Chapter 15 Chapter Fourteen Alienation

Although the university military training is rigorous, it is much easier than the college entrance examination.The tense nerves can be relaxed, and with time, the students have more energy to discuss the issues of men and women. The boys often get together, and you talk to each other, commenting on all the pretty girls in the school. "XX looks good, her skin is so fair" "The tall girl in the third class is a bit like Liu Yifei" "XX is also good, her face is really beautiful, she is just wrapped in a camouflage uniform, I don't know what her figure is"... Some people just admire it, while others regard girls as objects of lust.Some people rush to confess their love to the person they like, but some people bury their love in their hearts. The winners are happy, and the losers are sad.

Chen Yang is handsome and pleasant, and has a carefree personality, which can easily attract the attention of boys, but naturally he cannot escape the fate of being chased.However, because I often appear around her, most boys think that she is famous and beautiful, so they have to stay away, but talking about it is still inevitable. Before a large assembly, the students in the class sat in the shade of the teaching building to rest.For some reason, someone suddenly mentioned Chen Yang. Boy A poked me enviously and said, "My buddy, it's not bad. I'm looking for such a beautiful girlfriend as soon as I come here."

I was in a daze at the time, and I couldn't react for a while, but the scene was so familiar, so I explained habitually: "No, we are classmates and good friends for twelve years." After I finished speaking, I regretted a little.My words are clearly giving others an opportunity to take advantage of, and I seem to have been doing such things, constantly denying my feelings for Chen Yang, and constantly denying myself outside Chen Yang's world. "Ah? Really? I thought you two were boyfriend and girlfriend! I feel that Chen Yang is with you, and he is completely different. Although she usually smiles brightly, when you are around, she smiles It’s very pompous and a bit ostentatious.”

I didn't know how to answer, so I just smiled awkwardly.Boy B came to the rescue: "Don't talk nonsense, brother Yang has a girlfriend, and his girlfriend is prettier than Chen Yang." As my high school classmate B, it has certain credibility.When everyone heard this, they immediately rolled up their sleeves, as if they were going to beat me violently: "Damn it, Yang Jie, why don't you ask De He Neng! The Yingying and Yanyan around me are almost catching up with Yang." However, no matter how many peaches, reds, willows and greens are around Yang Guo, they can't compare with the little dragon girl in light gauze and plain clothes. Said to break up, can only sigh silently in my heart.

The rest time is always very short. After everyone made a fuss for a while, the instructor's whistle sounded. For some reason, classmate A seemed to be a little bit unwilling to give up. When everyone hurried to gather, he said to me again: "Brother Yang, I really think Chen Yang is interesting to you." During the whole day of military training, the words of A echoed in my mind.I like Chen Yang, this is an undeniable fact, if it is true as A said, Chen Yang also likes me, why should we continue to waste time? After a day of training was finally over, everyone walked shoulder to shoulder and went to the dining hall to eat.

I have been walking in the end without saying a word, and just made up my mind, this time I can't be cowardly anymore, I must hurry up to show my cards with Zhao Qianqian and express my heart to Chen Yang.But A suddenly came to my side, and said with a playful smile: "Brother Yang, give me a trick, I want to chase Chen Yang. You can't delay Guo Xiang by having a little dragon girl, can you?" It turned out that this guy was playing this wishful thinking.I really want to tie up my armor and beat me bitterly. With the experience I had in the freshman year of high school, and for my own sake, I hit A: "Don't chase after her, she has high vision."

"What if we catch up?" A said with a smirk, and invited other boys to bet: "If you want to chase Chen Yang, come and make a bet. Whoever catches up with Chen Yang, holding hands is not counted, at least kiss Just do something you like to do. The loser please go to the restaurant to have a meal." "That's a good proposal." B flattered me, "Brother Yang, please praise me more in front of Chen Yang, and I'll treat you to dinner after I catch up with her." "Even if you don't catch him, you should treat Brother Yang to dinner." Bing said, "Don't you think so?"

