Chapter 4 Chapter 4 Depth

Our family lives in Yuejinfang, an industrial zone in the eastern suburbs.Do you think that a workshop is a workshop of a workshop, a soy sauce workshop, a bean sprouts workshop, or a firecracker workshop, oh, no, no, this workshop is not that workshop.Our Fang is an ancient name handed down from the Great Leap Forward, and Yifang is a dormitory area.I heard that there are thirty-six or one hundred and eight squares in our eastern suburbs, who knows for sure.Under the gray sky, the dry red brick buildings are like abandoned train carriages, left in a mess in the wasteland.It's really quiet here, so quiet that even the red brick walls are covered with mushrooms and moss.Once upon a time, my mother said, it used to be a steamy place, where thousands of workers in blue uniforms flowed endlessly, and factory buildings were connected to factory buildings, just like Tianba connected to Tianba.I still don’t know why the factory’s name is like a password. Box 123, Box 456, and Box 789. The boulevard in the factory stretches long through the fence with intarsia, extending to a smoky gray The end, how magnificent and mysterious.Of course, that was in the past.This is not the case now. Now that you are in the eastern suburbs, you think you are on the moon. It is as desolate as you want.First, the chimney stopped smoking, and then a large iron lock was hung on the factory door.The air vehicle stopped, the lights were not on, the machine tools were rusted, many people were laid off, and the popularity disappeared.Even if it’s not the moon, the eastern suburbs are as desolate as a town where locusts grate, the tile cornices have been bitten out of honeycombs by rain and wind, and the buildings are as dilapidated as unearthed cultural relics. It used to be the poor former residence of some famous person.Celebrities and houses are equally pitiful, but there are ginkgo biloba, phoenix tree, chrysanthemum, acacia, mulberry... and heartless plantains in front of and behind the house, which are still lush and graceful in spring and summer. , so green that people panic.The savage guys in the workshop have already gone out to the wild, went to Xinjiang to pan for gold, and went to Hainan to fry land, leaving those old men and women in slippers and holding tea bowls, playing mahjong day and night under the Jue tree. .

Little mahjong is not a military term. Little mahjong is a little mahjong that wins or loses only a few cents or a few cents.Winning and losing are small because you earn less.My mother once said, who doesn't want to play marijuana, how heroic it is to spend a lot of money!But you and he are both laid off, and there are only a hundred yuan a month. You just boiled his bones dry, which is a hundred yuan.How do you think this mahjong is not small? ! Our house lives on the first floor, and the head of my bed is right next to the window, and those mahjong tables seem to be placed on my pillow.Fortunately, people who play mahjong rarely talk.All the words on the mahjong table are nonsense, and everyone is making calculations based on their stomachs.The sound of mahjong turning on the tablecloth is like the sound of marine boots walking on a plastic runway. Sometimes they have the same intentions as me. Those who rub it make their hearts tighten, and those who listen to it feel so upset that they want to vomit.

Mom went to border trade again.She must have made a few pennies.Before she leaves, she always leaves me a lot of instant noodles, the 120 Master Kong noodles.She has worked as an accountant in the factory, and she is not confused in calculating anything, so I can also know how many days she will be out based on the amount of instant noodles.Of course, she also left me a pile of money.The amount of money depends on her mood.When she is happy, she feels more guilty towards her daughter and gives more money; on the contrary, when she is sad and feels that others have failed her, she gives me less money.The room was dark, and the light coming in from the window made the room even darker.I was too lazy to turn on the light, so I fumbled to soak the instant noodles in boiling water.The instant noodles give off a very crisp and warm aroma, very close to the smell of burning a handful of dried shallots.I like the taste.I like those men who gorge on instant noodles in movies and TV shows. They grunt, sweat profusely, and have red noses, showing a domineering look.I thought of Tao Tao again. Tao Tao had domineering aura. I didn't expect his arrogance to meet Bao Jingsheng, and he would be deflated, lose his temper, and disappear.

