Chapter 14 Chapter Thirteen The Answer I Want

Ji Ruoli originally asked Xin Di to have dinner together, but Xin Di had already made arrangements for the evening, and she was always afraid of not being able to catch up with people she knew well, so she suggested: "Why don't we sit down now, I'm not far from your hotel, Siyue Garden, you can call a taxi and it will be there in ten minutes." The April Garden is an old-style building hidden in a downtown alley. It is said that it used to be the mansion of a certain warlord. With the changes of the times, it has naturally become a large compound where ordinary people live together. By the time the policy was implemented and returned to the old owner, it was dilapidated. .Some people have a keen eye for this place and obtained long-term use rights at a relatively low price. After spending a lot of money on repairs, the three-storey villa with a combination of Chinese and Western styles has generally restored its old appearance. The trees and flowers in the yard have been pruned and transplanted again. A waist-shaped pond was dug out, koi were raised, water lilies were planted, a small signboard was hung on the black-lacquered courtyard door, and a coffee and tea art collection called April Garden was opened.In addition to the hall, each wing room is decorated with its own characteristics, displaying the artworks collected by the owner, and there is a special small gallery upstairs to display the works of local artists.

There is a narrow one-way street in front of April Garden, and it is inconvenient to park. The business was very sluggish at first, but the owner insisted on it out of interest. Gradually, the environmental quality was appreciated by outsiders and local petty bourgeoisie. It has also become a good place for people to spend their leisure time. For some reason, KEN had a good conversation with the owner here, and often brought his work here in the afternoon, drinking tea and eating melon seeds, while drawing design sketches.Xin Di and he don't need to clock in and go to get off work, but she feels that this is a bit decadent, and she is more used to completing work in the design studio.

Suo Mei is about to shoot a new album, and invited Xin Di's old classmate Yan Xuhui from Beijing to take the photo.After seeing the creative proposal put forward by David Fan's advertising agency, A KEN suggested that since there is a theme of retro nostalgia, it might be better to put it in the April Garden. This idea hit it off with David Fan.Today, the two brought the part of the design draft that was going to be included in the picture album here for discussion, and waited for David Fan to pick up Yan Xuhui. Determining the design draft is sometimes a very torturous thing. The two often argue and deny certain designs with regret.Arriving in this deep and quiet courtyard, sitting in the east wing room with an English-style floral sofa, the sunlight softens through the gauze curtains, drinking tea alone and coffee alone, tired of discussing, go out to tease the courtyard for a while The work of the koi in the side pond is not so cumbersome.Xin Di had to agree with what KEN said, decadent things have their own decadent joy.

The waiter brought in a woman wearing a milky white silk dress and carrying a Chanel bag. She greeted Xin Di with a smile. Xin Di has always had a poor memory in recognizing people. Impressions make no difference. Xin Di said hello to A KEN, took Ji Ruoli through the corridor in front of the door, sat down in the west wing, looked at her clothes again, and said with a smile: "MiuMiu's new style, very beautiful." Ji Ruoli smiled, "As expected of a designer, the last time I saw me, I saw at a glance that I was wearing clothes from the last two seasons of DKNY, which made me feel ashamed. To tell you the truth, I specially wore the new clothes this time to see you." you."

Xin Di has no doubts that she would say such embarrassing words to the person she met for the first time, "I'm sorry, don't worry, I have an occupational disease, but I really don't mind which season's design it is, as long as it fits well Good clothes match people." "I know, you've been merciful to me, just telling the facts without commenting." At that time, Ji Ruoli kept her composure because of her upbringing, but she was relieved when she saw that Xin Di said Lu Fei without any scruples. , "At that time, he also criticized the old-fashioned Dunhill suit worn by Lu Fei, which was completely in the taste of a 40-year-old man. He also said that you can only see the clothes in your eyes."

