Chapter 24 Chapter 23 I Can’t Give More

When Xin Chen was able to make a call again, he had already walked out of the Ninon Grand Canyon and arrived at Yubeng. The Ninong Grand Canyon is much more magnificent than the more famous Tiger Leaping Gorge she has crossed before, and the difficulty is of course directly proportional to the scenery.This section is highly recommended by the "Hiking Chinese Bible" and has become famous abroad. You can see many foreign solo backpackers along the way. It is rare for them to travel in groups of six. Lao Zhang rubbed his hands together, saying that when he was free in the future, he planned to follow the example of these foreigners and walk the complete ancient tea-horse road from Yunnan to Lhasa alone. Several people admired his determination.

Backed by Meili Snow Mountain, Yubeng used to be a small village with only about 20 households. It was isolated from the outside world and only pilgrims who turned around the mountain stayed. Now it has become a gathering place for donkey walkers and there are many inns.For some reason, the mobile phone signal was not good that day, and Xinchen was going to make a landline call, but Taotao said, "The innkeeper told me to climb to the pass, and the mobile phone will have a signal." The male donkey friends who were traveling with me had already started drinking beer on the rocking chairs on the porch, and they were unwilling to climb the mountain just for this reason, so they could only say with a smile: "Women in love are really respectable."

Taotao sneered, "Which woman in love would come to this place where no shit?" She has been quite irritable recently. She is either silent when hiking, or angry when she speaks, and holds a mobile phone with no signal in a daze when she is resting.Everyone kept silent, not to provoke her.She walked away without looking at anyone. Lao Zhang sighed at her back, "Hehuan, fortunately you have been in a stable mood, otherwise I would never have the confidence to walk with girls on foot in the future." Xin Chen only smiled slightly, knowing that Taotao didn't want to make a phone call in a place where people come and go, she had nothing to do anyway, so she poured a thermos of hot coffee to catch up with Taotao, and spent more than an hour following the instructions of the locals After climbing to the pass, the mobile phone signal finally rose to full capacity little by little.She made up the same short message telling the direction, and sent it to her uncle, father, and Lu Fei respectively, and then sat at the pass to watch the scenery, while Taotao routinely began to send and receive text messages non-stop.

After a while, the uncle who never liked to send text messages replied to her first, with only four words: "Be careful." Then Xin Kaiyu called: "Chenzi, come back quickly, I will soon be forced by your uncle to come thousands of miles away." Looking for a girl." "Hey, I'm not going back. I don't know how comfortable I am watching the White Horse Snow Mountain basking in the sun and drinking coffee." Xin Kaiyu begged for mercy and said, "Good boy, your uncle already suspected that Xiaobai was not warm enough to you, so you ran out and beat me up."

Xin Chen laughed, "How can I be so glass-hearted! Poor Auntie Bai, she is so innocent, it's really difficult to be a stepmother. Actually, to be honest, I can't stand it because she is too enthusiastic." "I'll remind her to be more natural with you in the future. You should have had enough fun. It's been half a month, don't you feel tired?" "A little bit." Xin Chen stopped joking, "Dad, I will pay attention. If I can't stand it anymore, I will find a place to rest, or come back." "I want to go back, Hehuan." Taotao also put down her phone, and said in a soft voice, "I leave the tent to you, and you can send it to Shanghai after you use it up, sorry."

Xin Chen was not surprised, there was already a man who quit because of work.Traveling together is not a binding relationship. Anyone may end the trip early with or without reason, and Taotao has a lot of worries along the way, and it is clear that her love for landscape has not relieved her. "It doesn't matter, what you want on foot is to be happy, don't be burdened by quitting." "I know, I came here to escape, but I found that I can't escape no matter what, I still have to go back and face it." Taotao, like her, wears sunglasses and an outdoor scarf on her face to block ultraviolet rays, so she can't see clearly expression.

Xin Chen thought he couldn't comfort others' hurt, so he could only respond with understanding silence. "I envy you all. You have found the real joy of being on the road, unlike me, who came here with this kind of purpose and let down the beautiful scenery." Taotao stopped and looked towards the snow-capped mountains in the distance. Xin Chen's cell phone rang again, and it was Lu Fei who called: "I had dinner with Xiao Di yesterday, and she asked me to ask you, how long are you going to go?" "Do you want me to stop?" She has long since overcome the initial altitude sickness, but the relatively thin air at high altitude makes people feel a little tranced, and she felt almost teasing when she said the words.

