Chapter 12 Section five

The wine is bitter.Mariko felt a little drunk, and stared at Iguan with hazy eyes. "In any case, please trust Tajima-kun." Iseki repeated this sentence. He had said this sentence several times just now, and Mariko felt that it was saying: "I am Tajima-kun's friend." "You have to blame him. It's too unworthy and too stupid to destroy a happy family that you've finally built for a boring woman, isn't it?" "The reason may be because of that boring woman, but I no longer believe that my husband's love is true." "I understand how you feel, but what I want to say is that if for that boring woman, destroying the happy family that I have finally established is exactly what that woman wants, so—"

"So you want me to be patient?" "You can't say that, because there is something wrong with Mr. Tajima. I want to meet him again and persuade him to break up with that woman. I also hope that you will forgive him. He is an honest man. If he is bad, he will be bad." He is cowardly and easily seduced, so it is not only unfair but also pitiful to place all the blame on him.” Iseki repeated this passage, maybe he was also drunk, he struck a match on the wall to light a cigarette, but he didn't light it once, wasting several matches in vain. "Anyway..." Iseki repeated. "Please forgive Tajima-kun, he is an honest man."

"Stop talking about it!" Mariko said, and Iseki looked a little surprised. "Really? But—" "Come on! Let's dance." Mariko held Jingguan's hand and stood up. She was imagining the day before yesterday, drinking to avoid sentimentality. Needless to say, she knew that drinking would not solve anything, but now she wanted to forget her husband, no, not just her husband, even Kuwahara Yumi also wanted to forget. Jingguan's arm tightly hugged Mariko's body, and Mariko closed her eyes and reveled in the beautiful melody. The three years disappeared in Mariko's mind. In her fantasy, she escaped from reality to three years ago, from Mariko Tajima to Mariko Moroishi. At that time, she believed that love and happiness were linked together.

At that time, she thought that Hongxing's affair and suspicion were just the plot of novels and movies. If possible, she hoped to go back to that time so that she could be locked up with Jing. Escaping from reality and being sentimental are habits that Mariko has developed since she was a child. Even at the age of 27, she still has not changed her personality. From this, it can be clearly seen that she is a person with weak willpower. The habit of keeping a diary, for her, was not an act of reflection but an act of masturbation. Mariko closed her eyes tightly, because she knew that once she opened her eyes, the terrifying real world would appear in front of her. She broke up with Jingguan and went home, and had to meet her husband.

"It's so scary..." Mariko whispered as if she was muttering to herself, being held in Jingguan's arms.