A group of people echoed C's words: "Yes!" I frowned and glanced at the boys who had reached a consensus and were eager to try, feeling very disgusted in my heart.Chen Yang is an inviolable existence in my heart. She is clean and pure. I cannot tolerate others betting on her—not to mention I like her, and I don't want others to pursue her to get her. I couldn't help getting angry: "You guys are not allowed to chase Chen Yang, whoever chases me is in a hurry." Jia said with a stern face: "Brother Yang, if you don't bring someone like you, it won't work if you want to build the Sangong Sixth Courtyard? You already have a girlfriend. If you eat meat by yourself, at least let me drink some soup."

I said in a choked voice: "If you want to drink soup, find someone else, don't make Chen Yang's idea." A bit me tightly, "What if I insist on hitting on her?" "I just—" I struggled for a while, gritted my teeth and said, "I'll just tell Chen Yang that you don't really like her, you're just playing with her." "Pfft—hahaha...hahaha..." A group of people laughed wildly. I was a little angry, and shouted loudly: "Stop laughing!" I know I'm out of place.I know that I should be like those high-definition businessmen advertised by people, be calm when changing, talk and laugh happily, and use four or two ways to achieve my goal.But I couldn't restrain myself. When I encountered Chen Yang's incident, my brain seemed to be short-circuited, and I couldn't make it work.

I blew my beard and stared angrily.Thinking that this can bluff people, in fact, it is similar to Don Quixote who can't distinguish between reality and imagination. No one listened to me, but laughed more and more. "Don't laugh! I told you not to laugh!" He even drank several times.Seeing that I was blushing with anger, A finally stopped and said, "It's just a joke, don't take it so seriously." B also said: "There are so many beauties in Xuejiao, there are others without Chen Yang. Brother Yang, don't mind." "Don't worry about it." The people echoed again.

The boss in my dormitory sat across from me, looked at me for a while, then suddenly smiled and said, "Third brother, I won't chase after Chen Yang, so should it be your turn to invite me to dinner?" I responded, "Just eat a piece of gum." A group of people laughed again, coaxing the boss to eat chewing gum.With such a relaxed atmosphere, everyone agreed not to chase Chen Yang.Although I feel that their feelings for Chen Yang are superficial, I am also glad that it is this superficiality that makes me succeed so easily. Afterwards, I invited a few people to eat hot pot, and they joked that they would form a small squad to protect Yang, and anyone who dared to chase Chen Yang would report to me and find a way to separate them. I guess they have already seen my feelings for Chen Yang, but they didn't point it out. They were very grateful in their hearts, and responded with a smile: "Okay." Let’s talk about our Sun Protection Squad! In fact, it is the three friends in my dormitory who really play a role.Because of the concerns about face, and I was afraid that the secret would be exposed and the world would know about it, so I didn't tell anyone that I had sent flowers to Chen Yang. Not long after Chen Yang received the flowers from me for the second time, the second child in the dormitory came to me and said, "It's terrible, someone sent flowers to Chen Yang." I pretended to be calm and said: "Chen Yang is so popular, it's normal for someone to send flowers." I tried to confuse this matter, but I didn't know that my second child was extremely warm-hearted and responsible.He told me: "No, if Chen Yang is bribed, it's too late to cry." The second brother analyzed with me that the reason why the goods only send one flower is to catch big fish for a long time, because sending too many at one time will cost more, and no one except local tyrants will send them frequently. "That guy should be a student. He is more loyal and smarter, and his family conditions are good, but he is not the kind of rich and powerful." The second child who has read too many mystery novels boldly hypothesizes, "I reckon he will be in Chen Show presence in front of Yang until she gets used to it and decides to accept him. This is a formidable enemy, so be careful. I guess if that guy will buy flowers for Chen Yang again soon, then we will stop him and throw it away. " I took my second child's words into account, and couldn't help feeling a little flustered.But after thinking about it, the logistics information is in my hands, and our school usually asks the students to pick up the courier with