Chapter 11 green leaves

As soon as he touched the pillow, Yuan Ye's exhausted body immediately fell into a deep sleep. Su Qin hugged her knees, sat on the edge of the bed and looked down at him.If it weren't for his occasional nightmarish moans and twitches, sometimes she would almost think he was unconscious.Where did he go this night?How long will he be by his side?After that, what should I do... Su Qin buried her head in her knees in distress.A kind of sadness that wants to cry but has no tears permeates the whole body. It was almost time to go to work, and Su Qin was worried that Yuan Ye was alone at home, so she made a phone call to the hospital and asked for a day's personal leave.In the afternoon, she went out to buy some things, and when she came back, Yuan Ye was already up.When Su Qin saw him, he was still wearing pajamas and pajama pants, only a thin sweater, leaning against the glass window of the living room, staring at the balcony in a daze.

"Why are you standing here in such little clothes?" Su Qin put down the things in her hand: "Has your fever gone? Are you dying?!" Looking out from the floor-to-ceiling glass, the whole city is gray, and a group of gray-black pigeons pass by. Yuan Ye stood there, as if he couldn't hear Su Qin's words. "What are you doing? Are you in a mood again?" Su Qin tried to pull him, but Yuan Ye stepped aside and twitched his elbow.Su Qin was stunned. "Yuan Ye, what's wrong?" Yuan Ye slowly turned his eyes to Su Qin's face, and Su Qin suddenly realized that this was the first time Yuan Ye looked at her directly after returning home.He looked straight at her, as if he wanted to see through her all the time, Su Qin looked at that gaze with fear, but the gaze finally softened, and a look of pain emerged.Yuan Ye turned his eyes away.

"How long...how long can I live?" Yuan Ye finally spoke, with a hoarse and painful voice: "I don't know how I should face you in the remaining days of my life." "You, what did you say?" "What kind of woman are you?" "Yuan Ye, what are you thinking about?" Su Qin took a step forward, trying to touch Yuan Ye's shoulder. At this moment, Yuan Ye raised his eyes and looked at her for a moment: "Did you really work as a prostitute in Shenzhen before?" Su Qin's ears felt as if a thunder had exploded, his whole body was stiff, and his heart stopped beating at that moment.

This sentence came so suddenly, she didn't think to deny it in her desperation, she stared blankly at Yuan Ye as if she was completely dumbfounded.Seeing her instantly pale face, Yuan Ye had already got her answer. It's true, it's all true. Su Qin was not the only one who was deeply shocked at this moment.Yuan Ye took a step back and leaned against the glass, feeling as though his whole body had been drained of strength. "You really pissed off your father and abandoned your husband because of that hooligan?" Su Qin's whole body was shocked, and a layer of water came to his eyes.She bit her lower lip so hard that it turned white.

Yuan Ye said, "Why don't you speak?" The two looked at each other in the twilight light, and for the first time felt that the other's face looked so strange. After a while, Su Qin said, "You...have you met him? What else did he tell you?" Yuan Ye asked back: "What else?" Su Qin suddenly felt a little dizzy, she sat down slowly with the help of the sofa, and was in a daze for a while, the tears finally came down, and she began to sob deeply.Her crying made Yuan Ye's heart soften suddenly.No matter how sad and disappointed he was, at this moment, his heart was indescribably uncomfortable.

"That's why he blackmailed you?" He spoke again with difficulty. Su Qin just cried without saying anything or saying no. "Why didn't you call the police?" Su Qin shook her head desperately: "You can't call the police." Right.In this way, wouldn't her past affairs be made public?If it was another woman, I probably had no choice but to endure it to the death. "Then... the rumors about you and the director of your hospital are also true?" Su Qin wiped away her tears, suddenly turned her heart away, gritted her teeth and said, "Yes, it's true. I couldn't find a suitable job. I heard that my father's former subordinate was the dean of the Second Affiliated Office, so I went to ask for it." Him, having sex with him, he arranged for me to go to the hospital. Anyway, this is what a man wants. "

"Then why are you with me?" Yuan Ye said slowly: "I'm also a silly man who is easy to use, right?" Su Qin closed her eyes.She was asking herself that question too.After getting to know Yuan Ye, she cooks for him every day after get off work, does laundry, measures blood pressure, etc. Her life becomes a very simple purpose, which is to extend the life of this man as much as possible.She could feel Yuan Ye's attachment, she knew that he loved her, and he loved her as much as he longed for life.The desperate him made her feel pitiful, and the eager love made her find the meaning of her own existence.She has no long-term plans for the future, she only knows that if Yuan Ye is still alive, she will accompany him to the end.Later, she couldn't tell whether it was Yuan Ye who needed her, or whether she needed Yuan Ye more.