"My colleague KEN said that I am a typical person who respects clothes first and then people. This kind of snobbery is different from others, haha." Xin Di never took the initiative to criticize people's behavior, but she couldn't restrain herself from finding fault with others. Dressing, I almost criticize Lufei every time I see him, and I always don't like his well-behaved style, and Lufei has always smiled and let her talk nonsense, and has no intention of accepting her opinions. The waiter brought the coffee and backed out. Ji Ruoli looked at the small tea room and smiled, "I've heard that the temperature here in summer is scary, and it's true. But after entering here, I feel completely different Unexpectedly, there is such a quiet place in the downtown area, which can be called a great hermit in the city."

In the local area in the last ten days of August, summer is still there, and it is naturally hot, but the flowers and trees in this courtyard are sparsely populated, and the indoor air conditioner is fully turned on, making it very comfortable.Xin Di jokingly said: "You should go out and feel it well, so that it is worthwhile to come here this season." Ji Ruoli smiled cooperatively, but it could be seen that she obviously did not intend to go out for this experience, "You haven't changed at all, Miss Xin, you are still the same as two years ago." Xin Di still had work to do, so she was afraid that the greetings would go on and on, "You too, I ran into Lu Fei yesterday, why didn't I hear him mention that you were coming over?"

"I haven't called Lu Fei yet this time, and I want to meet you first." Xin Di was naturally surprised. "Lu Fei went on a business trip to the United States in May this year. When he came back, he suddenly told me that he wanted to cancel the engagement." She frowned and looked at the cup of coffee in front of her, and suddenly stopped, as if trying to suppress the tremor in her voice. Xin Di looked at her nervously, she had no confidence in her ability to comfort people, her fingers couldn't help touching the backpack, and only then remembered that it was placed in the east wing.She glanced at the tissue box on the other table, and secretly hoped that Ji Ruoli used waterproof mascara.

Before she could finish her wild thinking, Ji Ruoli raised her eyes, and there was indeed a sparkle in them, but she controlled it very well, "I'm making you laugh, Miss Xin. I just hope that death must be understood, so come here side, trying to find an answer." Xin Di couldn't help feeling a little pity for me, and at the same time, she was very angry with Lu Fei, "Could it be that Lu Fei didn't even give an explanation for the dissolution of the engagement? That's too much." "He explained, very sincerely, that he realized it would be disrespectful and irresponsible of me to marry me when he didn't love me, that he had been in love with someone else, for many years, and that he Without realizing it, he wanted to right that wrong before it was too late."

Xin Di didn't know whether it was time to help or help her relatives. It was obvious that a man said this to his fiancée was very cold, no matter how sincere he was, it was unacceptable, but the person Lu Fei loved should be her cousin Xin Chen, She had to be partial, "Well, I'm not good at comforting people, Miss Ji, but I think the two of you should communicate fully. If it's irreparable, you can only minimize the damage." "Does it hurt? I liked him the first time I saw him. It took him a long time to accept me. I thought we were together after careful consideration. After more than two years of formal dating, we decided at the end of last year After we got married, we met our parents, and all our relatives and friends know that our wedding is in September, how do you think this kind of harm needs to be minimized?"