their student ID card after the uncle of the doorman signs it on their behalf, unless they are very familiar with it.With my innate advantages, I don't need to worry at all. But it turns out that I underestimated the abilities of my little friends. They were so worried about Rose that they even came up with the idea of ​​staying in the guard room and taking the sheep by the hand.The fourth child is in charge of asking the courier about the whereabouts of the courier, the eldest is in charge of concealing the delivery, the second child is in charge of picking it up, and I am in charge of monitoring Chen Yang and tipping off the news. The feeling of cheating myself is really sour, it's almost becoming a spy war drama.On the one hand, I have to pretend to deal with my roommate, and on the other hand, I have to make sure that Chen Yang gets the final offer without revealing my identity. In this situation, my IQ was seriously owed and shut down, and I didn't know what to do.To make matters worse, the old Siyi cousin is engaged in express delivery.He told his cousin that if there is a courier from someone of our level and department, there is no need to deliver it, and he will deliver it.I specifically asked the shopkeeper to change the delivery service, but I didn't expect that his cousin was also in charge of the delivery service. So, I could only watch helplessly as the fourth child took out the card from the cardboard box and threw it into the trash can. "Fourth brother, you are so dedicated." I patted fourth brother on the shoulder with a forced smile and praised him, but deep down in my heart, I wanted to hang fourth brother and the other two roommates and beat them. Since then, I had no choice but to send the flowers and poems to Chen Yang's home.Because I was afraid of being exposed, I only wrote the address to Chen Yang's community.Chen Yang, who kept receiving flowers, became more and more happy, thinking about meeting the sender all day long. I am also getting happier.Because Zhao Qianqian is also training in the military, the distance may really create a distance, and the contact between me and her is pitiful.Without Zhao Qianqian, it's no longer a threesome, I feel like I'm back in junior high school—no, it's like being in love, I just feel happy physically and mentally. Sadly, those days are coming to an end soon.With the end of military training, college life began to get on the right track. Chen Yang joined the student union and began to actively participate in speech contests, singing contests, debate contests, and sports competitions.She has a good personality, warm and cheerful, straightforward and not squeamish, and soon became one with teachers and classmates, and became a well-known newcomer in the department. I did well, but my personality was not as outgoing as hers, and I had few hobbies, so my circle was a bit smaller. At first, I thought that if I didn't go to the same school as Zhao Qianqian, I could have a peaceful breakup.Maybe some people think that if we break up, isn't it all over?But a woman is a creature who likes to ask why everything is happening, and also likes to connect all the clues together.If I propose to break up, Zhao Qianqian will definitely suspect Chen Yang, I don't want Chen Yang to be hurt. But things backfired.After the military training, Zhao Qianqian began to contact me frequently, and even came to school to accompany me to dinner and class.Whenever she appeared in front of everyone, Chen Yang always excitedly introduced: "This is my best friend, this is my best friend, they are a couple." The rumors about me and Chen Yang burst in an instant.Everyone in the department knows that Chen Yang and I are just good buddies, and only good buddies. Unlike high school, every time Zhao Qianqian came to me for dinner, Chen Yang always found various excuses to escape.When she is there, I am at least satisfied. When I am alone with Zhao Qianqian, I always feel a sense of loneliness in my heart. Later I asked her why she was always avoiding me, she stuck out her tongue and said with a smile: "I'm not a brazen person, how can I be your light bulb casually?!" I opened my mouth and wanted to say to her: "I don't mind, I hope you can stay." But the words kept spitting in my throat, which made me almost suffocate. I hated my cowardice and my incompetence, and I couldn't even say "I don't like Zhao Qianqian at all, the person I like is you".Probably, this has the same reason as being close to the hometown. Not only eating, I also found that every time Zhao Qianqian accompanied me to class, Chen Yang would sit with his roommate, never