Chapter 30 Chapter 25 Clavicle Bodhisattva

Buddhism has the theory of reincarnation, all encounters are reunions, and all departures are returns. From childhood to adulthood, Shi Lei only had one friend who died on the way to school. In the early morning of that day, Shi Lei went to school with his little friends.When the green light on the sidewalk came on, Shi Lei knelt down to tie his shoelaces, and his friend took a step ahead. A Santana bridge car ran a red light illegally and knocked down his friend. He dragged forward for more than ten meters before stopping.An arm was pressed against the wheel, and there was a bright red bloodstain on the road, which was shocking.The little friend who was talking and laughing just now suddenly died tragically before his eyes, Shi Lei was dumbfounded and completely frightened.

The last words the little friend said to him were: I will wait for you on the other side of the road. From then on, Shi Lei had nightmares every night, dreaming of his friend's smiling face again and again, he really wanted to say: Stop, don't go. Since then, crossing the road has become what he fears the most. Cars are like tigers, and they seem to rush over at any time to knock him down and chew him up. At that time, Shi Lei was only ten years old. Every time this child crossed the road, he would walk with the flow of people. If there was no one around, he would stand in front of the zebra crossing on the sidewalk and wait. Even if he was late for school, he would not move forward. Couldn't muster up the courage to cross the street alone.Once, he was crossing the road with a girl. The green light on the sidewalk flashed a few times and turned into a red light. The girl in front ran over quickly, leaving him in the middle of the road, surrounded by heavy traffic.

The little child stood still and did not dare to move, and burst into tears because of being too frightened. The girl glanced back, then ran back, took his hand, and led him down the street. The girl is Die Wu, and she was also ten years old that year.Die Wu and Shi Lei are neighbors. They go to the same elementary school, but they are not in the same class. Die Wu developed earlier and is tall. She looks like a junior high school girl. The street is a river, and people are like duckweed, and they got acquainted like this. She didn't ask him why he was crying or what he was afraid of, she didn't say anything, she just held his hand and walked through the street and the journey of life, which seemed to be a tacit understanding between the two after many years of separation and reunion.When they met for the first time, it was as if they had known each other for a hundred years.Since then, he has followed her every day to and from school.

In the morning, when the sun was rising and the sky was covered with colorful clouds, he always waited quietly in front of a video store for her to cross the road together. He hid behind a telephone pole, and then suddenly appeared behind her. At noon, his hand crossed the iron guardrail of the park, and the rose flowers in the flower bed bloomed quietly. He looked back to see if she had come. In the afternoon, he stepped on her shadow, kept a close distance, walked across the zebra crossing, and walked through the Chuhehan boundary of life. Shi Lei and Die Wu never spoke, and seemed to be strangers to each other, until one cloudy day a year later, the rain wet the flowers in the roadside park, wet the hair and clothes of passers-by, sparrows fell on the electric wires, and all the eaves Both were dripping with water, two children were walking in the rain, he coughed a few times, mustered up his courage, and asked cautiously, what's your name?

Die Wu said, haha, I don't know your name either! He thought her name was beautiful, and it seemed to have a certain fragrance. He wrote her name on a piece of paper, filled a page, and threw it away quietly. He felt that he had done something bad, so that when he saw her the next day, he It was unnatural, her heart was beating violently, and her face was red to the base of her ears.He didn't know why he was like this. If you've ever had a first love, you know what blushing is all about! The first love is so beautiful, some words have fragrance, such as "first love".In the ignorant youth, if you don't understand the feeling of liking someone, it is a love that is destined to be unspeakable.Until many years later, in the mountains and mountains of the past, in the days gone forever, we suddenly remembered that a sigh still stopped in the summer of that summer vacation, and a figure still remained in the depths of the most beautiful time, never go far.