Xin Di was tongue-tied, admitting that her words were too flirtatious, but she couldn't help being a little disgusted.It doesn't mean that the whole world will cry with you after a broken love, she thought. Ji Leli took a deep breath, calming down his agitated mood, "I'm sorry, my tone was a bit wrong, I can't blame you for this." "It's okay, I... really sympathize with you, and feel that Lu Fei didn't handle it well enough." Xin Di searched her brains, but really didn't know what to say, so she could only say frankly, "I'm sorry, I don't know what I can do to help you. your." "Of course you can't help me. No one can help you when it comes to love, and I don't intend to beg you. But I must know, Lu Fei has loved you for so many years, why didn't he tell you? Three years ago he I came back once, probably to see you, but why did I accept my feelings when I went back? Did you reject him? Later, it seemed that you only met in the autumn more than two years ago, and I was there, so I couldn’t see it at all. What is there between you, why did he suddenly realize that he loves you when he came back from the United States this year?" The shock was so great that Xin Di's mouth opened into an O shape, and she couldn't close it for a long time. She knew she must look stupid, so she could only stammer: "Who...who said he loved me? " Ji Ruoli looked at her with a complicated expression, "You never knew?" Xin Diming knew it was inappropriate to joke at this time, but couldn't help it anymore, nodded, "Yes, he hid it really well, but how did you know? Did he say it? He didn't even tell me. " "Miss Xin, I think it doesn't matter who wins or loses when it comes to love, you don't have to put on such a high profile." Ji Ruoli was obviously a little irritated by her, "And you don't respect Lu Fei's feelings so much, It's a bit too cruel, I thought you should at least know how to love before you can treat yourself and others with compassion." Xin Di was dumbfounded by her lesson, and it took a long time before she smiled wryly, "There is a big misunderstanding, Miss Ji, it's true that Lu Fei and I grew up together and we are good friends, but I don't think he loves you." I don't even think I love him. The love theory you mentioned is very mysterious to me, but I think love is a matter between two people, and I can't force an outsider to understand it. " "So you're not ready to accept Lu Fei's feelings at all?" Xin Di looked at her, hesitating in her heart.Ji Ruoli in front of her looks gentle and beautiful, but the eagerness in her eyes is obvious. No matter how emotionally slow Xin Di is, she also understands that the other party doesn't just want to see the face of her rival.She didn't want to treat a strange girl cruelly, especially if she had just been hurt emotionally, but she also didn't want to let the relationship between Lu Fei and Xin Chen that hadn't started yet become complicated again. "Miss Ji, I'm not that keen on love. I always feel that there is more than one thing in life. Lu Fei is my good friend. I can only say for sure that the person he has always loved is not me. If you If you are not reconciled, you should communicate with him directly, so that you can find the answer by yourself, and I am afraid that you will hurt yourself in the end." "How else can I hurt myself? Since I was a child, my family loves me, and I think it is self-love. But you care about someone, it seems to give him the ability to hurt you, so I have to admit it. I am going to stay here After a period of time, finding an answer can be regarded as trying my best to recover." Xin Di thought of how she shook her head so unnegotiably when she mentioned Lu Fei to Xin Chen, and couldn't help smiling bitterly again, "Miss Ji, I don't like to get involved in other people's emotional entanglements, and it seems that you have already made up your mind. I won't say much more." "Before I came to the cafe, I asked Lu Fei to pick me up. He should be here right away. Don't you mind?" Xin Di laughed secretly, thinking that she is not as gentle and harmless as she looks, of course she did that because she didn't believe what she said, and wanted to see Lu Fei's reaction when she came over, "I don't mind at all." Ji Ruoli held the coffee saucer in her left hand, held the ear of the coffee cup with her right hand, and took a sip of the coffee. Her movements were impeccably in line with etiquette, but she smiled and said, "Well, Lu Fei and I are used to big cups in America. Drinking coffee in a big cup and holding such a small cup is really a bit unaccustomed." Xin Di said leisurely: "You should have known each other for a long time, right?" "Yes, it will be five years this year." She raised her hand and gestured towards the door, Xin Di turned her head, and it was indeed Lu Fei who came over. "Ruoli, have you made an appointment with Xiaodi?" "Yeah, I should meet someone you've always liked." Lu Fei looked at Xin Di in surprise, and Xin Di couldn't help but smile, "According