sitting next to me and Zhao Qianqian.Even for anything, as long as Zhao Qianqian shows up, she will find an excuse to get out of the way. She is getting more and more distant from me.This deliberately kept distance makes me always feel that something is wrong, but I can't tell what is wrong.But fortunately, when there was no Zhao Qianqian, Chen Yang still joked and fooled around with me as he did when he was a child. I still secretly send flowers to Chen Yang. Zhao Qianqian knew about Chen Yang receiving the flowers very early on.One Sunday, she asked me to watch a movie with Chen Yang.This was the first time we got together to watch a movie after we went to college, and it was also a rare time that Chen Yang didn't leave Zhao Qianqian and me behind. At that time, Chen Yang was sitting in the seventh row, and Zhao Qianqian and I were sitting in the eighth row behind Chen Yang.The movie started a little late that day, and the three of us were just chatting about doing nothing. While talking, Chen Yang mentioned the flowers he received at noon. "That man is really romantic." Zhao Qianqian glanced at me with dissatisfaction in her eyes, but she still smiled reservedly, "I have been in love with Yang Jie for so long, and I have never seen him send flowers. Give me." "Because he's stupid!" Chen Yang smiled heartlessly, "Yang Jie, Qianqian is very popular in school, many boys chase after her. If you don't pay attention, she will run away with others." The words seemed to enter Zhao Qianqian's heart, and she set her eyes on me, a look of joy, confidence and longing. "What's the point of sending flowers!" In fact, I understood what Zhao Qianqian was thinking, but I deliberately pretended to be confused, "It's better to buy a cup of Coke." "Stupid! Not at all romantic." Chen Yang shook his head and sighed, "If you can't coax girls like you, Qianqian can bear it." Zhao Qianqian pursed her lips and smiled, very ladylike, which was a bit showing off: No, Yang Jie has many advantages.Good-looking, smart, good-natured and good-natured.I consider myself lucky to have him as my boyfriend. I have to say that even if I hear people who hate me praise me, I still feel flattered.I took advantage of the situation and hit Chen Yang: "A few flowers have fascinated you, no wonder I said you are frivolous." Chen Yang fought back unconvinced: "I am willing, hum!" At this point, the movie finally started.Chen Yang made a face at me, then turned to watch the movie. I didn't expect that Zhao Qianqian would always think about sending flowers like this.Girls have a desire for romance in their bones, especially when I secretly sent roses to Chen Yang. Zhao Qianqian may have thought that it was okay if I didn't send flowers, but after the comparison, she naturally held a grudge. On the day after watching the movie, Zhao Qianqian didn't mention it.But a few days later, she came to see me, and after lunch, the two of us wandered outside the campus together.Passing by a flower shop, Zhao Qianqian suddenly stopped. "Shall I buy some flowers?" She pointed to the roses placed at the door, her cheeks flushed slightly, "We've been dating for so long, and you haven't sent me any flowers yet." I repeated my previous remarks: "What's the point of sending flowers? Do you want a drink of water? I'll buy you a Coke." I got up and walked to the convenience store next to me, but she grabbed me.She puffed up her cheeks and protested dissatisfiedly: "I don't want coke, I want flowers." Because roses symbolize love, I can't help but feel a little bit conflicted.I patiently flattered me: "Flowers are easy to wither, and they will be thrown away in a few days. It's a waste." Zhao Qianqian said: "It can be raised with culture medium, and it can be raised for a long time." I continued to try my best to refuse: "If you grow it, it will still wither, so it's better to buy something else." "I just want roses." Probably sensing my reluctance, her voice suddenly became louder, "Isn't it so difficult for you to buy hundreds or thousands of roses? If I want seven hundred Thousands of roses, I will buy them myself! I can afford even tens of thousands of roses! I just want my boyfriend to give me a rose, just one rose, is it that difficult?!" As she spoke, her eye sockets became moist. A couple stopped to watch us, whispering.The woman said the man was so stingy, and the man said the woman was pretty.Under the gaze of others, I feel so embarrassed and my cheeks are so hot - it's not that I feel guilty for being unqualified as a boyfriend, but I just don't want people who don't know me to criticize me. In order to calm down the