，好像很乐见我生气，“有意见就跟我讲，干吗闷在心里呢？我并没有把你当用人使唤，我就是看不惯你装出一副卑躬屈膝的样子，因为我知道你的底子……喏，你现在就露出本相了，这才是真实的你嘛，我看着心里踏实，不然我老担心你背地里给我捅刀子，或者在我的牛奶里下毒……” 我气坏了，我掏心掏肺地对他好，竟然被他怀疑要下毒？ “你真不知好歹。”我咬牙切齿。 他嘴角微微上扬，居然笑了，饶有兴趣地看着我，“但我知道你不会下毒，因为你很爱我，就像我仍然很爱你一样，因为任何女人，都没有你这么有趣。” 这个时候如果我还生气就正中他下怀了，我忽然明白过来，这家伙就是闲得慌，想找乐子呢。我马上镇定下来，揶揄道：“比我有趣的女人多得是，瑾宜不就很有趣吗？” 他朗声大笑，“原来你是在吃醋。” “谁吃醋了，乱讲！” “还说没有，你不就是因为一直拿捏不准我跟瑾宜的关系而耿耿于怀吗？”这家伙笑的样子真的很好看，整张脸都舒展开了，可是说出来的话简直不是人话，“很简单，她是我女朋友。”在我还没有气炸肺前又补充，“以前的。” 我瞪着他，觉得这男人真是很值得下毒，我在想我是不是可以尝试下。“想不想知道多久以前的？”他起身，闲闲地坐到我身边，搭住我的肩膀，手很不老实地放到我的膝上，笑呵呵的，“初恋，她是我的初恋，你信吗？” 我当然不信，“不会吧，瑾宜很纯洁的女孩子呢，怎么会是你的初恋？” “这是我跟她过去的事情，我不想说太多。倒是你，拜托你别整天一副委曲求全的样子对着我，别人怎么温柔贤淑那是本性，可你压根就不是这样的人。”说着他掐了把我的脸，“我为什么喜欢你，不就是因为你特立独行恣意妄为没心没肺名声败坏吗？你要是弄得跟瑾宜那样，我还要你干吗，不如就跟瑾宜算了，问题是我的口味很重，吃惯了辣的就吃不惯清淡的了……” 我打掉他的手，“你才名声败坏呢！”他这是变着法儿骂我。 “咱俩就不要说'名声'这两个字了。” 耿墨池的脸凑近我，他身上有好闻的植物的气息，我知道那是他用的乳液的味道，澳洲的一个牌子，清新冷冽，有淡淡的青草香味，让人想起清晨雨后密密的森林，白的雾，湿漉漉地萦绕在林间。我陷在这样的气息里，莫名的有些虚弱无力。我推开他，“为什么不能说啊？” “因为对不住'名声'这两个字。”他一向刻薄，对自己也如此。我终于忍不住笑了起来，他陡然贴上我的唇，我这才发觉上了当…… 我们有多久没有吻过？我们有多久没有相偎相依过？我们曾经用漫长的两年逃离这段感情，到头来还是忍不住要靠近。世上的道路千千万，上天入地，可哪条都隔绝我通向他，到最后还是没办法说服自己放弃，因为不甘心所以坚持，因为想念所以不顾一切。一个吻，只是一个吻，就让我们所有的伪装所有的抵抗崩溃瓦解，瞬间沉沦在狂风暴雨般的亲昵中，当他抱我进卧室沉入我身体时，我觉得我在流泪，呜咽着，不能自持。 压抑得太久，所以释放得更彻底，太过极致的快乐让我们战栗，曾经熟悉的身体触感是那么的陌生，我们发疯似的寻找着试探着深入着，疼痛像散落的花瓣，在我们汗泪交织的亲昵中缤纷飞扬，因为失却太久，连疼痛也融入了彼此的骨血，不可分离。 也许爱情的本质就是受伤，太弥足珍贵所以才易碎，我们都那么决然地、毫不珍惜地打碎过原本属于我们的美好，哪怕现在只剩了碎片，我们还是不容许失去。你看着我，我守着你，时光就这么凝固在这醇酒般迷醉的眷恋中。真幸福啊…… “说，你爱不爱我！”他将我狠狠地抵到床头，钳住我的手，恶声恶气地问。 