I only met Tao Tao when I entered high school.When I saw him for the first time, I was taken aback, and my heart felt so heavy. Really, I heard a crack in my chest, as if a bone had been broken.I said to myself, wow, how could it be him? Did you ask who he is?Actually, I don't know him either, I don't know who he is.God knows who he is?The summer vacation after graduating from the third year of junior high school was endlessly long. In my memory, rainwater fell every day on the plump leaves of plantains, just like the water leaking from ancient timekeeping on the plate. It was so boring and disturbing. Pull the lungs.I pulled out Dad's binoculars and looked out the window.The telescope was bought by my father to deal with munitions. Only one lens is still functional. Even if it is a toy, I think it will lose my face.But at that time when Pepsi was careless, the telescope still brought me a little surprise.Across a dripping banana leaf and a muddy concrete road, I saw a yellow public phone booth at the intersection.In the gray rain, in the dry red bricks, yellow is as eye-catching and beautiful as rapeseed flowers.Of course, it wasn't the little phone booth that I took the trouble to see, but a man in the binoculars who hurried past before noon, and the phone booth was the best background for him.It doesn't rain until noon, and the rain always stops for a while before noon. He tucks the umbrella under his arm and puts his hands in his trouser pockets. His back is slightly hunched, a kind of intentional hunched, careless and unhurried.He always seems to have something on his mind, but this thing seems to be just right, adding to his weight, but not being able to crush him down.I have never seen him before, and it is really a miracle that such a person lives in the eastern suburbs of the industrial workers' stronghold.In fact, he just lives in my lens, as soon as I take the binoculars away, he disappears instantly.I thought about running to the phone booth and waiting for him before noon, to get a closer look at him, but I didn't dare.Why not?I'm afraid that I will blush, and I'm afraid that he will disappoint me... who knows?

Later, I held an umbrella to look up the number of the telephone booth. The only thing I remember clearly is this number, 86744501. It is not easy to remember, but I have never forgotten it.Every day when he approached the phone booth a little bit, I dialed 86744501.I can't hear the bell but he can and I hope one day he'll take the mic off and I'll say hello hello... and then I don't know what to say...of course it doesn't happen and then because He's always gone his own way.Once he stopped and looked at the microphone, hesitating, he even took his hand out of his trouser pocket and reached towards it.I was about a hundred meters away, holding a cyclops binoculars in one hand and a microphone in the other, and I felt like my heart was about to burst out.At that moment, the ringtone stopped. I was stunned for a while, and then redialed quickly, 8-6-7-4-4-5-0-1-!But when I lifted the binoculars, he was gone.The rainy season passed and I never saw him on camera again.Because one day I dropped the binoculars on the ground, maybe on purpose or not, and I never saw that man again.

I told Zhu Zhu about this, and I said I was stupid, wasn't I?Zhu Zhu Wan'er smiled, and she said, which girl hasn't done something stupid?You know, that person is your hallucination, there is no him at all. I thought Zhu Zhu was right at the time.Yes, it must be a hallucination, otherwise, why can't I remember what he looks like at all? When I saw Tao Tao for the first time, my heart suddenly became clear: He looks like the guy who walked through my lens before noon on a rainy day.Of course I know that he is not him, he is a man, and he is still a boy, but what does it matter, all men grow up as boys, right?Tao Tao is the tallest among the boys, with a small section of hair dyed golden on the left side, with his hands folded in his trouser pockets, standing in the group of boys, his face full of indifference.Later, he said that he saw that my hair was so short, as short as a board inch, and my mouth was closed so tightly, as tight as a vise, but I didn't look like a girl at all.I said, then why do you like me?He said, I don't actually like you, I just feel upset, how could such a girl appear!Yes, Tao Tao said, I just want to bite you, just like a dog wants to bite another dog.

