Chapter 3 2.

2. From that day on, Sansan became Astro Boy's "girlfriend".Of course, this was called out by repeat students.He didn't dare to call when Astro Boy was around, but as long as Astro Boy walked out of the classroom with his front foot, or ran to the gym room to borrow a ball during physical education class, anyway, as long as Astro Boy ran away for a second, he would immediately turn over the ball. Baiyan yelled in a strange voice: "Shameless, Xu Jialiang loves boys, Xu Jialiang is Astro Boy's girlfriend!" Then the boys who followed him would scream and stomp their feet, knock on the table with a tin pencil case, and vomit excitedly. With saliva stars.Although the girls were all buried in their homework or chatting, Sansan could clearly see Wu Xiaoyun and Xing Keke exchanging teasing glances across a few rows of tables, and then turned around to look at Sansan's expression unscrupulously.What expression could she have?Her face was flushed red, and she almost wanted to hide it in her schoolbag.But she never argued, because she was afraid of being noticed.She was afraid that if she stood up and argued with the damn repeater, all eyes would be on her.Wu Xiaoyun would look at her jagged bangs.Xing Keke would cover her mouth and laugh secretly because of her red scarf that was wrinkled like pickles and soaked in milk when she ate breakfast.And her ridiculously bony arms, the dirty wrinkled skin on the joints, and she's wearing a pair of trousers that are already short enough to show her ankles.Growing taller always made her feel helpless, so she could only be nailed to the seat by herself like a small nail, hanging her head in a novel book like avoiding the teacher's name-calling speech in class.The climax is often when the repeaters suddenly jumped up and said loudly: "The two of them kissed behind the small garden after school yesterday!" Immediately, the whole classroom exploded. The boys slapped their mouths with their hands and made weird sounds, and the girls laughed. Leaning back and forth, they whispered to each other.It wasn't until the class bell rang or Astro Boy suddenly walked into the classroom that the repeater slumped back to his trash can-like desk, leaned on a lame chair, and picked up a pencil box from the pencil box. A pin picks teeth again.Sansan hated him.She simply wished him dead.

"Boys bully you because they like you." Astro Boy said to Sansan like this one day. Of course Sansan couldn't believe his nonsense.At that time, every summer vacation, the cable TV station would broadcast two episodes of Hong Kong TV series every day, and my father would also bring two videotapes rented from the work unit on weekends.The boys adore Chow Yun-fat who is good at playing cards in a black trench coat, while Sansan likes Maggie Cheung in the Lux soap commercial.That year, Maggie Cheung's calendar hung in the old house on Wanhangdu Road.She was wearing a little black dress and her lips were slightly parted.It would be nice to have the beauty of her little finger.Sansan knew that she would not become Maggie Cheung.Pretty is an adjective that has nothing to do with her.But she is not the kind of chirping chick, she has never told Astro Boy about those bad things.The repeater is like a pig, when she walks with Astro Boy, he dares to walk against the wall.The few times I met him in the corridor, he turned around and ran away from a distance, as if he had done something wrong.She despised him at all, and wished that one day he swallowed the brooch and died.

But hanging out with Astro Boy has become a huge unconsciousness.What are vows made to a child?She likes to hang out with him at all kinds of street stalls on Wanhangdu Road after school.Astro Boy always stole some sour plum powder or stuffed rubber in her pocket.She used to have an inexhaustible supply of erasers, fruit flavored ones in the shape of strawberries, printed with the head of Denver the dinosaur, not to mention palm-sized stickers of Sailor Moon and Saint Seiya.How many evenings did she spend in the damp dormer window of Yan's house.The two of them were sitting on the big bed shared by Astro Boy and his father, playing games on the 14-inch color TV screen with a Xiaobawang learning machine.Until now, Sansan still remembers how to use the up, down, left, right and A, B keys to cheat out the thirty lives of "Contra".She is always manipulating the blue villain, and following Astro Boy's green villain seems to be a bit staggering, like a dragging oil bottle, falling down at any time, being killed, or having no direction at all when shooting .In fact, she prefers to play "Super Mario" and "Adventure Island", but Astro Boy only plays "Contra".In the end, he ignored Sansan and manipulated the villain to rush through the barrier bravely, blowing up all the old guys in the hail of bullets.The evenings spent hanging out in Yan's house always seemed to make time lose its sense of flow.Sansan liked to climb up and down those narrow stairs.She clearly remembered that the stairs leading to the dormer window had to go up fifteen steps, then ten steps, and finally climb six steps.The last six squares can only be climbed by standing on tiptoes and turning sideways, and will wipe the spider webs all over the body at every turn.But then Sansan could jump up and down here with Astro Boy with her eyes closed, and even the grandma next door knew that she was "Xiaonan's female classmate in the dormer window, who has been coming to Baixiang after school".Only here, she temporarily forgot the homework that could not be finished, the diary and the calligraphy that her father ordered her to write, and the fact that her name might appear on the blackboard the next day because of "discipline". .The two of them huddled together in front of the TV and watched "The Extraordinary Princess She-Ra".My mother never allowed Sansan to get so close to the TV, and she was not allowed to lie on the sofa to read a book, and she was not allowed to hold the bowl with her hands when eating, and she was not allowed to make any noise.But in Yan's house, she is completely like a bird being let loose, without so many rules.She is one with the children here, running wildly in the alleys like them, building houses and digging tunnels with the boys in the sand piles on the construction site, often thinking that it will be almost dark when she wants to go home.