"That's right." Su Qin said: "Ding Yi emptied me out, and I also gave up the house I lived in. I had no place to live. Then I met you. It's good to have a place to live for a while." "You're talking nonsense!" "Otherwise, why do you say?" Su Qin said stubbornly: "Anyway, I am out to sell it. If you are stupid and leave this house to me, I will make money. I told you at the beginning , I'm not the good woman you imagined, am I?" Yuan Ye said painfully, "You're talking nonsense." "What I said is what you think in your heart." Su Qin wiped her tears and stood up: "In your heart, I am such a self-deprecating woman. Now that you know, I don't think I can do it again. Stay here. I'm leaving now, and you don't have to hide outside and stay away all day and night..."

Su Qin's words were like thorns, piercing into the deepest and softest place in Yuan Ye's heart.Yuan Ye pressed his hand on his chest, and there were bursts of tingling pain in that place.He hated himself for being so weak, he didn't know if it was because of illness or love. Su Qin's expression changed: "Yuan Ye, is your chest pain coming again?" Yuan Ye was panting heavily, cold sweat dripping down his forehead.He heard the sound of something falling to the ground, and it took him a while to realize that he had fallen to the ground, but his consciousness was gradually blurred.

Ding Yi, that bastard!Why, why didn't he kill him sooner? ! Su Qin sat bowed outside the door of the emergency room, her face was flushed from crying, her hands unconsciously grabbed her hair repeatedly, tears were still dripping down her cheeks.She cried and cried, and many, many small memories flooded her mind, recalling the hardships she had suffered in this life, thinking of her father's last sad face, thinking of the unbearable days in Shenzhen, thinking of the people who were being rescued. Yuan Ye, all this is because of Ding Yi.She was sure that she had never hated a person so much, hated him so much, hated that he was still alive in this world, and hated this world with him.

It's not enough for him to trample on her, plunder her, and hurt her. He will destroy everything she cherishes, and smash everything she owns. A voice said to itself repeatedly, kill him!kill him!kill him! The killing intent is like a murder weapon, which has been rubbed repeatedly in the subconscious to be extremely sharp.Until now, it finally became huge and clear, completely occupying all of her thoughts.The man who did whatever he wanted to her was not just ferocious, but all the frustrations, injustices, unfortunate fates, teeth and claws, and viciousness in her life.If she doesn't knock it down, she'll be consumed by it.She no longer expects to escape from its minions, at least, she wants to perish with it and die together. Su Qin had already made up her mind, biting her nails nervously, thinking about how to kill Ding Yi.If someone saw her at this time, they would definitely be terrified by the madman's desperate and fierce light in her eyes.with a knife.Yes, stab him to death with a knife!Pierce the rotten flesh all over his body, pierce the bad water in his stomach, make him bleed, make him hurt!Fruit knives are too small, and kitchen knives are too big and heavy.What she needs is something thin, light, and extremely sharp... "This kind of knife is made in Germany. The quality is very good and it will never rust..." Su Qin was absent-minded as the service lady in the supermarket was saying something.She lowered her head and carefully looked at the knife in her hand. The sharp blade, the triangular tip, the size, and the weight were just right.The corner of Su Qin's mouth twitched, as if smiling.After so many years of hiding in Tibet and being tortured, the matter is finally coming to an end, and since then, I have been liberated.What a joy.Finally made up her mind, as if she had let go of a big burden, she walked back with this strange and cheerful smile along the way, and even her steps became brisk. But as soon as she came to the hospital and saw Yuan Ye under the oxygen mask with her eyes closed, this happy mood immediately turned into an indescribable colic, which made her burst into tears.If there is anything she can't bear, it's the only thing she can't bear.Although she knew that if it wasn't for Yuan Ye's terminal illness, they would not have known each other, and this was a love affair destined to be fruitless, but she really liked him.At first, she thought that at least she could hide it from him until the end, but who would have thought that Ding Yi would not give her the few dozen days of happiness left. She remembered Yuan Ye's last look at her, so painful and suspicious: "Why are