After graduating from primary school, Shi Lei and Die Wu went to the same middle school, they are used to each other's existence, the two of them have gone through the wind and rain together, and the four seasons together.Some gossip started in the school, thinking that they were dating, the teacher even talked to Die Wu and asked her why she and Shi Lei went to and from school together every day.Die Wu didn't care at all, she said to the teacher, you don't understand.A bad boy spread a rumor that he saw Shi Lei and Die Wu kissing at the corner of the corridor, and Shi Lei quarreled with the boy, and then Shi Lei was beaten and cried.While resisting the bad boy's fist, he cried and defended himself and Die Wu's innocence.

Die Wu pulled Shi Lei away and stared at the boy who hit him. The boy had a provocative look, not afraid at all. Die Wu made an astonishing movement, she didn't move her fist, and she didn't curse anyone, she stepped forward and hugged the boy. The boy was stunned, then frightened, and never dared to bully Shi Lei again, after all, it would be embarrassing to spread the reputation of puppy love. She fights hatred with hugs and resolves conflicts with compassion. That night, it was said that there was a once-in-a-hundred-year meteor shower. Shi Lei and Die Wu didn't go home after school. They sat under a cherry blossom tree in the park and looked up at the night sky, waiting for the meteor shower.The starry sky is shining, the wind is blowing, and the moonlight is shining on the cherry blossoms flying all over the sky. It is simply a dreamlike fairy tale world.

However, the meteor shower never appeared, only the cherry blossoms fell one by one. Die Wu said: The meteor shower may be a lie. Shi Lei said: Wait a minute, I seem to have seen a shooting star just now. Die Wu said: Then you have to make a wish quickly. Shi Lei said: I don't know... how to make a wish? Die Wu said: Think in my heart. Shi Lei said: Don't you need to say it? Die Wu said: We can write down our wishes, put them in bottles, and bury them here. They dug a hole with a branch under the cherry tree, wrote their wish on a note, put it in a bottle, and buried it.They didn't know what the other party wrote, they just naively thought that if the meteor shower appeared, their wishes would be fulfilled.

When they came home, the streets were empty at night, and she took his hand and walked across the road. They smiled and said goodbye at the entrance of an alley. If she knew it was the moment of parting, how could she let go of his hand, how could he say goodbye with a smile. Many years later, he realized that he had fallen in love with her when he was ten years old, and would spend his whole life remembering her. The next day, Shi Lei didn't come to school, and he wasn't seen at the familiar intersection.It was like this for several days.Die Wu asked others, and got a piece of news that Shi Lei would not be able to come to school in the future.

Die Wu asked: Why? The answer is - because, he is a disabled person. Although Shi Lei is fourteen years old, his body is still at the stage of a ten-year-old child, he suffers from dwarfism.Maybe, from the day he met Die Wu, he didn't grow up, everything stayed on that busy street, she turned around, walked over, and took his hand through the turbulent traffic. His parents took Shi Lei to a hospital in other places for treatment. Several months passed, but the disease was not cured. During that time, Die Wu moved. After graduating from junior high school, she went to a technical secondary school, and the word "disabled" was imprinted in Die Wu's heart.