That must have been the period when Sansan disappointed her parents the most.One day when my mother was washing the sofa cover, she found a parent contact booklet with blank backs from under the sofa cushions, and the only place where words were written on the front was the shocking "contact with poor students" written by the head teacher in red pen. Closely, parents are requested to cooperate with the discipline." In addition, the places where they were supposed to sign later were all signed by Astro Boy's father.Mom pulled Sansan up while she was doing her homework, and opened the door.Because of the excessive force, the damned rusty latch couldn't be pulled out, so she slammed the book on Sansan's face desperately, cursing sharply: "You're going to be someone else's child! You go to live in the attic with that little red guy from Yan's house. You go and go! Tell you to be a fool, you get out today, go to Yan's house, and ask his father to take care of you!" Sansan's My arm hurt so much from being pulled by my mother, so I could only squat on the ground and cry loudly.She believed that one day her mother would actually kick her out, but it was hard for her to tell them why she was hanging out with Astro Boy because she didn't know why.So she could only let her mother throw the notebook on her head, and then squatted on the ground and continued to cry until her fingers were numb, her whole body was exhausted and dehydrated, her nose and eye sockets were numb as if she had lost consciousness.And squatting on the ground for too long, when I stood up, I couldn't help seeing stars, my feet were numb and I couldn't move at all.Mom is gone.She looked at the white screen window in the suffocatingly quiet room, the lush sycamore leaves outside, the ivy crawling on the patio wall, the thick rose vines and a few sparrows perched on the wall, feeling extremely desperate .

Is she really getting worse? Yes, she was already his accomplice. Now she is Astro Boy's "girlfriend", the only girl in the class who fools around with boys all day long.In fact, in addition to the parent contact booklet hidden under the sofa cushions, there is also an expired report card hidden in the pocket of the old school bag in the closet, not to mention the test papers that did not pass the 90th grade.She folded the test paper neatly and stuffed it under the flower pot in the school flower bed.It was a pot of roses, with pink flowers with a bowl-sized mouth.In her schoolbag, there are almost endless erasers and mechanical pencils stolen by Astro Boy.In order to cover up the time she spent in Yan's house, she lied to her parents all day long.But these lies are too clumsy.Sansan's home on Wanhangdu Road is next door to the school, so the whole school, from the aunt cooking in the kitchen to the principal, knows, oh, this is the girl who lives next door.After school, the students would point to the iron gate of her house half covered by the sycamore tree and say to their parents: "We have a female classmate who lives here. If only we lived so close together, we can spend more time in the morning." Sleep for half an hour." Sansan wanted to change with them, she was tired of everyone knowing where she lived.Boys scribbled obscene words on the iron gate of her house with the tip of chalk, and she always had to erase them all in a hurry before Mom and Dad got off work.If the teacher wants to visit home, he just needs to drop by the road.And Astro Boy could even use that damn huge sycamore tree to casually climb up the wall of her house, and then jump into the patio with a bang.He even dared to jump down from the classroom on the second floor, this height is no problem for him.Several potted flowers that Dad raised in the courtyard were ruined by him, and Sansan had to lie that they were blown down by the wind.

"Can you lend me three dollars?" Astro Boy hurriedly knocked on her glass window that day. "I don't have that much money." Sansan pulled the latch to let him in. In fact, even if she didn't pull the latch, he could still come in. "I stole a plastic pistol from the old lady next door and she grabbed it. She thought I stole the box of sour plum powder. In fact, I saw it was taken by repeaters and fifth grade bastards. She said If I don’t pay her the money, she will call the police to arrest me. If my dad finds out about this, I will die. He only lost money playing mahjong yesterday.”

