Chapter 2 6-10 knots

Chapter 6: Lin Xiaohua is my name PARTY2 Lin Xiaohua bird that wants to fly Xiaosan'er is my nickname, and Lin Xiaohua is my first name. The orphanage is closer to the county seat. The tall woman carried my big bag for me. The things in the bag were all given by others, just some simple clothes and daily necessities. We walked through a small playground and finally came to a big one. In the room, the room was full of beds, the tall woman clapped her hands, and suddenly a group of people stood densely in front of me, all girls, and everyone looked at me with curious eyes.I don't know why, but I feel a little bit of fear, because I feel that they are very different from my classmates in the previous class.

As for what's different, I can't say. "This is Lin Xiaohua. She will live in your dormitory in the future. We all welcome her." There was crackling and uneven applause in the room. The tall woman threw my bag on a nearby bed and said, "Lin Xiaohua, you sleep with Luo Ningzi." "Okay, okay." The girl named Luo Ningzi came out of the crowd in a hurry, and put her things aside, for fear that it would affect me. Luo Ningzi is really ugly, her eyes are sunken into the flesh, and her nose is fat and big.I couldn't help turning my head away from her.

As soon as the tall woman went out, a few girls crowded around our bed and surrounded me.A girl who looked the biggest stretched out her hand and said to me, "My name is Zhou Li. I'm the head of this dormitory." "Well." I said. "Did you bring in something delicious?" She stared at my little bag. "No." I said. "Is there any money?" "No." I said. "If she had money, she wouldn't come here." Luo Ningzi said, "You can see that she has no money." "Fat pig, it's none of your business!" A girl pushed Luo Ningzi onto the bed, and several other girls rushed up, opened my bag and rummaged through it.

"Go away!" I yelled, "Don't rummage through my things!" My bag was turned into a mess, and Luo Ningzi was frantically cleaning it up for me. "Go away." I scolded her. She stopped, but said softly to me: "You tell Lao Diao, they are afraid of Lao Diao." While I was packing, I found a small switchblade in my bag, which was bought by Tong Xiaole. At that time, Tong Xiaole said to me: "If anyone dares to bully you, you can use this." I said in my heart: "Teacher Qin, I'm sorry, I can't bear it." After I finished speaking, I walked to Zhou Li's bed with the knife in hand.

They are eating a bag of plums.Seeing me walking by, Zhou Li squinted at me and asked me, "What's the matter?" "Yes." I said. "Do you want us to return your things?" Zhou Li picked up an empty bag of potato chips and said, "Look, what a pity, this has been eliminated by us!" Each of them had a plum in their mouth, and they burst out laughing. I took out the small knife from behind, pressed the spring, and stabbed at Zhou Li without saying a word.Zhou Li turned pale with fright, and hurriedly dodged. I missed the knife and stabbed on the quilt. Zhou Li jumped off the bed and ran out the door barefoot, shouting loudly: "Killer! kill!"

The group of girls shouted together: "Killer, murderer!" The scene was extremely spectacular. Instead of chasing it, my first instinct was to go back to my bed and quickly put the knife away. After a while, the tall woman who brought me in and another teacher entered our dormitory. Zhou Li pointed at me out of breath and said, "This is the new one, killing people with a knife!" "Where's the knife?" The fierce-looking teacher asked me.Later I found out that she was the Lao Diao that Luo Ningzi had mentioned, the assistant to the dean. "They robbed me," I said.

"Grab what?" "I brought something to eat." I pointed my hand towards Zhou Li's bed, but was surprised to find that there was nothing on it. I was not scolded. On my first night in the orphanage, it rained heavily. The rain came in through the windows that were not closed tightly, and there was a strong wind. I saw Luo Ningzi pull up the quilt and cover his head.But I sat up and looked out the window, longing for the storm to be more violent.I hope that some things can happen, such as house collapse, such as flash floods, such as heaven and earth falling apart.But in fact nothing happened. The second grade classes in the orphanage are really simple, just some simple mathematics and Chinese. We stand on the playground every day and watch the seniors line up to go out to class. I heard that they have to It takes 20 minutes to walk, and it takes 40 minutes to go back and forth. There is a boy with a cane who is in the queue every day. He has a leg as thin as a hemp stick, and it is very difficult to walk, but he never lets anyone Help, let me feel admiration.

