Chapter 23 Chapter Twenty-Three

Jiaji woke up suddenly in the early morning, the curtains were closed, and the bedroom was dark and gloomy, she just woke up suddenly. The alarm clock on the bedside table was already pointing to 8:26. The flight he was on flew soaring into the sky, and it was already a few hours ago that he left the city. And she is about to leave here. She got up and took a shower, and then began to pack some odds and ends.In fact, there is nothing to pack, just some clothes and a small suitcase. Go downstairs to have breakfast, there is a small snack bar not far from the community, the soy milk there is very mellow.Jiaqi ordered a cup of sweet soy milk and a deep-fried dough stick, only to find out that the boss had changed.

The soy milk is still so mellow and delicious. The new owner is a middle-aged couple who told her that the original young couple had gone back to Sichuan. "The little proprietress is pregnant, and the little boss can't close his mouth with a smile. He feels sorry for his wife's hard work making breakfast, so the couple went back to their hometown to have a baby. They said that they will come out when the child is older. We will push the shop down. gone." In this hustle and bustle of the world, no matter how turbulent it is, there is still room for the most ordinary couple to have children and live their lives happily.

It was still early, and Jiaqi remembered Ruan Zhengdong's occasional mention a few days ago that he wanted to eat Meiyuan's milk rolls. He thought that since he had nothing to do in the morning, he might as well buy some for him and take them back to Shanghai. She was standing on the street waiting for a taxi. It happened to be an electrical appliance store next door, and there were countless TVs in the large floor-to-ceiling windows, which were broadcasting the hourly news. The good-looking female anchor, even with a regular smile, broadcast the news in standard Mandarin: After the latest draft of the two sessions was introduced, the public responded enthusiastically; the Spring Festival is approaching, the number of people during the Spring Festival travel has reached its peak, and there is a long queue at the train station to buy tickets.There were several traffic accidents on the snowy night yesterday, and the municipal department dispatched all snow plows and sprayed snowmelt to ensure smooth traffic...

She listened nonchalantly, it was hardest to wait for a taxi after the snow, and all the taxis coming and going were full of passengers. "The following is the news that our station has just received. At 9:27 this morning, a Boeing 747 of China International Airlines crashed in Russia. It has been confirmed that there are 232 passengers on the plane There are thirteen people in the crew. The Boeing airliner with the flight number 'CA980' took off from Beijing Capital International Airport this morning on a routine flight mission to New York International Airport in the United States. Seven minutes before the crash, the crashed plane An emergency signal was sent to the Russian air traffic control bureau. Shortly after the signal was sent, contact with the ground was lost. It has been confirmed that the plane crashed near the Yansk Mountains in Russia. Personnel were unable to go to the crash site. The current temperature in the crash area is as low as minus 43°C, and the chances of the passengers on board surviving are very slim..."

Jiaqi looked up.In the midwinter morning, the sun after the snow was like golden leaves, covering people one by one. Meng Heping! Meng Heping was on that plane. He had come to say goodbye to himself last night, had told himself that he was on that flight. She was so shaky she could barely stand. She thought everything had started all over again. Everything in the past has long since ended, she thought it was just a new start, with the exhaustion and emptiness, and with the deep pain, she forcibly removed the most important part of her life from her life, everything was removed .Nothing left.She once lost so much, so important everything, thinking that she would never get it back in her whole life.She made up her mind to give up everything, as long as she could really forget and just be a complete stranger.Check all the happiness you have had one by one, and try to forget all the laughter and tears.As long as you are a pair of complete strangers.

Standing on this side of the world, looking at the other side on the other side of the ocean, as long as you know it, it will be fine. But fate was so cruel that she didn't even leave her the last hope. In this world, even his last existence would not be left to her. He just left, forever. She can't accept it, there is no way, she can lose everything, and she has already lost everything, but why should she be so cruel, treat her so cruelly, and take away his existence in the end. She didn't cry, the whole person was like in a nightmare, but she couldn't break free, she just desperately thought, no, it's not like this.

How could he just leave her like this. She could barely breathe, because every time she inhaled, the pain would be uncontrollable, because of the severe pain, it made her numb, only thinking, this is a dream, as long as it is a dream, she will wake up one day, wake up Knowing is false, everything is false. She stayed for a long time before she reached out to hail a taxi, said the address casually, and then leaned on the window to watch the street view. There were so many cars, rolling like a stream, mixed with the small car she was sitting in, bustling forward.And she seemed to be sleepwalking, and she seemed to be trapped in a nightmare. No matter how hard she struggled, she couldn't wake up. Everything around her was in a trance, and her person was also in a trance.