you with me?" Su Qin cried, the grievances in her heart accumulated little by little over the years, no amount of regret or tears could wash away.Since she was going to die, why didn't she spit it out?Although she can't defend herself, she at least hopes that someone will listen to her inner voice.She had never told anyone about this confession, and she wanted to tell him. She told herself that she said it now, not to ask him to sympathize or be considerate, but just to let him know that she loves him too.Also, why does she love him. However, this is a very long story, where is the best place to start?Is it the naive and ignorant girl who admired vanity, or the period when the muddy feet were stuck in the swamp and struggling? The night was still long, and she decided to start over. Su Qin's father, Su Zhe was the most promising doctor in the city's First People's Hospital when he was young, and he offended some people with his arrogance when he was young.During the Cultural Revolution, others labeled him a self-heroic capitalist-roader, and sent him to the remote Jiuxi countryside to be reformed through labor at the home of a poor and lower-middle peasant.Who wants to stay there for ten years.There he started a family, marrying the daughter of a poor local farmer.Later, when the Cultural Revolution was over and the policy was implemented, he planned to transfer him back to the city, but there was no place for him in the hospital, so he had to go back to the city as a factory worker.Didn’t the country call for the expansion of urban construction at this time? Jiuxi, which was originally a rural area, was included in the construction circle of Longhu County. The places that used to be paddy fields were bulldozed and repaired with roads and cement houses. This is how Jiuxi Township became Jiuxi. brook town.There is also a new hospital built in the town, but there are not enough doctors. Although they are rural doctors, they are still doctors.So Su Zhe made a painful choice between his urban hukou and his dream of becoming a doctor. He decided to stay in Jiuxi, entered a hospital in the town, and became a vice president with his academic qualifications. Later, Su Qin recalled that her father was the most bitter in his heart.All his life, his heart was higher than the sky, and his luck was bad. He was originally the most promising young talent in the First People's Hospital, but ended up living in the countryside all his life.He was not reconciled, so he pinned all his hopes on his daughter.He has no son, so he cultivates Su Qin like a son. Su Qin will never forget that pair of crystal sandals in this life.It was before she took the junior high school entrance examination, and her father took her by car for more than six hours to the city to buy it.At that time, Su Qin saw the flamboyant world of the provincial capital for the first time, just like Grandma Liu who entered the Daguanyuan, her eyes were straight.The little girls around her age in the city were all wearing indescribably beautiful floral dresses and colorful crystal sandals.Dad bought her a pair of those sandals too. When handing it to her, he said, daughter, dad knows that you want to live a good life like them.But there is no way, they are city people, we are country people.If you want to jump out of the farm, there is no other way, so you must study hard and study hard.There is only one way to pass the exam.Go to the county to go to middle school, and then go to the city to go to university, so that you can stay in the city.Do you understand? Su Qin understood immediately.Not only did she understand, but she immediately made up her mind.She was holding those sandals as if she was holding her life.Only in the city can she wear the same beautiful skirt as other girls, and she can wear the same crystal sandals as them to walk on this spacious and beautiful street.She said to herself that even if she worked hard, she still had to pass the exam. She has never worn those sandals.But she kept it with her all the time, it was her lucky charm, and it accompanied her to go to the county middle school as she wished, all the way to Southwest Medical University.It reminds her that since she was born, her starting point is different from others.Just as it is easier for students in Beijing to get into Tsinghua and Peking University than those in other provinces, it is also easier for children in cities to get into universities than those in rural areas.If life is a war, those children born in big cities have won without a fight from the very beginning. Yuan Ye's condition has stabilized, but the sedative prescribed by the doctor has not yet passed. He was