Watching them go out, the big iron gate slamming shut, I began to feel like a caged bird. In the fourth grade, I feel that it is too far away from me. I'm really afraid I won't be able to wait for that day. come and go Luo Ningzi gradually became my best friend. We lay on the same bed chatting and watching the stars.But most of the time, she talks and I listen.I know that she is so fat not because she loves to eat, but because she has a disease that makes her fat even if she doesn't eat.I also learned about her life experience, for example, she was born with pneumonia, her parents didn't want her, she was thrown on the side of the road in the town, and she was only five months old when she was sent to the hospital, with only a small bag in her bag. The note stated that her surname was Luo, and the teacher in the courtyard gave her the name Ning Zi.Another example is that when she was a child, there were always children who secretly bullied her in the yard. After a party, she hid a chocolate, was told to the teacher, and was punished to stand.Later, as she got fatter, people always laughed at her for being fat. What she feared most was physical education class. She told me that when she took physical education class, especially long jump and running, she always wanted to die.

Verse 7: Suddenly sad beyond compare, I am so lucky compared to her. Every Wednesday afternoon, we read books together in the library. The books in the library are donated by others, and occasionally there are a few magazines related to film and television. When I saw the beaming Ye Mei on the cover of the magazine, my heart suddenly There was a strange and sharp pain, like being cut by a razor blade.Luo Ningzi pointed at Ye Mei's face with her fat finger and said, "Look, what a beautiful skin, what big eyes, what beautiful hair!" Looking at me, she said seriously: "Lin Xiaohua, when you grow up, you will be as beautiful as her."

I tossed the magazine aside and picked up an even more battered book of fairy tales.As I read it absent-mindedly, I wondered how Ye Mei was doing, whether she was doing well, whether she still remembered Xiao San'er. In this way, autumn is gone and winter is here. It was three months of peace and harmony, because of the conflict with Zhou Li on the first day of coming to the hospital, she and her gang of buddies have been avoiding me since then, never talking to me.My pocket knife was put away by Luo Ningzi for me, and then it was put under the pillow, never to be used again.One evening, after dinner, Luo Ningzi and I sat on the stone ladder by the playground and chatted. The sky was empty in the depths of winter, and a bird flew over with great difficulty, but it was silent and disappeared as soon as it passed. .