to Miss Ji, you've been secretly in love with me for a long time, and I didn't even know it. Alas, Lu Fei, men who are boring are really a disaster." Lu Fei was helpless, "Stop messing around, Ruo Li, Xiao Di is my friend, it's not good for you to disturb her like this, let's go." Ji Ruoli sat still, looking at him steadily, "It's not that you guys are crazy, maybe I'm crazy. Lu Fei, your classmate Ding Xiaoqing told me that you have liked a girl who studies design since you were studying. Turned everyone down because of her. She is the friend you email regularly, and you have kept every email from her in your private mailbox for several years. You have photos with her, her clothing design album, her portrait sketches, Is there any special reason for pretending to be okay with me now?" Xin Di stared at the two of them, she really had nothing to say, so she had to think hard in her heart. It was unlikely that Lu Fei would say who he liked in passing, and it was probably because someone was stalking her.She has no memory of when the group photo was taken; Lufei has indeed sent a lot of emails in the past few years, and she has responded to a lot. Sometimes she asks Lufei to help her collect some foreign fashion materials, but most of them are gossip. It’s just their own whereabouts; as for the albums and sketches of her works, except for the parts kept as materials, she always keeps them handy, and she doesn’t have the narcissistic habit of gifting them everywhere. Where did this start? But Lu Fei's demeanor was calm, without a trace of surprise or embarrassment, "It's not good for you to go through my things, Ruo Li. We are both adults, I thought we had made it clear, we broke up in a friendly and considerate manner, no need Make it ugly." Ji Ruoli chuckled, "I've always wanted to maintain a good demeanor, Lu Fei, you have to admit, since you told me to break up with me, in the past three months, I have indeed been magnanimous and decent, right? But I endured it I can't accept such an ambiguous ending, so I did something I never thought I would do. I went to your house, looked through all the things in your study, turned on the computer and entered your mailbox , trying to find clues. But the two of you are so brilliant, you make me look like an idiot." She looked at Lu Fei and then at Xin Di, "Or Lu Fei, tell me the truth now, you Do you have another love, or do you simply not want to marry me?" "I didn't lie to you, Ruo Li, I tried my best to be honest with you." Ji Ruoli kept a smile on his face, but his eyes were full of tears, "Yes, I shouldn't doubt you, Lu Fei, you are indeed honest, and you never lied to me that you love me. I thought, the way you express your feelings It’s just so reserved. The day you accepted me, I thought, all my hard work was not in vain, and I finally touched you. But I was wrong, I was only touched by myself, I was so wrong.” Lu Fei was silent, Xin Di was already fidgeting with embarrassment, she never watched soap operas, and she was even more afraid of such emotional scenes in real life, "I still have work to do, Lu Fei, take Miss Ji back to the hotel to rest." Lu Fei nodded, "Ruoli, I'll take you back, this matter really has nothing to do with Xiaodi, let's go." Xin Di came out with them, intending to go back to the East Wing, but stopped suddenly, and saw the two people standing in the courtyard fiddling with cameras and tripods, they were Xin Chen and Lin Yueqing. Xin Chen looked at the three people standing in front of him through the camera, Lu Fei looked at her in astonishment, seemed to say something, but immediately shut his mouth tightly; Di looked at her, then at Lu Fei, and smiled wryly at her camera. Xin Chen paused for a while, slowly moved away from the camera, and smiled at Xin Di, "What a coincidence, why are you here, Di Zi, don't you have to go to work?" Xin Di thought, this kind of meeting today is really annoying enough, but seeing Xin Chen's calm expression, she was a little relieved, "KEN and I are here to discuss the design draft, and by the way, wait for David Fan to bring the photographer over to see the scene, you What are you doing here?" "Yueqing wants to take pictures of some old-style buildings, so I walked all the way here with him." Xin Chen picked up the camera again, turned around slightly, and adjusted the aperture to the upper side of the villa. "This angle is very interesting." Lin Yueqing nodded to Lu Fei and the others, set up the tripod, and said with a smile: "This villa is very special in architecture. It faces south, and the east and west rooms are symmetrical. There is a small hexagonal pavilion on the roof. It is a typical Chinese style, but the porch is similar to a colonial one. The architecture is interestingly integrated, and I am also preparing to shoot that pavilion." Xin Di winked at Lu Fei, signaling him to go first, and he understood, "Ruo Li, let's go." Before they could take a step, David Fan came in accompanied by a tall, thin