lethargic, dreaming intermittent and vague dreams. "Through all kinds of hardships, I was admitted to the county middle school, thinking that I was one step closer to my ideal of a happy life, but it was the thirteen-year-old me who understood the disappointment of life for the first time. I was the only one in the class who graduated from the rural area. Children, my classmates isolated me, and I was bullied in class." Perhaps because of this, Su Qin never liked children.In fact, there is no more innocent and ruthless creature in the world than a child.Because they don't know good and evil, and they have no mercy, just like the children in her class bullying her, just because she is from the country, her schoolbag is old, and her clothes are dirty. And Su Qin's counterattack was even more ridiculous and pitiful. "At that time, there was a very cute ice cream in the market, which looked like a clown head wearing a hat. I remember that it cost about 50 cents a piece at that time. For us junior high school children, it was a luxury. Who in our class I haven’t eaten it either. I thought at the time, I just want to be the first one to eat. At that time, we had lunch at school, and it only cost 20 cents. I just used my lunch money for a month and sold ten sticks in one go. Put it on the desk, then sit on the chair and eat slowly. My classmates who didn’t pay attention to me in the past thought that I was buying so much and thought I was going to treat someone. At first they looked at me greedily from a distance. I peeled one after another, and then some of them came to talk to me, staring at the ice cream in front of me, almost drooling. I ignored them, not to mention how happy I was. By the time I was six, I was already hurting from eating, I was so tired that I wanted to vomit, and my stomach hurt. But I just won’t give it to anyone, and I would rather eat it than die.” Having said that, Su Qin stopped.She could almost see that stubborn little girl back then, sitting under the pale fluorescent tubes in the classroom, sitting in the hostile eyes and cynicism, struggling alone with the ice cream in front of her, the ice and sweet cream The water flowed into the mouth, only to feel bitter.But at least she thought that she had won everyone in this matter. She ate enough of the ice cream that none of them had eaten.It was the first miserable win in her life. Later, she never ate ice cream again in this life, and would feel sick whenever she saw it. After graduating from junior high school, holding her breath, she was admitted to a key high school in the county, and she was the only one who got in from that school.The teacher in the class was very happy, thinking that she gave the school a face.This is a good thing, but in this way, the burden on the family is even heavier.Her father works as a deputy dean in a small town, and his salary is not high.He has been clean all his life, and he has been clean all his life. Unexpectedly, he is about to retire soon, and his back is broken by life.He began to go out to pick up business by himself, and earn extra money by seeing a doctor. Most of them secretly delivered women who had given birth in the countryside secretly.Later, it was revealed that, as the vice president, he actually sabotaged the country's family planning, and he was forced to leave early. At this time, Su Qin was admitted to South China Medical University. But at the moment when she received the admission notice, her reaction was not joy but tears.Because the family is really desperate, how can they afford the high tuition fees.But Su Zhe said that even if he sells everything, he still needs to pay for his daughter to study medicine.The night before Su Qin was going to leave home, Su Zhe, who never drank alcohol, got drunk and even hugged her and burst into tears.He said, when Xiaoqin grows up, Xiaoqin is going to be a doctor, Xiaoqin, Dad's life is over, you have to live well for Dad in the future! "I hugged my father's trembling shoulders, and felt that he was very thin, and his gray hair made him look very old and miserable. At that time, I swore in my heart that I must live a good life and live like a person. , don’t let my parents suffer any more, and let them be proud of me. At that time, I didn’t understand at all what my dad said about living a good life.” With this idea that she must stand out, she became very realistic.Facing the pursuit of boys in the school, she dismissed the captain of the basketball team and the head of the drama troupe, and chose an unremarkable, thin, tooth-shaving boy as a date.His name is Zhang Lei.His father is the director of the Personnel Department of the First People's Hospital.Because