Chapter 4 Chapter 2 Legacy Love-3

The female singer on stage changed to a sad song: "I'm not right, I'm not right, when did you say I'm perfect..." I laughed out loud, and said to Zhou Guoan: "When a woman is the ugliest, Just like a bitch." He laughed and said, "No matter what you are, you are very cute." "Zhou Guoan, how old are you?" "39." "A middle-aged married man seduces an underage girl, that's bad—" I dragged my voice out. He scratched my nose and said only two words: "Naughty." I heard love in his voice, and I was addicted to his embrace and didn't want to extricate myself.Until he said to me: "When you wake up tomorrow, you will find that everything is the same as before. The quarrel with your boyfriend will disappear, and you will still live in love with each other."

"Zhou Guoan." I said, "You are really a treacherous and cunning person." "You don't need a cunning and cunning to deal with you," he said confidently. I laughed out loud, then twisted my arm hard, suspecting it was a dream, I squeezed so hard that I screamed in pain.He laughed again, stretched out his hand and said, "You look sleepy, let's go, I'll take you home." A Duo chased him out and saw me getting into his car. We didn't speak all the way, and each guarded our own thoughts carefully until the car stopped near my house.I looked at him, he looked at me, and he said, "Slow down?"

"Okay." I said.But I didn't move. "Okay," he got out of the car and opened the door for me and said, "Today is the weekend, you should take a good rest." Fifty "Oh, no." I suddenly remembered, "Our activities with the TV station are not over today, I have to work overtime." "No need to go, I will give you a day off." He said. Oh, I forgot he was my boss. I got out of the car, carried my bag, looked down at my toes.not talking. He patted me on the shoulder, got into the car, and walked away. (7) I followed Zhou Guoan's instructions and obediently stayed at home to rest.Tossed all night and soon fell asleep.

I had a very strange dream, the dream was very long, I was sitting in Zhou Guoan's car, the car drove us over the mountains and fields, and drove us all the way to the depths of the ocean, where the sea was submerged warmly and blue Our car surrounded my whole body, he held my hand, I seemed to be flying lightly, but without the slightest fear... Then I woke up, and I quickly found myself sick, limp and burning on my forehead.In desperation, I called Xiaoye, and she and Ben rushed to take me to the hospital. It's really sickness that comes like a mountain, and the older you get, the less useful you are.It happened that the nurse who came to hang the water was a novice. The needle tube couldn’t go in for a long time and complained that my blood vessels were too thin. The pain was so painful that I almost couldn’t sit up and pump her.After finally getting it done, Xiaoye told Ben: "I'll watch her here, you go and buy some food. By the way, go through the hospitalization procedures."

Ben left without saying a word. I thought it was funny, and asked Xiaoye weakly, "When did you become his leader?" "When he fell in love with me." Xiaoye smiled triumphantly.He whispered in my ear and asked, "Hey, you're worthless, didn't you get sick from being frightened by him?" "Who?" "Don't pretend to be confused!" Xiao Ye said, "That was last night." "What are you talking about?" I said, "He is a gentleman." "I know I know, otherwise would you be so relieved to hand you over to him?" Xiaoye said mysteriously, "Ben said that Zhou Guoan is an absolute gentleman, but he is also an absolute master of love. You have to be careful. "

I really didn't like the subject, so I closed my eyes. Xiaoye failed to provoke me, so he touched my face with his mobile phone: "Who are you calling? Tell me yourself." "No one," I said, "I want you to accompany me." "Honey, I have to work tonight." "Then I'm alone." "You're so sick and angry!" Xiao Ye said, "I mean, don't you need to call the company to ask for a leave?" "Today is the weekend." I reminded her. She patted the side of the bed and said, "Look at me, there is no concept of weekends or weekends in this business." After finishing speaking, Xiao Ye ran outside to make a phone call. After a while, he and Ben came in with a big bag of things. At first glance, the man named Ben is quite careful, and has everything for food and use.Unfortunately, I don't even have the strength to say thank you.

As soon as he left, I said to Xiaoye: "You seem to have missed the point." "Just kidding!" Xiaoye said, "I've been waiting for him once in a thousand years." Xiaoye's happiness shines like the sun, she has never been a complicated girl, her understanding of happiness is exaggerated and direct, but That's how she is, she looks at the target and never turns back. Careless Xiaoye, heartless Xiaoye.I suddenly envied her extremely. After Xiaoye left, I fell into a coma again, and when I woke up, I felt a strong trance feeling.The phone rang, and I picked it up. I thought it would be Ye Xiaoye's bluff greeting, but what I heard was Ning Zi's cry.

"Ms. Chen, I'm outside your house now..." she asked, "Where are you?" Ning Zi came half an hour later, and when he came up, he threw himself on my arm that was riddled with needles, and the pain made me grin my teeth. fifty one "Teacher Chen, what should I do?" she cried, "My mother is dating someone else!" Oh my god this kid. "Dad has a new girlfriend, don't you accept it well?" "That's different." She choked up, "Dad won't marry his new girlfriend, they have broken up now. But mom will marry this guy, Mr. Chen, you don't know, as long as mom is willing to divorce, they will definitely divorce Yes, my parents will never be reconciled!"