Luo Ningzi suddenly said to me: "I always feel that you are different from us." I asked, "What's the difference?" "One day, you will go far away, and you will not be able to stay here." "Really, like a bird?" "Yes, like a bird." Luo Ningzi said, holding her fat face. "But you said, the bird will not be tired if he keeps flying like this?" "Don't know, but maybe if it doesn't fly, it dies." I was suddenly overwhelmed with sadness. When the new year was approaching, I was called by Lao Diao to the dean's office. I went, but I didn't expect to see Teacher Qin and Tong Xiaole! "Little San'er!" Tong Xiaole rushed towards me the moment I entered the door, shouting: "Little San'er, Xiao San'er, I finally see you again." His eyes were red, but Teacher Qin grabbed him and prevented him from going forward. "Little San'er, come here." Teacher Qin greeted me and said, "This is Teacher Zhang from the cultural center in the county. She has always wanted to adopt a child. Come, show Teacher Zhang, come here." I saw a middle-aged woman with graying hair and wide-rimmed glasses walking out from behind Teacher Qin and looking at me with a smile. "It's Aunt Zhang." Teacher Qin said. "Aunt Zhang." My voice was like a mosquito. "I've seen your play." Teacher Zhang said, "It was playing when I went to the provincial capital for business. You did a good job. I also watched the New Year's party you hosted." "Little San'er is smart." Teacher Qin said, "I won't introduce it randomly." "It's good, it's good." She stretched out her hand and touched my hair and said, "Would you like to go home with me?" I looked at Teacher Qin, and Teacher Qin nodded desperately to hint at me. So I nodded. While they were saying goodbye, Tong Xiaole secretly said to me: "Little San'er, come here, I'll give you something." He stretched out the hand he was holding, and I reached out to take it. What slipped in my hand was a bunch of red banknotes, which should be one hundred yuan. "Put it away quickly." Tong Xiaole said, "This is my lucky money, for you to use." "No more." I said quickly, "Take it back!" "You take it, you take it. Don't be polite to me." Tong Xiaole said in a low voice, "Teacher Qin is always helping you, you have to rest assured. When you get to the county, you will have nothing to worry about. I will go there then look at you." "Xiao Le. We should go." Teacher Qin came over and asked us, "What are you talking about?" "Nothing, nothing." Tong Xiaole said casually, "Let's go." "I'm leaving." Auntie Zhang said to me with a smile, "I'll pick you up soon, just wait for me." Aunt Zhang came sooner than I expected.When I came, it was autumn when the yellow leaves were falling. When I left, it was spring when everything came back to life. I stayed in the orphanage for 1099 days. I don’t know if Luo Ningzi will see it. On the white wall, I carved one hundred and ninety-nine small bars with a knife. I used to think it would go to one thousand ninety-nine or even ten thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine. But in fact, I should have thought that life is changing rapidly, and the last word that human beings should not create is "forever" besides "forbearance". Nothing lasts forever. Just like Aunt Zhang once said to me: "From now on, Yilan, we will live together forever." but…… By the way, please call me Yilan from now on. Chapter 8: In June, the flowers bloom PARTY3 girl Yilan Subtitle: Eight years later a skipped dance In June, the flowers bloomed. Yilan leaned against the huge glass wall of the dance room of the City Art Center to watch the crowded street after get off work.Her hair was already very long, slanted from one side, covering half of her face.The door of the dance studio was open, and a little girl was walking by with a violin on her back. The little girl had already passed by, but suddenly she turned around, poked her head at the door and asked Yilan, "Hey, sister Yilan, haven't you finished training yet?" Yilan smiled in surprise. "The last time you played the violin and danced very well in the newcomer competition last time! You deserved the first place." The little girl put the violin by the wall and hurriedly took it out of her bag. A notebook and a pen said: "Can you sign your name for me?" "I'm not a celebrity, so what's the use of asking for my autograph!" Yi Lan hurriedly evaded. "Sign one, sign one." The little girl persevered, stuffing pen and paper into Yilan's hands desperately, while stuffing them, she introduced herself and said, "My name is Lin Dian'er, Shuangmu Lin, one dot and two dots." , I am also from Beizhong, a sophomore in Beizhong, an alumnus. I am learning violin here, you can also write my name on it, and give me a blessing, okay?" Yilan wrote down in her notebook helplessly: I wish Lin a little happiness!Iran. "Let's go together." Lin Dian'er said, "I know your family lives in a model community on Xinma Road, which is not far from mine. We can both take the No. 5 bus!" "How do you know everything?" Yilan was very surprised. "I always said you are a star." Lin Dian'er said, "Most of the girls in our class admire you. They lie on the teaching building of the junior high school to see you every day. You are a well-deserved school belle!" Lin Dian'er was gesturing while talking, with his palm facing up, making a gesture like a flower. "Hehe." Yilan couldn't help laughing, she was not so eloquent when she was in the second year of junior high school. When she got home, Yilan went up to the fourth floor. The anti-theft door was locked tightly. She took out the key to open the door, ran to the balcony, and threw all the clothes and dancing shoes from dancing into the washing machine.Seeing that the washing machine was spinning, he turned and went back to the house. Yilan gently pushed open the door of her room, and took a step back in fright. There was a person in the room, sitting silently at her desk. "You scared me!" Yilan patted her chest and said, "What are you doing in my room? The door is locked and the lights are not turned on. I thought you were not at home." "Are you back?" The person in the room stood up, it was Aunt Zhang.Her complexion is not very good, and