Su Qin hopes to get benefits from his father's job assignment when he graduates. At that time, Su Qin didn't love him at all.Falling in love with someone you don't love is a painful thing. Every time they kiss, Su Qin has the urge to push him away and stuff him into the dental hospital.Because she felt his planer touch her teeth.She said to herself, must be patient.In order to provide for her to go to college, the family was desperate and owed debts.Only by staying in the city and becoming a doctor can the family really live a good life. At that time, she didn't think about it, she was actually equating love with a means of exchange.Who can tell this girl who is already poor and frightened that there is nothing wrong with wanting to be happy? "Because of Zhang Lei's father, I was assigned to the First People's Hospital as I wished. At that time, I was very happy. I thought that I would be happy if I could live the life of a person in the city. Zhang Lei and I discussed how to become a regular. Just get married. But at that time, I met Ding Yi." At that time, Su Qin was an intern in internal medicine. One afternoon, the vice president brought an acquaintance to see her. He was Ding Yi. Su Qin still remembers that it was just the beginning of spring, and most men in the city were still wearing winter gray cotton jackets or old overcoats. Suddenly a young man in a dark blue woolen suit walked into my office, and the feeling was really bright. .The vice president introduced that he was a wealthy businessman from Shenzhen who returned to the mainland to invest. He came to the city for inspection, but he fell ill and had a little fever, so he introduced him to their department to have a look.When she saw him, she felt that he was always staring at her face.When she got close to him, she could smell the faint fragrance of cologne on his body. After seeing the doctor, he forced a business card for her. When she accepted the business card, she felt his fingers touch her own, and her face suddenly became hot.Fortunately, through the mask, no one noticed.After they left, Su Qin looked at his business card repeatedly. His title was the general manager of the trading company.At that time, she didn't know that a leaf fell randomly in Shenzhen and hit the heads of four people, three of whom were managers.She just felt novel and excited. This was the first time she met a general manager in her life.She originally wanted to keep this business card as a souvenir.No matter how attractive he is to her, she still knows what reserve is.But she never expected that when she got off work that day, a small white car stopped at the entrance of the hospital, and the little nurses and girls who came and went looked at the car curiously.At this moment, the car door opened, Ding Yi got off the driver's seat, and walked towards Su Qin.He looked at her with a very bold smile and said, I have been waiting for you to get off work.Su Qin was surprised and delighted, knowingly asked, why?He said, from the first time I saw you, I wanted to see you without a mask. I knew there must be a very beautiful face under the mask. No man had ever expressed such blunt and enthusiastic appreciation to Su Qin. Her heart was pounding, and she forced a smile and said, now that you see it, you must be disappointed.He shook his head and said, no, it is more beautiful than I imagined. He invited Su Qin out for dinner that day.Just like in an idol drama, the gentle and rich male lead picks up the beautiful female lead in a car and goes to a romantic place for dinner.Under the surprised eyes of the people in the hospital, Su Qin got into the car of a strange man, and this matter quickly reached Zhang Lei's ears.But Su Qin didn't care at all at the time.She sat in his car like she was dreaming.Just like Cinderella in a fairy tale, she finally met her Prince Charming.This car is the prince's carriage. That day Ding Yi chose the most expensive restaurant in the city for dinner, which was a revolving western restaurant on the seventeenth floor.Su Qin had only heard of such a place before, where a plate of toast could be sold for fifty yuan, but she had never been there.At that time, their wages were only six to seven hundred yuan a month.When she stepped into that place for the first time, she was immediately dazzled by the clumsy so-called petty bourgeois sentiment.The dim light, the white roses on the table, the shiny glasses hanging upside down on the bar, and the three men and women sitting and drinking and chatting at those tables, all of them were magnificent in her eyes.It's like another society, a class completely different from her as an office worker, her ordinary