Chapter 16 Chapter fifteen

After dinner, Qing Jiang went into the study.This is a small room with only about five square meters, but it is a precious space for him to be alone at home.Fortunately, there was not another child, otherwise this place would have to be given up sooner or later. There is also a laptop in this room.Qing Jiang starts up the computer and enters "NON-SUGRA LIFE" - the blog of Saisei Amakasu. Blog posts are updated on a weekly basis.Each article is very long, maybe it was drafted and uploaded after several rounds of deliberation.Apart from those scene descriptions with a sense of urgency, the article itself is relatively calm.

In the university office, Qingjiang reads the passage where Amakasu Saisao left the police station lamenting after listening to the detective.Thinking of his spiritual trauma, Qing Jiang also felt oppressed and out of breath.He hesitated whether to read on, not knowing what kind of tragedy was waiting for him, and finally decided to go home and read it.After all, the title of the next one is "A Glimpse of Hope, Then Despair".If the story in the article is more tragic than expected, he worries that he will not even have the strength to go home.It was a long way from the university to home, and the tram was extremely crowded.

After taking a deep breath, Qing Jiang continued to read. "After seeing the remains of Yukako and Moe, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to think about anything. Someone mentioned to me about the wake and funeral, but I didn't listen to a word. No matter what I do, I can't let them survived. "I want to die. I want to die right now. How should I die? I still remember that the criminal police said that suicide with hydrogen sulfide will harm others, so don't think about it. I walked and looked for tall buildings, just thinking about it Jumping down. But it is still possible to cause trouble to others. Let’s hang ourselves. Thinking of this, I began to seriously think about where in the house I could implement this plan.

"In the end, no action was taken because of Qianren. The twelve-year-old eldest boy was still in the intensive treatment room. He was on the third floor at the time, which saved his life. Hydrogen sulfide basically flows downward, and Moe E's room is on the second floor. Our husband and wife's room is also on the second floor. Moe died in his own room, and Yukako fell down in the corridor. It is speculated that he died of exhaustion on the way to his daughter's room after realizing something was wrong. . "The rescue of Qianren lasted for dozens of hours. I hope from the bottom of my heart that he can be saved and regain consciousness. I even feel that as long as he can wake up, my own life doesn't matter. He is my only one. Pillar of mind.

"On the night of the second day after the incident, I was finally able to ask Qianren's attending physician for details. "'In short, the situation has stabilized.' "The doctor's words made me feel relieved. I was always afraid of losing my humble self like this. "'Has he regained consciousness?' "My question embarrassed the doctor. "'So, not yet?' "I changed the way I asked the question. The doctor replied with a determined expression: 'Mr. Amakasu, your son's life has been saved, but please be mentally prepared. You will no longer see your former son.'

"'What does that mean?' "'That... you'll find out when you see it.' "'Then please let me see him, please let me see him at once!' "I clung to the doctor, screaming at the top of my lungs. "A few minutes later, I saw my son in the intensive treatment room. At that moment, a shock that was completely different from seeing the dead bodies of Yukako and Moe pierced through me. "There are many tubes and wires wrapped around Qianren's body, which are connected to various instruments, and he has completely become a part of the instrument.

"His eyes were opened a crack but he couldn't see clearly. I called his name and he didn't respond. "'Although he was using an artificial respirator, he was breathing on his own,' said the doctor. "I can only take that as a relief. "What's going on? Is the current state temporary and will improve after a period of time? Is it possible for him to regain consciousness? "This glimmer of hope was the only thing I could rely on, but the doctor made a desperate announcement. "He said, I'm afraid it will be like this for the rest of my life.

"When I came back to my senses, I was sitting on the ground and couldn't even stand up. The floor was splashed with water droplets. It took me a while to realize that it was my own tears." Fortunately, I didn't finish my studies at school, Qing Jiang thought. His wife and daughter died, and the only saved son became a vegetable.Even he could not bear to see such a tragedy.He could imagine that Amakasu must have lost the support to continue living and just wanted to die like this. Qing Jiang didn't know whether to continue reading.Even if you read it, it will only make your heart heavier.But he still had a premonition: what was written in the blog was somehow related to the accident in the hot spring area and Madoka Habara.