I said, shit! In the first inter-class basketball game, the girls in our class were all hoarse because of Tao Tao.In fact, his movements are not graceful, nor can he be said to be vigorous. He often bumps people with his elbows and runs around with a ball in his arms.I also stared at him with wide eyes, but my throat was so congested that I couldn't make a sound.I kept thinking, is this person really that person?Oh, that's weird, this one is when that one was a boy, right?I actually don't know anything about that person, but when I stared at Tao Tao, I really felt a feeling of being lost and found again, just like the plots that often appear in movies, where soldiers are chaotic and crowds are surging, in the slow and slow camera, a person He waved to another person and ran.Run and run, always can't run together...

After the game, there was a broken gong, and Class One, the second year of high school, lost miserably. I will always remember the score, 14:62, printed on our chests like a postmark.The athletes in our class all bowed their heads and felt guilty like thieves.Only Tao Tao hugged the ball and looked at the sky, pretending not to care.But his indifference was full of grievances, which made the girl want to cry for him even more.Well, it's true, many girls cried, hugging me and hugging you, crying wildly, trying to cry for Tao Tao to see.I suddenly felt very upset. I was not bothered by those little girls with fake eyebrows and fake eyes, but that I was also getting a little fake eyebrows and fake eyes.Oh, I don't want others to cry when they see me, dripping some kind of water for the guy who lost everything... I left everyone and ran towards the classroom alone.

But at the corner of the third floor of the teaching building, Tao Tao suddenly caught up.He said, damn it, I lost on you!The cheerleaders are making such a fuss, you're the only one who looks like a dead door god. I turned around and looked at him coldly, and I said, if you concentrate on playing, how would you know that I am a loser?Men are worthless, they only take out their anger on fucking women. Tao Tao's face turned red, and he raised his hands, as if he wanted to slap me.At that time, I still didn't believe that a man with a lot of strength would hit a woman hard.I raised my head and met his hand.It looks like I'm saying, slap it, slap it, that's how you slap a girl? !Thinking about it afterwards, my face was hot for a while, did I look like I was acting like a baby?I said to myself, my God, you can act like a baby to boys!

Tao Tao raised his hand even higher, but when he raised it, he lowered it gently.Tao Tao seemed to see the tears in my eyes, and those tears made him hesitate for a while.I was deeply impressed by his hesitation for a while. He is always a person who hesitates at critical moments, right?Tao Tao's hand fell down and landed on my cheek.He stroked my cheek for a while, and suddenly squeezed it hard.He ran off, and my face was still tearing up by the time school was over. Tao Tao invited me to his Giant. I paid for the dumplings, sliced ​​noodles and hot and sour noodles we ate in a side street.After dinner, we wandered the streets.In the shadow of a sycamore tree, Tao Tao kissed me.I was sixteen years old, and Tao Tao was also sixteen years old. It was the first time a boy touched my lips with his lips.But I later told Zhu Zhu that I knew it was not the first time for Tao Tao, he did it very skillfully, the smell of vinegar, garlic, and smoke in his mouth were all manly.I curled up in his arms, limp all over.But I didn't say anything.Poor Tao Tao also said nothing.Really, we are not at all like those nonsense novels written in those nonsense novels, with endless nasty words.