life, and endless patients.This was an unimaginable stimulation to Su Qin who couldn't even use a knife and fork at the time. From childhood to adulthood, she has suffered too much, suffered too much staring and bullying, how much she longed to be able to raise her eyebrows and let all those who looked down on her see that she was happier than them.She used to think that staying in the city, becoming a city resident, and becoming a doctor would be the ultimate happiness in life, but now, she realized that she was wrong, very wrong.Ding Yi is a window, through him, she smells the breath of another world.Another bigger, richer, and more exciting world is a world that people who have lived in a small city in the interior will never be able to reach. Ding Yi told Su Qin that his father runs a large company in Shenzhen and often trades with bosses in Hong Kong and Taiwan, and he seems to be very happy there.He talked freely about how he gambled a lot of money in the luxury casinos in Macau, and how he spent a lot of money in the Heaven and Earth nightclub leisurely with those big bosses in Hong Kong.For those Hong Kong people, a bottle of wine can cost thousands, a meal can cost five figures, and a diamond ring can cost tens of millions. This is beyond the imagination of people living in the mainland. The glitzy world, Su Qin always thought that the fictional world only exists in Hong Kong movies, but unexpectedly there are people living like this, when she goes to get off work from 9 to 5 every day, living like a walking dead, there is such a group of people , enjoy the utmost pleasure at the top of the pyramid.Thinking of this, she was full of envy for those luxurious lives.As for Ding Yi, who was sitting in front of her, he was someone who had been in contact with that resplendent world. His body was covered with golden powder from that world. His every move and every word he said were poisonous, and she had already Poisoned, captured by him. Ding Yi was like a rattlesnake, with his head held high and spraying venom around him. The name of the venom was "Shimian". At that time, Su Qin regarded this exaggeration as vision, slickness as demeanor, and even his obsessive teasing as love. "Ding Yi promised to take me to Shenzhen, and even take me to Hong Kong. From then on, I can become a Hong Kong citizen and step into that affluent society. Do you know how crazy this made me at that time. Zhang Lei knew that Ding and I He quarreled with me about things that were easy, even knelt on the ground and begged me, I was unmoved, but my father came from the countryside, persuaded me to beg me to scold me, and even wanted to sever the father-daughter relationship with me. I am in great pain, why doesn’t even he understand me? I want to live a good life, for whom, not for my parents, to live a better life? Didn’t my father say that he wants me to live a good life? What's wrong with me now that the opportunity is in front of me?" "But Ding Yi told me that good things are not free, and all good things must be given. I am willing to give up, not to give up. I have to be cruel. It is wrong to break a contract before marriage, but as long as you do this bad thing, I can have the happiness of my dreams. I have no choice." Su Qin looked down at Yuan Ye's sleeping face in front of the hospital bed.His cheeks sunken deep into the pillow looked thinner. Compared with the first time he saw him, the only thing that remained unchanged was probably the straight bridge of the nose and thick black eyebrows.Su Qin couldn't help stretching out her hand to gently caress his brow.She thought of his touch and hug, his eyes that stared sadly, and she never imagined that there would be such a situation in the end of life.It's a pity that the timing of their reunion was wrong, it's useless no matter how reluctant he is, anyway, he will leave her sooner or later. After figuring this out, Su Qin was finally able to convince herself to accept her fate with all her heart.She wiped away her tears, placed Yuan Ye's left hand with the hanging needle outside the quilt, and said goodbye to Yuan Ye softly. Yuan Ye felt the water flow.The dark water was rushing him to a place without a name.The water is warm, gurgling, and constant, like a woman's low sob, like a soft whisper.In the deep darkness, there was a little light, which gradually became clear. It was a street lamp. Under the street lamp, a woman was sitting on a park bench and crying. She looked up, and it was Su Qin.Why is she crying?Yuan Ye eagerly wanted to go forward and call Su Qin's name, but his mouth seemed sealed and he couldn't make a sound.Yuan Ye struggled hard, and suddenly woke up from