Chapter 15 Li Xiaobai

Misty light. Yes, I see the misty light. This should be the morning of the 13th! It was very quiet at this time, and it was still raining outside.When I heard the sound of rain, I became even more thirsty. Quenching my thirst with plum blossoms is of no use at this time.I had a sticky mush stuck in my throat and it was making it hard to breathe and I had to spit it out or I'd be suffocated by it. I exerted all my breastfeeding strength and spit out the lump of thick phlegm. Because of the strength, the wound on my body seemed to wake up, and it started to hurt violently, as if someone had dug my wound with a sharp knife, and my left eye was cold again. The blood diffused in and flowed out in a cycle.

My left eye was blocked by something sticky, and I couldn't see the hazy light at all. The thing that blocked my eye didn't look like blood, but a bit like the thick phlegm I just spat out with all my might. The misty light sent me a message: the sky will soon be bright. At this time, the bright eyes of my daughter Li Xiaobai suddenly appeared in my mind. Usually, as long as I take her to sleep, she will wake up very early, look at me with bright eyes, and stretch out her chubby Warm little hands touched my face. Is she awake now? Was she looking for his dad with wide, bright eyes?

Just two days ago, Guo Qiang, the editor of "Phoenix Life Weekly", asked me to write an article for my daughter, which was going to be published in the sixth Father's Day column. My article titled "Little Bad, You and Dad are Heart-to-heart" reads like this: Little Bad, Dad misses you very much after he left you for a few days.Dad is far away from you now, writing in a mountain in western Sichuan, and you are at home in Shanghai.When I left, you cried loudly, my heart was so sad, thinking of your immature crying, I thought, what a cruel thing it is to leave you. On the day you were born last year, I waited anxiously in the waiting room outside after your mother was wheeled into the operating room.I suddenly heard the cry of the baby, the cry was very loud, and my first feeling was that your cry made my heart tighten and my whole body trembled.My eyes watered when the first anesthetist who came out told me that your mother had successfully delivered a girl.After a while, a beautiful nurse pushed you out, I saw a delicate and clean you, so small, so cute, you opened one eye, I saw that you have not been polluted by the world The eyes are so pure.At that moment, I believed that the hearts of our father and daughter were tightly connected and would never be separated again.That night, I hugged you all the time, letting you feel the warmth of Dad.

Little Bad, over the past year, watching you grow up slowly, every little change will surprise Dad and the world.Such as the first time you turned over, such as the first time you smiled, such as the first time you were sick, such as the first time you crawled, stood up for the first time and took the first step happily crookedly... the most let dad Surprisingly, it was the first "Dad" you called, and my heart was extremely happy. Little bad, do you still remember the first heavy snow last winter.Last winter, it seemed that it was snowing all over the south. Many people were unable to go home to celebrate the New Year because of the snow disaster, and many people lived a difficult life in the snow disaster.But you are happy. Dad hugged you and walked into the heavy snow, making you feel the coldness of the snow, but Dad hugged you tightly and warmed you with body temperature. As long as Dad exists for a day, you will not Will be corroded by severe cold.In this snowy day, Dad also wrote this verse for you:

Some time ago, Dad used a small cart to push you to the park every afternoon.It was a park in spring, and all kinds of flowers were blooming in the sun.There are camellias, cherry blossoms, peonies... Looking at those beautiful flowers in full bloom, you waved your little hands and giggled, your little face was as bright as the sun, and your happy childhood began from then on.Dad's childhood was miserable, full of cold and hunger, recalling the past, Dad will not let your childhood leave memories of suffering.Xiaobai, you are those flowers that bloom in the spring wind, and my father will care for you and grow up with his life.

Xiaobai, do you know that last night, Dad had a dream, dreaming that you woke up early in the morning and looked for Dad as usual, and cried when you couldn’t find Dad... When Dad woke up, it was also early in the morning, and there was a sound coming from outside the window. The chirping of birds in the forest.Dad couldn't wait to call home, and he heard your cry.At that moment, my eyes were wet, and my heart was soft like water. My daughter, our hearts are really connected.So, on this fresh morning, I wrote down these words, and wrote down my father's affection for you, for you. Xiao Huai doesn't know if the article her father wrote to her will become a last word, and I don't know either.I was heartbroken for a while. In this early morning, I really wanted to hug her soft little body and smell the special fragrance of milk that emanated from her body... But Xiaobai, like her mother, is so far away from me, maybe I will never I can't see them anymore... I want to cry, but I can't. The rain falling outside is my tears, and the tears of the sad people in the world!