Zhu Zhu once told me that Tao Tao was unreliable. She said that men are unreliable, and women are born lovers and fools.Zhu Zhu has never dated any boy alone, and no one knows which boy is hidden in Zhu Zhu's heart.If she wasn't joking with me, she must be jealous of me.At least then I thought she was jealous of me, didn't I, and I took the best boy in the class away. However, after I clashed with Bao Jingsheng at the barbecue stall that day because of Ali, Zhu Zhu reminded me again that Tao Tao's power is not for you. Zhu Zhu's reason was that when I was threatened by Bao Jingsheng, Tao Tao had no intention of making a move at all.She said, even if Bao Jingsheng slapped you in the face, he wouldn't do it.Bao Jingsheng wanted to test his depth, and he also wanted to test Bao Jingsheng's depth.Everyone can see this, so I kept it from you, because you are a lover and a fool. How could I be a fool?I just don't say it.Because I can only pretend to be stupid and have nothing to say.Once Memed's opponent gave him a machete, saying it was a banana.Maimed took the scimitar, chewed it into pieces and swallowed it.His Lord bless him, he is alive.Blessed are those who play dumb, Memed said.Not sure if this applies to me too?In fact, I didn't want to pretend to be stupid, but I was clamped by myself. I said Zhu Zhu, don't blame Tao Tao, since we are friends, why don't you help me? Zhu Zhuwaner smiled.She was a typical little girl, but she became a little woman when she smiled.She said, I just want you to see what kind of heart a man is. I don't like Zhu Zhu's appearance. I have never concealed my relationship with Tao Tao from anyone.I also thought that even if my parents asked me, I would admit it frankly.But my parents didn't ask me, they couldn't even name any of my classmates.Zhu Zhu was the first person to ask me. The second day I got on Tao Tao's bicycle, Zhu Zhu asked me, who is Tao Tao to you, Fengzi? I smiled and said, boyfriend.I reached up and brushed her bangs, and I said, like you're my best girlfriend. Zhu Zhu shook his head and moved my hand away.This answer did not make Zhu Zhu happy.Zhu Zhu is the prettiest girl in Class 1 of our sophomore year of high school, and she became the class monitor because of her beauty.Zhu Zhu belongs to the kind of small and delicate beauty, even at a rough glance, she will be confused with Song Xiaodou, but in fact they are completely different, Song Xiaodou is not as beautiful as Zhu Zhu, but Zhu Zhu is not as beautiful as Song Xiaodou pride.Zhu Zhu's beauty is not the kind of beauty that stretches her teeth and claws, but timid and pitiful.She is also the announcer of the "Little Frog Radio Station". Her Mandarin is very good, which is the kind of timid southern Mandarin.When the monitor was elected, all the boys and 70% of the girls voted for her. Song Xiaodou was dissatisfied with the results of the election. She said that someone who could live in the town should be elected as the squad leader.But who can control Tangzi, only Tao Tao.The class was chaotic, and Tao Tao roared, "Damn it, I'm full and full!"Immediately there will be silence in the classroom.Song Xiaodou specially used Tao Tao to suppress the hall, and she used other methods to suppress Tao Tao.Later, Song Xiaodou became the head teacher of the most respected student in the school.She walked on the playground with her hands behind her back, her long braid trembling on her right buttocks, and a boy from another class behind her pointed and said, look, Song Xiaodou, even Tao Tao is afraid of her. However, Tao Tao still can't be the squad leader.His main subject scores are always around 60, and he smokes, fights, and is always scolded by Song Xiaodou.Song Xiaodou raised the standard for monitor, but couldn't propose a candidate, so Zhu Zhu was still chosen.Zhu Zhu was flushed with excitement, and his inaugural speech was incoherent.She thanked her teachers and classmates for a while, and thanked her parents and the principal for a while...Song Xiaodou frowned, muttered something in English, and drove Zhu Zhu away with a wave of his hand.Song Xiaodou said, being a class monitor is not about receiving an Oscar, what kind of show is he doing? Zhu Zhu cried and sobbed until get out of class was over.Zhu Zhu looks the best when she cries, she is very charming.While I was persuading Zhu Zhu, I called Tao Tao at the same time, why don't you come to show your courtesy?Tao Tao, wearing land combat boots, walked over sloppily, and patted Zhu Zhu on the head. He was so tall, and Zhu Zhu was so petite. When he patted her, he looked very natural, so