"How do you know?" God forgive my base curiosity. "They're so in love," Ning Zi's tears fell again, "Besides, I heard what they said about the wedding trip in the Sahara." At that moment, I finally understood that this precocious child, who usually ridiculed his parents, was just subconsciously covering up the great fear of losing them.I hugged her distressedly.I think of the Persian cat-like smile of Ning Zi's mother. For this beautiful woman, children can never be the whole of her life. If she can't enjoy love, she is simply reckless. "If one of them gets married again, I'd rather die." Ning Zi hummed in my arms, "Mr. Chen, you must support me when the time comes."

"How do children talk?" I was angry and pushed her away. "How can I support you? To cheer you on, push you to jump off a building, or just wipe your neck with a knife?" Ning Zi wiped away her tears and looked at me in bewilderment. I sighed and said seriously: "Ning Zi, it's going to rain, mother is going to get married, grown-ups have their own lives, and they also want to pursue happiness, you will gradually understand." But Ning Zi jumped up: "I don't understand! They are my parents, and their greatest happiness is to make me happy!" If the nurse hadn't come over to change my medicine and shooed her away, I might not have peace all night.

I closed my eyes sleepily.But wait, a wedding trip to the Sahara? I vaguely think of Ben. When I called Xiaoye, she excitedly told me her itinerary, saying that she was checking the weather on the Internet, and then asked me what kind of gift I wanted. She looked like a country bumpkin who had never been out. I talked nonsense with her, wishing her a smooth journey, after all, I couldn't bear to chew the root of my tongue this time. In the days that followed, I couldn't take care of myself. The main reason was that my illness recovered too quickly, and I was alive and well again on the third day, so I had to go back to work in Uniasia. When you go to work, you must see Zhou Guoan. No matter how I avoided him, we still met in the elevator the next day.What was even more hateful was that there were only the two of us in the elevator. Zhou Guoan put his arms around his chest and looked at me meaningfully. I was so panicked that my limbs were numb, my mouth was dry, and I just said: "Mr. Zhou..." But the elevator had already opened, and Zhou Guoan gave me the door with a smile, acting like an extremely gentleman. He really is such an upright gentleman and yet so old and cunning, he looks open-minded and seems to have deep meaning in every action, his calm and unhurried appearance makes it more and more obvious that I have a ghost in my heart. The only thing I can do is focus on work, and I can't even think of it. In just a few months, Chen Duo, who is free and undisciplined, has successfully transformed into a workaholic.I smiled wryly, time changes a person, it is easier and faster than imagined, you think you are an indestructible fortress, but you can completely fall in a minute. I didn't call Song Tianming again in those days. He called several times, but I didn't answer.Gradually, he no longer insisted on calling. Time is like an eraser, slowly erasing the other party in our minds. The real world is always full of temptations, and I know in my heart that I am sorry for Song Tianming. Not going home during the winter vacation, swimming with girls, these are not the crux of the problem.The real reason is my weakness.This invisible and intangible relationship has brought me too much hard work and pressure, and I found the most convenient reason to give it up justifiably. Two days before Christmas, I was very busy in the office. Zhou Guoan came and said to me: "I can't go to the Christmas party. I arranged for Vice President Luo to speak. I told him." "Oh." I said. "I'm sorry," he said. I laughed, how can the boss say sorry to the employees.This guy, I can never seem to figure it out.It's just that he is no longer as cheerful as I was when I first joined the company, and he often frowns as if he has serious concerns. I watched his back leave my sight and bit my lip in panic. I can't admit that I actually feel sorry for him.Really dare not. "Huanya Night - Anime Passion Show" was held as scheduled.The TV station organized hundreds of animation fans to participate in our activities in various costumes. fifty two There was an accident at the beginning of the show. In our finale, the heroine and the hero got into an argument for some reason, and then they started playing big names, and they refused to act again.It was useless for me to do mental work for a long time. Seeing that the show was about to start, the director of the TV station was so anxious that he stomped his feet. I had no choice but to beg her aunt rather than myself. " Fortunately, I