Chapter 20 "Light of the Earth" is very busy at work

very busy at work (1) 7 Both Jian Sheng and Xin He are very busy at work.They are all young artists, teaching at the Academy of Fine Arts or doing creation and design in photography studios.Xinhe often has something to do at night and comes back very late. And Jian Sheng looked at Kasang, and he felt unnamed worries in his heart.Worried that she would feel lonely and unloved, similar to how she felt when she was a child.Jian Sheng tried hard to be a competent father.When you get home, you have to get close to her, and every night you have to care about Kassan's joys, sorrows and joys at school, communicate and have a dialogue.Take time out with Xinhe on weekends to take her out for an outing.Worried that she would struggle in her studies, she arranged for that tutor to teach Chinese and help her finish her homework every night.

After all, she has been out of school for many years, and it is probably unrealistic to try to get a good grade.They don't ask for anything, they only hope that she can be happy and carefree at school with children of the same age. is very comforting.Treat each other well, live in harmony and happiness, and a virtuous circle begins.Jian Sheng has always been afraid of repeating the same mistakes in the past.And now I am reassured by the result.Children are very sensible.He studies very hard, takes care of himself at home, and doesn't even bother with the babysitter. Her life in the minority primary school was very peaceful.In the graduation examination, all the grades reached 70 points.From the level of an illiterate who can't speak Chinese, it is really very proud to be able to achieve this achievement in a short period of time.Xin He and Jian Sheng were also extremely happy.

In the summer of her graduation, both Jian Sheng and Xin He were busy with their careers, staying in their own studio or photography room, working long hours and intensively.Kassan was sensible, and together with the nanny, he went to deliver meals to them at noon.Xin He was so moved when he saw the child bringing him a meal on a hot day.She told her distressedly that there is no need to deliver food, I can order takeaway by myself, and there are also working meals here, just take care of yourself.Forgive mom and dad for being so busy, your vacation is here, but we don't have time to accompany you.

That night, both Jian Sheng and Kassan came home early, and the family had dinner together.Several pots of jasmine flowers planted on the balcony bloomed quietly. Kasang picked their flowers, put them in a white porcelain plate, and placed them on the dining table to fill the room with fragrance. Jian Sheng was shocked.The memory came back quickly, years ago, this used to be his boyhood habit.Pick the fragrant flowers and put them beside Huai's pillow, making her wake up in the fragrance.Things are different, people are different, and in the blink of an eye, I have reached my thirties.How fast time is.

He reached out and stroked Kassan's head lovingly. At night, Xin He didn't fall asleep.She kissed Jian Sheng beside her, waking him up from his sleep.She lay beside Jian Sheng, touching his handsome face in the dark with both hands.Jane, Jane.She called him softly. What's up?he answered. Do we keep going like this. What do you mean. I mean, don't we want our own kids? He is silent.In the end, he said, is there anything wrong with such a life? Xin He said that there was nothing wrong with it.Only, we should probably have a kid of our own. Jian Sheng answered her, Xin He, we are both thirty years old.Having another child, plus Kassan, probably knows more than enough but not enough.We are so busy, how can we have time to take care of our children?Kassan is so sensible and gets along with us like a family, don't you think everything is fine.Why interrupt it.

very busy at work (2) Xin He said nothing.After a long time, she quietly asked him, Jian Sheng, we have been together for seven or eight years.I once said that I often face you and feel that you are far away from me.I always knew it was your past world.I knew there was no way I could go in.But since this is the case, I have always hoped to take you out and get a happier life. Tell me, has my wish come true.With me, do you really feel happy?Like when you were with Huai? When he heard Huai's name being spoken from Xin He's mouth, he felt a sudden pain in his heart.They are both equally kind and beautiful women.He has indeed obtained infinite love and happiness from their arms.But he still knew that it was different.

He didn't know what to say to her about the difference.So he just took Xin He into his arms in the dark and kissed her forehead.Said softly, don't think about it.We will always live like this.I'm very happy.I love you too. He loves her dearly, and her kindness to him is a huge blessing.They cherish each other and have walked through the long years together.In those days when we were young, we lived together in college, graduated together, studied in St. Petersburg together, and returned to China together until we got married, went to Tibet, brought Kasang back, and raised her together.What a fixed and cherished relationship.

Time is so fast.He just felt like a child who was playing on the way home, yearning for the beautiful scenery and forgetting the time.Those beautiful scenery can never go back.He may have forgotten it, and he may still not.Only today, how many years have passed, when I saw a fragrant flower in a white porcelain dish, I couldn’t help but fall into the memory, and when I heard her name from another person in the middle of the night, I felt a dull pain in my heart, and when I touched those color blocks, they were already cracked Only when he remembered her coming, he could know with such certainty that the first beautiful scenery that appeared in his initial experience was so stubbornly and deeply engraved on his lifeline.How could he forget it.After all, this life begins that way.

He closes his eyes.In this way, he saw Huai's beautiful and simple face, appearing in the dream that he had been lingering since he was a boy. When he was young, he and Huai took an old and empty bus together, and slowly went deep into a certain lush and humid forest.Green vines sway by the window, dripping sweet dew.The sunlight turned green and shot into the dark compartment in columns.The icy sapphire-like wind slightly lifted the hair on Huai's temples. He just sat beside Huai, and said to her in the lush greenery, Huai, I miss you so much. Huai still stretched out his hand and stroked his head lightly, straightening out the wind-blown hair on his forehead.Huai said to him, don't you know that I have missed you all these years.

He smiled contentedly and gratefully beside Huai.However, when he turned his head again, Huai had already disappeared.Like a premeditated farewell, he was left sitting alone in the dark carriage, panicking. The forest is more dense, like a tropical rainforest, showing the severity of a tomb.Stepping over the delicate green branches and leaves, he kept walking forward.Suddenly, two particularly sturdy trees appeared in front of them, with a rusty iron gate in the middle.He pushed open the door, and the huge green-winged bird soared into the air, singing mournfully. A huge white tomb appeared in front of him hidden in the jungle.Moss creeps up the white headstones.He walked over and gently brushed the leaves and wild fruits that covered the headstone.is the mother's name.

Jian Sheng woke up with a start.This dream has been repeated for many years.Make him unable to forget.After he woke up, he saw Xin He still sleeping peacefully in his arms.Just like some nights back then, he slept next to Huai, kissed her fragrant neck deeply, and fell into a deep sleep in her arms.He only felt that the scar on his chest began to ache again.So he silently called her name softly in the darkness. Huai. They ended up having no more children.Even within the scope of sex, Jian Sheng has repeatedly shown almost paranoid restraint and indifference.Compared with most ordinary adult men, this is something close to abnormal.Xin He gradually felt hopeless, because she knew that she still could not lead him out of the original world.But because of her love for Jian Sheng, she could only choose to put all her sustenance and hope on Kassan.He really loves her as his and Jane's child.