Moreover, the title of the top blog post is "The Miraculously Healed Man".If it is the state of being "part of the instrument", this description must not be used. Has Kento Amakasu recovered from that desperate situation? Qing Jiang has a look at the title of the next blog post: "Determination.A ray of light". This must be read, thinking this way, he moved the mouse. "The days of the walking dead flowed by like water. Thanks to the help of friends, the funeral of the wife and daughter is over, but I have little memory of how the wake and funeral were handled. I should have given a speech before mourning the guests. , but even this, I can't remember. Since I read the manuscript prepared by others, it's no wonder I don't have an impression.

"Visiting Qianren is my homework every day. Although it is a visit, I can't do anything. It is meaningless to bring gifts. No matter how sweet the fruit is, Qianren can't taste it; no matter how beautiful the flowers are, Even so, I still visit my son every day, look at him, talk to him. He doesn't respond, but it's the only thing I can do. "What I'm talking about is almost all the stories of Qianren's childhood. Everyone's blessings when he was born, the first family trip, the kindergarten sports meeting, Qiwusan—— "But after a while, even that couldn't be done. The story gradually dried up. I had to repeat the same story, and gradually, even this became hollow.

"I don't know anything about the recent Qianren. What kind of friends he made in school, what games he usually plays, what he likes to eat and what he doesn't like to eat, what he wants to do in the future, I have no idea. When I think about it, I can’t blame anyone else. I haven’t had a Gu family for several years. All the housework is left to Yukako, and I devote myself to movies. I’m even proud of this way of life. I’m so stupid. "Even my wife, Yukako, how sure can I be? When was the last time I chatted with her? I can't even tell. Troubled, but I don’t know when, this kind of communication disappeared. It shouldn’t be because there is nothing to talk about, and there is no trouble. It must be that I have given up on my husband who has no family in his eyes, and even if he has difficulties, he will seek solutions by himself Solution? Or, it must be discussed with others. "It's the same with my wife, let alone my daughter Moe. To be honest, I don't even know which high school she went to and what kind of uniform she wore. Her high school uniform, I just wore it at the funeral. I saw it once. It was worn by her classmates. The girls in the dance department told me that Moe also joined the dance department. I have never seen Moe dance. It is the first time I know that she likes to dance. "Mr. Interpol asked me if I had any clues about the motive of suicide. I couldn't answer it, not because my mind was confused, but because I didn't know Moe and couldn't answer. "Thinking of this, I finally realized that I didn't lose my family because of this incident. Long ago, my family members had gone to a place that I couldn't reach. And it was none other than me who caused all this. The incident After the incident, I burst into tears countless times, but perhaps, I didn't even have the right to cry. "What should I do in the future? My wife and daughter are dead, and my son is unconscious. Is there nothing I can do? "After thinking about it, I have come to a conclusion. I want to get my family back. I can no longer live with them, but I can get back every day I spend with my family. "I want to get to know Yukako, Moe and Kento. What kind of people are they? My most precious family members, what kind of life path have they gone through? "Regarding the reasons for Moe's suicide, the police have conducted a large number of investigations. In particular, they have conducted many inquiries about relevant school personnel. Because in the suicide incident of middle school students, the first thing to suspect is whether the students have been bullied at school. But the investigation It is impossible to confirm the existence of bullying. The police also investigated Moe's mobile phone, but still found no clues related to suicide. "'Perhaps she has unmentionable troubles.' "The police officer in charge of this matter said this to me when he returned Moe's relics. From his tone, I heard that they intend to end the investigation of the suicide motive. They are very busy. For this kind of suspect death, I don't want to spend too much time on incidents that are not to be