Chapter 8 anger

Before night fell, I cried out again for help.Every time I yelled, I could feel the blood coming out of my left face, and some blood flowed into my left eye, and then flowed out again after a circle. I heard the sound of someone walking over the ruins again, and I stopped shouting. Maybe they came here after hearing my cries, maybe they happened to come to rescue me, but no matter what, hearing their footsteps and talking, my heart was full of hope again, and I was very pleasantly surprised. I said loudly: "Dear ones, you are finally here!" I heard the hoarse voice of the proprietress: "Ms. Li, how are you doing now?"

I said: "I don't have any problems now, you guys get me out quickly, I'm getting more and more tight, it's hard—" The proprietress said: "Mr. Li, there are still people being rescued over there, please be patient for a while, and when the people over there are dug out, we will come to rescue you." As soon as she finished speaking, I heard a man's voice, his voice was very loud: "Mr. Li, you must hold on and be patient for a while. After we dig out that person, it will be your turn next. The next one I will save you." I said, "You don't have enough manpower, why don't you call out and let people from the mountain come up to save people?"

The man said: "We have already called, but we can't get through. You have to be patient for a while, we still have manpower here, and they will come and dig you out in a while. Don't shout anymore, save your energy, or we won't be able to save you." .” Then, I heard the two of them discussing something.I just heard a sentence: "Ms. Li is buried very deep, it's not easy to dig—" They walked away while talking. Again they gradually receded from me until I could no longer hear their voices. My heart was once again plunged into darkness. Soon after they left, night fell, and the light was gradually sucked away by the darkness.

My soul has also fallen into darkness together with my body, a darkness beyond redemption.From time to time in the darkness, there was the sound of landslides and ground cracks, and I could feel many huge stones rolling down the valley from the mountains.If the dilapidated building I live in falls to the bottom of the valley, I will be smashed to pieces!The darkness was buried together with my hope, and I wailed in despair from the bottom of my heart: "Li Ximin, you will be buried in this beautiful valley, and you will never be reborn forever!" I murmured, "Ping, I may never see you again. Little bad, you don't have a father at such a young age, poor little bad..."

I feel extremely aggrieved, why am I suddenly buried here? I can't figure out many questions. The more I can't figure it out, the more irritable I feel. I am a bad-tempered person. The poet Li Yawei also said: "Li Ximin is the worst-tempered Fujianese." Although I have a bad temper, I am still a reasonable person. I only feel wronged or see unfair things. , I will get angry. At this point, I feel very unfair. I have lived for more than forty years, and I have never done anything harmful to the world, and I am always helping others. Why does God not have eyes, and buried me in the ruins, and let me suffer from thirst and hunger here. Bleeding to death slowly...it's so unfair!

I suddenly felt very angry. Anger was burning inside me. I struggled and shouted loudly: "God, you are so fucking unreasonable, why should you bury me here!" "God, if you take me away, I will never end with you even if I die, and I will fight with you in the sky to make you turn upside down!" "Yan Wangye, you are so fucking stupid. I will settle with you even after I go to hell. Your eyes are blind, and you can't see the good and evil in the world!" "..." I was exhausted from cursing. God and Yan Wangye couldn't hear my roar, maybe they heard it, but they dismissed me.My angry yelling became worthless and drained my energy.

All I was answered was the deafening bang from the aftershocks.I have no way to compete with nature, what am I in front of nature!I had no choice but to close my stinking mouth, panting, and thought to myself, aren't you asking for trouble by yelling like this?The proprietress and the others are right, you must conserve your energy and wait for help.I don't know how long I'll be here. After I calmed down for a while, I said in my heart: "Li Ximin, you are so stupid! What's the use of cursing, you have to wait patiently. Rescue and death are your fate, you have no choice!"

I was drenched with anger, sweat mixed with blood.