Many partings in life are within a short distance. Once you turn around, it will be a farewell. Once you turn around, you will be separated by thousands of rivers and mountains. They separated from then on and never saw each other again. Ten years passed in a flash... In those years, many things happened to Die Wu and Shi Lei.Shi Lei's house has been demolished, Die Wu once looked for Shi Lei, but couldn't find him.He was still the timid little boy who dared not cross the road, Die Wu has grown up.Shi Lei followed his mother to learn how to sew curtains. He hardly ever went out, because every time he appeared on the street, people would call him "Little Turtle", "Dwarf", and "Wu Dalang". We must admit that discrimination against disabled people in this society is widespread from the laughter of the audience when a comedian imitates the disabled, and from some swear words. An ugly dumb, as long as he treats others kindly and faces the world with tolerance and understanding from the age of eighteen, and persists in this way for thirty years, he can become an ugly middle-aged dumb. Shi Lei usually doesn't like to talk, and has become taciturn.In order to adapt him to this society, his parents found him a job as a hotel doorman. He stood in front of the door, wearing a somewhat funny red uniform, and said to every guest: Welcome. He sometimes thinks of Die Wu, his first love and, obviously, his last love. Shi Lei sometimes takes the bus home, he can already cross the road alone, but on the bus, he needs courage to bear the strange stares of others.Everyone looked at this adult who looked like a child like a monster. Once, at a crossroad, Shi Lei had a feeling of déjà vu, he and Die Wu had walked here before. A song called "Song" came from the audio shop on the side of the road: This must be fate, Every step of life is with you, How many tears of laughter, Has merged into the ocean, packed into the memory bag. This should be called life, right? Too late to keep it changed again, How many times of laughing in tears, interlaced time, In the dream, I recall and can't help but sigh, On the rushing river of life... We will all meet the first person in our life, walk with us for a while, and then disappear in time.The hazy love affair, recalled many years later, found that it was a love that had never officially started.Love doesn't know where it came from, and it doesn't know where to go, just like those flowers, those waters, those passers-by in the past. Shi Lei lived so peacefully. After ten years, at the intersection where there was a lot of traffic, he suddenly saw a familiar figure through the glass of the bus. He recognized Die Wu from the way he was walking.His heart beat suddenly accelerated, he wanted to yell for the driver to stop, he wanted to run in front of her, he wanted to pass through the indifferent but realistic world that separated them, his chest rose and fell in shortness of breath, his excitement He was about to cry... However, he didn't get out of the car, but just sat there, quietly watching her walk out of sight, gradually go away, and disappear into the sea of ​​people. Shi Lei said to himself: Is it her? Maybe, I got the wrong person. Perhaps, she can only accompany her through such a long journey in the long river of life. What if they meet each other, they will be regarded as mother and son by passers-by when they walk together, he is very inferior and would rather not see each other. However, a few days later, Die Wu finally found Shi Lei after several inquiries. At an intersection, she took his hand and walked through the contemptuous crowd and the turbulent traffic. They went to the park, sat under the cherry tree, talked quietly, and told about their encounters over the years. Shi Lei said: A few days ago, I saw you on the street... Die Wu said: Then why don't you call me? Shi Lei said: I dare not. Die Wu said: You are no longer the child who is afraid to cross the road. Shi Lei said: Die Wu, I want to marry you, if it wasn't for your incurable disease, I wouldn't dare to say this to you. Die Wu said: I told you, I have AIDS. Shi Lei said: That's why I dare to ask you. Die Wu said: You are so stupid, but I am not wrong about you, I know that only you care about me most in this world. Shi Lei said: That's right, people all over the world don't want you, but I do. Die Wu said: I had a dream, dreaming that I was a Bodhisattva descending to save all living beings. Shi Lei said: After you die, I will become a monk, and I am willing to spend my whole life with you. Die Wu said: Fate has its own destiny. Shi Lei said: I still can't believe it, how did you get sick? Die Wu said, "It's not important to talk about it now. How I got AIDS is fate. I don't want to pursue anything." Shi Lei said: I know you believe in Buddhism and have a good heart. Die Wu said: But there is one person I must find. I have infected him with AIDS. I must tell him and apologize. Shi Lei said: Then you definitely didn't do it on purpose, who is it? Die Wu said: It is the cripple who sails the boat at the pier, he might kill me. Shi Lei said: I will go with you. Die Wu said: I will settle my own affairs. I am going to die, and I will entrust you with my dream. Shi Lei said: I still want to marry you, even if you