prosecuted. "But for me, this is just the beginning. I want to know the reason for Moe's suicide anyway, and I want to know about Yukako and Kento. "I went to many places and asked many people. I called one by one according to the address book, and as soon as I found a friend who was close to Yukako, I went to visit. In order to ask about Moe, I also went to Moe's School, waiting outside the school gate for the end of the dance club practice. I went back and forth in the football club Kento belongs to who is the best friend with him, and found a goalkeeper named Kawakami. Of course, I also asked Kawakami-kun. "I must have caused them a lot of trouble. After all, once I got caught, it was not so easy to get rid of. Sometimes, I even chatted with them for almost two hours. However, no one Showed a look of disgust. "'Tell me about my wife, please.' "'Can you tell me about Moe?' "'I want you to tell me what kind of fellow Kenjin is.' "After listening to my request, everyone readily agreed, and told me many things within the time limit. The reason why it went so smoothly was that at first, I felt that they were sympathizing with me and pity me for the unfortunate A middle-aged man who lost a family member in the incident. But once, when Moe’s classmate was talking to me about Moe, she burst into tears. When she began to confide in the sadness of losing her friend, I realized that I was very wrong. wrong. "They are not helping me. They are not willing to help after listening to my words. It is just because they still remember Yukako, Moe and Qianren in their hearts and want to talk about them. For them, this is also a kind of memorial. "My heart gradually warmed up. "They are loved. My family members are loved and cherished by everyone. Although they are not outstanding, have no special talents, and no extraordinary wisdom, there are still many people around them who love them. "I am determined to meet more people. I don't know how long it will take, but I want to hear more until the image of the three of them becomes vivid in my mind. "In this way, when I finally took the first step, Qianren's hospital also made new progress. "When the attending physician was talking to me, he made such a suggestion. "He asked me if I should send Qianren to the Neurosurgery Department of the Affiliated Hospital of Kaiming University. Regarding the reason, the doctor said a lot of difficult words, which are roughly as follows: 1. It has been determined that although Qianren is in a vegetative state, The brain damage is not serious. It's just that the damage site is in an unknown area, and the hospital where he is currently hospitalized can only do so far. "Second, the Neurosurgery Department of the Affiliated Hospital of Kaiming University has treated several extremely special brain-injured patients, and there are many precedents of vegetative resuscitation. "Third, especially Dr. Habara Zentaro, he is the first person to study the regeneration of brain nerve cells, and has created several epoch-making diagnostic models. "After listening to these words, I couldn't believe my ears. It is still possible for Qianren to get rid of the current state. It's like finding a glimmer of hope in the dark, although the faint light spot is smaller than the tip of a needle, But after all, it is indeed light. "The doctor added: 'It's just that the cost will be very high.' "I shook my head. Money is something outside of me. Fortunately, Yu Jiazi left me an asset, and her life insurance was also allocated. I was even ready to go bankrupt. The key is whether Qianren can really recover ? I asked the doctor, he just said 'don't know'. "'I'm just telling you this as a possibility and making no guarantees.' "I find that the main thing is that they think this case is too difficult and want to move it out early. But, for whatever reason, even if the probability is 1%, no, 0.1%, no, 0.01%, or even infinite It's close to 0%. As long as there is a little possibility, I can't help but take a gamble. "After the interview, I went to Qianren's ward as usual. He was still staring at the void with unfocused eyes. I looked into his eyes and said, 'Qianren, bet a miracle will happen.' "At the same time, it occurred to me that it seemed like a good choice to record my current mood." Qing Jiang looked at the computer screen and sighed. So it was, he finally figured it out.It was at this time that I thought of starting a blog. Even so, Qing Jiang exclaimed, how strong is this young man with sweet meat?Although