wrote the lines, and the costumes are off-the-shelf. I have also seen their rehearsals, so it shouldn't be a big problem.After a quick practice in the background, the ducks were put on the shelves.My performance was not bad. I made up the parts where I couldn’t remember the lines, and laughed on and off the stage, but it had an unexpected effect.Finally came the last scene. According to the script, the hero should say to the heroine: "Will you marry me?" Then I said yes, and then we hugged and kissed. The male lead asked me, "Will you marry me?" The word I would like has not come out yet.Suddenly someone wearing a mask rushed to the stage, snatched the microphone from my hand, knelt down on one knee facing me, and shouted a sentence that shocked the audience: "Xiaoduo, marry me!" Immediately afterwards, he dropped the microphone, took out a red box, and handed it to me in front of everyone.He said to me affectionately again: "Xiaoduo, marry me." My god, it's Song Tianming.when did he come back Cheng Yaojin appeared on the way, and the audience shouted for him in unison: "Promise! Promise! Promise!" I was so embarrassed that I didn't know where to put it. "Yes, yes, yes!" the audience was still shouting.The TV camera was looking straight at us, so I had no choice but to take the box with one hand, and Song Tianming got up and hugged me.The male lead stood aside pitifully as a foil. The party ended like this. Song Tianming's marriage proposal undoubtedly became the climax of the whole party.In the dressing room, the director of the TV station excitedly said to me: "Absolutely not cut, wait until the official broadcast in the New Year, you just wait and see, it will definitely be a sensation!" Song Tianming looked at me stupidly from the side. I was suddenly very angry, for no reason, I just felt very angry.I was so angry that I couldn't speak and trembled all over. I threw the costume I had changed on the ground, turned around and left. Song Tianming chased after him.He took my hand and I shook it off.Pull again, I'll throw again. He gave up, stood an arm's length away from me, and said sadly: "Xiaoduo, you really don't love me anymore?" "Aren't you never coming back?" I replied coldly. "Who says I won't come back?" Song Tianming suddenly took a step forward and embraced me, I struggled hard, but he domineeringly hugged me tighter and tighter. "Xiaoduo," he said in my ear, "how could I be willing to part with you? You are the good girl I love most in my life. You don't know how painful I am during this time. I can't live without you!" After he finished speaking, he buried his face in my neck, and a drop of warm stuff wet my skin. He cried.Song Tianming cried. Song Tianming's tears really evoke all the beautiful past, the past and the present are at war, my heart seems to be melted and crushed, and finally it hurts so much. I hugged Song Tianming with my back, and wept loudly as if I had been wronged by the sky. I stayed with Song Tianming that night. We hadn't been together for a long time, and it seemed that we were not used to each other.He put his arms around me and said, "Xiaoduo, why do you feel that you are different from the past." "What?" I played dumb. he sighed. I push him away. He asked softly behind me, "Are you in love with someone else?" I refuse to answer this stupid question that should have been asked. Unexpectedly, he continued: "I want to ask your forgiveness. I had a relationship with another woman for a while. I don't want to hide it from you. I think I must tell you that I was really lonely when I first arrived abroad... ..." "It's okay." I turned to face him with a smile, "I know all of this." "That's good." He said, "After so long, I still feel that you are the best." I hug him.He sighed again, and that sigh broke my heart. I really want to forgive him, and I really want to be relieved by his sentence "you are the best", but I find that I can't do it. Maybe I have to learn to accept incompleteness. In this world, there is no perfect thing. My previous confidence is all wrong. I still went to work the next day, and it happened that the office had to be tidied up. The manager ordered us to do handyman, and a lot of things that were temporarily unused had to be moved to the storage room upstairs.I finally saw him, he just came out of the elevator in a black overcoat, and said to me who was holding a lot of documents in his hand, "Come on, I'll get some for you." fifty three It seems that I haven't seen him for a long time. I quickly put away my smile, hugged the things in my hand back vigorously and said, "Don't bother Mr. Zhou, I can do it." After I finished speaking, I turned around and went up the stairs beside me. I suddenly wanted to cry a little bit, and I didn't know what was going on with me. I had no choice