Chapter 21 Chapter 20 The Release of Love

I thought maybe everything would be like this, and Chen Yang would never know that I love her for the rest of his life.I will keep my promise and marry Zhao Qianqian, and she will be kept in the dark by me, thinking that she is very happy. However, sometimes fate just likes to play jokes on people.I forgot whether it was Saturday or Sunday, as if every important thing between me and Chen Yang would happen on the weekend.That's right, the student party, only on Saturdays and Sundays can you do what you want freely. Since my parents are away on a business trip, and my roommates are also in the dormitory this weekend, I didn't go home, but stayed in the dormitory to play black and play DOTA with my roommates.

While playing in full swing, my cell phone rang.At first I thought it was Zhao Qianqian calling, so I ignored it. The phone was hung up when no one answered, and then rang again.Zhao Qianqian has always been very witty and not clingy like other girls. If I didn't answer, she would never call her again, but would call her when I was free. I glanced at the phone and saw that it was Chen Yang, so I quickly picked it up. I heard her crying over the phone. Growing up, I only saw her cry four times.The first time was when I protested to the teacher in the third grade that I could not be at the same table with me. The second time was when I was no longer allowed to be at the same school as me in the third grade because of poor grades. The third time was because Zhao Qianqiao was pregnant and had a miscarriage.

This is the fourth time.The first three times had something to do with me, but on the fourth time, I habitually wondered if it had something to do with me again.Could it be that Zhao Qianqian is pregnant again? I panicked and asked, "What's wrong?" She said in a crying voice, "I'm at your door, why aren't you at home?" After hearing this, I didn’t even have time to turn off the computer, so I ran out with my wallet and phone in hand, saying as I ran, “I’ll go back and find you right now, wait for me, I’ll be right there.” Behind me was the scolding of my roommates.I admit that I am the pig-like teammate they said, who value sex over friends, regard them as brothers of centipedes, and regard Chen Yang as winter clothes.

But I don't care, all I can think about is that Chen Yang should be safe and sound, and nothing will happen to him.As long as Chen Yang is safe and sound, it doesn't matter if I can't pass the game after playing games for the rest of my life. The 30-minute drive from school to my home feels like a hell of a long way to go.I was running in the subway station, but I don't remember how many times I bumped into people, and how many times I was scolded for being crazy. I ran downstairs to my house out of breath, it was already past five o'clock in the afternoon.The sky started to turn golden, and I saw Chen Yang by the flower bed downstairs, her head was buried in her legs, and her body was trembling slightly.

"Chen Yang." I patted her on the shoulder.My heart was seized and I felt very uncomfortable. She raised her head, with tears on her face, and forced a wry smile: "Yang Jie, you are finally back." I felt more and more uncomfortable, and gently wiped away her tears: "Grandma, stop laughing, laughing is uglier than crying." She ignored me and walked straight to my house, but I followed her like a guest.I asked her anxiously, "What's wrong with you?" Seeing that she didn't speak, I couldn't help but continue to ask: "What's the matter? Are you talking?"

She turned and glared at me, making me shut up as if I had done something wrong. After going upstairs and opening the door, Chen Yang lay down on the sofa as if lost his soul.I brought her her favorite snacks, white rabbit toffee, Xizhilang jelly, potato chips, spicy sticks, beef jerky... My cat ran over again, staring at the almonds and looking at us, yelling for food. Chen Yang sucked on the jelly and said to me after a long while: "Huang Feng and I have that." Her tears flowed out and fell on the sofa. I froze for a moment, and asked calmly, "Isn't it forced?"

She replied with a flat mouth: "No, I voluntarily." "Then why are you crying?" My eyes were a little sore, I turned my head and pretended to look out the window, "You two are grown-ups, it's normal for men and women to love each other, do you need to tell me such things?" Holding the tissue box, Chen Yang first took out a piece of tissue to wipe his tears, then another piece of paper to wipe his nose, and then another piece of paper to wipe his tears: "It's my first time, but I didn't bleed. Huang Feng said I was pretending to be a virgin."

When I heard it, I immediately became angry.It's fine for him to get the treasure in my heart, but he doesn't even cherish it. The more I thought about it, the angrier I became, I couldn't help gnashing my teeth: "I want to talk to Huang Feng." I got up and was about to leave, but Chen Yang grabbed me and shouted, "You don't think it's messy enough?" I got into a fight with her, and I said, "You're still in good spirits, who was crying like a dead grandma just now? What's the matter? Are you afraid of him? I'm not afraid of you if you are afraid of him!"

