Chapter 13 Chapter Thirteen I survived the hardest days like this

You really want to die, but you can't die, and then you find that it's good to be alive, it's as simple as that. ——This is how I survived the trough in my life. In actual work, I fainted three times in total. He was standing and talking at the beginning, but suddenly fell down. This happened three times. My character is like this, I can't lose, I have to win.Because you can't afford to lose, if you lose, you have nothing.My original belief in making money was very simple, that is, to buy a house for my girlfriend.For this purpose, even unscrupulous means can be used. Also for the sake of my own face, I want to live with more self-esteem and prove my worth.

The phrase "Don't judge a hero by success or failure" is used to comfort the losers. Most of the time, how much money you earn directly represents your personal ability. When I was in a bad situation before, no one ever took the initiative to invite me to dinner, and it was deserted. But it’s different now. When I go back to my hometown, there will be many dinner parties with my classmates and relatives. They don’t call me by my name, but just call me “Mr. X”, which makes me very awkward. This feeling is very tiring, so now, I want to be myself, let my subordinates live well, and lead them to defeat foreigners. This is my current belief.

There are ups and downs in a person's life. At the lowest point of my life, I even thought about suicide. At that time, a virus was spreading across the country. It seemed to be very serious, and it would kill you if you caught it.At that time, I experienced a double blow in my relationship and career, and I had a high fever again, so I locked myself at home, turned off my mobile phone, drew the curtains, and only put a bottle of water by the bed. At that time, I just wanted to die, my whole body was cold, and I covered three quilts with my coat draped over them, still swinging. In this way, I lay unconscious on the bed for four days and five nights, neither eating nor drinking, my whole body was disfigured in the mirror, and a thick layer of dead skin formed on my lips.I looked at the calendar and realized that I had been in a coma for four days and five nights, but I was not dead yet. In fact, if I had died then, I would have died.

After the fifth night, in the morning, I opened the curtains, a ray of sunlight came in, and I was not dead. I felt hungry, so I leaned against the wall and went downstairs to find something to eat. This is human survival instinct. You really want to die, but you can't die, and then you find that it's good to be alive, it's as simple as that. This is how I survived the trough in my life. In actual work, I fainted three times in total. He was standing and talking at the beginning, but suddenly fell down. This happened three times. My character is like this, I can't lose, I have to win.Because you can't afford to lose, if you lose, you have nothing.

There used to be a small client who brought me 2,000 yuan in profit every month. He liked playing poker very much, and he always liked to call me over every time he played poker. At that time, the company was very small, and customers like this who only earned 2,000 yuan a month from him had to be cautious. As soon as he called, I had to go. I really didn't want to go, but there was no way. I went over, smiled, and said, "I don't know how to play cards either, so I'll wait for you." Standing right behind them, serving tea and pouring water, one stand lasted all night.

The next night, I called again. Although I really didn't want to go, there was no other way. This is not a difficult customer. When you meet a perverted customer and pull this business, he will let you drink. It's not just drinking, there are many things mixed in it, such as chili noodles, pepper powder, Erguotou, soy sauce and so on. Put such a glass of wine in the middle, turn around, and whoever points to it will drink it.You don't have to drink it, just put five hundred dollars on the plate, and then turn around. There are many people who don't want to drink, and there is a lot of money on the plate. Although such a glass of wine is extremely difficult to drink, I still hope that I can be pointed out.I drank this glass of wine, the money on the plate is mine, and the company's daily necessities for the next month will be settled.

After drinking that kind of wine, people feel like throwing up, but you have to swallow it, and after a while, you secretly go to the toilet and pick it out with your hands, and you are going to drink it later. In the early days of starting a business, there were many things like drinking and serving the bureau. I don't have money to play cards, so I can only stand by and pass cigarettes. If there is no tea, I will pour it, just like a servant. When I have money in the future, I will also play cards with clients and deliberately lose to them. This is also a strategy of public relations.But I don't like people who play cards, for example, if someone else plays one hundred, he insists on playing one thousand or ten thousand with you, as if he is the god of gamblers, especially capable of fighting.

Once, when I met such a person, I either pestered him to "play big" or placed too many bets.This kind of person's mentality is very subtle. If you are afraid or cowardly, he will be happy-how about it, I know that you dare not, a guy who can't afford to lose.That's what he thought. I saw that he was excited, so I found a fruit knife, stuck it on the table, and said, "It's no fun to play those games. If we are like this, whoever loses can chop off a finger, an arm, or a thigh." That buddy gave in at the time and said, "You're just kidding, why make such a big bet?" When you meet me again in the future, you will have a lot of rules and stop bluffing.

