Chapter 62 Section 5 Resentment

Lu Buwei fell into great fear, he was eager to grab something, cling to something, sink with himself, go to the dark abyss, and go on a journey of no return together. The anger of being betrayed and the unwillingness to be abandoned suddenly revived in Lu Buwei's heart, making him temporarily forget the cold and death.I have depression and never vomit.Want to make a big sigh to the sky, piercing the sky to make a hole for fear of the sky's wrath.However, it's time to pour out.Once you go there, you will never return, so why bother to hypocritically hide your true feelings and whitewash everything with tenderness?

Since ancient times, everyone has died, and everyone swallows their voices with hatred.Lu Buwei didn't want to suppress himself like this.Even if he can't escape the kiss of death, at least, before he swallows his last breath, he has the right to sincerely and unscrupulously release his heart to himself. There is no right or wrong!Don't care about cause and effect! Break out, hate!Speak, heart! For the same injustice, Lu Buwei did not curse all the people in Athens for fear of chaos like Timon (Note 1).Nor did he curse at himself for not being born like Job did (Note 2).Lu Buwei's curse was only aimed at a poor woman - Zhao Ji.

When Lu Buwei opened the gate of consciousness, he realized that he hated Zhao Ji so deeply. I will sleep in the night with no one around.However, my dear, why are you not by my side?Why don't you come and see me for the last time?Over the years, between you and me, there is no longer the passion and madness of having an affair, nor the warmth and lingering of being together.We are purely two strangers, more than a thousand kilometers apart, separated by this son of a bitch.My dear, why are you not by my side when I need you most?You forgot those vows?You forgot those vows!Chao still has faith, and women are ruthless.I should have thought, I should have known.

There is basically no time difference between Henan and Xianyang, so I think you should have fallen asleep by this time.He took off the complicated costumes and the heavy makeup.In your breath, there is only the breath of old age, and there is no sweetness of youth.In the past, what happened behind the scenes was joked, but now it is all in front of you.You don't need to wait for a thousand years, just wait for you to wake up, and there will be no more me in this world.Your first man, your Lu Lang, will leave you forever.Has such a scene ever appeared in your dreams?Even appearing, may awaken your sleeping heart?

Zhao Ji, others regard you as the Queen Mother, but in my eyes, you will always be that lowly servant girl in Handan whom I raise.It's not up to you.I can forgive Lai Ai, she was originally a kind of horse.I can forgive Mao Jiao, it's not his fault for being handsome.I can forgive Ying Zheng, as an emperor, he has the right to eradicate major troubles and make himself feel at ease.But I can't forgive you, you always have a choice.However, you always think with your lower body, and your lust is always insatiable.But I can only endure you, pamper you, and watch you. What kind of malicious creation put a beautiful face and a snake's heart on your body at the same time?I made you, I made your family.You were just an ordinary woman.It was I, among the crowd, who salvaged you and saved you.Otherwise, you would be a completely different person now.You'll marry some mediocre bastard, have some fucking stupid kids, and grow old and ugly, like drained medicine, and be thrown away without mercy.It is me who pours the brilliance on you and bestows glory on you.However, when have you ever been grateful, and when have you ever repaid?No matter how poisonous the poison is, how can it be more poisonous than your unfeeling, how can it be more poisonous than your backlash?

Lu Buwei continued to drink and choked hard.The flames of poisoned wine were burning in his mind.A strong man and a fierce tiger chant their white heads, and a prostitute is sent to stay with each wave.Yes, it's time to hit the road.Outside the window, plum blossoms are in full bloom, the moonlight is crystal clear, and the sky is bright, casting more intense light than daytime.It's good to return to your hometown with your youth, why don't you go wild?Fragmentation, shattering, tearing... Ah, how beautiful you were, and how shy you were!However, all sluts are transformed from virgins.Glad you'll be old too, and it's not necessarily rosy where you are now.You are broken, you no longer have the looks I would die for.Could this be the benefit you got from hurting me?Are you satisfied?Are you happy?