man with a big camera bag on his back. The man happily shouted: "Xin Di, I'm so proud of you. You stood at the door to welcome me." Xin Di snorted, "You're a little too self-inflated, Old Yan." "Xin Chen, it's great that you're here too. I told Lao Dai just now that I wanted you to come out and participate in the post-production of this picture album." David Fan brought their alumni Yan Xuhui, who a few years ago He resigned from Bei Piao, and now he has made a name for himself in the fashion photography industry in the capital. He never cared about Xin Di's blows. Xin Chen had no choice but to put down the camera and said with a smile, "Hi Xuhui, long time no see." The sun slanted through the shade of the trees and shone on Xin Chen's face, and the faint smile on her face was dyed with a dazzling pale gold.Ji Ruoli, who was originally absent-minded, was suddenly stunned, and for a moment her eyes were firmly locked on Xin Chen's face. The side with a dimple on the left cheek was so familiar. folder, took out the sketches and clothing albums inside, and opened them one by one carefully. The common model on it was clearly in front of her eyes, but after hearing Ding Xiaoqing's words, she had preconceived ideas. At that time, she only noticed the designer and artwork of the album. The small signature on the corner is also Xin Di. Ji Ruoli turned her head slowly, looked at Lu Fei, the two people's eyes met, Lu Fei's usually deep and calm eyes revealed complex emotions that could not be expressed in words, she suddenly understood everything. "Your machine should be replaced." Yan Xuhui looked at the camera in Xinchen's hand with an expert eye, "Old Dai told me that you have been processing pictures for his company, and we finally have the opportunity to cooperate. What a waste. , Xin Chen, if you were willing to stay in Beijing back then, you would definitely have developed better than you are now, so why deal with those vulgar advertisements made by Lao Dai." David Fan and him have known each other for a long time, and they talked and laughed freely. He immediately elbowed him honestly, "Hey, you are out of breath before you say you are fat. You are a commercial photographer. I really think of myself as a master of art." At another time, Xin Di had already laughed at Yan Xuhui together, but now she was a little surprised, "Chenzi, have you ever been to Beijing to look for a job?" Xin Chen handed the camera to Lin Yueqing, and lazily said: "It happened a long time ago." She was facing Xin Di with a calm expression, but the meaning in her eyes was clearly asking her not to ask about this matter again , Xin Di immediately shut his mouth. But Lu Fei on the side said, "Xiaochen, when did you go to Beijing?" Xin Chen glanced past Lu Fei and Ji Ruoli, who had been staring at her closely, and still kept that smile, casually said: "I forgot, is it important?" Yan Xuhui smiled and said: "Xin Chen, I will forget this too, it was the year you graduated from university." The smile on Xin Chen's face disappeared, and he gave him an annoyed and sullen look, "Go ahead, Yue Qing, let's go to the Orthodox church in front first." She turned and walked away without looking at anyone.Of course, Lin Yueqing could feel the strange atmosphere here suddenly. He raised the tripod, nodded to Lu Fei, and strode out with her. Yan Xuhui had already experienced Xin Chen's capriciousness and moodiness before, but he thought it was the privilege of a beautiful girl and didn't take it to heart at all, but seeing Xin Di's expression staring at him, he couldn't help but bewildered, "Hey, Xin Di, You look at me like this accusing me of abducting an underage girl. She was an adult at that time, and she went to Beijing to find a job. I introduced her to a graphic design position for a fashion magazine. She passed the initial and re-examinations. The treatment was very good, and they even wanted her to audition as a plane model, and they agreed to report for work on the next Monday. The day before was fine, but the next day, for some reason, she suddenly said that she was not interested, packed her luggage and left .” "Excuse me, how many months did that happen?" Lu Fei asked, his voice low and hoarse. Yan Xuhui thought about it seriously, "I don't remember clearly, but the day I sent her to the train, there was a sandstorm blowing in Beijing, it should be March or April." Lu Fei's face was serious, but Xin Di was stunned. In March of that year, when Xin Chen was in the second semester of her senior year, when she was having dinner at her uncle’s house one weekend, she suddenly mentioned that she planned to go to other places to find a job. Xin Kaiming was surprised and asked her where she was going. There are more job opportunities in design, I will go to Shanghai to have a look first.” Xin Kaiming disagreed. He always advocated that Xin Chen stay in the local area like his daughter.As usual, Li Xin didn't comment on her choice, but Xin Di smiled, "I thought