Sure enough, Lu Fei was startled, and then said softly, "I hope you stop by my side." The wind at the pass was very strong, whistling past, his voice came directly into her ears from the earpiece, but it seemed to be blown away by the wind and protracted, itching into the bottom of my heart, "All you want is the old me, if I When you are really by your side, you will feel that this person is beyond recognition, and it is different from the scenery you imagined." "Are we still arguing about what time period I love you?" Lu Fei's voice was low and gentle. "Because I know that what I love is the old you, Lu Fei." Xin Chen blurted out, and then smiled, "You see, I am so naive, I have changed a long time ago, and I have accepted my status quo, But I can't accept other people's changes. I'm afraid that a stranger will come to me and destroy the memory I keep; I'm afraid that I will not only be disillusioned, but also lose my memory."

"Your memory is also part of my memory. If we are not together, we will only become more and more strangers. One day, even if I appear in front of you, I will be just a passerby. What I fear most is that kind of situation." Xin Chen was silent, she didn't know what she was talking about.Would she whisper such a thing to a stranger?Every phone call during the trek was like an invisible bond, connecting him with her, and she had deviated from her original intention. "Will you go to Dali or Lijiang next?" Lu Fei was no less familiar with their itinerary than she was.

"No, I've been to both places. I want to go directly from Deqin to Lugu Lake to stay for a few days, wait for them to come and meet, and then walk to Aden together." The six of them walked from Yubeng to Feilai Temple, and then took a car to Deqin County.Everyone decided to break up here, and the four men took a rest for a day before going to Dali. Tao Tao got on the train to Kunming, and then took the plane back to Shanghai. Xin Chen got on the long-distance bus and went to Lugu Lake. Xin Chen dozed off all the way, even though the car routinely stopped at a place where she could see the 18th bend of the mountain road for the convenience of tourists to take pictures, she did not get off.After arriving at Lugu Lake, she walked into the pre-booked Luoshui Linhu Inn, and reported her name to the front desk clerk, but the clerk spread her hands, "You came five days earlier than the reservation, Miss, I'm sorry, it's full today. , there is no room available, someone will check out tomorrow.”