"Miss, here we are." She woke up like a dream, looked at the meter in a hurry to give money, got out of the car with a lot of change, and the taxi drove away. Only then did she realize that she was standing in front of a large old-fashioned community, surrounded by matchbox-like buildings. A house with dense windows like a honeycomb. How come here? The phone was ringing, and she took it out to look. Did Ruan Zhengdong answer the call? This line of words kept vibrating on the screen, asking over and over again, did Ruan Zhengdong answer the call? She turned off her phone casually, and walked back unknowingly.Turn left, turn west again, and see the familiar old doorway, pasted with colorful small advertisements: "Professional dredging", "Lvyuan pure water", "Easy sanitation cleaning"... Broken pieces of paper stuck to the wall On the surface, there is also a shocking cursive script written in thick black spray paint all the way: "13XXXXXXXX holds a diploma".

There is a small black box in the corner, which says "Quick Unlock". The phone number painted on the bottom has faded, and there are scattered and blurred Arabic numerals. It is impossible to tell which is "0" and which is "6". It is "9".But she remembered that she had just found a job at that time, and the company was in the west of the city, and she had to take a bus for two hours to get back.Tired every day, people can fall asleep in the car. Once her bag was cut off by a thief in the car, and her wallet and keys disappeared. But Meng Heping also worked overtime, and she sat alone on the corridor blowing After half a night of cold wind, my teeth chattered from the cold. I tried to call someone to pick the lock a few times, but I finally endured it and waited until Meng Heping got off work. He scolded a lot.

Later, after entering the door, she hugged the hot water bottle and he hugged her. It took a long time for her to recover.Later, he developed a high fever, which persisted, so he asked for leave in a hurry to take care of her in the hospital. She was ill for a long time at that time, and she was always in good health. She had never been sick like that before.Going in and out of the hospital every day, getting drips, bags of medicines, the blood vessels on the back of the hand are not easy to find a suitable needle position, the nurse pats the back of her hand, a kind of dull pain, but with him, he will lighten it with his hands Cover her eyes lightly, so that she won't see the moment when the needle pierces the flesh.