"That's all I have." Sansan took out two five-cent coins and two two-cent coins from the pencil case and handed them to him. "I'm dead." Astro Boy sat on the ground in distress and scratched his scalp with his fingers. Sansan was only worried that her mother would soon be home from get off work.If she saw that Astro Boy was at home, she would definitely go crazy again. She hated the wild children in Yan's house, so Sansan hurried to the courtyard to straighten the pot of asparagus that Astro Boy had knocked. In an attempt to wipe out all traces of his past.But at this time she heard a loud noise from the communal kitchen in desperation.When she rushed out to look, there, on the cement and crushed marble floor, her most precious blue porcelain piggy bank had been smashed to pieces, and a large pile of scattered coins lay in the west. The slanting sun shone brightly.Astro Boy actually smashed her only porcelain piggy bank to pieces.Sansan felt his body go limp and shattered.But Sansan had no time to get angry, she stared blankly at Astro Boy who kept putting the coins on the ground into his pockets.There were so many coins, both of his pockets were bulging, and there was a rattling sound when he bent over.She also lay down on the ground and picked up together with him, finding out all the coins that were bouncing and stuck in the gaps, and took newspapers to wrap all the broken porcelain pieces.She was afraid that her mother was coming back, and she had to clean up this damn mess quickly, so she didn't even have time to feel sorry for the blue pig with blush, and threw all the pieces into the trash can.She didn't cry, it was too late to feel wronged.There was a lot of broken porcelain dust stuck in the gaps of the marble. She took a small dustpan, and then squatted on the ground and gathered up all the white porcelain dust with her fingers.And Astro Boy didn't help, he squatted in another corner and counted the coins in his pocket.Those coins were all one and two cents, and the largest denomination was only five cents. They were all leaked out of Dad's usual pockets, and they were thrown into Sansan's piggy.It never occurred to her in her life to smash this little pig into pieces.

"It's more than three yuan!" Astro Boy suddenly said cheerfully, "Take the rest, I'll pay him enough." "I don't want it anymore." Sansan continued to lie on the ground to pick up the ashes that were never clean. "Take it, I'm useless." Astro Boy stuffed the remaining coins into Sansan's hand. "I told you I don't want it anymore!" Sansan suddenly yelled loudly and pushed hard, all the small pile of coins scattered on the ground and rolled everywhere again. They were both stunned, and then Sansanji began to cry in a low voice, holding his cheeks hard, and his nose turned red.

"Don't worry, if you have me, I will return it to you. I will buy you a new piggy bank when I have money." Astro Boy patted her on the head. At that time she was already half a head taller than him, but he reached out and stroked her hair like an adult.She instinctively hid back, her heart full of disgust and grievance.She has been a girl without a piggy bank ever since.After Astro Boy ran out with a bag full of coins, she bent down to the bottom of the cupboard to pick up the scattered coins.She gathered the coins inside her skirt.The sun is so nice outside.The little girl in the next class above the balcony is reading English texts loudly.Dust was stuck to her knees and clothes, and one or two small cockroaches hurriedly crawled under her nose.Sansan thought desperately, they were in the same group, they were grasshoppers tied to a rope, and she knew she couldn't escape at all.The grown-ups would not listen to her, they had never had the patience, they had no idea that the hopes and disappointments that were being thrown at her would only push her further away.

From then on, she was really Astro Boy's accomplice.Her heart shattered like a piggy bank. "Are we friends?" Astro Boy asked her. "I don't know." She could only swallow, but she didn't know how to answer. "Then will you betray me?" Sansan knew what he was referring to, and she knew all the shitty things he had done.She knew that Wu Xiaoyun was the one who pissed in Wu Xiaoyun's desk, because once she reported on Astro Boy for cheating in an exam and he was whipped by his father with a belt soaked in water, and his butt could not touch the stool for a whole day.That time Astro Boy held back his urine all morning, and as a result, almost all the books and test papers in Wu Xiaoyun's desk were soaked in his smelly urine.She cried all afternoon about it.Of course it's much more than that.

"Will you tell the teacher?" Astro Boy always asked suddenly and fiercely. She thought that if she hesitated a little, his fist would even hit her nose, but of course she didn't hesitate, and she still had a faint pride in her heart.This mixture of pride and fear, and that secret pleasure, often made her disoriented.Although she was afraid and wronged, she was also obsessed with those evenings spent in Yan's house, wasn't she?She likes to run and bend over the roses and plantains in the flower beds, lie down in the sand pile with Astro Boy and wait for the evening to come, and listen to the Pingtan tunes coming from those shanty houses when the street lights are on.She is afraid of other people's attention, but when walking with Astro Boy, everyone will look at her a few more times.In the toilet, she heard the girls in the lower grades whispering about her, and her name was always tied with Astro Boy.She was full of confusion, always feeling empty.My heart seems to be full of things, I don't know what I want, I don't know what I want to look like, I don't know if I will always disappoint the adults so much. "No, I won't betray you." Sansan said.