incident, I said against my will: "I'll just send you off, don't cry." I resisted and bought roses for Zhao Qianqian.Zhao Qianqian's complexion changed like a storm, and she immediately became happy.She took the flower, put it under her nose and sniffed it carefully: "It smells so good." Suddenly, she tiptoed and kissed me again: "I love you." After the kiss, she blushed, lowered her head and smiled shyly. Very soft voice, very soft kiss. This was the first time Zhao Qianqian and I kissed, and I was stunned because it was so abrupt.After recovering, I just felt sick to my stomach, and raised my hand to try to wipe off the kiss, but the kiss was like being branded on with a soldering iron, no matter how I wiped it, the kiss was still there. In my heart, it seems that something has been destroyed. "Do you love me?" Zhao Qianqian asked me.Apparently, she, who was only interested in having fun, didn't notice my resistance. I didn't answer because I couldn't tell her I liked her against my will; likewise, she was my girlfriend, and I couldn't tell her I didn't like her. I can only pretend to be deaf and dumb and change the subject: "I'm hungry, let's go eat." Later, Zhao Qianqian kissed me several times, each time more proactively and more violently. "It's just kissing, it's nothing." I always comforted myself like this after a few pushes and pushes, but I felt that I couldn't go on like this.If this continues, the relationship between me and Zhao Qianqian will become deeper and deeper. I feel like I have to find a way to stop my relationship with her from progressing. One day, when Zhao Qianqian was away, Chen Yang and I sat together in class, and after class we went to the library to read together. The library is quiet, only the slight sound of footsteps and the rustle of flipping books.She sat across from me, sometimes looking down at the secretary's notes, sometimes looking up at me, smiling sweetly. I suddenly felt that the two of us were back on the eve of the high school entrance examination.The same is true for me and her. We sit together and listen to lectures after class, and either go to her house or mine to review after class. The scene reappeared, I was a little nostalgic, a little excited, a little happy.The sweetness is like a touch of incense, curling up, volatile from the heart, and diffused in the air. When I got out of the library, I said to her, "It's great, I can continue to sit at the same table with you again." I want to talk to Chen Yang, as long as she doesn't hide from me and Zhao Qianqian, and we have a threesome like before, I will You can avoid all the ambiguities with Zhao Qianqian. The night is quiet and beautiful, just like Schubert's Serenade.Crickets sang songs in the dark, and couples also haunted every corner of the campus in pairs, pavilions, woods, and staircase corners... It was picturesque and intoxicating. "Yes." Chen Yang hugged the book, turned his face slightly, and showed a bright smile to me who was walking side by side, "Having a goddess like me accompanying you, isn't it happy?" "Narcissist." I flicked her forehead and said with a smile, "But every time Qianqian comes over, you will avoid me." "Nonsense!" Chen Yang admitted generously, "Could it be that I want to be your light bulb and watch you show your affection!" There is a fire within me, and that fire is fading day by day because of me.I feel ashamed that time is a terrible thing.My cowardice and indulgence caused Zhao Qianqian to corrode the relationship between me and Chen Yang like water dripping through a stone.Chen Yang, who once boasted that my friendship with her was very important, began to avoid me for another friendship. I took a breath and said to Chen Yang, "I want to break up with Qianqian." Chen Yang was stunned for a while, and he came back to his senses after a while, staring at me with piercing eyes, and asked in surprise: "Did you empathize or Qianqian empathize?" "Neither." I turned my face away, unable to bear to look directly at her aggressive eyes.If falling in love with Chen Yang counts as empathy, then let's just count it. Chen Yang asked, "Then why did you break up?" I want to withdraw the army before the gun goes off, but I can't say this to Chen Yang.I simply gave up on myself and said: "I don't know, but I just want to share." "Hey!" Chen Yang scolded me with a sigh and frowned, "You can't even tell why, how can you let Qianqian accept it?" As if my brain was clogged, I suddenly felt very annoyed, and I couldn't help but raise my voice: "That's her own business." "Yang Jie, how can you be so irresponsible!" Chen Yang was obviously