but to lie down in front of the computer wholeheartedly and write a new plan. When I looked up, I realized that it was getting late, and at some point, there was snow in the sky. This is the first snow this winter. The phone on the desk rang. I thought it was Song Tianming urging me to get off work, but Zhou Guoan answered the phone and asked me, "Are you free tonight?" I said, "No time, I have an appointment with my boyfriend to eat hot pot." He said in a commanding tone, "Push it off, I have business to order you." "I'm sorry." I said, "I'm off work today, please let me know if you have anything to do in the future." "Hehe, you're quite courageous." He said. I followed the reputation and found that he was already standing at the door of my office with his mobile phone. I hung up the phone without saying a word, turned off the computer, packed my bag and prepared to go out.But he stood at the door, blocked my way. "Mr. Zhou." I said, "I have an appointment with my boyfriend and I'm going to be late." "The one who proposed in public yesterday?" He laughed. Dare to be known to the whole world. I instinctively countered and said, "Mr. Zhou also has a girlfriend to accompany him?" "Are you jealous?" He bent down and looked into my eyes with confidence.I hated that look in his eyes, so I pushed him away and ran out, but he grabbed my wrist: "Did I say you can go?" I bit my lower lip, desperately trying to hold back the tears that were about to burst the embankment. But he let me go and said, "Okay, okay, I'll take you to the western restaurant on the top of the mountain tonight, wait for me to drive, and I'll wait for you in the car?" I was silent. He chuckled, turned around and walked away. I stood in the corridor and struggled with myself for two minutes, then I left through the back door of the building. It was really cold, I went into the hot pot restaurant trembling all over, Song Tianming was already sitting in the restaurant waiting for me, watching me pass by, he actually seemed a little nervous. "Xiaoduo, I want to tell you something." "What's up?" "Xiaoduo," he said with some difficulty. "I can only stay for a few days when I come back this time." "It's okay, just come back." I was a little unhappy, but I still said generously, "Anyway, wait for another year and a half before you come back completely, I can wait." "Xiaoduo," he looked at me, "you don't understand." "what?" Song Tianming looked at the tablecloth. "I may...not come back." What? Song Tianming said: "Xiaoduo, you also know that I major in basic subjects, and the research environment and employment opportunities in China are not as good as outside, so I think..." "You said you were coming back!" I interrupted him. "Yes, I said so." Song Tianming looked at me. "But……" "Song Tianming, you big liar!" I yelled out of control, "Your return to China this time was planned, right? You just want to trick me into going out with you, right?" "Chen Duo, what are you talking about!" Song Tianming was also anxious. "What does it mean to lie to you? Didn't we all agree?" fifty-four I suddenly calmed down: "What if I don't go out?" He looked at me suspiciously, as if he didn't know what I was going to do next. I continued: "If I don't go out, have you found a way out?" He didn't expect my words, looked at me, and stayed for a second. This second is enough.I understand everything, finally. "Xiaoduo, I have tried my best," Song Tianming said helplessly, "You can't let me get nothing." "Song Tianming, what we agreed on is not like this!" I yelled crazily, picked up my bag and rushed out of the store, into the heavy snow all over the sky. Song Tianming chased after me and grabbed me: "Xiaoduo, calm down!" "Let go!" I shook him off forcefully. Song Tianming really let go, this time. The snow fell heavily, hitting the eyebrows, eyes and nose of his clothes. We were half a meter away, and I clearly heard his heavy breathing.After a stalemate like this for a while, I heard him say in a very sad tone: "Xiaoduo, why did you become like this?" Yes, I have changed.But I'm not the only one who has changed.It is a whole world that changes us. The waiting and promises in the past can be ignored. This kind of love that can be bargained, what else should I do, what should I do. "Are you really in love with someone else? Are you afraid to admit it?" I heard Song Tianming ask calmly. "Forget it." I replied, and at the same time I was taken aback by my own answer. I quickly stopped a taxi and jumped into it. Such a scene brought me close to collapse.Song Tianming's figure in the rearview mirror became smaller and smaller.I was cruel and asked the driver to drive the car to the western restaurant on the top of the mountain. The driver said: "It's okay to go up now, but if the snow keeps falling like this, you're