so when I graduated, but unfortunately I didn't make it. It's good for Chen Zi to try it out, majoring in design, coastal areas and metropolises are really developing There's more space." Seeing that she insisted on going, Xin Kaiming had no choice but to tell her to bring enough money and contact her family more, if she couldn't find a suitable job, she would come back immediately.Xin Chen nodded in agreement, and left after a day. About half a month later, she came back without making a sound, and the whole person was silent for a while. It was the first time she connected this incident with Lu Fei returning to China to work in Beijing at the end of February that year, and she couldn't help but sulk. "Has Chen Zi ever looked for you?" Lu Fei shook his head, "I haven't seen her, let's talk about it later, Xiaodi." He lightly held Ji Ruoli's arm who was about to speak, and nodded to several people present, "We have to take a step ahead, goodbye .” There was no parking space in front of this door, so Lu Fei parked his car on another nearby road.Ji Ruoli followed him along the narrow sidewalk, Lu Fei walked extremely fast, striding forward, as if he had forgotten about Ji Ruoli beside him, she was wearing high heels, barely followed a few steps, then stopped suddenly, Looking at his back in despair. He walked straight forward and walked more than ten meters before he realized it, stopped and turned back, "I'm sorry, Ruo Li, why don't you wait here, and I'll drive the car over." "So, it's the girl with the camera, right?" She asked softly, but Lu Fei didn't answer, she laughed self-deprecatingly, "Hey, I don't know what's the point of me recognizing her. I am completely blank. When we were the closest, you never told me about your past. I thought it would be okay, we just have the present and the future. You see, I am so self-deceiving, how ridiculous." "Ruoli, I'm sorry that I wasn't firm enough to accept your feelings when I had another person in my heart." "You have been away from here for seven years, Lu Fei, so how long have you loved her? I don't think she is very old." "She's 25 and I've loved her since she was 14 and that's all I can tell you." Ji Ruoli suddenly turned his head to the other side, "I'm really a masochist, I flew to this frighteningly hot city just to hear you say this." "Sorry." "Please don't tell me you're sorry, it's said that a man who said this to a woman is determined to let her down." Ji Ruoli smiled wryly, looking around blankly. This narrow road is a one-way street. The most common local sycamores are planted on the side of the road. The dense branches and leaves shade the summer sun. The dense buildings on both sides are full of small hair salons, small restaurants and various small shops downstairs. There are migrant girls squatting at the entrance of many restaurants, putting vegetables on the sidewalk to choose and wash, and playing and joking at the same time. The market is full of atmosphere, and it is really not quiet.The place where they stood was just outside the white courtyard wall of April Garden, but they couldn't feel the tranquility inside just now at all. "Do you like this place? Lu Fei, when I asked you before, you always passed by, only saying that here are four distinct seasons, the summer is very hot, and the city is very noisy." Ji Ruoli really didn't like such a chaotic environment, and even more so I don't like such violent temperatures. "I was born here and I'm used to it. Sometimes I like it more than I get used to. Of course, there are many places that are better than here, with cleaner air, cleaner roads, a more prosperous environment, more job opportunities, and more suitable places. climate, but no matter where I live, I often think of this city.” Ji Ruoli understood that what reminded him from time to time was not limited to the hustle and bustle of the world in front of him, "Are you planning to stay and settle down? Then what about your work?" "Two days ago, I went back to the company to submit my resignation report." Ji Ruoli was startled, and looked up at him, a sneer slowly formed on the corner of his mouth, "You won't contact me when you go back to Beijing, it's really clean and thorough." "Ruoli, I flew there in the morning and flew back in the evening. We were in a hurry, and we agreed to calm down and wait for your reply, so we didn't bother you." "It's also fortunate that you don't have to bump into me looking through things in your apartment. How embarrassing the scene would be. I kept thinking about it while I was looking through things. I used to call ahead when I went to your place. I never touched your phone. Even if you don’t need your computer, even if you answer a work call, I will consciously avoid it a little, lest you feel that I don’t have enough space for you, but you will actually do such a thing.” "Forget it, I don't blame you." "You don't need to forgive me, and I don't intend to blame myself." Ji Ruoli raised her head and said