he kept belittling himself, it didn't look like that at all.His image of catching a glimmer of light in despair and struggling to stand up made Qing Jiang greatly admired. But-- The names that appear in this article are impossible for Qingjiang to miss.Dr. Zentaro Habara, Department of Neurosurgery, Affiliated Hospital of Kaimei University.The first person to study the regeneration of brain nerve cells. Habara, he didn't know if this surname was rare, but if it was Suzuki, Tanaka, Sato, etc., it would be a different matter.It couldn't have been just a coincidence. Moreover, Madoka Habara said that his father was a doctor by profession, so I am afraid that this person is right.In other words, she is related to Amakasu Saisei. The title of the next blog post is "Began to Pray Everyday". After reading it, I talked about the hard work that accompanied the transfer, the investigation of the achievements of the Neurosurgery Department of the Affiliated Hospital of Kaiming University, and the situation of Qianren undergoing various examinations after the transfer. .Expressed deeply every word and every sentence, Amakasu Saisheng regarded this as the last chance.At the same time, he wrote: "Don't dare to expect too much. The so-called miracle can't happen once in 10,000 times. It is better than anything else if you can save your life. The Neurosurgery Department of the Kaimei University Hospital has practical results, and Dr. Habara is also called a genius. But a genius is not a god. No, gods are sometimes helpless. No matter what the diagnosis is , I will never be discouraged. Because, I have nothing to lose." It was finally time for Habara Habara's diagnosis, titled "A Surprising Fact." "Dr. Habara is a person who can't express emotions. He has been like this since the first time we met. His face is straight, his eyes are not serious, and his lips are quietly closed into a line when he is silent. I think, this Perhaps it is to prevent patients from having high expectations. "'The conclusion came out that this is a very rare case. I have treated many patients, but this is the first time I have encountered such a case. Therefore, it is difficult to say what kind of treatment method will be effective.' "Sure enough. I tried my best to suppress the disappointment in my heart. "'It's hopeless, isn't it? This is the only way for Qianren to live his whole life.' "I thought he would say 'yes'. I don't know what kind of strange psychology. I just hope that I can get the failure announcement earlier. The anticipation and disappointment have been repeated, and my heart has been exhausted. "But Dr. Habara didn't say that. "'Mr. Amakasu, I only said that this is a very rare case, but I didn't say that he is hopeless. Of course, I can't guarantee that he will be revived.' "I didn't understand what he meant, so I didn't speak. The doctor explained to me calmly. He tried to choose easy-to-understand language to talk about those difficult concepts, so that a layman like me can understand the general idea. "The doctor said that Qianren's brain is basically normal, only a certain area has been damaged, causing him to be in a vegetative state. This damaged area is an unknown part that modern brain medicine cannot explain. Why this symptom occurs? It's a mystery, what changes are happening in Qianren's brain now is still unclear. "'The cause is indeed hydrogen sulfide poisoning. Oxygen cannot be supplied to the brain, causing some brain cells to die. But the damage site is completely different from others. Why this happens is not clear. Maybe it's just a coincidence, maybe it's because Qian Renjun was born physique. In any case, the damage is so small that it is tantamount to a miracle.' "I have an aversion to the word miracle, it's a word you use when something good happens. "'Miracle? What is a miracle? I don't know what to say medically, but the reality is my son still hasn't regained consciousness, has he? Isn't he still in a vegetative state?' "My tone was a little impatient. "The doctor looked at me and said, 'Mr. Amakasu, when did I say that your son is unconscious?' "I couldn't understand it right away. "'What do you mean?' "'I am afraid that Mr. Qianren is conscious. It is even possible to hear us.' "'How is this possible……' "I hadn't thought about that possibility at all. "'The hospital didn't mention it once...It is said that when he was called, there was no change in brain waves.' "'Because only our school uses a brain function analysis device that can