angry, and resorted to her trump card, "If you break up with her, we don't want to be friends at all." She looked serious, but she was reluctant to give up after all, her voice became smaller and smaller, and she seemed very unconfident.But no matter how small the sound is, it is extremely harsh to me, and I feel so sad to death. I yelled at her angrily: "Chen Yang, what do you think of our ten-year relationship?" "I take it very important. Because it is important, it is used to threaten you." Chen Yang's eyes were red, he took a breath and said, "Qianqian is a good girl, I hope you can cherish her." I suddenly felt like an idiot.What I want the most has been by my side for more than ten years but I can't grasp it, but push it further and further away.Away from Zhao Qianqian, I can no longer get Chen Yang's favor. I said dejectedly: "I don't know, are you satisfied?" I left Chen Yang and left without looking back.This is the first time I've gotten mad at her.Chen Yang apologized to me afterwards, saying that he was a bit too much.Although the reconciliation with her was as good as before, the shadow that fell on my heart could never be erased. I remember a Buddhist saying, "From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear. If you are separated from a thousand lovers, you will have neither worry nor fear."There is also a saying "Fate is created by oneself, form is born from the heart, everything in the world is transformed into form, if the heart does not move, everything will not move, if the heart does not change, everything will not change". My heart has moved, love has been born, I can't ask for it, and I can't let it go.The obsession in my heart bothered me and tortured me, making me think all the time how to restore the previous relationship with Chen Yang, and how to get rid of the relationship with Zhao Qianqian. During that time, I always dreamed about Chen Yang.All dreams are about separation. I dreamed that I went to the river with her when I was a child, and was almost washed away by the water; I dreamed that I went to the playground with her and got separated and almost couldn’t find it; I dreamed of the third grade of primary school, because she couldn’t be at the same table, she cried in class . I dreamed of the unfinished confession in the third year of junior high school, and dreamed of countless confessions.I was about to tell Chen Yang that the person I like is her, but Zhao Qianqian's face suddenly appeared in front of me... I was so scared that I didn't even dare to go to school.But if I don't go, I won't see her.I had no choice but to bite the bullet and drive the ducks to the shelves. In addition to checking Chen Yang's situation sooner or later, I started to avoid Zhao Qianqian, spending myself in the library every day, or playing games in the dormitory.Every time Zhao Qianqian called me, I always ignored it, or lied to her that something was wrong. Seeing me treat Zhao Qianqian like this, my roommates always laughed at me for being dissatisfied. "Brother, cherish it!" The dorm boss patted me on the shoulder and said. Cherish, cherish, cherish.I resisted other people's ideas, and I was under a lot of pressure. In the eyes of others, Zhao Qianqian is beautiful and gentle, well-educated and well-off.But whether you like it or not is really not determined by good conditions. The word "cherish" is just like irony to me. Thinking about it day and night, several times.Thinking that going on like this is not an option, I decided to talk to Chen Yang again. In fact, I already understood at that time that as long as Zhao Qianqian was around, it was impossible for me and Chen Yang to be together.My naive mistake was committed again. I naively thought that although there is no way to get rid of Zhao Qianqian, the time is still very long. When the relationship between Zhao Qianqian and me and Chen Yang is not so close, it will be okay to break up and be with Chen Yang again. not too late. On Saturday, I asked Chen Yang to have dinner. Chen Yang asked me with a smile: "Hongmen Banquet?" I joked back: "Girl Pianzi, what can you do?" "If you don't have anything to show courteousness, you can either rape or steal." The nature of foodie made her excited instinctively, "Why are you in the mood to treat guests to dinner today?" "Because I want to eat delicious food with you, like in the past—" I deliberately said the words "in the past" very strongly, and smiled like a spring breeze, "Qianqian will go too, we The three haven't been together for a long time." "Oh." When Zhao Qianqian was mentioned, the expression on Chen Yang's face changed.She pursed