natural that I didn’t feel jealous at all. .I just thought, what if this guy was shooting Song Xiaodou?I also thought it was funny, Tao Tao dared to shoot Song Xiaodou! But Zhu Zhu shook his head vigorously and said, don't shoot me! Tao Tao was not embarrassed, followed by two more shots, saying, so what? Zhu Zhu laughed reluctantly, and she said, Fengzi, you have to suffer.Everyone laughed.At that time, Tao Tao was really naive and heroic.I said, what if Song Xiaodou also scolded me?Tao Tao looked around, and said heroically, I'll give her a sip!I knew he didn't have the guts, but I still felt unspeakable joy.Because like Zhu Zhu said, I am a born idiot. I really don't believe that Tao Tao is afraid of Bao Jingsheng.What kind of thing is Bao Jingsheng? I have seen Tao Tao fight with the physical education teacher with my own eyes.The physical education teacher is a retired weightlifter from the sports team of the Kunming Military Region. He is as short as an iron tower, and his small eyes are full of anxiety and fierceness.If the students did not observe discipline, he would punish them for running 20 or 30 laps around the playground, or doing 200 sit-ups.Finally one time Tao Tao took the lead in making a fuss, the teacher slapped him across the face and cursed: I already knew you had this day! Tao Tao didn't answer, and punched the teacher to the ground.There was a pool of sewage on the ground, and the teacher poured it into the sewage, like a dead pig planted in a cesspit.That punch also hit the face, and the teacher was really caught off guard.For this punch, Tao Tao practiced hard for a whole month.Tao Tao said to me, see, who is more ruthless?Damn ×. Before the school dealt with Tao Tao, Tao Tao had reached a settlement with the physical education teacher: he paid the teacher 2,000 yuan as compensation within three days, but the teacher changed his words and explained to Vice Principal Jiang that he accidentally slipped and fell .I asked Tao Tao, where did the two thousand yuan come from?Tao Tao said, my father will give it to me.Tao Tao's father is the deputy director of the Industrial and Commercial Office of Nanheba District. He doesn't have much money, but he has never been short of money.His father has a famous saying that he often tells his wife and son at the dinner table, "Be good at treating other people's money as your own." tell me.He said, benefited a lot, really fucking benefited ah. I have taught Tao Tao the word "benefited a lot", otherwise how could he say it.During the long, possibly eternal journey, Maimed often competes with others. If he wins, he will say that you have given me face; if he loses, he will say that he has benefited a lot.Tao Tao used it as a metaphor for the teaching his father gave him. I really don't know what to say. This time he wanted to try to raise funds by himself, so he asked Ali for a loan.Ali was a little silly, so he went back and asked his father.No one expected that the next day, Ali brought the money in a formal red envelope with "Gong Xi Fa Cai" stamped on the outside.The number is not two thousand, but two thousand plus five hundred.Ali also gave Tao Tao a mobile phone number, saying that his father wanted to talk to him a few words.In front of me, Tao Tao used the school's IC phone to call.When the phone was connected, he just said "Hi Uncle, I'm Tao Tao" and didn't say anything more.He was listening all the time, and Ali and I didn't speak. It was only a minute. In my memory, it seemed like hours.Tao Tao hung up the phone and smiled at them, a forced smile.After a while, when he talked about going to have a barbecue at noon, the expression on his face became natural. I asked Ali, what kind of person is your father? Ali said, businessman.Ali thought for a while, and added, gentle and elegant businessman. As I tell you all this now, it strikes me how ignorant we were of Ali, who was just a rich man's son, a fat piece of meat everyone wanted to bite into.To me, he's just a little guy who needs to be looked after.Poor who is he?Who ever thought about it. *the third part Bao Jingsheng often said that he was a Tibetan, a Lhasa native, a northerner, and a Beijinger, and he often used rudeness and carelessness as more appropriate proofs.But I don't think he is shit, where is he from?He is now a man of our city.Tao Tao asked his little brother to find out why Bao Jingsheng followed his parents inside, he was kicked out by his parents because of his stubbornness.Perhaps he stabbed someone, or robbed someone, and he was repeatedly expelled from a middle school in Lhasa several times.