detect changes at the molecular level. Although the signal is very weak, it is indeed sent by Qian Renjun. He may be in a state similar to half asleep, but he has a protective consciousness. brain cells are still functioning.' "The doctor's words were the first gospel I heard after the incident. I couldn't believe it for a moment, as if I was dreaming. "But the next moment, I thought of another thing. "Even though you are conscious, you can't move or speak. How hard is it to live like this? In this case, it would be better to be happy without consciousness. "For my question, the doctor said that it is hard to say anything now. "'Although he is conscious, it is not clear to what extent. I don't know if he can feel the pain. In short, what should be considered now is how to save him.' "'Is there any help?' "'I don't know. As I said just now, I haven't seen a similar case so far. I can only cross the river by feeling the stones and taking one step at a time.' "Please, please, I bow my head. "'It doesn't matter how much it costs, anyway, please save me!' "The doctor said it wasn't about the money. "'I have done many cranial nerve regeneration operations, and frankly speaking, the success rate is definitely not high. Moreover, I have said many times, the case of Qian Renjun is something we have never seen before. I don't know How will it develop, maybe there is a possibility of deterioration. Even so, is it okay?" "'That's all right.' I replied immediately. "Where can it get worse? "Then, the doctor explained the contents of the operation to me. This is something difficult to understand. Generally speaking, there are two contents of the operation. The first is to implant stem cells at the damaged site for genetic manipulation; the second , is to implant electrodes in the brain to conduct special pulses. This makes me feel very uneasy, but the other party is an expert, so I can only leave it to them. I later learned that this is an operation that only Dr. Habara can perform. This is called the 'Habara technique'. "After talking to the doctor, I went to visit Qianren. I held his hand and burst into tears thinking of what he might have said consciously. The doctor said he might even be able to hear me, and I tried to call his name, but my throat choked up. Word." Fortunately, I read the top blog post first, Qing Jiang thought.If you didn't read that one and started reading it in reverse chronological order, you would definitely be wondering whether the "Habara technique" would succeed or not.Zhiding Bo Wenming clearly stated that Qian Ren has recovered, and it seems that the operation went well. However, a sentence in the top blog post still made him feel uneasy. "Even Kenren, who miraculously recovered, is a thing of the past to me. My son is not Kenren now, just as I am not his father to Kenren." What's going on here?Is it a metaphor for the collapse of the father-son relationship? Anyway, the only way to know is to look down. Bowen uses delicate brushstrokes to describe Amakasu's mental state of anxiety and expectation intertwined with each other as the operation approaches.All of a sudden, I decided to take a gamble, but all of a sudden, I lost all hope.It's no wonder, Qing Jiang thought, if it was him, he would definitely run away. The title of the next article surprised him a bit: Why does "Tornado..." mention tornado here? An accident was written in the article.Just when Kento Amakasu was about to undergo surgery, Hahara Hahara's wife died suddenly.The reason was a tornado.During the consecutive holidays in early November, she took her daughter back to her natal home in Hokkaido, and suddenly encountered a tornado, was buried under the collapsed rubble, and unfortunately died. Daughter, is Madoka Habara, right?Was she also hit by a tornado?Did she witness her mother's death? Saio Amakasu went on to write: "After knowing this, I was shocked. It was such a tragic experience. Although my daughter was rescued safely, I felt extremely uncomfortable when I thought of Dr. Habara who lost his beloved wife. But at the same time, there was also a particularly selfish I heard that the doctor originally wanted to go to Hokkaido together, but the trip was canceled because of Qianren’s surgery. Fortunately, the doctor didn’t go with him. I’m still worried that Qianren’s surgery will be suspended? Maybe Will it be postponed indefinitely until the doctor's mental state improves? Of course, I didn't say these words." It's not his fault, Qing Jiang thought.What he