the dream. What came into view was the white roof of the room and the pale apple green walls. The air was filled with the smell of disinfectant and medicine. He was lying in the ward with no one around him.Yuan Ye looked around in a daze. Although he was in a nightmare, he did remember that a gentle hand touched his forehead. He heard a very low, suppressed sob, but where did the person who cried softly go? There was a calling bell beside the bed. Yuan Ye stretched out his hand vigorously, but no one came after several times of pressing. "Nurse! Nurse!" Yuan Ye yelled, but still no one came.He barely supported himself, and pulled away the various test instruments stuck to his chest, and the medical monitor immediately let out a strange beep.He leaned against the bed and rested for a while, then reached out to pull out the needles and adhesive tape on the back of his hand.A little nurse rushed into the door in a panic: "Hey, what are you doing!" Yuan Ye lifted the quilt: "I'm leaving the hospital!" "Your condition has just stabilized, so you can't..." "I'm leaving the hospital now!" Yuan Ye pushed the nurse away impatiently. Yuan Ye rested his head on the back seat of the taxi and closed his eyes. That hazy whisper is still echoing in my ears, is it a dream?or is it true? A continuous knock on the door woke Ding Yi up.He opened his eyes, and it was pitch black all around, and he couldn't tell whether it was dawn or night.The first thing he did was to touch the winter clothes on his body. The thick pile was still there, so he felt relieved.That was earning 10,000 yuan from Yuan Ye, it was like a pie falling from the sky. He lazily pulled off his clothes and put them on: "Who is it?" A very soft female voice outside the door: "It's me." He was relieved when he heard that it was Su Qin's voice. Ding Yi turned on the light and looked at the rotten watch in his hand. It was just after eight o'clock in the evening.It turned out that I had been in a coma for almost a whole day.He opened the door and let Su Qin in. "What are you doing here?" He yawned big. "Yuan Ye has been here, hasn't he?" Su Qin said coldly. "Who?" Ding Yi deliberately pretended to be confused, and when he saw Su Qin's face change instantly, he smiled happily: "Oh, yes, that policeman." Unexpectedly, that policeman seemed shrewd, and it turned out that it was so easy to extract money.Thinking of Yuan Ye's pale face at that moment, Ding Yi couldn't help laughing secretly.He scratched his back here and there, and turned around slowly: "Don't worry, I didn't tell him about your business. I said, he really cares about you, you really have a trick, this policeman really Falling in love with you..." Su Qin silently took out the equipped knife from the handbag.The qi in his heart surpassed his head, and turned into a cold calm instead. This calm and strong hatred merged together, emitting a faint blue light like a static flame. Ding Yi continued to say: "...ask him for some money again, Xiaoqin, and he will definitely give it. This time it's true, I will leave immediately if I ask for it, and I won't bother you anymore. Really." "Okay, here's the money." Su Qin said quietly. Uncharacteristically, the woman was not angry.Ding Yi also felt a little surprised, and looked back, a little white light made his hair stand on end, it was the knife in Su Qin's hand. Who would have thought that after going to Shenzhen, Su Qin's life after that would not lead to the cloud of happiness in her dream, but step into the endless dark abyss, which is an indescribable and terrible process of degeneration.But Su Qin said to herself that she didn't deserve sympathy.Such depravity deserves no sympathy.What she needs is not sympathy, but repentance.She has shed tears of remorse countless times, but tears can't wash away the sins and dirt in her soul. After arriving in Shenzhen, she realized that Ding Yi had lied to her.He didn't have a father who started a big company at all. He just rented a small apartment near Nanshan as an office, and was engaged in the so-called trading business of speculation and reselling.This time, he returned to his hometown only because of a stupid "water fish" he thought was easy to deceive, and he came along to distribute fake Montagut T-shirts to people. There was no subway at that time, and the place where they lived was equivalent to the suburbs of Shenzhen.She nestled in Ding Yi's rented small room of less than 60 square meters every day, helped him answer the phone and helped him clean up. She only went out once in a while, and it was only to the nearby farmers' market.They don't go to the city often, because every time they go to the city, they have