Chapter 44 (45)

The weather was warm and nice, and I was wearing a sweatshirt that Yang Hong bought for me last winter and went to her house full of energy. Yang Hong was unexpectedly kind, standing by the window in the corridor, her freshly trimmed hair reflected a layer of bright sunlight, she was wearing a thin pajamas, her youthful and plump body line was reflected in the light and shadow Looming, she didn't look at me so aggressively anymore, she just stood far away from me on purpose. I cheekily kept finding some gossip to tell her, which prevented her from going back several times. I suppressed the urge to go up to her and hug her. I pretended to be happy and told her that my relationship with my family had improved. After learning a lot, she smiled and praised me a few words and told me that it should have been like this a long time ago, there is nothing better than home, and you will know when you go out in the future.

I finally couldn't find anything to say, the impulse in my heart became stronger and stronger, and the sorrow and grief came up all at once. I didn't understand why and looked at her innocently. I really hoped that she could explain all this and understand my mood. It started to spin in the eye sockets, I lowered my head and still had nothing to say, which made her eyes become impatient, and she kept turning her head to look at home with a smile, and when she turned back, she seemed to be a different person The stranger looked at me: "Is there anything else? I'll be back." She asked me cheerfully, "My sister is still waiting to wash the dishes with me!"

"It's okay, this is for you." "what is this?" "The few words I wrote to you, I want to express my..." She raised her head just after taking a look: "You are crazy!" She was so fierce that I was at a loss, "Chengxiaolou, Let me tell you, you'd better die quickly and stop tormenting yourself, or it won't be good to anyone!" After she finished speaking, she turned and went home. I picked up a few big scarlet letters that had been thrown on the ground, went downstairs without tears, and threw them into the trash can. When I returned to school, the sky was overcast and it looked like it was going to rain. I suddenly remembered something, so I took the bus and wandered to Yang Hong's house.I found the trash can when the sky was already getting dark, but it was already empty.

When I wiped the blue sky on the black side, I went back to school again. As soon as I walked to the tree, I sat down on the ground and cried sadly. It seemed that the sun didn't come out much in that winter, and I didn't go out much. I read books and played the piano quietly in the dormitory, or listened to an old song called "Song" over and over again. That day I went to the health center to remove the thread on my head, and I finally couldn't help but make a phone call. "Hey! Yang Hong, I'm Chengxiaolou." "Is there a problem?" "It's okay... well, I just want to ask... when will you leave?"

"Tomorrow, you don't need to deliver, there is no room in the car!" "Okay...then, then I won't go. By the way, there is one more thing I forgot to tell you. Do you want to take a look at the letters we buried that time? I'll get them out and send them to you. Bar." "No, keep it for yourself, I don't want to read it." "Okay. Then, that's good... Then I want to ask, will you never forgive me?" "I have no idea." "Then I'd better go see you off, I...I really want to see you..." "I don't want it anymore, I really don't want it anymore, someone sent me off...Besides, I don't really want to see you!"

"Okay. All right then!" I still found an excuse to call Yang Hong down that night, and bought her a book for her to read on the way. She also seemed very calm. After she declined, she accepted the book and told me to go home more often. Communicate with your parents here, don't hold back all day, I nodded gratefully and said yes.After she went back to the room, I continued to sit in the corridor for a while in the dark, replaying the scenes in this corridor this winter and some memories of Shanghai in my head like a movie. Indeed, I misunderstood her, that man was very nice to him but she didn’t treat him well, they were just chatting that night in Shanghai, it was my jealousy that made me lose my mind, all this is true It is indeed all my fault, I simply made my own crimes and suffered.

In fact, it seems that since I entered that hair salon, it was all doomed. I betrayed Xiaohong.