her hair is also gray.Holding a letter in his hand. When Yilan saw the letter, her heart skipped a beat. "You still signed up for the competition?" Aunt Zhang asked. "It's Mengmeng..." "I asked if you signed up for the competition!" Aunt Zhang interrupted Yilan, holding the envelope and shouting at her. "Yes." Yilan said in a low voice. "You are so pushy, one time is not enough, two, three times, how many times are you enough? What did you promise me, do you remember?" "But I like it!" Yilan also yelled, "Why do you always stop me from doing what I want to do!" "Like it? If you like it, you must do it? What kind of theory is this!?" Yi Lan didn't speak any more, but only shouted in her heart: "Don't forget, you forced me to learn this and that back then!" "No, it's not allowed, do you remember?" Aunt Zhang looked at Yilan, with anger and despair intertwined in her eyes, waiting for Yilan to make a statement.Yilan didn't nod or shake her head, and looked at her stubbornly. A minute later, Aunt Zhang tore up the letter in her hand, slammed the door and went out. Yilan squatted down, picked up the broken letter under the dim light in the room, and saw four incomplete words on the broken paper; rematch notice. The end of June is hot with little rain.The morning sun penetrates the clouds with great penetrating power and rapidly shines on the earth.Yilan managed to squeeze onto the wobbly Wulu, only to find that the person standing beside him was him.He was their trainee teacher, Yilan remembered him standing on the podium, writing his name vigorously on the blackboard: Bu Guo. Everyone didn't know how to pronounce that surname, Bu, Bu, Bu, and everyone was laughing and joking.After one class, he conquered all the girls and half of the boys with his pure and fluent English. Bu fruit. What a weird surname, weird name. He should have gotten on the bus at the first two stops. Apart from him, there were several normal university students on the bus, all of whom were assigned to practice at Yilan School.With one hand on the ring and the other in his trouser pocket, he greeted her with a smile: "Good morning." Chapter 9: The diary of that night, only six words "Morning." Yi Lan's face was terribly reddish. "It's the first time I've met you in the car," he said. "My internship is almost over." "Really?" Yilan said in surprise, "Why so fast?" "Twenty days have passed." He said, "This time it's shorter. By the senior year, the internship will be longer." "Oh." Yilan said, thinking to himself, "I wonder if he will come to our school for an internship in his senior year?" "You don't seem to be very talkative," he said. Yilan really stopped talking, her hands were also on the rings, and the sun shone through her slender fingers transparently. Yilan narrowed her eyes, looked out the window, and thought about how many No. 5 buses run every day. Besides the No. 5 bus, is there any other bus from Normal University to the school? How could this be the first time I encountered it? Thankfully, he stopped talking and looked out the window like Yilan. Mengmeng doesn't take the bus, she has a beautiful "mount". Giant's new model, with small wheels and a high faucet, is a popular car among girls recently. "I'm in the semi-finals." Yilan said to Mengmeng. "What did you say?" Mengmeng said, "Say it again!" "I said I'm in the quarterfinals." "Yeah!" Mengmeng jumped up, "I said, you can do it! Oh, yeah!" "But I still won't go, she doesn't agree." "Who disagrees, your mother?" Yilan nodded.The classroom is approaching, and he is standing at the door of the classroom. He is tall and has a very good-looking nose. He is about to leave, and they are not familiar with him yet. There are four eye-catching characters written in red pen on the blackboard; The last class.There is a faint sadness in the classroom.He looked at the words on the blackboard and still smiled, picked up the blackboard eraser, and wiped it off vigorously. The chalk dust far away stung Yilan's eyes inexplicably. Yilan remembered that at the end of the art festival, her solo dance "Summer" was the grand finale. After the dance, he stood by the stage and said, "It's a great dance!" The appreciation in his eyes is real. It's just that the music has stopped and everything is over.Seventeen-year-old Yilan has long learned to bear the pain of separation and digestion alone.Know how to be content, know not to have what you shouldn't have. In the diary of that night, there are only six words: a dance that was skipped. Hur this summer one Since the Board of Education expressly does not allow make-up lessons, the third year of senior high school is also not allowed to make up lessons.After the grades came out, Yilan and the others only stayed in school for two more days before going home on vacation. She failed the math test, but it wasn't Yilan who failed alone, the whole class did. Yilan failed the pass, three points short.Chinese and English are not bad, and the ranking has not fallen out of the tenth place in the class.But Yilan knew that even so, there was still a certain distance from Aunt Zhang's expectations.It's just that she should know that she tried her best. When she was studying hard until the early morning, she would bring her a cup of coffee, pat her on the shoulder, and leave without saying a word. Back home, Yilan took the report card out of her schoolbag, put it on the coffee table, and pressed it with her drinking cup.Then, she took out her English notebook, and on the title page of the notebook was a number that she had memorized by heart long ago. It was left for everyone in his last class, but Yilan never dialed it. While dialing the phone, Yilan persisted in thinking that the relationship between her and Bu Guo should be different from that between Mengmeng and Bu Guo. The phone went through. "Teacher Bu, it's me." Yi Lan said nervously. "Yilan." The other side guessed right all of a sudden, "I just received a call from Mengmeng, saying that you are coming to see me?" "I'm not going." Yilan said, "I didn't pass the exam, so I have to study hard at home." "Tomorrow?" Bu Guo said as if he didn't hear, "Tomorrow at 2 o'clock in the afternoon, I