Chapter 27 Chapter Twenty Seven

The next morning, I was a little silly, but in a good mood.Every time I wipe the smile off my face, it just keeps coming back.Finally, I can only give up.I let my hair down loosely and ditched the baggy shirt I was used to for a one-shoulder dress that showed my tattoos. "What's wrong with you today?" Christina asked me on the way to breakfast.She seemed sleepy, her eyes were puffy and her matted hair was loose around her face. "Oh," I said, "the sun is shining and the birds are singing." She looked at me with one raised eyebrow, as if to remind me that we were actually walking through an underpass.

"Let her go if she's in a good mood," Will said, "You might never see her again." I patted his arm and ran into the restaurant quickly.My heart was pounding because at some point in the next half hour I would see Tobias again.I took my old seat, at the table next to Uriah, across from Will and Christina.The seat to my left is still vacant.I wondered if Tobias would come to sit down, would he smile at me at breakfast, would he glance my way mysteriously, furtively, as I imagined myself look at him like that. I grabbed a slice of toast from the plate in the middle of the table and buttered it a little too enthusiastically.I feel like a lunatic, but I just can't stop.It was like telling me to stop breathing.

Then he walked in.The hair was shorter, and this way it looked darker, almost black.It's the short haircut of the Disinterested, and I recognize it.I smiled at him and waved him over.But he sat right next to Zeke without even looking in my direction.I had to let go. I'm staring at my toast, it's so easy not to laugh now. "What's wrong?" Uriah's mouth was full of bread. I shook my head and took a bite of my toast.what am i expectingJust because we kissed?Kissing doesn't mean everything changes from now on.Maybe he changed his mind about liking me, maybe he thought kissing me was a mistake.

"Today is the day to enter the 'fear space,'" Will said. "Do you think we will enter our own 'fear space'?" "No." Uriah shook her head, "You will pass through a mentor's 'space of fear', my brother said." "Oh, which mentor?" Christina suddenly cheered up. "You know, it's really unfair that you can all get inside information, but we can't." Will said, glaring at Uriah. "Don't act like you don't inquire even if you have a connection." Ulea retorted. Christina ignored them both: "I hope it's the fourth's 'fear space'."

"Why?" The question was almost a questioning one, and I bit my lip, hoping to get my words back. "Someone's emotions are really ups and downs." She rolled her eyes, "It's like you don't want to know what he's afraid of? Don't look at him acting so tough, maybe he's afraid of cotton candy, dazzling sunlight or something like that, It’s the so-called overkill.” I shook my head: "He won't do that." "how do you know?" "It's just a guess." I remember Tobias having his father in "Fear Space".He can never let others see.I glanced at him.For a second his eyes drifted to me, but without emotion, and then drifted away.

Lauren, the mentor of the school's new students, stood outside the room of "Fear Space" with her hands on her waist. "Two years ago," she says, "I was terrified of spiders, suffocated, squeezed between two approaching walls, kicked out of Dauntless, bled uncontrollably, run over by a train, father died, publicly humiliated, Kidnapped by a faceless man." Everyone looked at her blankly. "In 'Fear Space,' most people have ten to fifteen fears, and that's the average," she says. "How many lowest records are there?" Lynn asked.

"In recent years," Lauren said, "four." I haven't even glanced at Tobias since I came out of the restaurant, but now I can't help but glance at him.He lowered his eyes and stared at the ground.Four, I only knew that this was really very small, enough to become a nickname, but I didn't expect it to be less than half of the average. I stare at my feet.He is such an exception.Now, he doesn't even look at me. "Today you have no way of knowing how much you fear," Lauren said. "Today's simulations are programmed into my 'fear space,' so you will experience my fears, not your own."

I gave Christina a look: I'm right, we really don't enter the "fear space" of the fourth child. "However for the purpose of this exercise, each of you will only face one of my fears in order to get a feel for how the simulation works." Lauren randomly picked people and assigned each of us a fear.I'm standing in the back, so it should be near the end to get in.The fear she assigned to me was kidnapping. Since I won't be connected to a computer while I wait, I can't watch the simulation, just the reactions of the parties.My mind was full of Tobias, and it was the best way to distract myself—seeing Will flicking off a "spider" that I couldn't see on my body in horror, seeing Uriah gasping for breath Pushing the invisible "wall" to me, I clenched my fists; seeing Pete blushing from the "public humiliation" made me giggle.Then it was my turn.

This fear is not good for me.But since I've run every sim, not just this one, and I've been through Tobias' 'Fear Space', I'm not at all apprehensive when Lauren sticks a needle in my neck . Then, the scene changed, and the "kidnapping" began.The ground under my feet turned into a piece of green grass, and someone clamped my arms tightly and covered my mouth.It was pitch black and I couldn't see anything. I heard the roar of the river, it should not be far from the Grand Canyon.My mouth was covered, and I screamed under those hands, trying to break free, but the arms were too strong, and the kidnappers were too strong.The image of falling into the endless darkness flashed in my mind, and the same feeling also appeared in my nightmares.I started yelling again until my throat hurt and tears rolled down my face.

I know they will come back to torture me, I know they will try again.Once is not enough.I yelled again—not for help, because no one would help me.This is just an instinctive reaction that people will have when they are about to die, and I can't control it. "Stop it," growled a stern voice. The hands that bound me disappeared with the sound, and the darkness was also dispelled by the bright lights.I stood blankly on the concrete floor in the "Fear Space" room, trembling all over, my legs went limp, and I knelt down, covering my face with my hands.I just failed, lost all logic, lost all sanity.Lauren's fears were transformed into my own.

And everyone was looking at me, and Tobias was looking at me. I heard footsteps, and Tobias came over and dragged me up. "Zombie, what the hell are you doing?" "I..." My breath broke into a hiccup, "I didn't..." "Control yourself, it's pathetic that you're in this state." I couldn't bear it anymore, stopped my tears, anger spread all over my body, drove out all the cowardice, and slapped him hard, because my knuckles hurt because I hit him too hard.He stared at me, with blood-red handprints on one side of his face, and I stared back not to be outdone. "Shut up!" I jerked my hand back from his and strode out.