afraid it will come down." "Double your money," I said. "Hehe." The driver smiled, "I must be rushing to go on a date, it's quite romantic to go there today." The car drove me all the way to the door of the restaurant. I got out of the car, but I didn't have the courage to go in. My intuition told me that Zhou Guoan must be here, but I couldn't guarantee if there were other people. I wandered outside the restaurant for five minutes, and the doorman opened the door for me at least three times, and kept saying to me: "Miss, it's cold outside, wait for someone to come in." "No need." I said. When Song Tianming called, I hardened my heart and pressed the phone. He sent a text message saying, "Xiaoduo, do you really want all of our past?" I was so sad that I couldn't hold back the tears that were pouring down my face.Finally crying, I called Zhou Guoan, who answered quickly and asked me where I was. "The top of the mountain." I sobbed, "I'm at the top of the mountain." "You wait for me in the restaurant." Zhou Guoan said, "I'll be right there." It turned out he wasn't here. I went into the restaurant.The waiter led me to a seat by the window and poured me a cup of hot tea.I looked out of the window, and the whole city had been flooded with snow.The light penetrates the snowflakes, blooming quietly and beautifully like fireworks. Someone is singing: Do you know what it feels like to miss someone, it's like drinking a glass of cold water, and then it takes a long, long time to turn into tears drop by drop? In this horrible weather, there are very few people in the restaurant.I don't know how long it took before I suddenly remembered, how could he drive up in such a snowy day?I frantically called him, but he never answered.I ran out of the restaurant when I called ten times and no one answered.It was snowing all over the sky, and a taxi was gone, so I had no choice but to walk straight down the mountain road. Countless bad thoughts appeared in my mind, and my legs were weak from fright, and every step weighed like a thousand catties. After walking for a long time, I didn't see a car in front of me, but there was a car chasing me behind me. I don't know if I thought I was in the way, so I kept honking the horn.I stopped and looked back, only to be surprised to see it was his car.The car stopped, he got down, dragged me into the car, and said as he dragged: "As soon as I go, they say you are gone. You wayward girl, what are you trying to do!" "I didn't see you," I said. "I just arrived when you left, parking in the garage." "You don't answer the phone." I said. "I was in a hurry and forgot to bring it." "I'm afraid something will happen to you." I said. Fifty-five "Aren't you okay?" He put his arms around me, leaned down, and kissed my cold and trembling lips. God, just let me die just let me die. Just die crying and laughing like this. (8) On the day Song Tianming left, I didn't go to the airport.He sent me a text message, saying Xiaoduo, I know that you can't accept the change between us for a while, but I will give you time to think about it, I cherish our past, and hope you do the same. Then he stopped calling me and wrote letters instead.The letters are densely written, and every time I open my mailbox, I always see new unread emails.Some letters are long, some are short, and sometimes only a few words: Xiaoduo, I miss you. I cried for a long time every time I read one of those letters. In the end, I changed my mailbox. Let the past return to the past, and the future return to the future. The sincere vows in the young years can only be silent in the depths of the empty network.die quietly. Even if I have a change of heart. But for Zhou Guoan, I really can't resist.I never thought that I would fall in love with such a man, but once I did, there was no way I could look back. Xiaoye and Ben decided to get married on May 1st. I accompanied Xiaoye to see their new house, which is a villa and needs to be renovated.Xiaoye's luggage for the Sahara has been fully prepared, exaggerating as if she is about to move, I couldn't help scolding her: "Is this your ideal of wandering?" She is shameless: "Women will degenerate when they have a family. Any ideal is a fart." After she laughed loudly, she continued to speak nonsense, "Now, my ideal in life is to have three children. In the future, I will see them go around This yard runs." I said that you will become a yellow-faced woman if you give birth to so many, be careful that Ben doesn't want you. "He dares!" Xiao Ye said confidently, "Where can he find a daughter-in-law like me who is as beautiful as a flower and capable of writing and martial arts? Besides, I still have a lot of dowry." Cute little Ye, her way of seeing things is always so simple and practical, so she is happy.I thought of my misgivings