will wait for you at Shangdao Coffee on Zhongshan Road. Come, okay?" "But……" "Don't worry about it." Bu Guo said, "Come on, I'll wait for you." Then, he hung up the phone very simply. When the eggs were scrambled, she came back.Holding a roast duck in his hand, he was leaning against the door with a tired expression: "It's a gift from the parents. It's okay if you don't want it. The two of us can't finish it. Keep half of it in the refrigerator and make soup tomorrow." "Oh." Yilan took it over. "Let me do it." Aunt Zhang rolled up her sleeves and said, "Go read." "Let me do it." Yilan said, "It's a holiday anyway." "By the way, how did you do in the exam?" Aunt Zhang asked. Yi Lan vigorously waved the spatula and said loudly, "The report card is on the coffee table outside." She oh and went out. Yilan listened attentively while cooking, but there was no movement in the living room.Feel at ease.When I took the dishes out, I found her sitting on the sofa with the backlight, so I couldn't see her expression clearly. Chapter 10: The pampered princess-like girl "It's time to eat." Yilan said. "Can you eat it?" she asked suddenly. "I didn't do well in math." Yi Lan said, "It's a question for the unified exam, it's a bit too difficult." "Which subject do you think you are good at?" Yi Lan silently set the bowls and chopsticks, served the rice, and said, "Let's eat, I know you are unhappy, but I really tried my best." "Do your best?" Aunt Zhang stood up and said, "You took part in those inexplicable competitions without telling me, now you know the consequences, I have told you a thousand times and ten thousand times, your future, I will know There are arrangements, why don't you always listen?" "Let's eat." Yilan still said. She threw Yilan's report card far away, and sat on the sofa sulking. Yilan returned to her room and closed the door. It was past ten o'clock, and there was no sound outside. Yilan opened the door and went out, only to find that she had fallen asleep on the sofa.The food on the dinner table went from hot to cold alone, and no one touched it.The egg turned an ugly yellow, the green pepper inside was an ugly green, and the roast duck looked disheveled. Yilan packed all the vegetables into the refrigerator, and drank a large glass of boiled water standing by the refrigerator.She didn't want to wake her up, so she went to her room and took a thin towel to cover her up.After approaching her on tiptoe, Yilan quickly noticed her abnormality, her face was flushed, and the expression on her face was very painful. Yilan reached out and touched her forehead, she had a high fever! She dropped the towel in her hand, quickly ran to the bathroom to get a wet towel, then found some ice cubes in the refrigerator, and applied them to her forehead.She woke up in the cold stimulation, pushed Yilan away, and stood up unsteadily. "You're sick." Yilan said, "We have to go to the hospital." She didn't speak, and walked unsteadily to the bedroom. Yilan held the cold towel and looked at her back.Before she reached the door of the bedroom, she fell straight to the ground with a "boom". Yilan ran over and helped her up, her limbs obviously had no strength, her complexion turned from flushed to gray, her eyes barely opened and closed again.Yilan patted her cheek vigorously, trying to wake her up, but she didn't respond.Powerful fear seized Yilan's heart in an instant, she let go of her, and dialed 120 at the fastest speed. The ambulance roared past the sparsely populated streets late at night in midsummer. Yilan held Aunt Zhang's cold hand tightly, her heart beating wildly and unable to return to her place.If she goes, if she goes, if she goes... Yilan thought about it and suddenly burst into tears in the carriage. "It's okay, little sister." The nurse comforted her, "It looks like it's just heat stroke. I'll tell your mother not to be too tired in the future. In such hot weather, you should try to reduce outdoor activities as much as possible." Yilan turned away and wiped away her tears with her sleeve. It was only when I arrived at the hospital that I realized that it was not just heatstroke. The doctor said that she was highly malnourished. That night, perhaps because of the medicine, she slept deeply.The escort's bed cost six yuan a night, but Yilan refused to rent it, so she lay down next to her bed and took a nap.In the early morning of the next day, Yilan went home to pick up some needed things and a change of clothes. She was carrying a big bag in her hand, and she was already sweating when she walked to the bus stop.At this moment, she suddenly saw him again.He was with a girl, probably his girlfriend. On such a hot day, his arms were around her waist. They are at the other end of the bus. It was a princess-like girl who was pampered and pampered at first glance. The two matched each other very well. Standing on the bus, she attracted many people's attention. Yilan hurriedly turned her back, but fortunately, the swarming crowd blocked each other's sight, so he didn't see her. Walking home with a broken heart, I saw a familiar figure downstairs.Yilan stood still, and looked carefully, and it really was. She rushed over with the big bag, and the man hugged her, picked her up and twirled around, and said lovingly: "Little San'er, the longer you grow, the longer you grow, the more beautiful you become." It's Teacher Qin. "Why are you here? You didn't even say hello!" Yilan asked excitedly. "I came to the city for training during the summer vacation. I came last night, but I couldn't get through the phone, so I had to come and have a look." "She's hospitalized." "Really?" Teacher Qin quickly asked, "What's wrong, it doesn't matter if it's urgent, I'll follow you to the hospital to see her right away." "It doesn't matter. She is tired." Yilan said, "I took several students with me on such a hot day, running around the city, and got heat stroke. I don't usually pay attention to my body, so I collapsed." After entering the door, Yi Lan invited Teacher Qin to sit down and brought him some water.Teacher Qin didn't sit down, but squeezed her face with her hands, and asked softly, "Are you okay?"