"Who's afraid of him? I just don't want to have anything to do with him." She pressed her chin on the back of her hand and bit her lips, "I've cried, and I want to let it go. If you don't believe me, forget it. I'll break up with him tomorrow. Losing a good girl like me is his loss, and one day he will regret it." Seeing that Chen Yang stopped crying and looked relieved, I'm sure she really wants to leave. I agreed with her: "Yes, this kind of scum should have broken up long ago." I got up again and was about to go out again, but she stood up and stared at me vigilantly: "What are you doing?" I knew her well, she was afraid that I would fight Huang Feng desperately.

"Go and buy Yuting for you." She said "oh" and let me go. I bought Yu Ting and took it home.At this time, she was sitting on the sofa watching TV sullenly.I coaxed her to take the medicine and meals, and then watched TV with her. It's strange, usually the two of us talk a lot, but we were extremely silent that day. At about nine o'clock, I asked Chen Yang in a tentative tone: "Shall I take you home?" Chen Yang puffed up his cheeks and looked lonely: "I told my parents that I will not be going back to school today." I flattered her: "Then you sleep in the guest room later?"

She glanced at me: "You sleep in the guest room, I want to sleep in your room." Seeing that she was finally domineering with her teeth and claws as usual, I was happy in my heart, and I completely obeyed her: "Okay, okay, you have the final say. Goddess Chen Yang is radiant, and the blessings are equal to the sky." "Get out of the way." She cast a disdainful look at me, "Delay my mother from watching TV, drag her out and shoot her." I pretended to be shot and fell to the ground on the sofa, making her gasp Laughed at once. "Yang Jie, it's great to have a buddy like you." "That's it." I said with a smile, "You said you were blind or not, and you always wanted to find someone else to fall in love with me when you were by your side." "Rabbits don't eat grass by the side of the nest." Chen Yang pinched my pillow like instant noodles, bit his mouth, "If I fail to fall in love with you, no one will comfort me." I originally wanted to object, and wanted to tell her why it would definitely fail?But thinking of her being unhappy today, she just scratched her head and smirked. At ten o'clock, Chen Yang couldn't bear it anymore and fell asleep while sitting on the sofa.I shook her to try to wake her up, but she fell asleep like a pig, so I carried her into my room with my arms. I threw her on my bed, covered her with the covers, and sat on the edge of the bed, watching her intently. Her face was clear and serene, although her eyes were swollen.I looked at her, feeling distressed and at the same time warm. This is love, no matter what she becomes, I still like her and think she is the best. I thought she was fast asleep and reached out to stroke her hair.As a result, she suddenly opened her eyes and stared at me vigilantly: "What are you doing?" I retracted my hand, flustered, and said hehe: "No reason." Chen Yang complained: "You threw me on the bed so hard, do you think I can still fall asleep? I pretended to be asleep for a long time, why are you going on and on, why don't you leave?" "Go now! Go now!" I was a little embarrassed, and scratched my head, "Hey, do you know that people can scare people to death? You opened your eyes suddenly, like a fake corpse." She narrowed her eyes and laughed: "Really?" I nodded: "Yes." I looked at her face, that face that I have seen for more than ten years and I still can’t get tired of seeing it. I just felt that the time went back to the first grade of elementary school. The girl with the double ponytail grinned and said to me, "From today From now on, you are my deskmate, so you have to listen to me in everything."At that time, I thought I had fallen in love with her, but I didn't understand love at that time. I leaned over and kissed her mouth like a splash of water.This is the second time I kiss her.The first time was at the end of the third year of junior high school. One day at noon, she was sleeping on the table. I secretly touched her cheek like a chicken pecking rice, and gave my first kiss. I froze, and she froze too. I raised my body and coughed a few times, turned my face away to avoid embarrassment: "I'm going to sleep in the guest room." I was about to get up when she grabbed my hand.She didn't say a word, just took my hand.Slowly, I lay down beside her. I feel like I should be excited, but I'm actually nervous.Because of my nervousness, at first she and I just lay arm in arm and side by side.When I was less nervous, I tried to turn around and hug her. She didn't refuse me, so I tried to go one step further, carefully kissing her face and kissing her lips. She returns my kiss. We kissed passionately, as if we wanted to make up for everything we