cared about was whether his son could get out of the vegetative state, and it was understandable to worry about the operation.Moreover, tornadoes are natural disasters, which can only be attributed to bad luck, and they have no choice but to accept them. Read on, and it appears the surgery went ahead as scheduled.Habara Sentaro said to Amakasu Saio: "The dead are gone, and my job is to help those who are in the abyss of death." It's so noble, Qing Jiang muttered to the computer. The next blog post finally deals with the day of surgery.However, Saio Amakasu didn't know what happened in the operating room, he just kept describing how he prayed for the success of the operation. The operation ended safely.However, that doesn't mean you're done.Amakasu Saio wrote: "When the brain nerve cells regenerated and Kento opened his eyes, it was considered an initial success." From here on, the blog post is no longer a record of the past, but has become a daily real-time diary.The dates in the article match those of the blog post. While guarding Qianren, Saisheng Amakasu continued to dig out the stories of his wife and children during their lifetime.He was shocked, grateful, and disappointed every time he touched those fragments that he knew nothing about.Disappointment basically includes dislike of oneself. "As a father, I don't know this, I really feel ashamed." Such sentences appear frequently in the text. His wife, Yukako, is the daughter of a bourgeoisie and owns several properties. Even if she is not financially dependent on her husband, she will not live very hard.She spoke highly of Amakasu, a filmmaker, and believed that it was her duty to be a good wife and help her husband's career to a higher level, let alone take care of a pair of children. Moe and Kento also expressed their understanding of Amakasu Saisei's lifestyle.Qianren respected his father especially, and watched the movies his father made over and over again.He also told his friends that he hoped that he would also be able to engage in film-related work in the future. "I don't know anything, what a ignorance. I don't know, in order to make me feel comfortable whenever I come back, Yukako will always keep my favorite food and drinks at home; I don't know, in order to organize my huge collection of movie CDs , Yu Jiazi entered the information one by one into the computer and compiled them into a list; I don’t know, for my father who is always afraid of the cold and has stiff fingers in winter, Moe once knitted a pair of gloves; I don’t know, Moe also wove a pair of gloves. Gloves and stockings for dancing practice; I don’t know, Hyunjin found out my old guitar and practiced my movie episodes; all I know is that on my birthday, he suddenly played This song, accompanied by Moe's singing, and the little scheme of the siblings gave me a big surprise. I'm really, really stupid and stupid." The blog post conveys deep regret. It is great to know how much my family admires me, but two of them are dead, and the future of one is uncertain, but only bitterness remains. "I think if all I knew was that they hated me, maybe it would be a little easier now." After a few similar articles, a blog post called .Qing Jiang read with a certain premonition.His hunch was correct, the text said, Qianren was beginning to show signs of recovery. "Dr. Habara called suddenly, which made me panic, thinking that Kento's condition had deteriorated. However, that didn't seem to be the case, the doctor's voice was very light. "'Anyway, please come to the hospital.' "That's all the Doctor said. "I rushed to the hospital immediately. The doctor is in Qianren's ward. "'See.' "The doctor said, and began to operate the monitor next to it. A CG image of the brain appeared on it. Qianren's head was wearing a hood with many electrodes attached. "Then, the doctor whispered 'football' into Qianren's ear. The image on the monitor changed, and part of the brain turned red. "Then the doctor said 'curry rice'. This time it was another part of the brain that turned red. "What does that mean?" I asked. "'I built a way for him to say something. When imagining movement and imagining food, different parts of the brain are used. I took advantage of that.' "The doctor said to Qianren again: 'Are you a boy or a girl? If it's a boy, it's football; if it's a girl, it's curry rice.' "Then, something that surprised me happened. The place where I imagined the football turned red." "'Let me ask your age. You are ten years old, aren't you? If yes, it's