Xinchen didn't expect that the November 1 holiday would be over long ago, and the tourists hadn't left yet, so she had to put away her ID card and was going to try her luck elsewhere. A hand stretched out and held her hand on the counter. It was a man's palm with neatly trimmed nails, long fingers, and a warm and dry palm. When she looked sideways, Lu Fei was looking at her with a smile. He was wearing a white shirt and a black cotton suit. Although it was a casual style, it was very different from the usual tourists here who wore sportswear or outdoor attire. He was as gentle as jade, radiating brilliance in the sunset. Xin Chen didn't expect to see him here at all, he was stunned for a while, and after a while, he held the corner of his mouth and smiled, "Hello." Lu Fei leaned over and picked up Xin Chen's heavy 70-jin rucksack with tents and trekking poles hanging outside, took her by the hand to the second floor of the inn, and hugged her tightly. Xin Chen murmured in his arms, "I warn you, I haven't showered for many days, let alone the smell, I might have fleas on my body." He didn't let her go, pressed her head against his chest, pressed her chin against her tangled hair, stood motionless, she fell quietly in his arms, and asked softly after a while: "Why are you here?" here?" "I flew to Lijiang the day before yesterday, and then transferred to the car. I have lived here for two days." "Do not have to work?" "Today is Saturday." "It means we're rushing back tomorrow. It's crazy." Lu Fei didn't say a word, he was on a business trip in Shanghai the day before yesterday. After finishing his work, he didn't go back to work, but he calculated her itinerary and came here directly. Yunnan is indeed a crazy move. He stayed in the inn that their group had booked online. He had no feeling for the scenery of the lake and mountains. He just took a book and sat in front of the room window to read. with.The next day was Saturday, a large number of tourists came, but she was nowhere to be seen.He knew that if she didn't show up tomorrow morning, he would have no choice but to return to Lijiang, and then fly back to Kunming to continue with the tedious work. When he saw Xin Chen, who was wearing a thin jacket and quick-drying pants, get off the car, he rushed down immediately. Luoshui routinely held a bonfire party in the nature of folk performances at night. The gimmick of walking marriage was very eye-catching, and all the tourists went there. Xin Chen and Lu Fei were not interested in it, and returned to their rooms after eating. The second floor of the Linhu Inn is facing the Lugu Lake. In the dim night, you can see the dark blue lake with slight undulations.It's just that Xin Chen didn't look at the scenery, she threw herself on the big bed covered with blue and green sheets, and sighed comfortably. Lao Zhang, the tour leader of her trip, is working in Beijing with a high salary, but he pursues self-abuse asceticism. He likes to study online fare evasion strategies and lodging guides, and strives to save every penny. He basically never stayed on the way. A better inn hotel.It had been more than twenty days since she had taken such a decent hot bath, let alone slept on such a soft bed. At the last moment, she was still saying: "The people in the restaurant just said that the scenery in Lige is better and quieter, and it is not as commercialized here. I plan to move there tomorrow." The next moment she had fallen into an unconscious and deep sleep. The wooden structure of the inn looks beautiful and romantic, but it is not soundproof.In the middle of the night, when the bonfire party was over, tourists returning drunk and excited walked in in groups, thumped up the stairs, opened the door talking and laughing, and took a bath... When this series of voices came, Lu Fei didn't feel at all. fell asleep, and Ze Xinchen was awakened. For the past few days, she has mostly slept in a sleeping bag, either in a tent or on the floor of the shabby house.Occasionally, I stayed in the inn a few times, and slept on the most basic condition of the hard plank bed. I was surrounded by a snoring companion, and I could hear the straw on the mattress when I turned over.At this moment, the softness of the bed under him is almost like a sinking, bringing a sense of etherealness. Waking up suddenly, she found that her fingers were firmly holding the hand of a person beside her. Such a dependent posture made her much more horrified than seeing herself lying beside him, and she suddenly withdrew her hand.But Lu Fei didn't wait for her to say anything, and reached out to hug her. He wrapped her around her with one hand, patted her back lightly with the other, stroked her back rhythmically with his slender palms, with gentle, calm and reassuring strength. When she was 14 years old, he held her for the first time, and he comforted her in the same way, bringing her out of the nightmare. You are not 14 years old, and a voice in her heart reminded her that she should not allow herself to find comfort in such a weak posture.If you continue like this, you are misleading him and making his perception of you stay in the past forever. However, the night outside the window was so long, and the frightened little girl had been locked up by her for too long, once she floated up, fell into such a warm embrace, she couldn't help lusting after her, and she refused to retreat easily.She buried her head in his arms, losing the strength to break free. The sounds from outside gradually disappeared, and thick darkness returned to the surroundings.She listened to his heartbeat, one beat at a time, almost in sync with the rhythm of the pat on the back.This silence disturbed her rationality, she raised her head and touched his chin, where there was a little stubble rubbing