我疼痛不已，泪水肆意而泻，“你这浑蛋！”我死死抓住他的肩背，指甲几乎抠进了他的皮肉，大哭着，“我恨你，我不想爱你，你让我太痛苦……” 他俯下身来抱住我，汗津津地贴着我战栗的身体，“对不起，都是我的错。我再也不会让你走开，我明明可以给你幸福，偏偏等这么久……”他喘息着，吻着我的泪水，“我已经等得太久，我等不起了，我不能再放你走，你要好好的待在我身边，一直到我死去。让我记得你的气息，睡到地下去的时候可以准确无误地梦见你，在另一个世界我们又从头开始认识，从陌生到熟悉，然后相爱，再也不分开。” “墨池……” 当生活重新绽放笑颜，失而复得的欣喜常让我有种不真实的恍惚感。我们好似又回到了从前，可即使是从前，我们也未曾这么融洽过。当清晨的阳光慢慢地洒进屋顶的玻璃花房中时，我正在给兰花培土，耿墨池在边上喝咖啡看报，兰花的幽香和咖啡的浓香弥漫在空气里，仿佛连花叶间的阳光都变得跳跃了，闪闪烁烁，迷人眼。 我问耿墨池：“你为什么住这么高的楼啊，我记得你以前不喜欢住高楼的。”他漫不经心地翻过一页报纸，并不看我，半晌才说：“因为可以看见你。” 我蹲在花丛中，像个辛勤的园丁，回头一笑，“你以前没这么煽情的。” “因为我看了《还珠格格》。” 我大笑，“不可能！” “骗你干什么，有段时间我天天看，看到自己想吐了还看。”他说得很认真，一本正经的样子不像是拿我寻开心。 "why?" “因为那个小燕子蛮像你的。” "You're talking nonsense!" “我怎么胡说了，那丫头疯疯癫癫，没头没脑没文化，不像你像谁？” 我嗤之以鼻，“别以为你很有文化似的，居然用《两只老虎》做手机铃声，也不怕让人笑掉大牙，还亏你是搞音乐的。” 耿墨池放下报纸，挑眉道：“难道我跟你不是两只老虎吗？” 我愣了下，恍然大悟，笑得花枝乱颤，“没错啊，我们就是两只老虎，可是你从来没怕过我啊，我可是母老虎哦。” 耿墨池不接话，凝视我片刻，忽然问：“对了，你有没有护照？” “护照？有啊，你问这个干吗？” “过阵子我想带你去国外度假，你愿意去吗？” "Where are you going?" “巴黎。”他踱到我身边，扯我起来，搂着我的肩膀说，“现在这个季节过去是最美的，我们好好在那边待段时间，你看如何？” “可是我的工作怎么办，我请不到这么长的假呀。” “你怎么老惦记你的工作？是工作重要还是我重要？我不会再让你离开的，一刻都不行！”他又开始蛮横不讲理了。 “那我考虑下吧。”我摸清了他的底子，争执的时候尽可能不跟他较劲。 他还是显得有些不耐烦，“不用考虑了，你赶紧把户口本和护照拿来，快到国庆了，出国旅游的人很多，办签证很麻烦的。” 国庆节过后不久就是中秋节，耿墨池带我到外面吃饭，不过并没有去餐厅或酒楼，而是载着我驶入一条陌生的林荫道，整条路清静幽雅，有很宽的人行道和很粗大的行道树。 “这是哪儿？”我张望着问。 “是我小时候住过的地方，家里的一处老房子。”说着他已将车停到了一处威严肃穆的褚红色镂花铁门前。“我母亲从国外回来了，她想见你。”他帮我打开车门时说。 我一下车就看到铁门边的墙上挂着块精致的木牌，上面刻着“墨园”两个字。房子是那种旧时代典型的尖顶小洋房，有三层，红色的外墙，屋顶上还有个烟囱，窗户也是圆拱形的，二楼和三楼都有褚红色半圆形镂花铁栏阳台，或红或白的菊花开满阳台，一进院子就闻到了阵阵清香。 