I was born in 1976, a year full of grief, three of the four old leaders on the hundred-yuan renminbi passed away in that year, and a bloody campaign that lasted for ten years also happened in that year The year ended sadly. After people mourned a group of leaders who were deeply loved by them non-stop, they began to reflect deeply on the whole country.I envy my parents and their generation. When they were young, they wandered around and didn’t have to go to school. When they grow up, they can justly and sternly shift the responsibility of their own failure to that catastrophe. No matter how useless they are, they can ignore the turmoil The fault of the age, the high-sounding firm belief that each of them will be outstanding if they are not delayed by that movement!

I really regret not being born at the good time when they gloated! It may be due to my parents' over-reflection at the time, I was born too rational, and when the neighbor's children were always rolling on the ground asking for small toys, I was always thinking about how to save some money for the family.When I seemed to be able to understand the words, there was an old saying that was smashed into the head countless times by the adults with infinitely gratified expressions: "You guys are catching up!" Every time after eating and drinking, the young mind began to think heavily: "Fuck! What have we caught up with?"

A considerable part of the children I was born in that year had special identities. A few years later, the country had to assign a unified number to them: "Only child" is probably a father who came from a rich peasant and was eager to join the party. I caught up with the only child. Female! Due to strict family upbringing, I was too obedient to talk since I was a child, so I didn’t have many children. Since I can remember things, in my lonely childhood memory, how to please myself has become my biggest problem. I once tried to tell myself a little story to lull myself to sleep, and I also tried to play a few sets of military flags with myself every day, but this didn’t solve the problem. After going to school, I tried words, and I finally found a good My favorite way to amuse myself is to find the difference in something and write it down in my diary...