her lips, seemingly hesitating. "What? Are you afraid of seeing Qianqian?" I teased her, paying close attention to her expression. "How is it possible?" Under my gaze, Chen Yang patted my arm uncomfortably, pretending to be cheerful, "Tell me, what do you want to treat me to?" "It's a secret." I said pretending to be mysterious. I always feel that what happened before I kissed Zhao Qianqian caused Chen Yang to avoid me and Zhao Qianqian all the time.Although I was curious, I didn't want to ask, because I knew that even if I asked Chen Yang, he wouldn't necessarily tell.I just need to achieve my goal. I made a reservation for the restaurant and arrived with Chen Yang first. I didn't tell Zhao Qianqian the correct time, but based on the distance and Zhao Qianqian's habits, I calculated the time difference so that she would arrive at least half an hour later than us. Entered the restaurant, met the waiter, chose a seat, and poured tea.Chen Yang was sitting directly opposite to me, holding a cup in one hand and flipping through the menu with the other, looking at it from beginning to end with a slanderous expression. When the words in my belly were ready, I said, "Chen Yang, I've been dreaming a lot lately, dreaming that the two of us are separated for various reasons, the kind where you ignore me and I ignore you and don't see anyone." "Really?" Chen Yang said with a smile, "Then are you happy?" "What a happy fart." I felt like I had met an alien, "If your dog is lost, would you be happy?" "Not happy." She propped her head on one hand and grinned, "But I will be very happy if you lose it. Because finally no one tempts me, and I can finally lose weight, haha." I looked at her with disgust: "As heartless as you are, you won't be able to lose weight for the rest of your life." She bickered with me unconvinced: "A curse as low as yours can never be realized." I spread my hands indifferently: "Forget it, I still won't curse you. Last time I carried you, I almost broke my waist. I have to give my waist a way to survive, so that I won't be crushed to death by you next time." She and I are always like this, saying that we are talking about business, but when we talk, we often digress and go to the Manalia Trench.But the most important thing for a person is to be happy, as long as you are with her, even if you don't say anything, you are happy. "I'll shoot you to death right now." Chen Yang held the menu and wanted to stab me.Seeing the situation, I hurriedly grabbed it and started a battle with her.After arguing for two minutes, Zhao Qianqian's voice suddenly came over: "You two stop fighting." Zhao Qianqian walked over gracefully.Seeing this, Chen Yang seemed to have found an ally, pointing at me, the villain first complained: "Qianqian bullied me." The intimate tone made me quickly understand that the problem is not between Chen Yang and Zhao Qianqian—where is the problem?My mind was so messed up because I had no idea what was going on, what I did wrong to be like this. "You two are really like children." Chen Yang moved his butt and gave Zhao Qianqian the seat opposite me.I haven't seen her for a few days, but Zhao Qianqian sat down very familiarly as if her relationship was still intact.She smiled and said to Chen Yang: "Today, Yang Jie treats guests to dinner. Cannibals are short-mouthed, so you just let him." Chen Yang replied in seconds: "He is not human!" After judging that Zhao Qianqian didn't know what I told Chen Yang about breaking up with her, I replied, "That's why you have a long mouth, a pig's mouth—a pig!" "You're a pig. It's obvious that you can eat people with soft mouths and short hands, okay?" "So you're an orangutan?" "Hmph! I don't want to talk to you anymore." Chen Yang, who couldn't tell me, slapped me in the face and looked down at the menu. "If you don't say it, you don't say it." I turned my face to the side and deliberately didn't look at her, and couldn't help raising the corners of my mouth. Order, serve, eat, back to business. Chen Yang suddenly calmed down.Although he was joking, it was not with me; although he also talked to me, it was obviously much less than before. At that moment, I realized that the problem was not between me and Zhao Qianqian, nor between Chen Yang and Zhao Qianqian.It was Chen Yang who was jealous of Zhao Qianqian, maybe because he was afraid that she would be jealous, that's why he became like this. I'm a little annoyed by Zhao Qianqian, I've been hesitating whether to move my seat and sit opposite Chen Yang.Because I always feel awkward looking at Zhao Qianqian now. I spent the whole meal in a tangle.I feel that