football, if no, it's curry.' "The answer to this question is 'curry rice', which means 'no'. "'Are you eleven years old?' "This is also 'curry rice'. "'Are you twelve years old?' "I held my breath and stared at the monitor. The answer that came up was 'football'. "Correctly speaking, Qianren is thirteen years old now. However, after an accident, if you lose your sense of time, it is understandable to say 'yes' to 'twelve years old'. "Me and the doctor looked at each other. "'The son's brain is active. After hearing my voice, he can express himself clearly. It's just that he can't express it with his body.' "The doctor's words brought tears to my eyes. I thought I would never be able to communicate with my son. "I walked up to Qianren and called out: 'Do you know who I am? Can you hear my voice? If you do, it's football.' "I prayed and looked at the monitor, but it was neither 'soccer' nor 'curry rice'. "'What's the matter? It's me. I'm Daddy. Don't you remember?' "But the result remains the same. "'I've asked a few times, but he doesn't seem to be able to answer questions about relationships. In fact, he doesn't even remember his own name.' "I was stunned. "'Even the name...' "'Don't worry, first of all, wait for Qianren-jun to express himself with body language.' "'Will there be such a day?' "'It will. His brain is changing every day, but even if he can express his meaning, whether he can speak, I'm not sure. Maybe he can move his fingertips a little bit. Please be prepared for this mentality Prepare. In any case, the brain nerve cells are indeed being regenerated, and in time, they will definitely be better than today." "I nodded and said 'Got it'. It's enough to move my fingertips, I thought. "From this day on, the hope that was originally indifferent suddenly became real. Dr. Habara said that recovery will take a long time, and I can afford the time. No matter a few years or decades, I will wait. "However, Qianren's condition improved faster than I expected. "The next miracle happened just one month later." The article ends with a meaningful sentence, but the following should not be any bad news. The above content, in addition to writing about the joy of Amakasu, also reflects the superb medical skills of Habara Zentaro.Successfully communicated with Qianren in a vegetative state.Soccer and curry rice - thank goodness he could figure out such a way. The title of the next one is "The Blink of Life, and...".A wave of anticipation surged in Qing Jiang's heart. "Dr. Habara called me to the hospital again. In the ward, Kento stood up and sat on the head of the bed. He didn't wear the hood full of electrodes on his head. "The doctor smiled and said: 'Please look into Qianren's eyes carefully.' Then he asked Qianren: 'Can you hear me?' "Qian Ren blinked twice. "The doctor looked back at me. "'He means, yes. No means blinking three times. This is a joint decision between Qian Renjun and me.' "My heart was beating wildly. "'Does his eyelid move as he pleases?' "Qianren's eyes are still blinking, I think it's just a purely physiological phenomenon. "'Okay. He can finally control some parts of his body. And...' "The doctor said, stretched out his index finger and placed it in front of Qianren, and slowly moved it left and right. Qianren's black eyes also moved with the finger. "'His eyeballs can also move. Qianren can see things. He is undoubtedly recovering quickly, which is really shocking. While the nerve cells in the brain are repairing, the body functions are also recovering, and the recovery speed is much faster than mine. expectations.' "The doctor's words are like an oracle to me. "I came to Qianren and looked at him. "'Humble, can you hear me. I'm Papa, do you see me? Can you see Papa's face?' "Qianren's eyelids moved, once, twice, three times, and then the fourth time... "I looked at the doctor and asked: 'What does this mean?' "'Four times means not knowing. It seems that Qian Renjun still doesn't know who he is.' "'That's it.' "I was a little disappointed, but shook my head immediately. I should be happy that Qianren recovered so quickly. "In the evening, I went for a drink to celebrate. I haven't had a drink since that harrowing incident and this time, for the first time, I tasted the fullness of the wine." Qingjiang continued to read, and the speed of Qianren's recovery is amazing, as can be seen from the title of the blog post. "The Jaw Moves Gently", "Expression? ", "Liquid Food", "Signals from Fingertips", lined up in a row.Judging