I use this example to say that this kind of life is very boring, but you have to get involved. The life I yearn for is in a place like Tibet, where there is a very modern caravan with great sound, which can take me around and stop and enjoy it when I get to places I like. After driving, I found a grassland and a puddle, so I stopped to live for a few days. This kind of life is very luxurious for me, because there is a premise: you no longer worry about money. It's hard to do. I used to go to school at three o'clock and one line, but now I go to work, and I just sit in the office, solve problems, and hold meetings.

I haven’t been to the cinema for many years, people go in pairs, it’s too bleak for me to go alone, and I don’t have time. For enjoying life, my current feelings are: Everyone can enjoy bitterness, but sweetness does not mean that everyone can enjoy it. There are many comments on this sentence, and different aspects have different perceptions.For example, family, "every family has its own scriptures that are hard to recite", "happy families are all alike, but unhappy families are unhappy in their own way" and so on.As for life, with the exception of a very few heavenly favored ones, who live their lives smoothly and flourish, the vast majority of ordinary people have to endure hardships, struggle, and go through all kinds of tribulations.As for the sweetness of suffering, whether you can lick the "sweetness" into your mouth, whether you have this life, it is hard to say.

Perhaps because of running a business, I often have a very strong sense of urgency. Worry about the world's worries first, and enjoy the world's joys later. This sentence is not empty talk, not a show.People who have no foresight must have near-term worries. Gates once said: Even the best companies are only eighteen months away from bankruptcy. Therefore, I suffered a lot, and when it was time to reap the sweet fruits, I couldn't eat any more.Because I ate too much bitter fruit before, the taste was too strong, and I couldn't get used to it. The life attitude I advocate can be summed up in three sentences: Keep a high-level heart, form a medium-level relationship, and enjoy the low-level blessings. Keeping the uppermost mind means that your life goals must be lofty, and "everything is long-term, you should look at it"; forming a middle-level relationship means not forcing it, and you can go as far as you can, and don't do things beyond your own ability. Things; to enjoy the lower blessings is to live with the situation, happiness is not drizzle, happiness is also drizzle. If I have time, I would rather stay at home and write calligraphy.Now I am more and more like quiet, simple, but I don't like socializing. I recruited a team under my hand, a few very beautiful girls, the "beauty team", who are eloquent and responsive, and when encountering difficult customers, they are sent out, and usually they can be successfully won. Look at my life, it's a bit like an ascetic, or a lot like what some retired senior intellectuals do. I am born in the 1980s, but my mental age is already very old now. I can eat and sing karaoke with my employees, but I don't have the joy and sorrow of young people, and my expression looks more serious. During karaoke, I usually drink with them for a while, then go out to pay the money, and leave early. Therefore, some little girls are very curious about me, and they may think that I am the kind of monster who does not eat the fireworks of the world. There have also been some small episodes and small affairs, which will be discussed later. Running a business is completely different from being an official. After being an official for a long time, the more I want to climb up, the more I want to be a high-ranking official.But doing business is different. After doing business for a long time, you will feel very tired. Although you also have a huge sense of accomplishment, that kind of tiredness penetrates into the bone marrow. A friend who is a provincial official once said to me in a heart-to-heart conversation: Brother, you always criticize us officials for rushing upwards.This is because you have never been an official and don't know what it feels like to be an official.That kind of feeling is really very useful, that is, not being corrupt and accepting bribes, the kind of official prestige, such as shouting and hugging, pointing out the country, giving me a wink, etc., also makes people feel that this life has not been in vain.And the bigger the official, the more obvious this feeling will be. I was so tired that I didn't want to think about anything anymore. It's strange that so many people are looking for meaning: the meaning of living, the meaning of dying, the meaning of love, the meaning of life, the meaning of travel... Shit, does everything have to be meaningful?There is no need to think about what is meaningful, and it is useless to think about what is meaningless.Do whatever you want, what’s the big deal, just live for decades: the first 20 years, it’s not as good as shit, and the next 20 years, it’s not as good as shit, and in the middle of these 20 years, I still think about the meaning of shit. This was my negative form at the time. I have earned money, but I want to live a quiet life, and my material requirements have become very low. The house is meaningless to me. My