unceremoniously, "I don't feel guilty at all. After an engagement, I have the right to know the reason for the breakup, right?" "Going on, I'm sorry again for telling you what you don't like to hear." "Okay, I know I'm probably abnormal, but I really want to know, Lu Fei, why do you love her for such a sensible man? Is the relationship so deep when you were young? Why do I think of having a crush on her when I was fourteen or five years old? Boys who have passed will only find it funny?" "Everyone's feelings are different, don't compare them, it's meaningless." "So, my feelings have already been judged by you as meaningless and unworthy of nostalgia." Lu Fei shook his head helplessly, knowing that although Ji Ruoli remained calm at this time, he was sharp and irritable completely different from usual, "It's not like this, Ruoli, I appreciate your tolerance and devotion to me." "My contribution is my own will, and I don't need anyone's gratitude, Lu Fei, all I need is a clear explanation." "I do owe you an explanation, Ruo Li. Seven years ago, I gave up on her and went to study in the United States. When I left this city, she told me that she never wanted to see me again. She has always been uncompromising, saying Do it, don't receive my emails, don't answer my calls. I came back three years ago and wanted to ask her to give me a chance. She left early and didn't see me at all. I thought I had no possibility with her. " "So you accepted me with the best of both worlds." This sentence had already reached Ji Leli's mouth, and she swallowed it back forcefully.Of course, she realized it three years ago, but she just told herself to cherish the happiness in front of her.But now that she had to face up to this point clearly, she suddenly felt chills all over her body in such hot weather. "Should I call you a lover? Lu Fei, who didn't have any youthful feelings when he was young, is it worth you to think about it until today, and it happened on the eve of marriage? Is she showing love to you again now? So you think There is still a possibility between you and her, so you are in a hurry to send me away?" "She didn't give me any hints, Ruo Li. It's just that I suddenly realized that if it was justifiable for me to leave seven years ago, then three years ago, I gave up too easily. I loved her, but I didn't wait and persist , I returned to Beijing without staying for a day, and I will never forgive myself for this." "Why do I hear it so weird? Then what do you think of our previous relationship? Next, are you going to tell me that it was my complete wishful thinking, and you didn't give me any feelings at all?" "You are very good to me. I like you and get along with you. We have a very happy time, but I can no longer enjoy your dedication safely. It is unfair to continue with you." "It's fair to talk to me now. Lu Fei, I've known you for five years and loved you for five years. If all I wanted was fairness, it would have been unbalanced. Why have I loved you for so long? But you only come back to accept me when you don’t get what you want? You see, you, like me, have accepted the injustice by default. I just want to know now, what made you suddenly think that you must return the fairness to me? What about me?" "Ruoli, I can't analyze my feelings anymore, in exchange for your understanding, I can only say, I'm sorry." Ji Ruoli couldn't bear it anymore, tears rolled down his face, "I'm sorry again, I'm still sorry, is there nothing else between us besides being sorry?" Lu Fei handed her the handkerchief, "I'm a very bad man, Ruo Li, you deserve someone better to love you, forget about me." "This kind of lovelorn blessing is really bad enough." Ji Ruoli carefully wiped away the tears, opened the purse and took out the makeup mirror to look at himself, "Before I came, I was ready to hug you and cry. Mascara, I hope the makeup is not ugly, but now, I have shed some tears, and I can’t cry anymore.” Lu Fei was silent, Ji Ruoli threw the makeup mirror into the bag and stared at him, "If I say, I'm willing to wait?" Lu Fei frowned, "No, Ruo Li..." "Please listen to me, Lu Fei. You haven't been in touch for seven years. You heard it just now. That girl went to Beijing three years ago and didn't even go to see you. She may not still love you, right? I said before, give everyone a little time to calm down, and you agreed. During this time, I will stay in the local area, but I will not hinder you. Go and talk to her, if she is willing to accept you, I have nothing to say It can be said to leave immediately. If she doesn't feel the same as you, then I hope we will give each other a chance." Ji Ruoli said calmly, "You cherish your feelings, but don't underestimate mine. , okay?" Lu Fei looked at her, his expression had never been so tired as now, "I have hurt her, and now I don't even know how to face her, let alone redeem my love with her. I'm sorry, Ruo Li, please don't wait I, I appreciate your kindness, but I have no possibility of being with others."