to take a 50-minute bus ride. Shenzhen is a very realistic city, and prices are much higher than those in mainland cities. It is really difficult to move without money.All this is completely different from what Ding Yi described to her at first.They started to quarrel, but there was nothing they could do. No matter how much she regretted it, Su Qin felt ashamed to go home.Ding Yi's company does often have Hong Kong people coming over, but the Hong Kong people who come here are all dyed blond and have tattoos on their bodies, which looks very scary.Gradually, he stopped hiding it from her, and she realized that what they were doing was shady business.For example, when introducing young girls from the Mainland to work illegally in nightclubs in Hong Kong, Ding Yi is responsible for finding candidates and charging agency fees.Some girls were deceived into thinking that they used to be cashiers in bars, while others were purely greedy for vanity and wanted to go to Hong Kong, and they were lazy and wanted to make quick money.Every time the people from Hong Kong came to collect the goods, their eyes turned from those young girls to Su Qin, and she quickly walked away, feeling ashamed.It is a pure gaze that regards a woman as a commodity, as if seeing your naked body through your clothes, and directly appraising it in your heart.Whenever this happens, Su Qin feels the anger and shame of being treated as that kind of woman by others, but on the other hand, she also feels that she who abandoned her family and came here is no different from these ignorant girls who only sell their youth .They are all equally stupid and pitiful. Once, a thin and dark blonde with a wretched face pointed at her and told Ding Yi that this product was not bad, it was a bit older, but no one could tell it was wearing makeup.At that time, Su Qin had been in Shenzhen for almost a year and could understand Cantonese.After hearing what he said, she was terrified, and hurried to see Ding Yi, only to see him say with a smile that this is my son, as if she had no such plan, and she was only half relieved. At that time, Ding Yi also went to Macau to gamble, but his gambling addiction was not so deep at that time, and he would return to Shenzhen after losing all his money, and he had not borrowed money from usury.But Su Qin always felt uneasy.She knew that her life was not normal, it was as if she was walking on thin ice, she couldn't see the future, she couldn't see hope, and she would sink into the sea of ​​ice anytime her feet slipped.She wanted to leave him, but she was afraid of leaving. In this completely strange city, if she left him, she would have no place to stay. Just when she was hesitating, a group of people rushed up one day and smashed their 'company', demanding that Ding Yi pay back the money.Ding Yi was not there, and Su Qin was alone, crying and looking at this group of evil people, huddled in the corner, not knowing how scared she was.Until the next day, Ding Yi finally came back.It was only then that Su Qin found out that Ding Yi had sold fake brand-name T-shirts before. The big boss over there was very angry and demanded that he compensate for all losses.He used all the money to pay for it, but it was still a long way off, so he borrowed Guili.Now it is those expensive people who come to the door. Su Qin only felt that a catastrophe was imminent, and almost passed out.他们不敢报警，惹恼了那些流氓，他们可是什么事都做得出来。但他们已经连火车票都买不起了，就连逃走也没钱，还欠了房东一个月的租，就在不知如何是好的时候，丁易提议偷渡去香港。于是他带苏琴去找一个叫荣哥的东莞人。就是那一次，指着她说打扮打扮也可以的那个金毛。 黄长荣同意让我们偷渡，但有一个条件，就是要苏琴陪他睡一晚。苏琴一开始不愿意，但丁易苦苦的哀求她，说等他们到了香港，就把这边的事通通都忘掉，他一定会东山再起，他说，这会是最后一件坏事，他们把它挨过了，之后就会幸福。 人生就是如此。只能在伤心失望的时候，才能领悟从前的错误。而当你觉悟的时候，就会有更悲惨的命运等着你。到了第二天，黄长荣却要找他们要每人五万块的偷渡费。这和他当初答应的不一样，他们想找他理论，他却说，别人都是收的八万，已经特别优惠了。他给拿不出钱的两个人提供了一条赚钱的办法，那就是在他管理的龙头夜总会坐台，什么时候凑够了十万块，什么时候就走。要不然，他就把他们交给放贵利的那伙人。 “袁野，说到这里，你可以想象怎样的命运等着我吗？但此时我的心情反而很平静。因为伤口早已鲜血淋漓，所以现在，我说我已经感觉不到痛了，你相信吗？” 丁易用双手架着苏琴的手腕，雪亮的刀尖就在他的脸侧。苏琴像疯了一样，用尽全身的力气把刀往下压，她的脸就在刀锋的上方，眼睛瞪得溜圆，鼻孔张开，五官错位。丁易吓得心惊胆裂，这女人已经完全疯了，他后腰顶着旧沙发，就快吃不住了。苏琴呲开的嘴里有唾沫星子直喷到他脸上，他突然听清了她在说什么：“杀。杀。杀。” ——这才是最后的一件坏事，杀了你，我们才能解脱。 情急之下丁易突然猛地往旁边一闪，苏琴全部的力气一刀刺空，倒栽葱扑进沙发里，再跌到地上。还没来得及爬起来，握住刀的手指突然一阵剧痛，丁易狠狠的一脚踏在她的手指上，苏琴放声惨叫，松开了握刀的手。丁易抓紧这个机会把刀一脚远远踢开，揪住苏琴一阵乱打，还不解恨，随手抓起地上一条绳子一样的东西，往苏琴脖子上一绕。苏琴双手本能的拉住勒紧自己的绳子，但手指根本伸不进去。 “让你暗算老子！让你杀老子！”丁易亢奋的用力收紧绳子。 苏琴像鱼一样挺直了身子，双脚无助的在地上乱踢。 一双大手从丁易身后伸来，铁钳一般紧握住他的手腕，用力一扯，丁易发出一声怪叫，不由自主的松开手，他连身后的人是谁都没看清，转眼就被按到了地上，双手反绞在背后，痛得好像快要断掉似。 丁易嘶声大叫：“放，放开……” 那人扔开了他。大步走到苏琴身边，将她扶起。 丁易抬头一看，那人竟然是袁野。 丁易破口大骂：“他妈的，你们两个一起来暗算老子！” 苏琴从绳子底下死里逃生，靠在袁野身上不住的喘息，好不容易缓过口气来，一转眼看到丁易：“我杀了你！我非杀了你不可！” “你冷静点！苏琴！” “放开我！放开我！” “嘘，你小声点！”袁野压低了声音，紧紧的将她抱在怀里。 苏琴抬起头，袁野那焦虑又关切的脸就在自己身后。狂乱的光从苏琴眼中消失了，清醒的神志渐渐回复，苏琴颤抖着嘴唇，想说什么，眼泪却止不住的从眼眶里涌出来。她披头散发，脸色惨白，眼睛通红，她紧紧的抱着袁野，发出一阵又一阵低闷的嚎哭。