girlfriend has already run away with someone else. If I have a chance, I still want to go abroad. In the most difficult time, when the company had no money, I took out loan sharks.Because no one will help you, you can only rely on yourself, and you can only borrow usury. What is usury?It’s the underworld. If you borrow 10,000 today, the interest will be 500 tomorrow, and if you delay it the day after tomorrow, you will get 1,000, and if you delay it one day, you will get 2,000, which is doubled. When the time limit comes, if you don't pay back the money, the underworld will come to your door to deal with you. I took out a loan shark at that time, but I was beaten by the underworld because I couldn't pay it back. A group of them surrounded me and asked me to pay back the money. When I said no, I was kicked to the ground and beaten. Many neighbors around are watching from a distance, and no one will come to help you.There was an assistant police not far away, but they pretended not to see it. In such an environment, even if he was really beaten to death by the underworld, he would die. Many people die every day in Guangzhou, and it is normal for one person to die. They (the underworld) dragged me to a nearby small park, beat me up, and threatened me before leaving, saying: "If you don't pay back the money tomorrow, be careful of your dog's life." I said: "If you kill me, the money will be gone; if you cripple me, the time for me to pay back the money may be extended; but if you let me live, I will definitely pay you back the money." of." When they heard it, they thought it made sense, so they let me go and went back. Before leaving, a stick was stabbed in my back, with the tip of the stick, it was very painful. And "buy one get two free", slapped me twice. I stood up, patted the dirt off my body, went home, and went to sleep. The next night, I had no money to pay back, so I was beaten again. The man who beat me stepped on my feet and my head with his shoes, insisting on forcing me to kneel down to him. I survived the hardest days, and reading books every day made my heart less painful.I endured the most unbearable time, and when I encounter difficulties in the future, I will feel that it is nothing more than that. Being beaten, trampled on my feet, threatened not to see the sun tomorrow morning, this is the most difficult part of my life. Now, when it comes to these things, I can behave very plainly, because they are all in the past.However, at least a year ago, if I thought of these things, I might burst into tears, and I was really wronged. Except for your personality, you really have to let go of everything and be a rogue. Do you want money, but there is one thing, the underworld will see it, wow, you are more ruthless than me, so let's give it a few days. That's how you survived. That sum of money, I borrowed 10,000 at the beginning, and finally repaid 30,000, which is what usury is like. No one forces you to borrow usury, but you can’t do it if you don’t borrow it. If you borrow it, you have to pay huge interest. If you don’t borrow the company, it’s over.Therefore, many people now see that I make some money every month, and think it is really good. That is when they only saw wolves eating meat, wolves being beaten, and finding a place where no one was around to lick their own blood. Who saw it? My body is very thin now, and my back hurts when it is cloudy and rainy (I was beaten with a stick by the underworld), and my ears often ring in the ears. One ear was slapped by the underworld, and the other ear was slapped by my ex-girlfriend. She forced me to sever ties with my family, and quarreled with me all day long for money. The worst time I slapped me was nineteen times. , I couldn't hear at that time, I was deaf. She came to Guangzhou with me. Although I had no money at first, I worked hard to make money for her and worked several jobs at the same time.For her, I would have given up my life, but she abandoned me, a man who could die for her. So, until now, I haven't found a girlfriend again. Except for work, I don't talk much at ordinary times, and some things can only be held in my stomach. Once, when I was wronged, I ran to the balcony and cried a lot.My mother saw it at the time and was terrified. I said it was okay, wiped away my tears after crying, and went back to work. When your mentality is tilted, you can go to a few places to see: Orphanage, far away from the warmth of relatives, is the greatest misfortune in life; remote mountainous areas, poverty is nothing, only to face the reality, survival is the last word; hospital, life is the most worthwhile Cherish, everything else is just floating clouds; graveyard, no matter how much you have, you will end up with the same goal in the end, properly reduce the pursuit of material desires - when your mentality is balanced, you are redeeming yourself. Sunny October 20, 2011 After a three-day holiday trip, I went back to the company to enjoy a film. The film is very long, but the plot is very simple.After watching it, a long-lost belief brought me into that role. I felt that I was Forrest Gump in the movie, and it seemed that I was Forrest Gump in the past. Forrest Gump, a child with an IQ of only 75% of normal people and a congenital disability, has grown from scratch, from joy to sorrow, and the whole film runs through this belief: as long as you work hard, God will never abandon you. you!During his childhood, he was unable to go to school because of his IQ and disability. His mother maintained the dignity of her son and encouraged her son to live like an ordinary person.In order to let her son go to school, when facing the difficult principal, she can let herself be humiliated in exchange for her child to enjoy the education that normal children should enjoy.On the school bus, A-Gump met Jenny, his lifelong best friend. In his lonely childhood, it was the happiest thing to have a good friend to play with and swing with him.He never felt like a disabled kid in front of Jenny.The days with Jenny added a touch of joy to his gray childhood. In order to avoid that rough father, Jenny and Forrest Gump prayed to God, praying that they could become a bird and fly away from this pain immediately the zone... Ordinary childhood always has some unpleasant experiences. A group of neighborhood kids always like to throw stones at him. He always avoids in a hurry. His mother and Jenny have always cared about him. When he was hit by someone, he kept running , running non-stop.Despite being disabled, he still took those disabled legs. Supported by the belief in running, he started running non-stop. During the running, he threw off his pair of disabled feet and recovered. the health of the feet.At that moment, the light music sounded, and the feeling was always touching and exciting.From childhood to adulthood, he has been insisting on running, just because of Jenny's words: Run, keep running always! Maybe it’s the blessing of being a fool. He has developed a pair of legs that are good at running. No matter how far he goes, he insists on running. That is Jenny’s words, which run through the whole film. In Forrest Gump, we see many things that those of us who look at the world with complex eyes cannot see, such as honesty, trustworthiness, kindness, bravery, and sincerity.With those fast legs, he has run through spring, summer, autumn and winter, college football, the Vietnam War, the president's side, and the diplomatic ping-pong field... He always looks at the world with a simple and optimistic mind, regardless of the future How, never think about it, just keep running, Just running, run for running!Who would have thought that he would achieve the joy of success time and time again, and inadvertently become a rich man.This kind of pure belief and spirit is the key to supporting him, but this kind of spirit just represents the generation that made progress in the United States in the 1970s, and it is also the spiritual element that our generation lacks. In a small clip in the movie, on the battlefield of the Vietnam War, Babu is lying in the arms of Forrest Gump, and the last sentence is: I want to come back home! —— I want to go home.It touched me very much. This sentence represents how many people in the free world want to go back to the age and spiritual world they lived in the past, and pursue the state of truth, goodness and beauty at that moment.Who doesn't want to go home? People who come out to wander, when they hear this sentence, there will always be a hint of sadness. We really miss home... But home is too far away from us! A-Gump's mother can always tell A-Gump a correct truth in a simple sentence: "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what the next piece will taste like!" He never considers whether the next piece of chocolate is sour or sweet, but just accepts it calmly. He has never forced anything or expected anything, but only touches the world with his honesty and innocence. In contrast, us secular people are always complacent about our own little cleverness, we are really too small.From Forrest Gump's point of view, I am the one who really has a low IQ, and I am the imperfect person who worries about gains and losses, but actually loses more.Maybe God didn't put all the luck in our hands. What we should do is to accept, perfect, and live an optimistic and active life with an ordinary attitude.Don't worry about whether the next piece of chocolate in your life will be sour or bitter. No one knows what the future will be like.To live and accept calmly is the state and happiness we should enjoy. The film always uses a calm and gentle feeling to tell his story by Forrest Gump himself. Except for the part about the Vietnam War that makes you feel a little bit shocking, the overall narration of this story is indifferent, including Forrest Gump's mother and Jenny. His death is so beautiful.Although facing life and death, he still maintains a warm and kind attitude.There is no heartbreaking, no grief, the passing of a life can be expressed so indifferently, just as A-Gump's mother said: "The time has come, the hour has come, death is only a part of life, it is predestined." I think Forrest Gump should have influenced a generation. He is a child with a low IQ and a man who has suffered a lot. He is a warrior who repeatedly struggles in the river of fate. He is a son and a husband. He is a father, and he is also a friend. From any ordinary angle, he has his place. Forrest Gump's last life was quiet and peaceful. Jenny returned to Forrest Gump at the end. This film has won almost all the Oscar awards, and it is deeply moving but full of deep belief!We all need Forrest Gump, we all need to be Forrest Gump!