about Ben and laughed at myself for being neurotic. Xiaoye asked me: "How are you and Zhou Guoan doing?" "I don't know." I said. "He's been very busy recently, and we don't have many opportunities to meet." "That's true." Xiao Ye was unexpectedly reasonable. "I heard that his company has some problems recently..." The company has a problem?I don't know anything.Zhou Guoan never mentioned his work to me. However, I also feel that when Xiaoye said this, Zhou Guoan went to the company more frequently than before. Sometimes he stayed in the office for a long time. I get worried. "Hey, why are you thinking so much?" Xiaoye saw my thoughts and punched me vigorously, "It's serious to ask him to get a formal divorce and marry you as soon as possible!" My cheeks flushed with embarrassment, and I rushed forward to fight her. We laughed and made a fuss, enjoying the carefree time that was becoming rarer and rarer. Of course I will not force Zhou Guoan to marry me. We just go on a date in a place with few people. Sometimes he is a person who knows how to enjoy the tranquility when sitting down with a cup of coffee and a little red wine.It will not give me any pressure, but also give me enough freedom. But he hired a professional designer to make clothes for me.I have never enjoyed this kind of treatment. I was measured up, down, left, and right by others, and I didn't know where to put my hands and feet.The designer said to me: "Miss Chen, you are very lucky, there will be countless women envious of you." Five days later, the clothes were delivered to my house, seven sets in total.That designer is really talented, I took them apart one by one, and each piece has a kind of unassuming but compelling beauty. I stared blankly, I was not even willing to try on jeans because I am used to wearing jeans. He called and asked me, "Do you like it or not?" "It's too extravagant." I said, "Chen Duo fell into a fairy tale and is roaming the fairyland." "Your rose brooch is ready for use," he reminded me. I'm speechless. He asked again: "What's wrong? What are you thinking?" "I was thinking maybe I should quit," I said honestly. "Okay," he said, "I'm trying to arrange a new job with you." "What job?" "Be Zhou Guoan's wife." fifty six "Is this a marriage proposal?" I laughed. "tell him. I laughed: "Aren't you afraid of committing bigamy?" He fell silent for a moment. "Xiaoduo," he finally said, "trust me, I will handle this well." "Are you... sure?" I asked without confidence.Thinking of Ning Zi's mother's expression, I really feel that it is really difficult for a man to give up on her. "Don't worry," he said. "This matter has been dragged on for so long because of some shares. For you, I will satisfy her." I feel at ease. But I'm not used to him inviting me to his house more and more frequently, euphemistically saying "let Ningzi adapt to life with me". "Don't you also like Ning Zi very much?" he said, "The three of us will be very happy together." But I am not happy. After the last attempt to run away, Ning Zi seemed to have become a good girl. Every time I went to see her, she would lie down at the desk and do her homework honestly. Zhou Guoan said that her grades had reached the middle level in the class, and she smiled when she said it , it seems that Ningzi is a girl genius - when a man loves a child, it is really hopeless. But I can clearly feel that Ningzi treats me differently than before.One day at dinner, Zhou Guoan was called away by an urgent business call. After he left, Ning Zi looked at me without saying a word, seeing that I was uncomfortable. "Ms. Chen," she said, "I really didn't expect that." It turned out that it was useless to hide.Smart Ningzi, she knows everything. Ning Zi said: "Did you plan it from the beginning? Do you think he is very rich? Let me tell you, my mother paid most of the money for investing in the company at the beginning. After the divorce, he will come from the city. disappeared from the rich list." I can't speak. She looked at me: "What are you going to do to leave him?" "I won't leave." I said, "Sooner or later, Ning Zi, you must understand that the world of adults cannot always follow your wishes. Everyone has the right to happiness. Even if you don't understand, you can only accept it." "Really?" Ning Zi said.At that moment, she didn't look like a fifteen-year-old girl, "Then I have the right at least, please get out of my house now." Instead of arguing with her, I obediently went out and hailed a taxi downstairs.The night in early spring was still bone-chillingly cold. I rolled down the car window vigorously, but my heart still felt like a heavy stone was pressing on it, and I couldn't breathe. Sure enough, the car was halfway through when Zhou Guoan's call came after him: "Xiaoduo, what did you say to Ningzi?" "I... didn't