missed.We kissed passionately, no need for extra words, a kiss is enough to express emotions stronger than vows of eternal love. We hugged and kissed unrestrainedly, we didn't sleep, and kissed until dawn the next day.Just kisses and nothing else.I can't bear it, even though she slept with Huang Feng, I still can't bear to touch her. We talked a lot. I told Chen Yang that I have been in love with her since I was seven years old, no, I fell in love with her.She said I was a fool not to see that she liked me when I was a kid. I said you are stupid, remember one day, I let you look into my eyes.Li Rou said that when I looked at you, there were sparks and lightning in my eyes, so I ran to let you look into my eyes.In the end, you said that there was shit in my eyes. Do you know how much courage I mustered up to confess my love to you, but in the end, you ruined what I wanted to say. Chen Yang said that there was shit in your eyes.Your eyes are as big as mung beans, who can see clearly when shit is blurred? I justify, it's obviously a mung bean frog, okay? Chen Yang argued with me: "I said it was mung bean, it was mung bean, you won't accept it and hit me?" I flicked her forehead lightly: "A good man doesn't fight with a woman." I continued, I secretly kissed you in the classroom in the third year of junior high school. Chen Yang said that I was much earlier than you, the first day of junior high school. I said the confession on April Fool's Day was not a joke, but a serious one. Chen Yang said that she was also serious, and she cried sadly when she saw that I lied to her. I said that I gave the rose for the freshman military training. Chen Yang said that she dressed up and even made boyfriends all the time to attract my attention and make me jealous, and then told him that I liked her.Although sometimes she does become nympho, but she always likes me in her heart. Chen Yang also said that when she introduced Zhao Qianqian to me as her girlfriend, she wanted me to reject her, but she didn't expect me to agree.She pouted and said, "You're such a fool that you can't see that my happiness is fake." I asked back: "Aren't you stupid? Wouldn't you tell her that I didn't agree?" She started arguing with me: "If I said you didn't agree earlier, and later you told her that you like her, wouldn't I be slapped in the face?" I said, "Don't you see that I didn't want to say yes at all?" My words hit Chen Yang's sore spot, she fell silent with a sad face. This topic is too heavy, and uncovering it is as uncomfortable as peeling the skin.I remained silent, and when her face calmed down and I felt better, I looked into her eyes and said very seriously, "Then shall we be together now?" She closed her eyes and avoided my sight: "You promised me to spend the rest of my life with Qianqian." The air instantly froze, and I felt like I was being lifted from the sky to the abyss.I became a little annoyed and asked her: "Then what is tonight?" Chen Yang's tone was cold: "Just treat tonight as a dream. When you wake up from the dream, I'm still your best friend, and I'm still Zhao Qianqian's best girlfriend." She bit her lips, "You and Zhao Qianqian should have a good time. , you promised me that you would treat her well for the rest of your life." I don't want to believe it's her true words. I held her tightly, for fear that she would leave me and disappear from my sight.I sealed her mouth with my lips and kissed her furiously to keep her from talking.She kept her eyes closed as if she was asleep, she didn't say anything, but her face was stubborn. How I wish it never dawned, that time stood still forever, or that it was the end of the world.That way I can be with her all the time, all the time.But it was still light. I don't want to treat this night like a dream like she said, I can't. I love her for almost thirteen years.It takes thirteen years to love someone, until the end, people tend to become extremely stubborn. I firmly said to her: "Give me a month, and I'll deal with the matter between me and Qianqian." Whether it's being scolded as a scum, or being retaliated against, as long as I'm with her, everything doesn't matter. She looked at me in shock and yelled in panic: "You can't break up with Qianqian, you owe her!" At that moment, I felt as if someone had pierced my heart.I wanted to refute but was unable to refute. Zhao Qianqian's abortion because of my pregnancy became a curse that I could not escape. The happiest thing for a person is to dream about the future with the person we love, but I have no future with her.I raised my head high to stop the tears from streaming down. A long silence followed.I lay in bed thinking wildly, and I don't know how long it took before I fell asleep.It was already evening when I woke up, I subconsciously reached out to touch Chen Yang, but only touched the quilt. Chen Yang didn't know when he had already left.