from the date of writing, these huge changes occurred in only a few weeks. According to the blog post, because I can communicate with him, I placed the things he wanted around according to Qianren's wishes, which promoted the activity of his brain and further improved his condition.Habara Zentaro himself was surprised by the speed of recovery. Eight months after the operation, Qianren regained his mood and could eat liquid food.Although still unable to make a sound, the lips can move.Saio Amakasu wrote: "It's as if I want to talk." After special rehabilitation guidance, Qianren's hand and foot muscles can also move a little bit.At this stage, he was able to operate the computer with the tweaked interface.The title of the blog post recording the situation at that time was "Who Am I?" ". "Since the night before, I haven't slept much. Finally, I can talk to Qianren. So far, I have unilaterally asked questions and orders, but since then, I can hear what Qianren means and can understand His thoughts are gone. "But with anticipation comes fear. "More than a year has passed since the incident. What kind of thoughts will Qianren have during this incident? The pain must be unimaginable to me. The thought of facing all this makes me feel terrified, but I cannot escape .I had to face it. "However, what worries me is that Qianren seems to have lost his memory. He has forgotten who he is and he has forgotten me. "I went to the hospital with anticipation and awareness. "In the ward, Qianren propped up his upper body and leaned on the bed, facing the computer. There is a special device on his right hand. With just a slight movement of his fingertips, the device can capture the signal from the nerve and move the mouse. "Good morning, I said hello to Qianren. He looked at me and blinked twice. That's his way of saying hello. After that happened, just like that, it was like a dream. "'Just say whatever you want,' said Dr. Habara. "I was a little nervous, in fact, I had already decided what to say to Qianren in the first place. "'What would you like to hear from me?' I asked. “谦人没有任何反应。我以为他没听清，就又重复了一遍。这时，鼠标忽然动了起来，点击着微型键盘。 “谦人的第一条信息是：（我是谁？） “这句话让我一阵心痛。他果然还没有恢复记忆啊。 “'谦人。甘粕谦人。汉字是这么写的。' “我在准备好的便笺上写下他的名字，给他看。谦人盯着那几个字，在电脑上写道：（你是谁？） “虽然很久没能和儿子说话了，但我还是悲从中来。不过，现在不是叹息的时候。谦人一定比我更辛苦啊。 “'我是爸爸。是你的父亲。名字叫甘粕才生。我是拍电影的，你知道电影吧？' “最近谦人逐渐有了表情，但此时他却和人体模型一样，面部僵硬。 “（知道电影。不知道你。） “我挤出一丝笑容。 “'果然是这样啊。那就没办法了。那么，由佳子这个名字呢？还有萌绘这个名字，你知不知道？' “谦人的回答是（不知道）。 “'那，学校的事呢？朋友啦，老师啦，无论是谁，你能想起哪个名字来吗？' “就像寻找救命稻草似的，我问道。 “但谦人在电脑上写的是：（羽原医生、山田小姐、冈本先生。） “山田小姐是负责谦人的护士，冈本先生是负责饮食的。 “'还有吗？比如足球俱乐部里的川上君？他是守门员，和你关系最好啦。他说，等谦人君的意识恢复了，他马上来看你。要不要我把他带来啊？' “谦人花了一点时间来书写答案。最后，他写道：（想停止了。） “'想停止了？什么意思？' “他的回答是：（这种话题，想停止了。） “我发现谦人的身体在微微颤抖。 “羽原博士在后面说：'关于人际关系的问题，就请问到这里吧。' “他的意思大概是，光说些不记得的事，只会给谦人带来痛苦吧。 “我点点头，重又看着谦人。 “'好吧，不谈这个了。聊聊谦人感兴趣的话题吧，对什么感兴趣呢？' “过了一会儿，电脑屏幕上的鼠标动了起来。 “（累了。想休息了。） “我吃了一惊，这才发觉，这几句对话，对谦人而言，已经是非常繁重的劳动了。 “'啊，这样啊。说的也是。不好意思。好了，你休息吧。' “然后，我说了声'谢谢'。 “我望着屏幕，期待谦人也说句（谢谢），但鼠标没有动。看看谦人的脸，他已经闭上了眼睛。” 青江叹着气，微微摇头。 很遗憾，本应值得纪念的父子接触，并不像甘粕才生期待的那样感天动地。可以沟通交流固然是件大喜事，但如果儿子不知道自己是谁，也不认识父亲，那么家庭关系也就谈不上复活。 下面的博文描述了甘粕才生试图唤醒谦人记忆的情形。但谦人仍然没有恢复记忆。他的康复速度越来越快，终于可以发出声音，手脚也能略微动弹了，但是关于过去的事情，却还是一件都想不起来。不，更应该这么说：谦人对自己的过去一点兴趣都没有。 “谦人正走在一段和过去毫不相同的人生路上。他关心的是如何提高劫后余生的自己的能力，看上去，他的目标仅有这一个。他热心复健，只要一有空闲就做发声训练。电脑相关操作更是完美无缺。他会打游戏、浏览网站、享受动画片。半年前想都没想过的场景，正陆续在这间病房里上演。 “'真没想到啊。只能说是奇迹。' “羽原博士看着我，兴奋地说。 “'我诊过几位患有迁延性意识障碍的病人，经过手术康复的例子也不少。不过，没有一位病人能康复到这种程度。检查显示，大脑损伤部分已经几乎全部修复了。我也不知道为什么会这么顺利，这是一起极其宝贵的病例。我从大学获得了一笔经费，打算进行彻底研究。这样也能减轻甘粕先生的金钱负担。您会协助我们的吧？这件事，我已经告诉谦人君了。' “这是自然，我回答。答是这样答了，心中却感到一阵空虚。协助？我能做什么呢？不，大概我什么也不做，就叫做'协助'了吧。 “金钱负担之类的，算不了什么。为了谦人，我原本就抱着即便倾家荡产也在所不惜的打算。只要能换回一个亲人，就算便宜了。 “但是，我能换回我的儿子吗？ “我每次去病房，谦人似乎都很郁闷。虽然没说出来，但我能感觉得到。大概他觉得这个净说些过去的事情，自称是自己父亲的中年男人，是个非常讨厌的家伙吧。 “假如谦人恢复了记忆，我有件事情无论如何都想问问他。那就是萌绘自杀的原因。我去了很多地方，问了很多人，结果还是没有找到答案。所以，只能依靠谦人了。萌绘的秘密，或许只有家人才知道吧。 “可是，谦人甚至连自己是谁都忘了，问他这个也没用。他都不知道自己有个姐姐。 “'我是不是以后最好还是不要来了？'我死了心，问他。 “谦人想了一会儿，答道：（我不知道。无所谓。） “我不由愕然。我努力忍耐着，不让这种心情浮现在脸上。现在的谦人应该已经能够读懂别人的面部表情了。 “'无所谓，是吗——哦，是这样啊。'我装着若无其事地说。 “（对不起。） “看见屏幕上这句话的瞬间，我有了一种季节终结的感觉。” 这是倒数第二篇文章。之后就是置顶的那篇，开头是“打算出去旅游一段时间”。 青江弄清了事情的原委。最后一篇文章里的那句话，“我的儿子不是如今的谦人。在如今的谦人眼里，我也同样不是他的父亲”，意思也终于明白了。 甘粕才生或许觉得，就算自己在儿子身边，也不能为他再做些什么了。重生的谦人将要开始一段新的人生，自己的存在只会妨碍他而已。 这一定是个艰难的抉择。对甘粕才生来说，在某种意义上，这相当于第二次与家人诀别。第一次告别的是妻子和女儿，第二次是告别的是儿子的心。他决定克服这些困难，向着未来迈出步伐。 不知道从那之后，这对父子之间发生了什么。博客就这样结束了。时间又过去了六年，甘粕才生如今在哪里，在做些什么？谦人最后康复到什么程度了呢？ 不，比起这些来—— 最重要的是，博客上写的一系列事情，和最近发生的硫化氢中毒事故有什么关系？乍一读，似乎没有任何关系。但散见的关键词，青江却不能无视。 在温泉区因硫化氢事故身亡的两名死者，都和电影导演甘粕才生有关。甘粕才生的妻女死于硫化氢中毒，儿子被天才医生羽原全太朗所救。医生的女儿羽原圆华正在发生过硫化氢事故的温泉区寻找一个青年—— 不行啊，青江摇摇头。完全弄不明白是怎么回事。无论怎样摆弄这些关键词，也拼不出一个完整的故事。