say anything..." Hearing the anxiety in his voice, I was a little incoherent. "Come back!" He ordered me, with a domineering tone, "Ningzi has an accident!" When I arrived, Ning Zi was standing on the top of a tall building, her hair was blown by the strong wind, and her whole body was crumbling like a star. "Xiaoduo, you are here!" Zhou Guoan held my hand, a big man, helpless like a child. I dragged him to the top of the building, and only halfway through the rush, Ning Zi had already climbed up the railing, with half of his body stuck in the air, as if he was about to break. "Don't come over here!" she shouted, hoarsely, "If you come over again, I will let go!" "Ningzi!" I just called out, and she really let go of one hand, and her tiny body seemed to be flying. I was too scared to speak anymore. "Ningzi," Zhou Guoan said in a panic, "If you have any demands, tell Dad, Dad will listen to you, come down quickly, hurry up!" "Anything?" Ning Zi asked. "Anything." Zhou Guoan replied firmly.He kept holding my hand, but when his answer came out, I felt a panic for no reason. "Then you should never divorce your mother!" Ning Zi shouted.Her eyes were shining brightly in the dark, shining with unreasonable love and hate. I looked at her, this elf-like child, I was not her match, and I was disheartened. Zhou Guoan let go of my hand.I looked at him praying, his eyes were full of helplessness, but he shouted loudly into the dark sky: "Okay, Dad promises you!" fifty seven I don't know how I left Zhou's house that day, but I only remember that the last scene was Ning Zi coming down from the roof, wearing Zhou Guoan's coat. The father and daughter helped each other down the stairs without saying a word to me.I waited blankly at the corner of the dark staircase, and when Ningzi was settled, would Zhou Guoan turn around to comfort me, or at least offer to take me home? He didn't come. In the boundless darkness, I finally admitted in despair that I was always an outsider in the world of the father and daughter. I took a taxi home by myself, shaking in the car. The driver gave me a sympathetic look, turned on the radio, and the twittering host of the traffic station was broadcasting the news in a fluctuating tone: "Five car accidents happened in succession in the urban area, the most serious one was a lady who was drunk at five o'clock in the morning. Driving, because the speed was too fast, when I got off the Second Ring Flyover, I hit the overtaking lane barrier..." "Don't die." The driver shook his head and changed the channel, this time it was changed to Wenyi Channel, and a male voice was singing hoarsely: "How can I get on your love Normandy..." The driver said excitedly: "This song is beautiful!" Overnight, my love Normandy has completely fallen. At this moment, the phone rang, and I picked it up. It was a male voice that I thought was a little strange, asking me if I was Chen Duo. I made up my mind and said, "Yes." "I'm Ben, can I come to the hospital? Xiaoye needs you now." "Xiaoye?" I said, "What's wrong?" "Let's talk when we come, please hurry up." Ben hung up the phone after finishing speaking. My heart was beating wildly, I checked the caller ID and called again, but he refused to answer no matter what.Twenty minutes later, I got out of the taxi and made my way to the door of the emergency room.I quickly saw Ben, he looked haggard and flustered, his usual gentlemanly demeanor was completely gone, I grabbed him and said, "Tell me quickly, what's wrong with Xiaoye?" "She was driving and had an accident..." The news from the traffic station flashed through my mind like lightning, and I screamed: "Xiaoye, she can't drive at all!" "I taught her a few times." Ben said: "I didn't expect that she would take my keys and drive the car away. When the car was getting off the second ring overpass, it hit the barrier of the overtaking lane and jumped on the green belt. Go out ten meters!" "How is she?" I asked tremblingly. "I don't know," Ben pointed to the inside of the emergency room, and said with a trembling voice, "I don't know." I could hardly stand still.A sentence was squeezed out between teeth: "Why did she drive away your car?" Ben's face was as pale as a piece of paper. He obviously didn't know how to answer my question, and leaned against the white wall outside the hospital. Oh my God. Xiao Ye, who I love and love, you must be fine. Time passed by every minute, even if you were so anxious that there was no movement in the emergency room, I forced to rush: "You tell me the truth, what's going on?" "She caught me dating another woman," Ben said. God. "There is no way." Ben said something that made me despair, "If you meet someone you like, there is no way to escape. I always wanted to hide, and I didn't want to hurt Xiaoye, and I We're getting