She went upstairs step by step. The corridor was narrow and dark. In broad daylight, her steps were a little heavier, and the voice-activated lights would also be on. On the left side of the fourth floor, she saw the familiar and old green security door. The paint had peeled off, and many places were black, revealing The iron inside, the iron fences one by one.She reached out to fumble in the bag, no, she reached into all the bags in the interlayer, no.He simply dumped out all the things in the bag and squatted on the ground looking for everything. Mobile phone, wallet, make-up mirror, lipstick, pressed powder, tissues, keys... She patiently rummaged through all of them, turning every corner of the bag, and finally a small woolen bag fell out. The key in the woolen bag, and a small mahogany plaque on the key ring, with three words engraved on one side, "born in September", and a crooked peace amulet on the other side, which was bought for her by Heping. It is born in September of the lunar calendar.So he bought this peach talisman for her to ward off evil spirits.In some places he is so childish, even superstitious, she always laughs at him as an idealist.She always forgot to bring her keys, so he packed them in woolen bags for her, always remembering to put them in her carry-on bag.Over the years, she has changed one handbag after another, only this wool bag is always firmly remembered in the bag. This is the key to the house. When the gangster snatched her bag that day, she chased after it without thinking, because there was this bunch of keys in the bag, and she couldn't live without this bunch of keys. That's the key to home. That was his and her house key. Her palms were a little sweaty, and she was holding the key so hard that it hurt her hands. The landlord did not replace the anti-theft door, but the lock must have been replaced. She felt sad, and tears suddenly fell down. She can never go back. He just left, forever, and left her like this. The happiness she once had is now separated from her by thousands of mountains and rivers. Everything she once had was once behind this door.Just a stone's throw away, within reach, everything she ever had.She grabbed the iron teeth of the door, not wanting to cry.But in the end she couldn't hold back, she slammed on the door desperately, as if she was crazy, and cried as she slapped: "Meng Heping! Meng Heping! I'm back! Meng Heping! You open the door, Meng Heping, you open the door..." She knew that she was going crazy, the lights in the downstairs corridor suddenly turned on, she grabbed the iron grille on the door, and let the tears flow down, the whole world has long abandoned her, he has abandoned her, abandoned her He got off her and left on his own.Just like this lock, it has been changed and discarded, and it exiles her, and she can never go back.The whole world has long since abandoned her, and she can never get back that.While crying, she stuffed the key into the keyhole indiscriminately, and twisted it desperately, even if she had another look, even if she had to go back for another day, it would be good.The happiness that she once had, the happiness that she will never get again.How could he just abandon her and walk away cruelly by himself. Everything she ever had was behind this door. "Meng Heping! I'm back! Open the door, Meng Heping..." She clutched the iron teeth and twisted the key desperately, like crazy, he couldn't just walk away by himself. She didn't want him to just go away by himself. The door lock clicked and she turned it open. She stood at the door like a fool. The landlord did not change the locks. Everything in the house is neat and tidy, as if she has never left.All the furniture is in the original place, the small one bedroom and one living room can be seen at a glance, and everything is in the original place, including the simple hanging wardrobe that she bought in the supermarket for more than 300 yuan.The bedroom was too small to fit, so it had to be stuffed in the living room.The wardrobe was still in its original place, not even a speck of dust fell on it. The ground had just been mopped, and there was still water on the tiles.Meng Heping never wrings the mop when mopping the floor, so there will always be water on the tiles.The two cups of tea on the table were still steaming. She was impatient and liked to drink cold ones, so he always served her a cup of tea cold.Two cups are placed side by side, neither far nor near, curling up with steam.There is a glass vase on the sunny window sill, and there is a bunch of ginger flowers in the vase. The white and fragrant flowers look like white butterflies, and the butterflies should have flown away long ago. Her tears couldn't stop falling, she didn't even know how to take a step, and she didn't know how she got inside.The screen door leading to the balcony was open, and the north wind blew in mightily. The wind was cold and hot on the face, and rolled down scaldingly... There was a rattan chair on the balcony, and he was nestled in it alone, with a large stack of tabloids covering his face, as if he was asleep, with his arms hanging out of the armrest, and a cigarette between his fingers, the red star had already ignited. Almost burned his hands. She stood there like a dream, only tears kept pouring out, she didn't dare to move, she was afraid that if she moved, the dream would wake up.She was only afraid that she was dreaming, that everything in front of her eyes was an illusion before she was on the verge of collapse. He moved, but did not open the newspaper, his voice was very soft, as if he was talking to himself: "Jiaqi... I just heard you asking me to open the door again." He stood there without moving, and said in a low voice, "Why do you always forget to bring your keys? I've been coming back every few days to clean up the house or something. If you don't go home, you can't turn your house into a kennel." .I can only wait for this last time. I will really leave tomorrow. Don’t think that I am waiting for you. I haven’t met a good one——If I really do, how can I wait for you? But Yujiaqi, I've been looking around for so many years, but I haven't been able to find another you." She bit the corner of her mouth and cried, leaned over and finally stretched out her hand, and slowly lifted off the newspaper covering his face, his face was exposed bit by bit, it turned out that it was not a dream, it turned out that all this was not caused by herself dream.A big drop of her tears fell heavily on his face, his body shook, his breathing was heavy, and he finally opened his eyes slowly.This is the first time she saw his face so close after so many years. Through the blurred tears, she only felt thinner, much thinner, and there were fine lines at the corners of her eyes, which were no longer as smooth and full as before. .Her tears fell on his face and slid down his cheeks, as if he was crying with her. He seemed to be talking in his sleep: "Jia Qi?" She nodded desperately: "It's me, it's me." "Why didn't you leave?" she asked. He said, "I'm afraid that if you come back, you won't see me." She hugged him tightly, and he stretched out his arms, hugging her tightly too. She could not speak, only tears. "Jiaqi, I arrived at the airport this morning. When I went through the security check, I thought, I might never see you again after I leave. Just like when you left me that year, I planned to go abroad to study for a Ph. D. The moment before I got on the plane, I suddenly felt, I can't go, I'm already so far away from you, how can I keep getting further and further away from you. I have no way to leave here, because you are here. " She could not speak, only tears. "I've always been afraid, afraid of seeing you." He murmured, like a child, "but I'm even more afraid, afraid that you will never come back." She just weeps. "My mother passed away the year before last. Jiaqi, let me say to you on her behalf, I'm sorry, please forgive her. In fact, in the end, she regretted it, but she and I both know that some mistakes can no longer be made up. I have never dared to I went to find you, because I did not make you happy at all, but caused you to suffer so much. For so many years, I am not qualified to love you again, and I am afraid to see you again, but I have no choice, I can't let getting over You." She was in tears. Let him hold you tightly.