坦白讲这次耿墨池带我见他的母亲更是让我感到非常意外，按传统的说法就是见家长了，我既兴奋又紧张，责怪耿墨池应该早告诉我，结果他说，“算了吧，我受不了你太正经。” “起码我可以换件得体的衣服，化点儿淡妆吧，这也算是对伯母的尊重啊。” 耿墨池鄙夷地瞥了眼我，“我宁愿看兔子也不愿意看熊猫！” 说起这事我就难堪得要死，上次耿墨池带我去参加他圈内一个朋友的生日晚宴，他是从工作室直接去的，然后派司机来接我，电话里特意交代我要把自己收拾下，于是我就赶时髦化了个烟熏妆去赴会，可是我化妆的技巧实在太烂，一进场就引来那些人的哄笑，原来我的烟熏妆晕开后成了活脱脱的熊猫。我都不知道怎么形容耿墨池当时看着我的那样子，恨不得拍死我。 出门前他又说起这事，我嘀咕道：“熊猫是国宝好不好。” 他对着我的后脑勺就是一下，“就你，活宝还差不多！” 进了门，耿墨池的母亲在客厅中已等候多时。我瞪着沙发上那个端坐的美妇人惊讶得半天说不出话，那就是他的母亲？怎么那么年轻，看上去四十岁还不到呢！ 她穿了件裁剪得体的白色连身裙，外面罩了件粉紫色羊毛开衫，高雅端庄的气质显露无遗。她并没有留中年妇女惯有的短发，而是一头乌黑的卷发顺着肩膀垂至胸前，尤其那张脸，肤白如雪，眉眼如画，淡紫色口红跟她身上那件同色毛衫配得天衣无缝。她姿态优雅地端坐在沙发上，笑意盈盈地看着呆若木鸡的我，朝我点点头，示意我坐到她对面。 我局促地坐下，紧张得头都不敢抬。耿墨池在我旁边的沙发上坐下，我偷偷看他们母子，那种优雅和高贵显然是与生俱来的，是从骨子里散发出来的，我庆幸自己没有化妆，不然会更加不自在。这时一个满头白发的老用人从客厅的一侧走出来，一路碎步，轻手轻脚地来到沙发边给我和耿墨池上茶，“小姐，请喝茶。” 我点点头，连谢谢也没说，端起茶就要喝。 “很烫，等会儿。”耿墨池冷不丁在旁边提醒道。他不说还好，一说就吓我一跳，手一抖，滚烫的茶水泼了出来，烫得我差点儿把杯子摔地上。 “你看你，就是这么毛手毛脚……”耿墨池责怪道。 “没烫着吧？”耿母忙站了起来，走过来拉起我的手看，“还好，不是很要紧。”说着又吩咐老用人，“刘妈，快拿冷毛巾来。” 我感激地看着她，一股淡淡的幽香，从她的身上散发出来，母性的光环和那香气相得益彰，让人从心底被软化。 “你年纪不大吧？”耿母笑着问，坐到了我身边，慈爱地抚摸了一下我乱糟糟的头发。 “我……二十八了。”我还是很紧张，说话也不利索。 耿母笑了起来，“在国外，没有哪个女孩子会主动说出自己的年龄呢。” “妈，她就这个样子，你别见笑。”耿墨池扫我一眼，很无奈的样子，好像我很丢他的脸。 “怎么会呢，我很喜欢，她一进来我就很喜欢，”耿母仔细地打量我，忽然像发现什么奇珍异宝似的说，“墨池啊，你不觉得你的这个女朋友很像安妮吗，不是长得像，是这气质像……” “安妮是谁？”我好奇地问。 “哦，是我女儿，墨池的妹妹。”耿母解释道，目光始终停留在我身上。 晚饭的时候，耿母还是一直在打量我，仍然是笑意盈盈。 “我现在明白了，墨池为什么会这么喜欢你。”耿母忽然说。 "why?" “他自己心里清楚。”耿母把目光转向耿墨池，眼底忽然流露出一种我看不懂的忧伤和怜爱。我也看着他，不知道他心里清楚什么，事实上他心里想什么我又什么时候明白过？ “妈，别乱说。”耿墨池面露不快，从容不迫地吃着盘中的食物，根本不正眼看我。他在掩饰着什么，我感觉得到。 