Chen Yang is also struggling. She usually eats food like a wolf, but now she stops after eating a little. I asked her, "Isn't the food delicious?" She replied, "It's delicious." "Then why don't you eat?" "I'm stuffed." I put vegetables in her bowl and said, "Eat more, anyway, you are already fat, so it doesn't matter if you get fatter." "Disgusting!" The instinct of a foodie made her unable to resist eating a few more bites.After eating, she wiped her mouth with a tissue and said with a smile, "I have to leave earlier, bye." "Don't go." Seeing her standing up with her bag, I stopped her.I looked at Zhao Qianqian and said to her as if I didn't know anything: "Qianqian, tell me about Chen Yang, why is she hiding from the plague now, she is afraid of being with us." Zhao Qianqian's expression was a little unnatural, but she still looked like a close friend: "Chen Yang has something to do, just let her go." I feel that Chen Yang's face is also a little unnatural, it seems to be stiff.She kept nodding: "Yes, let me go first. I really have something to do. You two can play." I grabbed her and asked, "What's the matter?" Chen Yang obviously didn't think about it, he hesitated and said, "I have a dinner date with someone." I questioned: "Didn't you just say that you are full?" Chen Yang's voice was a little weak: "It's a bit far away, and I'll be hungry again when I arrive." I said, "Let that person come over, we just made up the bill." Chen Yang didn't speak any more.She bit her lip and said after a while: "Forget it, I can't talk to her on the phone." I said "hmm". I knew she was lying to me. Every time Chen Yang lied, his eyes would turn to the side and dare not look directly.But I didn't expose it, because I achieved my purpose. Chen Yang got up and said to go to the bathroom to make a phone call, and Zhao Qianqian also said to go.The two left their seats together.After more than ten minutes, the two came back together again. In front of Zhao Qianqian, I deliberately said what I had been brewing for a long time: "Chen Yang, I don't know what's going on. Whenever the three of us meet now, you keep walking away, as if hiding from people. Are you Are you afraid that Qianqian will be jealous? Would someone as generous as Qianqian be jealous of you?" I just want Zhao Qianqian to know the importance of Chen Yang in my heart.I just want to let her know that she and I will never leave Chen Yang behind. Chen Yang laughed and said, "Because I have a lot to do." I couldn't help complaining: "It's fine." She said indifferently: "I'm creating a date opportunity for you guys. Would you be so kind as to put a light bulb as big as me by your side?" I saw her throw the question to me and Zhao Qianqian.Right in my arms, I said, "What's so embarrassing? Didn't we agree that the three of us would always be together?" I looked at Zhao Qianqian meaninglessly.Zhao Qianqian always behaves extremely ladylike and generous in public. I know that I can get the answer I want, but because the result is difficult to control, I am a little nervous. Zhao Qianqian seemed to be in a trance, and realized after a while: "Yes, there is nothing to be embarrassed about." Although her tone sounded unwilling, it was better than direct opposition. "But I'd be embarrassed." Chen Yang was serious, and with a hint of compromise, "Forget it, it's better like this. The two of you are together when you're in a couple, and the three of you are together when you're in a single." "Okay." Zhao Qianqian pursed her lips and smiled, agreeing. After thinking about it, this may be the best solution so far, and I agreed with it.I raised the cup, looked at Zhao Qianqian, and fixed my eyes on Chen Yang, "I hope we can still play like before." Chen Yang and Zhao Qianqian and I lived a life of two people with even numbers and three people with odd numbers. Because of class, Zhao Qianqian came to me not very often, and it was random.But it seems to be to prove that she is not such a narrow-minded person, so even if she has an even number, Zhao Qianqian still insists on threesome. I feel that the relationship between me and Zhao Qianqian seems to have faded, but this weakening did not make me happy.Because Chen Yang started looking for someone to fall in love with again, like an addiction.The promise was shelved, and my hot heart felt like someone had poured cold water on it. But fortunately, nothing happened between me and Zhao Qianqian except kissing, and nothing happened between Chen Yang and her boyfriend.Everything is still platonic, and I think there is still a chance. Until Zhao Qianqian celebrated her birthday that day.