have AIDS, even if it's only for a few days, even if we don't do anything. Die Wu said: I still remember that we buried a bottle under this tree, which contained the wishes we made. Shi Lei said: I don't know if the bottle is still there. Die Wu said: What is your wish? Shi Lei said: I like to walk with you, I hope to keep walking, this is the wish I made back then... After Shi Lei finished speaking, tears welled up and his heart ached.Die Wu confessed some things to him, went to the pier alone, and never came back.When the cripple heard that he was infected with AIDS by Die Wu, he was furious. After beating Die Wu with a folding stool, he was still angry, and then hit Die Wu's head with an ashtray several times.After Die Wu's death, the cripple stuffed a bottle into Die Wu's lower body and sewed it up with a needle and thread. He said viciously: "Let you hurt people again!" Shi Lei quietly waited for Die Wu, but learned the news of Die Wu's death from the police. This little boy who dared not even cross the road, Die Wu's death gave him great courage.He bought gasoline and set fire to the cripple's boat. The cripple was burned and sent to the hospital. He chased the cripple to the hospital and killed the cripple with a knife. While escaping, Shi Lei broke into the elevator with a bloody knife, and the two policemen were only one step away from catching him. There was a woman wearing a long skirt in the elevator. Shi Lei realized that the police would intercept him on the first floor, so he pressed the button for the underground parking lot on the first floor, and then threatened the woman, saying: This knife has HIV, if it touches it, it will kill you. No life, do me a favor and let me hide. The woman said: Don't kill me, please, where are you hiding? Shi Lei got into the woman's skirt, he squatted down, and pressed the knife against the woman's lower body. The elevator went down from the tenth floor, and some people came up one after another from the ninth and eighth floors. The elevator was overcrowded. The woman stood aside and did not dare to move or call for help. She was frightened, fearing that the dwarf under her skirt would stab her with a knife .When the elevator went down to the seventh floor, a person walked in. The elevator was overweight, so he had to go out. The person accidentally saw a woman standing aside with a pale face and a pair of feet under her skirt. He decisively called 110 to call the police. When they went down to the first floor, the crowd walked out of the elevator. The police who were in charge of intercepting them were negligent. Seeing that there were no dwarves in the elevator, they turned their heads and went straight to the stairs. Shi Lei escaped from the underground parking lot on the first floor, he said sorry to the woman, and then said, thank you. The woman said: Did you kill someone? I still advise you to surrender yourself? Shi Lei said: I will make amends, but not in prison. Although the police issued an arrest warrant and deployed emergency control at the station to prevent the murderer from escaping, Shi Lei was never captured. After a period of time, Die Wu's body was sent to the funeral parlor for cremation, and some crystals were found in her ashes, which were crystal clear like beads and colorful.The funeral home workers were amazed. Diewu's parents were devout Buddhists, and after seeing this, they chanted "Amitabha Buddha" in unison. Su Mei said: "It's unbelievable, these beads look like relics!" Bao Zhan said: I heard that only eminent monks can burn relics. Hualong said: Shi Lei fell in love with a female Bodhisattva, I don't know where he will go to atone for his sin. Professor Liang said: In addition to prisons, there should be temples, but there are so many temples and pure Buddhist sites in the country, it is impossible for the police to search them one by one. Hualong said: Could it be that Shi Lei became a monk? Su Mei said: Die Wu felt that she was the Bodhisattva Guanyin who came down to save all living beings. Professor Liang said: I think of the clavicle Bodhisattva recorded in "Xuxuan Guailu". "In the past, there was a woman in Yanzhou. She was fair-skinned and quite handsome. She could be twenty-four or five years old. She traveled alone in the city, and her young son traveled with her. She had nothing to do with her. She died after several years. It is a pity that we will buy the funeral tools together and bury it. Because he has no home, he is on the left side of the road. In the Dali calendar, suddenly a Hu monk came from the west. When he saw the tomb, he sat down, saluted and burned incense, and surrounded him for several days. People Seeing it, he said, "This man who spoils a woman is the best of his husband. Because he has no belongings, he is here. How does the monk respect evil? The monk said, it is not known to Tanyue, but Si is a great sage. He is compassionate, willing to give up, and worldly desires. This is the clavicle Bodhisattva, whose fate has been exhausted, the sage has no ears, if you don’t believe it, you can test it out. Everyone opened the tomb and looked at the bones all over the body. The hooks and knots are like locks, as the monk said. People are different, in order to set up a big fast and build a pagoda."