吃过晚饭，耿母拉我到她的房间说话。她的房间有着跟她身上一样好闻的味道，房间里纤尘不染，白色地毯，白色落地纱帘，梳妆台上的古董花瓶里插着新鲜的菊花，是我最喜欢的菊花香。 “你跟墨池认识多久了？”耿母牵我坐到床边问。 我想了想，说：“三年吧。” 耿母叹口气，脸色忽然变得凝重起来，“这么多年了，我从没见过他对一个女人像对你这么认真过，就是叶莎，也抵不上你一半啊。” 我没吭声，等着她继续说。 “墨池这孩子脾气很倔，也很傲气，跟他去世的父亲一样。所以他从小就很孤僻，待人处事都很独断，不喜欢听从别人的意志，在感情上也是这样，一旦认准一个人就怎么也放不下。他是我唯一的儿子，我了解他，两年前我就从他嘴里听说了你，当时也没太在意，后来他没再提起过我也就把这事给忘了，但他的情绪一直很不好，整个人郁郁寡欢，身体也弄得很差……开始我不知道为什么，后来他去新西兰看我，偶然一次在他的枕头下看见了你的照片，我一下子就全明白了，他是因为你才变得心事重重。他放不下你，一直把你的照片带在身边，而跟他共同生活过六年的太太的照片他却从来没带过。我忽然就明白你在他心里的分量……” 我低下头，泪水雾一样地罩住了我的眼珠。 “我对你很好奇，一直在想究竟是个什么样的女孩子让他那么魂牵梦绕，今天见了你之后，我就真的明白了我儿子心里的那份感情。”耿母说到这儿眼眶变得湿润起来，那双虽不再年轻但仍然美丽的眼睛里流露出令人心碎的忧伤，“墨池从小就不是很开心，可能是没有父亲的缘故，他跟周围的人一直都格格不入。他把他全部的感情都倾注在钢琴里，小时候教他弹钢琴原本是想让他有所寄托，排遣一下寂寞，可是事与愿违，钢琴弹得再好荣誉获得再多他还是不开心，跟叶莎结婚的几年里，我也很少见他真正地愉悦过。作为一个母亲，我毕生的愿望并不是期望他成为一个多么伟大的音乐家，而是希望他真诚快乐地生活，别像我，一辈子生活在忧郁里……” “您为什么忧郁呢？”我忽然问了个很愚蠢的问题。 “一言难尽啊，我们上辈人的事，你们这一代人是不会了解的。”耿母看着我直摇头，母亲一样地抚着我的头发说，“答应我，考儿，留在墨池身边吧，我看出来了，只有你才能让他真正的快乐。也许他的脾气不那么好相处，但他的心里有你啊……可能你觉得我很自私，为了儿子不顾别人的感受，可我是一个母亲，一个很无助的母亲，很多事情你都不了解，他对我有多重要……” 回到卧室的时候，耿墨池正靠在床头看书，柔和的灯光让他的脸显出异样的安详和温柔。我猫儿似的趴在他怀里，靠着他说：“墨池，你为什么会带我来见你妈妈呀？” “你说呢？”他没抬头，眼睛盯着书本。 “这次我没给你丢脸吧？” “你都是没脸的人，哪有脸丢。” “讨厌！”我掐他。他捉住我的手，放下书，看着我说：“你不觉得这样很好吗？我们都应该真正融入彼此的生活，两个人真的要相守，不是单纯的住一起做做爱这么简单。以前我没有考虑到这点，总觉得恋爱就是两个人在一起，与世隔绝，不被外界打搅，现在我明白爱情是建立在生活的基础上的，脱离了生活的爱情很不靠谱，所以我希望你能尽快地融入我的生活，不仅成为我生活的一部分，也希望是我家庭的一分子。” “那好，我也带你见我的家人，只是……”我有些为难地瞅着他，“我爸妈都没什么文化，像你这样的文化人我不知道他们接不接受，你可要有心理准备。”事实上，我妈一直很忌讳我跟耿墨池扯在一起，一听说我来了上海就很紧张，隔三岔五地打电话试探，让我烦