married, and we're going on a trip to the desert next week, but it's so short that we still haven't made it..." I feel like falling into an ice cellar. Of course I know who he is talking about, we haven't cultivated as fine as her.Therefore, it is inevitable for Xiaoye to lose to her. After an unknown amount of time, the nurse finally came out, and she asked us, "Who are Ye Xiaoye's relatives?" I rushed up with Ben, and she announced in a cold voice: "Fortunately, my life was saved. Four fractures, need to rest for a long time." Ben fell to the ground on the spot. I don't know how long it took before Xiaoye was finally sent to the ward, and the nurse came out and said, "Who is Xiaoduo, the patient wants to see her." She also said specifically, "She said that she would see no one except Xiaoduo. fifty eight 我进去了，小烨闭着眼睛，还好，她美丽的面孔依然那么美丽，只是有些苍白，我伸出手去抚摸她，有晶莹的东西从她的眼角滑落，我替她擦去，她把手伸上来握住了我的，轻声说：“小朵，我好疼。” “亲爱的，忍一忍。忍一忍就过去了。”我的眼泪拼命地往下掉。 她又说：“小朵，他抛弃我，他为一个老女人抛弃我。” 我拍拍她：“别说了，等好了再报仇也不迟。” 她低声说：“我真没脸见你。” 说完，她又昏了过去。 我放声尖叫，叫得护士和Ben一起奔了进来，护士很生气地把我们往外一推说：“叫什么叫，只是药物反应，都出去都出去，病人需要休息。” 我已近虚脱。 周国安差人送花来，一大束一大束的香水百合，装点得病房好像结婚礼堂。可是他人不再来，不管是心中有愧还是，他已经决意淡出我的世界。 我捏着小烨的手说：“亲爱的，失败的不是你一人，你看，还有我陪你呢，对不对？” 小烨不说话。 很多天了，她一直不说一句话。 医生说，她失语了。 我叽叽喳喳的小烨，她失语了。 Ben负担医院所有的费用，请了两个人轮流侍候小烨，人却一直不再来。我找不到他人只好去找宁子的妈妈，希望她可以成全小烨。 “对不起小朵。”她给我让我绝望的答案：“这个世界什么都可以转让，唯独爱情不可以。” “你很爱Ben吗？”我问她。 “现在，是爱的。”她说。 “你会嫁给他？” 她露出诧异的神色。“当然不会！”她说，“你到了我这个年纪就会明白，婚姻不过是一种最无益的形式，跟幸福没有丝毫关联。握住现在的快乐才是真谛。” 她别有深意地看着我，轻轻一笑，真是百媚横生。我知道我的幸福，小烨的幸福，都被这个女人轻轻握在掌心，她只需眉头轻颦，我们就万劫不复。 可是奇怪的，我心里对她，一点恨也没有。 (9) 好几个晚上，我失眠。终于重新打开老邮箱察看宋天明的信件。没有得到回复的他一直一直地还在写，最后的一封署名是昨天。 “亲爱的小朵，”我好像听见宋天明温柔的声音，“很久没有你的消息。可是我一直想念你。我想念你在阳光下肆无忌惮的笑，想念你对我发的脾气。你最近好吗？有没有又瘦了？很奇怪，每次想到你，我总觉得你离我很近很近，近到伸手就可以触摸到你的呼吸。 小朵，最近我在找工作。经济不是很景气，机会不多。面试经常在别的城市，我没钱坐飞机，就只能乘坐晚间的灰狗大巴，穿越这个广阔而陌生的美国。有时候半夜醒来看着头顶的小灯，会有片刻的恍惚，害怕这旅程永远没有终点。每到这时候我就想你，只要想到你，就觉得很安心，因为我知道不管旅途有多长，小朵，你是我的最后一站。只是，你真的别让我等太久，我怕我会坚持不住。 " 短短的一封信，让我痛得无法呼吸。 原来我们都回不去了。回不去了。 我泪流满面地拨打小烨的手机，只响了一声她就接起。“亲爱的小烨，”我连珠炮似地说，“你说这个世界怎么是这个样子呢，我们一直在很善良地生活从来没有想过伤害别人，我们唯一的错误就是在心底深处把爱情当作信仰，可是事情为什么会像今天这样，为什么一定要告诉我们，我们信任的全都是错，我们追求的都是捕风，你说啊，我要听你告诉我！” 小烨沉默。我不知道她心里是否也有一样的追问，但她现在唯一能做的，就是沉默。 我楞了半晌。 “小烨，亲爱的，对不起，我想要离开。你还记得你自己的梦想吗，我想，我也要鼓起勇气试一试，代你实现你的流浪。我忽然无比向往那种在广阔天地里放逐自己的感觉，高远而纯净，我想，那或许可以代替我们心里一直想要的爱情，我们一直在追求，但总是与我们背道而驰的爱情。” 小烨在电话的那一边静静无声，可我知道，她全都听得懂。 我去不了美国，去乡下总行吧。我找遍了中国地图，决定去安徽的一个小城，我曾经旅游去过那里，我想去暂时居住一阵子，在这个世界上消失，以后怎么做，再说吧。 fifty-nine 我去环亚辞职，所有的人都同情地看着我，看来我已经不可避免地成为绯闻女主角。 公关部经理为我惋惜：“小朵，你现在辞职对我们是损失，现在是非常时期，公司很需要人才。” 非常时期？我诧异地看着他，他有些尴尬地清了清嗓子，大概在酝酿别的告别词。 周国安就在这时候把我叫到他的办公室。 “听说你要去美国。”他说。 “没错。”我简单地回答。事到如今一切的表白和解释都是多余。 他表情复杂地看着我，却什么也没说。 最后他递给我一只信封。“你的遣散费。”他说，似乎欲言又止。 我漫不经心地接过，随手塞进包里。这不重要。 从环亚楼下我直接打车回家，经过电视台，外面的大型喷绘广告还是“环亚——激情动漫之夜”的宣传海报，我看见自己戴着面具的脸，感慨万千。 “小姐是不是想停一下？”司机善解人意地说，“停留时间照常打表就可以，我没意见。” “走吧。”我说，“我还有事。” “好的好的，”司机似乎也对那招贴恋恋不舍，“你说那么大的一家公司，说倒就倒了，哎呀，所以说房地产就是高风险，还是开开出租好啊，钱不能和人家比可咱心里踏实，你说是不是？” “你说哪家公司？”我激动起来，想起“遣散费”，老天！ “环亚啊。”司机诧异，“小姐你是不是我们这里的人啊，环亚的事你不晓得？我小姑子也在那里工作，被裁啦……” “回去。”我说。“马上掉头，回去！” “什么？”司机发急，“掉头？你开什么玩笑啊小姐，你不知道这一路是单行线？” “回去！”我歇斯底里地大喊。 那天路真的很堵。司机带着我穿了好几条偏僻小巷才顺利掉头，我回到环亚楼下的时候，已经是下午六点。天色已经昏黄，大楼里显得萧条异常，我在一楼的咖啡馆坐下，这里是我和周国安曾经面对面的地方，那时的我青春气盛，桀骜不驯，而他，就像一个永远好脾气的恋人，容忍着我，保护着我。 只是，我那时不知道。 我掏出装着“遣散费”的信封，里面装着一张二十万的存单。存单上是我的名字。 一张字条，是周国安的口气。 “小朵，我是个老头子啦，只会做这个。祝你幸福。” 我把信封紧紧捏在手里，头伏在桌面上。 哦我实在太累。让我，好好地休息一会。 可是我很快开始做梦。梦里人声纷乱，有声音在一直不停地说：“对不起……” 我醒来，在我身边的是宁子。 “陈老师你醒了！”她说。 我努力向她微笑了一下，拿起我的行李准备离开。 “陈老师！”宁子扯住我的胳膊。我不知道她想要干什么，她垂着头，扭捏了半天，低低地说出一句：“陈老师，对不起。” 我终于等来她这一句。 “陈老师，我爸和我妈离婚了，”宁子小小的脸显得很黯淡，但是平静，“是我妈妈提出来的。” “我为你难过。”我真心地说。 “我恨我妈妈。”宁子低声说，“为了抢救下她的财产，她在我们最需要她的时候离开。” “宁子，”我扶住她肩膀，“你一定要接受，每个人都是软弱和自私的，包括妈妈。但是你不能否认她对你的爱，我想你心里比谁都明白。” “陈老师，”宁子又说，“其实我一直知道你对我好。你是这个世界上最善良的人。是我太任性，爸爸跟我谈很久……” “什么也别说啦，宁子。”我疲倦地松开她，“陈老师从来没有怪过你。但是以后你要记住，无论什么时候都要坚强，别再做傻事，听见了吗？” “陈老师，你还愿不愿意嫁给我爸爸？”宁子忽然看着门口大声喊。 我转身，天啦，门口站着周国安。 他向我张开手臂。 我埋下头。他走近了，一直走到我身边，我一直不敢抬头，他当着宁子的面低声问我：“你回来做什么？” sixty 我把支票拿起来，挡住我的眼睛说：“这点太少了，打发不了我。” 他好脾气地问：“那你要多少？” 宁子插嘴说：“我爸人都给你，行么？要是不够，再加上一个我。” 我脸红。 宁子和他哈哈笑。 那天的最后，是周国安开车，我和宁子坐在后座，像吵架又和好的一家人。 “公司怎么回事？”我问他。 “投资失误。” “难道就没有重来的机会？” “有。”他说。“可是，我不想了。拼了这么多年，我实在觉得累，早就想把公司交给别人，又觉得不放心，舍不得。现在，正是机会，可以好好陪陪宁子，”他微笑，“还有你。” 我和周国安登记结婚的时候宁子一定要跟过去，那天是星期天，我们先开车顺道去接了小烨，想顺带她出来散散心。 小烨已经看不出任何病状，一路上她始终好脾气地微笑，亲热地挽着我的胳膊。 我知道她也为我高兴，只是她一直沉默。 星期天登记处的人特别多，每个人脸上都喜气洋洋。最高兴的人是宁子，她手里捧着几盒红色包装的阿尔卑斯奶糖，看谁顺眼了就发给几颗。 她穿着普通的校服蓝裙子，但她比以前快乐。 我们终于登记完出来回到车上，宁子心满意足地清点着自己的劳动，“三盒奶糖都送完啦！”她评价，“今天真是百分之百甜蜜的一天呦！” 这时有人说：“给我一颗。” 不是我，也不是周国安，宁子手里抱着奶糖盒，是她最先反应过来欢呼：“呀，小烨姐姐说话了！” 车祸五个月后，被医生诊断为“失语症且很难恢复”的小烨终于开口说话，我惊喜万分地拥抱她，再拥抱周国安，宁子添乱地和我们抱成一团，我顺势拍着她又哭又笑，场面真是壮观。 “好啦。”小烨皱着眉说，“陈阿朵，你像个疯子。” 亲爱的小烨，只要你肯说话，我真宁愿我自己是疯子。 “为什么哭呢？”她伸手擦我的眼泪，“结局好，一切好，咱们这二十多年，总算是没有白混。” 她并没有跟我提起Ben.很多天以后，她也没有跟我提起。 爱情就是这样，有些人慢慢遗落在岁月的风尘里，哭过，笑过，吵过，闹过，再恋恋不舍也都只是曾经。偶尔想起，心还会痛，却也夹杂了说不出的甜蜜，像一首曾经深爱过的情歌，歌词早已模糊，动人的旋律却一直强留在心里，挥之不去。 我陪小烨去上课，她忽然想学服装设计，我也跟着听听。我去了一家新的公司应聘公关部经理，因为在环亚的经验，很容易就被别人相中。新工作很忙，不过我比较开心。周国安在休假，宁子在准备考试，各人都在忙各人的事。 宁子会长大，会有男生喜欢她并给她买冰棒吃。小烨设计的第一件衣服还算不错，她终究会寻找到她的幸福，宋天明也会再找到愿意陪他游泳的女孩子。 我们都还有明天，如此想来，还算不错。