against her skin with a rough feeling.His lips fell on her hair, and then slid to her forehead, light and hot. When his lips fell onto hers, she suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.Of course, Lu Fei would not kiss 14-year-old Xin Chen like this. She is no longer that insecure little girl who just wants to catch the sudden tenderness in her life. His kiss was deepening, and her response was gradually warming up. Memories surged in the dark night, and she couldn't figure it out.In a trance, she didn't know whether this kiss came from the past time, or the entanglement in front of her eyes; was it because of this overly comfortable bed, or these arms, this embrace, or this person? When all the fetters were released, sweat dripped from his forehead to her body, every kiss and every touch was as deep as a brand, she couldn't bear it, but she couldn't escape it either.Wherever his lips touched, it seemed as if a small flame was burning in her body, and this flame swept him and her in an instant.He called her name repeatedly and lingeringly in her ear, and his rhythm moved her.Her fingers clasped tightly on his back, such a desperate clinging, a little convulsive due to excessive force.Her sobs were blurred by his blocking and swallowing, and his panting was as heavy as a sigh in the dark night. As if the doomsday had come, in the vast wilderness, the whole world went away at that moment, the world was dark and the universe was wild, but there were only two people who were closely united in one place, and it was hard to tell whether it was pleasure or pure pain that came surging . When the morning light appeared outside the window, Xin Chen fell back into sleep. After being extremely tired, she seemed to be back on the hike, carrying a heavy bag and walking on the muddy road.The white mist floats in the valley, every tree has a different posture, and every time you look at it, you will see a different scene. The strong colors are so beautiful that they are distorted, but you can't hear the chirping of the birds, only her own footsteps, Monotonously repeated.After walking for an unknown amount of time, other sounds were finally mixed into the eerie tranquility, and her footsteps stopped making strange noises. She confusedly discerned where those voices came from, a warm towel was gently placed on her forehead, she opened her eyes, only to see that it was already dawn, and Lu Fei was wiping the sweat off her head for her, while those The voice came in clearly, it was the tourists coming in and out, chatting and laughing happily. She took the towel and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm going to take a shower." But she hesitated, because she was not used to seeing him naked in such a bright light. Lu Fei handed her a T-shirt, "I'll go down and see if there's anything to eat." The inn provides a simple Western-style breakfast, the price is not cheap, but the taste is not bad.Xin Chen ate deliciously, while Lu Fei kept on answering the phone, and it was obvious that he was talking about business matters. His voice was as calm as his expression, with an unquestionable sense of authority, which made Xin Chen feel strange and confused. Is this the man who was with her last night?When he finally finished the call, he said apologetically, "I'm sorry, these calls are so unsightly." "It's okay, when are you going to leave?" "I plan to stay another day and accompany you to the Rigg you mentioned yesterday." Xin Chen shook his head, "You leave today, just in time for work tomorrow." "Xiaochen, I just took over a new job, I really can't get away, otherwise..." "No need, everyone should do what they should do." Lu Fei held her hand, "Since you woke up in the morning, you refused to look at me, is it because you were unhappy about what happened last night?" "I don't need to be so awkward, after all, you loved me last night, and," Xin Chen paused, with a slightly dazed expression, "it should be considered happy." The sun shines on her face through the glass window. She has been tanned by hiking these days. Her thin face is clear and calm. She is not unhappy, but she cannot be called happy. "Can you go back with me? Xiaochen, I have studied the information on the Internet. It takes at least eight days to hike from Lugu Lake to Aden. Most of the road is on the plateau, and the most suitable season for hiking is five to six. In the month, the temperature is suitable, and you can see the sea of ​​flowers. Going now, there is no special scenery, but there will be heavy snowstorms at any time, which is difficult and dangerous.” "I said, I will not change the plan for you, even after last night, I still say that." This straightforward refusal made Lu Fei silent. He looked down at her hand in his palm. The palm was long and slender, and the part of the palm near the tiger's mouth had been worn out by the trekking pole. His fingertips stroked there lightly, and she smiled slightly. Shrinking, but he held it tighter, "Xiaochen, I don't think that after last night, I have some kind of right to you and can make demands on you. But don't you think that I came here just to get The satisfaction of a body?" "Why do I think you are so obscene? As long as you are not picky, physical satisfaction is easy to find, and you don't have to travel all the way here. I guess, you are planning to surprise me. I admit that this surprise is very interesting. Believe me Surprised you in return." "You still think I'm ridiculous. You always think that I use the usual tricks of dating and chasing girls to deal with you. I make a phone call every day, appear in front of you at the most unexpected time and place, make you smile, and move you. " Lu Fei wrapped her hand tightly, looked directly at her, his eyes were sharper than usual, as if he wanted to see the bottom of her heart, "It's not like that, Xiaochen, I just miss you, worry about you, bear Can't stop wanting to see you." "You are making a request of me, Lu Fei. You want me to accompany you back to the past and enter the state of love. We have been in love, it is beautiful and pure, it is worth remembering, but it cannot be copied." Xin Chen Said lightly, not looking at the hurt pain in Lu Fei's eyes, "You are not a 20-year-old virgin, and I am not a 16-year-old ignorant girl. You know how to prevent me from getting pregnant, and I also know my menstrual cycle. In short , I have nothing to complain about, but what I can give you is just your body, there can be no more." After packing up their luggage and checking out, the two of them stood at the door of the inn and saw the car back to Lijiang approaching from a distance. Lu Fei turned to look at Xin Chen, "Xiao Chen, I know that the more I try to convince you, the more determined you will be on the way." However, I think that your purpose of hiking should not be to pursue extreme survival challenges, even if it is for your father and uncle, you should also consider my suggestion and don’t walk this section of the road again.” He looked calm, but the Sichuan character line appeared again between his eyebrows, with a little tiredness and deep eyes. Xin Chen avoided his sight and nodded, "Thank you, I won't take pity on my safety, don't worry." Watching him board the car and sit down in the back seat, looking over through the stained window, Xin Chen raised his hand and shook it, and then boarded the minibus to Lige. When Xin Di called Xin Chen, she had just successfully checked into the inn on Lige Island in the middle of Lugu Lake.Surrounded by lake water on all sides, this small island is impossibly small and impossibly quiet.Her room has two large glass windows facing the lake. Opening the purple-red curtains, she can see the green water plants with branches and leaves under the clear lake, swaying with the slight waves, and the Lion Mountain in the distance. She thinks this scenery is very worthy of her. Paid the room rate. "Chenzi, which road are you on now?" She giggled, "I'm basking in the sun by Lugu Lake and surfing the Internet." She was indeed sitting on a rocking chair on the porch, borrowing the innkeeper's laptop to surf the Internet. , watching the web page open at a slow speed is also tolerable. "What a coincidence, I'm also basking in the sun by the West Lake in Hangzhou." "Business trip?" "No, come to attend a classmate's wedding, and take a vacation to relax." Xin Chen knew that Xin Di was more interested in shopping malls than traveling, so he snickered and said, "Aren't you alone?" Xin Di also laughed, and glanced at David Fan who was sitting not far away tearing up bread and feeding the fish, he volunteered to accompany her, and the reason was very grand, "Your classmates are also my juniors, and they also sent me invitations. What made her even more terrified was that her mother was in favor of having him as a company. "It's full of tourists, it's not interesting." "If you want to be quiet, you should come here. The inn I live in is surrounded by water, where the lake meets the sky. If you look around, you can only see a few birds." Xin Di shivered, "Forget it, I'm more comfortable in the crowd. I said, when do you plan to go home after playing?" "Why do you ask me this question? When I checked in, someone said that he was going to stay here until winter when the red-billed gulls came." "Hey, I'm really going to talk, won't you get tired of it? Unless there is a boyfriend who will marry you." Xin Chen was startled, then laughed tremblingly, "Dizi, your thoughts are very impure now." "Hey, if you don't aim at walking marriages, whoever wants to go to the place where birds don't lay eggs?" "After you convinced me, the wretched man came here with this idea. It is said that at the bonfire party, the tourists who strike up a conversation with tourists are all foreign girls, and the price is clearly marked at 200 yuan a night, which is not what you imagined." Xin Di was defeated, "Then what are you doing there?" "Look at the scenery, the scenery is invincible." "Chenzi, tell me the truth, will you be lonely?" "It's really a little bit." Xin Chen admitted that facing the emptiness of the lake and mountains, she really didn't enjoy the silence as much as she imagined.Is it because of the man who came and went?But he left under your indifferent and harsh words, his hurt but immediately endured expression clearly appeared in front of her eyes, she shook her head blankly to get rid of this thought. "Hey, why don't you talk, what are you thinking?" "How was the wedding going?" Xin Chen changed the subject. "Well, it's simple and solemn, which makes people happy and moved. It makes me less afraid of marriage." Xin Di said frankly, "Is this idea a precursor to the psychological crisis of older women?" "Dizi, you will not be in crisis, I think you are capable of enjoying any kind of happiness." "What is this called? Do you need ability to enjoy happiness?" "Of course, only people with sound minds have this ability." Xin Di thought of her mother relaying what Feng Yi'an's mother said, and felt a little sad for no reason, "You are talking stupid again, and you have the same ability." Xin Chen laughed softly, the afternoon sun shone warmly on his body, and the breeze was as gentle as a gentle hand caressing, "I am sitting here now, the sun is shining very comfortably, and I feel a little melting. If I can think about nothing, just It’s a happy thing to melt like this.” David Fan threw the last piece of bread into the water, and the koi swarmed for it. He walked over and put his arms around Xin Di, and Xin Di admitted that she felt a little melted.